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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Big Sexy on January 04, 2015, 02:56:00 AM
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Hey,
I waited a few days before posting this Intro because I wasn't sure I was going to stick around, and I didn't want to waste my time (Or yours).
But.. well, here I am. Been quit for longer than I've been in years. Of course it's only 4 little ol' days but that's a BIG ASS number to me. Ad I'm damn proud of those days so far and I look forward to watching them multiple.
Not sure what I'm suppose to put on this post, so I'm shooting in the dark here.
The Name is Bryan, I'm from Southern California but moving to Tampa/Clearwater, Florida in a couple weeks. I'm 33. Been dipping on and off since I was in college. I would alternate between cigs and dip just to give my gums or lungs a break every now and again. Tobacco as a whole, effects me and really.. that's why I'm quitting. I'm tired of being burnt out, tired, exhausted and just in a fowl mood. Plus worrying about the big C is a bitch all in itself. Screw that.
So anyways, that's about it. I could write paragraph after paragraph and tell ya more about me, or you can head over to the Live Chat (Where I usually Hang Out) and say whats up. (I much prefer that). I'm just damn glad to be here and to be finally on th road to quitting for good.
IF ANY OF YOU READING THIS ARE 'THINKING' ABOUT QUITTING. DO IT. IT'S NOT AS HARD AS YOU THINK TO MAKE IT THROUGH THAT FIRST COUPLE DAYS. IT CAN BE DONE. Hit me up if you wanna talk about it.
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Hey,
I waited a few days before posting this Intro because I wasn't sure I was going to stick around, and I didn't want to waste my time (Or yours).
But.. well, here I am. Been quit for longer than I've been in years. Of course it's only 4 little ol' days but that's a BIG ASS number to me. Ad I'm damn proud of those days so far and I look forward to watching them multiple.
Not sure what I'm suppose to put on this post, so I'm shooting in the dark here.
The Name is Bryan, I'm from Southern California but moving to Tampa/Clearwater, Florida in a couple weeks. I'm 33. Been dipping on and off since I was in college. I would alternate between cigs and dip just to give my gums or lungs a break every now and again. Tobacco as a whole, effects me and really.. that's why I'm quitting. I'm tired of being burnt out, tired, exhausted and just in a fowl mood. Plus worrying about the big C is a bitch all in itself. Screw that.
So anyways, that's about it. I could write paragraph after paragraph and tell ya more about me, or you can head over to the Live Chat (Where I usually Hang Out) and say whats up. (I much prefer that). I'm just damn glad to be here and to be finally on th road to quitting for good.
IF ANY OF YOU READING THIS ARE 'THINKING' ABOUT QUITTING. DO IT. IT'S NOT AS HARD AS YOU THINK TO MAKE IT THROUGH THAT FIRST COUPLE DAYS. IT CAN BE DONE. Hit me up if you wanna talk about it.
I think you'll like Tampa 'winker'
I'm looking forward to watching the dip free days go by with ya.
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Hey,
I waited a few days before posting this Intro because I wasn't sure I was going to stick around, and I didn't want to waste my time (Or yours).
But.. well, here I am. Been quit for longer than I've been in years. Of course it's only 4 little ol' days but that's a BIG ASS number to me. Ad I'm damn proud of those days so far and I look forward to watching them multiple.
Not sure what I'm suppose to put on this post, so I'm shooting in the dark here.
The Name is Bryan, I'm from Southern California but moving to Tampa/Clearwater, Florida in a couple weeks. I'm 33. Been dipping on and off since I was in college. I would alternate between cigs and dip just to give my gums or lungs a break every now and again. Tobacco as a whole, effects me and really.. that's why I'm quitting. I'm tired of being burnt out, tired, exhausted and just in a fowl mood. Plus worrying about the big C is a bitch all in itself. Screw that.
So anyways, that's about it. I could write paragraph after paragraph and tell ya more about me, or you can head over to the Live Chat (Where I usually Hang Out) and say whats up. (I much prefer that). I'm just damn glad to be here and to be finally on th road to quitting for good.
