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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Froggy22 on January 13, 2015, 11:37:00 PM
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Hey guys (and gals),
My name is Ryan and today is my quit day. Day 1. Ground Zero.
33 years old and I dipped Cope long cut for 16 years. About 7 years ago, I quit for just over a year and foolishly thought that I could control it and "just dip at work." 6 or so years later, here I am. Father of three beautiful little girls (ages 6,4,2) who deserve to have their Dad around. Their names are Eleanor, Lyla and Claire.
After college, I served 11+ years on active duty in the Marine Corps infantry and then US Army Special Forces. There, I conquered many challenges, overcame many obstacles and pushed my body beyond what I thought it was capable of doing. I've been to every populated continent in the world, jumped out of airplanes, blown shit up, shot guns at people, fathered children, brewed my own beer caught my own fish killed my own foodÂ…... and yet was still a slave to the nic bitch. No more.
I quit using the drug nicotine today for me. I quit because I want to be here to watch my daughters grow up. I want to be a part of their lives and teach them a thousand things. Recognizing that this is not entirely up to me, I am now doing my part. It is awfully hypocritical to weigh your food and execute a brutal physical fitness regime, and then stuff your face with dip.
Anyway, I'll need the support. My biggest weakness is thinking that I can conquer this by myself, or try and control it. I can't. Deep down I know I can't. That is why I am here.
Thanks for listening all.
Risky 2A
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Hey guys (and gals),
My name is Ryan and today is my quit day. Day 1. Ground Zero.
33 years old and I dipped Cope long cut for 16 years. About 7 years ago, I quit for just over a year and foolishly thought that I could control it and "just dip at work." 6 or so years later, here I am. Father of three beautiful little girls (ages 6,4,2) who deserve to have their Dad around. Their names are Eleanor, Lyla and Claire.
After college, I served 11+ years on active duty in the Marine Corps infantry and then US Army Special Forces. There, I conquered many challenges, overcame many obstacles and pushed my body beyond what I thought it was capable of doing. I've been to every populated continent in the world, jumped out of airplanes, blown shit up, shot guns at people, fathered children, brewed my own beer caught my own fish killed my own foodÂ…... and yet was still a slave to the nic bitch. No more.
I quit using the drug nicotine today for me. I quit because I want to be here to watch my daughters grow up. I want to be a part of their lives and teach them a thousand things. Recognizing that this is not entirely up to me, I am now doing my part. It is awfully hypocritical to weigh your food and execute a brutal physical fitness regime, and then stuff your face with dip.
Anyway, I'll need the support. My biggest weakness is thinking that I can conquer this by myself, or try and control it. I can't. Deep down I know I can't. That is why I am here.
Thanks for listening all.
Risky 2A
Congrats frog!
You sound ready to take your freedom back! I see you posted in april 2015, nice work. Don't worry about quitting for forever, just worry about today. Post roll each day first thing,then just honor your word for that day. Anyone can keep their word for one day, right?
Read everything you can on here and get involved. PM heading your way with my number. Reach out if you need anything.
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I'm with you man. Today was my first day as well. I'm 33 and like you and quit for a while when I was 26 until I convinced myself while on vacation in Vegas that I could splurge and chew just one can. Long story short here I am almost 8 years later. Let's do this together. PM me if you need any help and hopefully I can do the same.
-Tony
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Good job my friend. I am in the March group and have been off that poison for 30 days now. It gets easier, and there are a lot of people on here with good information about quitting. You should look at what to expect down the road. I also wanted to drop in and say THANK YOU for your service. If I can help you in anyway let me know.
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Great choice to quit, and seconds on the THANK YOU for serving this country!
You have never quit before. If you had quit you would not be here at day 1. You had a stoppage. Quit means never having a day 1 again and being free of the poison. Good news is that you can be quit now. Most of us have had stoppages before we quit. Better news is that KTC can help you be quit.
Read everything here and learn how to defeat the enemy. The KTC quit plan works so work the plan.
