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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Gunner26 on December 19, 2011, 11:16:00 AM
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Hi there everyone, I visited this site and registered back in July of this year and needless to say I never quit then. Anyways here's my long story short! I am 39 years old with 3 children and I have been chewing Copenhagen Snuff since I was 16 years old, I quit when I was 33 for about a year and I unfortunately it didn't last. Since then I have been hiding it from my wife and children although my wife isn't stupid she knew I was sneaking it,it was just never mentioned. Typical crap for me, I started using it at hockey and lacrosse where other kids were doing it. I used it because it was comfort for me... It gave me that awwww feeling, straight to the blood stream. Anyways I am in good shape and always have been but for quite a few years now I feel tired for no reason (I do remember when I quit for a year that I was boasting oh my god I have way more energy now) I know it's from the chemicals and the nicotine it has to be! Well that's a little bit about me, I am looking forward to this journey... It has to be done.
Like my pappy always used to say "the lord hates a coward"
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Hi there everyone, I visited this site and registered back in July of this year and needless to say I never quit then. Anyways here's my long story short! I am 39 years old with 3 children and I have been chewing Copenhagen Snuff since I was 16 years old, I quit when I was 33 for about a year and I unfortunately it didn't last. Since then I have been hiding it from my wife and children although my wife isn't stupid she knew I was sneaking it,it was just never mentioned. Typical crap for me, I started using it at hockey and lacrosse where other kids were doing it. I used it because it was comfort for me... It gave me that awwww feeling, straight to the blood stream. Anyways I am in good shape and always have been but for quite a few years now I feel tired for no reason (I do remember when I quit for a year that I was boasting oh my god I have way more energy now) I know it's from the chemicals and the nicotine it has to be! Well that's a little bit about me, I am looking forward to this journey... It has to be done.
Like my pappy always used to say "the lord hates a coward"
well gunner man click up there in that 'WELCOME CENTER' link up there. reed up on why we post up roll. then reed up on how to do it rite. then head on over to the march 2012 groop and post up roll. we can take it from there.
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Hi there everyone, I visited this site and registered back in July of this year and needless to say I never quit then. Anyways here's my long story short! I am 39 years old with 3 children and I have been chewing Copenhagen Snuff since I was 16 years old, I quit when I was 33 for about a year and I unfortunately it didn't last. Since then I have been hiding it from my wife and children although my wife isn't stupid she knew I was sneaking it,it was just never mentioned. Typical crap for me, I started using it at hockey and lacrosse where other kids were doing it. I used it because it was comfort for me... It gave me that awwww feeling, straight to the blood stream. Anyways I am in good shape and always have been but for quite a few years now I feel tired for no reason (I do remember when I quit for a year that I was boasting oh my god I have way more energy now) I know it's from the chemicals and the nicotine it has to be! Well that's a little bit about me, I am looking forward to this journey... It has to be done.
Like my pappy always used to say "the lord hates a coward"
Welcome and good decision...your story is like everyone else's man. We all get it and want to help. make you read up in the welcome center:
http://killthecan.org/community/welcome.asp (http://killthecan.org/community/welcome.asp)
Learn to post in March 2012 forum, everyday....
Get numbers of those in your group for support
Keep your word.
Freedom is around the corner, its up to YOU to have it.
And remember, it is on ONE DAY AT A TIME.
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Hi there everyone, I visited this site and registered back in July of this year and needless to say I never quit then. Anyways here's my long story short! I am 39 years old with 3 children and I have been chewing Copenhagen Snuff since I was 16 years old, I quit when I was 33 for about a year and I unfortunately it didn't last. Since then I have been hiding it from my wife and children although my wife isn't stupid she knew I was sneaking it,it was just never mentioned. Typical crap for me, I started using it at hockey and lacrosse where other kids were doing it. I used it because it was comfort for me... It gave me that awwww feeling, straight to the blood stream. Anyways I am in good shape and always have been but for quite a few years now I feel tired for no reason (I do remember when I quit for a year that I was boasting oh my god I have way more energy now) I know it's from the chemicals and the nicotine it has to be! Well that's a little bit about me, I am looking forward to this journey... It has to be done.
Like my pappy always used to say "the lord hates a coward"
dude, still no post...get back to me if you need help...come on man
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Checking in every 6 months? See how folks quit. See all the "free birds" and wish you could be one of us. I understand. Its scary. Who knows if you have the nuts to get this done. I get it. I really do. Only difference between the two of us is I put my word down this morning saying I quit today. That's about all I can muster.
