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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: FIGHTIN-IGNORANCE on June 28, 2013, 10:25:00 AM
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Hello Fellow Quitters,
My name is Matt but I will go by Fightin-Ignorance in the forums. I am 34 with two boys (4 and 3 yrs old). My wife is absolutely the “bomb!”
I am a Juvenile Probation officer and in my Practicum/Internship in Clinical Mental Health Counseling for my Master’s degree. I was looking on line for support/info and found this site. I must say I am impressed by the setup and interaction. I am looking forward to be a part of this. It is easy to help others and tell them the objective truth but, being honest with “me” is a whole different challenge.
I had my first dip around the age of 12 as I wanted to be a part of something. I watched my older role models do this and wanted to be like them. I played baseball and football all my life, including college. I stopped dipping when I was 28 for about 3 yrs and then picked it back up like a dumbass. Some of you know the typical bullshit lies we tell ourselves to minimize, justify, and rationalize stupidity. Anyway, I have been chewing again for the past 3 years. Dip has been my “go to” for everything. I would chew constantly except when eating and sleeping. However, I have been known to even fall asleep with a Hog in my lip. I am tired of it controlling my life.
Anyway, I am excited about “Kickin the Can” once and for all. I love the honest and straight forward approach in the forums. There is not any room for the Political Correct games. Just give it straight and to the point. Ignorance maybe “bliss” to some people but it is also where many things dysfunctional in life start. That is why I am FIGHTIN-IGNORANCE. My ignorance is where this tin bitch came from and why she is still her. Now get the hell out!
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Welcome, FI and congrats on a great choice. Click on the Welcome Center link above and read everything you can. Learn how to post roll and what it means. If you need help, just ask.
Also, I highly recommend reading the "Tom and Jenny Kern Story." Click on the KilltheCan.org link above to find it.
Stay strong, stay quit!
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Welcome, FI and congrats on a great choice. Click on the Welcome Center link above and read everything you can. Learn how to post roll and what it means. If you need help, just ask.
Also, I highly recommend reading the "Tom and Jenny Kern Story." Click on the KilltheCan.org link above to find it.
Stay strong, stay quit!
Yes, welcome.
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Hang in there, it will start getting better before you know it.....
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Ooooh! Got the wired head fog kickin in today. DUH, which way di he go George, which way did he go? :wacko:
LOL 'zombie'
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Ooooh! Got the wired head fog kickin in today. DUH, which way di he go George, which way did he go? :wacko:
LOL 'zombie'
The fog will come and go. I had it pretty bad for 10-14 days then it cam back about day 25 for a few days.
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Ooooh! Got the wired head fog kickin in today. DUH, which way di he go George, which way did he go? :wacko:
LOL 'zombie'
We've all done it so we know what your going thru. This is worth it bro. Post roll and do it every day. Roll is your promise to all of us quitters you will not use nicotine in any form for the entire day. Quitting is simple, notice no one says easy, but it is as simple as making the decision. This site helps with the ease part. KTC doesn't eliminate the pain but it does make the process easier. Go post roll!!!!
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Ooooh! Got the wired head fog kickin in today. DUH, which way di he go George, which way did he go? :wacko:
LOL 'zombie'
The fog sucks but it is very necessary.
I remember the fog for me was just like i had gotten done running a mile and had that IhavenoenergyheadachedontpissmeofforIwillbeatyourass thing goingon for like 10 days!
You will get thru this but it is the weekend so no drinking tonight and stay close to KTC when you get the craves or have to rage get here and lean on your quit brothers, your were a user before now you are a quiter!
Stay Strong , Focused Quit!
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Ooooh! Got the wired head fog kickin in today. DUH, which way di he go George, which way did he go? :wacko:Â
LOL 'zombie'
The fog sucks but it is very necessary.
I remember the fog for me was just like i had gotten done running a mile and had that IhavenoenergyheadachedontpissmeofforIwillbeatyourass thing goingon for like 10 days!
You will get thru this but it is the weekend so no drinking tonight and stay close to KTC when you get the craves or have to rage get here and lean on your quit brothers, your were a user before now you are a quiter!
Stay Strong , Focused Quit!
Matt,
Pure and simple things to do to maintain the Quit -
1. Own your Quit every day!
2. Honor your word every day!
3. And, post pictures of your wife so we can validate how truthful your intro was!
You can do this!!!!!
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Ooooh! Got the wired head fog kickin in today. DUH, which way di he go George, which way did he go? :wacko:Â
LOL 'zombie'
The fog sucks but it is very necessary.
I remember the fog for me was just like i had gotten done running a mile and had that IhavenoenergyheadachedontpissmeofforIwillbeatyourass thing goingon for like 10 days!
You will get thru this but it is the weekend so no drinking tonight and stay close to KTC when you get the craves or have to rage get here and lean on your quit brothers, your were a user before now you are a quiter!
Stay Strong , Focused Quit!
Matt,
Pure and simple things to do to maintain the Quit -
1. Own your Quit every day!
2. Honor your word every day!
3. And, post pictures of your wife so we can validate how truthful your intro was!
You can do this!!!!!
I haven't seen anyone mention it yet so I'll throw it out there... Drink lots of water and/or cranberry juice. When you feel like you can't take another sip have another glass. It helps keep your brain hydrated, reducing the headaches and makes you pee so much you forget about dip... well maybe not totally forget but all that poison needs to be flushed.
Grab some Trident, sunflower seeds, jerky or fake chew to help get past the oral fixation.
Keep making and keeping that promise every morning.
It's a tried and true recipe for freedom 'drool'
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Ooooh! Got the wired head fog kickin in today. DUH, which way di he go George, which way did he go? :wacko:Â
LOL 'zombie'
The fog sucks but it is very necessary.
I remember the fog for me was just like i had gotten done running a mile and had that IhavenoenergyheadachedontpissmeofforIwillbeatyourass thing goingon for like 10 days!
You will get thru this but it is the weekend so no drinking tonight and stay close to KTC when you get the craves or have to rage get here and lean on your quit brothers, your were a user before now you are a quiter!
Stay Strong , Focused Quit!
Matt,
Pure and simple things to do to maintain the Quit -
1. Own your Quit every day!
2. Honor your word every day!
3. And, post pictures of your wife so we can validate how truthful your intro was!
You can do this!!!!!
I haven't seen anyone mention it yet so I'll throw it out there... Drink lots of water and/or cranberry juice. When you feel like you can't take another sip have another glass. It helps keep your brain hydrated, reducing the headaches and makes you pee so much you forget about dip... well maybe not totally forget but all that poison needs to be flushed.
Grab some Trident, sunflower seeds, jerky or fake chew to help get past the oral fixation.
Keep making and keeping that promise every morning.
It's a tried and true recipe for freedom 'drool'
Good help Just posting to dito
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Hey fellow quitters. Sorry for not responding. I left for vacation on June 29th at 3:00am. No WIFI on Cruise unless I wanted pay. STUPID 'arse'
Anyway, used your ideas we I could. Must admit being on the cruise helped by taking the option to dip out of the equation. I was so pissed off a couple days I wanted to fight anyone who would agree. Good thing was that many of my family members were there to keep me in line. I still struggle with the random rage though. It comes out of no where. When it hits, no pun intended, I want to scream so damn loud my head will explode.
I am so frickin pissed at myself for doing this to myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 'Crazy'
What a Ignorant Dumbass!
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Ooooh! Got the wired head fog kickin in today. DUH, which way di he go George, which way did he go? :wacko:Â
LOL 'zombie'
The fog sucks but it is very necessary.
I remember the fog for me was just like i had gotten done running a mile and had that IhavenoenergyheadachedontpissmeofforIwillbeatyourass thing goingon for like 10 days!
You will get thru this but it is the weekend so no drinking tonight and stay close to KTC when you get the craves or have to rage get here and lean on your quit brothers, your were a user before now you are a quiter!
Stay Strong , Focused Quit!
Matt,
Pure and simple things to do to maintain the Quit -
1. Own your Quit every day!
2. Honor your word every day!
3. And, post pictures of your wife so we can validate how truthful your intro was!
You can do this!!!!!
I haven't figured out how to post pics or I would.
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Hey fellow quitters. Sorry for not responding. I left for vacation on June 29th at 3:00am. No WIFI on Cruise unless I wanted pay. STUPID 'arse'
Anyway, used your ideas we I could. Must admit being on the cruise helped by taking the option to dip out of the equation. I was so pissed off a couple days I wanted to fight anyone who would agree. Good thing was that many of my family members were there to keep me in line. I still struggle with the random rage though. It comes out of no where. When it hits, no pun intended, I want to scream so damn loud my head will explode.
I am so frickin pissed at myself for doing this to myself!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 'Crazy'
What a Ignorant Dumbass!
Focus that rage where it will do you themost good: the nic bitch and U.S. tobacco! Hate the lies. Hate the craves. Hate the fog, suck, and funk. Hate how they rob you of your health, money, and freedom. Hate the fact that you have to QLF EDD because they hooked you. Use that hate as a weapon to smack the nic bitch down when she shows her ugly face, and learn to love the hate so much you want to do it again first thing in the morning...
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Yep, the hate is growing and focused on the Big tobaccoo.
Great news though. Last night was my first night at softball taking BP since I quit 13 days ago. I told two of my buddies who were there and they looked at me like "what? Are you stupid?" I just grinned and threw a handfull of seeds in my mouth with a shitass eatin grin. They started to shake their heads. I laughed. No problems for me at all. One of the other guys actually grabbed a handful of seeds instead of a dip. Anyway, going to keep on trucking. First tournament without shew will be this weekend. Looking forward to learning how to play ball with the nic bitch again! :D
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Yep, the hate is growing and focused on the Big tobaccoo.
Great news though. Last night was my first night at softball taking BP since I quit 13 days ago. I told two of my buddies who were there and they looked at me like "what? Are you stupid?" I just grinned and threw a handfull of seeds in my mouth with a shitass eatin grin. They started to shake their heads. I laughed. No problems for me at all. One of the other guys actually grabbed a handful of seeds instead of a dip. Anyway, going to keep on trucking. First tournament without shew will be this weekend. Looking forward to learning how to play ball with the nic bitch again! :D
Keep the seeds close! My biggest hurdle early on was golfing, really kicked the craves into high gear. I always had some seeds, fake and my phone if the shit got too crazy.
Keep posting +1's... you are winning.
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Will do and thx for the encouragement.
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Will do and thx for the encouragement.
Your doing great bro. Them hobbies are a real test to your quit. The next time you go to that game it will be easier. I also had a hard time. I was a wimp and waited 2 weeks before i fished.
I'm sure you found out the same truths. I thought fishing and dipping were one in the same. Well,,,, they weren't. Dipping never helped me catch more or cast further. It only kept my addiction fed.
I'm sure that you found you could hit the ball just as good, or bad. Maybe your a pitcher. In that case i know it didn't help your curve or slider either. I know that dipping didn't make you run faster or catch better. All the poison did was keep your addiction fed.
Good job and keep your head pointed forward,, nothing back there for you. Quit with you.
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Yeah I hit the ball the same as always. It was just BP though. Not actually playing. It was really fun not worrying about wear I put my can. Just playing. Also, I have actually noticed a bump in energy for me the last couple of days. I don't know if it is the excitement of the quit or the fact I am actually eating more. I have put on about 5lbs but nothing drastic. Maybe it is both. Id on't care it is nice!
Love in this new lifestyle. Loving the confidence boost each +1. I am starting to tackle some other areas of my life I want to adjust as well. However, nothing that is drastic because I don't want to overdue it right now.
I really enjoy this site and the feedback. It has helped me stay focused and energized.
Today I quit with you all and Nic Bitch I only have one thing to say, " 'Finger' "
Kickin the can ODAAT 'jedisith'
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Yeah I hit the ball the same as always. It was just BP though. Not actually playing. It was really fun not worrying about wear I put my can. Just playing. Also, I have actually noticed a bump in energy for me the last couple of days. I don't know if it is the excitement of the quit or the fact I am actually eating more. I have put on about 5lbs but nothing drastic. Maybe it is both. Id on't care it is nice!
Love in this new lifestyle. Loving the confidence boost each +1. I am starting to tackle some other areas of my life I want to adjust as well. However, nothing that is drastic because I don't want to overdue it right now.
I really enjoy this site and the feedback. It has helped me stay focused and energized.
Today I quit with you all and Nic Bitch I only have one thing to say, " 'Finger' "
Kickin the can ODAAT 'jedisith'
You are reinventing what it is to be you. Damn awesome! Lean on me if necessary.
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Hello fellow Quitters,
I am currently on day twenty of the battle for my life to remain Nic free. I have not posted much in my intro section because I love to spend time reading other posts, offering feedback, and going to the chat to goof off, pass time, and offer help when necessary.
With that being said, I wanted to take this time to write some thoughts, praises, observations, incites, and whatever else came to mind since I decided to make this change. I have a tendency to go in circles so please forgive me.
The last 3 to 3 ½ years have been somewhat of an overwhelming time in my life. My second son was born, I switched employers, my Master’s program went full speed ahead, and other periodic uncontrollable variables simply impacted my life. Hence, 3 years or so ago, I allowed the temptress to convince me She was the answer to my problems. I allowed Nic to play with my mind as I entertained her temptations. I became complacent, comfortable, and for lack of a better word an “IDIOT.”
See, as mentioned in my intro I started dipping around 13/14years old. I dipped to the age of 27 when I stopped for about 3 to 3 ½ yrs and then chose to use again like an IDIOT thinking “one won’t hurt.” The changes and stress in life grabbed me as I was not prepared to deal with the changes.
Well, I am here today saying this site has brought a strength and resolve to quit that was not there before. Of course I wanted to quit when I found this site, but this site has re-enforced the desire. It has normalized the challenges associated with Nic “fits”. It has produced a sense of belonging, commitment, loyalty, and even competition that I did not have in my corner before.
On Saturday, July 13, 2013 I was playing in a softball tournament. This was my first experience around that many people flaunting the Nic in various forms. I knew it would be that way and I was concerned but I wanted to play. Therefore, I knew I needed to take some precautionary measures to prevent my use and maintain a support system.
Well, this was the easiest thing to do. Why, because of this site. There are numerous guys willing and ready to fit for you if you will allow them too. If you extend the need they will try to fill it. Seanz68, The Sweetness, Jeff24 all sent me messages on Saturday checking on my status. Seanz68 and I set up a schedule earlier in the week regarding times to text each other on Saturday to help us stay strong. I simply sent Jeff24 and The Sweetness texts on Saturday morning and they jumped on board to assist a brother. That is freakin awesome!!!! The three guys were willing to give me time on their Saturday to help me remained QUIT. They barely know me but they still offered it. Heck, The Sweetness started to text me at 10:00am and the final check-in was around 1:00am. Even though I got home around 8PM he continued to touch base. I canÂ’t express enough gratitude and respect for all three of these gents.
You know why it was so important? Because, I was around Nic and beer all day. I even drank a few beers but the temptation to use the nic was minimal due to my fellow Duck FIP’s caring about me and my Quit. I had cigarettes sitting next to me but I am not much of a smoker. The real challenge was watching guys pack the lip all day long. I even had a can of dip 4 or 5 inches away multiple times. I told my teammates not to give me any dip under any circumstances. One mate, jokingly asked me if I wanted one around midday. I simply replied, “Real funny you FUCKING JACKOFF!”
Here is the point. There were only a couple times the crave kicked in. These times were easy to beat because my fellow DUCK FIPÂ’S were backing me up all day long. It wasnÂ’t just me against the Nic Bitch. It was me and Seanz68, Jeff 24, and The Sweetness kickin her ass all day. Four against one is way better odds in my book.
Guys, I want to Thank You again for your support! Yes, I write this to express my gratitude. However, I also write this to make it clear for some people the help is there. Use it! Stop being a bunch of fearful fairy bitches and reach out. Hell yes I am scared to let these guys and all the other members down. Shit, it has been a pattern if my life. But damn it, allowing this fear (which is the addiction talking) to control the friendships I make on this site and reduce the strength of my quit due to isolation is idiotic. Just as idiotic as when I let Nic play me 3 ½ yrs ago. Not any more you damn pain in the ass!
Get your numbers out there and check in with each other periodically just because you care about your quit and their quit. Periodic checks with each other now will make it easier when the time comes that it is really needed. Well, sorry for the poor grammar but I am not proof reading this. I hope this is convicting for someone and they reach out. Take your life back each day. I QUIT WITH EACH AND ALL OF YOU TODAY! DUCK FIPÂ’S KICK ASS!
