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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: oconnordan on June 03, 2014, 11:25:00 AM
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Good Morning Quitters,
I am oconnordan and I am on quit day 9. Did not get my intro done until now, but first a huge thank you to the folks who keep this site going, by September quit group, and KDLForever who keeps on texting me. Now for the intro....
I started dipping around age 14, as a freshman at a boarding school. It was everywhere there. The school even spent a lot of time talking about it, scaring you out of it, and educating you about it, but put 400 athletically incined boys together for weeks on end and dip is gong to be everywhere.
By the time I was 15, I was dipping Copenhagen Snuff, and was dipping a lot of it for a 15 year old kid at a boarding school where they watch you all the time. About a can every 2-3 days. I loved it, I loved dipping, I loved being a dipper.
By the time I got to college I was dipping a bit more frequently. A tin every 2 days, perhaps every day. I loved it even more. Got my buddies into it too. I was athletic, good looking, popular. I didn't need to hide dipping. I loved this frickin shit, it was awesome. I on the other hand was a douchebag. After meeting a girl for the evening, I would throw the fattest one in just so I would get kicked out, go home, to dip some more with my roommates. I was a leader amongst the student body and admired by the administration, I flaunted them all and would show up to preside over student body meetings with a fat ball in my lip.
I dipped all the time, could't waste time with a spitter, would just swallow that crap because it was awesome.
Got married, kept dipping because I loved to. Wife would nag, I stopped flaunting in, and started to hide my dipping around her.
Became more successful in my career. Started to get paid to speak to groups about my expertise. Who gives a shit about that, I would speak to groups as large as 500 with a fat ball in.
Had two kids. Would think I should quit, I like them, want to stick around. But no, I fucking love dip. I am a dipper, and I WANT to be a dipper. I'm dipping a tin or more a day now.
Had a few stints of not dipping for some time. Once I even stopped for about 6 months. I never quit though, because I wanted to dip. I loved it. I always started back up though because I love dip, and wanted to be a dipper. In the back of my head I would tell myself I would quit for good at some point, but I knew that would happen when I wanted to quit.
I did not want to quit dipping, so I switched to Skoal cherry. Thought that would do it. I started to dip more. I always had a dip in. I could guzzle water, or whatever I was drinking with a dip in. I could eat with a dip in. I only took it out to sleep.
On May 26, 2014 I woke up and did not have a fresh tin on me. I said this will be the day I quit, knowing that if I was going to quit, I would want to quit. Started jonesin for a dip. Almost got in the car to go get a tin. Then I found this site.
That's when I realized that if I was going to quit, I need to want to quit. This site helped me to that realization. Yes, I am an addict, the addiction made me want to do it, but ultimately I chose to do it. I really do not buy into the crap that addicts cannot help themselves. It is a choice, we exercise our own choices with our own consequences. It's not as if I had someone pointing a gun at my head saying put another fat ball in your mouth. I chose to put one in.
Right now on Day 9, I am choosing to not dip. Instead I chose to polish off a bag of mini Reeses cups. As soon as I hit day 100, I will be posting support on the most recent roll calls every day. If I do not, that is because I chose to dip and I know someone will kick me in the ass via text.
THANK YOU
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Good Morning Quitters,
I am oconnordan and I am on quit day 9. Did not get my intro done until now, but first a huge thank you to the folks who keep this site going, by September quit group, and KDLForever who keeps on texting me. Now for the intro....
I started dipping around age 14, as a freshman at a boarding school. It was everywhere there. The school even spent a lot of time talking about it, scaring you out of it, and educating you about it, but put 400 athletically incined boys together for weeks on end and dip is gong to be everywhere.
By the time I was 15, I was dipping Copenhagen Snuff, and was dipping a lot of it for a 15 year old kid at a boarding school where they watch you all the time. About a can every 2-3 days. I loved it, I loved dipping, I loved being a dipper.
By the time I got to college I was dipping a bit more frequently. A tin every 2 days, perhaps every day. I loved it even more. Got my buddies into it too. I was athletic, good looking, popular. I didn't need to hide dipping. I loved this frickin shit, it was awesome. I on the other hand was a douchebag. After meeting a girl for the evening, I would throw the fattest one in just so I would get kicked out, go home, to dip some more with my roommates. I was a leader amongst the student body and admired by the administration, I flaunted them all and would show up to preside over student body meetings with a fat ball in my lip.
I dipped all the time, could't waste time with a spitter, would just swallow that crap because it was awesome.
Got married, kept dipping because I loved to. Wife would nag, I stopped flaunting in, and started to hide my dipping around her.
Became more successful in my career. Started to get paid to speak to groups about my expertise. Who gives a shit about that, I would speak to groups as large as 500 with a fat ball in.