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Gunner,
There's no getting around the truth: Quitting sucks before it gets better. But here's another truth: The crap you're putting in your mouth today could be killing you. It certainly is controlling you!
So the question is, Are you man enough to give your word that you will not dip for one day? Do you really want to quit? You can do this and it is worth the fight, but it is up to you to jump in. No one can do that for you.
If you do, we'll be here to help.
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I see you posted a "Day 8", Gunner. What took you so long?
Now that you've started to post roll, I expect to see your name there every day. It's the only way to fly (and to succeed).
Nice job. Let's keep it up!!
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Thanks...it's going ok... Started posting a couple days back... I have decided... Plus the anxiety of thinking that I am going to get cancer is just too much. Cheers.
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Welcome to my Quit Cycle Gunner. It can be your Quit Cycle too. Just hang in there with me and we're going to roll right on through to the end of March and be Certifiable Quit Monsters.
Proud to be your quit brother. PM me if you need help at any time. I'll give you my office and cell number and you call if you feel like you need to scream and yell and shit.
Peace.
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Just wanted to give a shout out to all the quitters out there...Merry Christmas or Happy Holidays... Whatever floats your boat! Thanks again to all who have reached out with support... I have a long way to go because this addiction is for life... I know this... Just expressing my gratitude to the creators of this site... You've done a good thing here...Thanks.
Sincerely
Gunner26
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Suck it up sunshine! Get the sand out of your mangina... Pansy ass! Choose life not a life devoted to a disease infested chemical fed mushroom manure piece of brown turd!
Cheers!
Gunner26
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Xbox controller smashing my 50" Samsung Plasma TV.... Son hiding under table... Priceless.... Dip to calm down... F*** that, I am QUIT! Really is that all you got bitch?
Gunner26
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Xbox controller smashing my 50" Samsung Plasma TV.... Son hiding under table... Priceless.... Dip to calm down... F*** that, I am QUIT! Really is that all you got bitch?
Gunner26
Wow!!
'crackup' 'crackup'
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Keddy! Pssssst over here... 'arse'
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Wait you smashed your plasma with the xbox controller out of sheer dip rage?
I love it!
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Lol... No my son did! I was raging and well before to calm that rage a dip would do it... Not yesterday .... Cuz I am QUIT! 'finger point'
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Lol... No my son did! I was raging and well before to calm that rage a dip would do it... Not yesterday .... Cuz I am QUIT! 'finger point'
Damn right! Quit with you
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WTF! I am New Guy... 'Finger' A newer guy is trying to confuse me...
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WTF! I am New Guy... 'Finger' A newer guy is trying to confuse me...
Now I'm confused :wacko:
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WTF! I am New Guy... 'Finger' A newer guy is trying to confuse me...
Now I'm confused :wacko:
You were new guy 2011.
This is new guy 2012.
More bells and whistles.
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:blink:
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:blink:
Hartpump just started an intro thread called "New guy".
This thread is called "New guy".
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Quick question...hopefully someone reads this... I seem to have a constant headache, it's day 19 so I am thinking it doesn't have anything to do with the nicotine... anyone else experience headaches for the first while on their quit? Thanks ... if not I might need to get this checked out... or could it be this damn wifi!!
Gunner26
'bang head'
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Quick question...hopefully someone reads this... I seem to have a constant headache, it's day 19 so I am thinking it doesn't have anything to do with the nicotine... anyone else experience headaches for the first while on their quit? Thanks ... if not I might need to get this checked out... or could it be this damn wifi!!
Gunner26
'bang head'
Most likely, it is quit related.
Your brain is still rewiring itself even though you may feel strong.
19 is awesome man.
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Quick question...hopefully someone reads this... I seem to have a constant headache, it's day 19 so I am thinking it doesn't have anything to do with the nicotine... anyone else experience headaches for the first while on their quit? Thanks ... if not I might need to get this checked out... or could it be this damn wifi!!
Gunner26
'bang head'
Most likely, it is quit related.
Your brain is still rewiring itself even though you may feel strong.
19 is awesome man.
I had a headache up until the 30's or so. It will start to get better but yes, it is likely nicotine withdrawal related.