IF ANY OF YOU READING THIS ARE 'THINKING' ABOUT QUITTING. DO IT. IT'S NOT AS HARD AS YOU THINK TO MAKE IT THROUGH THAT FIRST COUPLE DAYS. IT CAN BE DONE. Hit me up if you wanna talk about it.
I think you'll like Tampa 'winker'
I'm looking forward to watching the dip free days go by with ya.
Nice job BS (love that abbr.) on 4 days. Keep it going it's worth it and it gets a lot easier. I'm quit with ya!
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Hey,
I waited a few days before posting this Intro because I wasn't sure I was going to stick around, and I didn't want to waste my time (Or yours).
But.. well, here I am. Been quit for longer than I've been in years. Of course it's only 4 little ol' days but that's a BIG ASS number to me. Ad I'm damn proud of those days so far and I look forward to watching them multiple.
Not sure what I'm suppose to put on this post, so I'm shooting in the dark here.
The Name is Bryan, I'm from Southern California but moving to Tampa/Clearwater, Florida in a couple weeks. I'm 33. Been dipping on and off since I was in college. I would alternate between cigs and dip just to give my gums or lungs a break every now and again. Tobacco as a whole, effects me and really.. that's why I'm quitting. I'm tired of being burnt out, tired, exhausted and just in a fowl mood. Plus worrying about the big C is a bitch all in itself. Screw that.
So anyways, that's about it. I could write paragraph after paragraph and tell ya more about me, or you can head over to the Live Chat (Where I usually Hang Out) and say whats up. (I much prefer that). I'm just damn glad to be here and to be finally on th road to quitting for good.
IF ANY OF YOU READING THIS ARE 'THINKING' ABOUT QUITTING. DO IT. IT'S NOT AS HARD AS YOU THINK TO MAKE IT THROUGH THAT FIRST COUPLE DAYS. IT CAN BE DONE. Hit me up if you wanna talk about it.
I think you'll like Tampa 'winker'
I'm looking forward to watching the dip free days go by with ya.
Nice job BS (love that abbr.) on 4 days. Keep it going it's worth it and it gets a lot easier. I'm quit with ya!
Absolutely. Look forward to the numbers piling up with you guys.
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Keep plowing through the days big sexy. 4 days will become 4 weeks before you know it. Just keep doing it one day at a time. Nice intro.
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Keep plowing through the days big sexy. 4 days will become 4 weeks before you know it. Just keep doing it one day at a time. Nice intro.
Nice avatar too! Congrats on making the decision to quit. Post roll each and every day and those +1s will definitely add up quick. Some are faster and easier than others, but if I can do it, anyone can.
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ALMOST GAVE IN TODAY
I'm on day 5 now'But yesterday in the afternoon I got the craving BAD. I mean... I NEEDED a dip (Or so my brain was telling me). Man Oh Man... I was "This" close to hopping in the truck and grabbing a dip or at the very least, I wanted to bum a smoke from someone.. and you know what.. I would have to. If there was someone smoking or dipping near me today, I GUARANTEE I WOULDN'T BE HERE WRITING THIS POST. I would be offline, disappearing in a dip/cigarette haze and feeling PATHETIC about myself and the fact I had to start over. Here's a little advise; If you're new and reading this... STAY THE HELL AWAY from users. Just get gone for awhile. TRUST ME. When you're doing strong in your quit, it's easy to not use the crap.. but when you're at a weak spot and the temptation is there.. Caving is eminent.
In reality I should have leaned on my quit brothers today. I should have reached out to them via text and told them what was going on and they would have sprung into action and gotten my ass straight. I got lucky. Might not be as easy next time.
I guess the point of this post is to tell you guys who are new... Stay Strong ad Stay Away from the stuff. If someone is using around you, get away from it immediately and call or text one of us. Cause it's hard on your own. That's why these vets are all here.. helping us knuckleheads out. Something tells me they know how hard it is and it's just THAT much harder without support. So they support.
