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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Shorthorn on January 23, 2014, 04:54:00 PM
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Hey all... I started dipping on 11/9/1996... Stopped yesterday 1/22/14.
Thats really hard to say... I had quit once before (with this websites help) for almost 9 months back in 2008... This time is really the end.
Anyhow, just wanted to say hello...I am jumping in the May quit group... Let's do this guys!
PS- Sorry to hijack your thread Clay... My bad.
To answer some questions... Yes, I originally was a member of the May 2008 quit group (I incorrectly said 2010 previously)... I was quit for 9 months and 3 days when I caved.
Why am I sure I won't cave again?
October 1st, 2013 my dad was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer... Scary shit! Thank God he is doing well, but I stopped chewing 10/1/13. Using nicotine supplement lozenges ever since that date until yesterday.. Time to get real. I don't want to put my boys thru the stress I went thru with my Dad (also dipped until 10/1/13).
Nic. free as of noon on 1/22/14. Not caving for nothing this time!
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Hmm 36 posts w a join date of 08 you were not very active in posting roll or paying it forward or back.
You never quit before you had a stoppage.
I suggest that you get with you group meet them get numbers and get active here or else you will be back again.
Read read read learn how to use the site and learn how to give back. Lean when you are not strong support when you are.
YOU have to quit for you not because you are scared because you want it. I am sorry to hear about your father.
PM me if you need anything GET ACTIVE
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Thanks Traumagnet,
You are right... I didn't do a very good job last time. The previous.. stoppage, was not for me, I was doing it for everyone else (wife mainly). I was not ready in my head to be completely free from dip and thus caved when the going got tough.
This time, although I have the motivation of what happened to my dad, I want to quit for me this time.
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Thanks Traumagnet,
You are right... I didn't do a very good job last time. The previous.. stoppage, was not for me, I was doing it for everyone else (wife mainly). I was not ready in my head to be completely free from dip and thus caved when the going got tough.
This time, although I have the motivation of what happened to my dad, I want to quit for me this time.
Shorthorn:
If you quit and post roll every, "Today"
If you are a man of your word and would never break your promise you posted
If you need support and are willing to support others in the same work....
I have no beef with you and will quit with you.
I hate US Tobacco. I hate that they cut a deal with our government so that people like your pops can not sue them. I hate that they recruit kids. I hate that they care more about making money off addicts - (Including the pharmaceutical peeps that sell addiction in a patch etc.) vs have a conscious and value human life over a money that is only paper!
This is a terrorist organization that is well aware their product causes cancer and is just as addictive as heroin. If you can cut bait from this mistress tobacco, do it and never look back!
Seriously, I choose death before I will ever kneel to tobacco and worship or put her first again! If you quit for real. You wont fail. If you mean it. Do it! I got your back but I can only get your back if you are active and honest on this site and with your brotherhood.
Welcome back. Took you long enough but you're are back and that's a win.
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Then shorthorn let's get this pm if u need digits
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Go get your quit, Shorthorn!
I'm quit with you in May '14.
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Hey Shorthorn- I know you're posting roll- nice job. How's the quit going? if you keep a log here, people will be able to know how you are and you may want it as a record of the tough times you never want to go through again- a memory refresher. Mine helps me.
Keep on quitting HARD!
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Hey Shorthorn- I know you're posting roll- nice job. How's the quit going? if you keep a log here, people will be able to know how you are and you may want it as a record of the tough times you never want to go through again- a memory refresher. Mine helps me.
Keep on quitting HARD!
2nds! Post roll everyday! 100%ers are quit. Use your intro to remember what you are going through.
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Been a few days since I posted any updates, here is my Day 10 reflections:
This quit is totally different that my previous attempt. I don't know if it is because I used nic. lozenges to wean off the nic bitch, or just the fact that I am for myself 100% done chewing.... I have cravings, but my thought pattern this time is "oh... nic craving, you evil bitch, die" vs. previous time when my brain was more like "oh I miss you chew"!...
I don't know it that sounds as retarded and stupid to everyone else as it does me or not, but this quit my resolve is rock solid. I know the cravings will not stop. I know there will be tough times ahead, but I also know that I have a great support group and a solid determination that there will never again be nic in my lip.
The fog has lifted, I am sleeping better, though not great yet. Still haven't had any dip dreams, although I had a cancer dream the night before last that scared the hell out of me (only help shore up the resolve that much more).
I keep thinking I should probably get started on making an appt. with the dentist... Might even see about getting some whitening done on my teeth, as they are pretty badly stained.
I have a very busy weekend, full of events that would have in the past included alot of dip... First off saturday morning we are weighing in calves for the 4H kids... followed by a cash bash style fund raiser for local 4H youth... Both will be well attended by my dippin' friends. I am not worried though... I have been talking with my "dippin'" friends and they have been very supportive, and have all agreed no offering me pinches (even if I beg for one, which I won't)... But ultimately, I am very confident that it will not be an issue. I have my seeds, gum, tic-tacs... and a rock solid resolve to save my life. (and some great ktc guys digits if those fall apart).
Anyway, all for now... Day 10 nearly half done... Feeling very good about where I am on my quit at this point. Hoping I can make my fellow ktc quitters proud!
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Been a few days since I posted any updates, here is my Day 10 reflections:
This quit is totally different that my previous attempt. I don't know if it is because I used nic. lozenges to wean off the nic bitch, or just the fact that I am for myself 100% done chewing.... I have cravings, but my thought pattern this time is "oh... nic craving, you evil bitch, die" vs. previous time when my brain was more like "oh I miss you chew"!...
I don't know it that sounds as retarded and stupid to everyone else as it does me or not, but this quit my resolve is rock solid. I know the cravings will not stop. I know there will be tough times ahead, but I also know that I have a great support group and a solid determination that there will never again be nic in my lip.
The fog has lifted, I am sleeping better, though not great yet. Still haven't had any dip dreams, although I had a cancer dream the night before last that scared the hell out of me (only help shore up the resolve that much more).
I keep thinking I should probably get started on making an appt. with the dentist... Might even see about getting some whitening done on my teeth, as they are pretty badly stained.
I have a very busy weekend, full of events that would have in the past included alot of dip... First off saturday morning we are weighing in calves for the 4H kids... followed by a cash bash style fund raiser for local 4H youth... Both will be well attended by my dippin' friends. I am not worried though... I have been talking with my "dippin'" friends and they have been very supportive, and have all agreed no offering me pinches (even if I beg for one, which I won't)... But ultimately, I am very confident that it will not be an issue. I have my seeds, gum, tic-tacs... and a rock solid resolve to save my life. (and some great ktc guys digits if those fall apart).
Anyway, all for now... Day 10 nearly half done... Feeling very good about where I am on my quit at this point. Hoping I can make my fellow ktc quitters proud!
Shorthorn,
Congrats on getting to double digits on your quit. And good luck with the 4H stuff this weekend. Being around the animals and in the barn can be a big trigger. I used to say "Oh man I gotta have a dip for that." Now I say "Oh nic bitch rot in f***ing hell, and I live my life without you." And smile about it!!! Quit on baby.