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Quick question...hopefully someone reads this... I seem to have a constant headache, it's day 19 so I am thinking it doesn't have anything to do with the nicotine... anyone else experience headaches for the first while on their quit? Thanks ... if not I might need to get this checked out... or could it be this damn wifi!!
Gunner26
'bang head'
Most likely, it is quit related.
Your brain is still rewiring itself even though you may feel strong.
19 is awesome man.
I had a headache up until the 30's or so. It will start to get better but yes, it is likely nicotine withdrawal related.
this.
drink lots of water to make sure you're hydrated. if that doesn't work, take some advil. headaches are normal during quits.
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Ok great! Thanks for the info... Appreciate it.
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'B.S.'
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Today is day 19 for me Gunner. I've had a headache for about 18.5 days or so. The more water I drink the better my headache gets (especially with salty as hell seeds). Seriously get a water bottle or cup and drink until you are peeing every hour at least. Mostly mine is just a dull nagging pound above my eyes. If it gets worse to the point I can't work at the office then I take ibuprofen. Drink water and take ibuprofen as needed and you'll be fine. While you're at it tell the bitch to fuck off.
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Today is day 19 for me Gunner. I've had a headache for about 18.5 days or so. The more water I drink the better my headache gets (especially with salty as hell seeds). Seriously get a water bottle or cup and drink until you are peeing every hour at least. Mostly mine is just a dull nagging pound above my eyes. If it gets worse to the point I can't work at the office then I take ibuprofen. Drink water and take ibuprofen as needed and you'll be fine. While you're at it tell the bitch to fuck off.
PMac is right. Headaches sucked for me real bad too. I was starting to think that they would never go away. They will though. Drink lots of water! Stay quit brother.
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Friday night just got off work and this is for sure the worst f***** night in awhile... This craving sucks hind tit!!! F***** brutal.... I am a f***** addict!! Just wanted to log this... Cuz wow I am in full on I deserve a dip mode... How f***** up is that!!! 'bang head' 'finger point'
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Friday night just got off work and this is for sure the worst f***** night in awhile... This craving sucks hind tit!!! F***** brutal.... I am a f***** addict!! Just wanted to log this... Cuz wow I am in full on I deserve a dip mode... How f***** up is that!!! 'bang head' 'finger point'
One Day at a time--beat your head against the wall--do whatever you have to do, but no cancer turd.
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Friday night just got off work and this is for sure the worst f***** night in awhile... This craving sucks hind tit!!! F***** brutal.... I am a f***** addict!! Just wanted to log this... Cuz wow I am in full on I deserve a dip mode... How f***** up is that!!! 'bang head' 'finger point'
You give your word today Gunner? You put your word down that you are quit with the rest of your brothers and sisters?
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Friday night just got off work and this is for sure the worst f***** night in awhile... This craving sucks hind tit!!! F***** brutal.... I am a f***** addict!! Just wanted to log this... Cuz wow I am in full on I deserve a dip mode... How f***** up is that!!! 'bang head' 'finger point'
You give your word today Gunner? You put your word down that you are quit with the rest of your brothers and sisters?
'lift' 'jj' 'nhl'
Sure did...
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Ok I just wanted to put this out there.... This is inspired by my fallen comrade Texasfireman93. I was a ninja dipper and yes unfortunately I am a ninja quitter! Now if I die I will just disappear there will be no sister, aunt, uncle, wife, red headed step child or anyone for that matter coming on here to say thank you or say goodbye or ask for donations... It won't happen...So after ooooh let's say 15 days ...if after 15 days I am MIA, please quit for me for one day. This is my word that I will never disappear forever unless I am dead, thus this is also my good bye if such an unfortunate incident does indeed fall upon my soul. I will try to post from the dead but I can not gaurantee anything. Cheers!
Gunner26
'Finger'
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Ok I just wanted to put this out there.... This is inspired by my fallen comrade Texasfireman93. I was a ninja dipper and yes unfortunately I am a ninja quitter! Now if I die I will just disappear there will be no sister, aunt, uncle, wife, red headed step child or anyone for that matter coming on here to say thank you or say goodbye or ask for donations... It won't happen...So after ooooh let's say 15 days ...if after 15 days I am MIA, please quit for me for one day. This is my word that I will never disappear forever unless I am dead, thus this is also my good bye if such an unfortunate incident does indeed fall upon my soul. I will try to post from the dead but I can not gaurantee anything. Cheers!
Gunner26
'Finger'
You know how we quit here. There is no forever. There is no never. We quit one day at a time. If you want your legacy to continue than stay involved and support the folks around you. If you give someone a shoulder to lean you'll be a part of their quit and their experience in getting to freedom.
Keep up the good fight bud.
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Ok I just wanted to put this out there.... This is inspired by my fallen comrade Texasfireman93. I was a ninja dipper and yes unfortunately I am a ninja quitter! Now if I die I will just disappear there will be no sister, aunt, uncle, wife, red headed step child or anyone for that matter coming on here to say thank you or say goodbye or ask for donations... It won't happen...So after ooooh let's say 15 days ...if after 15 days I am MIA, please quit for me for one day. This is my word that I will never disappear forever unless I am dead, thus this is also my good bye if such an unfortunate incident does indeed fall upon my soul. I will try to post from the dead but I can not gaurantee anything. Cheers!
Gunner26
'Finger'
You know how we quit here. There is no forever. There is no never. We quit one day at a time. If you want your legacy to continue than stay involved and support the folks around you. If you give someone a shoulder to lean you'll be a part of their quit and their experience in getting to freedom.
Keep up the good fight bud.
Ummm but uhhh in the context in which I used never and forever should be acceptable? No? I will always quit one day at a time but if I never post again it will be forever cuz I will be dead!
Gunner26 out
:wacko: :blink: :wacko: :blink:
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Ok I just wanted to put this out there.... This is inspired by my fallen comrade Texasfireman93. I was a ninja dipper and yes unfortunately I am a ninja quitter! Now if I die I will just disappear there will be no sister, aunt, uncle, wife, red headed step child or anyone for that matter coming on here to say thank you or say goodbye or ask for donations... It won't happen...So after ooooh let's say 15 days ...if after 15 days I am MIA, please quit for me for one day. This is my word that I will never disappear forever unless I am dead, thus this is also my good bye if such an unfortunate incident does indeed fall upon my soul. I will try to post from the dead but I can not gaurantee anything. Cheers!
Gunner26
'Finger'
You know how we quit here. There is no forever. There is no never. We quit one day at a time. If you want your legacy to continue than stay involved and support the folks around you. If you give someone a shoulder to lean you'll be a part of their quit and their experience in getting to freedom.
Keep up the good fight bud.
Ummm but uhhh in the context in which I used never and forever should be acceptable? No? I will always quit one day at a time but if I never post again it will be forever cuz I will be dead!
Gunner26 out
:wacko: :blink: :wacko: :blink:
Sounded like you were making a "quit forever" pledge. My apologies.
So if you disappear for two weeks I should assume you are dead and quit that day. Got it. I'm good.
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Ok I just wanted to put this out there.... This is inspired by my fallen comrade Texasfireman93. I was a ninja dipper and yes unfortunately I am a ninja quitter! Now if I die I will just disappear there will be no sister, aunt, uncle, wife, red headed step child or anyone for that matter coming on here to say thank you or say goodbye or ask for donations... It won't happen...So after ooooh let's say 15 days ...if after 15 days I am MIA, please quit for me for one day. This is my word that I will never disappear forever unless I am dead, thus this is also my good bye if such an unfortunate incident does indeed fall upon my soul. I will try to post from the dead but I can not gaurantee anything. Cheers!
Gunner26
'Finger'
You know how we quit here. There is no forever. There is no never. We quit one day at a time. If you want your legacy to continue than stay involved and support the folks around you. If you give someone a shoulder to lean you'll be a part of their quit and their experience in getting to freedom.
Keep up the good fight bud.
Ummm but uhhh in the context in which I used never and forever should be acceptable? No? I will always quit one day at a time but if I never post again it will be forever cuz I will be dead!
Gunner26 out
:wacko: :blink: :wacko: :blink:
Sounded like you were making a "quit forever" pledge. My apologies.
So if you disappear for two weeks I should assume you are dead and quit that day. Got it. I'm good.
'40' That is exactly what I was trying to say! '40'
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Nice four weeks of Quit, Gunner! One day at a time; no exceptions!
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Thanks Keddy! I truly appreciate your support... It helps.
