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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: jpetmpls on January 15, 2015, 01:25:00 PM
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Good afternoon! I'm 39 and have been using nicotine in some form or another continually for the last 21 years.
Being on only Day 4, I am obviously new to the game. However, I did want to take a few mins to introduce myself to others. Real quickly, I started smoking and chewing as a freshmen in college. Mostly smoking with the supplemental chew. This went on until I was about 33 when I decided to cut out smoking because I was getting back into regular athletics and smoking was definitely and a hindrance there. I am now 39 have chewed basically a tin of kodiak a day since I quit smoking.
First thing in the morning, first thing when I got into the office, first thing after a meal... yada, yada, yada. You all know the drill. The spark for me to quit came on a recent trip to visit my mom in FLA. I arrived later in evening Xmas Day (around 9pm or so) and cracked a beer and went to grab my kodiak. And... I couldn't find it... anywhere. Not in either of my bags, any of my pockets, not in jacket. I even searched the car on numerous occasions thinking it maybe fell out of my bag or something. I was in full freakout mode. How was I going to survive the night? At one one point, I had a few of my family members looking with me including my 14 year old niece. Eventually, I found a partial tin in my bag that had enough to get me though the night and I could reload first thing in the morning.
Not exactly a "rock bottom" story, but the point is simple. It finally became clear to me that my addiction had trumped my family, and in effect, everything else in my life. That may have been true already prior to that moment, however, I didn't pick up on it until then. Before that, it was simply an activity that often required some sort of "work around".
I appreciate the insight I've gained already from this site, forum and group of people. I'm only on day 4, but that's ok. There is no fast forward button, so I'm happy with that for today. I'll continue to post roll and please feel free to PM me re: added accountability.
Thank you.
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Good afternoon! I'm 39 and have been using nicotine in some form or another continually for the last 21 years.
Being on only Day 4, I am obviously new to the game. However, I did want to take a few mins to introduce myself to others. Real quickly, I started smoking and chewing as a freshmen in college. Mostly smoking with the supplemental chew. This went on until I was about 33 when I decided to cut out smoking because I was getting back into regular athletics and smoking was definitely and a hindrance there. I am now 39 have chewed basically a tin of kodiak a day since I quit smoking.
First thing in the morning, first thing when I got into the office, first thing after a meal... yada, yada, yada. You all know the drill. The spark for me to quit came on a recent trip to visit my mom in FLA. I arrived later in evening Xmas Day (around 9pm or so) and cracked a beer and went to grab my kodiak. And... I couldn't find it... anywhere. Not in either of my bags, any of my pockets, not in jacket. I even searched the car on numerous occasions thinking it maybe fell out of my bag or something. I was in full freakout mode. How was I going to survive the night? At one one point, I had a few of my family members looking with me including my 14 year old niece. Eventually, I found a partial tin in my bag that had enough to get me though the night and I could reload first thing in the morning.
Not exactly a "rock bottom" story, but the point is simple. It finally became clear to me that my addiction had trumped my family, and in effect, everything else in my life. That may have been true already prior to that moment, however, I didn't pick up on it until then. Before that, it was simply an activity that often required some sort of "work around".
I appreciate the insight I've gained already from this site, forum and group of people. I'm only on day 4, but that's ok. There is no fast forward button, so I'm happy with that for today. I'll continue to post roll and please feel free to PM me re: added accountability.
Thank you.
Glad you found your way over here. One of the things I like to tell new quitters is to make a list of the reasons they decided to quit. The idea behind this being that when you first decide to quit you're fueled by fire and hatred for nicotine and failure is not an option, but over time as you become more comfortable in your quit, some of that can fade. Having a list to you remind you why you quit is a great way to keep that fire burning.
I bring this up because the story you've told in your intro breathes fire to me. Whenever you feel like you might be getting an urge, come back here and read your intro and I promise you after remembering what the early days were like, caving won't be an option. If you want to, you can even treat your intro like a journal, writing in it to record every hurdle you jump.
You seem like you've got a pretty good mindset going into this so the only other advice I'm going to give you is to post roll every day, read as much as you can here, share your digits with your fellow quitters, and use those digits when you're feeling overwhelmed. You'd be surprised how helpful it is to have a constant reminder in your pocket.
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Good afternoon! I'm 39 and have been using nicotine in some form or another continually for the last 21 years.
Being on only Day 4, I am obviously new to the game. However, I did want to take a few mins to introduce myself to others. Real quickly, I started smoking and chewing as a freshmen in college. Mostly smoking with the supplemental chew. This went on until I was about 33 when I decided to cut out smoking because I was getting back into regular athletics and smoking was definitely and a hindrance there. I am now 39 have chewed basically a tin of kodiak a day since I quit smoking.
First thing in the morning, first thing when I got into the office, first thing after a meal... yada, yada, yada. You all know the drill. The spark for me to quit came on a recent trip to visit my mom in FLA. I arrived later in evening Xmas Day (around 9pm or so) and cracked a beer and went to grab my kodiak. And... I couldn't find it... anywhere. Not in either of my bags, any of my pockets, not in jacket. I even searched the car on numerous occasions thinking it maybe fell out of my bag or something. I was in full freakout mode. How was I going to survive the night? At one one point, I had a few of my family members looking with me including my 14 year old niece. Eventually, I found a partial tin in my bag that had enough to get me though the night and I could reload first thing in the morning.
Not exactly a "rock bottom" story, but the point is simple. It finally became clear to me that my addiction had trumped my family, and in effect, everything else in my life. That may have been true already prior to that moment, however, I didn't pick up on it until then. Before that, it was simply an activity that often required some sort of "work around".
I appreciate the insight I've gained already from this site, forum and group of people. I'm only on day 4, but that's ok. There is no fast forward button, so I'm happy with that for today. I'll continue to post roll and please feel free to PM me re: added accountability.