ZC
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Been a few days since I posted any updates, here is my Day 10 reflections:
This quit is totally different that my previous attempt. I don't know if it is because I used nic. lozenges to wean off the nic bitch, or just the fact that I am for myself 100% done chewing.... I have cravings, but my thought pattern this time is "oh... nic craving, you evil bitch, die" vs. previous time when my brain was more like "oh I miss you chew"!...
I don't know it that sounds as retarded and stupid to everyone else as it does me or not, but this quit my resolve is rock solid. I know the cravings will not stop. I know there will be tough times ahead, but I also know that I have a great support group and a solid determination that there will never again be nic in my lip.
The fog has lifted, I am sleeping better, though not great yet. Still haven't had any dip dreams, although I had a cancer dream the night before last that scared the hell out of me (only help shore up the resolve that much more).Â
I keep thinking I should probably get started on making an appt. with the dentist... Might even see about getting some whitening done on my teeth, as they are pretty badly stained.
I have a very busy weekend, full of events that would have in the past included alot of dip... First off saturday morning we are weighing in calves for the 4H kids... followed by a cash bash style fund raiser for local 4H youth... Both will be well attended by my dippin' friends. I am not worried though... I have been talking with my "dippin'" friends and they have been very supportive, and have all agreed no offering me pinches (even if I beg for one, which I won't)... But ultimately, I am very confident that it will not be an issue. I have my seeds, gum, tic-tacs... and a rock solid resolve to save my life. (and some great ktc guys digits if those fall apart).
Anyway, all for now... Day 10 nearly half done... Feeling very good about where I am on my quit at this point. Hoping I can make my fellow ktc quitters proud!
Shorthorn,
Congrats on getting to double digits on your quit. And good luck with the 4H stuff this weekend. Being around the animals and in the barn can be a big trigger. I used to say "Oh man I gotta have a dip for that." Now I say "Oh nic bitch rot in f***ing hell, and I live my life without you." And smile about it!!! Quit on baby.
ZC
Make a quit plan for the weekend and commit to it 100%. Triggers suck but you can't really avoid triggers unless you get off the grid and live under a rock.
Have an alternative to dip with you. Drink lots of water and remember the suck, don't go back there. If I can continue to stay quit you can too, you just have to want it and want to fight for it.
I will not wish you any luck but I will tell you to keep your head up and your brain focused.
P
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Been a few days since I posted any updates, here is my Day 10 reflections:
This quit is totally different that my previous attempt. I don't know if it is because I used nic. lozenges to wean off the nic bitch, or just the fact that I am for myself 100% done chewing.... I have cravings, but my thought pattern this time is "oh... nic craving, you evil bitch, die" vs. previous time when my brain was more like "oh I miss you chew"!...
I don't know it that sounds as retarded and stupid to everyone else as it does me or not, but this quit my resolve is rock solid. I know the cravings will not stop. I know there will be tough times ahead, but I also know that I have a great support group and a solid determination that there will never again be nic in my lip.
The fog has lifted, I am sleeping better, though not great yet. Still haven't had any dip dreams, although I had a cancer dream the night before last that scared the hell out of me (only help shore up the resolve that much more).Â
I keep thinking I should probably get started on making an appt. with the dentist... Might even see about getting some whitening done on my teeth, as they are pretty badly stained.
I have a very busy weekend, full of events that would have in the past included alot of dip... First off saturday morning we are weighing in calves for the 4H kids... followed by a cash bash style fund raiser for local 4H youth... Both will be well attended by my dippin' friends. I am not worried though... I have been talking with my "dippin'" friends and they have been very supportive, and have all agreed no offering me pinches (even if I beg for one, which I won't)... But ultimately, I am very confident that it will not be an issue. I have my seeds, gum, tic-tacs... and a rock solid resolve to save my life. (and some great ktc guys digits if those fall apart).
Anyway, all for now... Day 10 nearly half done... Feeling very good about where I am on my quit at this point. Hoping I can make my fellow ktc quitters proud!
Shorthorn,
Congrats on getting to double digits on your quit. And good luck with the 4H stuff this weekend. Being around the animals and in the barn can be a big trigger. I used to say "Oh man I gotta have a dip for that." Now I say "Oh nic bitch rot in f***ing hell, and I live my life without you." And smile about it!!! Quit on baby.
ZC
thanks ZC... You are right on animal stuff being triggers, but I will get thru no doubt. Nic Bitch aint got no say in my life anymore.
Pinched, thanks for your words of wisdom as well... I love your avator... please, post all you want so I can enjoy that!
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Been a few days since I posted any updates, here is my Day 10 reflections:
This quit is totally different that my previous attempt. I don't know if it is because I used nic. lozenges to wean off the nic bitch, or just the fact that I am for myself 100% done chewing.... I have cravings, but my thought pattern this time is "oh... nic craving, you evil bitch, die" vs. previous time when my brain was more like "oh I miss you chew"!...
I don't know it that sounds as retarded and stupid to everyone else as it does me or not, but this quit my resolve is rock solid. I know the cravings will not stop. I know there will be tough times ahead, but I also know that I have a great support group and a solid determination that there will never again be nic in my lip.
The fog has lifted, I am sleeping better, though not great yet. Still haven't had any dip dreams, although I had a cancer dream the night before last that scared the hell out of me (only help shore up the resolve that much more).Â
I keep thinking I should probably get started on making an appt. with the dentist... Might even see about getting some whitening done on my teeth, as they are pretty badly stained.
I have a very busy weekend, full of events that would have in the past included alot of dip... First off saturday morning we are weighing in calves for the 4H kids... followed by a cash bash style fund raiser for local 4H youth... Both will be well attended by my dippin' friends. I am not worried though... I have been talking with my "dippin'" friends and they have been very supportive, and have all agreed no offering me pinches (even if I beg for one, which I won't)... But ultimately, I am very confident that it will not be an issue. I have my seeds, gum, tic-tacs... and a rock solid resolve to save my life. (and some great ktc guys digits if those fall apart).
Anyway, all for now... Day 10 nearly half done... Feeling very good about where I am on my quit at this point. Hoping I can make my fellow ktc quitters proud!
Shorthorn,
Congrats on getting to double digits on your quit. And good luck with the 4H stuff this weekend. Being around the animals and in the barn can be a big trigger. I used to say "Oh man I gotta have a dip for that." Now I say "Oh nic bitch rot in f***ing hell, and I live my life without you." And smile about it!!! Quit on baby.
ZC
thanks ZC... You are right on animal stuff being triggers, but I will get thru no doubt. Nic Bitch aint got no say in my life anymore.
Pinched, thanks for your words of wisdom as well... I love your avator... please, post all you want so I can enjoy that!
This time it is a quit and not an attempt!!! Keep you guard up and reach out if you need to vent. PM me if you need anything. Right around 10 days I had an awful Saturday where I felt like clawing my own face off, and was a real A-Hole around the house. It passes....just believe it will pass.
