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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: grizzdipper18 on April 04, 2012, 07:57:00 PM
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For some time now ive been coming to realize im ready to quit. The stress i feel for my long term health has finally motivated me. Im only 18 and im too early in life to be throwing my future away by addiction. Im glad i found this site. I dont feel alone anymore. Im ready to fight my addiction and quit
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Good decision on kicking your nicotine habit to the curb. This site can help. There are no short cuts, but here are some links that will help you navigate this site. Rule number one, this is a no nicotine site, period, end of story.
Biggest thing to do is get acquainted with this site. Highly recommend you go here: WELCOME CENTER (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showforum=13)
What to Expect When You Quit Dipping (http://www.killthecan.org/yourquit/what.asp)
This a a no nicotine site, period, end of story.
We "Post Roll Call" daily ( our promise to ourselves and to our brothers not to use nicotine today)- We DO THIS DAILY
Make posting roll the first step of your daily proactive quit.
Where to post roll call: PRE JULY HOF 2012 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=6205)
Read, read, read: Read for knowledge, to fight a crave, combat a cave or sheer entertainment
Intros (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showforum=25)
Hall of Fame Speeches (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showforum=9)
Words of Wisdom (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showforum=41)
Need to CHAT (http://chat.killthecan.org/)
PM if I can help
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For some time now ive been coming to realize im ready to quit. The stress i feel for my long term health has finally motivated me. Im only 18 and im too early in life to be throwing my future away by addiction. Im glad i found this site. I dont feel alone anymore. Im ready to fight my addiction and quit
Superb decision, grizzdipper. Follow CBird's advice.
Most of us here wish had made the decision to quit when we were eighteen! It's gonna' suck at first, but your life is worth fighting for. Isn't it?
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i just want to say thank you to all my new quit brothers for showing me support as i get ready to begin recovering from nicotine addiction. i dont feel alone anymore and i appreciate what everyone is doing here at kill the can
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i just want to say thank you to all my new quit brothers for showing me support as i get ready to begin recovering from nicotine addiction. i dont feel alone anymore and i appreciate what everyone is doing here at kill the can
What are you waiting for? You are ready, you know its time, you know you can do it (with help). We all stood there on the sidelines and let the bitch get into our heads feeding us insecurity. DO IT!! POST ALREADY!!
again I offer call me or PM me anytime.
Flush the shit NOW!!
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hell yeah man! its time for me to be free of dip. my fight starts now. im ready for it.
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ive always been a big guy. at 6 foot 4 my friends usually say im a giant and ive generally been a pretty strong person. but my size and strength wasnt enough to stop me from letting a tiny can of tobacco grab a hold of my life. it goes to show anyone can be caught in this addiction. im now gonna use my size strength and will power to fight back at this addiction. im gonna take the cravings and shove them back in addictions face. its gonna be a fight but its a fight that all of us here are gonna win and were gonna win it together!
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Great choice, Grizz! If you flushed that shit today, then today is Day 1 of your new freedom. Post roll, keep your word, read everything you can on this site and enjoy living free.
There are no short-cuts and nobody can do this for you. But you take the first step, and we're here for you the rest of the way. Embrace the suck...it is the price of freedom.
Learn to laugh at yourself and at the stupid choices you made in the past. Nobody can change that. What's done is done. But you can start being the person you want to be today. You just gotta commit and keep your word. Quitting is done one minute, one crave, one day at a time.
You can't change the past, and we don't know the future. But you can sure as shit give your word that you will stay quit today. So do it and keep your word. Then, we'll all be here doing it all over again tomorrow. It is that simple. Welcome to freedom, brother!!!
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Go post Roll Call.
Make sure you know why before you do tho.
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today i had a hell of a wake up. over the weekend before my quit began i must have gotten a shred of dip in my contacts case when i was taking my lenses out. that little shred must have gotten caught under my contact after being in there a few days and when i put my lense in this morning... haha well as u can imagine it was a unpleasent suprise. stung like a bitch and gave me even more motivation to make this quit work (:
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man you dont gotta start a new thred evry time a new thot comes in your head. if i did that man i'd have like a hunnert threds insted a one super aawsome one. same like for ready see how he does things.