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Thanks a bunch fellas. Yeah, today is a tough day. Its been 24.5 hours (but who is counting right?) and my cravings are in full swing. I just keep reading the Jenny and Tom Kerns story and telling myself "make it to lunch." "Ok, now make it until school is over" (picking up my oldest daughter from school I mean).
We can do this.
72 hours and I know that all this poison is out of my body. 72 painful, DOABLE hours. From there, its in my mindÂ…..
Thanks guys, I needed to log on and see these replies.
Risky 2A
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Thanks a bunch fellas. Yeah, today is a tough day. Its been 24.5 hours (but who is counting right?) and my cravings are in full swing. I just keep reading the Jenny and Tom Kerns story and telling myself "make it to lunch." "Ok, now make it until school is over" (picking up my oldest daughter from school I mean).
We can do this.
72 hours and I know that all this poison is out of my body. 72 painful, DOABLE hours. From there, its in my mindÂ…..
Thanks guys, I needed to log on and see these replies.
Risky 2A
There is some serious quitting going on here. Keep it up, and begin to retake you life.
I stashed gum, candy and toothpicks in every location I used to chew, be prepared for nic bitch whispering in your ear.
Idaho Spuds
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Thanks a bunch fellas. Yeah, today is a tough day. Its been 24.5 hours (but who is counting right?) and my cravings are in full swing. I just keep reading the Jenny and Tom Kerns story and telling myself "make it to lunch." "Ok, now make it until school is over" (picking up my oldest daughter from school I mean).
We can do this.
72 hours and I know that all this poison is out of my body. 72 painful, DOABLE hours. From there, its in my mindÂ…..
Thanks guys, I needed to log on and see these replies.
Risky 2A
There is some serious quitting going on here. Keep it up, and begin to retake you life.
I stashed gum, candy and toothpicks in every location I used to chew, be prepared for nic bitch whispering in your ear.
Idaho Spuds
Thank you my friend for helping me keep my freedom! Been dipping a long time...38years on day 18 of quit! Best thing I've ever done! I quit with you my brother! Need anything p.m me
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Thanks a bunch fellas. Yeah, today is a tough day. Its been 24.5 hours (but who is counting right?) and my cravings are in full swing. I just keep reading the Jenny and Tom Kerns story and telling myself "make it to lunch." "Ok, now make it until school is over" (picking up my oldest daughter from school I mean).
We can do this.
72 hours and I know that all this poison is out of my body. 72 painful, DOABLE hours. From there, its in my mindÂ…..
Thanks guys, I needed to log on and see these replies.
Risky 2A
There is some serious quitting going on here. Keep it up, and begin to retake you life.
I stashed gum, candy and toothpicks in every location I used to chew, be prepared for nic bitch whispering in your ear.
Idaho Spuds
Thank you my friend for helping me keep my freedom! Been dipping a long time...38years on day 18 of quit! Best thing I've ever done! I quit with you my brother! Need anything p.m me
Bravo soldier!
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Ryan looks like you got your mind around the right way to quit. If we could all push a button and be quit we would have done it year's ago. Early on quitting is really a minute by minute fight. Soon it will be an hour by hour fight, then a day by day fight. Keep posting your thoughts here, and help someone else along the way. No one knows more about day 1 of a quit than someone at day 2.
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Ryan, I was also in the Marines and the Army (National Guard), as a pianist. Band guy just quit for 100 days, can you?
Really it's just quitting for the rest of today, and it's not a question since you posted roll and I assume you have some integrity.
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Ryan - congrats on making the decision to take back your life. And thanks for your service. I'm proud to quit with you today.
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Thanks again fellas; I really appreciate the support. Seriously. I can't believe how much I look forward to logging on here and seeing your comments.
Although I am no Packers fan, so the Ray Nitschke images kinda of induce my dip rage :) I'd prefer if they were Dick Butkus on my thread, thank you very much :)
Anyway, day 3 is going better than day 2. Day 2 was fucking rough man. Like, dreaming of dip, almost caved 10 times bad. But I didn't, because I said I wouldn't.