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shorthorn,
I echo Zillah and SAM's sentiments. There is only one quit and you will know it by your mindset....never again, for any reason. But for now, let's just take it day by day. I encourage you to reach out to more of us in the April 2014 group. For us newbies (yes, us April folks are still newbies too) conversing with the vets is extremely helpful but can sometimes be a bit intimidating when they have triple, or even quadruple digit days behind them in their quit. In terms of our addictions, day count doesn't matter and we're all the same. However, sometimes I've found it more reassuring to converse with folks that are just 'slightly ahead' of me in my quit. Again, only taking about days quit here. What you're going through is extremely fresh in out minds and we were there less than a month ago, or so.
If you need a wingman, I'm here for you. Just PM me.
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Been a few days since I posted any updates, here is my Day 10 reflections:
This quit is totally different that my previous attempt. I don't know if it is because I used nic. lozenges to wean off the nic bitch, or just the fact that I am for myself 100% done chewing.... I have cravings, but my thought pattern this time is "oh... nic craving, you evil bitch, die" vs. previous time when my brain was more like "oh I miss you chew"!...
I don't know it that sounds as retarded and stupid to everyone else as it does me or not, but this quit my resolve is rock solid. I know the cravings will not stop. I know there will be tough times ahead, but I also know that I have a great support group and a solid determination that there will never again be nic in my lip.
The fog has lifted, I am sleeping better, though not great yet. Still haven't had any dip dreams, although I had a cancer dream the night before last that scared the hell out of me (only help shore up the resolve that much more).Â
I keep thinking I should probably get started on making an appt. with the dentist... Might even see about getting some whitening done on my teeth, as they are pretty badly stained.
I have a very busy weekend, full of events that would have in the past included alot of dip... First off saturday morning we are weighing in calves for the 4H kids... followed by a cash bash style fund raiser for local 4H youth... Both will be well attended by my dippin' friends. I am not worried though... I have been talking with my "dippin'" friends and they have been very supportive, and have all agreed no offering me pinches (even if I beg for one, which I won't)... But ultimately, I am very confident that it will not be an issue. I have my seeds, gum, tic-tacs... and a rock solid resolve to save my life. (and some great ktc guys digits if those fall apart).
Anyway, all for now... Day 10 nearly half done... Feeling very good about where I am on my quit at this point. Hoping I can make my fellow ktc quitters proud!
Shorthorn,
Congrats on getting to double digits on your quit. And good luck with the 4H stuff this weekend. Being around the animals and in the barn can be a big trigger. I used to say "Oh man I gotta have a dip for that." Now I say "Oh nic bitch rot in f***ing hell, and I live my life without you." And smile about it!!! Quit on baby.
ZC
thanks ZC... You are right on animal stuff being triggers, but I will get thru no doubt. Nic Bitch aint got no say in my life anymore.
Pinched, thanks for your words of wisdom as well... I love your avator... please, post all you want so I can enjoy that!
This time it is a quit and not an attempt!!! Keep you guard up and reach out if you need to vent. PM me if you need anything. Right around 10 days I had an awful Saturday where I felt like clawing my own face off, and was a real A-Hole around the house. It passes....just believe it will pass.
Day 10 is huge brother. Congrats. Keep focused one each day, one at a time. Enjoy it. Your life has just gotten much much better without being tied down to a can of dog poopy. I quit with you today.
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Looking good, shorthorn. Keep up this solid quit.
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This quit is totally different that my previous attempt. I don't know if it is because I used nic. lozenges to wean off the nic bitch, or just the fact that I am for myself 100% done chewing....
That is because you came here to quit and you are serious. Its a different ball game once you wake up...and now you are awake.
10 days is huge man. Stay vigilant. You are crushing it.
PB
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Ten days! You're crushing it, bro -- just look at the difference in tone between your first post and most recent one! Confident without being cocky, with a conviction of purpose. Quit with you today and in spirit alongside you through the weekend.
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Shorthorn, You're knocking the balls out of the park, stay strong and have a solid backup
plan for the weekend! Go, May bro!
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Been a few days since I posted any updates, here is my Day 10 reflections:
This quit is totally different that my previous attempt. I don't know if it is because I used nic. lozenges to wean off the nic bitch, or just the fact that I am for myself 100% done chewing.... I have cravings, but my thought pattern this time is "oh... nic craving, you evil bitch, die" vs. previous time when my brain was more like "oh I miss you chew"!...
I don't know it that sounds as retarded and stupid to everyone else as it does me or not, but this quit my resolve is rock solid. I know the cravings will not stop. I know there will be tough times ahead, but I also know that I have a great support group and a solid determination that there will never again be nic in my lip.
The fog has lifted, I am sleeping better, though not great yet. Still haven't had any dip dreams, although I had a cancer dream the night before last that scared the hell out of me (only help shore up the resolve that much more).Â
I keep thinking I should probably get started on making an appt. with the dentist... Might even see about getting some whitening done on my teeth, as they are pretty badly stained.
I have a very busy weekend, full of events that would have in the past included alot of dip... First off saturday morning we are weighing in calves for the 4H kids... followed by a cash bash style fund raiser for local 4H youth... Both will be well attended by my dippin' friends. I am not worried though... I have been talking with my "dippin'" friends and they have been very supportive, and have all agreed no offering me pinches (even if I beg for one, which I won't)... But ultimately, I am very confident that it will not be an issue. I have my seeds, gum, tic-tacs... and a rock solid resolve to save my life. (and some great ktc guys digits if those fall apart).
Anyway, all for now... Day 10 nearly half done... Feeling very good about where I am on my quit at this point. Hoping I can make my fellow ktc quitters proud!
Shorthorn,
Congrats on getting to double digits on your quit. And good luck with the 4H stuff this weekend. Being around the animals and in the barn can be a big trigger. I used to say "Oh man I gotta have a dip for that." Now I say "Oh nic bitch rot in f***ing hell, and I live my life without you." And smile about it!!! Quit on baby.
ZC
thanks ZC... You are right on animal stuff being triggers, but I will get thru no doubt. Nic Bitch aint got no say in my life anymore.
Pinched, thanks for your words of wisdom as well... I love your avator... please, post all you want so I can enjoy that!
This time it is a quit and not an attempt!!! Keep you guard up and reach out if you need to vent. PM me if you need anything. Right around 10 days I had an awful Saturday where I felt like clawing my own face off, and was a real A-Hole around the house. It passes....just believe it will pass.
Day 10 is huge brother. Congrats. Keep focused one each day, one at a time. Enjoy it. Your life has just gotten much much better without being tied down to a can of dog poopy. I quit with you today.
Congrats on 10 days bro. Don't you F-in give nic lozenges any credit for your quit. YOU are the one that is putting in the work. F nic lozenges. It takes drive and determination to whip this B. Either you want it or you don't. I'm sensing you do bro. Stay on it ODAAT! I'm quit with you all day long.
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Been a few days since I posted any updates, here is my Day 10 reflections:
This quit is totally different that my previous attempt. I don't know if it is because I used nic. lozenges to wean off the nic bitch, or just the fact that I am for myself 100% done chewing.... I have cravings, but my thought pattern this time is "oh... nic craving, you evil bitch, die" vs. previous time when my brain was more like "oh I miss you chew"!...
I don't know it that sounds as retarded and stupid to everyone else as it does me or not, but this quit my resolve is rock solid. I know the cravings will not stop. I know there will be tough times ahead, but I also know that I have a great support group and a solid determination that there will never again be nic in my lip.
