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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: NozzleHead on August 29, 2014, 02:43:00 PM
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Hopefully this post makes sense, I'm on day 2 and i'm guessing i've made my way back into the fog. Here goes nothing.
I began dipping Marlboro Snus in high school, about 5 years ago(yeah I know, that sissy shit). Well, that "sissy shit" led me right into dipping skoal wintergreen pouches...which then led to grizzly wintergreen pouches...all the way up to grizzly wintergreen longcut. I dipped the hell out of that stuff up until two days ago, averaging a can or more a day. My mom begged me to quit,my dad told me I was a fucking Idiot, my sister was heartbroken...And I did'nt care. I had my best friend, the only thing I'd ever need, the only one who could get me through the good and the bad times, that dirty rotten nic bitch. All my friends dip. My crew at the Fire department where I work dips. Dipping was literally my only hobby. The only thing I had an interest in was packing a fatty. When my wife and I started dating, I told her I would quit. I did for a few days, but ended up saying screw it, and dipped behind her back. I evenutually guilted her into letting me dip again, no strings attached. She acted like she was fine with it for awhile, but after a few months she asked me to stop again. This was a revolving door. I would "quit" (as far as she knew) and dip like hell when she wasnt around..Then tell her I needed to start back.REPEAT. Here recently i've been more than looking forward to going to work to get away from her so I could dip all I want, without having to hear any bitching about it. I grew to resent her, to think it was her fault I couldnt be free and do what I wanted, and my demeanor towards her was pretty aggressive at times. My temper was terrible,my fuse was short, and the only thing that could calm me down and bring me back was packing a fatass grizzly wintergreen longcut in my lip. The only thing me and my dip-friends did was dip. We dipped so we could bond(I know that sounds fucking stupid) I happened upon this site a few times a couple months back, never really looked into it or thought anything of it. Then yesterday morning I went out and bought two brand new cans. Withing 25 Minutes, i had already put in and spit out two dips, about to put in my third. I found this website again, and started reading thinking "Hey, I think Im gonna quit, but after these cans are gone" Thats when I read the 100 reasons to quit dipping on the homepage.. I took my unopened can and gave it to my partner..I took the other one,opened the top, and slung that cancer-causing worm dirt bullshit all over the ground. And guess what, I feel super confident in my quit this time. With the support of the people on this site, the great articles, and smokey mountain herbal, I KNOW that I can quit, and remain quit. Because I am stronger than the can. 'Finger'
Thanks guys, Sorry if i rambled, i'm pretty out of it lol.
-NozzleHead
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NozzleHead, thanks for sharing, and congrats on your life-changing decision. I'm sure you are in the fog bad right now - maybe can't see straight, think strait, feel like your heart's going to beat out of your chest, etc. Hang in there and bust through it. By the end of the weekend you will be feeling a whole bunch better. You got this. Quit with you today brother!
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Thank you brother! And thank you for reading, I feel like I have lifted some serious weight off of my shoulders!Thank you for the support, and happy quitting!
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Thank you brother! And thank you for reading, I feel like I have lifted some serious weight off of my shoulders!Thank you for the support, and happy quitting!
You will succeed only if YOU want to. Glad you looked up Monster. I will also be watching out for you. Glad to be quit with ya.
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Quit one day at a time. Wake up, post roll and promise that you won't use nicotine for any reason that day. If you can be a man of your word for 24 hours then you got this. The next day. Wake up, piss, post roll. Repeat.
Read everything you can get your hands on on this site. Use the live chat options. You are going to feel like shit for a few days. Drink lots of water, chew seeds or gum- anything but nicotine.
Here is why your parents, your sister and your wife want you to quit. They don't want to see you go through this: topic/1008847/1/#new (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/1008847/1/#new)
You got this if you own it. Own your quit.
Quit on.
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One change to your thinking. Dipping isnÂ’t a hobby, itÂ’s an addiction. Addictions kill, hobbies entertain, they pass time. Addictions kill the time you have left on earth.
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One change to your thinking. Dipping isnÂ’t a hobby, itÂ’s an addiction. Addictions kill, hobbies entertain, they pass time. Addictions kill the time you have left on earth.
^^^^^ So very true. Great catch and post slug.go
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Very true. I guess it had me clouded, and tricked me into thinking it was a hobby. 4 days into it today,though. Hasn't been AS hard as I thought.....yet. But I have been pretty busy. Cravings come and go. Fake and chewing on plastic keeps me occupied when they do.lol 'dance'
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Keep reading KTC NozzleHead. All the knowledge you need to quit nicotine is here. It will be a rollercoaster of suck and ok for a while, but it gets so much better. The KTC plan works. Learn the plan; then live the plan. PM me if you need anything.