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One mate, jokingly asked me if I wanted one around midday. I simply replied, “Real funny you FUCKING JACKOFF!”
man heres what i told old jake frawly. now you just swich in teem mate for cowworker and your set.
man your coworkers are fuckin with your quit? time to teach um the tryed and true ktc way that you and your quit are not to be fucked with. next time one a those fucks offers you a dip heres what you need to do:
1. take can with big smile
2. open can
3. rotate arm at the wrist 180 degrees, there by emptyin contents of can on ground
4. step on pile of worm shit
5. twist at knee and ankel to grind worm shit back in to ground
6. replace lid
7. hand can back to coworker with a smile
8. remind him that you will be willin to help him agin any time
9. repete as nessassary til no buddy will ever offer you a dip agin. evin if you ask for it.
ps if you can piss on the worm shit thats evin better then grindin it in to the ground.
man you do this and he wont evin think to fuck with you agin.
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One mate, jokingly asked me if I wanted one around midday. I simply replied, “Real funny you FUCKING JACKOFF!”
man heres what i told old jake frawly. now you just swich in teem mate for cowworker and your set.
man your coworkers are fuckin with your quit? time to teach um the tryed and true ktc way that you and your quit are not to be fucked with. next time one a those fucks offers you a dip heres what you need to do:
1. take can with big smile
2. open can
3. rotate arm at the wrist 180 degrees, there by emptyin contents of can on ground
4. step on pile of worm shit
5. twist at knee and ankel to grind worm shit back in to ground
6. replace lid
7. hand can back to coworker with a smile
8. remind him that you will be willin to help him agin any time
9. repete as nessassary til no buddy will ever offer you a dip agin. evin if you ask for it.
ps if you can piss on the worm shit thats evin better then grindin it in to the ground.
man you do this and he wont evin think to fuck with you agin.
I love the detailed directions. Great Advice! I appreciate you keeping us "nic fog minded" in your thoughts as you wrote how to achieve this goal. Even added the extra step for more impact. I love it!
'crackup'
I admit I didn't do this. However, I did tell my team manager I was done on Sunday until next Summer. I am not playing for the rest of the Summer. Part of it is the quit. the other part is getting priorities straight. Taking the trash out of my mouth has helped me with the grace of God to realize how selfish I have been. I talk more about this realization in a future post or posts.
Love your advice though!
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Well, here I am on day 35.... Wow, I am proud but also frustrated, pissed, depressed, foggy, tired, stressed, feeling impatient as I wait for improvement, and who knows what else. I see some my my Fellow Duck Fippers kickin butt and others falling off. Encouraging but frustrating at the same time. I have notice communication drop off between some of the group. I see people post and bump others then not spend the five mins it takes to fix it and I'm left thinking, "Freakin selfish B.S"......... at least that is my opinion. If you don't know how to fix a bump then ask someone.
With that being said I wanted to post some comments on the status of our group and whatever else comes to mind. I think many of us are going through the same challenges. The main difference I have seen so far is that some quitters don't appear to believe in the system designed by this sight. Some people go through life thinking they are a "special butterfly" (not my words but very appropriate).
Hence, they can do everything different and better than anyone who has already done it. Some may say this is addiction talking but I think it is more of a personality trait they have adopted to help protect themselves from the true insecurities they hold. You know, fake beliefs about one's abilities creates a facade of confidence. Anyway, this is really troubling to me. It could be due to my older brother instincts wanting to protect others... I don't know.. Either way it is still there.
Which leads me to saying this. Get your heads out of your 'arse'! People who think they have this whipped at 10days, 20days, 30 days, 40 days, etc.. are either smoking some good stuff or just plain idiotic ignorant nincompoops. You may think, "What a dick to say something like that... or.... he doesn't know me?" Well, you are likely right that I don't know you and maybe I am being a dick. I can live with this if it gets some peoples attention and saves a quitter.
This drug has been proving to be as addictive as heroine. The mind games are extremely tricky. I am not proud of this and I have expressed in posts before, I was stopped for over 3yrs.. I got complacent and let Nic get her toe in the door. Addiction is different then other things in our lives that are unhealthy. Addiction will not take a foot when given an inch. Addiction will take the WHOLE DAMN THING! Relapse is not something you stop! IT IS SOMETHING YOU PREVENT!!!!!!! Therefore, get your damn numbers out there to fellow quitters and stay connected every damn day. POST FREAKIN ROLE. This bullshit of posting two days then missing 3 then posting one then missing 2 then posting again is for the people who want to fail and WILL FAIL because you don't take this seriously. You may feel confident now, which is what it wants you to feel, but it will comeback with vengeance. Will yo be ready or complacent because you think it is easy?
I don't know everything and I don't know all of you but I do care about your quit. Don't lie to yourself and listen to all of the vets telling you to get connected and post ROLL first thing. There are plenty of people on here willing to build their quit with you. Heck, I don't have time to take care of the spreadsheet and check for bumps all day but I do it anyway because it helps me quit. I have had some bitch of cravings the last couple weeks that I was able to fight off because I didn't want to look like a "douche" if I caved. If you care about your quit and each other in the group you will make time.
My rant is now over but I want my fellow DUCK FIPPERS and any who wish to read this to understand I only write this challenge because I care. I care about your quit and I care about mine. When I see others fail it impacts my quit as well. I quit with all of you today! QUACK! QUACK! DUCK FIPS 4 LIFE!
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Well, here I am on day 35.... Wow, I am proud but also frustrated, pissed, depressed, foggy, tired, stressed, feeling impatient as I wait for improvement, and who knows what else. I see some my my Fellow Duck Fippers kickin butt and others falling off. Encouraging but frustrating at the same time. I have notice communication drop off between some of the group. I see people post and bump others then not spend the five mins it takes to fix it and I'm left thinking, "Freakin selfish B.S"......... at least that is my opinion. If you don't know how to fix a bump then ask someone.
With that being said I wanted to post some comments on the status of our group and whatever else comes to mind. I think many of us are going through the same challenges. The main difference I have seen so far is that some quitters don't appear to believe in the system designed by this sight. Some people go through life thinking they are a "special butterfly" (not my words but very appropriate).
Hence, they can do everything different and better than anyone who has already done it. Some may say this is addiction talking but I think it is more of a personality trait they have adopted to help protect themselves from the true insecurities they hold. You know, fake beliefs about one's abilities creates a facade of confidence. Anyway, this is really troubling to me. It could be due to my older brother instincts wanting to protect others... I don't know.. Either way it is still there.
Which leads me to saying this. Get your heads out of your 'arse'! People who think they have this whipped at 10days, 20days, 30 days, 40 days, etc.. are either smoking some good stuff or just plain idiotic ignorant nincompoops. You may think, "What a dick to say something like that... or.... he doesn't know me?" Well, you are likely right that I don't know you and maybe I am being a dick. I can live with this if it gets some peoples attention and saves a quitter.
This drug has been proving to be as addictive as heroine. The mind games are extremely tricky. I am not proud of this and I have expressed in posts before, I was stopped for over 3yrs.. I got complacent and let Nic get her toe in the door. Addiction is different then other things in our lives that are unhealthy. Addiction will not take a foot when given an inch. Addiction will take the WHOLE DAMN THING! Relapse is not something you stop! IT IS SOMETHING YOU PREVENT!!!!!!! Therefore, get your damn numbers out there to fellow quitters and stay connected every damn day. POST FREAKIN ROLE. This bullshit of posting two days then missing 3 then posting one then missing 2 then posting again is for the people who want to fail and WILL FAIL because you don't take this seriously. You may feel confident now, which is what it wants you to feel, but it will comeback with vengeance. Will yo be ready or complacent because you think it is easy?
I don't know everything and I don't know all of you but I do care about your quit. Don't lie to yourself and listen to all of the vets telling you to get connected and post ROLL first thing. There are plenty of people on here willing to build their quit with you. Heck, I don't have time to take care of the spreadsheet and check for bumps all day but I do it anyway because it helps me quit. I have had some bitch of cravings the last couple weeks that I was able to fight off because I didn't want to look like a "douche" if I caved. If you care about your quit and each other in the group you will make time.
My rant is now over but I want my fellow DUCK FIPPERS and any who wish to read this to understand I only write this challenge because I care. I care about your quit and I care about mine. When I see others fail it impacts my quit as well. I quit with all of you today! QUACK! QUACK! DUCK FIPS 4 LIFE!
well stated as someone is 'getting' it. Nice job on over a month, and just remember, you poisoned yourself for how long and it is not a quick fix but a progression in order to get back to a semblance of normal.
Keep up the great quit, one day at a time.
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Well, here I am on day 35.... Wow, I am proud but also frustrated, pissed, depressed, foggy, tired, stressed, feeling impatient as I wait for improvement, and who knows what else. I see some my my Fellow Duck Fippers kickin butt and others falling off. Encouraging but frustrating at the same time. I have notice communication drop off between some of the group. I see people post and bump others then not spend the five mins it takes to fix it and I'm left thinking, "Freakin selfish B.S"......... at least that is my opinion. If you don't know how to fix a bump then ask someone.
With that being said I wanted to post some comments on the status of our group and whatever else comes to mind. I think many of us are going through the same challenges. The main difference I have seen so far is that some quitters don't appear to believe in the system designed by this sight. Some people go through life thinking they are a "special butterfly" (not my words but very appropriate).
Hence, they can do everything different and better than anyone who has already done it. Some may say this is addiction talking but I think it is more of a personality trait they have adopted to help protect themselves from the true insecurities they hold. You know, fake beliefs about one's abilities creates a facade of confidence. Anyway, this is really troubling to me. It could be due to my older brother instincts wanting to protect others... I don't know.. Either way it is still there.Â
Which leads me to saying this. Get your heads out of your 'arse'! People who think they have this whipped at 10days, 20days, 30 days, 40 days, etc.. are either smoking some good stuff or just plain idiotic ignorant nincompoops. You may think, "What a dick to say something like that... or.... he doesn't know me?" Well, you are likely right that I don't know you and maybe I am being a dick. I can live with this if it gets some peoples attention and saves a quitter.
This drug has been proving to be as addictive as heroine. The mind games are extremely tricky. I am not proud of this and I have expressed in posts before, I was stopped for over 3yrs.. I got complacent and let Nic get her toe in the door. Addiction is different then other things in our lives that are unhealthy. Addiction will not take a foot when given an inch. Addiction will take the WHOLE DAMN THING! Relapse is not something you stop! IT IS SOMETHING YOU PREVENT!!!!!!! Therefore, get your damn numbers out there to fellow quitters and stay connected every damn day. POST FREAKIN ROLE. This bullshit of posting two days then missing 3 then posting one then missing 2 then posting again is for the people who want to fail and WILL FAIL because you don't take this seriously. You may feel confident now, which is what it wants you to feel, but it will comeback with vengeance. Will yo be ready or complacent because you think it is easy?
I don't know everything and I don't know all of you but I do care about your quit. Don't lie to yourself and listen to all of the vets telling you to get connected and post ROLL first thing. There are plenty of people on here willing to build their quit with you. Heck, I don't have time to take care of the spreadsheet and check for bumps all day but I do it anyway because it helps me quit. I have had some bitch of cravings the last couple weeks that I was able to fight off because I didn't want to look like a "douche" if I caved. If you care about your quit and each other in the group you will make time.
My rant is now over but I want my fellow DUCK FIPPERS and any who wish to read this to understand I only write this challenge because I care. I care about your quit and I care about mine. When I see others fail it impacts my quit as well. I quit with all of you today! QUACK! QUACK! DUCK FIPS 4 LIFE!
well stated as someone is 'getting' it. Nice job on over a month, and just remember, you poisoned yourself for how long and it is not a quick fix but a progression in order to get back to a semblance of normal.
Keep up the great quit, one day at a time.
I hear you Sir and undertand. Thanks for the encouragement. Freakin depression crap has been pissing me off. Tired of being tired and sad. Want to move on now but know it takes time. I appreciate you helping me keep it in perspective. ODAAT
QUACK!QUACK!
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Well, here I am on day 35.... Wow, I am proud but also frustrated, pissed, depressed, foggy, tired, stressed, feeling impatient as I wait for improvement, and who knows what else. I see some my my Fellow Duck Fippers kickin butt and others falling off. Encouraging but frustrating at the same time. I have notice communication drop off between some of the group. I see people post and bump others then not spend the five mins it takes to fix it and I'm left thinking, "Freakin selfish B.S"......... at least that is my opinion. If you don't know how to fix a bump then ask someone.
With that being said I wanted to post some comments on the status of our group and whatever else comes to mind. I think many of us are going through the same challenges. The main difference I have seen so far is that some quitters don't appear to believe in the system designed by this sight. Some people go through life thinking they are a "special butterfly" (not my words but very appropriate).
Hence, they can do everything different and better than anyone who has already done it. Some may say this is addiction talking but I think it is more of a personality trait they have adopted to help protect themselves from the true insecurities they hold. You know, fake beliefs about one's abilities creates a facade of confidence. Anyway, this is really troubling to me. It could be due to my older brother instincts wanting to protect others... I don't know.. Either way it is still there.Â
Which leads me to saying this. Get your heads out of your 'arse'! People who think they have this whipped at 10days, 20days, 30 days, 40 days, etc.. are either smoking some good stuff or just plain idiotic ignorant nincompoops. You may think, "What a dick to say something like that... or.... he doesn't know me?" Well, you are likely right that I don't know you and maybe I am being a dick. I can live with this if it gets some peoples attention and saves a quitter.
This drug has been proving to be as addictive as heroine. The mind games are extremely tricky. I am not proud of this and I have expressed in posts before, I was stopped for over 3yrs.. I got complacent and let Nic get her toe in the door. Addiction is different then other things in our lives that are unhealthy. Addiction will not take a foot when given an inch. Addiction will take the WHOLE DAMN THING! Relapse is not something you stop! IT IS SOMETHING YOU PREVENT!!!!!!! Therefore, get your damn numbers out there to fellow quitters and stay connected every damn day. POST FREAKIN ROLE. This bullshit of posting two days then missing 3 then posting one then missing 2 then posting again is for the people who want to fail and WILL FAIL because you don't take this seriously. You may feel confident now, which is what it wants you to feel, but it will comeback with vengeance. Will yo be ready or complacent because you think it is easy?
I don't know everything and I don't know all of you but I do care about your quit. Don't lie to yourself and listen to all of the vets telling you to get connected and post ROLL first thing. There are plenty of people on here willing to build their quit with you. Heck, I don't have time to take care of the spreadsheet and check for bumps all day but I do it anyway because it helps me quit. I have had some bitch of cravings the last couple weeks that I was able to fight off because I didn't want to look like a "douche" if I caved. If you care about your quit and each other in the group you will make time.
My rant is now over but I want my fellow DUCK FIPPERS and any who wish to read this to understand I only write this challenge because I care. I care about your quit and I care about mine. When I see others fail it impacts my quit as well. I quit with all of you today! QUACK! QUACK! DUCK FIPS 4 LIFE!
well stated as someone is 'getting' it. Nice job on over a month, and just remember, you poisoned yourself for how long and it is not a quick fix but a progression in order to get back to a semblance of normal.
Keep up the great quit, one day at a time.
I hear you Sir and undertand. Thanks for the encouragement. Freakin depression crap has been pissing me off. Tired of being tired and sad. Want to move on now but know it takes time. I appreciate you helping me keep it in perspective. ODAAT
QUACK!QUACK!
You're my DUCK FI!
You have helped me tremendously, I am glad to quit with you every day!
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Well, here I am on day 35.... Wow, I am proud but also frustrated, pissed, depressed, foggy, tired, stressed, feeling impatient as I wait for improvement, and who knows what else. I see some my my Fellow Duck Fippers kickin butt and others falling off. Encouraging but frustrating at the same time. I have notice communication drop off between some of the group. I see people post and bump others then not spend the five mins it takes to fix it and I'm left thinking, "Freakin selfish B.S"......... at least that is my opinion. If you don't know how to fix a bump then ask someone.
With that being said I wanted to post some comments on the status of our group and whatever else comes to mind. I think many of us are going through the same challenges. The main difference I have seen so far is that some quitters don't appear to believe in the system designed by this sight. Some people go through life thinking they are a "special butterfly" (not my words but very appropriate).
Hence, they can do everything different and better than anyone who has already done it. Some may say this is addiction talking but I think it is more of a personality trait they have adopted to help protect themselves from the true insecurities they hold. You know, fake beliefs about one's abilities creates a facade of confidence. Anyway, this is really troubling to me. It could be due to my older brother instincts wanting to protect others... I don't know.. Either way it is still there.Â
Which leads me to saying this. Get your heads out of your 'arse'! People who think they have this whipped at 10days, 20days, 30 days, 40 days, etc.. are either smoking some good stuff or just plain idiotic ignorant nincompoops. You may think, "What a dick to say something like that... or.... he doesn't know me?" Well, you are likely right that I don't know you and maybe I am being a dick. I can live with this if it gets some peoples attention and saves a quitter.