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LOL, I really miss those cope in the eye moments...
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God I remember that.
Every day I can remember having terrible burning eyes for the first several minutes after putting contacts in.
Two days after quitting it was gone. I have never since had one burning eye.
But yes, if you have other threads in the introduction, just add your comments into on of them. Some people here like to keep their intro like a diary... if that's your thing.
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the first experince i had with dip was when i was 15 years old. with my friend and his older brother at thier house hanging out. we were playing video games and just living life. my friends older brother was dipping and offered me some. i tried it. after i put it in a felt sick and the wad slipped from my gum and onto my toung and throat. it burnt like hell and i ran upstairs and proceeded to hurl in the sink. i asked myself how anyone was able to dip. but a couple years later when i began work i decided to give it another try. i work in a restaraunt washing dishes and bussing tables and that night was an especially hectic shift. i was stressed from the endless flow of dirty dishes comin back into the kitchen and needed to relax so i bummed some grizzly wintergreen off a co worker and this time i felt something different. the head rush i got from the chew was like nothing i'd ever experienced and i realized that i liked dipping. not long after i found myself completly addicted going through a can of grizz a day. about a month ago i really started stressing about the long term effects that dipping would have on my health and realized that it was my time to quit. it hasnt been easy and all that i can do is go a day at a time fight the craves that the bitch throws at me and keep staying strong. i have an addictive personality so the urge to cave gets stronger with each day it seems but i think that because im aware of my personality it will give me the extra push i need to not cave. i have a deep seated hatred for the tobacco industry and how they kill thier costumers and then try to make thier product appealing to kids so that thier next generation of consumers is using well before the time they are even grown up. i dont know how big tobacco executives can sleep at night knowing the pain they cause and the lives and famalies they destroy so in order to deliver the biggest fuck you to all the tobacco execs out there im going to live my life tobacco free. tobacco companys think they can hold us down and keep us addicted but they couldnt be more wrong. we are FREE from thier shit and there is Nothing they will be able to do to keep us from living FREE.
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by the way guys this is gonna be my personal thread from now on i accidentaly started three dirrefent threads my first couple days as im still learning how the site works. i'll be posting entries here as a quit journal
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Hi. I'm a newbie dumbass too. :D I believe in you. Im 4 days now so let's roll into battle again today. I ain't gunna. You?
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im not gunna either im with you man. lets kick the bicth to the curb!
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Belated welcome Grizdip. Welcome to freedom from the can.
Keep posting roll and read everything in the welcome.
Proud to be quit with you today!
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Hey grizzdip,
Today is my day one, and I pretty much hate the world right now. Gonna make it through, and worry about tomorrow later. Stay strong man, ill be right behind you!
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My name is Scowick and I am an addict. Day 484. 2000 cans dipped but I will never dip again. It can be done. Use the tools this site provides and you shall succeed.
1 day at a time. Focus on today. Give me a pm if you need assistance or a chat. You can count on me.
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Hey grizz missed ya yesterday. I know with work and school all the other shit you've got going on life piles on. However----your quit and promise is the most important thing in your life. I expect to see you post roll today don't flake
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I've been going back and reading newbies in our july group that let there quit die. This is just one example!! What was there problem?? They 1st quit posting! Then I'll bet their balls shriveled up and they pussed out on us! At first this really bothered me, no longer, my quit is strong today. I'm there for true quiters but prove yourself! I'm not letting anyone in danger my quit. I'm fully invested and committed, these cavers obviously weren't.
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by the way guys this is gonna be my personal thread from now on i accidentaly started three dirrefent threads my first couple days as im still learning how the site works. i'll be posting entries here as a quit journal
Grizzdipper,
Stay strong brother. Check your inbox for my number. Call or text anytime you need anything.
Buddy Mac
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Hey grizzdip,
Today is my day one, and I pretty much hate the world right now. Gonna make it through, and worry about tomorrow later. Stay strong man, ill be right behind you!
El Barto,
Check your inbox brother. I am here to help. Call or text anytime..
Buddy Mac
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Hey grizzdip,
Today is my day one, and I pretty much hate the world right now. Gonna make it through, and worry about tomorrow later. Stay strong man, ill be right behind you!
El Barto,
Check your inbox brother. I am here to help. Call or text anytime..
Buddy Mac
This dude is gone. Just checked the spread sheet in July and he hasn't posted in a long ass time. Move on and spend your time on guys serious about quitting. Hopefully he comes back but apparently he ain't ready yet....
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Buddy Mac
This dude is gone. Just checked the spread sheet in July and he hasn't posted in a long ass time. Move on and spend your time on guys serious about quitting. Hopefully he comes back but apparently he ain't ready yet....[/QUOTE]
Your right he is gone the reason I brought him forward was to show the peeps what happens if they fail to post. That got lost.
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one day at a time. I'm new into my quit and can appreciate your hating the world right now. I've been crying over my smokes on my day 8- I'm a woman, i can do that :). it'll get better. we'll make it through. You're tougher than your mind is telling you when it thinks about caving.
all my best. i'm right there with you.
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Bad idea this guy is gone was using as a example don't waste time here
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its been a few months since i left and i regret it more than any other regrets i have.
im tired of letting a can of shit manage my life. im tired of dip being the first thing i do in the morning and the last thing i do before i sleep. im tired of my mouth feeling like shit and im tired of hating myself for dragging on with this addiction I HATE BEING AN ADDICT. i failed everyone here along with myself and i owe it to myself and everyone else here to fix the wrong i have done. if you guys will have me back and find a way to forgive me then i will be very grateful. someday i will forgive myself but first i have to kick the fucking bitch that is stuck behind my lip every day.
i have my answers to the 3 quiestons here
1- what happened- i caved. i let my guard down. i have no excuse because there is none
2- why did it happen- the cave happened due to my own fault. i thought the stressers in my life were a good enough excuse for myself THEY ARE NOT.
3- what will i do differently- post roll every day, embrace the suck, find healthy alternatives to chew, refuse it if it is offered to me, and above all remember the feelings of failure and loss ive been feeling for months
and use those feelings to deter my addiction
i dont know if i deserve the help i can get here, maybe i should have to go it alone but i dont want to walk that road without friends. i want to come back and i will kill my nicotine addiction. ive dumped every can i have. im ready now. this can be my moment and im ready to save my life.
sincerly, Bryan (a.k.a. Grizz)
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its been a few months since i left and i regret it more than any other regrets i have.
im tired of letting a can of shit manage my life. im tired of dip being the first thing i do in the morning and the last thing i do before i sleep. im tired of my mouth feeling like shit and im tired of hating myself for dragging on with this addiction I HATE BEING AN ADDICT. i failed everyone here along with myself and i owe it to myself and everyone else here to fix the wrong i have done. if you guys will have me back and find a way to forgive me then i will be very grateful. someday i will forgive myself but first i have to kick the fucking bitch that is stuck behind my lip every day.
i have my answers to the 3 quiestons here
1- what happened- i caved. i let my guard down. i have no excuse because there is none
2- why did it happen- the cave happened due to my own fault. i thought the stressers in my life were a good enough excuse for myself THEY ARE NOT.
3- what will i do differently- post roll every day, embrace the suck, find healthy alternatives to chew, refuse it if it is offered to me, and above all remember the feelings of failure and loss ive been feeling for months
and use those feelings to deter my addiction
i dont know if i deserve the help i can get here, maybe i should have to go it alone but i dont want to walk that road without friends. i want to come back and i will kill my nicotine addiction. ive dumped every can i have. im ready now. this can be my moment and im ready to save my life.
sincerly, Bryan (a.k.a. Grizz)
Grizzdipper,
You know you let a lot of people down.... all of your July brothers. They couldn't even trust you beyond 5 days of posting roll before you turned your back on them. Did you think about them when you caved? Did you reach out to anyone when you caved?
What does it really take to quit? Cancer? Gum grafts?
If one of your new quit brothers in Oct texted you in a moment of distress, could you help a brother out? Should they even trust you to help them out?
I welcome you brother, but only under one condition, that is if you ever think about caving..... before you put that poison in your lip, please call me or text me.
I'll PM you my number and I expect to read your HOF speech one day.
I'll quit with you today.
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its been a few months since i left and i regret it more than any other regrets i have.
im tired of letting a can of shit manage my life. im tired of dip being the first thing i do in the morning and the last thing i do before i sleep. im tired of my mouth feeling like shit and im tired of hating myself for dragging on with this addiction I HATE BEING AN ADDICT. i failed everyone here along with myself and i owe it to myself and everyone else here to fix the wrong i have done. if you guys will have me back and find a way to forgive me then i will be very grateful. someday i will forgive myself but first i have to kick the fucking bitch that is stuck behind my lip every day.
i have my answers to the 3 quiestons here
1- what happened-Â i caved. i let my guard down. i have no excuse because there is none
2- why did it happen- the cave happened due to my own fault. i thought the stressers in my life were a good enough excuse for myself THEY ARE NOT.
3- what will i do differently- post roll every day, embrace the suck, find healthy alternatives to chew, refuse it if it is offered to me, and above all remember the feelings of failure and loss ive been feeling for months
and use those feelings to deter my addiction
i dont know if i deserve the help i can get here, maybe i should have to go it alone but i dont want to walk that road without friends. i want to come back and i will kill my nicotine addiction. ive dumped every can i have. im ready now. this can be my moment and im ready to save my life.
sincerly, Bryan (a.k.a. Grizz)
Grizzdipper,
You know you let a lot of people down.... all of your July brothers. They couldn't even trust you beyond 5 days of posting roll before you turned your back on them. Did you think about them when you caved? Did you reach out to anyone when you caved?
What does it really take to quit? Cancer? Gum grafts?
If one of your new quit brothers in Oct texted you in a moment of distress, could you help a brother out? Should they even trust you to help them out?
I welcome you brother, but only under one condition, that is if you ever think about caving..... before you put that poison in your lip, please call me or text me.
I'll PM you my number and I expect to read your HOF speech one day.
I'll quit with you today.
Little dipper
You know that you have my support I was one of your contacts before we talk often, I remember some of that stress that you dealing with at the time , Still no excuse for the Cave. Get contacts, be a leader in October. You've matured in the past 3 mo. I can tell. That's a classy return.
Now get over to your October group and post-roll. Post roll first thing every day. I know that the time difference is weird just get that rollcall done early!
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its been a few months since i left and i regret it more than any other regrets i have.
im tired of letting a can of shit manage my life. im tired of dip being the first thing i do in the morning and the last thing i do before i sleep. im tired of my mouth feeling like shit and im tired of hating myself for dragging on with this addiction I HATE BEING AN ADDICT. i failed everyone here along with myself and i owe it to myself and everyone else here to fix the wrong i have done. if you guys will have me back and find a way to forgive me then i will be very grateful. someday i will forgive myself but first i have to kick the fucking bitch that is stuck behind my lip every day.
i have my answers to the 3 quiestons here
1- what happened-Â i caved. i let my guard down. i have no excuse because there is none
2- why did it happen- the cave happened due to my own fault. i thought the stressers in my life were a good enough excuse for myself THEY ARE NOT.
3- what will i do differently- post roll every day, embrace the suck, find healthy alternatives to chew, refuse it if it is offered to me, and above all remember the feelings of failure and loss ive been feeling for months
and use those feelings to deter my addiction
i dont know if i deserve the help i can get here, maybe i should have to go it alone but i dont want to walk that road without friends. i want to come back and i will kill my nicotine addiction. ive dumped every can i have. im ready now. this can be my moment and im ready to save my life.
sincerly, Bryan (a.k.a. Grizz)
Grizzdipper,
You know you let a lot of people down.... all of your July brothers. They couldn't even trust you beyond 5 days of posting roll before you turned your back on them. Did you think about them when you caved? Did you reach out to anyone when you caved?
What does it really take to quit? Cancer? Gum grafts?
If one of your new quit brothers in Oct texted you in a moment of distress, could you help a brother out? Should they even trust you to help them out?
I welcome you brother, but only under one condition, that is if you ever think about caving..... before you put that poison in your lip, please call me or text me.
I'll PM you my number and I expect to read your HOF speech one day.
I'll quit with you today.
Little dipper
You know that you have my support I was one of your contacts before we talk often, I remember some of that stress that you dealing with at the time , Still no excuse for the Cave. Get contacts, be a leader in October. You've matured in the past 3 mo. I can tell. That's a classy return.
Now get over to your October group and post-roll. Post roll first thing every day. I know that the time difference is weird just get that rollcall done early!
Welcome back Grizz. Glad you wised up, came back with your tail between your legs, ready to learn and to get to quittin'.
WT did some good work reeling you back in, now its on you to make his work worth it. Like he said, post roll each and every day. Get phone numbers of some guys, especially on the west coast, and use them to your advantage.
You are welcome to post roll both in July and October. We'd love to have you, but only if you are serious this time. There is NO GOING BACK.
There is absolutely no excuse for caving. You made a choice. You let wicked old lady trick your brain into thinking that you needed her. She's nothing but a phantom thats going to lead you down an old dusty road to nowhere. You have the choice, fight back, turn away when she calls.
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Did you post roll in October? I don't see it, but you might have gotten bumped.
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Did you post roll in October? I don't see it, but you might have gotten bumped.
I still see no post in October!!!
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i just tried to post in octobor. did it how i alwyas have but im not sure my name showed up. must have gotten bumped
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alright roll has been posted
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feel like im loosing my mind. my head feels like its in a vicegrip and i cant focus on anything. i was slow at work and im just trying to stay sane. i know its supposed to be tough right now but damn. i threw in a dip of smokey mountain herbal snuff ( fake chew) to try to keep my mind of it. its helping a little but i cant get rid of this fucking head pain. i hope everyone else is doing better. was also wondering if anyone had some more tips on how to imbrace this fog im in. this post probably sounds crazy but i just cant form a strait thought
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feel like im loosing my mind. my head feels like its in a vicegrip and i cant focus on anything. i was slow at work and im just trying to stay sane. i know its supposed to be tough right now but damn. i threw in a dip of smokey mountain herbal snuff ( fake chew) to try to keep my mind of it. its helping a little but i cant get rid of this fucking head pain. i hope everyone else is doing better. was also wondering if anyone had some more tips on how to imbrace this fog im in. this post probably sounds crazy but i just cant form a strait thought
Doesn't sound crazy at all, just went through those days myself. You will get through it. Best advice I can give you is either stay busy or go to sleep. If you're busy enough, doesn't matter how productive it is, your mind will stray from obsessing. If you're sleeping, the headache should subside. I had a helluva time getting through the fog, just think how fucked up nic makes your brain. Now, think about how great men like Einstein were only estimated to have used 3% of his brain capacity. Stick the thoughts of her in the far reaches of your brain and work on something constructive.
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Grizz,
What you are feeling is normal. Your body is craving for a fix and is punishing you for not giving it! The good part is only have to endure all this one time, if you just stay clean you never have to live through this shit again.
I had very bad days early on, in fact there were days I did not get anything done other than staying quit and you know what, that was enough. I stared sometimes at my computer and could not form a clear thought other than to stay quit, and that was enough.
If you can only accomplish one thing then make that staying quit. Nothing you will do today is more important. This will pass and you WILL start feeling better I promise.
I suggest drinking plenty of water, gatorade, fruit juices. Continue to eat small meals through the day and keep your sugar levels even. Stay close to the site and read everything you can here. Get some fake, seeds, gum, candy, straws whatever else you need. Buckle in and get through this...
STAY QUIT
Greg
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Solid support here grizz. Listen to these folks. The only thing I would add is the more you talk about or write about the more you will see what's happening to you. The more you can understand and the better you can attack the problem. You can do this. I am certain.
