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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Swizle on May 03, 2013, 02:03:00 PM
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Hello. My name is Andrew Smith, 27 years old from (just moved here) Lansing, Michigan. I have been dipping for almost 2 years. Grizzly Long Cut Wintergreen and Mint. I've always had a mouth fixation since childhood. Chewing my fingernails, chewing on paper/plastic. My friend introduced me to Camel SNUS, and that soon progressed to the Grizzly. The dip fulfilled everything I needed. Gave me the buzz that I seek, being a casual drug seeker. I don't go out of my way for prescription pills, but when they are prescribed to me, I typically abuse them.
I quit on Monday April, 29th, and was good up until yesterday. I was out at a sports bar watching my Tigers barely beat the horrible Astros. Drank a few beers, which I knew was a mistake. My favorite time to chew is when I am either smoking pot (I love pot, but that is a WHOLE NOTHER legal/moral discussion) and when I drink beer. On the way home I stopped at a gas station and I broke. Walked up to the counter ashamed of myself and said "Grizzly Long Cut Wintergreen, please"
I cracked. After almost 4 days of surviving. Not being able to sleep, not wanting to talk to anybody. Just sitting up in my bedroom watching CSI, listenting to my books and playing with my dogs. I cracked. Now, just over 12 hours later, my can is almost done and I can't do this again. I have had multiple bouts of crying, I even smoked a few ciggarettes trying to survive the onslaught of mind games that my head was putting me through (I HATE ciggarettes, growing up my family tortured me with them. Always chain smoking, irritating my lungs and my eyes. I truly do hate ciggerettes, which is why I felt safe to smoke one to take the edge off)
I am hoping that this forum can help me in times of need. My wife gets home in about an hour. I got one dip left to finish. Yeah, I know I should throw it out, but if I were that strong, I wouldn't need help to quit.
My wife has been begging me to quit. Some would say that I am doing it for her, but only partly. I know what dip does to the human body. Having my mother taken from me by cancer in her early 40's, I know the effect that carcinogens have on family and the personal pain that the diagnosis brings. I want to do it for myself too.
I used to be terribly morbidly obese. I had lap-band surgery in December of 2011 and gave gone from 450 lbs to 320 lbs. During my 4 days of "sobriety" I found myself wanting to eat constantly. Non-stop, similar to the feeling of the "munchies" that cannabis entails. I haven't figured out a way to combat that yet. I have been looking for tobaccoless chewing product, but have had no success yet. I try to combat the oral fixation with wintergreen and spearmint flavored mints, but they only do so much, and give me heartburn like no other.
Anyway, this is my introduction. I will be consuming my last dip of my "cheat" can here in a few minutes and again, I will attempt to make my quit permanent. I would like to thank everyone ahead of time for any help or support that you can give to me. We may all be strangers, but all best friends start out as strangers at one point.
I do have one question. . . Do I tell the wife that I cheated? Do I let her know that I caved in during a moment of weakness and broke my streak of 4 days? I'm not really sure how she will take it. She seemed alright knowing that I smoke a few cigs during my 4 day streak, but she knows as well as I do how much I hate ciggarettes, but god dammit I love chew lol.
Well, here we go. Time to fire up another episode of CSI (Gil Grissom is the best TV character of ALL TIME) Put in my last cheat dip and prepare to start the hell all over again.
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Welcome Swizle. IÂ’m sure many others can introduce you to the site better than I, but look around and read as much as you can. Start posting roll tomorrow morning (youÂ’re Pre-HOF August 2013). Start building a support network by engaging with as many quitters as you can. ItÂ’s that network (as well as your quit group) that youÂ’ll rely on when things get tough. Best to have that in place BEFORE the shit hits the fan. PM me if you wanna swap digits. PM someone else if you wanna swap bodily fluids. I hereby quit with you today (or technically, I guess, tomorrow).
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Hello. My name is Andrew Smith, 27 years old from (just moved here) Lansing, Michigan. I have been dipping for almost 2 years. Grizzly Long Cut Wintergreen and Mint. I've always had a mouth fixation since childhood. Chewing my fingernails, chewing on paper/plastic. My friend introduced me to Camel SNUS, and that soon progressed to the Grizzly. The dip fulfilled everything I needed. Gave me the buzz that I seek, being a casual drug seeker. I don't go out of my way for prescription pills, but when they are prescribed to me, I typically abuse them.
I quit on Monday April, 29th, and was good up until yesterday. I was out at a sports bar watching my Tigers barely beat the horrible Astros. Drank a few beers, which I knew was a mistake. My favorite time to chew is when I am either smoking pot (I love pot, but that is a WHOLE NOTHER legal/moral discussion) and when I drink beer. On the way home I stopped at a gas station and I broke. Walked up to the counter ashamed of myself and said "Grizzly Long Cut Wintergreen, please"
I cracked. After almost 4 days of surviving. Not being able to sleep, not wanting to talk to anybody. Just sitting up in my bedroom watching CSI, listenting to my books and playing with my dogs. I cracked. Now, just over 12 hours later, my can is almost done and I can't do this again. I have had multiple bouts of crying, I even smoked a few ciggarettes trying to survive the onslaught of mind games that my head was putting me through (I HATE ciggarettes, growing up my family tortured me with them. Always chain smoking, irritating my lungs and my eyes. I truly do hate ciggerettes, which is why I felt safe to smoke one to take the edge off)
I am hoping that this forum can help me in times of need. My wife gets home in about an hour. I got one dip left to finish. Yeah, I know I should throw it out, but if I were that strong, I wouldn't need help to quit.
