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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: jRock on February 10, 2010, 10:03:00 AM
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So I've been trolling around here since I started my quit Saturday night/Sunday, reading through introductions and HOF speeches. I'm not sure why it took me this long to finally register but now I've done it. I think it might have been I wanted to prove to myself I wasn't gonna be a failure before I introduced myself here. Well, here it goes.
Howdy everbody! I'm Jeremy. I've been a can a day dipper for about six years now. It all started back in HS with that good ole sport baseball. It got to the point where I practically lived with a dip in, only taking one out to eat, sleep, or put another in. I'll be honest, I stumbled upon this site Saturday night with a dip in. I've always wanted to quit, but I've never thought I had the willpower to do it. After reading some of those HOF speeches I decided now was the time to start my quit, because there was no better time and the more I put it off the more of a hold that bitch had on me.
Haven't had a good night's sleep since I quit, that shit sucks. Had a dream last night that I think may have been from quitting. I remember having one hell of a time trying to get a can open, and when I finally did it looked like that beef jerky stuff inside, all pale and shitty looking but I stuffed one in anyways. The only other thing I remember from the dream is the can being about 3/4 empty after I put one in, but then I woke up. I didn't really feel bad because I knew it was a dream, but I did wake up sweaty with a bit of drool.
Well, I think that's enough of an introduction. It's time for Day 4 of my quit.
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So I've been trolling around here since I started my quit Saturday night/Sunday, reading through introductions and HOF speeches. I'm not sure why it took me this long to finally register but now I've done it. I think it might have been I wanted to prove to myself I wasn't gonna be a failure before I introduced myself here. Well, here it goes.
Howdy everbody! I'm Jeremy. I've been a can a day dipper for about six years now. It all started back in HS with that good ole sport baseball. It got to the point where I practically lived with a dip in, only taking one out to eat, sleep, or put another in. I'll be honest, I stumbled upon this site Saturday night with a dip in. I've always wanted to quit, but I've never thought I had the willpower to do it. After reading some of those HOF speeches I decided now was the time to start my quit, because there was no better time and the more I put it off the more of a hold that bitch had on me.
Haven't had a good night's sleep since I quit, that shit sucks. Had a dream last night that I think may have been from quitting. I remember having one hell of a time trying to get a can open, and when I finally did it looked like that beef jerky stuff inside, all pale and shitty looking but I stuffed one in anyways. The only other thing I remember from the dream is the can being about 3/4 empty after I put one in, but then I woke up. I didn't really feel bad because I knew it was a dream, but I did wake up sweaty with a bit of drool.
Well, I think that's enough of an introduction. It's time for Day 4 of my quit.
Oh hell yes!
Welcome Jeremy! Congratulations on your 3 days quit. Rumor has it, those are the physically toughest days to overcome. As for the dip dream, I had one just last week (I believe on day 624 of my quit) where I woke up with a feeling that I had been secretly chewing all along and I just came to the realization that this whole thing was a farce. Haunted me all day. It's just part of the mental healing process. Get ready for more but always remember that it's a sign that you're not clear of your addiction. Take this quit one day at a time and get involved with your May quit group. Build bonds to increase accountability to yourself and this community.
You've got this today. Welcome!
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So I've been trolling around here since I started my quit Saturday night/Sunday, reading through introductions and HOF speeches. I'm not sure why it took me this long to finally register but now I've done it. I think it might have been I wanted to prove to myself I wasn't gonna be a failure before I introduced myself here. Well, here it goes.
Howdy everbody! I'm Jeremy. I've been a can a day dipper for about six years now. It all started back in HS with that good ole sport baseball. It got to the point where I practically lived with a dip in, only taking one out to eat, sleep, or put another in. I'll be honest, I stumbled upon this site Saturday night with a dip in. I've always wanted to quit, but I've never thought I had the willpower to do it. After reading some of those HOF speeches I decided now was the time to start my quit, because there was no better time and the more I put it off the more of a hold that bitch had on me.
Haven't had a good night's sleep since I quit, that shit sucks. Had a dream last night that I think may have been from quitting. I remember having one hell of a time trying to get a can open, and when I finally did it looked like that beef jerky stuff inside, all pale and shitty looking but I stuffed one in anyways. The only other thing I remember from the dream is the can being about 3/4 empty after I put one in, but then I woke up. I didn't really feel bad because I knew it was a dream, but I did wake up sweaty with a bit of drool.
Well, I think that's enough of an introduction. It's time for Day 4 of my quit.
Haha, I'm on day 6 and I have been having the craziest dreams too, some about dip and others not. I have also been sweating like a hooker in church. My wife says I'm talking in my sleep a lot and I'm tossing and turning.
I guess it's all part of the process. I know one thing for sure, I am never going through this again!
Keep charging brother.