This drug has been proving to be as addictive as heroine. The mind games are extremely tricky. I am not proud of this and I have expressed in posts before, I was stopped for over 3yrs.. I got complacent and let Nic get her toe in the door. Addiction is different then other things in our lives that are unhealthy. Addiction will not take a foot when given an inch. Addiction will take the WHOLE DAMN THING! Relapse is not something you stop! IT IS SOMETHING YOU PREVENT!!!!!!! Therefore, get your damn numbers out there to fellow quitters and stay connected every damn day. POST FREAKIN ROLE. This bullshit of posting two days then missing 3 then posting one then missing 2 then posting again is for the people who want to fail and WILL FAIL because you don't take this seriously. You may feel confident now, which is what it wants you to feel, but it will comeback with vengeance. Will yo be ready or complacent because you think it is easy?
I don't know everything and I don't know all of you but I do care about your quit. Don't lie to yourself and listen to all of the vets telling you to get connected and post ROLL first thing. There are plenty of people on here willing to build their quit with you. Heck, I don't have time to take care of the spreadsheet and check for bumps all day but I do it anyway because it helps me quit. I have had some bitch of cravings the last couple weeks that I was able to fight off because I didn't want to look like a "douche" if I caved. If you care about your quit and each other in the group you will make time.
My rant is now over but I want my fellow DUCK FIPPERS and any who wish to read this to understand I only write this challenge because I care. I care about your quit and I care about mine. When I see others fail it impacts my quit as well. I quit with all of you today! QUACK! QUACK! DUCK FIPS 4 LIFE!
well stated as someone is 'getting' it. Nice job on over a month, and just remember, you poisoned yourself for how long and it is not a quick fix but a progression in order to get back to a semblance of normal.
Keep up the great quit, one day at a time.
I hear you Sir and undertand. Thanks for the encouragement. Freakin depression crap has been pissing me off. Tired of being tired and sad. Want to move on now but know it takes time. I appreciate you helping me keep it in perspective. ODAAT
QUACK!QUACK!
You're my DUCK FI!
You have helped me tremendously, I am glad to quit with you every day!
Thanks Pinched! I am with you too. See, when your up you can help pick up us low-bodies and when we are we can pay it forward. QUACK!
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Well, here I am on day 35.... Wow, I am proud but also frustrated, pissed, depressed, foggy, tired, stressed, feeling impatient as I wait for improvement, and who knows what else. I see some my my Fellow Duck Fippers kickin butt and others falling off. Encouraging but frustrating at the same time. I have notice communication drop off between some of the group. I see people post and bump others then not spend the five mins it takes to fix it and I'm left thinking, "Freakin selfish B.S"......... at least that is my opinion. If you don't know how to fix a bump then ask someone.
With that being said I wanted to post some comments on the status of our group and whatever else comes to mind. I think many of us are going through the same challenges. The main difference I have seen so far is that some quitters don't appear to believe in the system designed by this sight. Some people go through life thinking they are a "special butterfly" (not my words but very appropriate).
Hence, they can do everything different and better than anyone who has already done it. Some may say this is addiction talking but I think it is more of a personality trait they have adopted to help protect themselves from the true insecurities they hold. You know, fake beliefs about one's abilities creates a facade of confidence. Anyway, this is really troubling to me. It could be due to my older brother instincts wanting to protect others... I don't know.. Either way it is still there.Â
Which leads me to saying this. Get your heads out of your 'arse'! People who think they have this whipped at 10days, 20days, 30 days, 40 days, etc.. are either smoking some good stuff or just plain idiotic ignorant nincompoops. You may think, "What a dick to say something like that... or.... he doesn't know me?" Well, you are likely right that I don't know you and maybe I am being a dick. I can live with this if it gets some peoples attention and saves a quitter.
This drug has been proving to be as addictive as heroine. The mind games are extremely tricky. I am not proud of this and I have expressed in posts before, I was stopped for over 3yrs.. I got complacent and let Nic get her toe in the door. Addiction is different then other things in our lives that are unhealthy. Addiction will not take a foot when given an inch. Addiction will take the WHOLE DAMN THING! Relapse is not something you stop! IT IS SOMETHING YOU PREVENT!!!!!!! Therefore, get your damn numbers out there to fellow quitters and stay connected every damn day. POST FREAKIN ROLE. This bullshit of posting two days then missing 3 then posting one then missing 2 then posting again is for the people who want to fail and WILL FAIL because you don't take this seriously. You may feel confident now, which is what it wants you to feel, but it will comeback with vengeance. Will yo be ready or complacent because you think it is easy?
I don't know everything and I don't know all of you but I do care about your quit. Don't lie to yourself and listen to all of the vets telling you to get connected and post ROLL first thing. There are plenty of people on here willing to build their quit with you. Heck, I don't have time to take care of the spreadsheet and check for bumps all day but I do it anyway because it helps me quit. I have had some bitch of cravings the last couple weeks that I was able to fight off because I didn't want to look like a "douche" if I caved. If you care about your quit and each other in the group you will make time.
My rant is now over but I want my fellow DUCK FIPPERS and any who wish to read this to understand I only write this challenge because I care. I care about your quit and I care about mine. When I see others fail it impacts my quit as well. I quit with all of you today! QUACK! QUACK! DUCK FIPS 4 LIFE!
well stated as someone is 'getting' it. Nice job on over a month, and just remember, you poisoned yourself for how long and it is not a quick fix but a progression in order to get back to a semblance of normal.
Keep up the great quit, one day at a time.
I hear you Sir and undertand. Thanks for the encouragement. Freakin depression crap has been pissing me off. Tired of being tired and sad. Want to move on now but know it takes time. I appreciate you helping me keep it in perspective. ODAAT
QUACK!QUACK!
You're my DUCK FI!
You have helped me tremendously, I am glad to quit with you every day!
Thanks Pinched! I am with you too. See, when your up you can help pick up us low-bodies and when we are we can pay it forward. QUACK!
When your Up, you're UP
When you're Down, you're Down
When you're only half way Up, you're neither Up nor Down!
As many of us have learned there are several items just in this forum alone to keep you from boredom/habits.
Then you can make the decision to give someone on here your phone number and they all track you like an angry father looking for his 17 year old daughter.
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Well, here I am on day 35.... Wow, I am proud but also frustrated, pissed, depressed, foggy, tired, stressed, feeling impatient as I wait for improvement, and who knows what else. I see some my my Fellow Duck Fippers kickin butt and others falling off. Encouraging but frustrating at the same time. I have notice communication drop off between some of the group. I see people post and bump others then not spend the five mins it takes to fix it and I'm left thinking, "Freakin selfish B.S"......... at least that is my opinion. If you don't know how to fix a bump then ask someone.
With that being said I wanted to post some comments on the status of our group and whatever else comes to mind. I think many of us are going through the same challenges. The main difference I have seen so far is that some quitters don't appear to believe in the system designed by this sight. Some people go through life thinking they are a "special butterfly" (not my words but very appropriate).
Hence, they can do everything different and better than anyone who has already done it. Some may say this is addiction talking but I think it is more of a personality trait they have adopted to help protect themselves from the true insecurities they hold. You know, fake beliefs about one's abilities creates a facade of confidence. Anyway, this is really troubling to me. It could be due to my older brother instincts wanting to protect others... I don't know.. Either way it is still there.Â
Which leads me to saying this. Get your heads out of your 'arse'! People who think they have this whipped at 10days, 20days, 30 days, 40 days, etc.. are either smoking some good stuff or just plain idiotic ignorant nincompoops. You may think, "What a dick to say something like that... or.... he doesn't know me?" Well, you are likely right that I don't know you and maybe I am being a dick. I can live with this if it gets some peoples attention and saves a quitter.
This drug has been proving to be as addictive as heroine. The mind games are extremely tricky. I am not proud of this and I have expressed in posts before, I was stopped for over 3yrs.. I got complacent and let Nic get her toe in the door. Addiction is different then other things in our lives that are unhealthy. Addiction will not take a foot when given an inch. Addiction will take the WHOLE DAMN THING! Relapse is not something you stop! IT IS SOMETHING YOU PREVENT!!!!!!! Therefore, get your damn numbers out there to fellow quitters and stay connected every damn day. POST FREAKIN ROLE. This bullshit of posting two days then missing 3 then posting one then missing 2 then posting again is for the people who want to fail and WILL FAIL because you don't take this seriously. You may feel confident now, which is what it wants you to feel, but it will comeback with vengeance. Will yo be ready or complacent because you think it is easy?
I don't know everything and I don't know all of you but I do care about your quit. Don't lie to yourself and listen to all of the vets telling you to get connected and post ROLL first thing. There are plenty of people on here willing to build their quit with you. Heck, I don't have time to take care of the spreadsheet and check for bumps all day but I do it anyway because it helps me quit. I have had some bitch of cravings the last couple weeks that I was able to fight off because I didn't want to look like a "douche" if I caved. If you care about your quit and each other in the group you will make time.
My rant is now over but I want my fellow DUCK FIPPERS and any who wish to read this to understand I only write this challenge because I care. I care about your quit and I care about mine. When I see others fail it impacts my quit as well. I quit with all of you today! QUACK! QUACK! DUCK FIPS 4 LIFE!
well stated as someone is 'getting' it. Nice job on over a month, and just remember, you poisoned yourself for how long and it is not a quick fix but a progression in order to get back to a semblance of normal.
Keep up the great quit, one day at a time.
I hear you Sir and undertand. Thanks for the encouragement. Freakin depression crap has been pissing me off. Tired of being tired and sad. Want to move on now but know it takes time. I appreciate you helping me keep it in perspective. ODAAT
QUACK!QUACK!
You're my DUCK FI!
You have helped me tremendously, I am glad to quit with you every day!
Thanks Pinched! I am with you too. See, when your up you can help pick up us low-bodies and when we are we can pay it forward. QUACK!
When your Up, you're UP
When you're Down, you're Down
When you're only half way Up, you're neither Up nor Down!
As many of us have learned there are several items just in this forum alone to keep you from boredom/habits.
Then you can make the decision to give someone on here your phone number and they all track you like an angry father looking for his 17 year old daughter.
LOL.. Yeah I know.. I like being stalked.. or should I say stalking! BAWAAHAHAHAHAHA! 'na na'
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Well, here I am on day 35.... Wow, I am proud but also frustrated, pissed, depressed, foggy, tired, stressed, feeling impatient as I wait for improvement, and who knows what else. I see some my my Fellow Duck Fippers kickin butt and others falling off. Encouraging but frustrating at the same time. I have notice communication drop off between some of the group. I see people post and bump others then not spend the five mins it takes to fix it and I'm left thinking, "Freakin selfish B.S"......... at least that is my opinion. If you don't know how to fix a bump then ask someone.
With that being said I wanted to post some comments on the status of our group and whatever else comes to mind. I think many of us are going through the same challenges. The main difference I have seen so far is that some quitters don't appear to believe in the system designed by this sight. Some people go through life thinking they are a "special butterfly" (not my words but very appropriate).
Hence, they can do everything different and better than anyone who has already done it. Some may say this is addiction talking but I think it is more of a personality trait they have adopted to help protect themselves from the true insecurities they hold. You know, fake beliefs about one's abilities creates a facade of confidence. Anyway, this is really troubling to me. It could be due to my older brother instincts wanting to protect others... I don't know.. Either way it is still there.Â
Which leads me to saying this. Get your heads out of your 'arse'! People who think they have this whipped at 10days, 20days, 30 days, 40 days, etc.. are either smoking some good stuff or just plain idiotic ignorant nincompoops. You may think, "What a dick to say something like that... or.... he doesn't know me?" Well, you are likely right that I don't know you and maybe I am being a dick. I can live with this if it gets some peoples attention and saves a quitter.
This drug has been proving to be as addictive as heroine. The mind games are extremely tricky. I am not proud of this and I have expressed in posts before, I was stopped for over 3yrs.. I got complacent and let Nic get her toe in the door. Addiction is different then other things in our lives that are unhealthy. Addiction will not take a foot when given an inch. Addiction will take the WHOLE DAMN THING! Relapse is not something you stop! IT IS SOMETHING YOU PREVENT!!!!!!! Therefore, get your damn numbers out there to fellow quitters and stay connected every damn day. POST FREAKIN ROLE. This bullshit of posting two days then missing 3 then posting one then missing 2 then posting again is for the people who want to fail and WILL FAIL because you don't take this seriously. You may feel confident now, which is what it wants you to feel, but it will comeback with vengeance. Will yo be ready or complacent because you think it is easy?
I don't know everything and I don't know all of you but I do care about your quit. Don't lie to yourself and listen to all of the vets telling you to get connected and post ROLL first thing. There are plenty of people on here willing to build their quit with you. Heck, I don't have time to take care of the spreadsheet and check for bumps all day but I do it anyway because it helps me quit. I have had some bitch of cravings the last couple weeks that I was able to fight off because I didn't want to look like a "douche" if I caved. If you care about your quit and each other in the group you will make time.
My rant is now over but I want my fellow DUCK FIPPERS and any who wish to read this to understand I only write this challenge because I care. I care about your quit and I care about mine. When I see others fail it impacts my quit as well. I quit with all of you today! QUACK! QUACK! DUCK FIPS 4 LIFE!
well stated as someone is 'getting' it. Nice job on over a month, and just remember, you poisoned yourself for how long and it is not a quick fix but a progression in order to get back to a semblance of normal.
Keep up the great quit, one day at a time.
I hear you Sir and undertand. Thanks for the encouragement. Freakin depression crap has been pissing me off. Tired of being tired and sad. Want to move on now but know it takes time. I appreciate you helping me keep it in perspective. ODAAT
QUACK!QUACK!
You're my DUCK FI!
You have helped me tremendously, I am glad to quit with you every day!
Thanks Pinched! I am with you too. See, when your up you can help pick up us low-bodies and when we are we can pay it forward. QUACK!
When your Up, you're UP
When you're Down, you're Down
When you're only half way Up, you're neither Up nor Down!
As many of us have learned there are several items just in this forum alone to keep you from boredom/habits.
Then you can make the decision to give someone on here your phone number and they all track you like an angry father looking for his 17 year old daughter.
LOL.. Yeah I know.. I like being stalked.. or should I say stalking! BAWAAHAHAHAHAHA! 'na na'
OMG Pinched, I think I just saw the little boys in cub scouts chuckle at that as we went through the motions.
but surprises are waiting so be vigilant....
row, row, row your boat
gently down the stream,
HA HA fooled you, I'm a submarine.....
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Well, today is 41... I am sick of people not posting role like it is their DAMN JOB! I am not a control freak.. nor do I think I know everything. BUUUUTTTT DAMN! How many freakin people need to leave the sight....cave..... or whatever before some people get it! I am freakin 41 days into this fight and I had my first DIP Dream last night. Scarred the shit out of me this morning! Why am I just now having a dip dream? This plays into my feelings and thoughts below.
I am I fucking tired of fellow FIPS gettin their ass handed to them by the NIC BITCH! Sorry for my language..I only desire to be sincere and honest about my frustration. It seems like someone falls to the NIC every few days. Are you ready to be next?
If you don't have enough time in your day to post roll then how will you not fail sooner or later? When someone doesn't post then you are creating doubt about your quit, your word, and whether you value the relationship you have with the other Ducks.
There is a relationship there. Just because I don't text you everyday doesn't mean I don't give a shit. It prolly means I don't have your damn number. Heck, ask the guys whose numbers I have. They get sick of my random texts some days.
ToeTAG is not a n extra pile of shit thrown on the shitty cake I was already eating. Come on DUCKS. Post Roll and fight for each other! Damn it TOETAG!!!!!!!!!!!
It looks like countryboy, cherish, whip and klugman may be next. What is going on with people.
My rant is over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 'bang head' 'bang head' 'bang head' 'bang head' 'bang head'
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Well, today is 41... I am sick of people not posting role like it is their DAMN JOB! I am not a control freak.. nor do I think I know everything. BUUUUTTTT DAMN! How many freakin people need to leave the sight....cave..... or whatever before some people get it! I am freakin 41 days into this fight and I had my first DIP Dream last night. Scarred the shit out of me this morning! Why am I just now having a dip dream? This plays into my feelings and thoughts below.
I am I fucking tired of fellow FIPS gettin their ass handed to them by the NIC BITCH! Sorry for my language..I only desire to be sincere and honest about my frustration. It seems like someone falls to the NIC every few days. Are you ready to be next?
If you don't have enough time in your day to post roll then how will you not fail sooner or later? When someone doesn't post then you are creating doubt about your quit, your word, and whether you value the relationship you have with the other Ducks.
There is a relationship there. Just because I don't text you everyday doesn't mean I don't give a shit. It prolly means I don't have your damn number. Heck, ask the guys whose numbers I have. They get sick of my random texts some days.
ToeTAG is not a n extra pile of shit thrown on the shitty cake I was already eating. Come on DUCKS. Post Roll and fight for each other! Damn it TOETAG!!!!!!!!!!!