My feelings as of today are mixed...to be honest I just want to forget about the nasty little bitch. She is still consuming my every second thought .... Shit I don't think I thought about dip this much when I did dip, of course I did I know that. Now here's the thing... yes I think about it.. yes I have triggers/craves and yes I realize I basically lost parts of 23 years of my life... I am now enjoying those missed parts everyday... I know over confidence is not good and complacency will get you a veteran beat down accompanied by verbal chastising but Keddy right now I feel great one f***** day at time! Yes I do have my moments but those moments seem to be diminishing slowly... I am Quit... Bottom line. Thanks again.
Gunner26
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Thanks Keddy! I truly appreciate your support... It helps.
My feelings as of today are mixed...to be honest I just want to forget about the nasty little bitch. She is still consuming my every second thought .... Shit I don't think I thought about dip this much when I did dip, of course I did I know that. Now here's the thing... yes I think about it.. yes I have triggers/craves and yes I realize I basically lost parts of 23 years of my life... I am now enjoying those missed parts everyday... I know over confidence is not good and complacency will get you a veteran beat down accompanied by verbal chastising but Keddy right now I feel great one f***** day at time! Yes I do have my moments but those moments seem to be diminishing slowly... I am Quit... Bottom line. Thanks again.
Gunner26
Hey, Man, celebrate the victories!!! But just don't forget that the battle isn't over. Confidence is a great asset to your quit, provided it is located in the right place. You can be confident about the tools you have built and the support of this site. This is potent stuff. You cannot be confident in your abilities alone. Quitting is not a "lone wolf" sport; we need each other.
I rarely think about dip now (after 444 days of being quit); only occasionally. You are reprogramming your mind to experience reality without the crap. It takes a while.
Every time you beat down a crave, you get stronger. You're at the place now where giving the nic bitch the finger and derisively laughing at her attempts goes a long way. When I get a crave, I smile, say "fuck you," sometimes audibly and then I turn my back.
All the stuff your are going through right now, Gunner, is normal and HEALTHY!! You are learning to be you all over again . . . the real you!
Nice job!!!
These two links may help:
index.php?showtopic=5691 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=5691)
index.php?showtopic=5098 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=5098)
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I don't know what it is but the fact that some of our brothers in March keep popping in and out of roll posting like it's a choir is starting to piss me off... its likes a slap in the face... me personally... i don't take slaps to the face that well!!!! I understand the odd day once and awhile but come on don't keep disrespecting the rest of us.
My Peace out.
Gunner26
'Finger' 'finger point'
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Documenting my days events... Oral Surgery: Had one of my upper front teeths root removed, then had my gum slit open and a titanium implant inserted, packed with synthetic bone and stitched back up and covered with silly puddy type substance so no shit gets in there. Good thing is I am quit and if I wasn't I would have compromised my health and the implant by getting an infection by shoving some poisonous black shit in my mouth to take the edge off. What a fuckin moron! Yup would have done it... No doubt...But not today...Thank you, yes you, you, you and you!
Gunner26
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Had a dip dream!! Woke up and was like holy shit...What have I done? I have to go log a 1...This is going to be embarrassing. I was convinced that I had dipped... I was predicting the lashing I was going to get... what happened!!!!! What the hell!!! You F****** Caver... Thank god it was only a dream... First one I've had like that.
As a side note day 42 and I have been kinda going through the fog again... kinda frustrating.
Gunner
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Had a dip dream!! Woke up and was like holy shit...What have I done? I have to go log a 1...This is going to be embarrassing. I was convinced that I had dipped... I was predicting the lashing I was going to get... what happened!!!!! What the hell!!! You F****** Caver... Thank god it was only a dream... First one I've had like that.
As a side note day 42 and I have been kinda going through the fog again... kinda frustrating.
Gunner
Dip dreams suck but they are temporary. Cancer usually isn't!
It's amazing how powerful those dreams can be but take it as a good sign. Most quitters experience them and it means that you're on the road to recovery.
Keep strong!
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Had a dip dream!! Woke up and was like holy shit...What have I done? I have to go log a 1...This is going to be embarrassing. I was convinced that I had dipped... I was predicting the lashing I was going to get... what happened!!!!! What the hell!!! You F****** Caver... Thank god it was only a dream... First one I've had like that.
As a side note day 42 and I have been kinda going through the fog again... kinda frustrating.
Gunner
Dip dreams suck but they are temporary. Cancer usually isn't!
It's amazing how powerful those dreams can be but take it as a good sign. Most quitters experience them and it means that you're on the road to recovery.
Keep strong!
Roger Keddy! I got what you are throwing down!
