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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: narg on October 23, 2013, 06:16:00 PM
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Well decided it was time to quit lurking and actually do it up right. My name is Phil and I have been chewing Copenhagen LC for the last 12 or so years. Half a can a day was pretty typical, but If I was out drinking with friends I could easily devour a full can without too much effort.
My 'getting started' story is the same as everyone elses. Was in the woods as a wanna-be badass 13 year old with a bunch of other wanna-be badass 13 year old kids. One of them pulled out a can of Copenhagen, we all tossed in a dip. I felt like I was flying to the moon for about ten minutes, then promptly ejected about 10 gallons of vomit into a near-by stream. I somehow managed to stumble home and made it to the bathroom. I'll never forget looking into the mirror, I was literally green.
Fast forward to high school. I hadn't touched dip much until my senior year. We would all go out and chew our copenhagen for 20 minutes at lunch time and feel like we were baddest dudes on the planet. I finally turned 18 and it was all down hill from there. Went to college, chewed copenhagen. Got married, chewed copenhagen. Bought my first house, copenhagen, second house, copenhagen. First kid, chewed the shit out of some copenhagen in the delivery room. You get the idea.
After my first kid was born I decided it was time to actually try quitting. Started looking up stuff on the web, found KTC, and started reading. This was November 2011. Never signed up or posted, but read literally every HOF speech and most of the intro threads. Threw all my nicotine gum in the trash and went cold turkey. Boy was I in for it.
The first 30 days I was annihilated by fog. Couldn't do anything. Would sit at my computer and stare blankly for hours. Things started getting better in the 50's, and I promptly was bitch slapped with a funk or whatever you wanted to call it. After much wailing and gnashing of teeth I hit 100 days nicotine free. Man did I feel like a bad ass. The one thing in my life that I couldn't control had been controlled. I felt better mentally and physically than I ever had.
Fast forward again, I am about 6 months nicotine free. Second child is born. I have a celebratory cigar with some friends. No big deal. A couple more cigars over the next few weeks not a big deal. Then I have a dip of Copenhagen at a party. You get where this is going. Then I do what I always do. "Ill just buy a can, take one dip, and throw it away" This charade goes on for a few weeks until I finally say fuck it and start chewing full time again.
All of that hard work and pain and misery for fucking nothing. Because I refused to admit to myself that I am a nicotine addict. Well I am going to do it right this time.
I am on day 3 of being quit, and I will do whatever it takes. I am going to head over and try not to go full retard figuring out how to post roll.
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Well decided it was time to quit lurking and actually do it up right. My name is Phil and I have been chewing Copenhagen LC for the last 12 or so years. Half a can a day was pretty typical, but If I was out drinking with friends I could easily devour a full can without too much effort.
My 'getting started' story is the same as everyone elses. Was in the woods as a wanna-be badass 13 year old with a bunch of other wanna-be badass 13 year old kids. One of them pulled out a can of Copenhagen, we all tossed in a dip. I felt like I was flying to the moon for about ten minutes, then promptly ejected about 10 gallons of vomit into a near-by stream. I somehow managed to stumble home and made it to the bathroom. I'll never forget looking into the mirror, I was literally green.
Fast forward to high school. I hadn't touched dip much until my senior year. We would all go out and chew our copenhagen for 20 minutes at lunch time and feel like we were baddest dudes on the planet. I finally turned 18 and it was all down hill from there. Went to college, chewed copenhagen. Got married, chewed copenhagen. Bought my first house, copenhagen, second house, copenhagen. First kid, chewed the shit out of some copenhagen in the delivery room. You get the idea.
After my first kid was born I decided it was time to actually try quitting. Started looking up stuff on the web, found KTC, and started reading. This was November 2011. Never signed up or posted, but read literally every HOF speech and most of the intro threads. Threw all my nicotine gum in the trash and went cold turkey. Boy was I in for it.
The first 30 days I was annihilated by fog. Couldn't do anything. Would sit at my computer and stare blankly for hours. Things started getting better in the 50's, and I promptly was bitch slapped with a funk or whatever you wanted to call it. After much wailing and gnashing of teeth I hit 100 days nicotine free. Man did I feel like a bad ass. The one thing in my life that I couldn't control had been controlled. I felt better mentally and physically than I ever had.
Fast forward again, I am about 6 months nicotine free. Second child is born. I have a celebratory cigar with some friends. No big deal. A couple more cigars over the next few weeks not a big deal. Then I have a dip of Copenhagen at a party. You get where this is going. Then I do what I always do. "Ill just buy a can, take one dip, and throw it away" This charade goes on for a few weeks until I finally say fuck it and start chewing full time again.
All of that hard work and pain and misery for fucking nothing. Because I refused to admit to myself that I am a nicotine addict. Well I am going to do it right this time.