My wife has been begging me to quit. Some would say that I am doing it for her, but only partly. I know what dip does to the human body. Having my mother taken from me by cancer in her early 40's, I know the effect that carcinogens have on family and the personal pain that the diagnosis brings. I want to do it for myself too.
I used to be terribly morbidly obese. I had lap-band surgery in December of 2011 and gave gone from 450 lbs to 320 lbs. During my 4 days of "sobriety" I found myself wanting to eat constantly. Non-stop, similar to the feeling of the "munchies" that cannabis entails. I haven't figured out a way to combat that yet. I have been looking for tobaccoless chewing product, but have had no success yet. I try to combat the oral fixation with wintergreen and spearmint flavored mints, but they only do so much, and give me heartburn like no other.
Anyway, this is my introduction. I will be consuming my last dip of my "cheat" can here in a few minutes and again, I will attempt to make my quit permanent. I would like to thank everyone ahead of time for any help or support that you can give to me. We may all be strangers, but all best friends start out as strangers at one point.
I do have one question. . . Do I tell the wife that I cheated? Do I let her know that I caved in during a moment of weakness and broke my streak of 4 days? I'm not really sure how she will take it. She seemed alright knowing that I smoke a few cigs during my 4 day streak, but she knows as well as I do how much I hate ciggarettes, but god dammit I love chew lol.
Well, here we go. Time to fire up another episode of CSI (Gil Grissom is the best TV character of ALL TIME) Put in my last cheat dip and prepare to start the hell all over again.
Get in post everyday nobody has or will tolerate a cave and a sissy excuse. You need to get some numbers and call on the people to talk to you. There are some really great people here that can help you out I know because I am a quitter and just entered the hof on tuesday.
Rules you need to know:
Post every day in your group
do not use nic at all
you will quit everyday it does not come easy I know I was there 102 days ago
dont fuck up
do not cave
no excusses for using
you will be acountable for your posting in your quit group.
DO NOT US THE NIC BITCH
you can quit it is not easy so saddle up or be a pussy and go love the nic whore.
my number isxxxxxxxxxx use it I will answer beleive me I have taken two calls from ktc brothers at midnight and at 1 am.
I will quit with you.
dkite.
Oh yeah tell your wife everything she needs to know. Tell her to trust you and talk with her it helps.
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Hello. My name is Andrew Smith, 27 years old from (just moved here) Lansing, Michigan. I have been dipping for almost 2 years. Grizzly Long Cut Wintergreen and Mint. I've always had a mouth fixation since childhood. Chewing my fingernails, chewing on paper/plastic. My friend introduced me to Camel SNUS, and that soon progressed to the Grizzly. The dip fulfilled everything I needed. Gave me the buzz that I seek, being a casual drug seeker. I don't go out of my way for prescription pills, but when they are prescribed to me, I typically abuse them.
I quit on Monday April, 29th, and was good up until yesterday. I was out at a sports bar watching my Tigers barely beat the horrible Astros. Drank a few beers, which I knew was a mistake. My favorite time to chew is when I am either smoking pot (I love pot, but that is a WHOLE NOTHER legal/moral discussion) and when I drink beer. On the way home I stopped at a gas station and I broke. Walked up to the counter ashamed of myself and said "Grizzly Long Cut Wintergreen, please"
I cracked. After almost 4 days of surviving. Not being able to sleep, not wanting to talk to anybody. Just sitting up in my bedroom watching CSI, listenting to my books and playing with my dogs. I cracked. Now, just over 12 hours later, my can is almost done and I can't do this again. I have had multiple bouts of crying, I even smoked a few ciggarettes trying to survive the onslaught of mind games that my head was putting me through (I HATE ciggarettes, growing up my family tortured me with them. Always chain smoking, irritating my lungs and my eyes. I truly do hate ciggerettes, which is why I felt safe to smoke one to take the edge off)
I am hoping that this forum can help me in times of need. My wife gets home in about an hour. I got one dip left to finish. Yeah, I know I should throw it out, but if I were that strong, I wouldn't need help to quit.
My wife has been begging me to quit. Some would say that I am doing it for her, but only partly. I know what dip does to the human body. Having my mother taken from me by cancer in her early 40's, I know the effect that carcinogens have on family and the personal pain that the diagnosis brings. I want to do it for myself too.
I used to be terribly morbidly obese. I had lap-band surgery in December of 2011 and gave gone from 450 lbs to 320 lbs. During my 4 days of "sobriety" I found myself wanting to eat constantly. Non-stop, similar to the feeling of the "munchies" that cannabis entails. I haven't figured out a way to combat that yet. I have been looking for tobaccoless chewing product, but have had no success yet. I try to combat the oral fixation with wintergreen and spearmint flavored mints, but they only do so much, and give me heartburn like no other.
Anyway, this is my introduction. I will be consuming my last dip of my "cheat" can here in a few minutes and again, I will attempt to make my quit permanent. I would like to thank everyone ahead of time for any help or support that you can give to me. We may all be strangers, but all best friends start out as strangers at one point.