It looks like countryboy, cherish, whip and klugman may be next. What is going on with people.
My rant is over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 'bang head'Â 'bang head'Â 'bang head'Â 'bang head'Â 'bang head'
I have been there brother.......Dont let other quits and their shortcomings get you down! YOUR QUIT IS NUMERO UNO!!! All you can do is offer the kool aid. They have to drink it!! Stay strong my brother!!
J
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Well, today is 41... I am sick of people not posting role like it is their DAMN JOB! I am not a control freak.. nor do I think I know everything. BUUUUTTTT DAMN! How many freakin people need to leave the sight....cave..... or whatever before some people get it! I am freakin 41 days into this fight and I had my first DIP Dream last night. Scarred the shit out of me this morning! Why am I just now having a dip dream? This plays into my feelings and thoughts below.
I am I fucking tired of fellow FIPS gettin their ass handed to them by the NIC BITCH! Sorry for my language..I only desire to be sincere and honest about my frustration. It seems like someone falls to the NIC every few days. Are you ready to be next?
If you don't have enough time in your day to post roll then how will you not fail sooner or later? When someone doesn't post then you are creating doubt about your quit, your word, and whether you value the relationship you have with the other Ducks.
There is a relationship there. Just because I don't text you everyday doesn't mean I don't give a shit. It prolly means I don't have your damn number. Heck, ask the guys whose numbers I have. They get sick of my random texts some days.
ToeTAG is not a n extra pile of shit thrown on the shitty cake I was already eating. Come on DUCKS. Post Roll and fight for each other! Damn it TOETAG!!!!!!!!!!!
It looks like countryboy, cherish, whip and klugman may be next. What is going on with people.
My rant is over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 'bang head'Â 'bang head'Â 'bang head'Â 'bang head'Â 'bang head'
I have been there brother.......Dont let other quits and their shortcomings get you down! YOUR QUIT IS NUMERO UNO!!! All you can do is offer the kool aid. They have to drink it!! Stay strong my brother!!
J
It is frustrating, irritating and sad. But the reality is a lot of folks aren't all in on their quit when they show up here and many never get there.
Do what you can to help them, but in the end they have to want it and do it. You can't quit for them. It is sad as hell, because we know they can have a better life when they are not feeding the addiction and because we know if is very possible to be quit.
Hang in, I quit with you today!
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Well, today is 41... I am sick of people not posting role like it is their DAMN JOB! I am not a control freak.. nor do I think I know everything. BUUUUTTTT DAMN! How many freakin people need to leave the sight....cave..... or whatever before some people get it! I am freakin 41 days into this fight and I had my first DIP Dream last night. Scarred the shit out of me this morning! Why am I just now having a dip dream? This plays into my feelings and thoughts below.
I am I fucking tired of fellow FIPS gettin their ass handed to them by the NIC BITCH! Sorry for my language..I only desire to be sincere and honest about my frustration. It seems like someone falls to the NIC every few days. Are you ready to be next?
If you don't have enough time in your day to post roll then how will you not fail sooner or later? When someone doesn't post then you are creating doubt about your quit, your word, and whether you value the relationship you have with the other Ducks.
There is a relationship there. Just because I don't text you everyday doesn't mean I don't give a shit. It prolly means I don't have your damn number. Heck, ask the guys whose numbers I have. They get sick of my random texts some days.
ToeTAG is not a n extra pile of shit thrown on the shitty cake I was already eating. Come on DUCKS. Post Roll and fight for each other! Damn it TOETAG!!!!!!!!!!!
It looks like countryboy, cherish, whip and klugman may be next. What is going on with people.
My rant is over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 'bang head'Â 'bang head'Â 'bang head'Â 'bang head'Â 'bang head'
I have been there brother.......Dont let other quits and their shortcomings get you down! YOUR QUIT IS NUMERO UNO!!! All you can do is offer the kool aid. They have to drink it!! Stay strong my brother!!
J
It is frustrating, irritating and sad. But the reality is a lot of folks aren't all in on their quit when they show up here and many never get there.
Do what you can to help them, but in the end they have to want it and do it. You can't quit for them. It is sad as hell, because we know they can have a better life when they are not feeding the addiction and because we know if is very possible to be quit.
Hang in, I quit with you today!
I know what you are saying brother. It is frustrating watching folks just drive off the road as though nobody painted lines or turned on the lights for them. The path is as clear as day and not very hard to follow. The roadmap is in the KTC forums and HOF speeches, chat, all over the place here.
You do it right- map in hand, eyes on the road and QLF every damn day.
I am proud to be quit with you.
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Well, today is 41... I am sick of people not posting role like it is their DAMN JOB! I am not a control freak.. nor do I think I know everything. BUUUUTTTT DAMN! How many freakin people need to leave the sight....cave..... or whatever before some people get it! I am freakin 41 days into this fight and I had my first DIP Dream last night. Scarred the shit out of me this morning! Why am I just now having a dip dream? This plays into my feelings and thoughts below.
I am I fucking tired of fellow FIPS gettin their ass handed to them by the NIC BITCH! Sorry for my language..I only desire to be sincere and honest about my frustration. It seems like someone falls to the NIC every few days. Are you ready to be next?
If you don't have enough time in your day to post roll then how will you not fail sooner or later? When someone doesn't post then you are creating doubt about your quit, your word, and whether you value the relationship you have with the other Ducks.
There is a relationship there. Just because I don't text you everyday doesn't mean I don't give a shit. It prolly means I don't have your damn number. Heck, ask the guys whose numbers I have. They get sick of my random texts some days.
ToeTAG is not a n extra pile of shit thrown on the shitty cake I was already eating. Come on DUCKS. Post Roll and fight for each other! Damn it TOETAG!!!!!!!!!!!
It looks like countryboy, cherish, whip and klugman may be next. What is going on with people.
My rant is over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 'bang head'Â 'bang head'Â 'bang head'Â 'bang head'Â 'bang head'
I have been there brother.......Dont let other quits and their shortcomings get you down! YOUR QUIT IS NUMERO UNO!!! All you can do is offer the kool aid. They have to drink it!! Stay strong my brother!!
J
It is frustrating, irritating and sad. But the reality is a lot of folks aren't all in on their quit when they show up here and many never get there.
Do what you can to help them, but in the end they have to want it and do it. You can't quit for them. It is sad as hell, because we know they can have a better life when they are not feeding the addiction and because we know if is very possible to be quit.
Hang in, I quit with you today!
I know what you are saying brother. It is frustrating watching folks just drive off the road as though nobody painted lines or turned on the lights for them. The path is as clear as day and not very hard to follow. The roadmap is in the KTC forums and HOF speeches, chat, all over the place here.
You do it right- map in hand, eyes on the road and QLF every damn day.
I am proud to be quit with you.
FI,
Those of us who take our QUIT seriously and take accountability for our words and actions are right there with you. Just do not let the jumpers sway you or cause you unrest.
Remember that it is only a few that can overcome odds and be in control of their own decisions. Often today we have more followers than we do leaders.
I will follow you on any given day but know that me and many of the other Duck Fips will be ready if something happened to pick you up and carry you until your legs are ready to run again.
Also, there is even a smaller percentage or people who actually do quit and quit on their own. Although that may be a minute percentage they still quit none the less. However, the rest of us can all sit here and continue our daily task and QUIT together.
I have meet a good many people on here that have either been helpful, been an asshole or just plan been a whole ass. I am still here because of all of those people and so are you.
QFQQ - Pinched
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Well, today is 41... I am sick of people not posting role like it is their DAMN JOB! I am not a control freak.. nor do I think I know everything. BUUUUTTTT DAMN! How many freakin people need to leave the sight....cave..... or whatever before some people get it! I am freakin 41 days into this fight and I had my first DIP Dream last night. Scarred the shit out of me this morning! Why am I just now having a dip dream? This plays into my feelings and thoughts below.
I am I fucking tired of fellow FIPS gettin their ass handed to them by the NIC BITCH! Sorry for my language..I only desire to be sincere and honest about my frustration. It seems like someone falls to the NIC every few days. Are you ready to be next?
If you don't have enough time in your day to post roll then how will you not fail sooner or later? When someone doesn't post then you are creating doubt about your quit, your word, and whether you value the relationship you have with the other Ducks.
There is a relationship there. Just because I don't text you everyday doesn't mean I don't give a shit. It prolly means I don't have your damn number. Heck, ask the guys whose numbers I have. They get sick of my random texts some days.
ToeTAG is not a n extra pile of shit thrown on the shitty cake I was already eating. Come on DUCKS. Post Roll and fight for each other! Damn it TOETAG!!!!!!!!!!!
It looks like countryboy, cherish, whip and klugman may be next. What is going on with people.
My rant is over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 'bang head'Â 'bang head'Â 'bang head'Â 'bang head'Â 'bang head'
I have been there brother.......Dont let other quits and their shortcomings get you down! YOUR QUIT IS NUMERO UNO!!! All you can do is offer the kool aid. They have to drink it!! Stay strong my brother!!
J
It is frustrating, irritating and sad. But the reality is a lot of folks aren't all in on their quit when they show up here and many never get there.
Do what you can to help them, but in the end they have to want it and do it. You can't quit for them. It is sad as hell, because we know they can have a better life when they are not feeding the addiction and because we know if is very possible to be quit.
Hang in, I quit with you today!
I know what you are saying brother. It is frustrating watching folks just drive off the road as though nobody painted lines or turned on the lights for them. The path is as clear as day and not very hard to follow. The roadmap is in the KTC forums and HOF speeches, chat, all over the place here.
You do it right- map in hand, eyes on the road and QLF every damn day.
I am proud to be quit with you.
FI,
Those of us who take our QUIT seriously and take accountability for our words and actions are right there with you. Just do not let the jumpers sway you or cause you unrest.
Remember that it is only a few that can overcome odds and be in control of their own decisions. Often today we have more followers than we do leaders.
I will follow you on any given day but know that me and many of the other Duck Fips will be ready if something happened to pick you up and carry you until your legs are ready to run again.
Also, there is even a smaller percentage or people who actually do quit and quit on their own. Although that may be a minute percentage they still quit none the less. However, the rest of us can all sit here and continue our daily task and QUIT together.
I have meet a good many people on here that have either been helpful, been an asshole or just plan been a whole ass. I am still here because of all of those people and so are you.
QFQQ - Pinched
We are all here to quit, Some actually succeed because they learn what there addiction means! It means we are addicts who cannot ever lose sight of the daily battle. ODAAT! I do not care what day we are on, 1 or 1000.... We have to guard our quit like our lives depend on it, because it often does. Others fail because they think they have gained control over an uncontrollable enemy! They fall away or have a planned cave because it was not in the forefront of there minds. It does not matter what others do. We have a lot of bad ass quitters here and those are the ones we need to surround ourselves with. Learn from them and offer your own encouragement. We need to offer help to new guys but until they become invested in there own quit with plus 1's, our help falls on deaf ears. We offer the road map, they have to follow! When they do, they become friends and allies! I am glad that this issue makes you mad! It should! This is a serious matter! You keep adding the plus ones and be a leader! Your quit will grow and the others will follow or fail! Success over addiction is a choice! You make it each day you post roll. Others make it or fail when they make there choices! Do not lose sight of your quit! At the end of the day we all are selfish and are here for themselves! Help the ones you can and take help from the ones who make your quit stronger!
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August 12, 2013-Day 48 without Nic/6300 plus with Nic.
Oh how I long for the NIc to leave me alone. Although I am 48 a days in the Weed continues to tease. I have been doing well and life is much better being quit. However, i do sit almost everyday and think about how hate Nicotine. I have been blessed to not have any situations to this point that have drastically tempted me. However, everyday Nic is churpin in my ear.
Posting messages on this site and texting fellow quitters has made all the difference in my Quit! I refuse to let myself down by turning my back on my fellow Fips who are fighting ignorance every damn day with me. The ignorance of picking up this nasty shit for whatever reason many years ago and thinking this weed is harmless. The ignorance of believing I was a "Special Butterfly" and I could quit anytime. The Nic tries to get me to bite on this bait of a lie all the time.
A couple weekends ago I was visiting my brother and he had a fatty in his check when me met up. He lives about 4hrs from me and we only see each other 4 or 5 times a year now. Anyway, I started to give him some other brother crap about his dipping. Guess what his response was when I told him I quit. It was like this:
"Well, good for you. Your really someone who should be telling me to Quit. How long did you dip...like, since you were 14.. I have only been doing it for 8 or so....I guess I can do it for 12 more and then quit like you..."
I just looked at him and said, "that is freakin jackass talk right there. Do what you want then." We didn't talk about it the rest of the weekend. He wasn't open to it anyway.
I just wanted to document a few things just for the sake of it. My fog is pretty much goin but the craves still come. I use Smokey Mountain quite a bit. I hate this cause my boys still see the can and I spit in bottles. However, it is nic free and I am using it less. Sleeping is goin well but I have put on 15lbs. I want to start running/working out again but I am lacking time. I need to reorganize my time to make this a priority. I used to workout 4 or 5 days a week. Anyway, I love being Quit and I appreciate all the support from the KTC members. What I am most proud of at this point is being a DUCK FIP...QUACK!QUACK! Nothing else can compare! 'na na'
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FI, it is assholes like you that make me know that if I ever stop quitting I will never hear the end of it. Insert Renee Zellweiger voice - "you complete me FI". OK all gayness aside...
I quit with you each and every day and although there are quite a few vets and others that have helped in the making of my QUIT my fellow Fips are far and above the biggest reason for my success and QUIT.
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August 12, 2013-Day 48 without Nic/6300 plus with Nic.
Oh how I long for the NIc to leave me alone. Although I am 48 a days in the Weed continues to tease. I have been doing well and life is much better being quit. However, i do sit almost everyday and think about how hate Nicotine. I have been blessed to not have any situations to this point that have drastically tempted me. However, everyday Nic is churpin in my ear.
Posting messages on this site and texting fellow quitters has made all the difference in my Quit! I refuse to let myself down by turning my back on my fellow Fips who are fighting ignorance every damn day with me. The ignorance of picking up this nasty shit for whatever reason many years ago and thinking this weed is harmless. The ignorance of believing I was a "Special Butterfly" and I could quit anytime. The Nic tries to get me to bite on this bait of a lie all the time.
A couple weekends ago I was visiting my brother and he had a fatty in his check when me met up. He lives about 4hrs from me and we only see each other 4 or 5 times a year now. Anyway, I started to give him some other brother crap about his dipping. Guess what his response was when I told him I quit. It was like this:
"Well, good for you. Your really someone who should be telling me to Quit. How long did you dip...like, since you were 14.. I have only been doing it for 8 or so....I guess I can do it for 12 more and then quit like you..."
I just looked at him and said, "that is freakin jackass talk right there. Do what you want then." We didn't talk about it the rest of the weekend. He wasn't open to it anyway.
I just wanted to document a few things just for the sake of it. My fog is pretty much goin but the craves still come. I use Smokey Mountain quite a bit. I hate this cause my boys still see the can and I spit in bottles. However, it is nic free and I am using it less. Sleeping is goin well but I have put on 15lbs. I want to start running/working out again but I am lacking time. I need to reorganize my time to make this a priority. I used to workout 4 or 5 days a week. Anyway, I love being Quit and I appreciate all the support from the KTC members. What I am most proud of at this point is being a DUCK FIP...QUACK!QUACK! Nothing else can compare! 'na na'
48 days is awesome.
I was surprised how quickly that I was "OK" without something in my mouth. I went through 4 cans of SM and never bought anymore.
I can see packing on weight, I am eating pretty poorly right now but I can fix that and will pretty soon.
No time to work out is a pretty crappy excuse. Either give me a better one or go get your butt outside and do something. There are 24 hours in a day and you are not working or sleeping all those hours. Maybe go run for 20 minutes vs eating dinner for 20 minutes?
The last paragraph is straight to the point which is how you talk so that's how I gave it to you...lol....
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FI, it is assholes like you that make me know that if I ever stop quitting I will never hear the end of it. Insert Renee Zellweiger voice - "you complete me FI". OK all gayness aside...
I quit with you each and every day and although there are quite a few vets and others that have helped in the making of my QUIT my fellow Fips are far and above the biggest reason for my success and QUIT.
Your damn right! My head would be so far up your ass givin you hell you wouldn't even need ears to hear it. You colon would be talkin to you. The feeling is mutual.You had me at, “ I just wish the rest of group would bend over, put their arms between their legs, grab ahold of each ear and quickly pull their head from their ass and start owning their Quit.”
Quit on DUCK! QUACK QUACK! Thanks for all the help!
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August 12, 2013-Day 48 without Nic/6300 plus with Nic.