Had two kids. Would think I should quit, I like them, want to stick around. But no, I fucking love dip. I am a dipper, and I WANT to be a dipper. I'm dipping a tin or more a day now.
Had a few stints of not dipping for some time. Once I even stopped for about 6 months. I never quit though, because I wanted to dip. I loved it. I always started back up though because I love dip, and wanted to be a dipper. In the back of my head I would tell myself I would quit for good at some point, but I knew that would happen when I wanted to quit.
I did not want to quit dipping, so I switched to Skoal cherry. Thought that would do it. I started to dip more. I always had a dip in. I could guzzle water, or whatever I was drinking with a dip in. I could eat with a dip in. I only took it out to sleep.
On May 26, 2014 I woke up and did not have a fresh tin on me. I said this will be the day I quit, knowing that if I was going to quit, I would want to quit. Started jonesin for a dip. Almost got in the car to go get a tin. Then I found this site.
That's when I realized that if I was going to quit, I need to want to quit. This site helped me to that realization. Yes, I am an addict, the addiction made me want to do it, but ultimately I chose to do it. I really do not buy into the crap that addicts cannot help themselves. It is a choice, we exercise our own choices with our own consequences. It's not as if I had someone pointing a gun at my head saying put another fat ball in your mouth. I chose to put one in.
Right now on Day 9, I am choosing to not dip. Instead I chose to polish off a bag of mini Reeses cups. As soon as I hit day 100, I will be posting support on the most recent roll calls every day. If I do not, that is because I chose to dip and I know someone will kick me in the ass via text.
THANK YOU
Thanks for sharing your story Dan. This has so many similarities to my story that it's hard to find a good place to start. First and the most ridiculous similarity is the thought that dipping was cool to do. Not only cool to do, but let's encourage others to do it also so that we can feel better about what we're doing to ourselves because "everybody else I know does it too." Like you I started it amongst my friends, and probably like you, I'm the first to quit.
I have more to live for than dipping, but that's all I was living for when I was under the sway of the nic. No longer does it control me, because I won't let it.
Glad to be quit with you and proud to call myself a Sultan with you. Quit on bro.
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Good Morning Quitters,
I am oconnordan and I am on quit day 9. Did not get my intro done until now, but first a huge thank you to the folks who keep this site going, by September quit group, and KDLForever who keeps on texting me. Now for the intro....
I started dipping around age 14, as a freshman at a boarding school. It was everywhere there. The school even spent a lot of time talking about it, scaring you out of it, and educating you about it, but put 400 athletically incined boys together for weeks on end and dip is gong to be everywhere.
By the time I was 15, I was dipping Copenhagen Snuff, and was dipping a lot of it for a 15 year old kid at a boarding school where they watch you all the time. About a can every 2-3 days. I loved it, I loved dipping, I loved being a dipper.
By the time I got to college I was dipping a bit more frequently. A tin every 2 days, perhaps every day. I loved it even more. Got my buddies into it too. I was athletic, good looking, popular. I didn't need to hide dipping. I loved this frickin shit, it was awesome. I on the other hand was a douchebag. After meeting a girl for the evening, I would throw the fattest one in just so I would get kicked out, go home, to dip some more with my roommates. I was a leader amongst the student body and admired by the administration, I flaunted them all and would show up to preside over student body meetings with a fat ball in my lip.
I dipped all the time, could't waste time with a spitter, would just swallow that crap because it was awesome.
Got married, kept dipping because I loved to. Wife would nag, I stopped flaunting in, and started to hide my dipping around her.
Became more successful in my career. Started to get paid to speak to groups about my expertise. Who gives a shit about that, I would speak to groups as large as 500 with a fat ball in.
Had two kids. Would think I should quit, I like them, want to stick around. But no, I fucking love dip. I am a dipper, and I WANT to be a dipper. I'm dipping a tin or more a day now.
Had a few stints of not dipping for some time. Once I even stopped for about 6 months. I never quit though, because I wanted to dip. I loved it. I always started back up though because I love dip, and wanted to be a dipper. In the back of my head I would tell myself I would quit for good at some point, but I knew that would happen when I wanted to quit.
I did not want to quit dipping, so I switched to Skoal cherry. Thought that would do it. I started to dip more. I always had a dip in. I could guzzle water, or whatever I was drinking with a dip in. I could eat with a dip in. I only took it out to sleep.
On May 26, 2014 I woke up and did not have a fresh tin on me. I said this will be the day I quit, knowing that if I was going to quit, I would want to quit. Started jonesin for a dip. Almost got in the car to go get a tin. Then I found this site.
That's when I realized that if I was going to quit, I need to want to quit. This site helped me to that realization. Yes, I am an addict, the addiction made me want to do it, but ultimately I chose to do it. I really do not buy into the crap that addicts cannot help themselves. It is a choice, we exercise our own choices with our own consequences. It's not as if I had someone pointing a gun at my head saying put another fat ball in your mouth. I chose to put one in.
