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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: SethB on January 13, 2014, 07:21:00 PM
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Tonight is the night I have decided I'm done. I realize this will not be an easy road considering my circumstances. I am in the Marine Corps, where everyone around me dips constantly. That is definitely one of my triggers, when someone puts a dip in that's my queue. I have been dipping for 7 years now. The reason I'm deciding to put the can down is for multiple reasons. 1) My wife is pregnant and had to stop smoking and I Promised her I would quit dipping the day she stopped smoking. Its 4 months down the road from her quitting, and I still dip. 2) I'm playing roulette with the "C" word.
I'm quitting for myself, not for anyone else. This....is going to suck.
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Tonight is the night I have decided I'm done. I realize this will not be an easy road considering my circumstances. I am in the Marine Corps, where everyone around me dips constantly. That is definitely one of my triggers, when someone puts a dip in that's my queue. I have been dipping for 7 years now. The reason I'm deciding to put the can down is for multiple reasons. 1) My wife is pregnant and had to stop smoking and I Promised her I would quit dipping the day she stopped smoking. Its 4 months down the road from her quitting, and I still dip. 2) I'm playing roulette with the "C" word.
I'm quitting for myself, not for anyone else. This....is going to suck.
Seth,
First, welcome. Second, immediately flush every tin, throw away every piece of nic gum, every patch, every cigarette, every cigar...every nicotine delivery method. This site is ZERO NICOTINE. Third, go to the Welcome Center tab above and follow the directions. We expect you to Post Roll tomorrow morning. It is a sacred responsibility. Read everything you can on this site, and get your quit on now!
ZillahCowboy
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Tonight is the night I have decided I'm done. I realize this will not be an easy road considering my circumstances. I am in the Marine Corps, where everyone around me dips constantly. That is definitely one of my triggers, when someone puts a dip in that's my queue. I have been dipping for 7 years now. The reason I'm deciding to put the can down is for multiple reasons. 1) My wife is pregnant and had to stop smoking and I Promised her I would quit dipping the day she stopped smoking. Its 4 months down the road from her quitting, and I still dip. 2) I'm playing roulette with the "C" word.
I'm quitting for myself, not for anyone else. This....is going to suck.
Seth,
First, welcome. Second, immediately flush every tin, throw away every piece of nic gum, every patch, every cigarette, every cigar...every nicotine delivery method. This site is ZERO NICOTINE. Third, go to the Welcome Center tab above and follow the directions. We expect you to Post Roll tomorrow morning. It is a sacred responsibility. Read everything you can on this site, and get your quit on now!
ZillahCowboy
Welcome. Here's a new queue to take from US.
Don't dip today.
You are right when you say it's gonna suck, because it will, but not forever.
In the grand scheme of things this will be a small snapshot of suck in your life. It will be worth it to spend as much time as possible with your new baby.
7 years is long enough. Time to suck it up and get your freedom back.
You fight for ours, now fight for yours.
GET THIS
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Seth,
Isn't it amazing that you can walk away from 13 weeks of USMC boot camp, but can't graduate snuff after 7 years...
I'm retired military working in a business office environment, and a closet dipper (Copenhagen, 31 years, never missed a day).
I'm on day 9 now, thanks to this group. I'll tell you, day 2 was the worst for me, I wanted to cut my head off to make it stop. The nicotine is out of your system after 72 hours, then it's a war between you and your brain. Stay busy, focus on the life around you and try not to allow for too much down-time.
I spend my down-time telling Copenhagen to go fuck itself for hooking me via a good-intentioned high-school friend. I forgave the friend...
My wake-up call was swollen lymph nodes (neck). We've all seen the pictures of that guy with no esophagus, no tongue, no lower jaw, etc. I woke up 2 weeks ago convinced I was that guy.
Don't become that guy. Never allow yourself to use the term "C word". It's fucking cancer and cancer caused by nicotine delivery systems takes no prisoners. There is no remission with snuff-induced cancer. The price is your head, or at least some major chunks of it. Imagine life without a tongue. Now suck on that chew.
You will do this. Day 4 is break-through. You beat the physical part, now you have to fight your brain rewiring itself. This family of quitters is my salvation and to a greater extent, salvation for my wife and daughter, who won't have to suffer for my lack of discipline.
You're in now. There's no turning back, brother.
Gernjer
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Seth,
I can understand your pain man, I too am in an environment where it is conducive to dipping. I'll also tell you that you are not the first nor the last that will be in the same boat. The amazing thing about KTC is that almost every angle or dip story you can imagine is on here. All of us have been in your shoes and because of that you need to listen to the quitters on here brother. I am only 55 days in now but it wasn't easy and still isn't. That said, it is doable for all of us, if you want it. Don't worry about the future, worry about the day, the moment. Get through that and it will get just a shade easier each day. Just always remember you are an addict and as such you can't just have one, there is no such thing as one for an addict.
Read everything you can on here. Join your quit group, post roll and get your quit on. You need anything shoot me a PM I am on daily. Congrats to the best decision you will make this year and possibly for your life!
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What I would give to have started my quit when my kids were born. Seth, poke around on this site and you'll learn the stories of how much time, we dippers, wasted finding ways to avoid family so we could go feed our addiction. All that time we could have been spending with our kids, spouses, loved ones. It's absolutely pathetic. Do yourself a huge ass favor and commit to this site and it's creed. Post roll every day, learn as much as you can about your quit, embrace the suck, and quit with us. You do this and we'll be quitting with you like it's our job.