Oh how I long for the NIc to leave me alone. Although I am 48 a days in the Weed continues to tease. I have been doing well and life is much better being quit. However, i do sit almost everyday and think about how hate Nicotine. I have been blessed to not have any situations to this point that have drastically tempted me. However, everyday Nic is churpin in my ear.
Posting messages on this site and texting fellow quitters has made all the difference in my Quit! I refuse to let myself down by turning my back on my fellow Fips who are fighting ignorance every damn day with me. The ignorance of picking up this nasty shit for whatever reason many years ago and thinking this weed is harmless. The ignorance of believing I was a "Special Butterfly"Â and I could quit anytime. The Nic tries to get me to bite on this bait of a lie all the time.
A couple weekends ago I was visiting my brother and he had a fatty in his check when me met up. He lives about 4hrs from me and we only see each other 4 or 5 times a year now. Anyway, I started to give him some other brother crap about his dipping. Guess what his response was when I told him I quit. It was like this:
"Well, good for you. Your really someone who should be telling me to Quit. How long did you dip...like, since you were 14.. I have only been doing it for 8 or so....I guess I can do it for 12 more and then quit like you..."
I just looked at him and said, "that is freakin jackass talk right there. Do what you want then." We didn't talk about it the rest of the weekend. He wasn't open to it anyway.
I just wanted to document a few things just for the sake of it. My fog is pretty much goin but the craves still come. I use Smokey Mountain quite a bit. I hate this cause my boys still see the can and I spit in bottles. However, it is nic free and I am using it less. Sleeping is goin well but I have put on 15lbs. I want to start running/working out again but I am lacking time. I need to reorganize my time to make this a priority. I used to workout 4 or 5 days a week. Anyway, I love being Quit and I appreciate all the support from the KTC members. What I am most proud of at this point is being a DUCK FIP...QUACK!QUACK! Nothing else can compare! 'na na'
48 days is awesome.
I was surprised how quickly that I was "OK" without something in my mouth. I went through 4 cans of SM and never bought anymore.
I can see packing on weight, I am eating pretty poorly right now but I can fix that and will pretty soon.
No time to work out is a pretty crappy excuse. Either give me a better one or go get your butt outside and do something. There are 24 hours in a day and you are not working or sleeping all those hours. Maybe go run for 20 minutes vs eating dinner for 20 minutes?
The last paragraph is straight to the point which is how you talk so that's how I gave it to you...lol....
Your right PD. Get off my ass and go workout..It is that simple. Thanks brutha. :D
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This was my reply to a post from Gorilla1. I copied and pasted it in my introduction because I wanted it for future reference.
hey gorilla,
I am not sure I have the input your looking for but I do recognize some of myself in your words. No, I am not divorced but actually happily married. I am not familiar with your situation but I assume it is painful even if you totally don't want to admit it. But again, I am not familiar with your situation.
As to not wanting to feel and dealing with the sense of loneliness. That is where I find myself at times. Actually, I feel this way quite often. I find myself searching for something to help me deal with the anxiety of not adding up. It could be not adding up as a husband, a father, a coworker, a brother, a KTC quitter, a student (Masters classes), or whatever. We are going through a time of huge adjustment. Our brains are trying to wake up and re-wire. We are trying to grieve (many won't admit this) loosing a best friend. Grant it, the NIC is a piece of Crap best friend that promises everything and then takes all it promised plus everything else by the time we realize, "Oh crap!"
None the less, it is a companion that we have had to decide we were no longer letting it use us. This can cause a sense of loneliness, anger, denial, and even depression in some.
Furthermore, addiction is selfishness! When we start to separate from the addiction and our mind begins to get clear it is common for the addict to look at their life and think, "What the heck!" It can be a roller coaster of emotions.
I find myself struggling in many areas since I have quit 48days ago. The longer I am quit the more I have understood how the addiction impacted my thinking in all aspects of life but mostly my relationships. I lied to myself and others for so long that I find myself questioning my own word and not trusting myself. I thought I valued integrity and thought I was a man of integrity until I Quit. It makes sense to me but it is not something I am proud to admit.
Now I look and see integrity in the mirror because I am actually behaving with it. But that produces some shame and guilt within as well. I am trying to work through this now with a clear head that is not drug influenced. I am learning to deal with my feelings with out the drug but I often need to force myself to do it without my coping mechanism of 20yrs. This is a struggle but I have Christ in my corner and he knows these struggles. His grace amazes me! It is always enough!
I didn't realize how selfish my addiction made me. I was so blind that obvious things I see now could have smacked me in the face and I would have blamed someone around me.
Anyway, I guess what I want to really say or the advice I have for you is to EMBRACE this suck. Helping others is good but don't allow it to be your new distraction. By letting yourself suffer then you are uncovering parts of you and empowering yourself to deal with them. That strengthens your quit and guides you towards a life of peace/solace. I think many of us try to lie about being broken. We try to find some fake finite stuff to fill a void within because we don't want to admit we are broken. However, I continue to find out the more I accept I am broken the more I actually become whole as I allow God's grace to heal me.
Well, even if you don't believe in the things I do I hope you can still see how the thinking applies. Understanding our limitations empowers us. It guides to opportunities of success and growth. If we don't understand our limits then we enter some opportunities expecting to much. These situations no longer become and opportunity of growth but actually failure, dissatisfaction, and a hindrance because our perspective was messed up from the start.
Okay, I have written enough for now. Thanks for your words as they prompted these thoughts. I am going to copy this and paste it in my thread just to have for future. I hope there is something in this you find beneficial.
I quit with you today Gorilla!
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Well, here I am on day 35.... Wow, I am proud but also frustrated, pissed, depressed, foggy, tired, stressed, feeling impatient as I wait for improvement, and who knows what else. I see some my my Fellow Duck Fippers kickin butt and others falling off. Encouraging but frustrating at the same time. I have notice communication drop off between some of the group. I see people post and bump others then not spend the five mins it takes to fix it and I'm left thinking, "Freakin selfish B.S"......... at least that is my opinion. If you don't know how to fix a bump then ask someone.
With that being said I wanted to post some comments on the status of our group and whatever else comes to mind. I think many of us are going through the same challenges. The main difference I have seen so far is that some quitters don't appear to believe in the system designed by this sight. Some people go through life thinking they are a "special butterfly" (not my words but very appropriate).
Hence, they can do everything different and better than anyone who has already done it. Some may say this is addiction talking but I think it is more of a personality trait they have adopted to help protect themselves from the true insecurities they hold. You know, fake beliefs about one's abilities creates a facade of confidence. Anyway, this is really troubling to me. It could be due to my older brother instincts wanting to protect others... I don't know.. Either way it is still there.Â
Which leads me to saying this. Get your heads out of your 'arse'! People who think they have this whipped at 10days, 20days, 30 days, 40 days, etc.. are either smoking some good stuff or just plain idiotic ignorant nincompoops. You may think, "What a dick to say something like that... or.... he doesn't know me?" Well, you are likely right that I don't know you and maybe I am being a dick. I can live with this if it gets some peoples attention and saves a quitter.
This drug has been proving to be as addictive as heroine. The mind games are extremely tricky. I am not proud of this and I have expressed in posts before, I was stopped for over 3yrs.. I got complacent and let Nic get her toe in the door. Addiction is different then other things in our lives that are unhealthy. Addiction will not take a foot when given an inch. Addiction will take the WHOLE DAMN THING! Relapse is not something you stop! IT IS SOMETHING YOU PREVENT!!!!!!! Therefore, get your damn numbers out there to fellow quitters and stay connected every damn day. POST FREAKIN ROLE. This bullshit of posting two days then missing 3 then posting one then missing 2 then posting again is for the people who want to fail and WILL FAIL because you don't take this seriously. You may feel confident now, which is what it wants you to feel, but it will comeback with vengeance. Will yo be ready or complacent because you think it is easy?
I don't know everything and I don't know all of you but I do care about your quit. Don't lie to yourself and listen to all of the vets telling you to get connected and post ROLL first thing. There are plenty of people on here willing to build their quit with you. Heck, I don't have time to take care of the spreadsheet and check for bumps all day but I do it anyway because it helps me quit. I have had some bitch of cravings the last couple weeks that I was able to fight off because I didn't want to look like a "douche" if I caved. If you care about your quit and each other in the group you will make time.
My rant is now over but I want my fellow DUCK FIPPERS and any who wish to read this to understand I only write this challenge because I care. I care about your quit and I care about mine. When I see others fail it impacts my quit as well. I quit with all of you today! QUACK! QUACK! DUCK FIPS 4 LIFE!
well stated as someone is 'getting' it. Nice job on over a month, and just remember, you poisoned yourself for how long and it is not a quick fix but a progression in order to get back to a semblance of normal.
Keep up the great quit, one day at a time.
I hear you Sir and undertand. Thanks for the encouragement. Freakin depression crap has been pissing me off. Tired of being tired and sad. Want to move on now but know it takes time. I appreciate you helping me keep it in perspective. ODAAT
QUACK!QUACK!
You're my DUCK FI!
You have helped me tremendously, I am glad to quit with you every day!
Thanks Pinched! I am with you too. See, when your up you can help pick up us low-bodies and when we are we can pay it forward. QUACK!
Damn I'm glad I read that, proud to quit with you today
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bumpThis was my reply to a post from Gorilla1. I copied and pasted it in my introduction because I wanted it for future reference.
hey gorilla,
I am not sure I have the input your looking for but I do recognize some of myself in your words. No, I am not divorced but actually happily married. I am not familiar with your situation but I assume it is painful even if you totally don't want to admit it. But again, I am not familiar with your situation.
As to not wanting to feel and dealing with the sense of loneliness. That is where I find myself at times. Actually, I feel this way quite often. I find myself searching for something to help me deal with the anxiety of not adding up. It could be not adding up as a husband, a father, a coworker, a brother, a KTC quitter, a student (Masters classes), or whatever. We are going through a time of huge adjustment. Our brains are trying to wake up and re-wire. We are trying to grieve (many won't admit this) loosing a best friend. Grant it, the NIC is a piece of Crap best friend that promises everything and then takes all it promised plus everything else by the time we realize, "Oh crap!"
None the less, it is a companion that we have had to decide we were no longer letting it use us. This can cause a sense of loneliness, anger, denial, and even depression in some.
Furthermore, addiction is selfishness! When we start to separate from the addiction and our mind begins to get clear it is common for the addict to look at their life and think, "What the heck!" It can be a roller coaster of emotions.
I find myself struggling in many areas since I have quit 48days ago. The longer I am quit the more I have understood how the addiction impacted my thinking in all aspects of life but mostly my relationships. I lied to myself and others for so long that I find myself questioning my own word and not trusting myself. I thought I valued integrity and thought I was a man of integrity until I Quit. It makes sense to me but it is not something I am proud to admit.
Now I look and see integrity in the mirror because I am actually behaving with it. But that produces some shame and guilt within as well. I am trying to work through this now with a clear head that is not drug influenced. I am learning to deal with my feelings with out the drug but I often need to force myself to do it without my coping mechanism of 20yrs. This is a struggle but I have Christ in my corner and he knows these struggles. His grace amazes me! It is always enough!
I didn't realize how selfish my addiction made me. I was so blind that obvious things I see now could have smacked me in the face and I would have blamed someone around me.
Anyway, I guess what I want to really say or the advice I have for you is to EMBRACE this suck. Helping others is good but don't allow it to be your new distraction. By letting yourself suffer then you are uncovering parts of you and empowering yourself to deal with them. That strengthens your quit and guides you towards a life of peace/solace. I think many of us try to lie about being broken. We try to find some fake finite stuff to fill a void within because we don't want to admit we are broken. However, I continue to find out the more I accept I am broken the more I actually become whole as I allow God's grace to heal me.
Well, even if you don't believe in the things I do I hope you can still see how the thinking applies. Understanding our limitations empowers us. It guides to opportunities of success and growth. If we don't understand our limits then we enter some opportunities expecting to much. These situations no longer become and opportunity of growth but actually failure, dissatisfaction, and a hindrance because our perspective was messed up from the start.
Okay, I have written enough for now. Thanks for your words as they prompted these thoughts. I am going to copy this and paste it in my thread just to have for future. I hope there is something in this you find beneficial.
I quit with you today Gorilla!
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August 12, 2013-Day 48 without Nic/6300 plus with Nic.
Oh how I long for the NIc to leave me alone. Although I am 48 a days in the Weed continues to tease. I have been doing well and life is much better being quit. However, i do sit almost everyday and think about how hate Nicotine. I have been blessed to not have any situations to this point that have drastically tempted me. However, everyday Nic is churpin in my ear.
Posting messages on this site and texting fellow quitters has made all the difference in my Quit! I refuse to let myself down by turning my back on my fellow Fips who are fighting ignorance every damn day with me. The ignorance of picking up this nasty shit for whatever reason many years ago and thinking this weed is harmless. The ignorance of believing I was a "Special Butterfly"Â and I could quit anytime. The Nic tries to get me to bite on this bait of a lie all the time.
A couple weekends ago I was visiting my brother and he had a fatty in his check when me met up. He lives about 4hrs from me and we only see each other 4 or 5 times a year now. Anyway, I started to give him some other brother crap about his dipping. Guess what his response was when I told him I quit. It was like this:
"Well, good for you. Your really someone who should be telling me to Quit. How long did you dip...like, since you were 14.. I have only been doing it for 8 or so....I guess I can do it for 12 more and then quit like you..."
I just looked at him and said, "that is freakin jackass talk right there. Do what you want then." We didn't talk about it the rest of the weekend. He wasn't open to it anyway.
I just wanted to document a few things just for the sake of it. My fog is pretty much goin but the craves still come. I use Smokey Mountain quite a bit. I hate this cause my boys still see the can and I spit in bottles. However, it is nic free and I am using it less. Sleeping is goin well but I have put on 15lbs. I want to start running/working out again but I am lacking time. I need to reorganize my time to make this a priority. I used to workout 4 or 5 days a week. Anyway, I love being Quit and I appreciate all the support from the KTC members. What I am most proud of at this point is being a DUCK FIP...QUACK!QUACK! Nothing else can compare! 'na na'
48 days is awesome.
I was surprised how quickly that I was "OK" without something in my mouth. I went through 4 cans of SM and never bought anymore.
I can see packing on weight, I am eating pretty poorly right now but I can fix that and will pretty soon.
No time to work out is a pretty crappy excuse. Either give me a better one or go get your butt outside and do something. There are 24 hours in a day and you are not working or sleeping all those hours. Maybe go run for 20 minutes vs eating dinner for 20 minutes?
The last paragraph is straight to the point which is how you talk so that's how I gave it to you...lol....
Your right PD. Get off my ass and go workout..It is that simple. Thanks brutha. :D
I am full of useless knowledge so hit me up anytime you need something.
It's kind of like "not dipping" which is like "not breathing" which is like "not eating". It's all difficult but not impossible.
BTW....Don't try the not breathing part, it ends up bad....
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August 12, 2013-Day 48 without Nic/6300 plus with Nic.
Oh how I long for the NIc to leave me alone. Although I am 48 a days in the Weed continues to tease. I have been doing well and life is much better being quit. However, i do sit almost everyday and think about how hate Nicotine. I have been blessed to not have any situations to this point that have drastically tempted me. However, everyday Nic is churpin in my ear.
Posting messages on this site and texting fellow quitters has made all the difference in my Quit! I refuse to let myself down by turning my back on my fellow Fips who are fighting ignorance every damn day with me. The ignorance of picking up this nasty shit for whatever reason many years ago and thinking this weed is harmless. The ignorance of believing I was a "Special Butterfly"Â and I could quit anytime. The Nic tries to get me to bite on this bait of a lie all the time.
A couple weekends ago I was visiting my brother and he had a fatty in his check when me met up. He lives about 4hrs from me and we only see each other 4 or 5 times a year now. Anyway, I started to give him some other brother crap about his dipping. Guess what his response was when I told him I quit. It was like this:
"Well, good for you. Your really someone who should be telling me to Quit. How long did you dip...like, since you were 14.. I have only been doing it for 8 or so....I guess I can do it for 12 more and then quit like you..."
I just looked at him and said, "that is freakin jackass talk right there. Do what you want then." We didn't talk about it the rest of the weekend. He wasn't open to it anyway.
I just wanted to document a few things just for the sake of it. My fog is pretty much goin but the craves still come. I use Smokey Mountain quite a bit. I hate this cause my boys still see the can and I spit in bottles. However, it is nic free and I am using it less. Sleeping is goin well but I have put on 15lbs. I want to start running/working out again but I am lacking time. I need to reorganize my time to make this a priority. I used to workout 4 or 5 days a week. Anyway, I love being Quit and I appreciate all the support from the KTC members. What I am most proud of at this point is being a DUCK FIP...QUACK!QUACK! Nothing else can compare! 'na na'
48 days is awesome.
I was surprised how quickly that I was "OK" without something in my mouth. I went through 4 cans of SM and never bought anymore.