Right now on Day 9, I am choosing to not dip. Instead I chose to polish off a bag of mini Reeses cups. As soon as I hit day 100, I will be posting support on the most recent roll calls every day. If I do not, that is because I chose to dip and I know someone will kick me in the ass via text.
THANK YOU
Thanks for sharing your story Dan. This has so many similarities to my story that it's hard to find a good place to start. First and the most ridiculous similarity is the thought that dipping was cool to do. Not only cool to do, but let's encourage others to do it also so that we can feel better about what we're doing to ourselves because "everybody else I know does it too." Like you I started it amongst my friends, and probably like you, I'm the first to quit.
I have more to live for than dipping, but that's all I was living for when I was under the sway of the nic. No longer does it control me, because I won't let it.
Glad to be quit with you and proud to call myself a Sultan with you. Quit on bro.
We all had the lies back when we used. It seduced us to thinking it was cool, that is was ok, but all it did was have us provide for it. All it did was just add to our problems.
But now that you have made that final decision, you will never regret making it. You will go through the ups and downs as we all have, so hang on as if someone like me and many others can do it, so can you.
Reach out whenever you feel low, down, challenged, or even when you are feeling good. All that you write for yourself and others will end up helping someone. It may be you, it may be someone else. Remember reaching out is not weak but it is the smartest thing you can do.
Now keep honoring that word that you give daily. You can do this. I am right there with you.
SirDerek - yell if you need
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You gotta learn to hate the very thing you used to love. The only good thing that comes from dip is ....... Well there isn't a damn good thing about it. All it does is line the pockets of UST.
Post roll daily
Honor your word
Be active in the KTC community
That's the price of admission.
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Good Morning Quitters,
I am oconnordan and I am on quit day 9. Did not get my intro done until now, but first a huge thank you to the folks who keep this site going, by September quit group, and KDLForever who keeps on texting me. Now for the intro....
I started dipping around age 14, as a freshman at a boarding school. It was everywhere there. The school even spent a lot of time talking about it, scaring you out of it, and educating you about it, but put 400 athletically incined boys together for weeks on end and dip is gong to be everywhere.
By the time I was 15, I was dipping Copenhagen Snuff, and was dipping a lot of it for a 15 year old kid at a boarding school where they watch you all the time. About a can every 2-3 days. I loved it, I loved dipping, I loved being a dipper.
By the time I got to college I was dipping a bit more frequently. A tin every 2 days, perhaps every day. I loved it even more. Got my buddies into it too. I was athletic, good looking, popular. I didn't need to hide dipping. I loved this frickin shit, it was awesome. I on the other hand was a douchebag. After meeting a girl for the evening, I would throw the fattest one in just so I would get kicked out, go home, to dip some more with my roommates. I was a leader amongst the student body and admired by the administration, I flaunted them all and would show up to preside over student body meetings with a fat ball in my lip.
I dipped all the time, could't waste time with a spitter, would just swallow that crap because it was awesome.
Got married, kept dipping because I loved to. Wife would nag, I stopped flaunting in, and started to hide my dipping around her.
Became more successful in my career. Started to get paid to speak to groups about my expertise. Who gives a shit about that, I would speak to groups as large as 500 with a fat ball in.
Had two kids. Would think I should quit, I like them, want to stick around. But no, I fucking love dip. I am a dipper, and I WANT to be a dipper. I'm dipping a tin or more a day now.
Had a few stints of not dipping for some time. Once I even stopped for about 6 months. I never quit though, because I wanted to dip. I loved it. I always started back up though because I love dip, and wanted to be a dipper. In the back of my head I would tell myself I would quit for good at some point, but I knew that would happen when I wanted to quit.
I did not want to quit dipping, so I switched to Skoal cherry. Thought that would do it. I started to dip more. I always had a dip in. I could guzzle water, or whatever I was drinking with a dip in. I could eat with a dip in. I only took it out to sleep.
On May 26, 2014 I woke up and did not have a fresh tin on me. I said this will be the day I quit, knowing that if I was going to quit, I would want to quit. Started jonesin for a dip. Almost got in the car to go get a tin. Then I found this site.
That's when I realized that if I was going to quit, I need to want to quit. This site helped me to that realization. Yes, I am an addict, the addiction made me want to do it, but ultimately I chose to do it. I really do not buy into the crap that addicts cannot help themselves. It is a choice, we exercise our own choices with our own consequences. It's not as if I had someone pointing a gun at my head saying put another fat ball in your mouth. I chose to put one in.
Right now on Day 9, I am choosing to not dip. Instead I chose to polish off a bag of mini Reeses cups. As soon as I hit day 100, I will be posting support on the most recent roll calls every day. If I do not, that is because I chose to dip and I know someone will kick me in the ass via text.
