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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: WildBill0771 on May 26, 2011, 04:52:00 PM
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Not quite sure how to introduce myself, or what to do next on here, but here goes:
My name is Will. I have been chewing tobacco since I was 14, I will be 22 in July. It started off as something to do with fellow members of the football team, and got worse once I graduated from High School. Once I turned 18 and was of age to buy, it turned into a full blown addiction.
The past few months, I have been up to 2 tins a day, have a clean bill of health, but was waking up with severe chest pains every morning.
I decided to quit, not only because of the chest pains and the amount of money I was spending, but because I've overcome other obstacles in my life that were much harder than this.
I was always obese growing up, and peaked at 360lbs when I was 16-17. Starting October, 2008, I began weight lifting, changed my diet, and started living a healthy lifestyle. I lost 142lbs and am at 218lbs with a solid frame, and am almost done with my recovery from my first surgery to remove the loose skin.
For someone who counts their shit, and makes sure they get so much protein in to build muscle and remain healthy, I'd be cooking egg whites (god forbid I should have the yolk), with a big fucking lipper in! The fuck is that?! The fuck kind of logic is changing your life to be healthy, and youre stuffing your fucking lip full of cancer?
Fucking stupid. The more I thought about it the more pissed off I got and now here I am.
Certs and Extra long last gum seem to be my saving grace as of right now. I've also inspired my mom to quit smoking again, she quit for 6 years but caved, and now with me quitting chew, shes trying again. That's a big thing for me to, not to cave, for my moms sake. She was the one who decided to lose weight with me too. Its great to have a support system like that.
Also, I got my wristband in the mail today so everytime I want a dip, I can look at as a reminder of why I'm quitting and to cope with the fact that I am an addict, and this is what I have to do.
Well, I didn't know where to start, then I started rambling, now I don't know how to finish.
Don't wish me luck. Just congratulate me. There is no luck involved with quitting, either you have the balls or you don't.
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Welcome to the site, Bill. Post roll, keep your promise, and be quit. Let me know if I can help you...
Proud to be quit with you!
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There is no luck involved with quitting, either you have the balls or you don't.
Word. One day at a time.
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You introduced yourself fine. If you haven't already, go over to the September 2011 quit group and post your day 4. Here is some reading material about this site if you haven't already seen it: index.php?showforum=13 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showforum=13)
This link will tell you how and why we post roll. It's the most important thing we do 'round here. Welcome and good to be quit with you. Give a shout if I can help.
Actually, if you quit 4 days ago, you're in the August quit group.
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Welcome WildBill and great choice. You can do this but it won't be easy at times. Posting roll daily will make it be easier as that is when you, me and hundreds of others pledge to remain free for another day. And there may come a day when nothing but that promise to folks on the internet will keep you from a dip.
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Welcome WB and congrats on the weight transformation. You understand the absurdity of living healthy and slowly killing yourself at the same time. You also associated the "A" word to yourself.
Nice work. You will be fine. But only if you post Roll Call. Everyday.
PS. Find a vet. Any vet with a bunch of days, and a bunch of posts. Those are the guys you need to study. Pay attention to them. There are many...and they will save your life.
Again....welcome and congrats.
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Welcome aboard WB: POst up and get on with the QUIT!!! Nico
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*introduced myself 3 years ago*
3 years ago I joined this site, 10 days later I started chewing again and haven't looked back since. Got a new job shortly after signing up here, was a butcher previously, couldn't have dip, right? Right. Started my new job as a Hazmat Technician, wasn't around people, not in a respirator often, can chew whenever I want as much as I want.
Now, here I am, again. 2 cans a day sometimes 3. I have a hole in my heart and have also had t.i.a's which to put into layman terms, I'm prone to having "mini-strokes". I was working down in Tennessee for a few months and on March 17th I woke up and had very little feeling in my right arm. Got out of bed, shrugged it off as my arm fell asleep. Went to the gym, got back to the hotel, lied on the bed, that tingling/numbness started going down my leg and into my foot. That's when I realized "uh oh", stood up to my friend/roommate/coworker and said that I needed to get to an E.R. and as I was telling him, the sensation consumed the right side of my torso, chest and face.
Now, answer me this. What was the first thing I grabbed for the car ride to the hospital? If you said my can of chew, you're correct.
Here I am, 24 years old. Dipping since I was 14, I just recently had my 3rd mini stroke at fucking 24 years old, I've known about my heart condition for 3 years. The kicker is I've lost 140lbs. Save the praise, I don't deserve it. My own cardiologist has actually stopped begging and pleading with me to quit, because he pretty much said that I'm going to kill myself regardless of what he thinks, and he'll just try treat it as time goes on. I'm a special kind of asshole for my CARDIOLOGIST to give up hope on me. That's far beyond the point of stubborn, that's downright sickening. (my cardiologist and I have a very open dialogue, which is why he said that too me)
WHY can I overcome obesity but quitting is so hard? HOW am I the person that all my friends and family go to because I'm the "rock", I'm the "strong one"? WHEN did it become okay for me to be addicted to something? WHO the fuck is anyone to tell me I'm strong when I'm apparently so weak? WHAT the fuck am I doing?
I'm not too scared to say I'm an emotional wreck right now. I'm scared to fucking death. I had a good friend pull me aside tonight and she told me how much she cared and that I needed to quit. My first thought "Who the fuck is she to tell ME what to do?!". That was 5 hours ago, it's 5am, I can't catch a wink of sleep because her voice keeps residing in my head.
