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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Maddox09 on December 01, 2014, 02:26:00 AM
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Thought i would join to talk about my new journey and seek help and support along the way. Im 33 years old, dipped since was 16 and im done. Ive been trying (half assed of course ) to quit for 2 years now but always find excuses to dive back into a can (baseball, golf, few beers with buddies, i dont give a shit im a having a chew and will quit again tomorrow). My wife has been on me for years to quit and i always said ill quit 1 day. Hopefully today is it. I have looked into this site previously but briefly. I started to check it out earlier this evening and was lost in the stories for about 2 hours. Story after story of people just like me. I never knew but always heard of times when an opportunity presented itself that makes you look at quitting a bit more than normal. Ive heard you should take advantage of these moments and use them as fuel to encourage you to quit. As a Canadian chewing is not cheap, Roughly 20 bucks a can at the cheaper stores thankfully we are close enough to the boarder and someone is always making a run to the states. The waste of money is one thing but my fuel was today when i wss watching a movie and i turned to see my 3 year old son spitting into an empty juice box that he had wripped the top off. I asked him what he was doing and he said "just having a chew". My heart sank, he even stuffed a chedder gold fish in his lip so he could be just like me. This is not exactly role model material, not to mention i feel like a complete shit bag. Well Thats my story. Wish me luck and thanks for reading
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Welcome Maddox! You sound as though you have the right attitude to QUIT. These next 4-5 days are not going to easy or fun, they're not suppose to. You don't ever want to forget this period of time in your quit. Hang on, it is worth it. The freedom of being nicotine free is a feeling beyond words. You tell yourself every day how bad you despise nicotine, every hour if you have to. Live by that attitude and don't ever stop. Drink plenty of water, eat seeds, fake if you can find it, sugar free candy. Watch the caffeine and booze for a while. Just some words of advice. With the suck you are about to endure, do not take it out on your family, it's hard not to want to scream and blame everyone for YOUR addiction. They did not shove the poison down your throat for 17 years. Come here to your intro and rage all you want. I see you posted roll and that's the very start of your nicotine free life. We post roll everyday, without fail, no excuses! Also, we don't wish each other luck here. We QUIT. If you need anything, PM me.
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Nice, and I see you've found your way to roll already!
Proud to be quit with you today. Let us know if you need anything, have any questions, or just want to talk. That's what we do here.
Lean when you need to. Give when you can.
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Congrats on a great decision to quit. We know exactly how you feel and are here to lend support but the hard work and making it through the pain are up to you. Holler if you need help. Keep posting roll everyday and make friends. This site works if you use it. Welcome.
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We are all here bailing water out of the same boat. We are here to help you. When you post roll, you'll have people in your own group to befriend and if you look down below in the support section, you'll see a ton of vets just itching to lend you a hand. We want you to be successful in hitting 100 days and far, far beyond that. All you gotta do is participate and post roll every single day. It's that simple. If you need to talk to someone, go to live chat or click on a person's name and, under their profile, click PM or Email to request their phone number...just don't post personal information on the public forum.
I quit with you today
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Hang in there Maddox. The first few days are the worst. Read up on this site about the fog, and how the craving present themselves. The chat room is excellent to use when there aren't a lot of people posting on these threads. There's an app for the chat room too, which I suggest saving in case there's a problem with the website, not to mention, it works smoother than the link on the site.
It's called 123flashchat and it's free from the app store. Chat ID = 198.
Hang in there bud. Everyone on here understands what you're going through. I was there just two months ago. Trust me; I still have cravings, but it ain't nearly as bad as the first couple of weeks.
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Thought i would join to talk about my new journey and seek help and support along the way. Im 33 years old, dipped since was 16 and im done. Ive been trying (half assed of course ) to quit for 2 years now but always find excuses to dive back into a can (baseball, golf, few beers with buddies, i dont give a shit im a having a chew and will quit again tomorrow). My wife has been on me for years to quit and i always said ill quit 1 day. Hopefully today is it. I have looked into this site previously but briefly. I started to check it out earlier this evening and was lost in the stories for about 2 hours. Story after story of people just like me. I never knew but always heard of times when an opportunity presented itself that makes you look at quitting a bit more than normal. Ive heard you should take advantage of these moments and use them as fuel to encourage you to quit. As a Canadian chewing is not cheap, Roughly 20 bucks a can at the cheaper stores thankfully we are close enough to the boarder and someone is always making a run to the states. The waste of money is one thing but my fuel was today when i wss watching a movie and i turned to see my 3 year old son spitting into an empty juice box that he had wripped the top off. I asked him what he was doing and he said "just having a chew". My heart sank, he even stuffed a chedder gold fish in his lip so he could be just like me. This is not exactly role model material, not to mention i feel like a complete shit bag. Well Thats my story. Wish me luck and thanks for reading
Didn't read one reply. Got a couple things to say.