Thank you.
Glad you found your way over here. One of the things I like to tell new quitters is to make a list of the reasons they decided to quit. The idea behind this being that when you first decide to quit you're fueled by fire and hatred for nicotine and failure is not an option, but over time as you become more comfortable in your quit, some of that can fade. Having a list to you remind you why you quit is a great way to keep that fire burning.
I bring this up because the story you've told in your intro breathes fire to me. Whenever you feel like you might be getting an urge, come back here and read your intro and I promise you after remembering what the early days were like, caving won't be an option. If you want to, you can even treat your intro like a journal, writing in it to record every hurdle you jump.
You seem like you've got a pretty good mindset going into this so the only other advice I'm going to give you is to post roll every day, read as much as you can here, share your digits with your fellow quitters, and use those digits when you're feeling overwhelmed. You'd be surprised how helpful it is to have a constant reminder in your pocket.
Another MN quitter here, get to know as many people here as possible. Get to know some vets, and especially guys and gals in your month. I participate in a text group with some guys from my month and it has been a lifesaver. Any time I feel a bad crave and need a kind word or a kick in the junk someone is there. I have also made friends with many fellow quitters in the live chat. Try it out I'm in there for a little bit almost every evening. If you take advantage of all the tools ktc has to offer it can make the quit a lot easier. Welcome.
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Jp been dipping 38 years quit 19 days ago! Best thing ever done in my life! Would you agree this place could save your life? Nic bitch took 38 years from me not another day will she get I quit with you my brother!
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Good afternoon! I'm 39 and have been using nicotine in some form or another continually for the last 21 years.
Being on only Day 4, I am obviously new to the game. However, I did want to take a few mins to introduce myself to others. Real quickly, I started smoking and chewing as a freshmen in college. Mostly smoking with the supplemental chew. This went on until I was about 33 when I decided to cut out smoking because I was getting back into regular athletics and smoking was definitely and a hindrance there. I am now 39 have chewed basically a tin of kodiak a day since I quit smoking.
First thing in the morning, first thing when I got into the office, first thing after a meal... yada, yada, yada. You all know the drill. The spark for me to quit came on a recent trip to visit my mom in FLA. I arrived later in evening Xmas Day (around 9pm or so) and cracked a beer and went to grab my kodiak. And... I couldn't find it... anywhere. Not in either of my bags, any of my pockets, not in jacket. I even searched the car on numerous occasions thinking it maybe fell out of my bag or something. I was in full freakout mode. How was I going to survive the night? At one one point, I had a few of my family members looking with me including my 14 year old niece. Eventually, I found a partial tin in my bag that had enough to get me though the night and I could reload first thing in the morning.
Not exactly a "rock bottom" story, but the point is simple. It finally became clear to me that my addiction had trumped my family, and in effect, everything else in my life. That may have been true already prior to that moment, however, I didn't pick up on it until then. Before that, it was simply an activity that often required some sort of "work around".
I appreciate the insight I've gained already from this site, forum and group of people. I'm only on day 4, but that's ok. There is no fast forward button, so I'm happy with that for today. I'll continue to post roll and please feel free to PM me re: added accountability.
Thank you.
Glad you found your way over here. One of the things I like to tell new quitters is to make a list of the reasons they decided to quit. The idea behind this being that when you first decide to quit you're fueled by fire and hatred for nicotine and failure is not an option, but over time as you become more comfortable in your quit, some of that can fade. Having a list to you remind you why you quit is a great way to keep that fire burning.
I bring this up because the story you've told in your intro breathes fire to me. Whenever you feel like you might be getting an urge, come back here and read your intro and I promise you after remembering what the early days were like, caving won't be an option. If you want to, you can even treat your intro like a journal, writing in it to record every hurdle you jump.
You seem like you've got a pretty good mindset going into this so the only other advice I'm going to give you is to post roll every day, read as much as you can here, share your digits with your fellow quitters, and use those digits when you're feeling overwhelmed. You'd be surprised how helpful it is to have a constant reminder in your pocket.
Another MN quitter here, get to know as many people here as possible. Get to know some vets, and especially guys and gals in your month. I participate in a text group with some guys from my month and it has been a lifesaver. Any time I feel a bad crave and need a kind word or a kick in the junk someone is there. I have also made friends with many fellow quitters in the live chat. Try it out I'm in there for a little bit almost every evening. If you take advantage of all the tools ktc has to offer it can make the quit a lot easier. Welcome.
Good story. Great illustration of addiction. You will notice we all have similar stories. I know I do. We have the solution as well. Follow the plan.
Post. Quit. Today.
Repeat.
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Jp been dipping 38 years quit 19 days ago! Best thing ever done in my life! Would you agree this place could save your life? Nic bitch took 38 years from me not another day will she get I quit with you my brother!
Thanks and I with you!
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jp - with addicts, everyone's bottom is different, regardless of what the addiction is. It doesn't matter where your bottom was; what matters is that you found it and when you did, you made the decision to do something about it. I'm glad you did, and I quit with you today.
PM inbound.
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The key is to quit like fuck every damn day. Don't be half assed. Welcome aboard.
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Well... here we are on day 8. A while back, I would've said there is no way I can do this... go 8 hours, let alone 8 days!
Sleeping has been a bit erratic, but that's manageable. Urges come and go, but like the sleep issue, they're manageable. It's interesting now that the urges are not really physical related, but more of just a habit issue. For example, I used to wake up, stumble to the kitchen and pack a big kodiak to start my day. That urge is still pretty strong every day, but I've got two ways of fighting it.
1. I post roll within 5 mins of waking up
2. My GF sends me a text every day of "Day X!!!"
The urge passes quickly and the day gets going. I've also learned that for a long time, I wasn't really living in the moment. I've had a few social events this last week and the whole experience was different. Before, I would be focused on hiding my chew or planning how I was gonna sneak my next one and the conversations I had were really just distractions to that goal. Much different this week when talking to people, my attention and focus were much stronger. What a great feeling!