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The best part is the support..I don't know any of you guys..not your real names, your faces... But I feel like I owe this quit to y'all just as much as i do to myself... You all are going to be my backbone when I can't find mine. Thanks guys. All of y'all. I quit with you all today
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The best part is the support..I don't know any of you guys..not your real names, your faces... But I feel like I owe this quit to y'all just as much as i do to myself... You all are going to be my backbone when I can't find mine. Thanks guys. All of y'all. I quit with you all today
Keep it up Nozz ... glad to get your digits bro! Jump into December with both feet, and find some brothers with the same mentality and FIGHT! This is your quit, own it. You've got this, even when the fog gets bad ... keep posting roll, keep leaning on your bros!
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The best part is the support..I don't know any of you guys..not your real names, your faces... But I feel like I owe this quit to y'all just as much as i do to myself... You all are going to be my backbone when I can't find mine. Thanks guys. All of y'all. I quit with you all today
That part took me awhile too.
Bunch 'o' strange Internet dudes?... Weird. Ghey, even!
But... You won't find anyone else who knows you better than we do. We know what you're gonna feel and think and go through... And that matters. Open yourself up ~ get involved ~ stay involved. Freedom is here and it's yours for the taking.
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One thing that I have learned is that none of us are unique or special. We all have the same basic story. I read so many things in your story and can totally relate to it. Glad you are here now.
We post roll here everyday it is the single most important thing we do here. When you post roll you make a promise to yourself and to us that you will not use nicotine for today only. We wake tomorrow good lord willing and repeat.
You should check into the welcome center and read read read do the ground work to keep your quit a priority.
PM me if you need anything.
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Nozzle ... MIA yesterday, no post today (as of yet). Multiple texts not answered. WTF?
I KNOW that I can quit, and remain quit. Because I am stronger than the can!
Stronger than the can for 13 days, not 14? Not looking good for this one. Sucks, I had high hopes! Prove me wrong Dylan ... get your ass back in here!
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Nozzle ... MIA yesterday, no post today (as of yet). Multiple texts not answered. WTF?
I KNOW that I can quit, and remain quit. Because I am stronger than the can!
Stronger than the can for 13 days, not 14? Not looking good for this one. Sucks, I had high hopes! Prove me wrong Dylan ... get your ass back in here!
FUCK THAT.
I'm never going back to a day 1.... NEVER. 13 days... so close to freedom except he never chose to be free.
PS... I hope he was out fighting fires and not upping his chance for cancer.
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Nozzle ... MIA yesterday, no post today (as of yet). Multiple texts not answered. WTF?
I KNOW that I can quit, and remain quit. Because I am stronger than the can!
Stronger than the can for 13 days, not 14? Not looking good for this one. Sucks, I had high hopes! Prove me wrong Dylan ... get your ass back in here!
FUCK THAT.
I'm never going back to a day 1.... NEVER. 13 days... so close to freedom except he never chose to be free.
PS... I hope he was out fighting fires and not upping his chance for cancer.
I'm hoping the same 30 ... (I don't even like typing HOPE)!
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Nozzle ... MIA yesterday, no post today (as of yet). Multiple texts not answered. WTF?
I KNOW that I can quit, and remain quit. Because I am stronger than the can!
Stronger than the can for 13 days, not 14? Not looking good for this one. Sucks, I had high hopes! Prove me wrong Dylan ... get your ass back in here!
FUCK THAT.
I'm never going back to a day 1.... NEVER. 13 days... so close to freedom except he never chose to be free.
PS... I hope he was out fighting fires and not upping his chance for cancer.
I'm hoping the same 30 ... (I don't even like typing HOPE)!
Noooooooooooooozzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzlllllllllllllllllllllllllllleee, where are you?
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Well damn. I was all excited to see another brother firefighter on here. Where the fuck are you nozzle?
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Nozzle and I had texted a few times after Raider pointed him my way. Unfortunately, I've texted him 5 times today and he's read each one without a single reply (being that we both have iPhones and he has read receipts turned on).
It's a damn shame. I thought he would stick around. It certainly wasn't from a lack of effort on the part of the people here.
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to have the opportunity to quit at 21 and to walk away....
I guess he wasn't "ready". I guess he has to spend a few more years wondering if those lumps are cancer.
Probably get married within 5 years... Instead of fully enjoying the day he is going to be looking for excuses to slip away to feed his addiction. A lipper and a tux. Good times.
Honeymoon cruise? Excuse me hon.. I have to go somewhere.....