I can see packing on weight, I am eating pretty poorly right now but I can fix that and will pretty soon.
No time to work out is a pretty crappy excuse. Either give me a better one or go get your butt outside and do something. There are 24 hours in a day and you are not working or sleeping all those hours. Maybe go run for 20 minutes vs eating dinner for 20 minutes?
The last paragraph is straight to the point which is how you talk so that's how I gave it to you...lol....
Your right PD. Get off my ass and go workout..It is that simple. Thanks brutha. :D
I am full of useless knowledge so hit me up anytime you need something.
It's kind of like "not dipping" which is like "not breathing" which is like "not eating". It's all difficult but not impossible.
BTW....Don't try the not breathing part, it ends up bad....
FI, sounds like your quit is chugging along fine. I am up weight too and it seems to be a common side effect. Someone stated that it is easier to lose weight than cancer so don't sweat the lbs right now. Exercise is always good even if you just do some push-ups and sit-ups during commercials while watching tv. I am on day 78 and have been enjoying lots of crave free days so I would say you are getting close to better days that way. I used back-off for the first week of my quit hard, and then after the first month I was on to bubble gum, jolly ranchers, and sunflower seeds for my oral fixation. Pretty much down to gum if anything right now, but I still finish the night with seeds... IDK if any of this helps, but don't worry about anything other than staying quit right now. You are winning!
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August 12, 2013-Day 48 without Nic/6300 plus with Nic.
Oh how I long for the NIc to leave me alone. Although I am 48 a days in the Weed continues to tease. I have been doing well and life is much better being quit. However, i do sit almost everyday and think about how hate Nicotine. I have been blessed to not have any situations to this point that have drastically tempted me. However, everyday Nic is churpin in my ear.
Posting messages on this site and texting fellow quitters has made all the difference in my Quit! I refuse to let myself down by turning my back on my fellow Fips who are fighting ignorance every damn day with me. The ignorance of picking up this nasty shit for whatever reason many years ago and thinking this weed is harmless. The ignorance of believing I was a "Special Butterfly"Â and I could quit anytime. The Nic tries to get me to bite on this bait of a lie all the time.
A couple weekends ago I was visiting my brother and he had a fatty in his check when me met up. He lives about 4hrs from me and we only see each other 4 or 5 times a year now. Anyway, I started to give him some other brother crap about his dipping. Guess what his response was when I told him I quit. It was like this:
"Well, good for you. Your really someone who should be telling me to Quit. How long did you dip...like, since you were 14.. I have only been doing it for 8 or so....I guess I can do it for 12 more and then quit like you..."
I just looked at him and said, "that is freakin jackass talk right there. Do what you want then." We didn't talk about it the rest of the weekend. He wasn't open to it anyway.
I just wanted to document a few things just for the sake of it. My fog is pretty much goin but the craves still come. I use Smokey Mountain quite a bit. I hate this cause my boys still see the can and I spit in bottles. However, it is nic free and I am using it less. Sleeping is goin well but I have put on 15lbs. I want to start running/working out again but I am lacking time. I need to reorganize my time to make this a priority. I used to workout 4 or 5 days a week. Anyway, I love being Quit and I appreciate all the support from the KTC members. What I am most proud of at this point is being a DUCK FIP...QUACK!QUACK! Nothing else can compare! 'na na'
48 days is awesome.
I was surprised how quickly that I was "OK" without something in my mouth. I went through 4 cans of SM and never bought anymore.
I can see packing on weight, I am eating pretty poorly right now but I can fix that and will pretty soon.
No time to work out is a pretty crappy excuse. Either give me a better one or go get your butt outside and do something. There are 24 hours in a day and you are not working or sleeping all those hours. Maybe go run for 20 minutes vs eating dinner for 20 minutes?
The last paragraph is straight to the point which is how you talk so that's how I gave it to you...lol....
Your right PD. Get off my ass and go workout..It is that simple. Thanks brutha. :D
I am full of useless knowledge so hit me up anytime you need something.
It's kind of like "not dipping" which is like "not breathing" which is like "not eating". It's all difficult but not impossible.
BTW....Don't try the not breathing part, it ends up bad....
FI, sounds like your quit is chugging along fine. I am up weight too and it seems to be a common side effect. Someone stated that it is easier to lose weight than cancer so don't sweat the lbs right now. Exercise is always good even if you just do some push-ups and sit-ups during commercials while watching tv. I am on day 78 and have been enjoying lots of crave free days so I would say you are getting close to better days that way. I used back-off for the first week of my quit hard, and then after the first month I was on to bubble gum, jolly ranchers, and sunflower seeds for my oral fixation. Pretty much down to gum if anything right now, but I still finish the night with seeds... IDK if any of this helps, but don't worry about anything other than staying quit right now. You are winning!
FI... Keep up the fight and the aggression towards your quit. That fire burning dont hurt one bit bro. You are killing it. As far as weight gain. Start attacking that the same way you are your quit and the flab with start melting off. QLF with you today!
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August 14, 2013-DAY 50
Well I could post some info about how I am feeling and what I have been struggling with but, I am not going too. Instead, I am posting something to remind me of what love ones go through when someone special to them dies.This story hits home for me because it is my sister in law who died from Breast cancer. Cancer she obtained mostly due to drinking large amounts of soy milk when nursing two of her 6 children(ages 20 thru 3) that significantly elevated specific hormones that increase the disposition of cancer. This is what doctors had said. She was only 43 or so. Anyway, these are the words of her 20 year old daughter, Leah. She posted this today.......
yesterday marked the 1 year anniversary since my mom passed away...for the most part i kept myself so busy that there was no time to think or process through everything the past year has brought us and the healing that has occurred. the day my mom passed away me and the rest of my sibs were at Jacks pets picking out fish when my dad called and told us...yesterday ...i went back to Jacks and got myself another fish (the picture is the kind of fish i got-rainbow shark-..mine likes to hide so i couldn't get a picture of him...his names sharkbait). my mom is the whole reason i ever had fish to begin with (i won a fish at the fair a couple years ago and despite my dads protesting she said i should keep it) haaa. this morning as i lay in bed i kinda took time to just think back to everything my mom went through...how hopeless the situation seemed sometimes but how hard she fought to stay with us. it hurts and is extremely hard to think about and remember how she looked and how the cancer just tore her body apart...but remembering that and allowing myself to feel that pain is all a part of the healing that i have deprived myself of most of this past year. my cousin reminded me of something that I hadn't really recognized in the moment. but during my mom sickness..in her GREATEST moment of need...she was STILL thinking of others. she never wanted others lives to stop for hers. she was selfless to the core and that rocks me deep. who am i as a daughter if i don't continue that in honor of her? its definitely something to think about. thank you for all who prayed and thought of our whole family yesterday...love you all.
I have a really hard time reading this. The reason I have read it, will continue to read it, and want to read it is because I don't want my boys writing something like this about me when their 10, 20, 30, or 50.
This is the endall that NIC leads too! I couldn't have described the pain like this. So I utilized my niece. I love her and my heart is aching for her, he father, and her five siblings.
Stay Quit! QUACK!QUACK!
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August 14, 2013-DAY 50
Well I could post some info about how I am feeling and what I have been struggling with but, I am not going too. Instead, I am posting something to remind me of what love ones go through when someone special to them dies.This story hits home for me because it is my sister in law who died from Breast cancer. Cancer she obtained mostly due to drinking large amounts of soy milk when nursing two of her 6 children(ages 20 thru 3) that significantly elevated specific hormones that increase the disposition of cancer. This is what doctors had said. She was only 43 or so. Anyway, these are the words of her 20 year old daughter, Leah. She posted this today.......
yesterday marked the 1 year anniversary since my mom passed away...for the most part i kept myself so busy that there was no time to think or process through everything the past year has brought us and the healing that has occurred. the day my mom passed away me and the rest of my sibs were at Jacks pets picking out fish when my dad called and told us...yesterday ...i went back to Jacks and got myself another fish (the picture is the kind of fish i got-rainbow shark-..mine likes to hide so i couldn't get a picture of him...his names sharkbait). my mom is the whole reason i ever had fish to begin with (i won a fish at the fair a couple years ago and despite my dads protesting she said i should keep it) haaa. this morning as i lay in bed i kinda took time to just think back to everything my mom went through...how hopeless the situation seemed sometimes but how hard she fought to stay with us. it hurts and is extremely hard to think about and remember how she looked and how the cancer just tore her body apart...but remembering that and allowing myself to feel that pain is all a part of the healing that i have deprived myself of most of this past year. my cousin reminded me of something that I hadn't really recognized in the moment. but during my mom sickness..in her GREATEST moment of need...she was STILL thinking of others. she never wanted others lives to stop for hers. she was selfless to the core and that rocks me deep. who am i as a daughter if i don't continue that in honor of her? its definitely something to think about. thank you for all who prayed and thought of our whole family yesterday...love you all.
I have a really hard time reading this. The reason I have read it, will continue to read it, and want to read it is because I don't want my boys writing something like this about me when their 10, 20, 30, or 50.
This is the endall that NIC leads too! I couldn't have described the pain like this. So I utilized my niece. I love her and my heart is aching for her, he father, and her five siblings.
Stay Quit! QUACK!QUACK!
FI, thank you for sharing something so personal. I continue to quit with you and want you to know that I am with you. You know how to get ahold of me (well now anyway) so do it.
That sounds like a great celebration of life through reflection!
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Very touching FI.
I quit with you buddy.
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August 14, 2013-DAY 50
Well I could post some info about how I am feeling and what I have been struggling with but, I am not going too. Instead, I am posting something to remind me of what love ones go through when someone special to them dies.This story hits home for me because it is my sister in law who died from Breast cancer. Cancer she obtained mostly due to drinking large amounts of soy milk when nursing two of her 6 children(ages 20 thru 3) that significantly elevated specific hormones that increase the disposition of cancer. This is what doctors had said. She was only 43 or so. Anyway, these are the words of her 20 year old daughter, Leah. She posted this today.......
yesterday marked the 1 year anniversary since my mom passed away...for the most part i kept myself so busy that there was no time to think or process through everything the past year has brought us and the healing that has occurred. the day my mom passed away me and the rest of my sibs were at Jacks pets picking out fish when my dad called and told us...yesterday ...i went back to Jacks and got myself another fish (the picture is the kind of fish i got-rainbow shark-..mine likes to hide so i couldn't get a picture of him...his names sharkbait). my mom is the whole reason i ever had fish to begin with (i won a fish at the fair a couple years ago and despite my dads protesting she said i should keep it) haaa. this morning as i lay in bed i kinda took time to just think back to everything my mom went through...how hopeless the situation seemed sometimes but how hard she fought to stay with us. it hurts and is extremely hard to think about and remember how she looked and how the cancer just tore her body apart...but remembering that and allowing myself to feel that pain is all a part of the healing that i have deprived myself of most of this past year. my cousin reminded me of something that I hadn't really recognized in the moment. but during my mom sickness..in her GREATEST moment of need...she was STILL thinking of others. she never wanted others lives to stop for hers. she was selfless to the core and that rocks me deep. who am i as a daughter if i don't continue that in honor of her? its definitely something to think about. thank you for all who prayed and thought of our whole family yesterday...love you all.
I have a really hard time reading this. The reason I have read it, will continue to read it, and want to read it is because I don't want my boys writing something like this about me when their 10, 20, 30, or 50.
This is the endall that NIC leads too! I couldn't have described the pain like this. So I utilized my niece. I love her and my heart is aching for her, he father, and her five siblings.
Stay Quit! QUACK!QUACK!
FI, thank you for sharing something so personal. I continue to quit with you and want you to know that I am with you. You know how to get ahold of me (well now anyway) so do it.
That sounds like a great celebration of life through reflection!
The big C sucks man! Your family will be in my thoughts and prayers. I will use this story to make my quit stronger too in honor of your sister-in-law.
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August 14, 2013-DAY 50
Well I could post some info about how I am feeling and what I have been struggling with but, I am not going too. Instead, I am posting something to remind me of what love ones go through when someone special to them dies.This story hits home for me because it is my sister in law who died from Breast cancer. Cancer she obtained mostly due to drinking large amounts of soy milk when nursing two of her 6 children(ages 20 thru 3) that significantly elevated specific hormones that increase the disposition of cancer. This is what doctors had said. She was only 43 or so. Anyway, these are the words of her 20 year old daughter, Leah. She posted this today.......
yesterday marked the 1 year anniversary since my mom passed away...for the most part i kept myself so busy that there was no time to think or process through everything the past year has brought us and the healing that has occurred. the day my mom passed away me and the rest of my sibs were at Jacks pets picking out fish when my dad called and told us...yesterday ...i went back to Jacks and got myself another fish (the picture is the kind of fish i got-rainbow shark-..mine likes to hide so i couldn't get a picture of him...his names sharkbait). my mom is the whole reason i ever had fish to begin with (i won a fish at the fair a couple years ago and despite my dads protesting she said i should keep it) haaa. this morning as i lay in bed i kinda took time to just think back to everything my mom went through...how hopeless the situation seemed sometimes but how hard she fought to stay with us. it hurts and is extremely hard to think about and remember how she looked and how the cancer just tore her body apart...but remembering that and allowing myself to feel that pain is all a part of the healing that i have deprived myself of most of this past year. my cousin reminded me of something that I hadn't really recognized in the moment. but during my mom sickness..in her GREATEST moment of need...she was STILL thinking of others. she never wanted others lives to stop for hers. she was selfless to the core and that rocks me deep. who am i as a daughter if i don't continue that in honor of her? its definitely something to think about. thank you for all who prayed and thought of our whole family yesterday...love you all.
I have a really hard time reading this. The reason I have read it, will continue to read it, and want to read it is because I don't want my boys writing something like this about me when their 10, 20, 30, or 50.
This is the endall that NIC leads too! I couldn't have described the pain like this. So I utilized my niece. I love her and my heart is aching for her, he father, and her five siblings.
Stay Quit! QUACK!QUACK!
FI, thank you for sharing something so personal. I continue to quit with you and want you to know that I am with you. You know how to get ahold of me (well now anyway) so do it.
That sounds like a great celebration of life through reflection!
The big C sucks man! Your family will be in my thoughts and prayers. I will use this story to make my quit stronger too in honor of your sister-in-law.
Unbelievable we voluntarily ingested poisons that could kill us. NAFAR! Thanks for sharing :(
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Well, how can I describe day 57 and 56..55..54..53. …. I would say, “AAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!”
I have been fightin Nic hard the last few days. The weed has been whispering the B.S that she always does but it has been with vengeance. I have been in a huge slump since the weekend. Mood swings have been a complete pain in the rear. Monday night I could not get myself out of the irritability no matter what I did. I have continuously felt like something is missing. I don’t want a dip. I know it will not solve any of my problems but add another. However, the addiction has my mind suggesting I need something to make it feel differently. I simply don’t feel right. It feels like the “suck” all over again. WHHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY?????????
Deep Breathe……I understand why. I am simply frustrated with Nic and myself because I did this to me. I am worried and scared about failing too. I failed when I was 3 ½ yrs stopped once before, plus all the other ridiculous, uncommitted, and B.S. times I actually didn’t make it more than a few days to a week. I don’t trust myself. I actually have felt like crying a few times the last few days because I am angry, tired, and weary. I know I sound like a puss but it is how I have felt. Seeing guys drop like flies has had its moments getting me down as well. I worry about letting my kids and wife down. I worry about letting myself down another time, another time of me failing.
Even though the weed is trying to lure me in its web of deception, I know better. I am on guard. I have bruthaÂ’s of quit helping me fight the battle. I have vets who have posted their accounts so I can readÂ…read..read.. and remember the truth about the Weed! I have been involved with the site to a large degree to remind if I cave it will be an EPIC FAIL (as one vet suggests).
I AM NOT ALONE! I AM NOT ALONE! I AM NOT ALONE! I AM NOT ALONE! I AM NOT ALONE! I AM NOT ALONE! I AM NOT ALONE! I AM NOT ALONE!
I have 56 DUCKS fightin this war with me. I have 1,000Â’s of vets and bruthaÂ’s of quit helping me stand tall though the burden feels heavy at times. That is why I am quit on day 57 and I will remain this way for today. That is what I have committed too and how I will remain because I am a man of integrity. I POSTED ROLL. I CARE ABOUT MY WORD! PISS OF NIC AND KISS MY ASS!
I freakin hate NICOTINE! I freakin hate NICOTINE! I freakin hate NICOTINE! I freakin hate NICOTINE! I freakin hate NICOTINE! I freakin hate NICOTINE! I freakin hate NICOTINE! I freakin hate NICOTINE! I freakin hate NICOTINE! I freakin hate NICOTINE!
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Well, how can I describe day 57 and 56..55..54..53. …. I would say, “AAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!”