The fog has lifted, I am sleeping better, though not great yet. Still haven't had any dip dreams, although I had a cancer dream the night before last that scared the hell out of me (only help shore up the resolve that much more).Â
I keep thinking I should probably get started on making an appt. with the dentist... Might even see about getting some whitening done on my teeth, as they are pretty badly stained.
I have a very busy weekend, full of events that would have in the past included alot of dip... First off saturday morning we are weighing in calves for the 4H kids... followed by a cash bash style fund raiser for local 4H youth... Both will be well attended by my dippin' friends. I am not worried though... I have been talking with my "dippin'" friends and they have been very supportive, and have all agreed no offering me pinches (even if I beg for one, which I won't)... But ultimately, I am very confident that it will not be an issue. I have my seeds, gum, tic-tacs... and a rock solid resolve to save my life. (and some great ktc guys digits if those fall apart).
Anyway, all for now... Day 10 nearly half done... Feeling very good about where I am on my quit at this point. Hoping I can make my fellow ktc quitters proud!
Shorthorn,
Congrats on getting to double digits on your quit. And good luck with the 4H stuff this weekend. Being around the animals and in the barn can be a big trigger. I used to say "Oh man I gotta have a dip for that." Now I say "Oh nic bitch rot in f***ing hell, and I live my life without you." And smile about it!!! Quit on baby.
ZC
thanks ZC... You are right on animal stuff being triggers, but I will get thru no doubt. Nic Bitch aint got no say in my life anymore.
Pinched, thanks for your words of wisdom as well... I love your avator... please, post all you want so I can enjoy that!
This time it is a quit and not an attempt!!! Keep you guard up and reach out if you need to vent. PM me if you need anything. Right around 10 days I had an awful Saturday where I felt like clawing my own face off, and was a real A-Hole around the house. It passes....just believe it will pass.
Day 10 is huge brother. Congrats. Keep focused one each day, one at a time. Enjoy it. Your life has just gotten much much better without being tied down to a can of dog poopy. I quit with you today.
Congrats on 10 days bro. Don't you F-in give nic lozenges any credit for your quit. YOU are the one that is putting in the work. F nic lozenges. It takes drive and determination to whip this B. Either you want it or you don't. I'm sensing you do bro. Stay on it ODAAT! I'm quit with you all day long.
I'm with Derk. Screw the poison candies. The new you is realizing it don't need the poison, never did. This quit is going to be epic. This quit is the one for the ages. Screw the poison. Quit with you today.
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Just wanna drop a quick thanks to all my April and May quit brothers, and everyone else... I appreciae the support kind words.
I am with all you brothers... Anything, anytime, just say the word!
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I smell a quitter...
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I smell a quitter...
Yes, someone stepped into a fresh pile of quit in here!
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I smell a quitter...
Yes, someone stepped into a fresh pile of quit in here!
Smells great doesn't it?
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I smell a quitter...
Yes, someone stepped into a fresh pile of quit in here!
Smells great doesn't it?
I quit in my pants earlier. Ahhh felt good
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I smell a quitter...
Yes, someone stepped into a fresh pile of quit in here!
Smells great doesn't it?
I quit in my pants earlier. Ahhh felt good
Nice.... Wintergreen.
Thus far i have quit my pants, quit at work, quit all over my truck, and most certainly quit the bed!
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Well here we are at day 20...Not really feeling much different than day 10. For the most part the fog is gone, although I have been very irritable as of late. The crave is getting more mellow, but more continous than it was before. I have been dreaming of dip the last couple nights, even having to start using the sleeping pills the last couple nights as well again... Just can't freaking sleep worth a damn. I have noticed though, since I quit my weekly migranes on Sundays seems to have stopped... I can't really explain the connection, but so far I have not had a migrane headache since I quit... Anyone else go thru that? thoughts on why?
I have been trying to start breaking myself of the oral fixation issues... Damn that is the worst part. I still have to constantly have something in my mouth... Been using gum, tic tacs, seeds, and hooch (Damn order of Hooch should have been here Friday!) (see what I mean about being irritable?) I believe this order of Hooch (6 cans) will be my last... Even though it is not nicotine, my boys are still seeing me with a tin, and I realy need to break that cycle. I am realizing that part of the reason the addition seemed so normal to me for all these years is that all the male role models in my life were dippers... I need to break that cycle so my boys know that dip doesn't make you a man!
Anyway, no way in hell I am giving up my quit... If I end up loosing all my teeth due to sugary tic tacs and gum, so be it, but I will not poisen myself again.
Thanks to all my May brothers, and the April supporters! 'Remshot'
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Well here we are at day 20...Not really feeling much different than day 10. For the most part the fog is gone, although I have been very irritable as of late. The crave is getting more mellow, but more continous than it was before. I have been dreaming of dip the last couple nights, even having to start using the sleeping pills the last couple nights as well again... Just can't freaking sleep worth a damn. I have noticed though, since I quit my weekly migranes on Sundays seems to have stopped... I can't really explain the connection, but so far I have not had a migrane headache since I quit... Anyone else go thru that? thoughts on why?
I have been trying to start breaking myself of the oral fixation issues... Damn that is the worst part. I still have to constantly have something in my mouth... Been using gum, tic tacs, seeds, and hooch (Damn order of Hooch should have been here Friday!) (see what I mean about being irritable?) I believe this order of Hooch (6 cans) will be my last... Even though it is not nicotine, my boys are still seeing me with a tin, and I realy need to break that cycle. I am realizing that part of the reason the addition seemed so normal to me for all these years is that all the male role models in my life were dippers... I need to break that cycle so my boys know that dip doesn't make you a man!
Anyway, no way in hell I am giving up my quit... If I end up loosing all my teeth due to sugary tic tacs and gum, so be it, but I will not poisen myself again.
Thanks to all my May brothers, and the April supporters! 'Remshot'
Hey congrats on 20 days, many tough times to come still, but it gets better! Keep posting roll and keep your nose down! My headaches have subsided as well but took longer than 20 days. As for the fake I didn't use it, but if it helps you right now then so be it. Your boys are gonna witness you quit soon enough and you will set the roll model that dipping doesn't make you a man, but quitting it does. You got this! ODAAT with you bro! Erussell day 287.
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Well here we are at day 20...Not really feeling much different than day 10. For the most part the fog is gone, although I have been very irritable as of late. The crave is getting more mellow, but more continous than it was before. I have been dreaming of dip the last couple nights, even having to start using the sleeping pills the last couple nights as well again... Just can't freaking sleep worth a damn. I have noticed though, since I quit my weekly migranes on Sundays seems to have stopped... I can't really explain the connection, but so far I have not had a migrane headache since I quit... Anyone else go thru that? thoughts on why?
I have been trying to start breaking myself of the oral fixation issues... Damn that is the worst part. I still have to constantly have something in my mouth... Been using gum, tic tacs, seeds, and hooch (Damn order of Hooch should have been here Friday!) (see what I mean about being irritable?) I believe this order of Hooch (6 cans) will be my last... Even though it is not nicotine, my boys are still seeing me with a tin, and I realy need to break that cycle. I am realizing that part of the reason the addition seemed so normal to me for all these years is that all the male role models in my life were dippers... I need to break that cycle so my boys know that dip doesn't make you a man!