I do have one question. . . Do I tell the wife that I cheated? Do I let her know that I caved in during a moment of weakness and broke my streak of 4 days? I'm not really sure how she will take it. She seemed alright knowing that I smoke a few cigs during my 4 day streak, but she knows as well as I do how much I hate ciggarettes, but god dammit I love chew lol.
Well, here we go. Time to fire up another episode of CSI (Gil Grissom is the best TV character of ALL TIME) Put in my last cheat dip and prepare to start the hell all over again.
Andrew, I have to tell you,,, all your post tells me is that your not serious about quitting. I know your mind is all screwed up right now. Let me enlighten you just a little. First of all,, you are addicted to one of the most addictive known drugs to man. (That being nicotine). It sounds like your addicted to other drugs as well. When you took a 4 day break from dipping you were puffing on cancer sticks,, so all you were doing is keeping your addiction fed. It takes 4 days to get all the nicotine out of your system,, we call it going through the suck. You haven't even begun to feel that yet. Right now you are up to your eyelids with addiction and I don't know if you realize it. Let me know when you are serious about quitting,, I'm not even sure you wrote your intro without a dip, joint or whatever. I'll stop with that,, think about it. Come back when your serious.
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Andrew, I have to agree with Srans on the "off the shelf analysis" of your desire to quit. It seems that you are confused, troubled and not really dedicated to quitting nicotine right now. I hope we are wrong, but your intro leaves us with alot more questions than answers. When you decide to really quit for you and can do without all the other crutches like pot, beer, food,etc. for a while, we are here. It is time to grow the hell up and take the bull by the horns. We will all quit with you when you are ready to quit with us, but you have to take that first step. PM me or the others on this site that have left you messages and we will all give you our telephone numbers. This is part of our safe-guard mechanism that we use here at KTC. I hope you decide to take that first step and grab the bull by the horns. It will not be easy and you may gain some weight...but you will be free.
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It's not as if I have a hell of a lot of experience with quitting nicotine. I am not addicted to cannabis or alcohol. Those are things I do rather unfrequently (1/month) and as stated in this National Cancer Institute document
(http://www.cancer.gov/cancertopics/pdq/ ... onal/page1) (http://www.cancer.gov/cancertopics/pdq/cam/cannabis/healthprofessional/page1%29),
cannabis has more health benefiting properties than people give it credit for, and most people fall victim to what society/media has brain washed them to think cannabis is. I can argue the legality/addictiveness of cannabis all day long, but that isn't what this is about. I am serious and I had a choke up. It happens, I know that I made an excuse for it. I'm human, sue me. If I wanted to be scalded I would have dug my grandmother up from the grave and discussed it with her. Tough love isn't what I need. I get enough of that from my wife. I know what I have to do, what I don't know is how. This is where this forum comes into play. If you want to flame me, make assumptions that I'm not serious blah blah blah, I don't want to hear it. Yes I am serious. I have watched every person in my family try to quit cigarettes. None of them ever lasted more than a day. I have surpassed that by 4x on just my first attempt. So don't you make an assumption based off of my introduction that I am "not serious". You are a hall of fame baseball player if you reach base 4/10 times throughout your career. I'm batting .500 right now. I fucked up, this I know. The beat goes on, my life moves on and today it moves on without the can.
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Do you want some cheese with that Whine? OK Andrew, proof is in the pudding as they say. You want to quit and that is what we are here for. No pussy half ass attempts. You did not quit for 4 days this week. You stopped using dip on Monday and substituted cigarattes. All you did was trade one nicotine delivery system for another. No matter. If you want to quit, get rid of the can you have been savoring. PM me as I had requested earlier. I was not kidding about that. Look up at the top right hand of your screen and open the inbox. It will take you to another screen where you can send me a private message. Go to Walmart and get some Smokey Mountain. It is a fake dip w/o nicotine. Stock up on some hard candy, nuts, sunflower seeds, water and energy drinks. Get the G2, as it has less than 1/2 the calories that Gatorade has. Then get on this site tonight and start reading. Read all the HOF speeches, read all the stories about cancer, read everything you can...then re-read them. There is a wealth of information on here, just start at the Welcome Center on the top left of your screen. You may have a little problem sleeping. If you do, go for a long, brisk walk. Exercise everyday. Drink plenty of water. Commit yourself to both quitting and losing weight. Join Jenny Craig or Weight watchers if you have to. Go to the Live Chat here at KTC when you feel the urge to use, rant, rage or vent...better here than towards the family. Chat is where alot of us lived the first few days/weeks of our quit. Family support is crutial...get them to read some of the information on this site as well. Post roll everyday...that is our promise to the hundreds of men and women on this site that you will not use nicotine for that day. If you are a man of your word, you will abide by your promise. If not, you have wasted everyones time, including your own.
Now Andrew, how is that for some basic instructions on what to do? It is a good starting point wouldn't you say? Get busy quitting or get busy dying...your choice my friend. Hope you have the cods to do what you say you want to do. KTC works...make it work for you if you are really as serious as you say you are.