I have been fightin Nic hard the last few days. The weed has been whispering the B.S that she always does but it has been with vengeance. I have been in a huge slump since the weekend. Mood swings have been a complete pain in the rear. Monday night I could not get myself out of the irritability no matter what I did. I have continuously felt like something is missing. I don’t want a dip. I know it will not solve any of my problems but add another. However, the addiction has my mind suggesting I need something to make it feel differently. I simply don’t feel right. It feels like the “suck” all over again. WHHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY?????????
Deep Breathe……I understand why. I am simply frustrated with Nic and myself because I did this to me. I am worried and scared about failing too. I failed when I was 3 ½ yrs stopped once before, plus all the other ridiculous, uncommitted, and B.S. times I actually didn’t make it more than a few days to a week. I don’t trust myself. I actually have felt like crying a few times the last few days because I am angry, tired, and weary. I know I sound like a puss but it is how I have felt. Seeing guys drop like flies has had its moments getting me down as well. I worry about letting my kids and wife down. I worry about letting myself down another time, another time of me failing.
Even though the weed is trying to lure me in its web of deception, I know better. I am on guard. I have bruthaÂ’s of quit helping me fight the battle. I have vets who have posted their accounts so I can readÂ…read..read.. and remember the truth about the Weed! I have been involved with the site to a large degree to remind if I cave it will be an EPIC FAIL (as one vet suggests).
I AM NOT ALONE! I AM NOT ALONE! I AM NOT ALONE! I AM NOT ALONE! I AM NOT ALONE! I AM NOT ALONE! I AM NOT ALONE! I AM NOT ALONE!
I have 56 DUCKS fightin this war with me. I have 1,000Â’s of vets and bruthaÂ’s of quit helping me stand tall though the burden feels heavy at times. That is why I am quit on day 57 and I will remain this way for today. That is what I have committed too and how I will remain because I am a man of integrity. I POSTED ROLL. I CARE ABOUT MY WORD! PISS OF NIC AND KISS MY ASS!
I freakin hate NICOTINE! I freakin hate NICOTINE! I freakin hate NICOTINE! I freakin hate NICOTINE! I freakin hate NICOTINE! I freakin hate NICOTINE! I freakin hate NICOTINE! I freakin hate NICOTINE! I freakin hate NICOTINE! I freakin hate NICOTINE!
HELL NO YOU"RE NO ALONE!
QFQQ
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Well, how can I describe day 57 and 56..55..54..53. …. I would say, “AAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!”
I have been fightin Nic hard the last few days. The weed has been whispering the B.S that she always does but it has been with vengeance. I have been in a huge slump since the weekend. Mood swings have been a complete pain in the rear. Monday night I could not get myself out of the irritability no matter what I did. I have continuously felt like something is missing. I don’t want a dip. I know it will not solve any of my problems but add another. However, the addiction has my mind suggesting I need something to make it feel differently. I simply don’t feel right. It feels like the “suck” all over again. WHHYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY?????????
Deep Breathe……I understand why. I am simply frustrated with Nic and myself because I did this to me. I am worried and scared about failing too. I failed when I was 3 ½ yrs stopped once before, plus all the other ridiculous, uncommitted, and B.S. times I actually didn’t make it more than a few days to a week. I don’t trust myself. I actually have felt like crying a few times the last few days because I am angry, tired, and weary. I know I sound like a puss but it is how I have felt. Seeing guys drop like flies has had its moments getting me down as well. I worry about letting my kids and wife down. I worry about letting myself down another time, another time of me failing.
Even though the weed is trying to lure me in its web of deception, I know better. I am on guard. I have bruthaÂ’s of quit helping me fight the battle. I have vets who have posted their accounts so I can readÂ…read..read.. and remember the truth about the Weed! I have been involved with the site to a large degree to remind if I cave it will be an EPIC FAIL (as one vet suggests).
I AM NOT ALONE! I AM NOT ALONE! I AM NOT ALONE! I AM NOT ALONE! I AM NOT ALONE! I AM NOT ALONE! I AM NOT ALONE! I AM NOT ALONE!
I have 56 DUCKS fightin this war with me. I have 1,000Â’s of vets and bruthaÂ’s of quit helping me stand tall though the burden feels heavy at times. That is why I am quit on day 57 and I will remain this way for today. That is what I have committed too and how I will remain because I am a man of integrity. I POSTED ROLL. I CARE ABOUT MY WORD! PISS OF NIC AND KISS MY ASS!
I freakin hate NICOTINE! I freakin hate NICOTINE! I freakin hate NICOTINE! I freakin hate NICOTINE! I freakin hate NICOTINE! I freakin hate NICOTINE! I freakin hate NICOTINE! I freakin hate NICOTINE! I freakin hate NICOTINE! I freakin hate NICOTINE!
HELL NO YOU"RE NO ALONE!
QFQQ
Hey, I got your back bro! You are not alone! And I f-in hate Nicotine right along with you. The poison can pound sand. Fight the Fight! Failure is not an option. QLF with you today!
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Day 62... Wow, it has been over two months since I have had that weed in my mouth. The urge or cravings continue to persist. Coffee is a huge pain in my rear-end but I enjoy the caffeine in the morn. Not sure I want to get rid of the caffeine all together. I keep hearing the lies the addiction wants me to believe. The lies I tell myself. So frustrating because I know how horrible this drug has been to me but my thinking is so egotistical sometimes. I am Frustrated that I continue to want dip at certain times of the day. Egotistical because I know it will kill me and I know how it impacted all aspects of my life but I find myself whispering that it will be different this time. HOGWASH! Bunch of B.S. 'Crazy'
I have been snapping myself out of this poisonous thinking quickly but it continues to come back. I am so happy to be free from Nicotine's claws because I can now tell myself, "piss off.....you don't need it nor do you genuinely want it!" The battles are still often but feel short-lived. This is encouraging despite the urges continue.
I try to remember 6300 plus day I lived with an I.V. Bag full of this sick crap and now I am 62 days without it. I am doing great for 62 days.! 'oh yeah'
I am going to work on accepting these 62 days and enjoying them. Thanks to all of you who have helped my quit!! I can't express my gratitude in words. It is awesome to be free!!!!!!!!!!! Today I am quit and I plan to make tomorrow a +1.....This is the best way I can show my gratitude. QUACK! QUACK!
The last thing to mention today is that I began to workout again. Today I did 30min cross-fit workout. I have my own pull up bar, bumper plates and barbell, and dumbbells. I did 3 rounds of 600 meter run, 10 air squats, 7 power cleans at 115, 12 American Swings at 50lbs, and 5 pull ups. I know this isn't impressive but I am starting over. I haven't worked out in over a year. I use to do more reps and more wight on each exercise in half the time. I will get back there though. It felt great to exercise again. I was craving a fatty about 30 mins after the workout but it subsided in about 10 mins. Seeds rock! Anyway, feels great to make another healthy change. Now it is about continuing it. Quit on Brutha's and Sista's.
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Day 62... Wow, it has been over two months since I have had that weed in my mouth. The urge or cravings continue to persist. Coffee is a huge pain in my rear-end but I enjoy the caffeine in the morn. Not sure I want to get rid of the caffeine all together. I keep hearing the lies the addiction wants me to believe. The lies I tell myself. So frustrating because I know how horrible this drug has been to me but my thinking is so egotistical sometimes. I am Frustrated that I continue to want dip at certain times of the day. Egotistical because I know it will kill me and I know how it impacted all aspects of my life but I find myself whispering that it will be different this time. HOGWASH! Bunch of B.S. 'Crazy'
I have been snapping myself out of this poisonous thinking quickly but it continues to come back. I am so happy to be free from Nicotine's claws because I can now tell myself, "piss off.....you don't need it nor do you genuinely want it!" The battles are still often but feel short-lived. This is encouraging despite the urges continue.
I try to remember 6300 plus day I lived with an I.V. Bag full of this sick crap and now I am 62 days without it. I am doing great for 62 days.! 'oh yeah'
I am going to work on accepting these 62 days and enjoying them. Thanks to all of you who have helped my quit!! I can't express my gratitude in words. It is awesome to be free!!!!!!!!!!! Today I am quit and I plan to make tomorrow a +1.....This is the best way I can show my gratitude. QUACK! QUACK!
The last thing to mention today is that I began to workout again. Today I did 30min cross-fit workout. I have my own pull up bar, bumper plates and barbell, and dumbbells. I did 3 rounds of 600 meter run, 10 air squats, 7 power cleans at 115, 12 American Swings at 50lbs, and 5 pull ups. I know this isn't impressive but I am starting over. I haven't worked out in over a year. I use to do more reps and more wight on each exercise in half the time. I will get back there though. It felt great to exercise again. I was craving a fatty about 30 mins after the workout but it subsided in about 10 mins. Seeds rock! Anyway, feels great to make another healthy change. Now it is about continuing it. Quit on Brutha's and Sista's.
Proud of you and those 62 days of quit badassery! You are right in that quitting just isn't easy. You can't flip a switch and instantly change yourself into a person who isn't an addict. Unfortunately it's not that simple and it took me a loooooong time to come to grips with that. I still hate myself for ever starting in the first place because this shit is an Every Damn Day struggle. I am an addict for life. I can never have just one.
It still is one day at a time, regardless of how many quit days you rack up. The only quit day that matters is today. I see you on here giving encouragement and being a genuine badass quitter that wants to help others and that's what is awesome about your quit. THAT is owning it.
Congratulations to you. You are a giant amongst quitters. You are standing shoulder to shoulder with your brothers and sisters and giving it hell.
PROUD to call you a Brother in Quit. Fight On!
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I was just about to ask if you have been working out. Your craves seem more numerous than mine and I was thinking that the key difference is the training.
I am really glad you started back, I think this will show you tons of improvement very quickly.
Don't worry about that post work out crave, it was my worst but only lasted a couple of weeks.
Remember that your body craves nutrition right after a work out and it can assimilate the greatest amount of nutrients during that 30 minute period after the workout. Take advantage of that time window. I use to forgo this important period because I wanted a dip worse so now I take pleasure; that I can give my body what it really needs.
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Thanks Miles and Paradigm for your words. Appreciate the input and suggestions.
Today was day 64
Great News..I ran 3 miles today. Dang I am so sorry from Monday. Dang I am outta shape. Looking forward to continuing this with my quit. I have noticed my head was really clear after both workouts and for hours after, including right now. So nice!
Another great gift is that I didn't crave a dip today after I worked out. But I did eat right after so maybe that is why. I guess PDawg new what he was talking about 'winker' ..I new he did because I had learned the same information before.
I have noticed another thing. Although I continue to love the seeds, I have noticed I do not enjoy the smokey mountain much anymore. I guess my brain is no longer 'zombie' wanting the nic. Now I think, "What is the F'ing point of this crap being in there." It felt so good to have this thought the other night when I was wanting a dip. I freakin love being free!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah'
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Thanks Miles and Paradigm for your words. Appreciate the input and suggestions.
Today was day 64
Great News..I ran 3 miles today. Dang I am so sorry from Monday. Dang I am outta shape. Looking forward to continuing this with my quit. I have noticed my head was really clear after both workouts and for hours after, including right now. So nice!
Another great gift is that I didn't crave a dip today after I worked out. But I did eat right after so maybe that is why. I guess PDawg new what he was talking about 'winker' ..I new he did because I had learned the same information before.
I have noticed another thing. Although I continue to love the seeds, I have noticed I do not enjoy the smokey mountain much anymore. I guess my brain is no longer 'zombie' wanting the nic. Now I think, "What is the F'ing point of this crap being in there." It felt so good to have this thought the other night when I was wanting a dip. I freakin love being free!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah'
Congrats on a 3 mile run. I can't run at all. Well, I can but I refuse too.
The thing that amazes me the most, on my quit, is how quickly I got use to an empty lip. I mean, I dipped 100% of the time I was awake and then quit, went through 4 cans of SM, several bags of beef jerky, two of those huge cans of gum and then nothing.
Strangest thing last night, I had a dip dream but it was about Smokey Mountain and I was disappointed that I had to buy another can.
I think this was the bitch trying to talk to me but even my sub conscience can knock that little girl down now. My last thought when I went to bed last night was "I made it through a whole freaking day with out a crave" and then she tried to whisper in my ear.
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Thanks Miles and Paradigm for your words. Appreciate the input and suggestions.
Today was day 64
Great News..I ran 3 miles today. Dang I am so sorry from Monday. Dang I am outta shape. Looking forward to continuing this with my quit. I have noticed my head was really clear after both workouts and for hours after, including right now. So nice!
Another great gift is that I didn't crave a dip today after I worked out. But I did eat right after so maybe that is why. I guess PDawg new what he was talking about 'winker' ..I new he did because I had learned the same information before.
I have noticed another thing. Although I continue to love the seeds, I have noticed I do not enjoy the smokey mountain much anymore. I guess my brain is no longer 'zombie' wanting the nic. Now I think, "What is the F'ing point of this crap being in there." It felt so good to have this thought the other night when I was wanting a dip. I freakin love being free!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah'
Congrats on a 3 mile run. I can't run at all. Well, I can but I refuse too.
The thing that amazes me the most, on my quit, is how quickly I got use to an empty lip. I mean, I dipped 100% of the time I was awake and then quit, went through 4 cans of SM, several bags of beef jerky, two of those huge cans of gum and then nothing.
Strangest thing last night, I had a dip dream but it was about Smokey Mountain and I was disappointed that I had to buy another can.
I think this was the bitch trying to talk to me but even my sub conscience can knock that little girl down now. My last thought when I went to bed last night was "I made it through a whole freaking day with out a crave" and then she tried to whisper in my ear.
Great news on the 3 miles. If you ever need help staying motivated for running, you may want to find a neighbor's dog and piss it off then let it out to chase while you run. Also note that a toy breed dog chasing you will make you look like a complete pansy. I would recommend a dog breed that is not known for being too vicious to starts with, then step up to a Pit Bull.
Finally remember that loose fitting clothes while running may give the dog something to grab ahold of; that however does not warrant your wearing a spandex suit unless you are in the Blue Man Group.
QFQQ,
Pinched
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Found this toady on Facebook. This me to a "T"! My wife gets so mad at me,
'crackup'
http://www.myfunbash.com/pictu/86/Men-A ... After-Bath (http://www.myfunbash.com/pictu/86/Men-And-Women-After-Bath)
Who else loves the Helicopter?
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Found this toady on Facebook. This me to a "T"! My wife gets so mad at me,
'crackup'
http://www.myfunbash.com/pictu/86/Men-A ... After-Bath (http://www.myfunbash.com/pictu/86/Men-And-Women-After-Bath)
Who else loves the Helicopter?
ROFLMBO that's awesome!! :D
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Day 70...Well, things have been going well. Today i have been feeling weird. It is like the SUCK is back. Of course, the vets have warned us and Loot even posted a reminder to our group today that this time frame will snatch a few of us if we let it. I have a headache from hell but I am still quit and I will stay this way. Her is a little reminder of the SUCK and why I, plus other DUCKS, whould be listening to the vets. They know the Quit! Piss off Nic! 'na na'
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Day 87..here is a post I made today that I want to remember. I only hope it was beneficial for someone besides me. (their convo was on Sept 19, 2013 for future reference)
I am glad you two have agreed to disagree, at least that is what appears. I am only responding to provoke thought in as many quitters as possible.
Through this conversation Whiplashsmile is accusing Jlud of being judge, jury, and executioner when he is simply stating facts. Is this not the pot calling the kettle black? Is this not being the judge, jury, and executioner of Jlud?
Whiplashsmile has a point, none of us can actually know without a doubt the degree of commitment in someone to themselves because it is personal. However, our actions are examples, evidence, proof of this commitment. Whiplashsmile has a definite special circumstance and it is admirable to be doing what you are doing with the other family as you work on healing yourself.
It is your choice to decide each day how much involvement you want to have on this site, how much you want to invest in your quit, and how much you want to invest in others. I am not trying to make this decision for you but want to offer some info to consider that I have learned from a previous cave after 3yrs of stopping and experience as a professional who works with addicts daily. If we do not invest in our quit nor in others who are quitting with us the probability of long-term sobriety decreases significantly. Why? Because we become complacent.
I have not seen a duck yet who has offered accountability, constructive confrontation, or encouragement that has not meant it genuinely for the betterment of others. Yet, some continue to find it abrasive and respond as if it is meant to boast while making them feel like shit. I don't think this has been the intention of anyone who has offered feedback. I may have missed something though.
Commitment to self and or others is again proven by actions. Commitment and self-discipline are not mutually-exclusive. Thus, if one is committed they are utilizing and presenting with self-discipline. This means they will do everything possible to follow through with the plan to stay quit.
If you ask your self, "Am I doing everything I can to strengthen my quit and strengthen my resolve," and the answer is yes, then there is no reason to defend yourself. However, often many people will resist and rebuke those who offer solid, appropriate accountability because they are questioning themselves. Again, this not specifically direct at Whiplashsmile. Simply, the convo between him and Jlud spurred these thoughts and remain a tool to help illustrate.