Anyway, no way in hell I am giving up my quit... If I end up loosing all my teeth due to sugary tic tacs and gum, so be it, but I will not poisen myself again.
Thanks to all my May brothers, and the April supporters! 'Remshot'
Shorthorn, I am loving what I'm reading here about not giving up no matter what. I am the same way. I have said over and over one of us has to die, either the bitch or me, and it damn sure aint going to be me. If it kills me to quit, at least it was on my terms. Keep up the good fight brother, you got it going on.
Mogul
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migrane headache since I quit... Anyone else go thru that? thoughts on why?
Nicotine is a vascular constrictor.
Since that shit is out of your system , Your brain is getting more blood flow and oxygen than it is used to.
Thats a good thing, but your bodies gotta adjust.
Nicotine does damage far beyond just cancer, hang tough shorthorn, your healing, and I promise it gets better.
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Wow... I can't believe I haven't updated this since Day 20... Geez I am a slacker.
Here we are day 48... I wanted to wait for the half century mark, but I had a slow afternoon going a work so I figured I better use the time when it is availible.
I have to first say that I love being a quitter... I realized recently that the last 48 days were the first time since my 2 year old was born that I have ever kissed him, or hugged him without dip / nic all over me. I think back to meeting him for the first time in the delivery room (of course a load of cope in my lip)... The time we were camping when he was 13 months and he opened my can and ate some dip (puked all over).... What a crappy father I have been.
Same goes for my 7 year old son... I had a stoppage of 9 months when he was a baby, but since then I have always had a dip in around him, and I never thought twice of it. A few weeks ago we were driving around, and he saw a young guy smoking a cig. My son said to me "why is he trying to kill himself Dad, He should just have a dip"... Floored me.. I didn't even realize how bad the Nic bitch had control over my thoughts. Here I had led my son to believe that Dip was ok, but smoking was bad! Needless to say, we had a discussion about that, and I made a pact with him that I would never dip again.
There is no doubt, a new leaf has been turned. I will never touch nic again.. No way, no how. I know her tricks now. It makes me absolutely sick to think of what a crappy role model I have set for my boys up until now.. Time for a change.
Honestely, the cravings are very mild any more. Still a whore for oral fixation, but the Hooch, tic tacs, seeds, gum are just fine. Biggest problem I have been fighting is irratibility... I thought it was bad around day 20, but holy cow.. I have been snapping at everyone and everything lately... Gotta keep working on that.
Did have one big craving early saturday morning... Had my best cow go into labor after loosing a calf last year.. Very stressful for me. Calving season has always been huge dip trigger for me (anything barn related is really)... I made it thru by focusing on the task at hand and before I knew it the crave was gone.
Anyhow, just wanted to drop a note to catch up.. Looking forward to my next 50 days!
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Congrats on making it to the HOF! Keep it going!
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Congrats on making it to the HOF! Keep it going!
'oh yeah' Way to go Shorty! Keep the party goin!
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Thanks Brothers... I will have to write up a better update later today... Love reading thru the couple updates on here on the trail thru 100 days... man things are so much clearer now!
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Strong quit man. Way to go and congrats!!!!!!
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Strong quit man. Way to go and congrats!!!!!!
Keep it up! nice job!
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Strong quit man. Way to go and congrats!!!!!!
Keep it up! nice job!
Pleasure to be quit with you. Congratulations again! See you at 101!
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Congrats bro. Its been great having you to keep pace with on the roll board every day. Glad we made it together.
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Wow... here I am day 100....
I am not really one to write a fancy-smancy speach, however I do wanna share a few thoughts today...
I have to say, today doesn't feel all that special. Yeah, I am glad to be nic free for 100 days, but the work isn't near complete...
I have a confession to make though... This isn't my first HOF day with KTC. I hit the HOF the first time in May of 2008 (yeah... 6 years ago yall)... So pardon me if I seem alittle "reserved". I assure you my reservation is not because 100 days isn't a damn awesome accomplishment... of which I am dang proud! No, my reservations are because I know (all too well) that its not over. The nic bitch lives in my brain... She still tries to entice me from time to time.... I know I must keep my gaurd up and my KTC family near as I work towards the next goal... 200 days... Then 300 days and so on for the rest of my life.
Last time I blew my quit (stoppage) at 9 months because I wan't prepared... Honestly I had the mind set that once I broke the addiction, say, got past 100 days, that I would be free of nicotine and never have to worry about it again. In fact, I remember thinking, that once I break the addition, I could still have a dip occasionally... Maybe at a cattle show, or while working ground... one dip wouldn't hurt, I was nic free!
Lemme tell you folks... 1 dip did hurt. All it took was a bad day at work and a coworker with a tin of skoal. That one pinch, which I thought wouldn't hurt me, threw me back into nicotine addition, just that fast. And it took me 6 years to get my mind back right to finally quit.
The moral of my story, and why I wanted to share this story with the group, is so that maybe someone else out there might be able to prevent themselves from failing... Day 100 is just the day before day 101... We are addicts folks... We will always be addicts. We must stay on gaurd, the nic bitch will be back to try and regain control of your brain.
I have been working with several people off of KTC to quit nic additions... One is an older guy I work with who can't start a PC, much less post roll (hard enough for some of us anyway)... Basically he and I shared digits long ago and I make him promise me everyday that he is going to stay quit... I also started working with my cousin last night who is trying to quit smoking... I feel fantastic being able to help these folks with all the tools I learned from KTC, and doing so also helps me strenghten my own quit.... I may not always be able to be on this website 24-7, but brothers I am here to tell you I am preaching the KTC gospel to those in need... And this world is full of those in need.
So... Here's to the next 100 days... Where I collect my "prize" from the old lady tonight ( 'boob' ) and tell the Nic Whore to kiss my 'arse'
Brothers in Quit... I am QLF today and everyday!
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Wow... here I am day 100....
I am not really one to write a fancy-smancy speach, however I do wanna share a few thoughts today...
I have to say, today doesn't feel all that special. Yeah, I am glad to be nic free for 100 days, but the work isn't near complete...
I have a confession to make though... This isn't my first HOF day with KTC. I hit the HOF the first time in May of 2008 (yeah... 6 years ago yall)... So pardon me if I seem alittle "reserved". I assure you my reservation is not because 100 days isn't a damn awesome accomplishment... of which I am dang proud! No, my reservations are because I know (all too well) that its not over. The nic bitch lives in my brain... She still tries to entice me from time to time.... I know I must keep my gaurd up and my KTC family near as I work towards the next goal... 200 days... Then 300 days and so on for the rest of my life.
Last time I blew my quit (stoppage) at 9 months because I wan't prepared... Honestly I had the mind set that once I broke the addiction, say, got past 100 days, that I would be free of nicotine and never have to worry about it again. In fact, I remember thinking, that once I break the addition, I could still have a dip occasionally... Maybe at a cattle show, or while working ground... one dip wouldn't hurt, I was nic free!