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It's not as if I have a hell of a lot of experience with quitting nicotine. I am not addicted to cannabis or alcohol. Those are things I do rather unfrequently (1/month) and as stated in this National Cancer Institute document
(http://www.cancer.gov/cancertopics/pdq/ ... onal/page1) (http://www.cancer.gov/cancertopics/pdq/cam/cannabis/healthprofessional/page1%29),
cannabis has more health benefiting properties than people give it credit for, and most people fall victim to what society/media has brain washed them to think cannabis is. I can argue the legality/addictiveness of cannabis all day long, but that isn't what this is about. I am serious and I had a choke up. It happens, I know that I made an excuse for it. I'm human, sue me. If I wanted to be scalded I would have dug my grandmother up from the grave and discussed it with her. Tough love isn't what I need. I get enough of that from my wife. I know what I have to do, what I don't know is how. This is where this forum comes into play. If you want to flame me, make assumptions that I'm not serious blah blah blah, I don't want to hear it. Yes I am serious. I have watched every person in my family try to quit cigarettes. None of them ever lasted more than a day. I have surpassed that by 4x on just my first attempt. So don't you make an assumption based off of my introduction that I am "not serious". You are a hall of fame baseball player if you reach base 4/10 times throughout your career. I'm batting .500 right now. I fucked up, this I know. The beat goes on, my life moves on and today it moves on without the can.
I'm not trying to scald you,, I just don't know if your serious or not, with the post you made. Quitting nicotine is the hardest thing I've ever done in my life. You mentioned that you smoked during the 4 days you took a break from dipping. That is not quitting!!!
A lot of people come here and are not serious...
One more thing,, we don't hold punches here,, we call it like we see it. That's how come this sight works. That's also why you came here,, you said you wanted help. Sometimes help isn't what you want to hear it's what you need to hear.
All that aside I wouldn't be here if I didn't care. Go to the top left,, read everything in the welcome center. Read how to post roll, this is how we stay quit. When you finish your last dip and decide to really quit,, post roll, and lets get this quit started.
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It's all gone. Tossed out, spit bottles and empty cans. I told my wife, she took it better than I expected.
I opened myself up and explained so much about myself to show that I am serious. I have no reason to tell 1000 strangers a 5 page post about my problems. I did it to open myself up and to show that I am serious. I printed out the contract to give up, put it in my wallet and posted roll.
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Swizle,
I have to agree with Srans you are not quit and your post didnt sound serious. I had to reread it. Quit all nicotine and crutches post tomorrow give us your word and we quit tomorrow together.
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It's all gone. Tossed out, spit bottles and empty cans. I told my wife, she took it better than I expected.
I opened myself up and explained so much about myself to show that I am serious. I have no reason to tell 1000 strangers a 5 page post about my problems. I did it to open myself up and to show that I am serious. I printed out the contract to give up, put it in my wallet and posted roll.
Well then,, what the heck. Welcome aboard. Like wmcatty said,,, get you some stuff to keep those cravings down as much as you can. A lot of people use smokey mountain(fake dip),, you can get it at wall-mart. I used (still use ) toothpicks and gum. No nicotine,,,, none. 3 or 4 days until the nicotine is out of your system. Glad to be quit with you.
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It's all gone. Tossed out, spit bottles and empty cans. I told my wife, she took it better than I expected.
I opened myself up and explained so much about myself to show that I am serious. I have no reason to tell 1000 strangers a 5 page post about my problems. I did it to open myself up and to show that I am serious. I printed out the contract to give up, put it in my wallet and posted roll.
Well then,, what the heck. Welcome aboard. Like wmcatty said,,, get you some stuff to keep those cravings down as much as you can. A lot of people use smokey mountain(fake dip),, you can get it at wall-mart. I used (still use ) toothpicks and gum. No nicotine,,,, none. 3 or 4 days until the nicotine is out of your system. Glad to be quit with you.
OK Andrew. Glad to hear it. Now lets get this friggin party started! I PM'd you my telephone number a few moments ago. Call me and lets start your first day of freedom!!
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It's all gone. Tossed out, spit bottles and empty cans. I told my wife, she took it better than I expected.
I opened myself up and explained so much about myself to show that I am serious. I have no reason to tell 1000 strangers a 5 page post about my problems. I did it to open myself up and to show that I am serious. I printed out the contract to give up, put it in my wallet and posted roll.
Fuck yeah motherfucker!
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Welcome to ktc and congratulations on quitting. You will feel so much better without dip! I will quit with you all day and any day, If you need anything at all feel free to pm me.
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It's all gone. Tossed out, spit bottles and empty cans. I told my wife, she took it better than I expected.
I opened myself up and explained so much about myself to show that I am serious. I have no reason to tell 1000 strangers a 5 page post about my problems. I did it to open myself up and to show that I am serious. I printed out the contract to give up, put it in my wallet and posted roll.
Fuck yeah motherfucker!
x 2, brother! Congrats on a great choice, brother!!! Post roll, read everything you can, and stay strong. YOU CAN DO THIS!
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It's all gone. Tossed out, spit bottles and empty cans. I told my wife, she took it better than I expected.
I opened myself up and explained so much about myself to show that I am serious. I have no reason to tell 1000 strangers a 5 page post about my problems. I did it to open myself up and to show that I am serious. I printed out the contract to give up, put it in my wallet and posted roll.
Fuck yeah motherfucker!
x 2, brother! Congrats on a great choice, brother!!! Post roll, read everything you can, and stay strong. YOU CAN DO THIS!
You've made your promise, keep your word, repeat first thing tomorrow.
