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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: janlafata on April 27, 2010, 03:29:00 AM
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I am a 54 year old male from Yuma, AZ. I've been using snuff on and off (either Skoal or Copenhagen) since I was about 17. I had some years, like when I was in the Army that I did not use it at all, but usually I would always start up again.
About six months ago I decided to quit and I did so in conjunction with also stopping my medication for Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. My thought at the time was "I want to go all natural". Well I lasted 3 months and I really thought I had reached a point where I could say that I no longer craved the nicotine.
After that, I'm not sure what happened. There were probably some drinking binges that brought it back again, I'm not sure, and I actually have since gone back on meds because I had no choice...I just was not doing very well in the head department.
So I'm feeling better now, and my thinking is, however the dip got back in the mix doesn't matter. All that does is that I stop, but I'm still not totally sure I want to. It's funny but I read about picking a day to quit, but the last few weeks that has not even entered my mind. In fact, over the weekend for example, I chewed practically every hour of the day.
But it has affected my sleep, my stomach, my heart rate etc, and at least I'm smart enough to know that's never good. I did think about quitting a few weeks ago and my plan at the time was to quit gradually and get to the point where the time between dipping got larger. As you might expect that has not happened.
When I was thinking about this plan, I tried throwing away almost all full cans, but then I'd just end up going up to Circle K and getting another one when my craving came up again. So I'm kinda stuck in the middle. If I am indeed setting a date of quitting as right now or tomorrow, I will have to have to throw away the can to make it work, otherwise it's just too tempting to have around but I'm worried that I will just go out and buy another one.
It would great if I could "buddy up" with someone so we could support each other. Does anyone do that here? Thanks for listening!
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I am a 54 year old male from Yuma, AZ. I've been using snuff on and off (either Skoal or Copenhagen) since I was about 17. I had some years, like when I was in the Army that I did not use it at all, but usually I would always start up again.
About six months ago I decided to quit and I did so in conjunction with also stopping my medication for Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. My thought at the time was "I want to go all natural". Well I lasted 3 months and I really thought I had reached a point where I could say that I no longer craved the nicotine.
After that, I'm not sure what happened. There were probably some drinking binges that brought it back again, I'm not sure, and I actually have since gone back on meds because I had no choice...I just was not doing very well in the head department.
So I'm feeling better now, and my thinking is, however the dip got back in the mix doesn't matter. All that does is that I stop, but I'm still not totally sure I want to. It's funny but I read about picking a day to quit, but the last few weeks that has not even entered my mind. In fact, over the weekend for example, I chewed practically every hour of the day.
But it has affected my sleep, my stomach, my heart rate etc, and at least I'm smart enough to know that's never good. I did think about quitting a few weeks ago and my plan at the time was to quit gradually and get to the point where the time between dipping got larger. As you might expect that has not happened.
When I was thinking about this plan, I tried throwing away almost all full cans, but then I'd just end up going up to Circle K and getting another one when my craving came up again. So I'm kinda stuck in the middle. If I am indeed setting a date of quitting as right now or tomorrow, I will have to have to throw away the can to make it work, otherwise it's just too tempting to have around but I'm worried that I will just go out and buy another one.
It would great if I could "buddy up" with someone so we could support each other. Does anyone do that here? Thanks for listening!
I'm here with ya bud. It's time for us both to quit for good. I'm killing it soon. It's time. Message me, and let's come up with a plan. We'll be in the August class.
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I am a 54 year old male from Yuma, AZ. I've been using snuff on and off (either Skoal or Copenhagen) since I was about 17. I had some years, like when I was in the Army that I did not use it at all, but usually I would always start up again.
About six months ago I decided to quit and I did so in conjunction with also stopping my medication for Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. My thought at the time was "I want to go all natural". Well I lasted 3 months and I really thought I had reached a point where I could say that I no longer craved the nicotine.
After that, I'm not sure what happened. There were probably some drinking binges that brought it back again, I'm not sure, and I actually have since gone back on meds because I had no choice...I just was not doing very well in the head department.
So I'm feeling better now, and my thinking is, however the dip got back in the mix doesn't matter. All that does is that I stop, but I'm still not totally sure I want to. It's funny but I read about picking a day to quit, but the last few weeks that has not even entered my mind. In fact, over the weekend for example, I chewed practically every hour of the day.
But it has affected my sleep, my stomach, my heart rate etc, and at least I'm smart enough to know that's never good. I did think about quitting a few weeks ago and my plan at the time was to quit gradually and get to the point where the time between dipping got larger. As you might expect that has not happened.
When I was thinking about this plan, I tried throwing away almost all full cans, but then I'd just end up going up to Circle K and getting another one when my craving came up again. So I'm kinda stuck in the middle. If I am indeed setting a date of quitting as right now or tomorrow, I will have to have to throw away the can to make it work, otherwise it's just too tempting to have around but I'm worried that I will just go out and buy another one.
It would great if I could "buddy up" with someone so we could support each other. Does anyone do that here? Thanks for listening!
I'm here with ya bud. It's time for us both to quit for good. I'm killing it soon. It's time. Message me, and let's come up with a plan. We'll be in the August class.
Something you said about "not totally sure that you want to" quit dipping made me think of pkpijat;kj. You can send him a personal message by clicking here. (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showuser=8666) He had a similar frame of mind coming in and caught some flack for it, but now he's as badass as they come. He may lend some insight.
OCD...shit. Welcome to the fucking club. You've come to the right place.