You know, I wish more people in the world would keep their word the way that the men of this forum do. Think about it. Think about how many marriages could be saved, businesses flourish, etc if people just did the shit they said they were going to do Nothing more, but certainly nothing less. I suppose the other side to that is not promising things you can't follow up on.
Ok, rant over. thanks again guys, I'll check back tomorrow!!
Risky 2A
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Thanks again fellas; I really appreciate the support. Seriously. I can't believe how much I look forward to logging on here and seeing your comments.
Although I am no Packers fan, so the Ray Nitschke images kinda of induce my dip rage :) I'd prefer if they were Dick Butkus on my thread, thank you very much :)
Anyway, day 3 is going better than day 2. Day 2 was fucking rough man. Like, dreaming of dip, almost caved 10 times bad. But I didn't, because I said I wouldn't.
You know, I wish more people in the world would keep their word the way that the men of this forum do. Think about it. Think about how many marriages could be saved, businesses flourish, etc if people just did the shit they said they were going to do Nothing more, but certainly nothing less. I suppose the other side to that is not promising things you can't follow up on.
Ok, rant over. thanks again guys, I'll check back tomorrow!!
Risky 2A
Shit man.....I think we need to be thanking you....not only for your service to our great country and preserving our freedoms but for strengthening the shit out of my quit today.
Like all these other dudes, we are fighting the same war....the objective for today is to win the battle for the next 24 hours. I gave my word first thing this morning - to you and this entire community - that I would not use nicotine and any form for the next 24 hours. Like I believe you to be - I am a man of my word and there is not a chance in hell that I will be breaking my promise to you today.
Saddle up....it is a war where the battle is fought daily. I imagine you put yourself through some pretty serious shit - I'm betting you can do anything for 24 hours, right? that is all it takes...24 hours. today and today only. You don't have to quit nic - you just have to give your word and keep your promise...the nic will take care of itself in the process.
Glad to have you on board.
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Thanks again fellas; I really appreciate the support. Seriously. I can't believe how much I look forward to logging on here and seeing your comments.
Although I am no Packers fan, so the Ray Nitschke images kinda of induce my dip rage :) I'd prefer if they were Dick Butkus on my thread, thank you very much :)
Anyway, day 3 is going better than day 2. Day 2 was fucking rough man. Like, dreaming of dip, almost caved 10 times bad. But I didn't, because I said I wouldn't.
You know, I wish more people in the world would keep their word the way that the men of this forum do. Think about it. Think about how many marriages could be saved, businesses flourish, etc if people just did the shit they said they were going to do Nothing more, but certainly nothing less. I suppose the other side to that is not promising things you can't follow up on.
Ok, rant over. thanks again guys, I'll check back tomorrow!!
Risky 2A
Shit man.....I think we need to be thanking you....not only for your service to our great country and preserving our freedoms but for strengthening the shit out of my quit today.
Like all these other dudes, we are fighting the same war....the objective for today is to win the battle for the next 24 hours. I gave my word first thing this morning - to you and this entire community - that I would not use nicotine and any form for the next 24 hours. Like I believe you to be - I am a man of my word and there is not a chance in hell that I will be breaking my promise to you today.
Saddle up....it is a war where the battle is fought daily. I imagine you put yourself through some pretty serious shit - I'm betting you can do anything for 24 hours, right? that is all it takes...24 hours. today and today only. You don't have to quit nic - you just have to give your word and keep your promise...the nic will take care of itself in the process.
Glad to have you on board.
Keep crushing it.
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Thanks again guys. Sorry for the absence from my own intro thread for the last couple of days. No caves, still here.
So it seems like every single day is getting better. The time intervals between thoughts of dip keeps extending from 1 min, to 5, to 25, to an hourÂ…. it's awesome. To be perfectly honest, this is not nearly as hard as I thought it would be. Don't get me wrong - there are times each day that I struggle. But I am only 1 week in and I probably spend half my day not even realizing that I don't dip anymore. I have to imagine day 100 is going to be even better.
