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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: TPhillips6026 on May 06, 2011, 12:22:00 PM
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Hour 8. It's already kicking in. From the can gone from my back pocket to the digging in between my teeth to get out pieces of snuff. I'm missing it. But I'm not caving. It's all going to be worth it. Once my Smokey Creek Chew arrives, everything will be fine. I hope. I know the first 48 are going to be rough but I'm going to push through it. With a choice of cancer or headaches and insomnia, I'll go with the latter.
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Hour 8. It's already kicking in. From the can gone from my back pocket to the digging in between my teeth to get out pieces of snuff. I'm missing it. But I'm not caving. It's all going to be worth it. Once my Smokey Creek Chew arrives, everything will be fine. I hope. I know the first 48 are going to be rough but I'm going to push through it. With a choice of cancer or headaches and insomnia, I'll go with the latter.
great decision. you won't regret it. only thing you could regret would be not quitting. Stock up on other substitutes until the fake arrives. Gum, seeds, jerky, atomic fireballs, jolly ranchers....whatever it takes.
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Hour 8. It's already kicking in. From the can gone from my back pocket to the digging in between my teeth to get out pieces of snuff. I'm missing it. But I'm not caving. It's all going to be worth it. Once my Smokey Creek Chew arrives, everything will be fine. I hope. I know the first 48 are going to be rough but I'm going to push through it. With a choice of cancer or headaches and insomnia, I'll go with the latter.
In a pinch (no pun intended) coffee or tea grounds have seen me through some rough craves.
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Hour 8. It's already kicking in. From the can gone from my back pocket to the digging in between my teeth to get out pieces of snuff. I'm missing it. But I'm not caving. It's all going to be worth it. Once my Smokey Creek Chew arrives, everything will be fine. I hope. I know the first 48 are going to be rough but I'm going to push through it. With a choice of cancer or headaches and insomnia, I'll go with the latter.
Hang in there. Day 1 and 2 were toughest for me. I ordered a sampler log of Hooch on Moday and had it in my mailbox by Wednesday! I am just ahead of you, but the days get easier as the week goes along. David Chili Lime sunflower seeds w/ extra cayenne pepper sprinkled in have saved me, even more than the Hooch. Going to order a log of Smokey Mtn. next.
Hang tough brother. We are in this fight together. Shoot a meaasge if you need any support.
BTM99 - Day 5 and loving it.
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Give your word.
Keep it.
Everything else will fall into place.
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I'm guessing you're coming up on 18 hours or so? AWESOME. Embrace the suck!!! That is the feeling of healing, brother.
Stay strong. Post roll, keep your word and repeat. Read everything you can on this site. Don't think about tomorrow, next week, or next month. We'll worry about those when they get here. Just focus on the present and fight like hell to make it through today.
Read all you can on this site. You've taken the first step...let us help you with the rest. Have a great weekend and stay strong, brother!!!
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Tyler brother. Just take this a day at a time. You will have shitty days and good days and days when both shitty and good intermingle. Embrace "the suck", power through "the fog" and the headaches and the cravings and the mouth sores and the insomnia and all of the rest of the shit because it will all be worth it. Keep your word first and foremost, don't be a caver like some we have already had in this group. Post roll everday in the morning. Keep yourself accountable to us as we are your quit brothers and in return we will keep ourselves accountable to you. Stay quit one day at a time. Welcome to the rest of your nic free life brother. If you need anything at all hit me up. I will see you around the fire station. Thank God we have some of that Wintergreen flavored herbal mint chew haha.
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Day 2. In rolls the fog. I was driving to the store to get coffee this morning and constantly would have to recorrect my driving. I walked into the store and was instantly pissed off. There was no noise or anything. I couldn't count the money out of my wallet. I ended up just handing a 20 when it was only 5 bucks for coffee and doughnuts. Sleep was iffy through the night. I would wake up every hour or so. It would take about 30 minutes to fall back asleep. I've been leaving cans of skoal and copenhagen around to get used to seeing temptation. It's been rough and it's gonna be rough. But every bit of pain and suffering is worth it. With the help from my brothers, I'll pull through this. Thanks to all.
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Day 2. In rolls the fog. I was driving to the store to get coffee this morning and constantly would have to recorrect my driving. I walked into the store and was instantly pissed off. There was no noise or anything. I couldn't count the money out of my wallet. I ended up just handing a 20 when it was only 5 bucks for coffee and doughnuts. Sleep was iffy through the night. I would wake up every hour or so. It would take about 30 minutes to fall back asleep. I've been leaving cans of skoal and copenhagen around to get used to seeing temptation. It's been rough and it's gonna be rough. But every bit of pain and suffering is worth it. With the help from my brothers, I'll pull through this. Thanks to all.