Stay Quit Brothers. Whatever It takes to stay quit do it. It's gotta be worth it.. because it sucked when we used. 'trainwreck'
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Keep plowing through the days big sexy. 4 days will become 4 weeks before you know it. Just keep doing it one day at a time. Nice intro.
Nice avatar too! Congrats on making the decision to quit. Post roll each and every day and those +1s will definitely add up quick. Some are faster and easier than others, but if I can do it, anyone can.
Thanks! Just one day at a time. It hasn't been easy, but anything worth a damn aint. So there it is. lol
Keep The Quit
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ALMOST GAVE IN TODAY
I'm on day 5 now'But yesterday in the afternoon I got the craving BAD. I mean... I NEEDED a dip (Or so my brain was telling me). Man Oh Man... I was "This" close to hopping in the truck and grabbing a dip or at the very least, I wanted to bum a smoke from someone.. and you know what.. I would have to. If there was someone smoking or dipping near me today, I GUARANTEE I WOULDN'T BE HERE WRITING THIS POST. I would be offline, disappearing in a dip/cigarette haze and feeling PATHETIC about myself and the fact I had to start over. Here's a little advise; If you're new and reading this... STAY THE HELL AWAY from users. Just get gone for awhile. TRUST ME. When you're doing strong in your quit, it's easy to not use the crap.. but when you're at a weak spot and the temptation is there.. Caving is eminent.
In reality I should have leaned on my quit brothers today. I should have reached out to them via text and told them what was going on and they would have sprung into action and gotten my ass straight. I got lucky. Might not be as easy next time.
I guess the point of this post is to tell you guys who are new... Stay Strong ad Stay Away from the stuff. If someone is using around you, get away from it immediately and call or text one of us. Cause it's hard on your own. That's why these vets are all here.. helping us knuckleheads out. Something tells me they know how hard it is and it's just THAT much harder without support. So they support.
Stay Quit Brothers. Whatever It takes to stay quit do it. It's gotta be worth it.. because it sucked when we used. 'trainwreck'
Food. Water. Shelter. These are things that we NEED to survive.
Nicotine is insanely addictive. It makes you believe that you need it, or that you need it to make life worth living. Nothing is further from the truth. There are hundreds, thousands of entries in this intro section where you can read where people are agitated beyond belief to play golf, hunt, fish, mow the yard, drive... Without nicotine. Followed by kind of shock that not only is it possible, but enjoyable. More focus can go into the act itself rather than sharing focus with an addiction.
Big Sexy, you are one of the early leaders in April 2015. A lot of addicts have their eyes on you looking to you for strength and support. You can do this. Build your network, lean on them. And win. I guarantee 100% that this will get a lot easier and that you don't need nicotine. And the pride of winning everyday is something blissful.
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Made it to a 1 week yesterday. The cravings aren't that bad, I've managed to get a hold on those (or at least I did today). The Fogginess and Spaced-Out Feeling sucks more than anything else does. Although I will say that I am starting to have little moments of clarity where I feel amazing for a short period of time.. and then I go back to being spaced out. I can feel myself getting better and the NIC Bitch losing her grip on me. Fuck That Cum Drizzling, Cracked out, fat fuck of a whore.
Actually, after dinner tonight, I didn't even have an urge to dip or use tobacco. I just finished my plate and went about my business like I had never dipped a day in my life :)... ow THAT'S progress right there.
Big Sexy
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Made it to a 1 week yesterday. The cravings aren't that bad, I've managed to get a hold on those (or at least I did today). The Fogginess and Spaced-Out Feeling sucks more than anything else does. Although I will say that I am starting to have little moments of clarity where I feel amazing for a short period of time.. and then I go back to being spaced out. I can feel myself getting better and the NIC Bitch losing her grip on me. Fuck That Cum Drizzling, Cracked out, fat fuck of a whore.
Actually, after dinner tonight, I didn't even have an urge to dip or use tobacco. I just finished my plate and went about my business like I had never dipped a day in my life :)... ow THAT'S progress right there.
Big Sexy
Nice work on your first week done and in the books. Get up tomorrow and add a +1 to that. I quit with you.