There is not a reason in this universe to ever use nicotine again. Never again, for any reason, not once!
We do not want to hear some bitchy excuse about why you have no integrity. You want to be quit? Keep your word!
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Now... don't freak yourself out by looking ahead and thinking, "I don't know if I can go a week/month/year". Stop that thinking right now. Today. Just do it today. Then... wake up tomorrow, post roll with your group and thousands of other badass quitters, and do it one more day. I'll do it with you... Every. Day! Rock it bro...
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Let's get this Swizle
Tomorrow is a new day I will quit w you tomorrow
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Hey man, hope you mean it. I just recently quit myself. Six days ago. Was on the patch for two days. Stumbled upon this site and was happy I found it. I put my story out there, much shorter than yours, but my..... How fast everyone was to pounce on my head. I had mentioned I was using the patch to quit. So in a moment of f u guys I'll show you I took the pussy patch off. Lmfao. Yea that's when I found out how big of a pussy I am. Been totally clean now for 4 days. Just now feel my brain again. I was in what the vets call the suck. It is hell, pure unadulterated god damn hell. Now while on the patch I thought this isn't so bad, sure I missed the dip but i feel ok, yea well these guys saved me yet another failed attempt. Had I not gone thru this 4 day ball crushing, brain twisting, emotional roller coaster mind fuck, well I might go back to dip thinking I'll quit another day. Not so likely now! I never want to go thru that again, never never never ever! Just now getting better in fact. So while you say you need this and not that, trust me these guys know what we need, they did it, we are trying it. Hope to see you on roll with us bad mfr's in August tomorrow.
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So this afternoon I went out and bought a few cans of Smokey Mountain. It helps immensely. as I stated alot of my problem has to do with my oral fixation that I have always had. I also burned a SHIT LOAD of live wood. We just moved in with some friends, so I feel obliged to do work around the house/yard. He trimmed a bunch of his pine trees, some branches being over 10 ft long and 6"+ in diameter. It kept my mind busy and off of nicotine for over 5 hours.
So now I'm off to feed the addiction that I will never be able to kick, my Coke habit. A 2 liter sounds absolutely amazing after stoking a hot fire for 5+ hours.
Oh... and on the bright side, the Tigers whooped on the Astros again. Anyone here a baseball fan? I was a phenom of a baseball player in High School. Sophomore year I played on the varsity and hit .498 with an over 1.00 slugging %. My fielding at first was a bit sketchy, but I was the second coming of Ted Williams with the bat. It helps that most of the schools in my high school conference prohibited the use of breaking pitches. you throw me a fastball and I know it's coming, it's not gonna make it to the catchers glove. This until a terrible car accident on Feb 14th 2002. Broke my left femur in half, penetrating my skin, crushing my knee almost into dust. Never played baseball again. Throughout high school and college I gained weight like it was going out of style. Went from 315 when I was 16 (I was also 6'2") to over 450 when I had lap band surgery performed almost a year and a half ago. Not being able to do the things physically that I once could, the weight just poured on, especially with the all-you-can-eat dining style that my college and most college campuses have for students who live on campus.
Anyway, just wanted to update my day and remind you folks that I AM SERIOUS. Nicotine is out of my life, and this includes cheating with a cigarette. Never again will nicotine enter my system.
Quitter as of 5/4/2013 'Sno'
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Awesome! I quite with you today. Don't forget to post roll!
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So this afternoon I went out and bought a few cans of Smokey Mountain. It helps immensely. as I stated alot of my problem has to do with my oral fixation that I have always had. I also burned a SHIT LOAD of live wood. We just moved in with some friends, so I feel obliged to do work around the house/yard. He trimmed a bunch of his pine trees, some branches being over 10 ft long and 6"+ in diameter. It kept my mind busy and off of nicotine for over 5 hours.
So now I'm off to feed the addiction that I will never be able to kick, my Coke habit. A 2 liter sounds absolutely amazing after stoking a hot fire for 5+ hours.
Oh... and on the bright side, the Tigers whooped on the Astros again. Anyone here a baseball fan? I was a phenom of a baseball player in High School. Sophomore year I played on the varsity and hit .498 with an over 1.00 slugging %. My fielding at first was a bit sketchy, but I was the second coming of Ted Williams with the bat. It helps that most of the schools in my high school conference prohibited the use of breaking pitches. you throw me a fastball and I know it's coming, it's not gonna make it to the catchers glove. This until a terrible car accident on Feb 14th 2002. Broke my left femur in half, penetrating my skin, crushing my knee almost into dust. Never played baseball again. Throughout high school and college I gained weight like it was going out of style. Went from 315 when I was 16 (I was also 6'2") to over 450 when I had lap band surgery performed almost a year and a half ago. Not being able to do the things physically that I once could, the weight just poured on, especially with the all-you-can-eat dining style that my college and most college campuses have for students who live on campus.
Anyway, just wanted to update my day and remind you folks that I AM SERIOUS. Nicotine is out of my life, and this includes cheating with a cigarette. Never again will nicotine enter my system.
Quitter as of 5/4/2013 'Sno'
Good job andrew. One Day at a time and you take your life back. Quitting the can is one of the smartest things I've ever done and i really enjoy helping people realize that life without the can is so much better than with. I was a slave for over 25 years. All the can ever did for me was take my money, selfworth, and time that i should have been spending with my family.
