KillTheCan.org Accountability Forum
Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Fearls on November 09, 2014, 02:18:00 PM
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Hello Quitters,
Fearls here- I am in my Day 10 quit. I found this site a year or so ago when i wanted to quit again for the 10th time- and think i put it out of my mind due to the scary reality that i didn't want to believe.
I am 35. I smoked in college and like others- turned to dip as a "better" alternative. 10+ years later and found myself unable to stop- for a single half day. Paranoid. Anxious all the time. Hiding it from my family, kids asking my what was in my eating. Staying up until 2am "working" but really just to have some dip time. Worrying if i had enough to get through the next few plugs. Really Dip running every thought of my life- living one dip to the next. Dental fears- oh and of course death.
I tried it all in the past- Mint Chew, smokey mt, nicotine lozenges/gum, seeds- always managed to go back the old Copenhagen Wintergreen. Only when came back to the site last week- it occurred to me what was missing. Support. There was nothing stopping me from going back other then myself. Also- just replacing nicotine with less Nicotine- wouldn't work. That was always my go to for quitting- Nic gum or lozenges.
A little over a week a go i just had enough. i was tired of it all. Tired of being scared- but worse, tired of talking myself out of being scared.
I was sick last week which made it easier to get through day one- then roughed though the 3 hell days. Just Gum and water. I did this all prior to posting the first roll around day 5. That is when it was needed. The real trick is to quit forever- which cant be done without another level of "mental" support. After a week- its all mental and in the past it was just me talking myself out of my quit. I don't want that to happen again.
I am happy to be here and thanks so much for all the welcome support I have already gotten.
Fearls
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Welcome! It looks like you've been posting roll. Successfully too which is something to be proud of. Glad you've made the best decision of your life. Being day 10 it probably sucks a lot right now, but it will get better. Let's remember, you've never quit until now, you've stopped, but never quit before.
Welcome aboard, I quit with you today!
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Hello Quitters,
Fearls here- I am in my Day 10 quit. I found this site a year or so ago when i wanted to quit again for the 10th time- and think i put it out of my mind due to the scary reality that i didn't want to believe.
I am 35. I smoked in college and like others- turned to dip as a "better" alternative. 10+ years later and found myself unable to stop- for a single half day. Paranoid. Anxious all the time. Hiding it from my family, kids asking my what was in my eating. Staying up until 2am "working" but really just to have some dip time. Worrying if i had enough to get through the next few plugs. Really Dip running every thought of my life- living one dip to the next. Dental fears- oh and of course death.
I tried it all in the past- Mint Chew, smokey mt, nicotine lozenges/gum, seeds- always managed to go back the old Copenhagen Wintergreen. Only when came back to the site last week- it occurred to me what was missing. Support. There was nothing stopping me from going back other then myself. Also- just replacing nicotine with less Nicotine- wouldn't work. That was always my go to for quitting- Nic gum or lozenges.
A little over a week a go i just had enough. i was tired of it all. Tired of being scared- but worse, tired of talking myself out of being scared.
I was sick last week which made it easier to get through day one- then roughed though the 3 hell days. Just Gum and water. I did this all prior to posting the first roll around day 5. That is when it was needed. The real trick is to quit forever- which cant be done without another level of "mental" support. After a week- its all mental and in the past it was just me talking myself out of my quit. I don't want that to happen again.
I am happy to be here and thanks so much for all the welcome support I have already gotten.
Fearls
That's my story 100% and you're here. Don't leave. This site works. This is my 98th day quit and not one of the many stops I made before. Post as much as possible in your group as well as others because the more you help others the more you help yourself. Please do more than just post roll daily. Posting roll is the cornerstone of KTC but site wide participation will help you hand over fist by engaging the vets and newbies at the same time. If you need phone numbers, send a PM to whoever you want in your corner...we are all here to help.
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Welcome! You're posting roll! That's awesome! It's not hard is it? Takes what, about 20 seconds? Something so simple, and so little effort can mean a ton. Keep up the good work!
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Starting solo is bad ass, but posting roll daily and getting support from people going through the same thing is even more badassish. I quit all damn day with you.
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Congratulations quit brother!!! Every day the mental effort gets easier and easier. Stay strong! Stay quit!!!
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Nice work - I also "bookmarked" this site like 3 years ago and then made every excuse in the book to avoid quitting and even avoided looking at the name "Kill the can" in my Favorites! Well I was finally ready and it sounds like you are too. I've been on this earth for 38 years and for 22 of them I was stuffing my face with this shit. Read as much as you can and you'll see the stories on here are the same as yours.
Follow the plan and you can do this.
I'll quit with you today.
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That's awesome that you made it thus far! I have started today and am not ready for the hell that is to come but I am more than ready to not deal with the bulls hit anymore. Good luck!
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Congratulations on 300!
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Congratulations on 300!
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Congratulations on one Year!!!
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Congratulations on one Year!!!
A little over a week a go i just had enough. i was tired of it all. Tired of being scared- but worse, tired of talking myself out of being scared.
Sir that would be ONE YEAR AND A WEEK AGO! YOU BA!!!!!!
Respect you and your Quit brother.
Rawls 347
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Congratulations on 400!
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Congratulations on 500!
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Congratulations on 600!
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Congratulations on 700 days!
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Belated congratulations on 800 days!
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Congratulations on 900 days
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Congratulations on 1,000 days!