I plan to update this each week. I'm looking forward to week 2. Literally feeling better every day and hope that the sleeping starts to get a bit better!
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100% agree with the social settings, it was always a mad rush to find a corner or "cool person" to hang with while I dipped. Not any more, and never again!
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Well... here we are on day 8. A while back, I would've said there is no way I can do this... go 8 hours, let alone 8 days!
Sleeping has been a bit erratic, but that's manageable. Urges come and go, but like the sleep issue, they're manageable. It's interesting now that the urges are not really physical related, but more of just a habit issue. For example, I used to wake up, stumble to the kitchen and pack a big kodiak to start my day. That urge is still pretty strong every day, but I've got two ways of fighting it.
1. I post roll within 5 mins of waking up
2. My GF sends me a text every day of "Day X!!!"
The urge passes quickly and the day gets going. I've also learned that for a long time, I wasn't really living in the moment. I've had a few social events this last week and the whole experience was different. Before, I would be focused on hiding my chew or planning how I was gonna sneak my next one and the conversations I had were really just distractions to that goal. Much different this week when talking to people, my attention and focus were much stronger. What a great feeling!
I plan to update this each week. I'm looking forward to week 2. Literally feeling better every day and hope that the sleeping starts to get a bit better!
Completely agree with your point on social situations. I hated having to sneak out of events to chew and notice a big difference in engaging with people. Just another benefit I didn't think much about to chalk up to quitting. Keep it up!
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100% agree with the social settings, it was always a mad rush to find a corner or "cool person" to hang with while I dipped. Not any more, and never again!
Right? So effing stupid when you think about it. A college buddy of mine used to say, "Life... the shit that happens in between cigarettes". Never dawned on me until now what the REAL meaning was behind that!
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Well... here we are on day 8. A while back, I would've said there is no way I can do this... go 8 hours, let alone 8 days!
Sleeping has been a bit erratic, but that's manageable. Urges come and go, but like the sleep issue, they're manageable. It's interesting now that the urges are not really physical related, but more of just a habit issue. For example, I used to wake up, stumble to the kitchen and pack a big kodiak to start my day. That urge is still pretty strong every day, but I've got two ways of fighting it.
1. I post roll within 5 mins of waking up
2. My GF sends me a text every day of "Day X!!!"
The urge passes quickly and the day gets going. I've also learned that for a long time, I wasn't really living in the moment. I've had a few social events this last week and the whole experience was different. Before, I would be focused on hiding my chew or planning how I was gonna sneak my next one and the conversations I had were really just distractions to that goal. Much different this week when talking to people, my attention and focus were much stronger. What a great feeling!
I plan to update this each week. I'm looking forward to week 2. Literally feeling better every day and hope that the sleeping starts to get a bit better!
Completely agree with your point on social situations. I hated having to sneak out of events to chew and notice a big difference in engaging with people. Just another benefit I didn't think much about to chalk up to quitting. Keep it up!
Thanks, bud, and you too!
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100% agree with the social settings, it was always a mad rush to find a corner or "cool person" to hang with while I dipped. Not any more, and never again!
Right? So effing stupid when you think about it. A college buddy of mine used to say, "Life... the shit that happens in between cigarettes". Never dawned on me until now what the REAL meaning was behind that!
That is an incredibly powerful quote.
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100% agree with the social settings, it was always a mad rush to find a corner or "cool person" to hang with while I dipped. Not any more, and never again!
Right? So effing stupid when you think about it. A college buddy of mine used to say, "Life... the shit that happens in between cigarettes". Never dawned on me until now what the REAL meaning was behind that!
That is an incredibly powerful quote.
Hang in there my friend you're doing great! I'm having some real rage issues right now want to stomp a mud hole in anybody that looks wrong way! I'm dealing with it just walking away! Remember this nic bitch doesn't care how old or long you've been dipping you crack the door she's coming in! Proud to be quit with you my brother!
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I wasn't really living in the moment. I've had a few social events this last week and the whole experience was different. Before, I would be focused on hiding my chew or planning how I was gonna sneak my next one and the conversations I had were really just distractions to that goal.
I couldn't agree more with this statement. Keep it up jpet, every damn day.
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Your a stud for quiting....
Your a stud for figuring out roll in April.
Be a stud in helping those on the poison.
I quit with you today.
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Day 10... double digits!
If you would've told me 11 days ago I'd be here and feeling this good, there's no way I would've believed you. I try to explain the first 3 days to some people, but they just don't get it. It was honestly one of the strangest trips I've ever been on. Hindsight being 20/20, I should've taken 3 days off of work or started on a weekend. I was pretty worthless and really don't remember actually accomplishing anything. Other than NOT using any nicotine! Haha.
Seriously though, went through a few firsts this week which I haven't seen in 20+ years:
1. Morning shower without a kodiak
2. Post workout without kodiak
3. Went to a Wild game without having a kodiak
4. Pre/post dinner cocktail without a kodiak
Certainly there were others along the road, but those 4 really stand out. Definitely my biggest trigger situations, but certainly manageable. Despite my addiction, these are habitual craves that I know will weaken over time. I'm beginning to take my life back and the empowerment is indescribable. I do things when and how I want to vs. working around my addiction need. What a change in approach to life.
I appreciate the immediate support from seasoned vets to people just like me as soon as I posted. As my quit grows stronger, I look forward to helping others in the same spirit.
Thank you.
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3. Went to a Wild game without having a kodiak
Don't know if I could have done that. I used to have season tickets to the wild and that was dip central for me. I can barely make it through watching on TV let alone going to a game. Thats some Badass quit right there. Who did they play at the game you were at?