So I decided to go against the recommended techniques here. I know everyone says don't drink for the first three weeks, but I totally didn't do that. In fact, I'm pretty sure I've drank every night since I quite and have even gotten straight up drunk twice. I didn't have the drinking triggers that lots of guys do I guess; for me, it actually took my mind off it.
That, and it's the start of the semester again tomorrow so I had to get it in while I could.
Also, I don't know about you guys, but my tongue actually hurts from the salted sunflower seeds I'm chewing these days! I've found that sunflower seeds, more than anything else, do the trick for me. Gum is not bad either.
Anyway, hope all you quitters out there are staying strong.
HOLD THE LINE.
Risky 2A
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Thanks again guys. Sorry for the absence from my own intro thread for the last couple of days. No caves, still here.
So it seems like every single day is getting better. The time intervals between thoughts of dip keeps extending from 1 min, to 5, to 25, to an hourÂ…. it's awesome. To be perfectly honest, this is not nearly as hard as I thought it would be. Don't get me wrong - there are times each day that I struggle. But I am only 1 week in and I probably spend half my day not even realizing that I don't dip anymore. I have to imagine day 100 is going to be even better.
So I decided to go against the recommended techniques here. I know everyone says don't drink for the first three weeks, but I totally didn't do that. In fact, I'm pretty sure I've drank every night since I quite and have even gotten straight up drunk twice. I didn't have the drinking triggers that lots of guys do I guess; for me, it actually took my mind off it.
That, and it's the start of the semester again tomorrow so I had to get it in while I could.
Also, I don't know about you guys, but my tongue actually hurts from the salted sunflower seeds I'm chewing these days! I've found that sunflower seeds, more than anything else, do the trick for me. Gum is not bad either.
Anyway, hope all you quitters out there are staying strong.
HOLD THE LINE.
Risky 2A
Drinking had the same effect for me as well. I think we're only a day apart in our quits too. Keep rolling, bro!
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Thanks again guys. Sorry for the absence from my own intro thread for the last couple of days. No caves, still here.
So it seems like every single day is getting better. The time intervals between thoughts of dip keeps extending from 1 min, to 5, to 25, to an hourÂ…. it's awesome. To be perfectly honest, this is not nearly as hard as I thought it would be. Don't get me wrong - there are times each day that I struggle. But I am only 1 week in and I probably spend half my day not even realizing that I don't dip anymore. I have to imagine day 100 is going to be even better.
So I decided to go against the recommended techniques here. I know everyone says don't drink for the first three weeks, but I totally didn't do that. In fact, I'm pretty sure I've drank every night since I quite and have even gotten straight up drunk twice. I didn't have the drinking triggers that lots of guys do I guess; for me, it actually took my mind off it.
That, and it's the start of the semester again tomorrow so I had to get it in while I could.
Also, I don't know about you guys, but my tongue actually hurts from the salted sunflower seeds I'm chewing these days! I've found that sunflower seeds, more than anything else, do the trick for me. Gum is not bad either.
Anyway, hope all you quitters out there are staying strong.
HOLD THE LINE.
Risky 2A
Drinking had the same effect for me as well. I think we're only a day apart in our quits too. Keep rolling, bro!
Hopefully guys do realize what works for some don't always mean it's gonna work for you! Hey my brother I hope you're fortunate enough to continue with mild withdrawals but my advice would be get ready for nic bitch hit you hard right in the mouth! Been down this road to many times a huge difference this time got all these guys behind me! Proud to be quit with you my brother!
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Hopefully guys do realize what works for some don't always mean it's gonna work for you! Hey my brother I hope you're fortunate enough to continue with mild withdrawals but my advice would be get ready for nic bitch hit you hard right in the mouth! Been down this road to many times a huge difference this time got all these guys behind me! Proud to be quit with you my brother!