'tough'
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Yo gunner. I've only had one dip dream. For some reason, I can't do wrong in my dreams. Can't even cheat on my wife in a dream...its wierd. So in my dip dream I ended up watching my daughter stuff 2 or three cans of that shit in her mouth. Beautiful little 14 yo girl hunched over the table, her mouth completely stuffed with long cut, going after more like a little animal. Woke up in tears. I believe these dreams serve a purpose.
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Well it's day 50 and I thought I should log an entry... Feeling pretty good these days...the headaches subsided as I was told they would. Still dealing with triggers but it's easier and quicker to fight the crave... Still know I am an addict, not 30 mins ago I had her whispering in my ear. One day at a time, that's what I keep telling myself. Anyways that's it for now... Here's to another 50. Thumbs up to Keddy.... Thanks...your support helps and is appreciated.
Gunner26
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Day 56... I have never calculated how much money I have saved until today...don't know why I thought about it now just did...
'party' Approximately $375.00 'party'
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Day 60... Seem to be slippin a bit as far as craves and triggers go. It seems as though they are coming more frequently, I don't believe that I am becoming complacent but I do feel confident when I am being tempted by that little voice. I read alot of brothers posts and there are guys having craves up into being quit for years! At this point I find that to be extremely depleting to my psyche! I just don't want to think about chewing anymore... That's all I want... Anyways that's just what I am going through here on day 60.
Gunner26
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That day will come soon, the cool thing is, you won't even notice when it happens.
Hang in there.
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Day 70... Actually feeling pretty good lately... Had to study for a test and I haven't had to that since I quit... Major study dipper before...that was a trigger and a half! Blew bye it though, said F*** off and continued on my merry way. Had another dip dream last night...standing in line at the convenience store to buy some Cope...needless to say I never made it to the front of the line... All in all things are going well! Cheers
Gunner26
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Nice work bro. I remember facing the same fear thinking I'll never pass a test again. I was wrong. We are powerful.
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Day 70... Actually feeling pretty good lately... Had to study for a test and I haven't had to that since I quit... Major study dipper before...that was a trigger and a half! Blew bye it though, said F*** off and continued on my merry way. Had another dip dream last night...standing in line at the convenience store to buy some Cope...needless to say I never made it to the front of the line... All in all things are going well! Cheers
Gunner26
It's that F*** off attitude that will take you far, Gunner. Giving nic the finger and walking away is one of life's greatest pleasures!!
Nice job!
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Day 70... Actually feeling pretty good lately... Had to study for a test and I haven't had to that since I quit... Major study dipper before...that was a trigger and a half! Blew bye it though, said F*** off and continued on my merry way. Had another dip dream last night...standing in line at the convenience store to buy some Cope...needless to say I never made it to the front of the line... All in all things are going well! Cheers
Gunner26
It's that F*** off attitude that will take you far, Gunner. Giving nic the finger and walking away is one of life's greatest pleasures!!
Nice job!
Thanks! Appreciate it...
Gunner26
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Day 60... Seem to be slippin a bit as far as craves and triggers go. It seems as though they are coming more frequently, I don't believe that I am becoming complacent but I do feel confident when I am being tempted by that little voice. I read alot of brothers posts and there are guys having craves up into being quit for years! At this point I find that to be extremely depleting to my psyche! I just don't want to think about chewing anymore... That's all I want... Anyways that's just what I am going through here on day 60.
Gunner26
Yeah, they still come, but don't let it discourage you...just hit 2 years a couple days ago. Yeah, the craves happen every so often, but they are more like a fleeting thought...one second they are there, you acknowledge it for what it is, remember your promise, and dismiss the thought of nic...
You're doing all the right things - hell, even addressing it on here is a huge step in beating the craves. Keep it up!
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Day90... 'Sno'
Oh and 'Finger' ... Move along move along....Nuff said.
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Gretzky
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100 days! 'oh yeah' Nice job brother!
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100 days! 'oh yeah' Nice job brother!
Thanks man...appreciate it
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Day 104... Proud of myself...If you are early in your quit truly know that it get's better... guys were always telling me...Gunner don't sweat it...it get's better...I was a pile of mush thinking WTF why is it taking so long!! It's a good feeling now looking back and not being a b**** who caved (no offense cavers, retreads) ...Still taking it a day at a time. One day...anyone can quit for one day. Simple.
