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Title: Still Struggling
Post by: elizabeth529 on December 07, 2016, 11:43:00 PM

Hello Everyone,

My name is Elizabeth. This week is the first time I have seriously thought about quitting the nic bitch. I am making my quit date for Saturday that is when I get paid and can buy Nicotine gum and mint snuff. I just don't think I'll be able to do it without the gum and mint. I have been a slave for 21 years and I am terrified. I want to stop so bad....I am an addict...I have anxiety, depression and have struggled with various forms of addiction my whole adult life....food....ecstasy in the 90's and a few years ago even crack....:( That was embarrassing to admit. I have managed to kick all those bad habits accept dipping. I have been eating right exercising, lost weight...and now I have to quit the hardest thing ever...dip. It has always been my clutch, my vice to get through stress, anxiety, depression you name it. My addiction to dip has gotten so out of control that I am now keeping it in my mouth little bits so hardly anyone notices at the office and I am a damn Professional Social Worker with a degree. I am falling asleep with it in....I just went through a horrible break-up, got out of a 5 year relationship which has been very stressful and emotionally painful and that is not helping me quit. :( What is wrong with me??? I am terrified of the health consequences. I need to quit NOW. Was in chat earlier for the first time and already received so much inspiration and support from the folks who were in there with me. I am so glad I found this site. I am going to do this...I have too...I hope it's not too late. :( I live in South Florida, where I started when I was 21..now I am 42...I wish I never would have put that first dip in my mouth. :( I had no idea 21 years later I would still be this addicted. To think of what I could have bought with how much money I have spent on this crap. :(

Title: Re: Still Struggling
Post by: Stranger999 on December 08, 2016, 12:25:00 AM

Quote from: Elizabeth529

Hello Everyone,

My name is Elizabeth. This week is the first time I have seriously thought about quitting the nic bitch. I am making my quit date for Saturday that is when I get paid and can buy Nicotine gum and mint snuff. I just don't think I'll be able to do it without the gum and mint. I have been a slave for 21 years and I am terrified. I want to stop so bad....I am an addict...I have anxiety, depression and have struggled with various forms of addiction my whole adult life....food....ecstasy in the 90's and a few years ago even crack....:( That was embarrassing to admit. I have managed to kick all those bad habits accept dipping. I have been eating right exercising, lost weight...and now I have to quit the hardest thing ever...dip. It has always been my clutch, my vice to get through stress, anxiety, depression you name it. My addiction to dip has gotten so out of control that I am now keeping it in my mouth little bits so hardly anyone notices at the office and I am a damn Professional Social Worker with a degree. I am falling asleep with it in....I just went through a horrible break-up, got out of a 5 year relationship which has been very stressful and emotionally painful and that is not helping me quit. :( What is wrong with me??? I am terrified of the health consequences. I need to quit NOW. Was in chat earlier for the first time and already received so much inspiration and support from the folks who were in there with me. I am so glad I found this site. I am going to do this...I have too...I hope it's not too late. :( I live in South Florida, where I started when I was 21..now I am 42...I wish I never would have put that first dip in my mouth. :( I had no idea 21 years later I would still be this addicted. To think of what I could have bought with how much money I have spent on this crap. :(

I hate to bust your bubble but you can't quit and use nicotine at the same time. Nicotine gum is just a replacement and if your mint snuff has nicotine in it same thing. We quit cold turkey here one day at a time.

So no quit date, no nicotine. Quit as soon as you read this and don't ever go back!

Dump all of it, quit, and find your March 17 quit group. Lots of folks there are waiting for you to join them if you can really quit. It's up to you really.

Title: Re: Still Struggling
Post by: FISHFLORIDA on December 08, 2016, 12:35:00 AM

Elizabeth,
Myself and FLLIPOUT are from south Florida and can attest to the power of KTC! Post roll now! Do not wait until Saturday! It's time to quit and we are your safety net. I dipped for 32 years and am clean 199 days. Flush the can now. I pm'd you my digits! I will help you post roll in the March group. Don't waste another day being a slave to that crap!

Title: Re: Still Struggling
Post by: elizabeth529 on December 08, 2016, 06:34:00 AM

Thank you guys for the support. I'm dumping my can right now!!!! :) Dave I responded to your PM.

Title: Re: Still Struggling
Post by: eyehatecope on December 08, 2016, 06:53:00 AM

Oh it's going to seem scary I guess it should. I used for 25 years. I was terrified. How would I do this and that etc. KTC. Get numbers, post roll. Buy you some fake dip such as smokey mountain which can be bought at walmart. One day at a time. If you need anything please don't hesitate to ask.

Title: Re: Still Struggling
Post by: JGlav on December 08, 2016, 07:03:00 AM

You got this. One day at a time. Post your promise and honor your word for the day. We have all been there and you will get through it. But just today.
Only one day at a time. Proud to quit with you today.

JGlav 461

Title: Re: Still Struggling
Post by: harvestgirl on December 08, 2016, 10:42:00 AM

Glad to see that you posted your intro, Beth!
Like we said last night on chat, the only true effective way is to do it cold turkey and you did a great first step by dumping that can.
Lean on this site- it WILL help you through.
And remember, everyone, and I mean EVERYONE on here has done the same thing- we have quit, are quitting, and fighting for the quit every damn day.

Will this be easy? No. Oh hell no. Is it worth it? Absolutely yes.

Title: Re: Still Struggling
Post by: whitetrash on December 08, 2016, 10:51:00 AM

believe what everyone is saying, you can't quit and also use the nicotine gum, because you still have the nicotine flowing through your system then. you gotta be strong and put it all down in the trash can. 50 days ago, was my first day without dipping after 13 years of straight use, and trust me, it will get much easier. cravings still come and go here and there, but i know you can do it. you were disciplined enough to get that MSW, be disciplined enough to save your life!

