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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: greg916 on April 29, 2013, 06:31:00 AM
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I am the poster child for it take only one. Do not fall for it, ever.
43 years old, 25 year addiction (not habit, I have been reading, but that is hard to say) Kodiak, Skoal longcut, bandits, then Swedish snus during a two year stint in Sweden, and camel snus. Literally the only times I would not have one in was sleep, sex, and teeth brushing.
I quit on my 40th birthday. Really quit. Three years. Would still have massive cravings out of the blue, missed having that pouch in my upper lip, would have fucking dreams about dipping...three years on. But, have two sons now and I had quit. Right up until the day in January that I had to put my 14 year old Golden Retriever down.
Cannot tell you why I bought that tin on the way to the vet but I did. Finished that tin that week and said "well there you go, nice to have a little taste and no problem." The door had been opened and I bought the next tin a week and a half later.
Spent the next four months hiding my from my wife most importantly but also my friends family, co-workers, everybody throwing one in on the way to work, only using at the office, etc. Felt guilty the whole time, felt weak and irresponsible the whole time but goddamn do I like tobacco. Read somewhere else on here that it gave one guy the sense on invincibility. That is exactly right. I'm cool as frosty with a dip in. Not so cool when I broke my own rule and threw one in on Saturday while out with friends and family. Just a quick one, tastes good with beer, no one will notice. Wrong.
I lied to my wife, something I never thought I would ever do. I have a lot of work to do to restore that trust and I hope she will forgive me. Her statement, "you lied to me every time you put one in" will stick with me for awhile.
Found the site yesterday, wish I had found it three years ago. I quit. Time to post roll.
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I am the poster child for it take only one. Do not fall for it, ever.
43 years old, 25 year addiction (not habit, I have been reading, but that is hard to say) Kodiak, Skoal longcut, bandits, then Swedish snus during a two year stint in Sweden, and camel snus. Literally the only times I would not have one in was sleep, sex, and teeth brushing.
I quit on my 40th birthday. Really quit. Three years. Would still have massive cravings out of the blue, missed having that pouch in my upper lip, would have fucking dreams about dipping...three years on. But, have two sons now and I had quit. Right up until the day in January that I had to put my 14 year old Golden Retriever down.
Cannot tell you why I bought that tin on the way to the vet but I did. Finished that tin that week and said "well there you go, nice to have a little taste and no problem." The door had been opened and I bought the next tin a week and a half later.
Spent the next four months hiding my from my wife most importantly but also my friends family, co-workers, everybody throwing one in on the way to work, only using at the office, etc. Felt guilty the whole time, felt weak and irresponsible the whole time but goddamn do I like tobacco. Read somewhere else on here that it gave one guy the sense on invincibility. That is exactly right. I'm cool as frosty with a dip in. Not so cool when I broke my own rule and threw one in on Saturday while out with friends and family. Just a quick one, tastes good with beer, no one will notice. Wrong.
I lied to my wife, something I never thought I would ever do. I have a lot of work to do to restore that trust and I hope she will forgive me. Her statement, "you lied to me every time you put one in" will stick with me for awhile.
Found the site yesterday, wish I had found it three years ago. I quit. Time to post roll.
It sounds like you're off to a good start with reading around, and more importantly posting roll. You learned that the nic bitch will never leave you alone, but instead grow weaker as your quit grows stronger. That's a valuable lesson. You've learned you're dealing with a strong addiction. That's a valuable lesson. But, who are you quitting for? It sounds like your wife and friends. You do this for yourself, sure, have them around for support and motivation, but this quit is yours brother, fucking own it. Do you fully understand posting roll? What it means? Why we making that daily promise? It's your word Greg, and placing your name on roll is you signing a contract not to use today. Everyday you post roll early, your addicted mind can't quit for a week, but today? Easy.
Let me ask you something...did putting that dip on the way to the vet help anything?
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Dive in and drink the kool-aid! This site works but it takes work to stay quit.
Relationships will heal over time with time the operative word
Saw your post in Aug already- outstanding
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Cbird. Thanks.
Bruce, I kind of expected someone to ask that question and, believe me, this is for me. I love my wife, I love my kids, and friends. But make no mistake they are (albeit important) bystanders here.
I will not be owned or defined by this addiction. Period.
To answer your question, did that dip on the way to the Vet help anything? Nope, not a damn thing.
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Cbird. Thanks.
Bruce, I kind of expected someone to ask that question and, believe me, this is for me. I love my wife, I love my kids, and friends. But make no mistake they are (albeit important) bystanders here.
I will not be owned or defined by this addiction. Period.
To answer your question, did that dip on the way to the Vet help anything? Nope, not a damn thing.
Always remember your words brother quit for you and let them enjoy the new better nicotine free you!
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Cbird. Thanks.
Bruce, I kind of expected someone to ask that question and, believe me, this is for me. I love my wife, I love my kids, and friends. But make no mistake they are (albeit important) bystanders here.
I will not be owned or defined by this addiction. Period.
To answer your question, did that dip on the way to the Vet help anything? Nope, not a damn thing.
You really Love it? Do you make sweet love to your tin? Do you buy your tin flowers and candy on Valentine's day? How can you love something that does not love you back? In fact while you "love it", its literally enslaving you and trying to kill you. When you stopped for 3 years, sounds like you still really loved/missed it? Even now, your intentions to quit sound pure but you still speak foundly about it .