I wrote this for all of us to reflect upon. May all DUCKS stay quit and Quack on!
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Day 87..here is a post I made today that I want to remember. I only hope it was beneficial for someone besides me. (their convo was on Sept 19, 2013 for future reference)
I am glad you two have agreed to disagree, at least that is what appears. I am only responding to provoke thought in as many quitters as possible.
Through this conversation Whiplashsmile is accusing Jlud of being judge, jury, and executioner when he is simply stating facts. Is this not the pot calling the kettle black? Is this not being the judge, jury, and executioner of Jlud?
Whiplashsmile has a point, none of us can actually know without a doubt the degree of commitment in someone to themselves because it is personal. However, our actions are examples, evidence, proof of this commitment. Whiplashsmile has a definite special circumstance and it is admirable to be doing what you are doing with the other family as you work on healing yourself.
It is your choice to decide each day how much involvement you want to have on this site, how much you want to invest in your quit, and how much you want to invest in others. I am not trying to make this decision for you but want to offer some info to consider that I have learned from a previous cave after 3yrs of stopping and experience as a professional who works with addicts daily. If we do not invest in our quit nor in others who are quitting with us the probability of long-term sobriety decreases significantly. Why? Because we become complacent.
I have not seen a duck yet who has offered accountability, constructive confrontation, or encouragement that has not meant it genuinely for the betterment of others. Yet, some continue to find it abrasive and respond as if it is meant to boast while making them feel like shit. I don't think this has been the intention of anyone who has offered feedback. I may have missed something though.
Commitment to self and or others is again proven by actions. Commitment and self-discipline are not mutually-exclusive. Thus, if one is committed they are utilizing and presenting with self-discipline. This means they will do everything possible to follow through with the plan to stay quit.
If you ask your self, "Am I doing everything I can to strengthen my quit and strengthen my resolve," and the answer is yes, then there is no reason to defend yourself. However, often many people will resist and rebuke those who offer solid, appropriate accountability because they are questioning themselves. Again, this not specifically direct at Whiplashsmile. Simply, the convo between him and Jlud spurred these thoughts and remain a tool to help illustrate.
I wrote this for all of us to reflect upon. May all DUCKS stay quit and Quack on!
I don't want to sound like Rodney King here but "Can't we all just get along?"
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Day 87..here is a post I made today that I want to remember. I only hope it was beneficial for someone besides me. (their convo was on Sept 19, 2013 for future reference)
I am glad you two have agreed to disagree, at least that is what appears. I am only responding to provoke thought in as many quitters as possible.
Through this conversation Whiplashsmile is accusing Jlud of being judge, jury, and executioner when he is simply stating facts. Is this not the pot calling the kettle black? Is this not being the judge, jury, and executioner of Jlud?
Whiplashsmile has a point, none of us can actually know without a doubt the degree of commitment in someone to themselves because it is personal. However, our actions are examples, evidence, proof of this commitment. Whiplashsmile has a definite special circumstance and it is admirable to be doing what you are doing with the other family as you work on healing yourself.
It is your choice to decide each day how much involvement you want to have on this site, how much you want to invest in your quit, and how much you want to invest in others. I am not trying to make this decision for you but want to offer some info to consider that I have learned from a previous cave after 3yrs of stopping and experience as a professional who works with addicts daily. If we do not invest in our quit nor in others who are quitting with us the probability of long-term sobriety decreases significantly. Why? Because we become complacent.
I have not seen a duck yet who has offered accountability, constructive confrontation, or encouragement that has not meant it genuinely for the betterment of others. Yet, some continue to find it abrasive and respond as if it is meant to boast while making them feel like shit. I don't think this has been the intention of anyone who has offered feedback. I may have missed something though.
Commitment to self and or others is again proven by actions. Commitment and self-discipline are not mutually-exclusive. Thus, if one is committed they are utilizing and presenting with self-discipline. This means they will do everything possible to follow through with the plan to stay quit.
If you ask your self, "Am I doing everything I can to strengthen my quit and strengthen my resolve," and the answer is yes, then there is no reason to defend yourself. However, often many people will resist and rebuke those who offer solid, appropriate accountability because they are questioning themselves. Again, this not specifically direct at Whiplashsmile. Simply, the convo between him and Jlud spurred these thoughts and remain a tool to help illustrate.
I wrote this for all of us to reflect upon. May all DUCKS stay quit and Quack on!
I appreciate your input FI, your a fine duck and quitter. Glad to have you along with me in this ride of ours. I certainly had no idea what Whiplash was dealing with during his quit, I only meant to stir up some accountability as far as roll call was concerned.
However I stand by my opinions as far as roll is concerned and would dare to say that most long time vets around the site would agree. Even in the most extreme of circumstances I might even say it's even more important to text or find a way to reach a brother to post for you. Making my daily promise to all of you to remain nicotine free today is just what I know "I" have to do stay quit today. Then I can deal with whatever life throws at me the rest of the day.
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Day 87..here is a post I made today that I want to remember. I only hope it was beneficial for someone besides me. (their convo was on Sept 19, 2013 for future reference)
I am glad you two have agreed to disagree, at least that is what appears. I am only responding to provoke thought in as many quitters as possible.
Through this conversation Whiplashsmile is accusing Jlud of being judge, jury, and executioner when he is simply stating facts. Is this not the pot calling the kettle black? Is this not being the judge, jury, and executioner of Jlud?
Whiplashsmile has a point, none of us can actually know without a doubt the degree of commitment in someone to themselves because it is personal. However, our actions are examples, evidence, proof of this commitment. Whiplashsmile has a definite special circumstance and it is admirable to be doing what you are doing with the other family as you work on healing yourself.
It is your choice to decide each day how much involvement you want to have on this site, how much you want to invest in your quit, and how much you want to invest in others. I am not trying to make this decision for you but want to offer some info to consider that I have learned from a previous cave after 3yrs of stopping and experience as a professional who works with addicts daily. If we do not invest in our quit nor in others who are quitting with us the probability of long-term sobriety decreases significantly. Why? Because we become complacent.
I have not seen a duck yet who has offered accountability, constructive confrontation, or encouragement that has not meant it genuinely for the betterment of others. Yet, some continue to find it abrasive and respond as if it is meant to boast while making them feel like shit. I don't think this has been the intention of anyone who has offered feedback. I may have missed something though.
Commitment to self and or others is again proven by actions. Commitment and self-discipline are not mutually-exclusive. Thus, if one is committed they are utilizing and presenting with self-discipline. This means they will do everything possible to follow through with the plan to stay quit.
If you ask your self, "Am I doing everything I can to strengthen my quit and strengthen my resolve," and the answer is yes, then there is no reason to defend yourself. However, often many people will resist and rebuke those who offer solid, appropriate accountability because they are questioning themselves. Again, this not specifically direct at Whiplashsmile. Simply, the convo between him and Jlud spurred these thoughts and remain a tool to help illustrate.
I wrote this for all of us to reflect upon. May all DUCKS stay quit and Quack on!
I appreciate your input FI, your a fine duck and quitter. Glad to have you along with me in this ride of ours. I certainly had no idea what Whiplash was dealing with during his quit, I only meant to stir up some accountability as far as roll call was concerned.
However I stand by my opinions as far as roll is concerned and would dare to say that most long time vets around the site would agree. Even in the most extreme of circumstances I might even say it's even more important to text or find a way to reach a brother to post for you. Making my daily promise to all of you to remain nicotine free today is just what I know "I" have to do stay quit today. Then I can deal with whatever life throws at me the rest of the day.
Great words in this post. This site works if you make it work. The plan works. If you follow the plan. It is really pretty simple. Post roll everyday first thing. Keep your word. Get numbers, send Pms, make connections. Get support. Give support. Or don't follow the plan. Ust loves people that don't follow the plan.
Posting roll in your group takes less than 1 minute. Not passing judgement here, and never been on a jury... But I can post roll from my phone while I'm stopped at a stoplight. It isn't rocket science. But it is the first part of the ktc quit equation. Violate that part and the slope becomes slippery.
I'm sorry about the troubles of life that we all encounter. Since I've been on this site, I have seen spouses walk out on quitters. Quitters lose their jobs. Quitters and close family members get devastating health news. Quitters lose close family members. But the quitters keep posting roll. This isn't like putting a gas BBQ together out if the box! It only takes a minute!
I applaud jlud for standing up to show his commitment. Quitting is no joke. Only about 25% of my April 2013 group is still participating. The bond we have is strong. January 2013 lost a quitter this week to a cave. That group just got even stronger. Jlud started out in this site with weak participation. Didn't connect. Didn't keep his word. And he wasted about 3 more months after that pause before he came back. He learned a lot about what it takes to quit in that time.
When he came back, he came back with a vengeance. He is a quit machine. Cheers others on. Posts roll damn early every day in several groups. Checks on others when he doesn't see their posts. Reaches out to newbies in intros. Participates in chat. And I have some more days under my belt than jlud does, but he has been a strong force in building my commitment to this process.
Won't comment on the glass house comment other than to point out that if jlud lives in one, it will be nicotine free. Even if you live in a brick house... If you don't follow the ktc plan, the big bad nicotine wolf will likely come and huff and puff and blow your house in. I think I'll quit jlud style again today.
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And now we roll over to the land of O H I O to pick up a Juvenile Probation Officer a Mental Health/ Addictions Counselor all wrapped into one named Fightin Ignorance. FI is married to a great woman that has given him two little boys that are running his life right now. When asked when did he start dipping and what did he do he responded, “I think I was around 12yrs old when I had my first dip. I got sick as hell. Wanting to fit-in and peer-pressure kept me trying it. When I was 14yrs old is when I got hooked. I dipped regularly with fellow football teammates. I dipped Skoal Longcut Wintergreen when I first began, then switched to Skoal Fin Cut. By my junior or senior year in high school I was doing Coughingagen fine cut (a can a day). These were my choice of drug but it didn’t really matter. I dipped numerous brands. Basically, whatever was available at the time.” When FI makes his way onto the train he will share his knowledge he has gained and the support he has given. When asked if he enjoys anything inappropriate he said just having a few drinks with the pals and then backs that up with going to celebrate 100 days quit with a fun filled night tonight with Mrs. FI (cough cough.--- His words not mine!!)
FI plans to sign up for 200, drives an Acura MDX but wants a “sweet full-size 4X4 silverado though” and loves ROCKY series, The Program, National Lampoons Christmas Vacation, Courageous, Band Of brothers series, Castle, CSI, Criminal Minds, Graceland, Big Brother, Football, Baseball, Softball. Words of wisdom FI states “Relapse is prevented and Recovery (or staying Nic free) is maintained. For those who are complete noobs, drink the KTC koolaid. Don’t lie to yourself and think you’re a special butterfly. This will bring failure to most. Post roll and participate in the site. This is the great plan of accountability, nothing more and nothing less.” FI would like to thank Mcarmo44, sportsfan, Cbird, Suds, Duathman, Pinched, Chad, Haas, and others would text, check in and simply support. This has been enough to help me fight the weed.
Welcome to the HOF FI.
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Congrats on 100 brother. You were instrumental in helping keep our group moving along in a forward motion.
Thank you,
Pinched
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And now we roll over to the land of O H I O to pick up a Juvenile Probation Officer a Mental Health/ Addictions Counselor all wrapped into one named Fightin Ignorance. FI is married to a great woman that has given him two little boys that are running his life right now. When asked when did he start dipping and what did he do he responded, “I think I was around 12yrs old when I had my first dip. I got sick as hell. Wanting to fit-in and peer-pressure kept me trying it. When I was 14yrs old is when I got hooked. I dipped regularly with fellow football teammates. I dipped Skoal Longcut Wintergreen when I first began, then switched to Skoal Fin Cut. By my junior or senior year in high school I was doing Coughingagen fine cut (a can a day). These were my choice of drug but it didn’t really matter. I dipped numerous brands. Basically, whatever was available at the time.” When FI makes his way onto the train he will share his knowledge he has gained and the support he has given. When asked if he enjoys anything inappropriate he said just having a few drinks with the pals and then backs that up with going to celebrate 100 days quit with a fun filled night tonight with Mrs. FI (cough cough.--- His words not mine!!)
FI plans to sign up for 200, drives an Acura MDX but wants a “sweet full-size 4X4 silverado though” and loves ROCKY series, The Program, National Lampoons Christmas Vacation, Courageous, Band Of brothers series, Castle, CSI, Criminal Minds, Graceland, Big Brother, Football, Baseball, Softball. Words of wisdom FI states “Relapse is prevented and Recovery (or staying Nic free) is maintained. For those who are complete noobs, drink the KTC koolaid. Don’t lie to yourself and think you’re a special butterfly. This will bring failure to most. Post roll and participate in the site. This is the great plan of accountability, nothing more and nothing less.” FI would like to thank Mcarmo44, sportsfan, Cbird, Suds, Duathman, Pinched, Chad, Haas, and others would text, check in and simply support. This has been enough to help me fight the weed.
Welcome to the HOF FI.
Well done F.I.! Welcome to the HOF! You are a bad ass quit machine; have a great day brother.
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Great job FI!!!!!!!!!!
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And now we roll over to the land of O H I O to pick up a Juvenile Probation Officer a Mental Health/ Addictions Counselor all wrapped into one named Fightin Ignorance. FI is married to a great woman that has given him two little boys that are running his life right now. When asked when did he start dipping and what did he do he responded, “I think I was around 12yrs old when I had my first dip. I got sick as hell. Wanting to fit-in and peer-pressure kept me trying it. When I was 14yrs old is when I got hooked. I dipped regularly with fellow football teammates. I dipped Skoal Longcut Wintergreen when I first began, then switched to Skoal Fin Cut. By my junior or senior year in high school I was doing Coughingagen fine cut (a can a day). These were my choice of drug but it didn’t really matter. I dipped numerous brands. Basically, whatever was available at the time.” When FI makes his way onto the train he will share his knowledge he has gained and the support he has given. When asked if he enjoys anything inappropriate he said just having a few drinks with the pals and then backs that up with going to celebrate 100 days quit with a fun filled night tonight with Mrs. FI (cough cough.--- His words not mine!!)
FI plans to sign up for 200, drives an Acura MDX but wants a “sweet full-size 4X4 silverado though” and loves ROCKY series, The Program, National Lampoons Christmas Vacation, Courageous, Band Of brothers series, Castle, CSI, Criminal Minds, Graceland, Big Brother, Football, Baseball, Softball. Words of wisdom FI states “Relapse is prevented and Recovery (or staying Nic free) is maintained. For those who are complete noobs, drink the KTC koolaid. Don’t lie to yourself and think you’re a special butterfly. This will bring failure to most. Post roll and participate in the site. This is the great plan of accountability, nothing more and nothing less.” FI would like to thank Mcarmo44, sportsfan, Cbird, Suds, Duathman, Pinched, Chad, Haas, and others would text, check in and simply support. This has been enough to help me fight the weed.
Welcome to the HOF FI.
Well done F.I.! Welcome to the HOF! You are a bad ass quit machine; have a great day brother.
Great job. You came to quit and have kicked ass since getting here. Welcome to the Hall
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Congrats on reaching 100 days HoF!
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Thanks to all of you or your comments.
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Hey F.I. One fucking year today! That is a real quit. Congratulations!
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bump fix.
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Hey F.I. One fucking year today! That is a real quit. Congratulations!
One trip around the sun? Nice. Congrats, man.
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Hey F.I. One fucking year today! That is a real quit. Congratulations!
One trip around the sun? Nice. Congrats, man.
Awesome!
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Gratz on the year of freedom!
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Matt,
Congrats on 500 days today. This is completely badass and you were one of our early leaders and a great example to follow. Thank you for keeping me quit.
P
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Matt,
Congrats on 500 days today. This is completely badass and you were one of our early leaders and a great example to follow. Thank you for keeping me quit.
P
500? WOW!!
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Matt,
Congrats on 500 days today. This is completely badass and you were one of our early leaders and a great example to follow. Thank you for keeping me quit.
P
500? WOW!!
A half comma kinda looks like a period.
And that's what you are doing: quitting. period.
Fucking awesome man.
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Matt,
Congrats on 500 days today. This is completely badass and you were one of our early leaders and a great example to follow. Thank you for keeping me quit.
P
500? WOW!!
A half comma kinda looks like a period.
And that's what you are doing: quitting. period.
Fucking awesome man.
great job!
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Matt,
Congrats on 500 days today. This is completely badass and you were one of our early leaders and a great example to follow. Thank you for keeping me quit.
P
500? WOW!!
A half comma kinda looks like a period.
And that's what you are doing: quitting. period.
Fucking awesome man.
great job!
Ducks QLF... Nice work FI 'arse'