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3. Went to a Wild game without having a kodiak
Don't know if I could have done that. I used to have season tickets to the wild and that was dip central for me. I can barely make it through watching on TV let alone going to a game. Thats some Badass quit right there. Who did they play at the game you were at?
Columbus on Monday night. Shitty game. Yeah, I'm still a STH. Suffice to say, I was constantly snacking the whole way through.
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3. Went to a Wild game without having a kodiak
Don't know if I could have done that. I used to have season tickets to the wild and that was dip central for me. I can barely make it through watching on TV let alone going to a game. Thats some Badass quit right there. Who did they play at the game you were at?
Columbus on Monday night. Shitty game. Yeah, I'm still a STH. Suffice to say, I was constantly snacking the whole way through.
Welcome and welcome to the endurance thread as well.
You will learn to live life on life's terms. So, so many firsts. You will find that you love the freedom! Well done. Let me know if you need any help.
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3. Went to a Wild game without having a kodiak
Don't know if I could have done that. I used to have season tickets to the wild and that was dip central for me. I can barely make it through watching on TV let alone going to a game. Thats some Badass quit right there. Who did they play at the game you were at?
Columbus on Monday night. Shitty game. Yeah, I'm still a STH. Suffice to say, I was constantly snacking the whole way through.
Welcome and welcome to the endurance thread as well.
You will learn to live life on life's terms. So, so many firsts. You will find that you love the freedom! Well done. Let me know if you need any help.
Amen, my friend. Looking forward to them!
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3. Went to a Wild game without having a kodiak
Don't know if I could have done that. I used to have season tickets to the wild and that was dip central for me. I can barely make it through watching on TV let alone going to a game. Thats some Badass quit right there. Who did they play at the game you were at?
Columbus on Monday night. Shitty game. Yeah, I'm still a STH. Suffice to say, I was constantly snacking the whole way through.
Welcome and welcome to the endurance thread as well.
You will learn to live life on life's terms. So, so many firsts. You will find that you love the freedom! Well done. Let me know if you need any help.
Amen, my friend. Looking forward to them!
Nice job brother. Keep at it today.
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So... It's late at night and kinda fucked up. But that's cool because I'm still quit and that won't change.
I think people use ktc in different ways. For some, constant active posts/interaction is essential and the need to put others down the same path is strong. But... I think there are others who gain strength by passively participating. I feel I'm a bit of a hybrid, but probably more of a passive participator.
With that being said, I've read everything I possibly could here and am extremely thankfull because I would not be at this point without the passed down knowledge.
My day to day job is one of leadership, roughly 100 employees all younger than myself. I love teaching them about saving for the future 401k's/Roth's/etc. I look forward to the point when I can that effect a new quitter.
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So... It's late at night and kinda fucked up. But that's cool because I'm still quit and that won't change.
I think people use ktc in different ways. For some, constant active posts/interaction is essential and the need to put others down the same path is strong. But... I think there are others who gain strength by passively participating. I feel I'm a bit of a hybrid, but probably more of a passive participator.
With that being said, I've read everything I possibly could here and am extremely thankfull because I would not be at this point without the passed down knowledge.
My day to day job is one of leadership, roughly 100 employees all younger than myself. I love teaching them about saving for the future 401k's/Roth's/etc. I look forward to the point when I can that effect a new quitter.
That time will come--- you may already be helping new quitters who read what you write-- now and into the future. Plus, you're building a great quit yourself. Keep it up-- keep communicating, keep building your network for support and accountablity. Don't let the "passive" style be a copout excuse. You have to give it all, this is your one quit.
You write well, keep that up, and be sure you get pleny of numbers. PM me if you want mine. Nice work so far man!
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So... It's late at night and kinda fucked up. But that's cool because I'm still quit and that won't change.
I think people use ktc in different ways. For some, constant active posts/interaction is essential and the need to put others down the same path is strong. But... I think there are others who gain strength by passively participating. I feel I'm a bit of a hybrid, but probably more of a passive participator.
With that being said, I've read everything I possibly could here and am extremely thankfull because I would not be at this point without the passed down knowledge.
My day to day job is one of leadership, roughly 100 employees all younger than myself. I love teaching them about saving for the future 401k's/Roth's/etc. I look forward to the point when I can that effect a new quitter.
That time will come--- you may already be helping new quitters who read what you write-- now and into the future. Plus, you're building a great quit yourself. Keep it up-- keep communicating, keep building your network for support and accountablity. Don't let the "passive" style be a copout excuse. You have to give it all, this is your one quit.
You write well, keep that up, and be sure you get pleny of numbers. PM me if you want mine. Nice work so far man!
I just read your thread and it helped me. Keep it up. This place is all about helping others. Nice quit you got going on. No excuses for failure. It's not an option. Never again for any reason.
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Day 24 here...
Interesting how the battle ground can change from day to day or week to week. My new battle ground? Fatigue. It's brutal. Nicotine is a stimulant and I never realized how much I relied on it for energy. I could seriously sleep for 16 hours/day without a problem right now. I'll be pretty happy when this phase ends.
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Day 24 here...
Interesting how the battle ground can change from day to day or week to week. My new battle ground? Fatigue. It's brutal. Nicotine is a stimulant and I never realized how much I relied on it for energy. I could seriously sleep for 16 hours/day without a problem right now. I'll be pretty happy when this phase ends.
......this is winning! Even though it may not feel like it, trust me. .....this is winning!
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Day 24 here...
Interesting how the battle ground can change from day to day or week to week. My new battle ground? Fatigue. It's brutal. Nicotine is a stimulant and I never realized how much I relied on it for energy. I could seriously sleep for 16 hours/day without a problem right now. I'll be pretty happy when this phase ends.
......this is winning! Even though it may not feel like it, trust me. .....this is winning!