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So I've been trolling around here since I started my quit Saturday night/Sunday, reading through introductions and HOF speeches. I'm not sure why it took me this long to finally register but now I've done it. I think it might have been I wanted to prove to myself I wasn't gonna be a failure before I introduced myself here. Well, here it goes.
Howdy everbody! I'm Jeremy. I've been a can a day dipper for about six years now. It all started back in HS with that good ole sport baseball. It got to the point where I practically lived with a dip in, only taking one out to eat, sleep, or put another in. I'll be honest, I stumbled upon this site Saturday night with a dip in. I've always wanted to quit, but I've never thought I had the willpower to do it. After reading some of those HOF speeches I decided now was the time to start my quit, because there was no better time and the more I put it off the more of a hold that bitch had on me.
Haven't had a good night's sleep since I quit, that shit sucks. Had a dream last night that I think may have been from quitting. I remember having one hell of a time trying to get a can open, and when I finally did it looked like that beef jerky stuff inside, all pale and shitty looking but I stuffed one in anyways. The only other thing I remember from the dream is the can being about 3/4 empty after I put one in, but then I woke up. I didn't really feel bad because I knew it was a dream, but I did wake up sweaty with a bit of drool.
Well, I think that's enough of an introduction. It's time for Day 4 of my quit.
I've been talking in my sleep since I quit as well. Wife says it is alot of cussing, which I don't do much of in my waking hours.
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hah, Thanks. It was my first dream since I quit so it had to be weird of course. I think the hardest part is every five minutes I think to myself 'Boy I sure could use a dip' but every time I think that I just have to tell myself I don't.
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hah, Thanks. It was my first dream since I quit so it had to be weird of course. I think the hardest part is every five minutes I think to myself 'Boy I sure could use a dip' but every time I think that I just have to tell myself I don't.
Before you know it every 5 minutes turns into every 10, then 20, then 40 and so on and so on. Hang tough and it will get better.
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So do those giant trenches between the cheek and lip ever fill in or will I always be able to fit a roll of quarters there?
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So do those giant trenches between the cheek and lip ever fill in or will I always be able to fit a roll of quarters there?
It'll get better... might not every be "perfect" but as time goes by the trench will go away as well.
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So do those giant trenches between the cheek and lip ever fill in or will I always be able to fit a roll of quarters there?
It'll get better... might not every be "perfect" but as time goes by the trench will go away as well.
That's cool. Anything is better than what they're like now.
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 I think the hardest part is every five minutes I think to myself 'Boy I sure could use a dip' but every time I think that I just have to tell myself I don't.
God I know. I have been subconsciously just been thinking like, 'wait a minute something is missing', 'why is there not a dip in my mouth?'.. I am finishing up my first day without dip in 6 years but I have already recognized some of my triggers.. After I ate dinner and sat down at the computer it was almost second nature to reach up to my nightstand and grab my can.. But then I realized, fuck that nasty shit.. I'm done with it
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 I think the hardest part is every five minutes I think to myself 'Boy I sure could use a dip' but every time I think that I just have to tell myself I don't.
God I know. I have been subconsciously just been thinking like, 'wait a minute something is missing', 'why is there not a dip in my mouth?'.. I am finishing up my first day without dip in 6 years but I have already recognized some of my triggers.. After I ate dinner and sat down at the computer it was almost second nature to reach up to my nightstand and grab my can.. But then I realized, fuck that nasty shit.. I'm done with it
haha, Yea. Eating definitely sucks. Soon as I finish a meal I just get this feeling like I should be putting in a dip. Just gotta keep telling myself no.
I've found my favorite place to be now that I'm quit is the gym. I'm not sure what it is about that place, but it's the one place I can go and no matter how long I'm there, not think about nicotine. I like to think of it as my safe haven during the day, when I'm just sittin around and those laid back chillin urges come flying at me. That's when it's time to go hit the gym.
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 I think the hardest part is every five minutes I think to myself 'Boy I sure could use a dip' but every time I think that I just have to tell myself I don't.
God I know. I have been subconsciously just been thinking like, 'wait a minute something is missing', 'why is there not a dip in my mouth?'.. I am finishing up my first day without dip in 6 years but I have already recognized some of my triggers.. After I ate dinner and sat down at the computer it was almost second nature to reach up to my nightstand and grab my can.. But then I realized, fuck that nasty shit.. I'm done with it
haha, Yea. Eating definitely sucks. Soon as I finish a meal I just get this feeling like I should be putting in a dip. Just gotta keep telling myself no.
I've found my favorite place to be now that I'm quit is the gym. I'm not sure what it is about that place, but it's the one place I can go and no matter how long I'm there, not think about nicotine. I like to think of it as my safe haven during the day, when I'm just sittin around and those laid back chillin urges come flying at me. That's when it's time to go hit the gym.
Physical exertion definitely seems like a good way to keep the mind busy and not thinking about nicotine. I have been banging out 25 push-ups whenever I feel a craving come on. If I keep that up I'm gonna be all Arnold Schwarzenegger in this bitch.