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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Eeyooree on January 25, 2016, 04:55:00 PM
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I think I am doing this right, and am not sure if I am or not.
I just found a hard spot in my mouth. It's immobile and painless, but it's right on my gum. I followed the google trail, and am scared shitless. I also found you. My mind is a mess and I can't really see straight right now, and I don't know what to say. Except that I'm terrified. So here I am. The chatroom guys told me to post something so here I am.
I'm quitting tobacco. I quit alcohol a few months ago, so I can do this too. I already flushed all the stuff I had.
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I think I am doing this right, and am not sure if I am or not.
I just found a hard spot in my mouth. It's immobile and painless, but it's right on my gum. I followed the google trail, and am scared shitless. I also found you. My mind is a mess and I can't really see straight right now, and I don't know what to say. Except that I'm terrified. So here I am. The chatroom guys told me to post something so here I am.
I'm quitting tobacco. I quit alcohol a few months ago, so I can do this too. I already flushed all the stuff I had.
This is day 1. The bump won't kill you before the dentist visit, but the next dip might. The next 48-72 hours are crucial to your quit. Go find May 2016 in quit groups and post there. This will be your group. Welcome aboard brah.
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I think I am doing this right, and am not sure if I am or not.
I just found a hard spot in my mouth. It's immobile and painless, but it's right on my gum. I followed the google trail, and am scared shitless. I also found you. My mind is a mess and I can't really see straight right now, and I don't know what to say. Except that I'm terrified. So here I am. The chatroom guys told me to post something so here I am.
I'm quitting tobacco. I quit alcohol a few months ago, so I can do this too. I already flushed all the stuff I had.
This is day 1. The bump won't kill you before the dentist visit, but the next dip might. The next 48-72 hours are crucial to your quit. Go find May 2016 in quit groups and post there. This will be your group. Welcome aboard brah.
Click on this link to get you to your quit group. May 2016 (http://http//forum.killthecan.org/topic/11505241/13/) May will be the month you reach 100 days. Being one of the early quitters in your group gives you the opportunity to lead.
Beware, when you get a clean bill of health the urge to return to your using will be strong.
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I think I am doing this right, and am not sure if I am or not.
I just found a hard spot in my mouth. It's immobile and painless, but it's right on my gum. I followed the google trail, and am scared shitless. I also found you. My mind is a mess and I can't really see straight right now, and I don't know what to say. Except that I'm terrified. So here I am. The chatroom guys told me to post something so here I am.
I'm quitting tobacco. I quit alcohol a few months ago, so I can do this too. I already flushed all the stuff I had.
This is day 1. The bump won't kill you before the dentist visit, but the next dip might. The next 48-72 hours are crucial to your quit. Go find May 2016 in quit groups and post there. This will be your group. Welcome aboard brah.
Click on this link to get you to your quit group. May 2016 (http://http//forum.killthecan.org/topic/11505241/13/) May will be the month you reach 100 days. Being one of the early quitters in your group gives you the opportunity to lead.
Beware, when you get a clean bill of health the urge to return to your using will be strong.
Good job posting roll. It is the first step to a life of freedom.
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Great to have you here Eeyoore. Whatever drove you here, you have within your grasp all of the tools and support to quit. Post roll and make that promise one day at a time.
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Welcome aboard Eeyoore. You can do it!
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The title of your intro lured me in...Scared.
Scared, Fearful, Anexious and Stressed...Any one that truely is on the brink of a major change is feeling all of those and more. IT IS OKAY!
Embrace it, we fear the unknown instectively. However the known outcome of the alternative to quitting is scarier. Read the Tom Kern story, if you havent.
Scary, yes because you are looking at it as an outcome. Quitting is a daily action. This is why we only do things one day at a time (odaat) here. We all can do anything for a day. We quit for today. That's it, no more no less. Keep focused on today, tomorrow will be here soon enough.
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Welcome to the brotherhood. I hope and pray that bump is nothing...and in all reality it probably isn't. Just remember this feeling, this moment...and remember nic put you in this position. Then remember how bad you never want to feel like this again.
Then quit every day.
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Eeyooree,
Good job dumping that shit and posting roll. I sent you a PM, look at the upper right cornor of the screen for you inbox. You now have my digits if you need them, I'll be looking for you on roll in the morning. Quit with you today.
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Welcome eyeore! One step at a time, sir. One day at a time. This then that. It's probably nothing but make sure you get it checked out. It will be piece of mind or early detection. Don't forget this feeling and choose fight instead of flight. Post every day and keep your word. #beaquitta #itjustworks
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Please. Do not Google. You will Google yourself to death. I did and it was a hard lesson learned. See a dentist asap. There's where you will get answers.
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I just wanted to take a moment to thank everyone who wrote back. Some time has passed, and I took an anxiolytic last night to help sleep it all off. I'm feeling better about the bump, as some discussions with you and positive research has suggested it's a harmless bone issue. Regardless, I will still be seeing the dentist tomorrow. Hopefully they accept installment payments, lmao.