Hang in there brother! You will feel better than you have felt in years just takes time! Damn proud to be quit with you brother!
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Day 24 here...
Interesting how the battle ground can change from day to day or week to week. My new battle ground? Fatigue. It's brutal. Nicotine is a stimulant and I never realized how much I relied on it for energy. I could seriously sleep for 16 hours/day without a problem right now. I'll be pretty happy when this phase ends.
......this is winning! Even though it may not feel like it, trust me. .....this is winning!
Hang in there brother! You will feel better than you have felt in years just takes time! Damn proud to be quit with you brother!
There's the suck, then the fog, then the funk. What's next for us, maybe a bit of peace past 30 days?
I take it all as quit fuel, never going back to the NB her insidious temptations.
30 days in the books man, racking them up, Conrats!
Quit with you EDD!
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Well... day 30 and I jumped on quick to complain about the fatigue factor when I noticed I already complained about it 6 days ago! Not cool. It is a killer though, never experienced anything like this. I will go to work for 3-4 hours and then have to go home to take a quick nap before the 2nd half of my day. WTF? I can't even get through a day of work without drifting off.
I'm a workout freak, run marthons, etc., but right now all I want to do is eat and sleep. No cravings whatsoever though, just fatigued. It's gotta wear off at some point, right???
Sorry for the whining, but I had to let it out somewhere. 'bang head'
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Well... day 30 and I jumped on quick to complain about the fatigue factor when I noticed I already complained about it 6 days ago! Not cool. It is a killer though, never experienced anything like this. I will go to work for 3-4 hours and then have to go home to take a quick nap before the 2nd half of my day. WTF? I can't even get through a day of work without drifting off.
I'm a workout freak, run marthons, etc., but right now all I want to do is eat and sleep. No cravings whatsoever though, just fatigued. It's gotta wear off at some point, right???
Sorry for the whining, but I had to let it out somewhere. 'bang head'
That's the way to do it- log it in here. Great reference for the rest of your quit. Plus, other quitters read it and see that they aren't alone going through whatever particular symptoms they face as they learn to defeat the addiction's tricks. Keep it up! Now's a great time to be building that support and accounability network.... and soak in any good days, use them as fuel to get you through hard times. Life's changing and it's important to learn to see all the good that's coming your way. You're doing great man!
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Happy Day 37!
Haha, interesting how fast the pendulum can swing sometimes. Days 24-30... absolute shit show. It was funk like no other. All I wanted to do was sleep and eat, sleep and eat, sleep and eat. I was honestly questioning my quit. Was it worth it if I was going to feel like this for the rest of my life?
Finally then on day 31, the clouds cleared and the sky was sunny again. Energy returned, motivation was there and the workouts started up again. A big thanks to the vets who came on to the April 2015 group and posted right about that time talking about "the funk". It got the conversation going about the feelings I had and others as well. No more suffering in silence and it was clear the path would not go forever.
Quit on today, everyone!
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Happy Day 37!
Haha, interesting how fast the pendulum can swing sometimes. Days 24-30... absolute shit show. It was funk like no other. All I wanted to do was sleep and eat, sleep and eat, sleep and eat. I was honestly questioning my quit. Was it worth it if I was going to feel like this for the rest of my life?
Finally then on day 31, the clouds cleared and the sky was sunny again. Energy returned, motivation was there and the workouts started up again. A big thanks to the vets who came on to the April 2015 group and posted right about that time talking about "the funk". It got the conversation going about the feelings I had and others as well. No more suffering in silence and it was clear the path would not go forever.
Quit on today, everyone!
The new you will emerge and it will be awesome. It will be filled with freedom. I so very seldom thing about dipping or have funks triggered by the nic-bitch. Keep up the great work.
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The ol' 45'er... 6 and a half weeks and 15 lbs. later!
The cravings are very few and far between. Really, they are just a passing thought on a rare occasion. However, nicotine has another weapon in the arsenal that is trying to lure me back. Freaking weight gain. Man, I can't believe it. Monday (day 43) I hopped on to the scale and weighed in at the biggest number of my life: 205. To put that in perspective, I was about 180 at Halloween. My ideal marathon weight is about 175. Now granted, I really didn't workout through November/December/January, so the gain is not a surprise. But... the quit sure put the accelerator on this!
Fortunately the funk ended when it did. I was doing nothing for that first 30 days except eat crap food and sleep, snacking all the time and anything to keep the oral fixation at bay. I was honestly doubting this quit thinking to myself "If I'm gonna feel like this forever, what's the point?" At times I figured I substituted an $8/day nicotine addiction for a $4/day sunflower seed addiction! Again, big thanks goes out to the vets here on KTC that assured me and others that things will get better. And they certainly did.
The last 2 weeks the energy has returned, been able to get back into the workout routine and have trimmed back on the snacking. Hope to drop most of this weight by 5/9/15 as I have a 50M trail event in Indiana, my first at that distance. Certainly be much easier not hauling around 20+ extra pounds for 12+ hours. Every day starts out with 2 things: Post quit roll and post exercise roll. Starting to see and feel the quit benefits!
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The ol' 45'er... 6 and a half weeks and 15 lbs. later!
The cravings are very few and far between. Really, they are just a passing thought on a rare occasion. However, nicotine has another weapon in the arsenal that is trying to lure me back. Freaking weight gain. Man, I can't believe it. Monday (day 43) I hopped on to the scale and weighed in at the biggest number of my life: 205. To put that in perspective, I was about 180 at Halloween. My ideal marathon weight is about 175. Now granted, I really didn't workout through November/December/January, so the gain is not a surprise. But... the quit sure put the accelerator on this!
Fortunately the funk ended when it did. I was doing nothing for that first 30 days except eat crap food and sleep, snacking all the time and anything to keep the oral fixation at bay. I was honestly doubting this quit thinking to myself "If I'm gonna feel like this forever, what's the point?" At times I figured I substituted an $8/day nicotine addiction for a $4/day sunflower seed addiction! Again, big thanks goes out to the vets here on KTC that assured me and others that things will get better. And they certainly did.