I think the severity of the withdraw is a sliding scale, much like pain. It is felt differently by different people. What is 5/10 pain to you (that is, 5 out of 10 where 10 is the worst you have ever experienced) might be 10/10 to me. Regardless, 10/10 pain is dealt with uniformly in the medical world because, in the end, the only person whose opinion matters on the subject is the subject himself.
Please don't get me wrong. I've had withdraws and cravings. Many, many of them. Some were bad, some were manageable. Day 1 was quite literally debilitating; I could not get out of bed in the afternoon. So I get it. I guess I just expected some terrible-Hollywood-heroine-drug-addict withdraw and it never came. That doesn't mean that I don't struggle on a daily basis, because I do.
Part of it is that I feel that I have seen a few things and been through a few things in my life so I'm trying not to be overly dramatic about it. It's hard for me to talk about nicotine withdraws when I have friends that are having withdraws about not being able to run because they lost their legs. Sure, each of us will adapt and it will eventually get easier for us both, but I brought this shit upon myself where his did not. That dynamic has a psychological effect on me, that's all.
Hope all you quitters out there keep on quittin'. Today is not the day to fail. Tomorrow, perhaps, but not today.
Hold the line.
Risky 2A / Froggy 22
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Hopefully guys do realize what works for some don't always mean it's gonna work for you! Hey my brother I hope you're fortunate enough to continue with mild withdrawals but my advice would be get ready for nic bitch hit you hard right in the mouth! Been down this road to many times a huge difference this time got all these guys behind me! Proud to be quit with you my brother!
I think the severity of the withdraw is a sliding scale, much like pain. It is felt differently by different people. What is 5/10 pain to you (that is, 5 out of 10 where 10 is the worst you have ever experienced) might be 10/10 to me. Regardless, 10/10 pain is dealt with uniformly in the medical world because, in the end, the only person whose opinion matters on the subject is the subject himself.
Please don't get me wrong. I've had withdraws and cravings. Many, many of them. Some were bad, some were manageable. Day 1 was quite literally debilitating; I could not get out of bed in the afternoon. So I get it. I guess I just expected some terrible-Hollywood-heroine-drug-addict withdraw and it never came. That doesn't mean that I don't struggle on a daily basis, because I do.
Part of it is that I feel that I have seen a few things and been through a few things in my life so I'm trying not to be overly dramatic about it. It's hard for me to talk about nicotine withdraws when I have friends that are having withdraws about not being able to run because they lost their legs. Sure, each of us will adapt and it will eventually get easier for us both, but I brought this shit upon myself where his did not. That dynamic has a psychological effect on me, that's all.
Hope all you quitters out there keep on quittin'. Today is not the day to fail. Tomorrow, perhaps, but not today.
Hold the line.
Risky 2A / Froggy 22
Very well put but I've had a massive heart attack and Deal better with it than I do withdrawls! We all see and have things that effect us differently but this nic bitch will bust your ball mentally for some physically for others! Success for you my friend on your journey! I quit today!
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my tongue actually hurts from the salted sunflower seeds I'm chewing these days
On day 3 or 4 I actually had a small hole in my tongue from the bag a day of seeds I was chewing. Better than a tumor in your mouth or on your jaw, or than having your tongue removed. You've got this brother, just for today I quit with you.
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my tongue actually hurts from the salted sunflower seeds I'm chewing these days
On day 3 or 4 I actually had a small hole in my tongue from the bag a day of seeds I was chewing. Better than a tumor in your mouth or on your jaw, or than having your tongue removed. You've got this brother, just for today I quit with you.
That's the truth right there brother. I'd rather have a soar spot on my tongue and my doc tell me that my sodium intake is too high right now than a lesion on my cheek and him tell me it's stage 2 cancer.
Straight up bro. I quit with all of you today!
Hold the line.
Risky 2A / Froggy22
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HOF man, proud to be quit with you!
Lets do another 100!