ZC
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Made it to a 1 week yesterday. The cravings aren't that bad, I've managed to get a hold on those (or at least I did today). The Fogginess and Spaced-Out Feeling sucks more than anything else does. Although I will say that I am starting to have little moments of clarity where I feel amazing for a short period of time.. and then I go back to being spaced out. I can feel myself getting better and the NIC Bitch losing her grip on me. Fuck That Cum Drizzling, Cracked out, fat fuck of a whore.
Actually, after dinner tonight, I didn't even have an urge to dip or use tobacco. I just finished my plate and went about my business like I had never dipped a day in my life :)... ow THAT'S progress right there.
Big Sexy
Nice work on your first week done and in the books. Get up tomorrow and add a +1 to that. I quit with you.
ZC
Nice job! By the way, we are having a quit meet in Savannah, GA the weekend of Feb 7. My signature has the details. You should join us. I would love to meet you.
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Made it to a 1 week yesterday. The cravings aren't that bad, I've managed to get a hold on those (or at least I did today). The Fogginess and Spaced-Out Feeling sucks more than anything else does. Although I will say that I am starting to have little moments of clarity where I feel amazing for a short period of time.. and then I go back to being spaced out. I can feel myself getting better and the NIC Bitch losing her grip on me. Fuck That Cum Drizzling, Cracked out, fat fuck of a whore.
Actually, after dinner tonight, I didn't even have an urge to dip or use tobacco. I just finished my plate and went about my business like I had never dipped a day in my life :)... ow THAT'S progress right there.
Big Sexy
Nice work on your first week done and in the books. Get up tomorrow and add a +1 to that. I quit with you.
ZC
Nice job! By the way, we are having a quit meet in Savannah, GA the weekend of Feb 7. My signature has the details. You should join us. I would love to meet you.
Sco, I will let you know. I may still be here In cali at that time.
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3 Weeks. Today marks the 21st day I've been completely Nic free. I'm not gonna lie... it's been tough and there has been a few times I almost caved, but i've stayed the course.
Today, while craving, I was toying with the thought of having "Just One". I thought to myself that there was nothing wrong with just a little cig or just one dip, And I would get back to quitting. WOW!! I couldn't believe what I was thinking. Mentally, even after 3 weeks, I was ready to abandon my quit. I wanted "just one". But I knew it couldn't be JUST ONE. That's not how it works. That "one" would lead to another 3-4 or even 5 years of using. And that's not a option.
I feel like I got a second chance by breaking the addiction, by suffering through the suck. I still can't believe I was able to break the cycle and quit tho. It's still a dream to me like it's not 100% real. I mean, this nic drug controlled me (like it does everyone). It told me I wanted another dip or another smoke right after I just had one. It was always telling me MORE MORE MORE... use MORE. I never would have thought I could break it. But I did. I'm rambling now.
I'm proud. Not just of myself, but of every single person on this site that FIGHTS and Battles Every-Fucking-Day to beat that nic bitch into the ground. Ya'll are fucking dope.
STAY QUIT!
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3 Weeks. Today marks the 21st day I've been completely Nic free. I'm not gonna lie... it's been tough and there has been a few times I almost caved, but i've stayed the course.
Today, while craving, I was toying with the thought of having "Just One". I thought to myself that there was nothing wrong with just a little cig or just one dip, And I would get back to quitting. WOW!! I couldn't believe what I was thinking. Mentally, even after 3 weeks, I was ready to abandon my quit. I wanted "just one". But I knew it couldn't be JUST ONE. That's not how it works. That "one" would lead to another 3-4 or even 5 years of using. And that's not a option.
I feel like I got a second chance by breaking the addiction, by suffering through the suck. I still can't believe I was able to break the cycle and quit tho. It's still a dream to me like it's not 100% real. I mean, this nic drug controlled me (like it does everyone). It told me I wanted another dip or another smoke right after I just had one. It was always telling me MORE MORE MORE... use MORE. I never would have thought I could break it. But I did. I'm rambling now.
