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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Macamania on June 10, 2015, 10:25:00 AM
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I have went to sleep several nights in the past month and woke up thinking that I was done. Then before breakfast I would already have a dip. Nothing like the smell and taste of the wintergreen Copenhagen. For a few days, I would try to only dip after meals. That's good in theory, however I would just keep the dip in longer. I dip first thing in the morning, after breakfast, before bed, while doing ANYTHING, and any time between. This is going to make me miserable before it makes me feel better. I feel like Vadar on a spree. That's why I used his picture for motivation. Hopefully I will have Yoda before long. But until then, I'm just going to try my best not to put my foot up someone's ass today.
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Welcome to Day 1! You can do it!
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I myself was a 30 year dipper, 2 cans a day. Stick with it. It only gets better
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The attitude you have when you start anything largely determines the result. You gotta get the right attitude. And telling us how you love your stupid fucking wintershit ain't it.
There is nothing "miserable" about living free. This is about life and death. "Nothing like the smell and taste..." Really? I bet it doesn't taste all that great when you have your tongue and jaw removed? I bet it doesn't smell so good when you are in the hospital telling those who love you the most your final goodbye's.
That glamorizing bullshit is addict-speak. (That's okay...I thought the same thing). That's Pavlov's dog type reasoning. What you liked is that it signaled that you were about to get your fix. THAT is what addicts crave. (We were all as dumb as Pavlov's dog).
But you can learn to control your addiction. But first, you gotta learn to hate it. Lean how and why we post roll. Then do it...everyday. Read everything you can on this site. Quitting is done ONE DAY AT A TIME.
YOU CAN DO THIS. POST ROLL AND LIVE FREE!!!
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Your introduction describes what it is like to have an addiction, but you never use the word 'addict' in your introduction. I think you will come to terms faster with the challenge of quitting if you will admit to yourself that you are an addict to nicotine. Until you recognize that your problem is an addiction, which you will always have, I am concerned about your quit.
I quit with you today.
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Hey mac, we don't do a whole lot of patting on the but and say it's ok to romanticize about dip. No my friend we don't have a problem telling you if it sounds like shit it's probably shit! If you're serious about this, sign up and you will get some badass support! You better be ready that nic bitch you love so much will make your life miserable for awhile! Hope you're a little pissed, it helps beat this. Mr bean is one badass quitter, keep him on your speed dial! Learn to post roll and let's begin this process! I quit with you today!
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It's a tough road but worth every minute of it. "embrace it" is what we say here. It means you are healing. Post roll everyday, read up as much as possible, and get involved. You do those things and you'll have a great chance at beating the nic.
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Thank you all for the encouragement and kick in the ass "Bean". I've done this shit before! I'm doing it again! I'm fucking tired of waking up thinking today is the day, only to go straight to the store. And your right, I am an addict. In my line of work I am around meth, heroine, and crack addicts regularly. None of us are any different than them. We like to think we are better because we have jobs and don't steal to support our addiction, but we are addicted. Note that I didn't say I am around drug addicts, because I am one. WE ALL ARE! Would it be easier for us to quit if we were arrested for it? Maybe, but Probably not!!!
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Post roll, read and repeat. That's all there is to it.
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I feel like Day 3 might be my turn around point. Suddenly I don't feel like using the dark side of the force to extinguish the rebels. Looks like I may have to include a cup of coffee in my mornings though. I have never been a coffee drinker, but that stuff is the bomb!
I was thinking things might get worse when the NIC BITCH is out of my veins.
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I feel like Day 3 might be my turn around point. Suddenly I don't feel like using the dark side of the force to extinguish the rebels. Looks like I may have to include a cup of coffee in my mornings though. I have never been a coffee drinker, but that stuff is the bomb!
I was thinking things might get worse when the NIC BITCH is out of my veins.
Hello mac.....it will get worse. It will down right suck a bag full of you know what. But then it will get better.so much better. It is so worth the suck that you'll go through. Remember this feeling and never have to go through it again. Get involved with your group and share your digits with as many people as you can. Your brothers will help you through the tough times if you will let them. Im gonna quit with you today.....be strong and repeat tommorow.
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It's Saturday. Daughter is playing softball all day. This is going to be the test boys! Dip all around me. I'm thinking after today, the next ball day won't be so bad. I'm just tired of feeling like someone is constantly scratching a chalk board.
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You got this!
Hang in there, that s*t is nasty bro.
Baseball/Softball and chew DO NOT go together!
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When you quit...really quit, it doesn't matter how much dip you see around you. You can't hide from seeing dip at the gas station, in peoples pockets, right in front of you. Get used to it, embrace the fact and move on. The fight you have is internal. Either you are going to face down every crave and not throw something in your mouth that you have promised not to, or you are going to cave. The craves are going to jump your ass whether you see dip or not. After time you'll feel sorry when you see dippers, not envious. Keep driving, after 1-2 weeks it gets easier.
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I made it guys. Thanks for the encouragement. I used fake dip a lot today, but I swear that I can see doing this without that bitch controlling me. Funny you should say that I will feel sorry for the dippers. Because I told myself that I will be clean the next time we are at the field, and they won't be.