The last 2 weeks the energy has returned, been able to get back into the workout routine and have trimmed back on the snacking. Hope to drop most of this weight by 5/9/15 as I have a 50M trail event in Indiana, my first at that distance. Certainly be much easier not hauling around 20+ extra pounds for 12+ hours. Every day starts out with 2 things: Post quit roll and post exercise roll. Starting to see and feel the quit benefits!
That's what it's all about brother! You can lose the weight but you can't lose cancer! I know you will drop the weight soon as it warms up you can get out. Quit on brother damn proud to be quit with you!
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Time for a little rant/vent/whatever...
I'm at day 85. Hell to the yeah and proud of it!
However, I can't lie, I feel let down. I'm still waiting for the feel good factor, benefits, positive changes, etc. to kick in. I'm 25 lbs. heavier, fatigued every single day and have little to no focus. I'm not gonna cave or jump back in. But seriously, when does the good stuff happen? Maybe there is no return on investment and perhaps my expectations were too high, but I honestly thought there would be more.
I'm really hoping this is just a late pre-hof funk and will pass, but I really am waiting for the day that I feel "better". Whatever that means.
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Time for a little rant/vent/whatever...
I'm at day 85. Hell to the yeah and proud of it!
However, I can't lie, I feel let down. I'm still waiting for the feel good factor, benefits, positive changes, etc. to kick in. I'm 25 lbs. heavier, fatigued every single day and have little to no focus. I'm not gonna cave or jump back in. But seriously, when does the good stuff happen? Maybe there is no return on investment and perhaps my expectations were too high, but I honestly thought there would be more.
I'm really hoping this is just a late pre-hof funk and will pass, but I really am waiting for the day that I feel "better". Whatever that means.
Jt my friend your brain and body are already thanking you. Get off your hiney and start working out and eat less. You got the funk. I'm just now starting see results. Damn proud to be quit with you today my friend! Vent and raise hell At me anytime
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Time for a little rant/vent/whatever...
I'm at day 85. Hell to the yeah and proud of it!
However, I can't lie, I feel let down. I'm still waiting for the feel good factor, benefits, positive changes, etc. to kick in. I'm 25 lbs. heavier, fatigued every single day and have little to no focus. I'm not gonna cave or jump back in. But seriously, when does the good stuff happen? Maybe there is no return on investment and perhaps my expectations were too high, but I honestly thought there would be more.
I'm really hoping this is just a late pre-hof funk and will pass, but I really am waiting for the day that I feel "better". Whatever that means.
Jt my friend your brain and body are already thanking you. Get off your hiney and start working out and eat less. You got the funk. I'm just now starting see results. Damn proud to be quit with you today my friend! Vent and raise hell At me anytime
The major benefit is your not a slave to her anymore, cancer free, and can always lose some weight. You can't get a jaw back. It does sound like a funk your in though. Fight through this and you'll feel better soon. Give me a call if you want or let's meet for a beer. It does get better.
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Time for a little rant/vent/whatever...
I'm at day 85. Hell to the yeah and proud of it!
However, I can't lie, I feel let down. I'm still waiting for the feel good factor, benefits, positive changes, etc. to kick in. I'm 25 lbs. heavier, fatigued every single day and have little to no focus. I'm not gonna cave or jump back in. But seriously, when does the good stuff happen? Maybe there is no return on investment and perhaps my expectations were too high, but I honestly thought there would be more.
I'm really hoping this is just a late pre-hof funk and will pass, but I really am waiting for the day that I feel "better". Whatever that means.
Jt my friend your brain and body are already thanking you. Get off your hiney and start working out and eat less. You got the funk. I'm just now starting see results. Damn proud to be quit with you today my friend! Vent and raise hell At me anytime
The major benefit is your not a slave to her anymore, cancer free, and can always lose some weight. You can't get a jaw back. It does sound like a funk your in though. Fight through this and you'll feel better soon. Give me a call if you want or let's meet for a beer. It does get better.
Everyone goes through the shitty quit phase differently. I felt like shit for a good 4 months. This depressing weather doesn't help either. I started running and everything changed. I lost the weight and the depression was gone. You are quit! That is something to proud of. Congrats on your 85 days. You got this :)
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Congrats on hitting 100 days!!! Keep doing what your doing, you got this :)
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Congrats on hitting 100 days!!! Keep doing what your doing, you got this :)
Congratulations man, HOF!
Here's to the next 100!
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Congrats on hitting 100 days!!! Keep doing what your doing, you got this :)
Congratulations man, HOF!
Here's to the next 100!
Congratulations my friend on the 100! See you at 200!
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Congrats on hitting 100 days!!! Keep doing what your doing, you got this :)
Congratulations man, HOF!
Here's to the next 100!
Congratulations my friend on the 100! See you at 200!
Thanks! Gonna keep posting up these +1's!
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Congrats on hitting 100 days!!! Keep doing what your doing, you got this :)
Congratulations man, HOF!
Here's to the next 100!
Congratulations my friend on the 100! See you at 200!
Thanks! Gonna keep posting up these +1's!
You feeling better jpet? I've kind of been in the same boat as well. I've always been in good shape but gained about 15-20 lbs after quitting and haven't had much energy. I'm going to try to get back into a workout routine soon and see if I can't stay on track. Curious to hear how it's been going for you.
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2nd floor, congratulations man!
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2nd floor, congratulations man!
200 hundred who would have thunk it! Great job brother!
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2nd floor, congratulations man!
200 hundred who would have thunk it! Great job brother!
Thanks, it's great to be here!
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Congrats on hitting 100 days!!! Keep doing what your doing, you got this :)
Congratulations man, HOF!
Here's to the next 100!
Congratulations my friend on the 100! See you at 200!
Thanks! Gonna keep posting up these +1's!
You feeling better jpet? I've kind of been in the same boat as well. I've always been in good shape but gained about 15-20 lbs after quitting and haven't had much energy. I'm going to try to get back into a workout routine soon and see if I can't stay on track. Curious to hear how it's been going for you.
TLOC, sorry I missed this. Haven't been checking the intro. Still struggling with the weight issue, but I'll beat it eventually. Hope you're doing better!
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3rd floor dude! Awesome!
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3rd floor dude! Awesome!
Badassery my brother! 300 let's keep stacking them together!
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365 days ago this morning, I had to leave work because my withdrawal symptoms were so intense. Amazing to think back to that day and how much has changed.
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400 days... wow. Hard to put that in perspective when you only focus on the next 24 hours. 30 lbs. put on and then 30 lbs. lost. The struggle is real no doubt, but it is beatable.
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400 days... wow. Hard to put that in perspective when you only focus on the next 24 hours. 30 lbs. put on and then 30 lbs. lost. The struggle is real no doubt, but it is beatable.
Congrats on the new floor!
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400 days... wow. Hard to put that in perspective when you only focus on the next 24 hours. 30 lbs. put on and then 30 lbs. lost. The struggle is real no doubt, but it is beatable.
Congrats on the new floor!
Congratulations man, proud to be quit with you!
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400 days... wow. Hard to put that in perspective when you only focus on the next 24 hours. 30 lbs. put on and then 30 lbs. lost. The struggle is real no doubt, but it is beatable.
Congrats on the new floor!
Congratulations man, proud to be quit with you!
Thank you!
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400 days... wow. Hard to put that in perspective when you only focus on the next 24 hours. 30 lbs. put on and then 30 lbs. lost. The struggle is real no doubt, but it is beatable.
Congrats on the new floor!
Congratulations man, proud to be quit with you!
Thank you!
Congratulations JP the view is awesome, damn near see the dolphins!
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500 days... to put that into perspective, that is 12,000 hours, 720,000 minutes, 43,200,000 seconds. I remember barely being able to make it through a work meeting without a Kodiak. It's actually comical to me now when I think about it.
During the last 500 days, I've turned 40, gained 40 lbs, had a son, lost the 40 lbs and ran my first marathon in over 18 months. It feels good to be back. I never did a HOF speech, but I will at some point. I guess I didn't feel like I had really earned it at day 100 to be honest. I feel closer to it now having fought this strong not only against nicotine, but also against the effects/changes/realizations I've had because of my quit. I'm a better man today. Not only because I don't chew anymore, but also because I've been able to confront my deficiencies with a clear head and make adjustments. Nicotine (or any addiction really) does a good job of teaching one avoidance.
Despite the number, whether it's days/hours/minutes/seconds, I always remind myself that I'm one bad decision away from posting a day 1. That's a reality and always will be. I think I've missed one day posting roll out of 500. I can't even remember why I missed it honestly. I won't miss again. I find the resistance of the fresh arrivals to post daily so vexing. So, if there are any of you fresh into the quit reading this right now, pay special attention. You don't understand how powerful this simple step is. Beyond the promise to the group, it sets the tone for the day. If you post first thing, then your quit is your priority. It is the key element in the battle, no question. If you ask any caver/retread where they failed, I guarantee they'll talk about how they stopped posting roll/being involved.
Quitting isn't easy, but it is simple.
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Jpet - I just stumbled upon your thread and man you sure rocked this!! I just turned 40, from MN and I can sure relate to just about everything you wrote. I'm pretty new into my quit (51 days) and am going thru some of what you went thru in the same time period.. I just wanted to THANK you for your post and for being a positive role model to KTC.. Oh, I'm also an extremely disapointed Wild fan...
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500 days... to put that into perspective, that is 12,000 hours, 720,000 minutes, 43,200,000 seconds. I remember barely being able to make it through a work meeting without a Kodiak. It's actually comical to me now when I think about it.
During the last 500 days, I've turned 40, gained 40 lbs, had a son, lost the 40 lbs and ran my first marathon in over 18 months. It feels good to be back. I never did a HOF speech, but I will at some point. I guess I didn't feel like I had really earned it at day 100 to be honest. I feel closer to it now having fought this strong not only against nicotine, but also against the effects/changes/realizations I've had because of my quit. I'm a better man today. Not only because I don't chew anymore, but also because I've been able to confront my deficiencies with a clear head and make adjustments. Nicotine (or any addiction really) does a good job of teaching one avoidance.
Despite the number, whether it's days/hours/minutes/seconds, I always remind myself that I'm one bad decision away from posting a day 1. That's a reality and always will be. I think I've missed one day posting roll out of 500. I can't even remember why I missed it honestly. I won't miss again. I find the resistance of the fresh arrivals to post daily so vexing. So, if there are any of you fresh into the quit reading this right now, pay special attention. You don't understand how powerful this simple step is. Beyond the promise to the group, it sets the tone for the day. If you post first thing, then your quit is your priority. It is the key element in the battle, no question. If you ask any caver/retread where they failed, I guarantee they'll talk about how they stopped posting roll/being involved.
Quitting isn't easy, but it is simple.
Bad ass my brother.
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500 days... to put that into perspective, that is 12,000 hours, 720,000 minutes, 43,200,000 seconds. I remember barely being able to make it through a work meeting without a Kodiak. It's actually comical to me now when I think about it.
During the last 500 days, I've turned 40, gained 40 lbs, had a son, lost the 40 lbs and ran my first marathon in over 18 months. It feels good to be back. I never did a HOF speech, but I will at some point. I guess I didn't feel like I had really earned it at day 100 to be honest. I feel closer to it now having fought this strong not only against nicotine, but also against the effects/changes/realizations I've had because of my quit. I'm a better man today. Not only because I don't chew anymore, but also because I've been able to confront my deficiencies with a clear head and make adjustments. Nicotine (or any addiction really) does a good job of teaching one avoidance.
Despite the number, whether it's days/hours/minutes/seconds, I always remind myself that I'm one bad decision away from posting a day 1. That's a reality and always will be. I think I've missed one day posting roll out of 500. I can't even remember why I missed it honestly. I won't miss again. I find the resistance of the fresh arrivals to post daily so vexing. So, if there are any of you fresh into the quit reading this right now, pay special attention. You don't understand how powerful this simple step is. Beyond the promise to the group, it sets the tone for the day. If you post first thing, then your quit is your priority. It is the key element in the battle, no question. If you ask any caver/retread where they failed, I guarantee they'll talk about how they stopped posting roll/being involved.
Quitting isn't easy, but it is simple.
Bad ass my brother.
Congratulations you badass! Welcome to the 5th floor!
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500 days... to put that into perspective, that is 12,000 hours, 720,000 minutes, 43,200,000 seconds. I remember barely being able to make it through a work meeting without a Kodiak. It's actually comical to me now when I think about it.
During the last 500 days, I've turned 40, gained 40 lbs, had a son, lost the 40 lbs and ran my first marathon in over 18 months. It feels good to be back. I never did a HOF speech, but I will at some point. I guess I didn't feel like I had really earned it at day 100 to be honest. I feel closer to it now having fought this strong not only against nicotine, but also against the effects/changes/realizations I've had because of my quit. I'm a better man today. Not only because I don't chew anymore, but also because I've been able to confront my deficiencies with a clear head and make adjustments. Nicotine (or any addiction really) does a good job of teaching one avoidance.
Despite the number, whether it's days/hours/minutes/seconds, I always remind myself that I'm one bad decision away from posting a day 1. That's a reality and always will be. I think I've missed one day posting roll out of 500. I can't even remember why I missed it honestly. I won't miss again. I find the resistance of the fresh arrivals to post daily so vexing. So, if there are any of you fresh into the quit reading this right now, pay special attention. You don't understand how powerful this simple step is. Beyond the promise to the group, it sets the tone for the day. If you post first thing, then your quit is your priority. It is the key element in the battle, no question. If you ask any caver/retread where they failed, I guarantee they'll talk about how they stopped posting roll/being involved.
Quitting isn't easy, but it is simple.
Bad ass my brother.
Congratulations you badass! Welcome to the 5th floor!
Love that JP, the power of the promise is awesome!
Congratulations on 5th floor!
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600. Another milestone, and yet just another day. Happy to be here and thankful for what I've got.
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600. Another milestone, and yet just another day. Happy to be here and thankful for what I've got.
Nicely done!
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700
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700
Kick ass. Congrats
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700
Kick ass. Congrats
Congratulations on the 700 my brother!
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2 years... feels good to be here. Honestly never thought I'd be able to say it. Now I can't imagine another way. Thank you, KTC. And thank you to all that join on this journey. Incredible.
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2 years... feels good to be here. Honestly never thought I'd be able to say it. Now I can't imagine another way. Thank you, KTC. And thank you to all that join on this journey. Incredible.
Congrats man. That's' really a great accomplishment. The hardwork, the accountability, the brotherhood, all makes for success. Way to go!
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2 years... feels good to be here. Honestly never thought I'd be able to say it. Now I can't imagine another way. Thank you, KTC. And thank you to all that join on this journey. Incredible.
Congrats man. That's' really a great accomplishment. The hardwork, the accountability, the brotherhood, all makes for success. Way to go!
Congratulations my brother 2 years feels damn good standing beside you!
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2 years... feels good to be here. Honestly never thought I'd be able to say it. Now I can't imagine another way. Thank you, KTC. And thank you to all that join on this journey. Incredible.
Congrats man. That's' really a great accomplishment. The hardwork, the accountability, the brotherhood, all makes for success. Way to go!
Congratulations my brother 2 years feels damn good standing beside you!
I said it in person and now here...congrats man! 2 years is awesome!
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800
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800
^^^ Right to the point 'oh yeah'
Well done!
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800
^^^ Right to the point 'oh yeah'
Well done!
Congratulations my brother!
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800
^^^ Right to the point 'oh yeah'
Well done!
Congratulations my brother!
Congrats on 8th floor man!
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800
^^^ Right to the point 'oh yeah'
Well done!
Congratulations my brother!
Congrats on 8th floor man!
That's right wear that 800 with pride. Well earned.
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800
^^^ Right to the point 'oh yeah'
Well done!
Congratulations my brother!
Congrats on 8th floor man!
That's right wear that 800 with pride. Well earned.
Thanks to all. Onward and upward, give back to those you can. It works, plain and simple.
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Gratz on the 9 bills!
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Gratz on the 9 bills!
Oh, hell yes! Next stop... your very own dangle!
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Gratz on the 9 bills!
Oh, hell yes! Next stop... your very own dangle!
Congrats on 9th floor man!
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Thanks for the recognition!
900 days. Man, it's hard to believe how much has changed since I stumbled my way into this place. What a feeling and I love the view up here on the 9th floor!
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Thanks for the recognition!
900 days. Man, it's hard to believe how much has changed since I stumbled my way into this place. What a feeling and I love the view up here on the 9th floor!
Congrats on 900!
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1000
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1000
WTG man, congrats on the dangle!
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1000
WTG man, congrats on the dangle!
Congratulations my friend and Brother!
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3 years
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3 years
Nice work man! Congrats!
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3 years
Nice work man! Congrats!
INDEED!
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3 years
Nice work man! Congrats!
INDEED!
Sorry I missed it brother. Congratulations on the 3years!