THANK YOU
Nice quit going Dan, keep quitting like fuck every day! You've got my digits if you need them. Thanks for the intro, I've been waiting for one since your first day on the site!!
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great intro 9/14 brother. Good to know a little more about you. NNT!
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You'll find that so many of our stories are the same, though we all come from totally different parts of the country different backgrounds.
Get to know your quit group.
Post roll every day keep your promise. Track your milestones be proud of your accomplishments!!
Congrats on day 9!
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Your story sounds so much like mine, i am only 21 and i was almost exactly like you when you were in college in your story. I can relate, im in your quit group and if you need anything feel free to give me a holler!
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Great intro! You know what my addict brain caught though? Your line about switching to Skoal Cherry, and my irrational defense of my former brand being a step down from Cope.
So after 93 days or not having a whiff of Skoal Cherry, and 63 days of no nicotine, I am ready to be pissed off about an imagined slight of cancer dirt brands. How fucked up is my addicted brain?
Thank you for your intro oconnordan, as it shows me that the fight is every damn day, and the day I don't fight is the day I cave. You made my quit stronger today.
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Love the intro Oconnordan! When I came here 79 days ago I thought I was the only executive who would attend any meeting with a dip in. Turns out none of our stories are unique. We have all been there and done that in one way or another. Congrats on Day 9 keep up the good work. There will be times when it is easy and times when it will suck so be prepared and keep your tools with you. My number is in your box I hope you use it!
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Awesome intro....
welcome to the jungle
Read, Read, Read, Read......one of the things that convinced me early that I could do this was all the testimonials from others that are getting it done with the aid of this site......it is a very simple formula.....
establish accountability thru roll call
establish an education with regard to your addiction by reading and learning
establish relationships with your quit group
establish a determination that your word is your bond....and your integrity is not for sale to big tobacco and your addiction
Take it one day at a time......do not think in terms of forever or the rest of your life.....make today....at all costs....no excuses.
Ask for help when you need it
Give help when you are asked......
You are off to an awesome start......ole mule gonna have your back and be watching you.....
you got this
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Oc - enjoyed reading your intro page. Alot of it struck a chord with me...especially being in a professional environment with a rub in. It appears you WILL be one of the 1st SULTANS to hit HOF.
Proud to quit with you and the Sultans. QLF each and every day bro-
Old ES
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Congrats on the HOF tomorrow ... you've been a SOLID quitter, worthy of the name Sultan. Enjoy the day, then start to think about re-focusing. Too many reach the HOF and become complacent. Remember it is not the end, and you are not cured ... it's just a milestone (a big one though!). Proud to quit with you every damn day, and I will continue to do so EDD!! Well done bad-ass!
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Holy Crap. Just read your intro. It is an exact replica of myself. We really are not special and unique. We are addicts. Congrats on your HOF. I am proud to quit with you any day of the week.
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Serious congratulations on the 100-day mark. Just remember this day and what it took to get here. Don't forget day 1! You are the man...solid and steadfast, every damn day. Proud to be called a Sultan with you!!
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Serious congratulations on the 100-day mark. Just remember this day and what it took to get here. Don't forget day 1! You are the man...solid and steadfast, every damn day. Proud to be called a Sultan with you!!
Gratz to you! Enjoy the day.
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Congrats on the HOF
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Congrats on the HOF
What he ^^^^ said, nice!
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100 days is great, as long as you treat it as a milepost not and end. Enjoy yourself then get back to posting. I certainly leaned on my daily roll call promise to fight off caves well beyond 100 days.
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100 days is great, as long as you treat it as a milepost not and end. Enjoy yourself then get back to posting. I certainly leaned on my daily roll call promise to fight off caves well beyond 100 days.
Congrats! I need to find a quit group......don't know where to start
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Big Congrats on the 1st of many milestones. I'll see you on roll in the morning.
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Big Congrats on the 1st of many milestones. I'll see you on roll in the morning.
Good Stuff OC. Take a moment to celebrate and then get right back to quitting! Proud of you.
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Way to lead the way today OC!
See you tomorrow for 101!
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Dan,
Sorry I missed your day yesterday.... been a bit under the weather, but noticed you came in today posting a 501! Taking this trip with you and the rest of the Sultans has been truly rewarding. Proud to be quit with you, Sir! 500, as they say, "ain't nuthin' to sneeze at!".
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Dan,
Sorry I missed your day yesterday.... been a bit under the weather, but noticed you came in today posting a 501! Taking this trip with you and the rest of the Sultans has been truly rewarding. Proud to be quit with you, Sir! 500, as they say, "ain't nuthin' to sneeze at!".
I agree ... it's been a pleasure watching you quit! Onwards!!