I WANT to quit, and not for her, or my friends, or my family, but for me. I just don't fucking know how, and I wouldn't be here again if I didn't need a verbal kick in the fucking ass.
I'm not asking for a babysitter. I just need help.
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start here it will answer a lot of questions
single/?p=1778740t=1009150 (http://forum.killthecan.org/single/?p=1778740&t=1009150)
http://www.killthecan.org/your-quit/wha ... t-dipping/ (http://www.killthecan.org/your-quit/what-to-expect-when-you-quit-dipping/)
http://www.killthecan.org/your-quit/sym ... -dip-chew/ (http://www.killthecan.org/your-quit/symptoms-of-quitting-dip-chew/)
your month will be august post up and be free
topic/10225414/ (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/10225414/)
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That tough bro. Rough thing to go through.
There is only 1 way to quit. Throw all your nic away, find your group, and post roll. Make a promise to yourself, and all of us that you will quit today. nevermind anything else. Quit Today. Tommorw, we quit again. But just worry about today. It may just save your life.
if you serious about quitting, i will quit with you today, as will a lot of legendary quitters, far better quitters than I. If you need help, ask, PM me or others for phone numbers, and use them when it gets rough. Use the chat. use the other quitters here, that want to see you make it, and understand how hard it is.
I quit today. Again. Quit with me.
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Wild Bill, you have my praise for losing the weight, as I could 100 #'s or so as well. So now lose the can in your pocket that weighs less than a pound. It will suck hard for a few days, then the pride kicks in. You think your family and friends praise you for the weight loss? Get the NIC bitch off of your shoulders and see what they say then!
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Hey WB, you want a verbal kick in the ass, how about in the nuts instead?
By your picture, you look in pretty good shape, are you a muscle head? Maybe you dropped a fuckin barbell on your head? You can lift heavy things but can't figure out after 3 mini-strokes that it's time to put the can to bed? 2 cans a day? Sometimes 3? What the fuck do you do, put a chew in, a minute later spit it out and put in another? Or are you one of those 3 finger fucks? Oh and you lost a shit load of weight, huh? Who gives a fuck. You beat obesity but yet you're letting the can beat you? You should have stayed a fatass. You're fuckin weak!
The bottom line is this Bill, you're here and you're here for a reason. Take your can, dump it, punch it, stomp on it, shoot it. Do what you got to do to get rid of it, get pissed off at it and say FUCK YOU. Tell yourself that you've had enough of it, be strong and hold on. No more fuckin excuses. Apparently the man is giving you another chance after 3 strokes, maybe it's time you prove to him and yourself that you're worthy of it and QUIT!
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Listen to these guys. Fuck nicotine. You don't need it, never did. It's a worthless evil poison. It's crack with a shitty fix. No point to it.
Quit with us today. We do it one day at a time.
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forget it guys...he posted and was out the door before anybody could reply if he was serious do you think he would run like a bitch?
Edited by WildBill0771, Today, 5:11 AM.
Last Activity Today, 5:15 AM
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Hey D2, are those your nuts draggin or your udders?
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Cool selfie 'Crazy'
Ditch the dip, quit being a pussy and quit. What do you mean by "you dont know how to quit". Just dont put the shit in your mouth anymore. Its simple
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I almost shed a tear after reading this! ;) All muscled up, but a panzy a heart. If you come back and read all these, don't cry anymore please. Stop feeling sorry for your self, man the hell up and lets do this. Trash your stash, post roll with us and QUIT! It's not as complicated as you make it seem. Your believing lies.
News flash; Quitting is up to you. Read Grady's post again. That's some down to earth good stuff right there.
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Hey musclehead . I almost forgot, if you're looking for sympathy look between shit and syphilis in the dictionary.
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Wildbill, your not a special addict. You are just like all the rest of us and it will take the same thing for you to quit that it takes for the rest of us. Quit Today! After 40+ years of addiction I posted day 756 today and I will not use nicotine today. If you really want it, post roll and keep your word!
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WildBill, great intro and like everybody else who first comes here, you have every reason to quit. Many come here looking to quit because of the need to gain control of their life, including their health. Some stories less severe, some more severe than yours. Like Wt57 said, you're not a special addict. We are all addicts and addicts the same. With that said, the good news is you can come here and fit right in.
The onus is now on you. Will you post roll, and post roll every day. Will you promise not to use nicotine in any form for that day and hold yourself accountable to those of us on a website instead of just yourself. Are you a man of your word and is that word strong enough to hold up in an online support group. Many come and many fail and again I say, the onus is on you. You get out of this what you put into itÂ…it just comes down to how bad do you want it.
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WildBill,
Here's some advice a vet quitter gave me one time...."Get small with your quit." That means take it minute by minute, get freaky on the suck, enjoy the perverse pain of it, and above all stop fucking over-thinking it. You're spending way too many words and thoughts on this. It is painful, yes, but it is simple. Just get on with it and declare yourself a quitter like the rest of us. QLF.
ZillahCowboy
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Panzy. I don' care how much you work out, how big you are. User= Panzy
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Panzy. I don' care how much you work out, how big you are. User= Panzy
Come on man, I called you a panzy. Curse me out. Tell me to f-off,,,, something!
You can do this bro, you know how i know? Me and literally 1000's have done it. Your addiction is nothing special. You just need to start believing.
Trash your stash, and let's do this. You know you want to. Your move bro.