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sleepless night but i feel accomplished because i didnt give in to the bitch. i never dug through any trashcans trying to find some long forgotten can. withdrawl is still in full force but im getting used to it and i know that i could never handle this feeling again. a good reason to stay quit. ive been irratable to those around me since i fluhed the shit so im trying to isolate myself as much as possible until the withdrawl symptoms start to wear off a bit. hoping all you guys are holding up well and thank you to everyone for welcoming me back with open arms. youve made this kid very grateful and helped bring back his drive.
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Solid support here grizz. Listen to these folks. The only thing I would add is the more you talk about or write about the more you will see what's happening to you. The more you can understand and the better you can attack the problem. You can do this. I am certain.
Grizz your on the path. The fog will lift soon. What soul said about talking and writing about your experience is so true
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Yes, great job and great advice from others. Your cranium is rewiring itself. Soon enough you will enjoy a new normal. You will restore the real you.
Suffer through the bad part. Know this, in time, you will not regret the quit you chose. Well done friend.
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Bryan,
Today is Day 3... Soon enough the nicotine with have left your body. But now begins the rewiring of your brain. You have wired your brain to think and act certain ways in response to nicotine. Now you have to reteach your brain. Continue to drink water and get plenty of exercise. Most of all continue to read on the website and always reach out to your quit brothers and sisters for help.
Helms
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sorry ive been late posting roll guys work has been craxy and my sleep schedule is all fucked up so ive been having to post in the miidle or late in the day. i'll do what i can to start posting earlier
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sorry ive been late posting roll guys work has been craxy and my sleep schedule is all fucked up so ive been having to post in the miidle or late in the day. i'll do what i can to start posting earlier
This has to be the most important thing in your life right now.
Not always, just now.
If not, you will fail.
Yep, that's how hard this is at first.
Your choice.
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sorry ive been late posting roll guys work has been craxy and my sleep schedule is all fucked up so ive been having to post in the miidle or late in the day. i'll do what i can to start posting earlier
This has to be the most important thing in your life right now.
Not always, just now.
If not, you will fail.
Yep, that's how hard this is at first.
Your choice.
If there is one thing on this planet to fight through the pain of hell for its freedom.
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grizzdipper... I hope I have helped you in your quit. I need you to do the favor and post as early in the day as possible.
Helms
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sorry ive been late posting roll guys work has been craxy and my sleep schedule is all fucked up so ive been having to post in the miidle or late in the day. i'll do what i can to start posting earlier
This has to be the most important thing in your life right now.
Not always, just now.
If not, you will fail.
Yep, that's how hard this is at first.
Your choice.
If there is one thing on this planet to fight through the pain of hell for its freedom.
Look back at all those broken promises you came in here with.
Have you lived up to your promises?
It's easy to say you have a quit plan. It's badass when you live it.
You can do this. Don't let me down.
grizzdipper... I hope I have helped you in your quit. I need you to do the favor and post as early in the day as possible.
Helms
This post is fucking badass helms.
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grizzdipper... I hope I have helped you in your quit. I need you to do the favor and post as early in the day as possible.
Helms
Littledipper18 (tongue in my cheek because I know you aren't little). One thing that many here may not recognize is the 5 hr time zone difference. I honestly believe that you realize the importance of early posting. There is a lot of strong feelings about posting and rightly so. Early on in my quit I found that I was always still up when the group started posting for the next day. ( I still am) I had the delima do I post at 11:00 pm for the next day or should I wait till I wake the next day and post. I usually post at night for several reasons: late Night you don't get bumped as bad, I consider my post to be two things, I report on my previous days promise telling everyone I was faithful and most important I'm making a oath and promise to myself and everyone that reads it that I will not use nicotine that day! If I post later in the day I've let my guard down and left myself open for thoughts of ( I have no promise). Later in the day is also to me a way of saying look guys I don't need you I have stayed quit without a promise. For me I decided very early on to post before midnight for the next day wasn't a problem. When I do that I know that I am covered by my promise for the full 24 hours of the day. Some may take issue with me on this but for me it works! I know we have acouple of quitters from opposite sides of the Earth and when they post has got to fit their life. You continue to quit, post as early as possible and be as active as possible. If not you will hear from me and you know that already!