Gather up all those cans, flush the contents if there is anything in them, and throw them out. There is absolutely no reason to have these laying around...you're just playing with fire. Based on your avatar, you know that's not a good idea.
Now....don't argue about it, toss those cans out.
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Gather up all those cans, flush the contents if there is anything in them, and throw them out. There is absolutely no reason to have these laying around...you're just playing with fire. Based on your avatar, you know that's not a good idea.
Now....don't argue about it, toss those cans out.
Just did brother. Gave all the chew i had to a fellow firefighter. It was hard to do but it's for the best.
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Good job giving the cans away. Frankly I wished you had flushed them down the toilet.
Reinvent yourself. You are now a bad ass quitter and bad ass quitters do not tolerate some lying can of whore to hang out in their house.
You are no longer the guy who had a long term relationship with nicotine and even though the relationship has ended, it is ok to be friends with her and keep a few simple reminders around. Yes, I know you gave the cans away. Make sure there is no more romantic memories either.
I hate nicotine. I hate the fact that these companies specifically try to make it their product as addictive as possible. I hate that when I choose to not use their product I feel so bad I can't think, drive, count money, or sleep. I hate they make it in every flavor and delivery method possible. These people suck. They are evil and I see too many people too miserable. I will keep zero memories of her. Join me TPhillips in saying 'Finger' Nicotine.
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Good job giving the cans away. Frankly I wished you had flushed them down the toilet.
Reinvent yourself. You are now a bad ass quitter and bad ass quitters do not tolerate some lying can of whore to hang out in their house.
You are no longer the guy who had a long term relationship with nicotine and even though the relationship has ended, it is ok to be friends with her and keep a few simple reminders around. Yes, I know you threw the cans away. Make sure there is no more romantic memories either.
I hate nicotine. I hate the fact that these companies specifically try to make it their product as addictive as possible. I hate that when I choose to not use their product I feel so bad I can't think, drive, count money, or sleep. I hate they make it in every flavor and delivery method possible. These people suck. They are evil and I see too many people too miserable. I will keep zero memories of her. Join me TPhillips in saying 'Finger' Nicotine.
Damn straight Scowick. I'm right there with you brother. Hey UST 'Finger' this finger's for you assholes!
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Damn straight Scowick. I'm right there with you brother. Hey UST 'Finger' this finger's for you assholes!
Always with the vulgar language. Calm down JP. Shit 11 days. I should be violent one. Haha
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Damn straight Scowick. I'm right there with you brother. Hey USTÂ 'Finger' this finger's for you assholes!
Always with the vulgar language. Calm down JP. Shit 11 days. I should be violent one. Haha
Hell I can't help it. I got a dirty mouth but it helps me in my quit. It helps me to express myself. It helps me to describe how I feel about the son of a bitches that are advertising and killing people everyday. Fuck big tobacco they can go to hell 'nutkick'
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Day 2. In rolls the fog. I was driving to the store to get coffee this morning and constantly would have to recorrect my driving. I walked into the store and was instantly pissed off. There was no noise or anything. I couldn't count the money out of my wallet. I ended up just handing a 20 when it was only 5 bucks for coffee and doughnuts. Sleep was iffy through the night. I would wake up every hour or so. It would take about 30 minutes to fall back asleep. I've been leaving cans of skoal and copenhagen around to get used to seeing temptation. It's been rough and it's gonna be rough. But every bit of pain and suffering is worth it. With the help from my brothers, I'll pull through this. Thanks to all.
Keep it up T. Right now it's grit-your-teeth and get-through-it time, but it won't last forever. You won't always be ready to explode. Soon enough you'll be doing complicated tasks with a clearer mind than you remember having.
Please take the following wordy word of caution. You should stop tempting yourself.
Temptation will come on its own without your deliberate help. Don't trust yourself. You are an addict, and this behavior of giving your stash to a friend to hold, or leaving cans where you can find them, is the sort of thing that addicts do.
Imagine a scenario in which you blow up at your captain, a proby, your wife or child - whoever fits in your story - and you say something thoughtless because right now you're a foggy-headed idiot who can't make change. For the next days you're left trying to figure out how to make it right. Suddenly, quitting tobacco might seem like a relatively unimportant thing to do compared to keeping your job or patching up your marriage. It's all a lie, of course - you wouldn't have this rage problem if you hadn't abused your body with nicotine - but it won't matter; you planned for this exact situation.
