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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: grizkill on September 14, 2012, 04:43:00 PM
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To all of my KTC community
As most of you know im sure, yes I did cave. I am ashamed and dissappointed in myself. As the texts continue to roll in i reflect on my old quit as i begin my new quit. The last 30 days or so I feel as if i have lost a part of my life that had become so important. I put the shit ahead of the friends that I had made here. Please dont read into this as if im coming back so i can talk to my buddies again. Im quitting again because i know its the right thing to do. I dont want to look back 3 yrs from now and say man i had a good thing goin. Throughout my first quit i can't honestly say that i took nicotene off the table forever....it just never really crossed my mind....sure i said it a bunch in chat and helping noobs out, but i dont know if i ever really grasped the idea of it ...even after 330 days. My story is actually quite simple. Everything was chugging along just fine..no craves, no dreams, no nothing everything was great. I was taking a much needed minivacation offshore with a bunch (10 others to be exact) of buddies of mine to go offshore fishin for 4 days. No computers, no phones, no tv, no nothing, just fishing and drinkin and having a good time with old friends. The only thing i didnt prepare myself for was that 8 of them smoked or dipped or both. The first night on the boat was my demise, after a long trip there and three bars later we finally boarded the boat and really started to party. The only thing i can say to this point is ....I JUST WASNT PREPARED TO DEAL WITH IT. I dont know what made me say yes, besides sheer stupidity. Im not gonna break it down to every second what was goin through my head, mostly because it was just a blur, it almost didnt seem real after all the time and effort and pain....it just didnt seem real. All i can do now is say with humility and shame is that I quit with you today.
Retreadgriz.
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Love you man. You can do it.
Dumbass
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Love you man. You can do it.
Dumbass
Thanks Diesel....good to see ya man.
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To all of my KTC community
As most of you know im sure, yes I did cave. I am ashamed and dissappointed in myself. As the texts continue to roll in i reflect on my old quit as i begin my new quit. The last 30 days or so I feel as if i have lost a part of my life that had become so important. I put the shit ahead of the friends that I had made here. Please dont read into this as if im coming back so i can talk to my buddies again. Im quitting again because i know its the right thing to do. I dont want to look back 3 yrs from now and say man i had a good thing goin. Throughout my first quit i can't honestly say that i took nicotene off the table forever....it just never really crossed my mind....sure i said it a bunch in chat and helping noobs out, but i dont know if i ever really grasped the idea of it ...even after 330 days. My story is actually quite simple. Everything was chugging along just fine..no craves, no dreams, no nothing everything was great. I was taking a much needed minivacation offshore with a bunch (10 others to be exact) of buddies of mine to go offshore fishin for 4 days. No computers, no phones, no tv, no nothing, just fishing and drinkin and having a good time with old friends. The only thing i didnt prepare myself for was that 8 of them smoked or dipped or both. The first night on the boat was my demise, after a long trip there and three bars later we finally boarded the boat and really started to party. The only thing i can say to this point is ....I JUST WASNT PREPARED TO DEAL WITH IT. I dont know what made me say yes, besides sheer stupidity. Im not gonna break it down to every second what was goin through my head, mostly because it was just a blur, it almost didnt seem real after all the time and effort and pain....it just didnt seem real. All i can do now is say with humility and shame is that I quit with you today.
Retreadgriz.
You were a topic between Bradley Guy, Tarp and me this afternoon. Glad you took Bradley Guy's advice. (that may be a first) Glad you realized what dumb ass dumb thing you did. Glad you are back. Give all to your new group.
Hater
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To all of my KTC community
As most of you know im sure, yes I did cave. I am ashamed and dissappointed in myself. As the texts continue to roll in i reflect on my old quit as i begin my new quit. The last 30 days or so I feel as if i have lost a part of my life that had become so important. I put the shit ahead of the friends that I had made here. Please dont read into this as if im coming back so i can talk to my buddies again. Im quitting again because i know its the right thing to do. I dont want to look back 3 yrs from now and say man i had a good thing goin. Throughout my first quit i can't honestly say that i took nicotene off the table forever....it just never really crossed my mind....sure i said it a bunch in chat and helping noobs out, but i dont know if i ever really grasped the idea of it ...even after 330 days. My story is actually quite simple. Everything was chugging along just fine..no craves, no dreams, no nothing everything was great. I was taking a much needed minivacation offshore with a bunch (10 others to be exact) of buddies of mine to go offshore fishin for 4 days. No computers, no phones, no tv, no nothing, just fishing and drinkin and having a good time with old friends. The only thing i didnt prepare myself for was that 8 of them smoked or dipped or both. The first night on the boat was my demise, after a long trip there and three bars later we finally boarded the boat and really started to party. The only thing i can say to this point is ....I JUST WASNT PREPARED TO DEAL WITH IT. I dont know what made me say yes, besides sheer stupidity. Im not gonna break it down to every second what was goin through my head, mostly because it was just a blur, it almost didnt seem real after all the time and effort and pain....it just didnt seem real. All i can do now is say with humility and shame is that I quit with you today.