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What I would give to have started my quit when my kids were born. Seth, poke around on this site and you'll learn the stories of how much time, we dippers, wasted finding ways to avoid family so we could go feed our addiction. All that time we could have been spending with our kids, spouses, loved ones. It's absolutely pathetic. Do yourself a huge ass favor and commit to this site and it's creed. Post roll every day, learn as much as you can about your quit, embrace the suck, and quit with us. You do this and we'll be quitting with you like it's our job.
Wow, is that ^^^^ ever the truth. I waited till my grandkids were born. I missed my daughter growing up because I spent my time with that damn can of Copenhagen. It does suck for awhile but I promise the time comes that you don't fight the whore daily. At 653 days I occasionally have fleeting thoughts of feeding my addiction and then i say f'ck it, I'm not gonna do that again. Thanks for your service and congrats on hitting the egg and also your decision to quit. Don't miss roll and read all you can.
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Tonight is the night I have decided I'm done. I realize this will not be an easy road considering my circumstances. I am in the Marine Corps, where everyone around me dips constantly. That is definitely one of my triggers, when someone puts a dip in that's my queue. I have been dipping for 7 years now. The reason I'm deciding to put the can down is for multiple reasons. 1) My wife is pregnant and had to stop smoking and I Promised her I would quit dipping the day she stopped smoking. Its 4 months down the road from her quitting, and I still dip. 2) I'm playing roulette with the "C" word.
I'm quitting for myself, not for anyone else. This....is going to suck.
Hellacious decision man! That is done in KTC style. None for today!!! It is going to hard for you man. A dipping environment will be hard to break away from, but you gotta tell everyone around you you've had it with the dip! They should respect that and if not tell 'em to fuck off(unless they are a superior officer). Many of us here don't live in your environment but we are there for you.
Great decision quitting!!! Embrace the suck of it all. It will help you to stay quit today!!!
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Tonight is the night I have decided I'm done. I realize this will not be an easy road considering my circumstances. I am in the Marine Corps, where everyone around me dips constantly. That is definitely one of my triggers, when someone puts a dip in that's my queue. I have been dipping for 7 years now. The reason I'm deciding to put the can down is for multiple reasons. 1) My wife is pregnant and had to stop smoking and I Promised her I would quit dipping the day she stopped smoking. Its 4 months down the road from her quitting, and I still dip. 2) I'm playing roulette with the "C" word.
I'm quitting for myself, not for anyone else. This....is going to suck.
Hellacious decision man! That is done in KTC style. None for today!!! It is going to hard for you man. A dipping environment will be hard to break away from, but you gotta tell everyone around you you've had it with the dip! They should respect that and if not tell 'em to fuck off(unless they are a superior officer). Many of us here don't live in your environment but we are there for you.
Great decision quitting!!! Embrace the suck of it all. It will help you to stay quit today!!!
first and foremost thank you for your service. military is a certain breed just like ktc.. you'll fit in nicely.. yes it will suq, but it will turn you into a person you didn't know existed. post roll, keep your word, and the transition will take care of itself. remember tobacco = suicide.. we're stronger than that.
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Great choice, Seth! And thanks for your service. You can do this. Quitting is done one day at a time. Don't think about tomorrow, next week, next year or whatever...we'll deal witht them when they get here. All we need to focus on is getting through today...this five minutes. And anybody can go five minutes, right?
One quick word about the "this is gonna suck" attitude. Like anything else, your attitude will largely determine your success. Don't feel bad...almost every new quitter has that attitude. Let me suggest that you get tough and turn the tables on the Nic Bitch. How? Realize that everyday of freedom is reason to celebrate. Think about the night before Chrismas? Did you think, oh man tomorrow is gonna suck? Hell no you didn't. You were pumped. And all you probably got was a bunch crap you didn't want...you know, socks and underwear?!!
Now, you're now giving yourself freedom. You're getting your life back. If you were excited about socks and underwear, you should be fist-pumping in the air about this. YOU'RE FREE!!! You are calling the shots now.
Yes, you'll have a headache, constipation, sleeplessness, anxiety, etc. Those are reminders of the miserable prison cell you made for yourself. But they are also the feeling of healing, brother!!! Do you want to go back and get in your cell? FUCK NO!!! Nobody gets free for the asking....you gotta earn it. Embrace those symptoms...they are the first steps to your new life of freedom!!!
You got this. Just post roll, read all you can, and repeat. You can do this, brother!
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This is already an awesome thread and it's only day 1 for you Seth. Glad to see you posted roll this morning. Make sure you read all the stuff you can in the Welcome Center so you know the rationale behind posting roll, too. Pretty powerful stuff.
As a man of honor (I'm assuming anyway as it doesn't appear you've been shit-canned by your CO yet), you post that word that you will not use. That word is ironclad. Every day you post that promise and you keep it, you're throwing a Degeneration-X SUCK IT at the nic bitch.
You've got this thing man. Worry only about your battle with TODAY. You can't do anything about your yesterdays or your tomorrows. Win today.
Finally, reach out to members of your group. You have some bad ass quitters in there already and they'll hook you up with all the support you'll need to whip this thing. Congrats on the baby and to your wife for quitting as well. PM if you need another set of digits for your network.