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7 days quit, and I feel pretty good. I have been using seeds and fake dip though. I'll be glad when I don't need something in my mouth all of the time.
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7 days quit, and I feel pretty good. I have been using seeds and fake dip though. I'll be glad when I don't need something in my mouth all of the time.
You got this.
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I was inspired by Gremlin to write this, because I believe this may help future quitters. I have used tobacco in some form for the past 25 years. It was never uncommon for me to have a dip and cigarette at the same time. Like everyone else, I didn't plan on being a 25 year user. I haven't had a cigarette in several years, I was just 100% wintergreen dip for probably the past 15.
For the past few months I would wake up every morning and decide this was the day to quit. Then I would eat breakfast, brush my teeth, grab a dip and shower. Probably did that for a month, my will power wouldn't last 10 minutes.
Then one day I went to work. A coworker said he quit dipping. I said I had been trying myself. He then suggested I check out this website. That night I ran out of dip and decided I was done. I went to work the following day and said it was my first full day with no dip. Again, he mentioned this website. I couldn't see how a website could help with the inevitable internal turmoil that I must face, but I got on board really fast.
(Day 1) was really hard for me. The oral fixation was probably the worst. After lunch I instinctively reached for my can. I did this several times, telling myself there was nothing there. It was like I was on autopilot. I bought gum, seeds, and anything else I could stuff in my mouth. But my biggest issue was anger. I felt like a volcano brewing inside. I've always kept my emotions in check, but this was a struggle for me. I made a few comments to some people, but nothing extremely bad. I do remember wanting to ram someone that passed me on the interstate, only to get in front of me and slow down. Probably the first (3 Days) was anger. I felt like my muscles were tight and slightly aching. I'm not a huge Star Wars nut, but I felt like Vader wanting to destroy everything.
(Day 2) My jaw felt like someone punched me. I swap sides, but like most I used one side more than the other. My primary side was hurting bad. It was almost as if my body was pissed because I was denying it nicotine. The my coworker told me his hurt to. His hurt longer than mine, but I would use more tobacco than him per day.
(Day 4) I took my daughter to play softball, which was all day. Everyone there dips. It was real hard, but I managed to make it through. I used a can of Smokey Mountain Wintergreen that day. The anger did begin to ease off this day.
The first 4 Days I was tired. I would go to bed early and not want to get out of bed the following morning. Around Day 5, I would go to sleep a modest time and awake within a few hours. I did that for a few days. Around Day 7, my sleep got back to normal. I also noticed I was HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY. Happier than prior to dipping. Maybe it was the satisfaction of winning or having a cleaner system.
It has been said that nicotine only last a few days in your system. So those first days were hard, but then after it was gone there was other adjustments that my body had to make. Now I just have to work on the oral fixation.
I can't say that I will never dip again. I wish I could. But I can say that it will not be tomorrow. Everyday I plan to keep that nic bitch away 'Remshot' . I can only take credit for my quit. I owe not starting back to the family I joined on this forum. We are some hard nosed sons of bitches.
I hope my rambling may help some new quitters, hit me up if I can ever help. 'Popcorn'
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Great job Mac on your 11 days brother.
And thanks for posting your story.
Many guest read these but truly it is for you.
Just another tool to be used as a journal.
One day it may just be the perfect read to help you post another +1
I quit with you and your BA Sword Swingers!
Rawls 215
Have a mod. Add this too your original intro. Fyi
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Good idea
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Mac you're doing great! I see you posting everywhere, that's awesome! Remember this is your quit and whatever it takes for you to be successful by golly do it! Keep up the good work! Damn proud to be quit with you today my friend!
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Mac you're doing great! I see you posting everywhere, that's awesome! Remember this is your quit and whatever it takes for you to be successful by golly do it! Keep up the good work! Damn proud to be quit with you today my friend!
Awesome read - thanks for writing! I quit with you today!
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Thanks for continuing this. Our experiences are so varied the more information we can get out there the better. It was great to see someone else's journey.
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Dude, that's motivating as shit. I'm staying quit tomorrow because of your story.
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Congratulations my Brother!!!! I look forward to adding up those plus one's with you!
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Happy birthday Mac! :wub:
Hope you have a special day.
Proud to quit with you today.
Thanks for keeping me distracted!
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Congrats on your 200 days!!
I see you have 2 intros.... So 2 yays!
Quit with you Mac .
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Congrats on your 200 days Mac!
Proud to quit with you today ?
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Congrats on your 200 days Mac!
Proud to quit with you today ?
Great job Mac! See you at 300!
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Congrats on your 200 days Mac!
Proud to quit with you today ?
Great job Mac! See you at 300!
Big peddle on the right pard...
Keep the Hammer down.
ODAAT
Congrats.
Rawls 405
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Mac, nice 365. Badassery.
Congrats ?
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Wow.
2 years quit.
Congrats Mac!
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Wow.
2 years quit.
Congrats Mac!
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I think some should go back and read your intro. Good stuff.
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'party2'
Happy dangle day Mac! :wub: