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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: UTCjgavin on December 09, 2014, 09:21:00 PM
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Hello All. A little about myself. I am 40 years old and have been chewing since I was around 14. I have quite one time voluntarily only when I was in Iraq back in 2006. I was so proud of myself and did good for over 6 months. Than I got into Kuwait and because I was bored (That's what I tell myself) I started up again. I have had 2 deployments since then and countless arguments with my wife over the subject over the years. I always told myself I would quit when I was ready. I always had the intention of quitting but always said next week Monday. I don't know how many times I said that. Well tomorrow isn't a Monday and I am quitting. I have my gum and sunflower seeds. I like to drink and I know that is a trigger and I am going to try to quit that (for a bit) so I don't trigger it. I don't want to smoke because I know that is just as bad. I don't know if I will use this site but I will give it an honest try. When lost I will try to read some posts. My life is going good right now, it'd be a shame to fuck it up losing my cheek. I pray to God that I have the strength to do this. Going all in.
Tonight my plan is to watch the rest of Sons of Anarchy, drink some beer, and say goodbye to my can. It will be tough, this I know, but sometimes you just got to kick her in the ass and do it. So here is to the next 72 hours to kicking Nicotine out of my life. Wish me luck!
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Throw that shit out!
Your mind is in the right place now! Dump everything, stop hoping and start wuitting! This site will help you save your life, but you have to take the first step!
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If you REALLY want this to work, half-assing it will be a total failure.
All in.
That's the only way.
Own this right from the start. Get involved and stay involved. Your life is on the line... How much is it worth to you?
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UTC, I was 40 as well when I decided that I was done with this crap and started when I was around 13. That was last year, actually 385 days ago to be exact. I did it on a whim as well. I had just had my fourth child a couple weeks earlier and decided it was time to quit this killer weed. I had purchased a whole package of Nicotine Patches at Costco for $50 bucks and had started using the patch. 24 hours into the patch plan, I was craving a dip yet. It wasn't the physical addiction obviously because I had a patch on, but the mental addiction. I went to google to find info on fake dip and that linked me to KTC. Well I was glued to this site that day, reading intro's, reading HOF speeches, reading about Tom Jenny. After about 90 minutes trolling KTC, I tossed the patch and gave the nicotine replacement delivery system away. Fifty bucks out the window! Anyway did I mention that was 385 days ago!
You have come to the right place to quit but when reading your intro I think you need just a little bit of education about how things are done here at KTC. First of all, you said that you quit once. Wrong, you stopped once for 6 months, You only quit once! Secondly, we don't try or hope or wish for shit around here, we just QUIT each and every damn day. 24 hours at a time, that is the system, that is the fool proof plan. There is no magic here, just pure determination to keep the cat turd out of your lip. We do this every 24 hours, promising to not use the nicotine by posting roll. If you are a man of your word, then you will never lose the daily battle when you post roll. So my question to you is, do you want to quit? Well then post roll and cinch up your belt for the SUCK (the next 72-84 hours is called the SUCK) remember that time it will help you down the road. Welcome, now get on the QUIT TRAIN if you are serious.
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Dump it.. Don't romanticize the addiction. Dump her on the curb like a crazy gold digger girlfriend you just caught poisoning your ham sandwiches. You don't have one last date with her.. No final roll in the sack. You dump her on the curb and do your damnedest to keep her out of your life forever.
I deployed twice to Iraq and once to Afghanistan. I had stopped on two separate occasions that led into deployments. Too me, a deployment meant a cave. In Afghanistan I chewed, smoked, and had a daily cigar. Over there, I had every reason in the world to give two shits about the dangers and nastiness of the habit. I had larger concerns. That was then.
I'm home now, and that shit is over. Make it over for you too.
Commit, stay strong, and make it the first real quit you've had.
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UTC. Here's how we roll here. Cold turkey, no nicotine of any kind, whether it be dip, smoke, or patch. Is it hard? Fuck yeah it's hard, but it has lead to thousands of real quitters on this site, not quit for 3 months and slid back, but real quit. If you want in, throw everything out and join us. Make a promise to quit everyday (that's called posting roll here, click the community link above, then click the welcome center link for how to post roll). We hold each other accountable here, and that accountability has kept me and everyone else from straying. Get on board. You can do this!
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You're giving that cat shit too much credit. Don't place it on a pedistal by making this ceremonial. Don't tell the bitch bye. Ditch her ass like a bad habit. (Pun intended)
When I found this site I was desperate for a way to quit. I learned pretty quick that the first step is to just quit. Now. Dump the nasty shit out and quit. There's no time like the present and the more you prepare the more likely you are to fail. Cold turkey NOW is the best way and the best time. I logged on here and within 15 minutes I had spit out my last dip and destroyed what I had left. I am on day 72 and I kick myself in the ass every day for not quitting years ago. But I couldn't. I tried. I made it about 6 hours every time. I LOVE being quit. I love having my mind and my body back to myself. It sucks at first. And then it doesn't. Best thing I have ever done. Dump that shit out and post roll. Promise every day that you won't use nicotine in any form. As long as you keep your word you will stay quit. We quit cold turkey and one day at a time. Post roll and keep your promise today, then do it again tomorrow
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Going back and reading this, I get anxiety.
I hope you come back quit with us. I hope you take this bitch by the horns and show it whats up!
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So your intro to this site is all about how you're going to throw a going away party for a ruthless cunt that has enslaved you since you were a kid? Plus, she's making you buy drinks? Good deal, bro.
