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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: wikun on June 16, 2015, 02:46:00 PM
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Hello all. I am not usually a talker by nature so I will give this a whirl and see where this post end up. Smoked for 15 years, last few of them I was a pack a day. I deployed to Afghanistan in 2010 and cigarettes were not available at my FOB regularly. A bunch of the guys would get care packages from home with Logs upon Logs of dip. Well you can probably see where this is heading. Been dipping ever since. Smoking here and there, but have bought a pack in years. A few weeks ago I started worrying about my health. Still relatively good, more so future life outlook. Started doing my reading and said that this was going to be the last time!!!! I am done with this s*!@. I have tried before many times. All with no success, but I can't guarantee that my head was in the right place. This time needs to be different. It will be.
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You can make it brother. Post roll call daily and make that promise to be nic free every day. You got plenty of people to watch out for you. I know the pull of dip on deployments. Just remember nic ain't got nothing on you. Holler if you need a contact
Semper Fi
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The first few days are rough. Hang in there. Figure out how to post roll and get on that ASAP. We have a great group of quitters. Let me know if you need anything.
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Welcome to the samurias. Learn to post roll. A great group of guys and gals here.
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A few days ago (4 or 5), i decided that I was going to ween* off of dip. That first day I didn't have one dip. I had killed a can the night before, and didn't replace it on the drive home. Went all night and the next day without. (Rough day for sure). On the way home I bought a can. Had a dip on the way home. Woke up the next morning with a mouth full of sores. Dipped that day, all the way to this morning. I woke up (mouth still not healed) and said what am I doing. I got the sores, just get through them. Why allow them to pop up and continue dipping through them, just to reach your quit date and have them pop out again. So this morning. I pulled the trigger so to speak. I set it for today, and with help and support I am done. I am forgetting about the hundreds of times I said i was done, and making this one stick. To be honest though, never joined any groups any of the previous times. For those times it was just me, my brain (screaming for nic) and a wallet that had enough cash to indulge. Interesting to think that had I planned to just go cold turkey at the beginning, it might have been just a bit easier...lol story of my life. lol
'bang head'
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A few days ago (4 or 5), i decided that I was going to ween* off of dip. That first day I didn't have one dip. I had killed a can the night before, and didn't replace it on the drive home. Went all night and the next day without. (Rough day for sure). On the way home I bought a can. Had a dip on the way home. Woke up the next morning with a mouth full of sores. Dipped that day, all the way to this morning. I woke up (mouth still not healed) and said what am I doing. I got the sores, just get through them. Why allow them to pop up and continue dipping through them, just to reach your quit date and have them pop out again. So this morning. I pulled the trigger so to speak. I set it for today, and with help and support I am done. I am forgetting about the hundreds of times I said i was done, and making this one stick. To be honest though, never joined any groups any of the previous times. For those times it was just me, my brain (screaming for nic) and a wallet that had enough cash to indulge. Interesting to think that had I planned to just go cold turkey at the beginning, it might have been just a bit easier...lol story of my life. lol
'bang head'
I dipped for 30 years. Never really quit. Tried many times with no luck. Get a sore in my mouth. Move the dip to the other side. I worried ever fuckin day about cancer. But that nic bitch would never let me quit. Until I found KTC. I think God was with me that day when I goggle nicotine withdraw and KTC popped up. Good luck. You need anything at all we are here for you.
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Wikun. I'm glad you're here, and glad to see you posted roll. I will be honest with you. I've been reading intros here for two years and I have read post after post after post from nicotine addicts who are here because they are worried about their health. Although it's a fine reason to want to quit dipping, most of these people cave. Ultimately you'll run into a stretch where you'll feel pretty good about your health. (Your gums will look better, or a dentist or doctor will give you a clean bill of health). What happens then? That's when a lot of good people cave. Prove me wrong.
You will be fighting craves for a long time...I'm still fighting them but they are not as rough. You need to get your mind around the fact that you are an addict, and your will power is more powerful than your addiction. Take back your life Wikun! From now on don't listen to the addict you, whispering ridiculous things to you telling you to put a weed in your mouth. You got this.
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Agreed. Game on. I am and have been a tobacco addict for a long time. Since I was 12 I have only not used consistanly for 13 weeks....that was boot camp. User / addict since around 12~13 pack a day since 16 can or just a bit less for about 5years....Long history of usage in a very short lifetime...I am done. I am scared but I am done. I printed the contract and am keeping it with me at all times and saying that if I cave I will fill it out and post it on this forum. My wife said she would find it and post it on Facebook. Not something I want. I am in. I got through today. Let's get through tomorrow.
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So far, not so bad. I am keeping the KTC chat window on my left monitor. My brain keeps saying "this would be a perfect time to throw one in". So I am blasting back with my own imagery, the scrolling chat room. Drinking lots of water, need to get my ass in the gym for sure.
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Yesterday was the absolute worst day yet. I was wrecked with head aches all day. I had advil in the car, but decided to roll with it. Good training I say. Got to be able to deal with the bad; all the bad without turning to the drug. As soon as I started heading home though, I popped three advils. Totally on edge all day. Toady is saturday and hopefully I can decompress. Not sure if anyone can prove input on developing a weekend plan?
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Yesterday was the absolute worst day yet. I was wrecked with head aches all day. I had advil in the car, but decided to roll with it. Good training I say. Got to be able to deal with the bad; all the bad without turning to the drug. As soon as I started heading home though, I popped three advils. Totally on edge all day. Toady is saturday and hopefully I can decompress. Not sure if anyone can prove input on developing a weekend plan?
Hi Wikun - congratulations on quitting! The first three days sucked big time, but I'm on day 5 and already feeling a little better. Get some exercise and drink lot's of water. And read, read, READ. I've probably spent a full 24 hours over the last 5 days reading KTC - intros, HOF speeches, rolls, etc. I find it to be really therapeutic and it's fantastic reading about people who've dealt with (and beaten) the same thing I've been going through.
So, my advise to you would be to get some exercise, spend time in KTC, and do whatever it takes to stay busy nic free.
I quit with you today - and I'll see you on roll tomorrow!
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Congratulations on the hard work so far wikun. The great new is the physical addiction is over with. It's mind tricks and cravings now, which, if you've got the will power, the support, and the fortitude, you can get over.
Think about today. You posted roll, which means you will not use for 24 hours. That's all you have to do.
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Wiki, Congrats on your day 100!
Stay consistent and connected! It will only mean success for you and your life.
I quit with you today!
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Wiki, Congrats on your day 100!
Stay consistent and connected! It will only mean success for you and your life.
I quit with you today!
Well done, Wikun!
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Welcome to the Hall!!