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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: J-Heff on May 25, 2016, 01:41:00 PM
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IÂ’m on my 21st day of my quit and thought it was about time to post my intro.
I am a nicotine addict.
The first time I tried a dip was when I was about 20 yrs old. Can hardly remember that far back and am not sure exactly when it became a “necessity” in my life. After 30+ (big +!) years addicted to nicotine chew, I recently made a “decision” to stop killing myself. I have tried to quit in the past but failed quickly every time, usually a month into it at the longest. Like most of you I searched the internet for any information that could help me and found KTC. I’m sure I don’t need to tell anyone what that one instant has meant to me.
The moment I truly believed that I could really quit was the moment I REALIZED that I was and ADDICT, I learned this from KTC. Until you realize this, you will not be ready to commit. That was it and I’m not embarrassed to admit it. My wife of 30 years supports my quit but is extremely skeptical (with good reason) that I will make it stick this time. Although she has said, “there IS something different about you this time”. The difference is YOU KTC brotherhood and there literally is NO reason why I would ever need to stuff that poison in my face again. Time will prove it.
For any new quitter reading this, DO NOT UNDER ESTIMATE THE IMPORTANCE OF POSTING ROLL CALL EVERY DAMN DAY. It is the thread that keeps us all quit together. My first weekend into my quit I failed to post. Thought it was OK because I “would be back”. THAT, I LEARNED IS BULL SHIT. Post EDD no matter what. You will see many times in print that “KTC saved my life”, if you let it, it will save your life.
The entire August group helped me get through my first 21 days and I know I can count on them from here on out. I will definitely need their help EDD. I am not a constant poster but go to KTC as often as I can especially when craving. All of the fucked up rolls keep me reminded that there are a bunch of humans here! Messed up roll is funny as shit, except when I do it (daily)!
To the “Vets”, I’ve only begun my journey, but I already realize what you bring to KTC and how important it is to the rest of the quitters. I know I can count on you to call me out if I fuck something up.
For now I remain an addict as I always will be. The difference in my life is that I have all of you for support. I Quit with you.
Thanks for reading!
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IÂ’m on my 21st day of my quit and thought it was about time to post my intro.
I am a nicotine addict.
The first time I tried a dip was when I was about 20 yrs old. Can hardly remember that far back and am not sure exactly when it became a “necessity” in my life. After 30+ (big +!) years addicted to nicotine chew, I recently made a “decision” to stop killing myself. I have tried to quit in the past but failed quickly every time, usually a month into it at the longest. Like most of you I searched the internet for any information that could help me and found KTC. I’m sure I don’t need to tell anyone what that one instant has meant to me.
The moment I truly believed that I could really quit was the moment I REALIZED that I was and ADDICT, I learned this from KTC. Until you realize this, you will not be ready to commit. That was it and I’m not embarrassed to admit it. My wife of 30 years supports my quit but is extremely skeptical (with good reason) that I will make it stick this time. Although she has said, “there IS something different about you this time”. The difference is YOU KTC brotherhood and there literally is NO reason why I would ever need to stuff that poison in my face again. Time will prove it.
For any new quitter reading this, DO NOT UNDER ESTIMATE THE IMPORTANCE OF POSTING ROLL CALL EVERY DAMN DAY. It is the thread that keeps us all quit together. My first weekend into my quit I failed to post. Thought it was OK because I “would be back”. THAT, I LEARNED IS BULL SHIT. Post EDD no matter what. You will see many times in print that “KTC saved my life”, if you let it, it will save your life.
The entire August group helped me get through my first 21 days and I know I can count on them from here on out. I will definitely need their help EDD. I am not a constant poster but go to KTC as often as I can especially when craving. All of the fucked up rolls keep me reminded that there are a bunch of humans here! Messed up roll is funny as shit, except when I do it (daily)!
To the “Vets”, I’ve only begun my journey, but I already realize what you bring to KTC and how important it is to the rest of the quitters. I know I can count on you to call me out if I fuck something up.
For now I remain an addict as I always will be. The difference in my life is that I have all of you for support. I Quit with you.
Thanks for reading!
Welcome! Keep up the great work.
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IÂ’m on my 21st day of my quit and thought it was about time to post my intro.
I am a nicotine addict.