Follow me? You're walking a tight-rope for the first time (because this time, you're going to stay quit, which you've never done before). But you're so tough, even though you know you don't have all your wits, you're bouncing on the wire. You're showing off to yourself! No good. Flush those cans - don't keep them. Stay quit everyday - and that's all you'll need to show you're a badass.
You're already a badass. Congratulations on your big day 2.
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Proud to be Quit with you. Good job getting rid of those cans. That was just your addiction trying to give you a way out. Need anything let me know. Today I posted Roll Call and today I am Quit. (Day 23) Peace
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So it's mid-day on my second day. I had to change a friends flat tire. The pissy/assholeness worked out there. Piece of shit Nissans. I'm literally on fire right now. Really want to just try to lift a fucking truck. Then I get to thinking that this is what the Nic Bitch has done to me. I'm pussy whipped by Nic Bitch. My head's fucking killing me. I wish I could just sleep and not have to put up with this shit. 'bang head' I can't fucking stand headaches every now and then. But this shit is about to drive me insane. The bad part is that I'm a generally easy going person. This mint shit is making me fucking sick. 'erp' I can't fucking think about anything except how pissed off I am. 'biggun'
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So it's mid-day on my second day. I had to change a friends flat tire. The pissy/assholeness worked out there. Piece of shit Nissans. I'm literally on fire right now. Really want to just try to lift a fucking truck. Then I get to thinking that this is what the Nic Bitch has done to me. I'm pussy whipped by Nic Bitch. My head's fucking killing me. I wish I could just sleep and not have to put up with this shit. 'bang head' I can't fucking stand headaches every now and then. But this shit is about to drive me insane. The bad part is that I'm a generally easy going person. This mint shit is making me fucking sick. 'erp' I can't fucking think about anything except how pissed off I am. 'biggun'
Day 2 was my worst. Better days are right around the corner. I promise.
PM if you need anything
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Thanks 30. Means alot right now.
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So it's mid-day on my second day. I had to change a friends flat tire. The pissy/assholeness worked out there. Piece of shit Nissans. I'm literally on fire right now. Really want to just try to lift a fucking truck. Then I get to thinking that this is what the Nic Bitch has done to me. I'm pussy whipped by Nic Bitch. My head's fucking killing me. I wish I could just sleep and not have to put up with this shit. 'bang head' I can't fucking stand headaches every now and then. But this shit is about to drive me insane. The bad part is that I'm a generally easy going person. This mint shit is making me fucking sick. 'erp' I can't fucking think about anything except how pissed off I am. 'biggun'
Day 2 was my worst. Better days are right around the corner. I promise.
PM if you need anything
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I'm with 30 I believe Day 2 has been my worst day so far. Even though I'm only on day 11. Day 11 is a far cry better than day 2. Hang tough bro and you will get there. Grit your teeth, dig down deep, and stay quit.
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You'll make it cuz you're a Bad Ass Quitter. Get through minute by minute, hour by hour, if that's what it takes. Let me know if you need anything. We are Quit together. Peace
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Day 3. Almost caved last night while I was out with some friends bowling. Someone pulled out a can of cope and asked if i wanted one. My response: :archer: Haha. But I stood strong. 'FU' It's been pretty smooth sailing so far. No headaches. No fog hardly. 'no' Worse thing that happened through the night was that i tore my crotch open on my shorts mid-game. 'roflmao' Altogether last night was a good night. Stay quit brothers. I know it's hard, but it's worth pulling through for.
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Good job resisting temptation. If that person knew you were quit, I'd a dumped that all over the bowling alley.
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Good job resisting temptation. If that person knew you were quit, I'd a dumped that all over the bowling alley.
I have to agree with this statement.
You will find out current users are really jealous of your quit. Use any means necessary to keep quit and they will finally understand you are serious.
The guys I hang around with don't ask anymore.
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Good job resisting temptation. If that person knew you were quit, I'd a dumped that all over the bowling alley.
I have to agree with this statement.
You will find out current users are really jealous of your quit. Use any means necessary to keep quit and they will finally understand you are serious.
The guys I hang around with don't ask anymore.
Funny you should say that Jeeper cause one of my buddies that I work with (he is actually a cop) I know, I know don't hold it against him. He came up to me yesterday when I was on day 11 and told me that he was proud of me for quitting and he had been talkting to his wife and he was seriously thinking about quitting. His exact words "Hell Paris I know if you can do it, I can do it". It made me feel good that my quit is not only helping myself but also having a positive effect on others.
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A friend of mine also quit because of me but he gave in to the desire.
I talked to him this weekend and reminded him of this site. Hopefully he will join us.