Lemme tell you folks... 1 dip did hurt. All it took was a bad day at work and a coworker with a tin of skoal. That one pinch, which I thought wouldn't hurt me, threw me back into nicotine addition, just that fast. And it took me 6 years to get my mind back right to finally quit.
The moral of my story, and why I wanted to share this story with the group, is so that maybe someone else out there might be able to prevent themselves from failing... Day 100 is just the day before day 101... We are addicts folks... We will always be addicts. We must stay on gaurd, the nic bitch will be back to try and regain control of your brain.
I have been working with several people off of KTC to quit nic additions... One is an older guy I work with who can't start a PC, much less post roll (hard enough for some of us anyway)... Basically he and I shared digits long ago and I make him promise me everyday that he is going to stay quit... I also started working with my cousin last night who is trying to quit smoking... I feel fantastic being able to help these folks with all the tools I learned from KTC, and doing so also helps me strenghten my own quit.... I may not always be able to be on this website 24-7, but brothers I am here to tell you I am preaching the KTC gospel to those in need... And this world is full of those in need.
So... Here's to the next 100 days... Where I collect my "prize" from the old lady tonight ( 'boob' ) and tell the Nic Whore to kiss my 'arse'
Brothers in Quit... I am QLF today and everyday!
Its always good to read a reminder that we can NEVER have 'just one"
Congrats Shorthorn!
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Wow... here I am day 100....
I am not really one to write a fancy-smancy speach, however I do wanna share a few thoughts today...
I have to say, today doesn't feel all that special. Yeah, I am glad to be nic free for 100 days, but the work isn't near complete...
I have a confession to make though... This isn't my first HOF day with KTC. I hit the HOF the first time in May of 2008 (yeah... 6 years ago yall)... So pardon me if I seem alittle "reserved". I assure you my reservation is not because 100 days isn't a damn awesome accomplishment... of which I am dang proud! No, my reservations are because I know (all too well) that its not over. The nic bitch lives in my brain... She still tries to entice me from time to time.... I know I must keep my gaurd up and my KTC family near as I work towards the next goal... 200 days... Then 300 days and so on for the rest of my life.
Last time I blew my quit (stoppage) at 9 months because I wan't prepared... Honestly I had the mind set that once I broke the addiction, say, got past 100 days, that I would be free of nicotine and never have to worry about it again. In fact, I remember thinking, that once I break the addition, I could still have a dip occasionally... Maybe at a cattle show, or while working ground... one dip wouldn't hurt, I was nic free!
Lemme tell you folks... 1 dip did hurt. All it took was a bad day at work and a coworker with a tin of skoal. That one pinch, which I thought wouldn't hurt me, threw me back into nicotine addition, just that fast. And it took me 6 years to get my mind back right to finally quit.
The moral of my story, and why I wanted to share this story with the group, is so that maybe someone else out there might be able to prevent themselves from failing... Day 100 is just the day before day 101... We are addicts folks... We will always be addicts. We must stay on gaurd, the nic bitch will be back to try and regain control of your brain.
I have been working with several people off of KTC to quit nic additions... One is an older guy I work with who can't start a PC, much less post roll (hard enough for some of us anyway)... Basically he and I shared digits long ago and I make him promise me everyday that he is going to stay quit... I also started working with my cousin last night who is trying to quit smoking... I feel fantastic being able to help these folks with all the tools I learned from KTC, and doing so also helps me strenghten my own quit.... I may not always be able to be on this website 24-7, but brothers I am here to tell you I am preaching the KTC gospel to those in need... And this world is full of those in need.
So... Here's to the next 100 days... Where I collect my "prize" from the old lady tonight ( 'boob' ) and tell the Nic Whore to kiss my 'arse'
Brothers in Quit... I am QLF today and everyday!
Its always good to read a reminder that we can NEVER have 'just one"
Congrats Shorthorn!
Good stuff. Keep it up and glad you're sharing your knowledge with friends and family.
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Wow... here I am day 100....
I am not really one to write a fancy-smancy speach, however I do wanna share a few thoughts today...
I have to say, today doesn't feel all that special. Yeah, I am glad to be nic free for 100 days, but the work isn't near complete...
I have a confession to make though... This isn't my first HOF day with KTC. I hit the HOF the first time in May of 2008 (yeah... 6 years ago yall)... So pardon me if I seem alittle "reserved". I assure you my reservation is not because 100 days isn't a damn awesome accomplishment... of which I am dang proud! No, my reservations are because I know (all too well) that its not over. The nic bitch lives in my brain... She still tries to entice me from time to time.... I know I must keep my gaurd up and my KTC family near as I work towards the next goal... 200 days... Then 300 days and so on for the rest of my life.
Last time I blew my quit (stoppage) at 9 months because I wan't prepared... Honestly I had the mind set that once I broke the addiction, say, got past 100 days, that I would be free of nicotine and never have to worry about it again. In fact, I remember thinking, that once I break the addition, I could still have a dip occasionally... Maybe at a cattle show, or while working ground... one dip wouldn't hurt, I was nic free!
Lemme tell you folks... 1 dip did hurt. All it took was a bad day at work and a coworker with a tin of skoal. That one pinch, which I thought wouldn't hurt me, threw me back into nicotine addition, just that fast. And it took me 6 years to get my mind back right to finally quit.
The moral of my story, and why I wanted to share this story with the group, is so that maybe someone else out there might be able to prevent themselves from failing... Day 100 is just the day before day 101... We are addicts folks... We will always be addicts. We must stay on gaurd, the nic bitch will be back to try and regain control of your brain.
I have been working with several people off of KTC to quit nic additions... One is an older guy I work with who can't start a PC, much less post roll (hard enough for some of us anyway)... Basically he and I shared digits long ago and I make him promise me everyday that he is going to stay quit... I also started working with my cousin last night who is trying to quit smoking... I feel fantastic being able to help these folks with all the tools I learned from KTC, and doing so also helps me strenghten my own quit.... I may not always be able to be on this website 24-7, but brothers I am here to tell you I am preaching the KTC gospel to those in need... And this world is full of those in need.
So... Here's to the next 100 days... Where I collect my "prize" from the old lady tonight ( 'boob' ) and tell the Nic Whore to kiss my 'arse'
Brothers in Quit... I am QLF today and everyday!
Its always good to read a reminder that we can NEVER have 'just one"
Congrats Shorthorn!
Good stuff. Keep it up and glad you're sharing your knowledge with friends and family.
Awesome post, Shorthorn! Thanks.
Maybe you can post the old man's name in our roll to make him more accountable. He could be our James Gordon Endowed Fellow.
Quit with you every today.
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Thanks Doc, Grizz, RDad!... I appreciate the support.
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Wow... here I am day 100....
I am not really one to write a fancy-smancy speach, however I do wanna share a few thoughts today...
I have to say, today doesn't feel all that special. Yeah, I am glad to be nic free for 100 days, but the work isn't near complete...
I have a confession to make though... This isn't my first HOF day with KTC. I hit the HOF the first time in May of 2008 (yeah... 6 years ago yall)... So pardon me if I seem alittle "reserved". I assure you my reservation is not because 100 days isn't a damn awesome accomplishment... of which I am dang proud! No, my reservations are because I know (all too well) that its not over. The nic bitch lives in my brain... She still tries to entice me from time to time.... I know I must keep my gaurd up and my KTC family near as I work towards the next goal... 200 days... Then 300 days and so on for the rest of my life.