When the kids come he will only be able to play catch 10 minutes at a time, "excuse me, son, daddys gotta go somewhere".... Trips to go on vacation? He'll be grumpy the whole car ride going through nicotine withdrawal.. probably have to stop at a rest area for a 10 minute "shit" every hour or so... Wife looking at him with disgust....
An entire lifetime stolen away by withdrawal. It's a shame he has chosen this path.... I wish I had all the time that I threw away on this stupid addiction back... but I made my choices. He apparently has made his as well.
Course if he is really unlucky he will have that visit to the doctor... you know the one that gets a phone call home a couple of days later... "Mr Nozzle, please contact us as soon as you get this, we need to set up an appointment..."
Let the good times roll. Pack that lip, it's all good.
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to have the opportunity to quit at 21 and to walk away....
I guess he wasn't "ready". I guess he has to spend a few more years wondering if those lumps are cancer.
Probably get married within 5 years... Instead of fully enjoying the day he is going to be looking for excuses to slip away to feed his addiction. A lipper and a tux. Good times.
Honeymoon cruise? Excuse me hon.. I have to go somewhere.....
When the kids come he will only be able to play catch 10 minutes at a time, "excuse me, son, daddys gotta go somewhere".... Trips to go on vacation? He'll be grumpy the whole car ride going through nicotine withdrawal.. probably have to stop at a rest area for a 10 minute "shit" every hour or so... Wife looking at him with disgust....
An entire lifetime stolen away by withdrawal. It's a shame he has chosen this path.... I wish I had all the time that I threw away on this stupid addiction back... but I made my choices. He apparently has made his as well.
Course if he is really unlucky he will have that visit to the doctor... you know the one that gets a phone call home a couple of days later... "Mr Nozzle, please contact us as soon as you get this, we need to set up an appointment..."
Let the good times roll. Pack that lip, it's all good.
That is some cold hard truth telling right there. Every word cuts deep to the bone. I wish he would return and read it. Damn.
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to have the opportunity to quit at 21 and to walk away....
I guess he wasn't "ready". I guess he has to spend a few more years wondering if those lumps are cancer.
Probably get married within 5 years... Instead of fully enjoying the day he is going to be looking for excuses to slip away to feed his addiction. A lipper and a tux. Good times.
Honeymoon cruise? Excuse me hon.. I have to go somewhere.....
When the kids come he will only be able to play catch 10 minutes at a time, "excuse me, son, daddys gotta go somewhere".... Trips to go on vacation? He'll be grumpy the whole car ride going through nicotine withdrawal.. probably have to stop at a rest area for a 10 minute "shit" every hour or so... Wife looking at him with disgust....
An entire lifetime stolen away by withdrawal. It's a shame he has chosen this path.... I wish I had all the time that I threw away on this stupid addiction back... but I made my choices. He apparently has made his as well.
Course if he is really unlucky he will have that visit to the doctor... you know the one that gets a phone call home a couple of days later... "Mr Nozzle, please contact us as soon as you get this, we need to set up an appointment..."
Let the good times roll. Pack that lip, it's all good.
That is some cold hard truth telling right there. Every word cuts deep to the bone. I wish he would return and read it. Damn.
No shit! Every word was a jab in this old farts heart. I waited till I started repeating the same bullshit excuses with the grandkids. My decision is renewed every day, I QUIT!!!!
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to have the opportunity to quit at 21 and to walk away....
I guess he wasn't "ready". I guess he has to spend a few more years wondering if those lumps are cancer.
Probably get married within 5 years... Instead of fully enjoying the day he is going to be looking for excuses to slip away to feed his addiction. A lipper and a tux. Good times.
Honeymoon cruise? Excuse me hon.. I have to go somewhere.....
When the kids come he will only be able to play catch 10 minutes at a time, "excuse me, son, daddys gotta go somewhere".... Trips to go on vacation? He'll be grumpy the whole car ride going through nicotine withdrawal.. probably have to stop at a rest area for a 10 minute "shit" every hour or so... Wife looking at him with disgust....
An entire lifetime stolen away by withdrawal. It's a shame he has chosen this path.... I wish I had all the time that I threw away on this stupid addiction back... but I made my choices. He apparently has made his as well.
Course if he is really unlucky he will have that visit to the doctor... you know the one that gets a phone call home a couple of days later... "Mr Nozzle, please contact us as soon as you get this, we need to set up an appointment..."
Let the good times roll. Pack that lip, it's all good.
That is some cold hard truth telling right there. Every word cuts deep to the bone. I wish he would return and read it. Damn.
No shit! Every word was a jab in this old farts heart. I waited till I started repeating the same bullshit excuses with the grandkids. My decision is renewed every day, I QUIT!!!!
Nail on the head.