1. No hopefully here. You're going to quit and it's the best choice you'll ever make.
2. Nobody here is going to wish you luck. Luck is for people who are trying; we don't try here we DO.
Brother. Think of this:
I have been quit for roughly 170 days saving me over $3400. Think about that. You have a family, I'm sure the money saved could be well spent.
Also, fuck trying, because there is no trying again when it comes to your life. You keep this shit up and the end result most likely isn't the one you were planning. Fuck trying, I'm glad to have you quit today.
I'm gonna shoot you a PM, check your inbox.
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Day 1- over. Lots of support. Thank you all. Fuck skoal im going to do this
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One day at a time---and for me during he first few days, it was one hour at a time. Sunflower seeds, gum, throat lozenges, short walks, push-ups (provided a distraction), tea, water, herb tea, herb dip, use all your tools. PM anyone here if you need help.
Mentally, the following helped me: one, this is all my fault (helps overcome feelings of anger), so embrace "the suck;" two, one day (or hour) at a time; and three, I never want to go through this again!
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Day 1- over. Lots of support. Thank you all. Fuck skoal im going to do this
I second that statement - FUCK SKOAL.
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Day 1- over. Lots of support. Thank you all. Fuck skoal im going to do this
I second that statement - FUCK SKOAL.
Can I get a hell yeah? If I even see an advertisement for that shit, I want to puke. Hang in there Maddox. You WILL do this. By Friday you should be feeling a lot better.
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Day 1- over. Lots of support. Thank you all. Fuck skoal im going to do this
I second that statement - FUCK SKOAL.
Can I get a hell yeah? If I even see an advertisement for that shit, I want to puke. Hang in there Maddox. You WILL do this. By Friday you should be feeling a lot better.
Day 1 is the biggest milestone you can hit....you've made a promise to quit for a day and then kept that promise. That's what this site is all about. Now start stacking the days. From here on out You are in control over what goes in your mouth....you got this.
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Day 2- Done.. One my biggest concerns tackled. First night back at work and don't I get stuck in a 2 hour traffic jam. Seeds, gum and bunch of water. Fuck skoal, this is my quit
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Day 3 over. A little more driving and a little more work. Didnt sleep the best but still doing good.
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Keep posting on your intro man, it will be a good read for you in the future. Fucking Skoal in the can with you today.
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Day 3 over. A little more driving and a little more work. Didnt sleep the best but still doing good.
Early in my quit, I think the lack of sleep was worse than craves. I was a freakin' zombie. The combo of quit fog and sleep deprivation turned me into a retarded goob.
It'll pass bro. It really will. These things are a small price to pay for the number of years most of us poisoned our body and mind with that awful shit. Be proud of your fight! Each win makes you more badass and... Makes the freedom all the sweeter.
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The combo of quit fog and sleep deprivation turned me into a retarded goob.
This made me laugh! I cant find the "Giggly" emoticon
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Day 4 is coming to an end and I find myself sitting on the couch with my 3 year old son watching the sandlot without a chew in my mouth. I have seem to notice daily activities that were In fact triggers for my addiction.
Driving- traffic jams and snow storms seem to take forever yesterday
Movies- I watch a lot of baseball movies with my son. But usually that meant sit back and have a chew
Eating- finish this food and throw in a bomb
Working- well might as well have a chew
These are the things I find trigger my want the most so far. I am glad it's freezing cold outside, I'd be losing my shit if it was golf and baseball season. I feel I have made great strides so far, there are things in my life that I know will bother me more than others, all I can do is tackle them 1 at a time. In the grand scheme of things 4 days isn't a long time, but for me it has seemed like a month. I am very proud of myself and proud of my quit. I'm taking this a day at time. I go to sleep waiting to post roll, and I work with the mind set that I'm not alone. I can go home and read words of encouragement or of people's struggles. This site and the members are great. I can only look forward to more nicotine free days.
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I go to sleep waiting to post roll
I like what you're putting down Maddox. Your attitude is right on track. Quit on!
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I go to sleep waiting to post roll
I like what you're putting down Maddox. Your attitude is right on track. Quit on!