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Here's what is going through my head right now -
The idea of having a dip is great. It's going to be soft, juicy, and flavorful. It's first thing in the morning, nice and fresh, and a pleasant way to begin the day.
But I know the reality - it's not going to be soft, juicy, or flavorful. It's going to quickly feel like a rock, and it won't have a flavor. Most of the spitting you do is just to get rid of the flakes that came off and are floating around the mouth. My current schedule keeps me in a room with three colleagues all day, and they probably think it's disgusting to have me here spitting. They chalk it off, sure, as some carry over military habit, but that doesn't make it any less gross.
As I finished that last sentence, I had already forgotten what I wrote previously. What the hell is going on?
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Here's what is going through my head right now -
The idea of having a dip is great. It's going to be soft, juicy, and flavorful. It's first thing in the morning, nice and fresh, and a pleasant way to begin the day.
But I know the reality - it's not going to be soft, juicy, or flavorful. It's going to quickly feel like a rock, and it won't have a flavor. Most of the spitting you do is just to get rid of the flakes that came off and are floating around the mouth. My current schedule keeps me in a room with three colleagues all day, and they probably think it's disgusting to have me here spitting. They chalk it off, sure, as some carry over military habit, but that doesn't make it any less gross.
As I finished that last sentence, I had already forgotten what I wrote previously. What the hell is going on?
It's the fog and it will be with you for awhile. Your concentration will suck, productivity at work will suck and you will get angry and irritated easily. Just focus on making it through the next hour, minute. Drink LOTS of water, so much that every time you walk by the bathroom you have to use it. If you exercise do it, it can help you to pull through the times of not being able to concentrate. Most importantly remember how much this sucks so that you will never have to do this again. Quit with you today Eeyooree
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Here's what is going through my head right now -
The idea of having a dip is great. It's going to be soft, juicy, and flavorful. It's first thing in the morning, nice and fresh, and a pleasant way to begin the day.
But I know the reality - it's not going to be soft, juicy, or flavorful. It's going to quickly feel like a rock, and it won't have a flavor. Most of the spitting you do is just to get rid of the flakes that came off and are floating around the mouth. My current schedule keeps me in a room with three colleagues all day, and they probably think it's disgusting to have me here spitting. They chalk it off, sure, as some carry over military habit, but that doesn't make it any less gross.
As I finished that last sentence, I had already forgotten what I wrote previously. What the hell is going on?
It's the fog and it will be with you for awhile. Your concentration will suck, productivity at work will suck and you will get angry and irritated easily. Just focus on making it through the next hour, minute. Drink LOTS of water, so much that every time you walk by the bathroom you have to use it. If you exercise do it, it can help you to pull through the times of not being able to concentrate. Most importantly remember how much this sucks so that you will never have to do this again. Quit with you today Eeyooree
There is a serious problem with the fog. I'm actually studying to take the bar exam. I can't afford to not be focused. I'm not suggesting I should dip through the bar exam, but rather asking if anyone has tips to improve focus during this time.
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Here's what is going through my head right now -
The idea of having a dip is great. It's going to be soft, juicy, and flavorful. It's first thing in the morning, nice and fresh, and a pleasant way to begin the day.
But I know the reality - it's not going to be soft, juicy, or flavorful. It's going to quickly feel like a rock, and it won't have a flavor. Most of the spitting you do is just to get rid of the flakes that came off and are floating around the mouth. My current schedule keeps me in a room with three colleagues all day, and they probably think it's disgusting to have me here spitting. They chalk it off, sure, as some carry over military habit, but that doesn't make it any less gross.
As I finished that last sentence, I had already forgotten what I wrote previously. What the hell is going on?
It's the fog and it will be with you for awhile. Your concentration will suck, productivity at work will suck and you will get angry and irritated easily. Just focus on making it through the next hour, minute. Drink LOTS of water, so much that every time you walk by the bathroom you have to use it. If you exercise do it, it can help you to pull through the times of not being able to concentrate. Most importantly remember how much this sucks so that you will never have to do this again. Quit with you today Eeyooree
There is a serious problem with the fog. I'm actually studying to take the bar exam. I can't afford to not be focused. I'm not suggesting I should dip through the bar exam, but rather asking if anyone has tips to improve focus during this time.
I have heard of guys using all sorts of methods. Post it notes with specific tasks that need to get done, setting reminders on cell phones to keep yourself on task. My biggest issue was just sitting there staring blankly at the computer not realizing how much time had passed. Some guys when they feel it getting bad log on here and read HOF speeches to get themselves refocused. Get in your month of May 16, post what you are going through to get it out there, anything to help you realize that this is just a phase, it sucks but will pass with time. At this point it is about trying to make it for the next hour, minute, second. You can do this. I have sent you my digits in your Inbox, when you feel it coming on shoot me a text and I'll do what I can to get you through it.