My advice is to stop with the fallacy that you LOVE tobacco and that it makes you "invincible". Give me a fucking break on that one.
At some point, to really quit, not STOP for 3 years you need to wake the fuck up and stop giving the shit so much credit and build up some HATE for it.
I'm pretty sure if you thought logically and sat down and made a list of "reasons to love" and "reasons to hate"...the hate list would be longer.
I know this is easier said than done, because I struggled with it as well.
But once I took a big step back and really looked at what tobacco did for me, or more like too me...I truly did start to hate it.
That hate, if real, can carry you through tough times of your quit. Those weak moments where you think a lip full of cancer cud will ease any stress, pain, boredom, or make you cool as frosty.
It can't. Its all one big lie. Nobody loves a liar. You don't need that shit...you never did.
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Cbird. Thanks.
Bruce, I kind of expected someone to ask that question and, believe me, this is for me. I love my wife, I love my kids, and friends. But make no mistake they are (albeit important) bystanders here.
I will not be owned or defined by this addiction. Period.
To answer your question, did that dip on the way to the Vet help anything? Nope, not a damn thing.
Always remember your words brother quit for you and let them enjoy the new better nicotine free you!
Hopefully you realize that one more is never enough and 1000 is never enough. It is not possible for me and you to just have one. There is nothing to like (love) about it. All it has done is take. It has taken our integrity, time, money and most of all our freedom. Not one good thing have we received from the nic bitch. I,m glad to be quit with you, lets take back what is rightfully ours. Need anything pm me.
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Your situation is scary close to mine bro. I'm 42, dipped for 25 years, 2 cans a day for far too long. Time to grow up. Time to quit using our hard earned money to kill ourselves. Man, I feel you! You got this man! Glad to hear your story and see you here. Listen to the vets, read, educate yourself, reach out to folk. I'm 14 days quit today and I quit with you too! Quit on bro! If you need anything PM me... More than happy to help
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All our stories parallel eachother in some form or another the biggest part is to recognize that you are an addict it may be legal (why it is is beyond me) you like me are still an addict just one pinch and we are probably all on a downward spiral. I am only 15 days into my quit if you need my number PM me. Post roll read as much as you can keep the site close lean on people here for support. I am very glad I had everyone here on my first weekend quit I was an extremely nasty animal to be around...they picked me up gave advice kicked my ass a bit to remind me that my family and friends are not responsible for me being and addict. Stay quit today we quit together.
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Traumagnet and AJ, back at you bros. Anything I can do to help, I am happy to exchange numbers.
No chance of failure today but, no lie, day 3 has sucked.
Keep on quittin'.
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Traumagnet and AJ, back at you bros. Anything I can do to help, I am happy to exchange numbers.
No chance of failure today but, no lie, day 3 has sucked.
Keep on quittin'.
The first few days are called the suck, embrace that shit.
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Traumagnet and AJ, back at you bros. Anything I can do to help, I am happy to exchange numbers.
No chance of failure today but, no lie, day 3 has sucked.
Keep on quittin'.
The first few days are called the suck, embrace that shit.
No shit the suck can be a bitch! For me I'll never forget days 6-8 I was a mad pissed off ass. I got into it with Bruce and every time I see his name on a post I remember the suck and what I went through. I sure as hell don't want to ever have to repeat any of that!!!
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Traumagnet and AJ, back at you bros. Anything I can do to help, I am happy to exchange numbers.
No chance of failure today but, no lie, day 3 has sucked.
Keep on quittin'.
The first few days are called the suck, embrace that shit.
No shit the suck can be a bitch! For me I'll never forget days 6-8 I was a mad pissed off ass. I got into it with Bruce and every time I see his name on a post I remember the suck and what I went through. I sure as hell don't want to ever have to repeat any of that!!!
You can do it Greg! Don't let the Nic Bitch win...whispering sweet nothing's in your ear.....Right to your death. I quit with you tomorrow!
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Traumagnet and AJ, back at you bros. Anything I can do to help, I am happy to exchange numbers.
No chance of failure today but, no lie, day 3 has sucked.
Keep on quittin'.
The first few days are called the suck, embrace that shit.
No shit the suck can be a bitch! For me I'll never forget days 6-8 I was a mad pissed off ass. I got into it with Bruce and every time I see his name on a post I remember the suck and what I went through. I sure as hell don't want to ever have to repeat any of that!!!
You can do it Greg! Don't let the Nic Bitch win...whispering sweet nothing's in your ear.....Right to your death. I quit with you tomorrow!
Greg hey man congrats on double digits! I am proud to be quit with you man! We will congratulating one another on tripple digits before you know it, keep the promise one day at a time!
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Hey Greg just looked at your roll post you are at 10 nice one day at a time I quit with you today...
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Thanks Trau. Thanks Erussel. Day 15. Bring it.
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Thanks Trau. Thanks Erussel. Day 15. Bring it.
NICE!!!
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Erussell post on May 8th
(Greg hey man congrats on double digits! I am proud to be quit with you man! We will congratulating one another on tripple digits before you know it, keep the promise one day at a time!)
Look man you made it! Your spot on the train is a special one. Just remember we are still ODAAT and NAFAR. I am so proud if you today. I could read the pride in your text his am. Have a hell of a day an I will see you back first thing in the am. I quit with you Brother.