Logically speaking, you know all of the reasons why you should quit. The ninja dipping. The fights with wifey. The very real prospect of losing the southern half of your face. All of it.
Why are YOU ready to quit? Why are you done? How did you get D-O-N-E?
Your logical side knows that now is the perfect time to quit. The addict side (which has been at the helm of your life for many, many years) convinced you to go with one last farewell before she fades into the twilight. You think she won't throw a thousand more excuses plus an equal load of triggers your way come tomorrow in order to get you to reconsider?
The fight won't be an easier if you start it tomorrow, and I can guarantee that you will regret putting off until tomorrow what you could have done today.
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Tic-Toc-Tic-Toc...................
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What Dennis ^^^^^ said. Ticky toc, ticky ticky. I wonder. (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GTg7p82WmFc) Time to man up UTC. Your "tonight" is over.
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I guess "Going all in" means different things to some folks.........Poof......
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UTC...this isn't going to work unless you change your attitude. "Hoping" and "trying" is bullshit. Those are for the YMCA little league. This is for real. This is life and death.
You said that you know this will be tough? Yes...I guess. I mean, you'll have a headache. sleepless nights, anxiety, restless, etc. And it will suck. But compare that to disfiguring surgeries, jaw removal, feeding tubes, and chemotherapy. Oh, and coming up with how to say goodbye to all the folks who love you most. Quitting doesn't seem as tough as that to me. Oh, and quitting certainly isn't as tough as life will be on your family as they learn to go on without you after choking on your medical bills because quitting was going to be "tough." FUCK THAT. GET SERIOUS or GET LOST.
Have you read the Tom and Jenny Kern story? That is "tough." He passed with his daughter at his feet pleading, "daddy, don't go." Jenny and his kids carry on without him...somehow. But only because they have no choice.
Unless you get serious, you and your family are going to find out what "tough" is. I'd rather see you take the easy way out and just go cold turkey. Post roll, read all you can and repeat. YOU CAN DO THIS!!!
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It disappoints the hell outta me when this many BAQ's come and offer support to a new quitter, and they get crickets. The truth is hard to hear, but once you buy in it will save your life.
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It disappoints the hell outta me when this many BAQ's come and offer support to a new quitter, and they get crickets. The truth is hard to hear, but once you buy in it will save your life.
Quitting isn't for everyone, I remember how hard it was and the dread that engulfed me when I thought about how hard it was going to be to quit. As an addict, we can make hundreds of excuses as to why not to quit. It's Christmas time, I don't want to be a jerk to my family + I love sitting around after the Christmas meal with a dip and a beer. Another month won't hurt me, I'll give it up for my New Years resolution......blah...blah..blah. Heard them all and used them myself. But yeah its disappointing when we get one that posts an intro and then doesn't have the stones to engage. This guy is a fart in the wind at this point, no contact since 12/09...........he'll be back though at least lurking since he knows quitting is the right thing to do.
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You're giving that cat shit too much credit. Don't place it on a pedistal by making this ceremonial. Don't tell the bitch bye. Ditch her ass like a bad habit. (Pun intended)
When I found this site I was desperate for a way to quit. I learned pretty quick that the first step is to just quit. Now. Dump the nasty shit out and quit. There's no time like the present and the more you prepare the more likely you are to fail. Cold turkey NOW is the best way and the best time. I logged on here and within 15 minutes I had spit out my last dip and destroyed what I had left. I am on day 72 and I kick myself in the ass every day for not quitting years ago. But I couldn't. I tried. I made it about 6 hours every time. I LOVE being quit. I love having my mind and my body back to myself. It sucks at first. And then it doesn't. Best thing I have ever done. Dump that shit out and post roll. Promise every day that you won't use nicotine in any form. As long as you keep your word you will stay quit. We quit cold turkey and one day at a time. Post roll and keep your promise today, then do it again tomorrow
Proud of this girl right here. Come on boy, don't let these two chicks quit harder than you! Dump it. The nic bitch won't let you go. She will have some hold on you when you wake in the morning, calling you, making you use her again. She has you by your balls. You are her bitch. Stop. Dump it. Quit. Now. Let's go....
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It disappoints the hell outta me when this many BAQ's come and offer support to a new quitter, and they get crickets. The truth is hard to hear, but once you buy in it will save your life.
Quitting isn't for everyone, I remember how hard it was and the dread that engulfed me when I thought about how hard it was going to be to quit. As an addict, we can make hundreds of excuses as to why not to quit. It's Christmas time, I don't want to be a jerk to my family + I love sitting around after the Christmas meal with a dip and a beer. Another month won't hurt me, I'll give it up for my New Years resolution......blah...blah..blah. Heard them all and used them myself. But yeah its disappointing when we get one that posts an intro and then doesn't have the stones to engage. This guy is a fart in the wind at this point, no contact since 12/09...........he'll be back though at least lurking since he knows quitting is the right thing to do.
Last activity was 9 Dec so no UTC lurking.
Thumble there's still a chance some quitter reads this intro and decides not to be a bitch, nor to even give the appearance of possibly being a fat bloated bitch in a coffin face down cuz dippers don't have faces, cursed by all whose love turned to tired hollowness, the place that used to hold worm dirt now is worm food, the gravesite a sort of family spitoon.
I guess we don't really know if that applies to UTC.
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Quitting is harder for some people. Some people are special. Some people are more addicted to nicotine than others. Some people are afraid to commit. Some people are scared and believe the lies of the NIC bitch. Some people need to grab their satchel and tug.