I agree with Grady. Attitude is everything. Good Job
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Day 5. A good sore mouth. Lol. Over the last 5 days I have done anything and everything to keep my mind off of chewing or keep me occupied enough not to want to chew. My 2nd favorites baseball passion is sunflower seeds. Now mind you I have never eaten sunflower seed for 5 straight days. My mouth is in worst shape now then it was after a 25 hour drive to Florida with 3 buddies who all chewed but it's nicotine free.
Day 1: seasoned whole bag
Day 2: salted most of the bag
Day 3: rest of salted bag, mouth so sore had to eat 1 seed at a time in order to not store them in my mouth. Felt like razor blades.
Day 4 and 5: CRACKED PEPPER, same satisfaction, great taste no salt. Mouth is almost back to normal and can eat more than 1 at a time.
Along with seeds I have pretty much given up on the beers for the time being, I'll attempt when I feel ready for a challenge.
Coffee doesn't seem to trigger me, if anything I have found coffee to keep me busy.
I try to stay away from candy, to much sugar or aspartame, but Was wondering other things I can try to change things up a bit.
Anyway still positive, still happy, still doing well. Today was my 5th day without nicotine, as posted at the start I am a Canadian citizen who spent roughly 20$ per can. A can a day habit = $100.
Day 1: pretty much seemed as I was counting in min to half hours
Days 2 and 3: hours started to go by a little easier
Day 4: 2 pm was a bit hard then it passed
Day 5: the day went by pretty well
I started counted in min now I'm counting money. This is possibly the hardest thing I have my body and my mind through. I have battled addiction before for some serious shit. It was very hard but I have made it 4 years to date, I will never call it a victory because you can never say you have successfully beaten something. It will always be my battle, and this will always be my quit. I do however find this quit harder, it's not the withdrawals, it's not the mind fucks, it's not the pain you think you are going through. I have come to realize this time I'm fighting accessibility the most. I do a lot of driving which has proven to be hard but ever few km or miles there is a store or a gas station with a full shelf. It calls me every time I pass by, I smile, nod and politely say fuck you not this kid.
I stay positive and stay strong, good hours and bad. I must add I am enjoying my quit, the first 3 days were horrible but bad enough I don't want to have to experience them again. Every morning I make a promise, and stick to it. Good night
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Day 6 and 7. My first full weekend. Xmas party fri night, couple drinks, no pressure no problem. Saturday back home with boys. Lots of drinks, bit of stress but I made through the night. I personally wanted to smash the bottom lip of my best friend but I didn't. Another milestone in my books. Days are getting better.
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Well here I sit at the end of day 9 waiting for a decent time to go to sleep where I can sleep most of tomorrow so I can work nights for the next 2 nights as I have finished my day shifts. I flew through my first roll over but tonight is different. Just sitting here watching tv eating seeds and non stop thinking about my quit. Today was easy but tonight seems to be a challenge. Days were rolling by and now seems to be stuck in traffic. I came on read a bunch of post and started typing. Every post I see I can relate to. This site is an amazing thing, an amazing group full of great people. From the random members writing pm's to the the members fallowing my intro to the members of my group. This is my quit, this is your quit, this is our quit. At first I posted my quit was for my wife and my kids, as it proceeds I realize this quit has to be for me before anyone else, it's me that struggles, it's me that conquers but at the end of the day it will be them that get the result. It has been tough but it's personally rewarding. If anyone reading is in the very early stages of their quit I suggest you hang on and enjoy the shitty ride. Everyday post roll, make a promise and stick to it. Then do it again. Count days and be happy.
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Well here I sit at the end of day 9 waiting for a decent time to go to sleep where I can sleep most of tomorrow so I can work nights for the next 2 nights as I have finished my day shifts. I flew through my first roll over but tonight is different. Just sitting here watching tv eating seeds and non stop thinking about my quit. Today was easy but tonight seems to be a challenge. Days were rolling by and now seems to be stuck in traffic. I came on read a bunch of post and started typing. Every post I see I can relate to. This site is an amazing thing, an amazing group full of great people. From the random members writing pm's to the the members fallowing my intro to the members of my group. This is my quit, this is your quit, this is our quit. At first I posted my quit was for my wife and my kids, as it proceeds I realize this quit has to be for me before anyone else, it's me that struggles, it's me that conquers but at the end of the day it will be them that get the result. It has been tough but it's personally rewarding. If anyone reading is in the very early stages of their quit I suggest you hang on and enjoy the shitty ride. Everyday post roll, make a promise and stick to it. Then do it again. Count days and be happy.
Hey man imma be up for a while if ya need someone to text with, pm me.