Last time I blew my quit (stoppage) at 9 months because I wan't prepared... Honestly I had the mind set that once I broke the addiction, say, got past 100 days, that I would be free of nicotine and never have to worry about it again. In fact, I remember thinking, that once I break the addition, I could still have a dip occasionally... Maybe at a cattle show, or while working ground... one dip wouldn't hurt, I was nic free!
Lemme tell you folks... 1 dip did hurt. All it took was a bad day at work and a coworker with a tin of skoal. That one pinch, which I thought wouldn't hurt me, threw me back into nicotine addition, just that fast. And it took me 6 years to get my mind back right to finally quit.
The moral of my story, and why I wanted to share this story with the group, is so that maybe someone else out there might be able to prevent themselves from failing... Day 100 is just the day before day 101... We are addicts folks... We will always be addicts. We must stay on gaurd, the nic bitch will be back to try and regain control of your brain.
I have been working with several people off of KTC to quit nic additions... One is an older guy I work with who can't start a PC, much less post roll (hard enough for some of us anyway)... Basically he and I shared digits long ago and I make him promise me everyday that he is going to stay quit... I also started working with my cousin last night who is trying to quit smoking... I feel fantastic being able to help these folks with all the tools I learned from KTC, and doing so also helps me strenghten my own quit.... I may not always be able to be on this website 24-7, but brothers I am here to tell you I am preaching the KTC gospel to those in need... And this world is full of those in need.
So... Here's to the next 100 days... Where I collect my "prize" from the old lady tonight ( 'boob' ) and tell the Nic Whore to kiss my 'arse'
Brothers in Quit... I am QLF today and everyday!
Its always good to read a reminder that we can NEVER have 'just one"
Congrats Shorthorn!
Good stuff. Keep it up and glad you're sharing your knowledge with friends and family.
Awesome post, Shorthorn! Thanks.
Maybe you can post the old man's name in our roll to make him more accountable. He could be our James Gordon Endowed Fellow.
Quit with you every today.
Great work Shorthorn, collect that prize and enjoy basking in the glory of quit. Just remember to not change a thing for the next 100 days. You have hit the first milestone not the goal.
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Shorty- been so long since I looked at my own intro, didn't realize you gave me the HOG props yesterday. So wrapped up in the moment, I didn't say congrats to you. HOG is a stunning achievement for us. Lets get after some more milestones.
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Shorty- been so long since I looked at my own intro, didn't realize you gave me the HOG props yesterday. So wrapped up in the moment, I didn't say congrats to you. HOG is a stunning achievement for us. Lets get after some more milestones.
Congrats (albeit belated) on your HOG! Keep racking up the +1's.
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Thanks Lipi and doc on the HOG recongnition..
I just realized I haven't been on my intro since day 100.. Holy crap that was 68 days ago!
This week I starting working to make amends with my original HOF group, May 2008 at the urging of Klark... Those guys have been great and it makes me so pissed that I caved... 6 fucking years of my life I stuffed poisen in my mouth after that... If i had only been more involved with the group back then, shared some digits, maybe it would have all been different..
2,349 days ago I stopped dipping the first time... I will get pissed at myself everytime I think about the time lost.
I find the last 3 or 4 days I have been very irratable at times... Not like the fog days... this irratability is fleeting... comes and goes pretty quick. Have had some strong cravings lately... Worst one was 2 nights ago.. I was baling hay with some buddies when one pulled out a can of Cope and packed his lip... Instant urge, but I beat that nic bitch into submission... Not a chance in hell I will ever cave again... I will get my comma. I will reach the 23rd floor, just gonna be 6 years later.
Sorry for breaking the promise May '08.. This time I won't fail... Not with the strenght of May '08 and the madness of Mayhem '14 ... those crazy bastards have my back if I ever need help for sure!
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Thanks Lipi and doc on the HOG recongnition..
I just realized I haven't been on my intro since day 100.. Holy crap that was 68 days ago!
This week I starting working to make amends with my original HOF group, May 2008 at the urging of Klark... Those guys have been great and it makes me so pissed that I caved... 6 fucking years of my life I stuffed poisen in my mouth after that... If i had only been more involved with the group back then, shared some digits, maybe it would have all been different..
2,349 days ago I stopped dipping the first time... I will get pissed at myself everytime I think about the time lost.
I find the last 3 or 4 days I have been very irratable at times... Not like the fog days... this irratability is fleeting... comes and goes pretty quick. Have had some strong cravings lately... Worst one was 2 nights ago.. I was baling hay with some buddies when one pulled out a can of Cope and packed his lip... Instant urge, but I beat that nic bitch into submission... Not a chance in hell I will ever cave again... I will get my comma. I will reach the 23rd floor, just gonna be 6 years later.
Sorry for breaking the promise May '08.. This time I won't fail... Not with the strenght of May '08 and the madness of Mayhem '14 ... those crazy bastards have my back if I ever need help for sure!
Something about this story sounds familiar...
You're owning this. Keep owning it.
Most returning members est themselves alive with regret. The key is to acknowledge what you've done and let it go. It is but a memory. What you were is not what you are now. We can't do anything about the past, but we sure as hell can move forward.
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Thanks Lipi and doc on the HOG recongnition..
I just realized I haven't been on my intro since day 100.. Holy crap that was 68 days ago!
This week I starting working to make amends with my original HOF group, May 2008 at the urging of Klark... Those guys have been great and it makes me so pissed that I caved... 6 fucking years of my life I stuffed poisen in my mouth after that... If i had only been more involved with the group back then, shared some digits, maybe it would have all been different..
2,349 days ago I stopped dipping the first time... I will get pissed at myself everytime I think about the time lost.
I find the last 3 or 4 days I have been very irratable at times... Not like the fog days... this irratability is fleeting... comes and goes pretty quick. Have had some strong cravings lately... Worst one was 2 nights ago.. I was baling hay with some buddies when one pulled out a can of Cope and packed his lip... Instant urge, but I beat that nic bitch into submission... Not a chance in hell I will ever cave again... I will get my comma. I will reach the 23rd floor, just gonna be 6 years later.
Sorry for breaking the promise May '08.. This time I won't fail... Not with the strenght of May '08 and the madness of Mayhem '14 ... those crazy bastards have my back if I ever need help for sure!
Something about this story sounds familiar...
You're owning this. Keep owning it.
Most returning members est themselves alive with regret. The key is to acknowledge what you've done and let it go. It is but a memory. What you were is not what you are now. We can't do anything about the past, but we sure as hell can move forward.
Good advice WP...
You are correct.. Where I am today is not where I was back then... Although I would add that I am where I am today because of where I was then... It is that failure that increases the strenght I have in my quit today... it is knowing defeat that keeps me winning today.
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Thanks Lipi and doc on the HOG recongnition..
I just realized I haven't been on my intro since day 100.. Holy crap that was 68 days ago!