Gunner26
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Excellent !
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Nice job Gunner!!!
Hit 51 yesterday...on your tail drafting but I'll never catch up...Unless you kick the bucket at 90 years old and I live 50 days more....There's still a chance I'll catch ya :)
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Thanks Pacer... Day 108. Something happened today and it really made me happy! I was standing there thinking and it totally and utterly disgusted me to even think about having a chew. I knew and it's hard to explain but I knew that I wouldn't even enjoy it. It was like a switch had gone off and I actually can tell you that I compared it to shoving a piece of shit in my mouth... An epiphany...excellent I liked it.
Gunner26
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Thanks Pacer... Day 108. Something happened today and it really made me happy! I was standing there thinking and it totally and utterly disgusted me to even think about having a chew. I knew and it's hard to explain but I knew that I wouldn't even enjoy it. It was like a switch had gone off and I actually can tell you that I compared it to shoving a piece of shit in my mouth... An epiphany...excellent I liked it.
Gunner26
You are reinventing what it is to be you. The new normal. Outstanding.
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Day 110 ... Wow! Was taken by surprise today... In a hockey tournament and to be honest I didn't even think about chew before the first game... Then I was sitting there getting ready and it was like where's my chew? Little b**** just floated in the dressing room and tried to weasel her way into my blood stream... It felt good to smack her upside the head tell her to f*** off. Anyways that was a trigger I wasn't exposed to in awhile and it felt great that it really had no effect on me. Cheers!
Gunner26
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126...Feeling excellent these days...No craves, just triggers "oh yeah I used to really like to chew while i was doing this" Then it's gone... Still spending a lot of time here checking things out... The accountability that groups are expecting from their brothers is awesome.... it's really good to see. The one thing that always bothered me was the guy who just figured hey i'll do my own thing, post when I want kinda thing... WTF! Did you miss what this place is about! Keep demanding these head scratching 'Crazy' morons remove their melons from their asses...if not send em walking! 'zombie' Anyways...congrats to everyone doing well and don't be a failure when it comes to quitting stuffing shit in your face.
Gunner out.
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Nice work Gunner. Congrats on the HOF.
Keep fighting bro.
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Nice work Gunner. Congrats on the HOF.
+1
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Nice work Gunner. Congrats on the HOF.
Keep fighting bro.
Thanks Souli... Appreciate it!
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Quick check in... 137 Things are are going well...One day at a time.
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I am strong to quit but I am not strong enough to admit to failure...
Day 157
Gunner26
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Day 179.... Happy but Sheeesh.... Busy weekend and I found myself driving around justifying a cave... Yeah 'bang head' Fought through it fairly easily but ....go away already! Anyways just sharing.
Gunner26
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187....Dip DREAM!!!! Had the whole tin stuffed in my face! 'zombie'
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187....Dip DREAM!!!! Had the whole tin stuffed in my face! 'zombie'
Dip dreams are a last ditch effort by the bitch to drag you back in. They mean you are winning !
STAY QUIT
Greg
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187....Dip DREAM!!!! Had the whole tin stuffed in my face! 'zombie'
Dip dreams are a last ditch effort by the bitch to drag you back in. They mean you are winning !
STAY QUIT
Greg
Greg's right, Gunner.
One other thing: Dip dreams are temporary; Cancer usually isn't.
When you wake up celebrate the reality of your freedom.
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Day 200 and something... Haven't checked in for awhile. Going good...definetly still having moments of "I deserve a chew". Fight through it pretty easily but yes they are still there.
Was playing UNO with my family tonight and felt damn good to not worry about just getting the game over with so the kids and wife would go to bed so I could stick some chew in mouth and kill myself.
That feeling is what makes it right not to chew. ?
Gunner26
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Day 200 and something... Haven't checked in for awhile. Going good...definetly still having moments of "I deserve a chew". Fight through it pretty easily but yes they are still there.
Was playing UNO with my family tonight and felt damn good to not worry about just getting the game over with so the kids and wife would go to bed so I could stick some chew in mouth and kill myself.
That feeling is what makes it right not to chew. ?
Gunner26
Congrats on the Day 200, Gunner.
Celebrate today and then press forward.
'clap'
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Thanks Keddy! Much appreciated as always.
Cheers
Gunner
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Day 328 ....Haven't been spending much time here and I would like to kind of explain that.