Things will be tough for the next 3 or 4 days. Drink plenty of water, exercise, fake. Whatever you got to do to keep the real stuff out. I quit with you today.
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So this afternoon I went out and bought a few cans of Smokey Mountain. It helps immensely. as I stated alot of my problem has to do with my oral fixation that I have always had. I also burned a SHIT LOAD of live wood. We just moved in with some friends, so I feel obliged to do work around the house/yard. He trimmed a bunch of his pine trees, some branches being over 10 ft long and 6"+ in diameter. It kept my mind busy and off of nicotine for over 5 hours.
So now I'm off to feed the addiction that I will never be able to kick, my Coke habit. A 2 liter sounds absolutely amazing after stoking a hot fire for 5+ hours.
Oh... and on the bright side, the Tigers whooped on the Astros again. Anyone here a baseball fan? I was a phenom of a baseball player in High School. Sophomore year I played on the varsity and hit .498 with an over 1.00 slugging %. My fielding at first was a bit sketchy, but I was the second coming of Ted Williams with the bat. It helps that most of the schools in my high school conference prohibited the use of breaking pitches. you throw me a fastball and I know it's coming, it's not gonna make it to the catchers glove. This until a terrible car accident on Feb 14th 2002. Broke my left femur in half, penetrating my skin, crushing my knee almost into dust. Never played baseball again. Throughout high school and college I gained weight like it was going out of style. Went from 315 when I was 16 (I was also 6'2") to over 450 when I had lap band surgery performed almost a year and a half ago. Not being able to do the things physically that I once could, the weight just poured on, especially with the all-you-can-eat dining style that my college and most college campuses have for students who live on campus.
Anyway, just wanted to update my day and remind you folks that I AM SERIOUS. Nicotine is out of my life, and this includes cheating with a cigarette. Never again will nicotine enter my system.
Quitter as of 5/4/2013 'Sno'
1. The fake shit is phenomenal - I have the oral fixation thing too, and that shit absolutely helps.
2. Fuck pine trees
3. Baseball's cool but I'm in MN and the Twins fucking suck ass, so it's not a lot of fun to follow. I can see how watching the Tigers might be a little more interesting.
4. Fuck car accidents.
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Rock on brother saddle up and ride on remember you are quiting one day at a time not all at once.
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Rock on brother saddle up and ride on remember you are quiting one day at a time not all at once.
Andrew, where is your post,,, did you srike out today. I was hoping for a better batting average. Maybe I missed your post. I'll go look through again maybe I need better glasses. I'll be back in a little while.
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Nope, no post. Maybe it's a late game with extra innings. I'll keep the lights on.
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Do you want some cheese with that Whine? OK Andrew, proof is in the pudding as they say. You want to quit and that is what we are here for. No pussy half ass attempts. You did not quit for 4 days this week. You stopped using dip on Monday and substituted cigarattes. All you did was trade one nicotine delivery system for another. No matter. If you want to quit, get rid of the can you have been savoring. PM me as I had requested earlier. I was not kidding about that. Look up at the top right hand of your screen and open the inbox. It will take you to another screen where you can send me a private message.  Go to Walmart and get some Smokey Mountain. It is a fake dip w/o nicotine. Stock up on some hard candy, nuts, sunflower seeds, water and energy drinks. Get the G2, as it has less than 1/2 the calories that Gatorade has. Then get on this site tonight and start reading. Read all the HOF speeches, read all the stories about cancer, read everything you can...then re-read them. There is a wealth of information on here, just start at the Welcome Center on the top left of your screen. You may have a little problem sleeping. If you do, go for a long, brisk walk. Exercise everyday. Drink plenty of water. Commit yourself to both quitting and losing weight. Join Jenny Craig or Weight watchers if you have to. Go to the Live Chat here at KTC when you feel the urge to use, rant, rage or vent...better here than towards the family. Chat is where alot of us lived the first few days/weeks of our quit. Family support is crutial...get them to read some of the information on this site as well. Post roll everyday...that is our promise to the hundreds of men and women on this site that you will not use nicotine for that day. If you are a man of your word, you will abide by your promise. If not, you have wasted everyones time, including your own.Â
Now Andrew, how is that for some basic instructions on what to do? It is a good starting point wouldn't you say? Get busy quitting or get busy dying...your choice my friend. Hope you have the cods to do what you say you want to do. KTC works...make it work for you if you are really as serious as you say you are. wmcatty
Well Andrew, it looks like we all just wasted our time yesterday. You posted roll and then disappeared. I texted you today and asked you if you were going to post roll. As expected, I got no response. It sure looks like our initial impression of you was right as rain.