The first time I tried a dip was when I was about 20 yrs old. Can hardly remember that far back and am not sure exactly when it became a “necessity” in my life. After 30+ (big +!) years addicted to nicotine chew, I recently made a “decision” to stop killing myself. I have tried to quit in the past but failed quickly every time, usually a month into it at the longest. Like most of you I searched the internet for any information that could help me and found KTC. I’m sure I don’t need to tell anyone what that one instant has meant to me.
The moment I truly believed that I could really quit was the moment I REALIZED that I was and ADDICT, I learned this from KTC. Until you realize this, you will not be ready to commit. That was it and I’m not embarrassed to admit it. My wife of 30 years supports my quit but is extremely skeptical (with good reason) that I will make it stick this time. Although she has said, “there IS something different about you this time”. The difference is YOU KTC brotherhood and there literally is NO reason why I would ever need to stuff that poison in my face again. Time will prove it.
For any new quitter reading this, DO NOT UNDER ESTIMATE THE IMPORTANCE OF POSTING ROLL CALL EVERY DAMN DAY. It is the thread that keeps us all quit together. My first weekend into my quit I failed to post. Thought it was OK because I “would be back”. THAT, I LEARNED IS BULL SHIT. Post EDD no matter what. You will see many times in print that “KTC saved my life”, if you let it, it will save your life.
The entire August group helped me get through my first 21 days and I know I can count on them from here on out. I will definitely need their help EDD. I am not a constant poster but go to KTC as often as I can especially when craving. All of the fucked up rolls keep me reminded that there are a bunch of humans here! Messed up roll is funny as shit, except when I do it (daily)!
To the “Vets”, I’ve only begun my journey, but I already realize what you bring to KTC and how important it is to the rest of the quitters. I know I can count on you to call me out if I fuck something up.
For now I remain an addict as I always will be. The difference in my life is that I have all of you for support. I Quit with you.
Thanks for reading!
Welcome! Keep up the great work.
Great work! J-Heff!
Stay active and ingrain yourself in KTC, and pay it forward to new quitters!
See you around
Idaho Spuds
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Congrats dude! Welcome!
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That my friend was poetry to my ears! Damn proud to be quit with you and my number is a pm away!
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Congratulations on hof!!!
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Congratulations on hof!!!
Nice Job J-Hef on HOF brother!
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Today is day 176 for me. Two days ago, on day 174, I realized during that day that it was THE day I was going to finally cave. Yes, I just said that. I knew on that very day that it was the one.
Let me explain:
During the course of my 35 years of chewing Cope I stopped numerous times. And looking back it seemed that the longest I went was about 4-5 months (longest I ever remembering being "stopped"). Well, on October 25th it all hit me and I had an absolutely shitty day. The craves were going on all day, I was extremely irritable, I was angry all damn day, and frankly I was a raging ass hole. This was the first day where I truly WANTED a dip, wanting and craving are two different things to me and this scared the hell out of me. I look back at those thoughts right after hitting HOF and wondering what it would be like to go at this quit alone again and not worrying about getting on roll every day. As they say, "that is the addict in you talking", how true it is!
The only way I did get through this memorable day is through my brothers in Quit from August and other I have built a bond with. I didn't realize it at the time but I have been training for that day during my time here with KTC. Sort of like training where when you have to take swift action your training instincts take over. I got on the forum and supported other brothers and quit groups. I texted half of the brothers/sisters that I share digits with. I went back to basics and drank a shit-load of H2O, devoured a bag of seeds. All of these things I've learned here at KTC.
So to who ever may come across this rambling, new quitter or vet. DONT FOR A FUCKING SECOND TAKE WHAT WE DO HERE FOR GRANTED. Because if I would have, my cave date would have been October 25th, 2016.
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Fucking beautiful man! Good for you. Love this post
Days 100-200 were as hard for me as any days man. You are doin great.
Get back into intros and help mentor a newbie. That helps build your quit to
Proud to be quit with you today
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Today is day 176 for me. Two days ago, on day 174, I realized during that day that it was THE day I was going to finally cave. Yes, I just said that. I knew on that very day that it was the one.
Let me explain:
During the course of my 35 years of chewing Cope I stopped numerous times. And looking back it seemed that the longest I went was about 4-5 months (longest I ever remembering being "stopped"). Well, on October 25th it all hit me and I had an absolutely shitty day. The craves were going on all day, I was extremely irritable, I was angry all damn day, and frankly I was a raging ass hole. This was the first day where I truly WANTED a dip, wanting and craving are two different things to me and this scared the hell out of me. I look back at those thoughts right after hitting HOF and wondering what it would be like to go at this quit alone again and not worrying about getting on roll every day. As they say, "that is the addict in you talking", how true it is!