I know that this is with me forever...but for awhile I have been living without so much as a thought about chew, i like that. I realize early in my quit it was necessary to remind myself everyday by making my promise everyday...here. So it's kind of bitter sweet... on one hand I owe everything to this site and the people but I almost feel like now I have to let go.
With that said... the other day I had to requalify on a piece of "equipment" and as I was going travelling to the site I clued in...out of the blue...holy shit NO CHEW...i was like what am I going to do? I got through it pretty easily and the thought "oh well its been almost a year you deserve it" reared its ugly fricken head again... WTF yes! Justifying again! So long story short I will post when I can and I will read and I will look at some pictures to REMIND myself that life is far more important and that I am addicted to nicotine.
Cheers.
Gunner26
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Lots of people go about a year and think they're "cured." WRONG! The Nic Bitch is relentless and crafty. I don't have all the answers, but I have one...posting rol.
I posted 2 years on Sept 11, 2012. KTC (and you folks) are now part of my daily routine. I might miss a day here and there, but not many. This site is my new normal.
Do what works for you. But I will tell you that I've seen many with your story who wind up posting Day 1 again because they thought they didn't need roll call anymore. Maybe I don't need it...but I'll never know. I was a slave too long to risk going back. Posting roll everyday is the key for me...and it will work for you.
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Thanks Bean... Not so sure I agree but I appreciate your opinion for sure. Thank you.
Gunner26
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Thanks Bean... Not so sure I agree but I appreciate your opinion for sure. Thank you.
Gunner26
I would be very careful with that approach. Getting relaxed, complacent, posting sometimes has ended very badly for many since I have arrived here. I have seen guys with thousands of days cave using the method you describe. I have yet to see one person cave that posts roll daily.
Both methods are proven..... just depends on which side you want to end up on.
STAY QUIT
Greg
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Thanks Bean... Not so sure I agree but I appreciate your opinion for sure. Thank you.
Gunner26
bean is a very wise quitter. His quit would crush your skull. Not agreeing with a proven path is actually pretty stupid. Your language and demeanor are weak.
This isn't a game bro. This is life or death. I don't care who you are, not posting is very dangerous. Take it from a professional addict, use every fucking tool you can get. It will save your life...
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Thanks Bean... Not so sure I agree but I appreciate your opinion for sure. Thank you.
Gunner26
I would be very careful with that approach. Getting relaxed, complacent, posting sometimes has ended very badly for many since I have arrived here. I have seen guys with thousands of days cave using the method you describe. I have yet to see one person cave that posts roll daily.
Both methods are proven..... just depends on which side you want to end up on.
STAY QUIT
Greg
Yep. I posted with Bean today. Guess what..... I'll post with him tomorrow.
Like he said..... not sure if I need to do that or not, but it's not worth the risk to find out.
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Gunner,
You say you like the fact you don't think about it, and yet it sneaks in on you and you DO think about it. There is no escape from that. It will always be there lurking. What we did to ourselves cannont be undone. It's like a scar .
I come here everyday if only for 1 minute to remind myself I am an addict. I can live with a minute a day to post roll call and remind myself of that. The consequence of just one isn't worth it for me. Wish you well.
sm
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Thank you for the replies I really appreciate it .... Kana you sent me a personal message and I appreciate that as well...I have come here to my introduction page throuh out my quit to give my honest feelings at that time... I will continue to do so. This last post was just that and like I stated at the end... "So long story short I will post when I can and I will read and I will look at some pictures to REMIND myself that life is far more important and that I am addicted to nicotine." That's what is working for me now... it may change but the key is I am quit and proud of it... Confident too, to me there is just no point in bringing myself down everyday... by having the attitude of " I am a piece of shit nicotine addict...oh god...oh god Is that a cravng? Oh shit what am I going to do..."Naaa fuck that I am quit and I am confident...A lot of people here connect confidence and complacency...if your confident with your quit ooooh watch out you must be complacent...I whole heartedly disagree and that's what is good about this site opinions vary and people let you know! Cheers guys and gals! Appreciate your posts! Well maybe eluding to my skull being crushed is a bit extreme.
Gunner26
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Day 510... Doing pretty good. My posting is horrible and it is what it is...my apologies. Craved a chew today...just out of the blue I was driving and I started to think I should have a chew. WTF...Anyways it just hasn't happened in a long while and I quashed it quite easily but just confirming they are still happening. Thanks KTC!