Retreadgriz.
You were a topic between Bradley Guy, Tarp and me this afternoon. Glad you took Bradley Guy's advice. (that may be a first) Glad you realized what dumb ass dumb thing you did. Glad you are back. Give all to your new group.
Hater
Sad to see you post day 1
Damn glad to see you back
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Hey Grizz,
I don't know you at all but Bruce had told me that you were one of his mentors that had helped him quite alot. Reading your story it was very straight to the point and powerful nonetheless. This is no disrepect to you but it is also proof that we have to watch our backs at every second, minute or hour of the day because the NIC bitch is sneaky. Now that you have come back its time to kick it into gear again. Saddle up the fucking horse and ride until the hooves fall off. I quit with you man and will post roll with you as well. Stay Strong Stay Quit brother.
Kstamp
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To all of my KTC community
As most of you know im sure, yes I did cave. I am ashamed and dissappointed in myself. As the texts continue to roll in i reflect on my old quit as i begin my new quit. The last 30 days or so I feel as if i have lost a part of my life that had become so important. I put the shit ahead of the friends that I had made here. Please dont read into this as if im coming back so i can talk to my buddies again. Im quitting again because i know its the right thing to do. I dont want to look back 3 yrs from now and say man i had a good thing goin. Throughout my first quit i can't honestly say that i took nicotene off the table forever....it just never really crossed my mind....sure i said it a bunch in chat and helping noobs out, but i dont know if i ever really grasped the idea of it ...even after 330 days. My story is actually quite simple. Everything was chugging along just fine..no craves, no dreams, no nothing everything was great. I was taking a much needed minivacation offshore with a bunch (10 others to be exact) of buddies of mine to go offshore fishin for 4 days. No computers, no phones, no tv, no nothing, just fishing and drinkin and having a good time with old friends. The only thing i didnt prepare myself for was that 8 of them smoked or dipped or both. The first night on the boat was my demise, after a long trip there and three bars later we finally boarded the boat and really started to party. The only thing i can say to this point is ....I JUST WASNT PREPARED TO DEAL WITH IT. I dont know what made me say yes, besides sheer stupidity. Im not gonna break it down to every second what was goin through my head, mostly because it was just a blur, it almost didnt seem real after all the time and effort and pain....it just didnt seem real. All i can do now is say with humility and shame is that I quit with you today.
Retreadgriz.
You were a topic between Bradley Guy, Tarp and me this afternoon. Glad you took Bradley Guy's advice. (that may be a first) Glad you realized what dumb ass dumb thing you did. Glad you are back. Give all to your new group.
Hater
Sad to see you post day 1
Damn glad to see you back
Whachu saying, Cope? BG's advice sucks or Griz just don't take it because believe me, Griz does "take it". Often.
Damn. Just damn, Cope! ;)
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To all of my KTC community
As most of you know im sure, yes I did cave. I am ashamed and dissappointed in myself. As the texts continue to roll in i reflect on my old quit as i begin my new quit. The last 30 days or so I feel as if i have lost a part of my life that had become so important. I put the shit ahead of the friends that I had made here. Please dont read into this as if im coming back so i can talk to my buddies again. Im quitting again because i know its the right thing to do. I dont want to look back 3 yrs from now and say man i had a good thing goin. Throughout my first quit i can't honestly say that i took nicotene off the table forever....it just never really crossed my mind....sure i said it a bunch in chat and helping noobs out, but i dont know if i ever really grasped the idea of it ...even after 330 days. My story is actually quite simple. Everything was chugging along just fine..no craves, no dreams, no nothing everything was great. I was taking a much needed minivacation offshore with a bunch (10 others to be exact) of buddies of mine to go offshore fishin for 4 days. No computers, no phones, no tv, no nothing, just fishing and drinkin and having a good time with old friends. The only thing i didnt prepare myself for was that 8 of them smoked or dipped or both. The first night on the boat was my demise, after a long trip there and three bars later we finally boarded the boat and really started to party. The only thing i can say to this point is ....I JUST WASNT PREPARED TO DEAL WITH IT. I dont know what made me say yes, besides sheer stupidity. Im not gonna break it down to every second what was goin through my head, mostly because it was just a blur, it almost didnt seem real after all the time and effort and pain....it just didnt seem real. All i can do now is say with humility and shame is that I quit with you today.