The only way I did get through this memorable day is through my brothers in Quit from August and other I have built a bond with. I didn't realize it at the time but I have been training for that day during my time here with KTC. Sort of like training where when you have to take swift action your training instincts take over. I got on the forum and supported other brothers and quit groups. I texted half of the brothers/sisters that I share digits with. I went back to basics and drank a shit-load of H2O, devoured a bag of seeds. All of these things I've learned here at KTC.
So to who ever may come across this rambling, new quitter or vet. DONT FOR A FUCKING SECOND TAKE WHAT WE DO HERE FOR GRANTED. Because if I would have, my cave date would have been October 25th, 2016.
Somehow I found my way to the Introductions page today. Great job using your resources here ... that's what this site is for.
Just a heads up ... know that if you would have/do cave ... I will drive across this great state and kick your ass.
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Today is day 176 for me. Two days ago, on day 174, I realized during that day that it was THE day I was going to finally cave. Yes, I just said that. I knew on that very day that it was the one.
Let me explain:
During the course of my 35 years of chewing Cope I stopped numerous times. And looking back it seemed that the longest I went was about 4-5 months (longest I ever remembering being "stopped"). Well, on October 25th it all hit me and I had an absolutely shitty day. The craves were going on all day, I was extremely irritable, I was angry all damn day, and frankly I was a raging ass hole. This was the first day where I truly WANTED a dip, wanting and craving are two different things to me and this scared the hell out of me. I look back at those thoughts right after hitting HOF and wondering what it would be like to go at this quit alone again and not worrying about getting on roll every day. As they say, "that is the addict in you talking", how true it is!
The only way I did get through this memorable day is through my brothers in Quit from August and other I have built a bond with. I didn't realize it at the time but I have been training for that day during my time here with KTC. Sort of like training where when you have to take swift action your training instincts take over. I got on the forum and supported other brothers and quit groups. I texted half of the brothers/sisters that I share digits with. I went back to basics and drank a shit-load of H2O, devoured a bag of seeds. All of these things I've learned here at KTC.
So to who ever may come across this rambling, new quitter or vet. DONT FOR A FUCKING SECOND TAKE WHAT WE DO HERE FOR GRANTED. Because if I would have, my cave date would have been October 25th, 2016.
Somehow I found my way to the Introductions page today. Great job using your resources here ... that's what this site is for.
Just a heads up ... know that if you would have/do cave ... I will drive across this great state and kick your ass.
Good on you for using what you learned! I am happy I read this post, it makes my quit stronger!
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Today is day 176 for me. Two days ago, on day 174, I realized during that day that it was THE day I was going to finally cave. Yes, I just said that. I knew on that very day that it was the one.
Let me explain:
During the course of my 35 years of chewing Cope I stopped numerous times. And looking back it seemed that the longest I went was about 4-5 months (longest I ever remembering being "stopped"). Well, on October 25th it all hit me and I had an absolutely shitty day. The craves were going on all day, I was extremely irritable, I was angry all damn day, and frankly I was a raging ass hole. This was the first day where I truly WANTED a dip, wanting and craving are two different things to me and this scared the hell out of me. I look back at those thoughts right after hitting HOF and wondering what it would be like to go at this quit alone again and not worrying about getting on roll every day. As they say, "that is the addict in you talking", how true it is!
The only way I did get through this memorable day is through my brothers in Quit from August and other I have built a bond with. I didn't realize it at the time but I have been training for that day during my time here with KTC. Sort of like training where when you have to take swift action your training instincts take over. I got on the forum and supported other brothers and quit groups. I texted half of the brothers/sisters that I share digits with. I went back to basics and drank a shit-load of H2O, devoured a bag of seeds. All of these things I've learned here at KTC.
So to who ever may come across this rambling, new quitter or vet. DONT FOR A FUCKING SECOND TAKE WHAT WE DO HERE FOR GRANTED. Because if I would have, my cave date would have been October 25th, 2016.
Somehow I found my way to the Introductions page today. Great job using your resources here ... that's what this site is for.
Just a heads up ... know that if you would have/do cave ... I will drive across this great state and kick your ass.