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You guys jump to conclusion in similar ways to my wife. We have been out and about ALL day, and I forgot my phone. I am here now and posting roll. I have been feeling pretty well today, even left my fake stuff at home too and I survived just fine. This time around day 2 is WAY better than the last day 2. I have been making myself get out of the house, not sitting around moping on my problems. Things are going spectacular so far. Also got my fish tank set up today
'fireman' This is what I felt like during, 'zombie' and this afterward. More work than I expected it to be! haha. Anyway, thanks for looking out. I tend to be pretty anti-social, so alot of time I purposely leave my phone at home
Quitter as of 05/04/2013 'Sno'
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You guys jump to conclusion in similar ways to my wife. We have been out and about ALL day, and I forgot my phone. I am here now and posting roll. I have been feeling pretty well today, even left my fake stuff at home too and I survived just fine. This time around day 2 is WAY better than the last day 2. I have been making myself get out of the house, not sitting around moping on my problems. Things are going spectacular so far. Also got my fish tank set up today
'fireman' This is what I felt like during, 'zombie' and this afterward. More work than I expected it to be! haha. Anyway, thanks for looking out. I tend to be pretty anti-social, so alot of time I purposely leave my phone at home
Quitter as of 05/04/2013Â 'Sno'
We jump to conclusions, because we are all addicts and we have played all of the games and made all of the excuses. butt hurt you can't bullshit a bunch of bullshiters.
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You guys jump to conclusion in similar ways to my wife. We have been out and about ALL day, and I forgot my phone. I am here now and posting roll. I have been feeling pretty well today, even left my fake stuff at home too and I survived just fine. This time around day 2 is WAY better than the last day 2. I have been making myself get out of the house, not sitting around moping on my problems. Things are going spectacular so far. Also got my fish tank set up today
'fireman' This is what I felt like during, 'zombie' and this afterward. More work than I expected it to be! haha. Anyway, thanks for looking out. I tend to be pretty anti-social, so alot of time I purposely leave my phone at home
Quitter as of 05/04/2013 'Sno'
Why don't you take caving off the table first thing in the morning by posting roll? Then you can go be anti-social. Do you want accountability? Otherwise, why are you here?
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You guys jump to conclusion in similar ways to my wife. We have been out and about ALL day, and I forgot my phone. I am here now and posting roll. I have been feeling pretty well today, even left my fake stuff at home too and I survived just fine. This time around day 2 is WAY better than the last day 2. I have been making myself get out of the house, not sitting around moping on my problems. Things are going spectacular so far. Also got my fish tank set up today
'fireman' This is what I felt like during, 'zombie' and this afterward. More work than I expected it to be! haha. Anyway, thanks for looking out. I tend to be pretty anti-social, so alot of time I purposely leave my phone at home
Quitter as of 05/04/2013Â 'Sno'
Why don't you take caving off the table first thing in the morning by posting roll? Then you can go be anti-social. Do you want accountability? Otherwise, why are you here?
Andrew,, you have compared your wife to us.. AT one point you compared your dead grandmother in some ways to us.
I promise you neither has anything on the guys here. We will give you the truth straight up. We will help you quit. We will not tell you it is ok to go all day without posting roll. We will not tell you we feel sorry for you,, why don't you go down to the store and just get a can. We won't tell you this is like baseball and your going to strike out sometimes.
We will tell you that if you don't make this quit count it could cost you your life. We will tell you that you need to man up and make this quit the most important thing in your life. We will tell you that if you don't post roll the likely hood of you caving is about 99.999999999%. We will tell you that you have been a slave of nicotine for umpteen years and quitting is going to be one of the, if not the hardest thing you've ever done
You've got a couple hard days ahead,, get your guard up. You can do this. Post roll and honor your word man,, that's all we ask. It gets better. Glad to be quit with you.
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You guys jump to conclusion in similar ways to my wife. We have been out and about ALL day, and I forgot my phone. I am here now and posting roll. I have been feeling pretty well today, even left my fake stuff at home too and I survived just fine. This time around day 2 is WAY better than the last day 2. I have been making myself get out of the house, not sitting around moping on my problems. Things are going spectacular so far. Also got my fish tank set up today
'fireman' This is what I felt like during, 'zombie' and this afterward. More work than I expected it to be! haha. Anyway, thanks for looking out. I tend to be pretty anti-social, so alot of time I purposely leave my phone at home
Quitter as of 05/04/2013Â 'Sno'
Why don't you take caving off the table first thing in the morning by posting roll? Then you can go be anti-social. Do you want accountability? Otherwise, why are you here?
Andrew,, you have compared your wife to us.. AT one point you compared your dead grandmother in some ways to us.
I promise you neither has anything on the guys here. We will give you the truth straight up. We will help you quit. We will not tell you it is ok to go all day without posting roll. We will not tell you we feel sorry for you,, why don't you go down to the store and just get a can. We won't tell you this is like baseball and your going to strike out sometimes.
We will tell you that if you don't make this quit count it could cost you your life. We will tell you that you need to man up and make this quit the most important thing in your life. We will tell you that if you don't post roll the likely hood of you caving is about 99.999999999%. We will tell you that you have been a slave of nicotine for umpteen years and quitting is going to be one of the, if not the hardest thing you've ever done
You've got a couple hard days ahead,, get your guard up. You can do this. Post roll and honor your word man,, that's all we ask. It gets better. Glad to be quit with you.
This is the reason we are on your ass you went back to the nic whore well have fun while she is killing you. In your obituary your wife is going to be writing here lays a man that love another more than me her name is nicotine. You let me down man I even messaged you and all looking back I should have known better. You have opened my eyes to what a real nonquitter sounds like.