This week I starting working to make amends with my original HOF group, May 2008 at the urging of Klark... Those guys have been great and it makes me so pissed that I caved... 6 fucking years of my life I stuffed poisen in my mouth after that... If i had only been more involved with the group back then, shared some digits, maybe it would have all been different..
2,349 days ago I stopped dipping the first time... I will get pissed at myself everytime I think about the time lost.
I find the last 3 or 4 days I have been very irratable at times... Not like the fog days... this irratability is fleeting... comes and goes pretty quick. Have had some strong cravings lately... Worst one was 2 nights ago.. I was baling hay with some buddies when one pulled out a can of Cope and packed his lip... Instant urge, but I beat that nic bitch into submission... Not a chance in hell I will ever cave again... I will get my comma. I will reach the 23rd floor, just gonna be 6 years later.
Sorry for breaking the promise May '08.. This time I won't fail... Not with the strenght of May '08 and the madness of Mayhem '14 ... those crazy bastards have my back if I ever need help for sure!
Something about this story sounds familiar...
You're owning this. Keep owning it.
Most returning members est themselves alive with regret. The key is to acknowledge what you've done and let it go. It is but a memory. What you were is not what you are now. We can't do anything about the past, but we sure as hell can move forward.
Good advice WP...
You are correct.. Where I am today is not where I was back then... Although I would add that I am where I am today because of where I was then... It is that failure that increases the strenght I have in my quit today... it is knowing defeat that keeps me winning today.
To overcome your addiction you must comprehend what it means to fail-Razd 3/12
Agree. That's the whole point to the three questions. We acknowledge our failure, we acknowledge we're addicts, and we tell ourselves it won't happen again because we will plan to be quit in the future.
But actions speak louder than words my friend. The answers mean nothing if you aren't willing to move forward.
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Wow... last two weeks have been brutal... Not so much craving wise, but I can't sleep for crap! Has anyone else had sleep issues again getting close to 200 days (at 174 today)?
I seem to fall asleep fine but have been waking up at 1 or 2 am and can't get back to sleep.... This sucks!
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Wow... last two weeks have been brutal... Not so much craving wise, but I can't sleep for crap! Has anyone else had sleep issues again getting close to 200 days (at 174 today)?
I seem to fall asleep fine but have been waking up at 1 or 2 am and can't get back to sleep.... This sucks!
This is something I definitely can relate to shorthorn. Sometimes i can't really put a finger on it, if it's quit related, age, or just part of life in general. I've talked to one other friend that goes through the same thing on this site. I'm the type that just hates to take meds, so I just battle through the periods of sleep deprivation the best I can.
Would love to hear some more quitters hit on this. See if this is something that a lot of quitters experience. I"m on day 515 and I have experienced these periods off and on. Quit with you today.
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Thanks Srans.... I appreciate your reply.... I would also love to hear other's take on this.. I battled sleepless ness during the Suck for sure, but I can't put a finger on why its come back.
Quit on brother.
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Thanks Srans.... I appreciate your reply.... I would also love to hear other's take on this.. I battled sleepless ness during the Suck for sure, but I can't put a finger on why its come back.
Quit on brother.
Dude, I think at this point it is probably life. It might also be our deep seated anxiety about chewing.
Either way, Quit with you all day every day.
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Thanks Srans.... I appreciate your reply.... I would also love to hear other's take on this.. I battled sleepless ness during the Suck for sure, but I can't put a finger on why its come back.
Quit on brother.
Dude, I think at this point it is probably life. It might also be our deep seated anxiety about chewing.
Either way, Quit with you all day every day.
Wanted to add a positive. Before quitting i had difficulties initially falling asleep due to rls( restless leg syndrome) . Drove me nuts. Months after quitting i read that nocotine was a cause of this problem. It was then i realized i didn't experience the problem anymore. Users are losers. Quit with you today.
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Congrats on the 200, Shortbus!
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Congrats on the 200, Shortbus!
Congrats, Shorty. Well done!
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Congrats on the 200, Shortbus!
Congrats, Shorty. Well done!
Congrats.
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Congrats on the 200, Shortbus!
Congrats, Shorty. Well done!
Congrats.
Nice!
Save me a spot.
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Congrats on the 200, Shortbus!
Congrats, Shorty. Well done!
Congrats.
Nice!
Save me a spot.
Missed this, congrats on 200.
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Congrats on the 200, Shortbus!
Congrats, Shorty. Well done!
Congrats.
Nice!
Save me a spot.
Missed this, congrats on 200.
Nice Shorthorn on the 200. I remember when it was just 2! Good work. Keep up the +1's and see you at 300.
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Just a note to self for future reading...
Days 180 or 190 thru now (day 216) have been tougher than anticipated.... I have been hitting the smokey mountain again pretty hard, which I had pretty much given up totaly around 120 mark. Cravings persist although they are weak, and my defences are strong (staying active, digits, pure unadulterated hatred of nicotine).
Thanks everyone for the well wishes on 200... Looking forward to 300 and beyond.
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Just a note to self for future reading...
Days 180 or 190 thru now (day 216) have been tougher than anticipated.... I have been hitting the smokey mountain again pretty hard, which I had pretty much given up totaly around 120 mark. Cravings persist although they are weak, and my defences are strong (staying active, digits, pure unadulterated hatred of nicotine).
Thanks everyone for the well wishes on 200... Looking forward to 300 and beyond.
Note from Self from the future: I am thankful that you post roll everyday and kick ass on NICOTINE everyday....I will never post a day one again.
Love
Shorthorn
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Just a note to self for future reading...
Days 180 or 190 thru now (day 216) have been tougher than anticipated.... I have been hitting the smokey mountain again pretty hard, which I had pretty much given up totaly around 120 mark. Cravings persist although they are weak, and my defences are strong (staying active, digits, pure unadulterated hatred of nicotine).
Thanks everyone for the well wishes on 200... Looking forward to 300 and beyond.
Note from Self from the future: I am thankful that you post roll everyday and kick ass on NICOTINE everyday....I will never post a day one again.
Love
Shorthorn
Nice traumagnet....
I agree future me... there will never be another day 1.. I want to live too bad.
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Congrats on the 3rd floor, brother!
Keep up the bad ass quit!
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Congrats on the 3rd floor, brother!
Keep up the bad ass quit!
Great quitting with you Shorty. 'boob'
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Congrats on the 3rd floor, brother!
Keep up the bad ass quit!
Great quitting with you Shorty. 'boob'
Nice work, bro -- keep on crushing it!
Congrats again!
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Congrats on the 3rd floor, brother!
Keep up the bad ass quit!
Great quitting with you Shorty. 'boob'
Nice work, bro -- keep on crushing it!
Congrats again!
Do it again, do it again!
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Congrats on the 3rd floor, brother!
Keep up the bad ass quit!
Great quitting with you Shorty. 'boob'
Nice work, bro -- keep on crushing it!
Congrats again!
Do it again, do it again!
Nicely done, congrats on the 3rd floor brother!
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Congrats on the 3rd floor, brother!
Keep up the bad ass quit!
Great quitting with you Shorty. 'boob'
Nice work, bro -- keep on crushing it!
Congrats again!
Do it again, do it again!
Nicely done, congrats on the 3rd floor brother!
Bad ass quit you got going shorty. Keep up the good work!