Good on you for using what you learned! I am happy I read this post, it makes my quit stronger!
Brother, the line about "training for that day" hit the nail on the head. I need to remember that.
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Congrats on 300 Heffe!!
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Congrats on 300 Heffe!!
Thank you for the acknowledgment ChickDip!!
See, this is why I am still quit at day 300, brother/sister support. Take all other elements of KTC away and this is the bond that truly keeps us quit. I continue to focus on ODAAT time but these milestones really mean a lot to me. The next 65 days will be building up to my first full year of being nicotine free. In the early days of my quit there was so much encouragement to "get digits" and build relationships. I thought that was weird, I'm a grown ass man and I don't need a bunch of "imaginary internet friends" (as my wife still calls you all!), I just need to post a promise every day. Ha Ha Ha! Little did I know at that time what these relationships would end up really meaning to me, and I have yet to meet any quitter in person yet!!
I do consider myself an avid drinker of the KTC Koolaid. I try to pay forward what I have taken from this site and from those who I have gotten to know. So I tip my hat and throw our a "CHEERS!" to everyone who has helped me and to those I can help!!!!
300 Days, the higher I climb, the clearer the view...............
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Congrats on 300 brother!! You are a rock solid quitter and proud to fight alongside this battle with you!! ODAAT
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Congrats on 300 brother!! You are a rock solid quitter and proud to fight alongside this battle with you!! ODAAT
Congratulations on 300 my friend!
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Heffanator,
It's with great admiration and respect that I congratulate you on third floor status. You have been there through thick and thin for me. I quit with you today and every day.
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Hey Brother, Nice job on 1-year!
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Hey Brother, Nice job on 1-year!
I trip around the sun dip free - CHECK! Gratz!
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Hey Brother, Nice job on 1-year!
I trip around the sun dip free - CHECK! Gratz!
Hells yeah! 1 year is a real milestone bro! Most excellent!
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Heffe! Congrats on 400!
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Heffe! Congrats on 400!
Heffster,
Couldn't be prouder than to be quit with you. Thanks for all the laughs and making no quit fun.
You partner in quit, FF
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Nice 400 Jheff!!! Keep knocking them down brother
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500!!!
Nice half dangle, Heff! Congratulations!
'party2' 'party2' 'party2'
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500!!!
Nice half dangle, Heff! Congratulations!
'party2' 'party2' 'party2'
Congrats to my fellow Traumatizer on 500!
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500!!!
Nice half dangle, Heff! Congratulations!
'party2' 'party2' 'party2'
Congrats to my fellow Traumatizer on 500!
Congrats on 500 Heffe!!
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500!!!
Nice half dangle, Heff! Congratulations!
'party2' 'party2' 'party2'
Congrats to my fellow Traumatizer on 500!
Congrats on 500 Heffe!!
Congrats to an awesome quitter!
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700 CLUB!!!!
Congratulations, Heffer!!!!
'party2' 'party2' 'party2'
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700 CLUB!!!!
Congratulations, Heffer!!!!
'party2' 'party2' 'party2'
Way to quit HEFFE!! Nice view from the 7th!
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700 CLUB!!!!
Congratulations, Heffer!!!!
'party2' 'party2' 'party2'
Way to quit HEFFE!! Nice view from the 7th!
Attaboy Jheff! Proud to be quitting with you
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700 CLUB!!!!
Congratulations, Heffer!!!!
'party2' 'party2' 'party2'
Way to quit HEFFE!! Nice view from the 7th!
Attaboy Jheff! Proud to be quitting with you
7th floor!!!! Hell Yeah!!!!
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2 YEARS!!!!
Congratulations on two full laps!!! Proud to be quit with you!
'party2'
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2 YEARS!!!!
Congratulations on two full laps!!! Proud to be quit with you!
'party2'
Congrats brother!!! You picked such a wonderful date to quit!!
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2 YEARS!!!!
Congratulations on two full laps!!! Proud to be quit with you!
'party2'
Congrats brother!!! You picked such a wonderful date to quit!!
Congrats in your 2 years quit Heffe!
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2 YEARS!!!!
Congratulations on two full laps!!! Proud to be quit with you!
'party2'
Congrats brother!!! You picked such a wonderful date to quit!!
Congrats in your 2 years quit Heffe!
Attaboy! 2 years well done!