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You guys jump to conclusion in similar ways to my wife. We have been out and about ALL day, and I forgot my phone. I am here now and posting roll. I have been feeling pretty well today, even left my fake stuff at home too and I survived just fine. This time around day 2 is WAY better than the last day 2. I have been making myself get out of the house, not sitting around moping on my problems. Things are going spectacular so far. Also got my fish tank set up today
'fireman' This is what I felt like during, 'zombie' and this afterward. More work than I expected it to be! haha. Anyway, thanks for looking out. I tend to be pretty anti-social, so alot of time I purposely leave my phone at home
Quitter as of 05/04/2013Â 'Sno'
Why don't you take caving off the table first thing in the morning by posting roll? Then you can go be anti-social. Do you want accountability? Otherwise, why are you here?
Andrew,, you have compared your wife to us.. AT one point you compared your dead grandmother in some ways to us.
I promise you neither has anything on the guys here. We will give you the truth straight up. We will help you quit. We will not tell you it is ok to go all day without posting roll. We will not tell you we feel sorry for you,, why don't you go down to the store and just get a can. We won't tell you this is like baseball and your going to strike out sometimes.
We will tell you that if you don't make this quit count it could cost you your life. We will tell you that you need to man up and make this quit the most important thing in your life. We will tell you that if you don't post roll the likely hood of you caving is about 99.999999999%. We will tell you that you have been a slave of nicotine for umpteen years and quitting is going to be one of the, if not the hardest thing you've ever done
You've got a couple hard days ahead,, get your guard up. You can do this. Post roll and honor your word man,, that's all we ask. It gets better. Glad to be quit with you.
This is the reason we are on your ass you went back to the nic whore well have fun while she is killing you. In your obituary your wife is going to be writing here lays a man that love another more than me her name is nicotine. You let me down man I even messaged you and all looking back I should have known better. You have opened my eyes to what a real nonquitter sounds like.
Disappointing. What a waste of time.
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Poof!! You would think I dipped for 25 years. Sometimes I can smell a cave a mile away. It's nice to be wrong once in a while. I don't like being right. I hate knowing that someone needs to get off that shit and can't.
I was there. Maybe one day this one will come back and begin to take his life back. You got to really want this. The nic bitch does not play. She's not satisfied until your dead.
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Poof!! You would think I dipped for 25 years. Sometimes I can smell a cave a mile away. It's nice to be wrong once in a while. I don't like being right. I hate knowing that someone needs to get off that shit and can't.Â
I was there. Maybe one day this one will come back and begin to take his life back. You got to really want this. The nic bitch does not play. She's not satisfied until your dead.
Well, Andrew. It looks like I had you pegged from the start. You talked plenty of shit in the beginning, but in the end it was just that. Three days of no posting roll or answering my texts. When you want to quit and can grow a set of cods, lets try this again. Until then, keep your little pussy whining to yourself while the real men get on with their quit.
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A bold statement... Even before I make It i knw.... But I hope if I f up like this cat you guys rape my pride and step on my ego with all your might. Simply so that others see once we post we stay the course. Tks for being BA quiters and taking the time to hold us accountable.
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Not only will I rape your pride, I'll rape your bride. Ok, no I won't. But don't cave. Seriously. I don't wanna be held responsible for what happens if you do.
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Poof!! You would think I dipped for 25 years. Sometimes I can smell a cave a mile away. It's nice to be wrong once in a while. I don't like being right. I hate knowing that someone needs to get off that shit and can't.
I was there. Maybe one day this one will come back and begin to take his life back. You got to really want this. The nic bitch does not play. She's not satisfied until your dead.
from now on I will message you before I post with another quitter that way I will know if they are real or not 'na na'
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Poof!! You would think I dipped for 25 years. Sometimes I can smell a cave a mile away. It's nice to be wrong once in a while. I don't like being right. I hate knowing that someone needs to get off that shit and can't.Â
I was there. Maybe one day this one will come back and begin to take his life back. You got to really want this. The nic bitch does not play. She's not satisfied until your dead.
from now on I will message you before I post with another quitter that way I will know if they are real or not 'na na'
I have been wrong before. Sometimes it's hard to figure people out. You never know when you say one word or you strike a nerve. It's planting seeds sometimes,, kite. You got to trust That you are getting through. If you save one from the clutches of nicotine,, it's worth it. I really feel bad for this one, because I know he needed this for his life. It could have been a new start for him.
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Poof!! You would think I dipped for 25 years. Sometimes I can smell a cave a mile away. It's nice to be wrong once in a while. I don't like being right. I hate knowing that someone needs to get off that shit and can't.Â
I was there. Maybe one day this one will come back and begin to take his life back. You got to really want this. The nic bitch does not play. She's not satisfied until your dead.
from now on I will message you before I post with another quitter that way I will know if they are real or not 'na na'
I have been wrong before. Sometimes it's hard to figure people out. You never know when you say one word or you strike a nerve. It's planting seeds sometimes,, kite. You got to trust That you are getting through. If you save one from the clutches of nicotine,, it's worth it. I really feel bad for this one, because I know he needed this for his life. It could have been a new start for him.
Guys a little story, a little girl is walking along the beach collecting the starfish washed up on the beach and throwing them back into the ocean. There are thousands beached. A gentleman walking the beach saw the child and her efforts as he approached her he asked. Why do you labor so? With so many how can you possibly make a difference? The little girl looked down at the star fish in her hand,looked up at the man and said "I bet it makes a difference to this one".
To hell with the cavers you bad ass quiters stay the course and give every one of us a chance! It fucking mattered to me. I love you guys for what you do. I quit with y'all today.