I am on day 3 of being quit, and I will do whatever it takes. I am going to head over and try not to go full retard figuring out how to post roll.
Wow, welcome to the brotherhood. Yea you screwed it up but at least your hear now and three days again! Great decision coming out of the dark and signing up for some accountability. KTC is the right way to do this bro, you already know that, you said so yourself. I quit with you. Erussell day 177
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Welcome aboard Phil. You have come to the right place. Addiction sucks. If there was only a such thing as "just one". There isn't!! You know that now. Never again for any reason.
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Holy shit - your story is a mirror image to my own. First chew at 11 in the woods (fucking 6th grade camp counselor)...tried quitting on my own...found ktc around 100 days...never joined a quit group...bought a can one frustrated afternoon...chewed for about another year before posting up in August 2008. Day 2,000 is just around the corner. I never miss a roll post these days. Does the trick.
Congrats!
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Holy shit - your story is a mirror image to my own. First chew at 11 in the woods (fucking 6th grade camp counselor)...tried quitting on my own...found ktc around 100 days...never joined a quit group...bought a can one frustrated afternoon...chewed for about another year before posting up in August 2008. Day 2,000 is just around the corner. I never miss a roll post these days. Does the trick.
Congrats!
Follow this example and all of the other's on this site and your quit will last as long as you decide it will. ODAT. Keep reading the intro's and HOF speeches. If you want a good laugh hit up Smokey's thread there are some real winners in there!
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Welcome to KTC Phil. Taking back your life will be hard work for a while, but you know the drill from trying it on your own. Post roll each day and get involved. Chat is great for new guys, as it will allow you to meet other quitters. I have sent you a PM with my telephone number. Get as many numbers as you can from the guys in Jan. 2014 quit group. These numbers will be your life line and will start you on the road to accountability, which is the first leg of your quit journey.
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I don't care how many times that you have tried to quit an then failed...... what matters is that you are here today! TODAY you are FREE. As you know from the past it will suck for awhile, but that is why you are here. There is strength in numbers and we are running 15000+ strong! We got your back! Post roll, it will save your life.... get to know people here, they are the one you will lean on when times are tough. welcome bro! You got this all day!
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Hey guys thanks for all the kind words. Im balls deep into day 4 of withdrawal. It's bad, but not i want to put a pistol in my mouth bad like it was last time. Between the 500 gallons of water I have consumed and shortly thereafter expelled and Smokey Mountain, Im not doing to bad.
Got into a wicked fight with the wife last night about nothing, I think I just wanted to fight. Nicotine withdrawal is a weird weird thing. As I was rambling on last night it was like I was watching my self in the 3rd person. I heard the words that were coming out of my mouth and was literally in disbelief that I was saying them. I was saying shit that I didnt even really believe, but I just kept talking and talking, and the wife kept getting madder and madder and before I knew it I was on the couch wondering what the fuck happened.
I had to make some deals and grease some wheels this morning but it turned out alright. So we will see what happens. I am really going to try to keep it on the rails with the rants and anger shit at home, because the kids and wife really don't deserve it.
And by the way, it is really hard to write anything of substance with all of these faggy emoticons gyrating directly to the left of the text box. I guess it just comes with the territory.
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Hey guys thanks for all the kind words. Im balls deep into day 4 of withdrawal. It's bad, but not i want to put a pistol in my mouth bad like it was last time. Between the 500 gallons of water I have consumed and shortly thereafter expelled and Smokey Mountain, Im not doing to bad.
Got into a wicked fight with the wife last night about nothing, I think I just wanted to fight. Nicotine withdrawal is a weird weird thing. As I was rambling on last night it was like I was watching my self in the 3rd person. I heard the words that were coming out of my mouth and was literally in disbelief that I was saying them. I was saying shit that I didnt even really believe, but I just kept talking and talking, and the wife kept getting madder and madder and before I knew it I was on the couch wondering what the fuck happened.
I had to make some deals and grease some wheels this morning but it turned out alright. So we will see what happens. I am really going to try to keep it on the rails with the rants and anger shit at home, because the kids and wife really don't deserve it.
And by the way, it is really hard to write anything of substance with all of these faggy emoticons gyrating directly to the left of the text box. I guess it just comes with the territory.
Day 4... The nicotine is gone from your body bro. Now you get to deal with the mental component of quitting. Good realization on your anger... Keep it away from your family. Bring it to us... We'll bat around with you and dish it right back. We'll help keep you in check and on track. You need another number, pm me man. I'll be happy to help in any way.
Rock on...
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Go read the Welcome Center and post roll in Jan '14. Once you do that it gets easier.
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I like the faggy emoticons :( Especially this one...hubba hubba
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