I'm proud. Not just of myself, but of every single person on this site that FIGHTS and Battles Every-Fucking-Day to beat that nic bitch into the ground. Ya'll are fucking dope.
STAY QUIT!
Keep the quit up sexy....just like keep the avatars up. Hey bro, I've been here with you since you were day one and I was day 5. We climbed trough mich of this together. Keep fighting. I had the just one thoughts..knew they were bad thoughts. Thought them anyway. This stuff we quit is powerful. You know what's up and will continue to plow this quit.
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Nice quit going on here BS! No excuses to ever go back to day 1 and you know it! Keep +1ing and you will be free.
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Looking good... Real good.
You ever move to Florida?
Regarding the Quit... Always be ready the Nic B$#h is always looking, hiding, waiting to jump you. Be prepared for that moment that a decision has to be made... Keep your quit and honor your word with these great guys supporting you.
We'll done brother, I quit with you today.
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Nice quit going on here BS! No excuses to ever go back to day 1 and you know it! Keep +1ing and you will be free.
Thanks Matt. Just one day at a time
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Looking good... Real good.
You ever move to Florida?
Regarding the Quit... Always be ready the Nic B$#h is always looking, hiding, waiting to jump you. Be prepared for that moment that a decision has to be made... Keep your quit and honor your word with these great guys supporting you.
We'll done brother, I quit with you today.
Yeah, I'm headed to florida here in a few.
That nic bitch is no joke She's still whispering in my ear.
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Day 25 and I want to say that I cant Remember a time I was happier in my adult life. I'm sitting here clear headed and free from ANY addictions (That includes Nic, Pills, Meds and Alcohol). And I'm just feeling really good today. I'm running consistently and working out now. I mean, I kinda feel like I have control over my life.
Sexy
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Day 25 and I want to say that I cant Remember a time I was happier in my adult life. I'm sitting here clear headed and free from ANY addictions (That includes Nic, Pills, Meds and Alcohol). And I'm just feeling really good today. I'm running consistently and working out now. I mean, I kinda feel like I have control over my life.
Sexy
THAT'S WHAT I'M SCREAMING!!!
SEXY THAT........
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That's awesome Sexy. Glad to hear the fog has lifted. Being a few weeks ahead of you, I can tell you the pendulum does swing back the other way sometimes, but they are easier fogs to pull out of. I also think the running has helped clear my head and curbed the cravings more than anything else.
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That's awesome Sexy. Glad to hear the fog has lifted. Being a few weeks ahead of you, I can tell you the pendulum does swing back the other way sometimes, but they are easier fogs to pull out of. I also think the running has helped clear my head and curbed the cravings more than anything else.
Oh Yeah, running has played a major part in curbing the flog. I still crave it a lot too. I will be walking by someone or see something on TV and all the sudden think to myself "Damn... I REALLY want a cig right now.
It's funny though. I was at the gas station today and there was a dude packing his cigs right next to me and I wanted so badly to comment on quitting and to help him.. but I didn't. The conversation I had with him didn't really flow that way. But just thinking about talking about the quit to someone felt really cool.
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100 Days, Congrats on HOF man!
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100 Days, Congrats on HOF man!
Hey bs glad you're here! Hopefully we can do the next 100 together! Congrats!
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100 Days, Congrats on HOF man!
Hey bs glad you're here! Hopefully we can do the next 100 together! Congrats!
Congrats BS. You had to wade through a lot of crap to get to 100 and you've battled tough. Great job man. Proud to be quit with you
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Tossed it all away for what?
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Tossed it all away for what?
Oh no! Special butterfly? 100 days and you are cured? What's going on here?
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Tossed it all away for what?
Oh no! Special butterfly? 100 days and you are cured? What's going on here?
I only heard about the legend Big Sexy from DrewDrew...
He used to talk about How he wished you had stayed. He also told me about Your gf Steve haha....But DrewDrew is not here any more either. He left....then came back...then left again...
You had some dickwads in your group early on...(those are gone now)...but, way more great guys that are still here. Hopefully you'll attach yourself to them and your new group.
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Congrats on 1 year quit BS!