Retreadgriz.
You were a topic between Bradley Guy, Tarp and me this afternoon. Glad you took Bradley Guy's advice. (that may be a first) Glad you realized what dumb ass dumb thing you did. Glad you are back. Give all to your new group.
Hater
Sad to see you post day 1
Damn glad to see you back
X2
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To all of my KTC community
As most of you know im sure, yes I did cave. I am ashamed and dissappointed in myself. As the texts continue to roll in i reflect on my old quit as i begin my new quit. The last 30 days or so I feel as if i have lost a part of my life that had become so important. I put the shit ahead of the friends that I had made here. Please dont read into this as if im coming back so i can talk to my buddies again. Im quitting again because i know its the right thing to do. I dont want to look back 3 yrs from now and say man i had a good thing goin. Throughout my first quit i can't honestly say that i took nicotene off the table forever....it just never really crossed my mind....sure i said it a bunch in chat and helping noobs out, but i dont know if i ever really grasped the idea of it ...even after 330 days. My story is actually quite simple. Everything was chugging along just fine..no craves, no dreams, no nothing everything was great. I was taking a much needed minivacation offshore with a bunch (10 others to be exact) of buddies of mine to go offshore fishin for 4 days. No computers, no phones, no tv, no nothing, just fishing and drinkin and having a good time with old friends. The only thing i didnt prepare myself for was that 8 of them smoked or dipped or both. The first night on the boat was my demise, after a long trip there and three bars later we finally boarded the boat and really started to party. The only thing i can say to this point is ....I JUST WASNT PREPARED TO DEAL WITH IT. I dont know what made me say yes, besides sheer stupidity. Im not gonna break it down to every second what was goin through my head, mostly because it was just a blur, it almost didnt seem real after all the time and effort and pain....it just didnt seem real. All i can do now is say with humility and shame is that I quit with you today.
Retreadgriz.
You were a topic between Bradley Guy, Tarp and me this afternoon. Glad you took Bradley Guy's advice. (that may be a first) Glad you realized what dumb ass dumb thing you did. Glad you are back. Give all to your new group.
Hater
Sad to see you post day 1
Damn glad to see you back
X2
Glad you're back is about all I can manage at this point.
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To all of my KTC community
As most of you know im sure, yes I did cave. I am ashamed and dissappointed in myself. As the texts continue to roll in i reflect on my old quit as i begin my new quit. The last 30 days or so I feel as if i have lost a part of my life that had become so important. I put the shit ahead of the friends that I had made here. Please dont read into this as if im coming back so i can talk to my buddies again. Im quitting again because i know its the right thing to do. I dont want to look back 3 yrs from now and say man i had a good thing goin. Throughout my first quit i can't honestly say that i took nicotene off the table forever....it just never really crossed my mind....sure i said it a bunch in chat and helping noobs out, but i dont know if i ever really grasped the idea of it ...even after 330 days. My story is actually quite simple. Everything was chugging along just fine..no craves, no dreams, no nothing everything was great. I was taking a much needed minivacation offshore with a bunch (10 others to be exact) of buddies of mine to go offshore fishin for 4 days. No computers, no phones, no tv, no nothing, just fishing and drinkin and having a good time with old friends. The only thing i didnt prepare myself for was that 8 of them smoked or dipped or both. The first night on the boat was my demise, after a long trip there and three bars later we finally boarded the boat and really started to party. The only thing i can say to this point is ....I JUST WASNT PREPARED TO DEAL WITH IT. I dont know what made me say yes, besides sheer stupidity. Im not gonna break it down to every second what was goin through my head, mostly because it was just a blur, it almost didnt seem real after all the time and effort and pain....it just didnt seem real. All i can do now is say with humility and shame is that I quit with you today.
Retreadgriz.
You were a topic between Bradley Guy, Tarp and me this afternoon. Glad you took Bradley Guy's advice. (that may be a first) Glad you realized what dumb ass dumb thing you did. Glad you are back. Give all to your new group.
Hater
Sad to see you post day 1
Damn glad to see you back
Whachu saying, Cope? BG's advice sucks or Griz just don't take it because believe me, Griz does "take it". Often.
Damn. Just damn, Cope! ;)
Ahhh BG you know I love you
:wub:
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Where you at man? It didn't look like you posted roll yesterday. Are you gonna quit or cave today?
Posting to get your intro near the top - hopefully some buds with your numbers can reach out to you... guys and gals?