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Here's what is going through my head right now -
The idea of having a dip is great. It's going to be soft, juicy, and flavorful. It's first thing in the morning, nice and fresh, and a pleasant way to begin the day.
But I know the reality - it's not going to be soft, juicy, or flavorful. It's going to quickly feel like a rock, and it won't have a flavor. Most of the spitting you do is just to get rid of the flakes that came off and are floating around the mouth. My current schedule keeps me in a room with three colleagues all day, and they probably think it's disgusting to have me here spitting. They chalk it off, sure, as some carry over military habit, but that doesn't make it any less gross.
As I finished that last sentence, I had already forgotten what I wrote previously. What the hell is going on?
It's the fog and it will be with you for awhile. Your concentration will suck, productivity at work will suck and you will get angry and irritated easily. Just focus on making it through the next hour, minute. Drink LOTS of water, so much that every time you walk by the bathroom you have to use it. If you exercise do it, it can help you to pull through the times of not being able to concentrate. Most importantly remember how much this sucks so that you will never have to do this again. Quit with you today Eeyooree
There is a serious problem with the fog. I'm actually studying to take the bar exam. I can't afford to not be focused. I'm not suggesting I should dip through the bar exam, but rather asking if anyone has tips to improve focus during this time.
I have heard of guys using all sorts of methods. Post it notes with specific tasks that need to get done, setting reminders on cell phones to keep yourself on task. My biggest issue was just sitting there staring blankly at the computer not realizing how much time had passed. Some guys when they feel it getting bad log on here and read HOF speeches to get themselves refocused. Get in your month of May 16, post what you are going through to get it out there, anything to help you realize that this is just a phase, it sucks but will pass with time. At this point it is about trying to make it for the next hour, minute, second. You can do this. I have sent you my digits in your Inbox, when you feel it coming on shoot me a text and I'll do what I can to get you through it.
Hey,
I am attorney too. I will send you a PM so we can connect. I run my own practice and managed to keep it open and running as usual as I sifted through the fog so I know that you can do this too.
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Welcome to the BROTHERHOOD Eeyooree, we are in this together and we all stand behind you 100%
I quit with you today brother.
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Here's what is going through my head right now -
The idea of having a dip is great. It's going to be soft, juicy, and flavorful. It's first thing in the morning, nice and fresh, and a pleasant way to begin the day.
But I know the reality - it's not going to be soft, juicy, or flavorful. It's going to quickly feel like a rock, and it won't have a flavor. Most of the spitting you do is just to get rid of the flakes that came off and are floating around the mouth. My current schedule keeps me in a room with three colleagues all day, and they probably think it's disgusting to have me here spitting. They chalk it off, sure, as some carry over military habit, but that doesn't make it any less gross.
As I finished that last sentence, I had already forgotten what I wrote previously. What the hell is going on?
It's the fog and it will be with you for awhile. Your concentration will suck, productivity at work will suck and you will get angry and irritated easily. Just focus on making it through the next hour, minute. Drink LOTS of water, so much that every time you walk by the bathroom you have to use it. If you exercise do it, it can help you to pull through the times of not being able to concentrate. Most importantly remember how much this sucks so that you will never have to do this again. Quit with you today Eeyooree
There is a serious problem with the fog. I'm actually studying to take the bar exam. I can't afford to not be focused. I'm not suggesting I should dip through the bar exam, but rather asking if anyone has tips to improve focus during this time.
I am a CPA and quit during tax season. You need to have laser like focus on something, so studying for an exam is EXACTLY what you need to not think of nicotine.
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How'd that appointment go brother? Even when they tell you everything is fine, keep some of that scared with you and don't let go of it. At times when romance for the devil creeps in, let that feeling flood back. Use it to help develop an honest and strong hatred for the poison that is nicotine. Someone said stay away from Google and I agree it isn't a self diagnosis tool but it sure is great to see pictures of the death tobacco causes. I'm scared and quit with you!
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How'd that appointment go brother? Even when they tell you everything is fine, keep some of that scared with you and don't let go of it. At times when romance for the devil creeps in, let that feeling flood back. Use it to help develop an honest and strong hatred for the poison that is nicotine. Someone said stay away from Google and I agree it isn't a self diagnosis tool but it sure is great to see pictures of the death tobacco causes. I'm scared and quit with you!
All appears well. He said it is some sort of normal bone growth that I have actually probably had for a while, but just noticed. He said a lot of people think it's cancer when they first discover it. I can't afford the x-rays he wanted but he said he was confident without them, so I'm confident it's all good.
Don't worry, that scared is coming along for the ride. I was reflecting on it. When I was scared the other day, I wasn't just scared that this was it and it was all over. I was thinking about the negative impact it would have on everyone I care about. And that matters to me an awful lot more than my selfish reasons to be healthy, so it's going to always be on my mind.
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Eeyooree,
Happy HOF day to you. 100 days, your first huge milestone, keep up the quit, stay connected, stay strong.
I quit with you brother.