Title: Re: Still Struggling
Post by: JGlav on December 08, 2016, 11:55:00 AM

Posting Roll is the key to a successful quit. Didn't see you on roll yet. If you work 2nd or 3rd shift let the members of your group know that
as it will help them as they/you try to track down not posting stragglers. Proud to quit with you today.

Title: Re: Still Struggling
Post by: eyehatecope on December 08, 2016, 03:11:00 PM

Quote from: harvestgirl

Glad to see that you posted your intro, Beth!
Like we said last night on chat, the only true effective way is to do it cold turkey and you did a great first step by dumping that can.
Lean on this site- it WILL help you through.
And remember, everyone, and I mean EVERYONE on here has done the same thing- we have quit, are quitting, and fighting for the quit every damn day.

Will this be easy? No. Oh hell no. Is it worth it? Absolutely yes.

You damn right it's worth it.

Looking back while I was a user I always thought "as did everyone else at one time I'm sure" I will never quit, why would I? I'm to nervous without it etc.

I am able to call BS on it all.

I do not need it.

I was a million times more nervous then than I am now. That is one thing that amazes me with this quit. Knowing now that I wasn't nervous then, I was addicted. It controlled me. It was merely mind games.

I really hope Elizabeth, that you get your ass back in here. We are all here for you. As we are with everyone else.

Title: Re: Still Struggling
Post by: Thumblewort on December 08, 2016, 03:18:00 PM

Please post roll, that is your daily promise to be quit. The system works!

Title: Re: Still Struggling
Post by: CavMan83 on December 10, 2016, 10:15:00 AM

Sent her an email through the KTC system. Hopefully she'll respond. Would ask that other quitters (esp females) do the same. Maybe she would feel a little more welcome if she realized the sheer number of females out there....just off the top of my head I'm aware of at least ten of you (don't want to start naming cause I don't want to leave anyone out)... :D

Title: Re: Still Struggling
Post by: harvestgirl on December 10, 2016, 12:50:00 PM

I sent her an email too. Hopefully it'll help?

Title: Re: Still Struggling
Post by: ChickDip on December 11, 2016, 05:06:00 PM

Quote from: harvestgirl

I sent her an email too. Hopefully it'll help?

Very good HG.

Beth, you just need tot do it, cold turkey.....
Get past 1 second, 1 minute, 1 hour, 1 day at a time....
Baby steps to a long quit.
Get posting roll and want it, want it so badly, no one can want it more than you for yourself.

Get your head right, you are not hoping, not trying, YOU ARE QUIT.
So when the question pops in your head "am i dipping?"
There's a No brainer answer of "NO".
Its Gonna suck till it doesn't, but its only temporary.
Its not easy, but it's simple.
Post a promise, make connections, honor your promise, don't let yourself or your new support people down.

Title: Re: Still Struggling
Post by: pab1964 on December 11, 2016, 11:19:00 PM

Wow! A person has a harder time quitting dip than other bad addictions! What a powerful drug. You can do this and we will walk hand and hand with you in this journey but you must post roll! I'll quit with you today!

Title: Re: Still Struggling
Post by: Thumblewort on December 12, 2016, 10:02:00 AM

Come on Elizabeth, quit with us today. It is hard at first, and then it is awesome! I can see you have been lurking.

Title: Re: Still Struggling
Post by: Law1358 on December 14, 2016, 11:24:00 PM

Hi Elizabeth, I just got out of the Chatroom with you. I read your Intro, and I am imspired by your desire to quit this nasty habit. You are already past the worst part of it in my opinion of the 1st 3 days.. Post roll everyday, and rely on your support. If you havent figured it out already, FISHFLORIDA is a great quitter and great person to rely on with your quit. Im Havent personally gotten to know harvestgirl, but I see her in the chatroom all the time and know that she is very well respected by all quitters and I see her opening up to you. Rely on your group, post your promise to your group, and I am going to post my support for you and your group every day. You Can do this and everyone here at KTC has your back.

Title: Re: Still Struggling
Post by: Tsmith17 on December 15, 2016, 01:28:00 AM

It's amazing what can be done if you set your mind to doing it. Keep up the quit.

Title: Re: Still Struggling
Post by: Nomore1959 on December 16, 2016, 05:58:00 AM

Hang in there, it does get better. You have some digits, you have seen how they help. Get more from quitters in your group. Help is around, great job in asking for some.

Title: Re: Still Struggling
Post by: harvestgirl on December 16, 2016, 09:48:00 PM

Hey, girl.
Just checking in.
We're still rooting for you.
Use this and keep it updated. It helps in the long run.

Title: Re: Still Struggling
Post by: eyehatecope on December 17, 2016, 08:56:00 AM

Quote from: harvestgirl

Hey, girl.
Just checking in.
We're still rooting for you.
Use this and keep it updated. It helps in the long run.

Post anything like she said, it will be a treasure for you to look at on down the road.

Title: Re: Still Struggling
Post by: CavMan83 on December 17, 2016, 05:22:00 PM

I'd start by posting your apology here.....then when you attain the clarity that comes when the fog lifts, you can come back and read it and realize just how full of bovine manure you were.

That's meant to be funny and serious at the same time. You see, we all care about one thing here, and that is YOU being QUIT.

Title: Re: Still Struggling
Post by: ChickDip on March 26, 2017, 03:57:00 PM

Big congrats on the 100 days quit Beth!
Cheers to 101 and beyond!

Title: Re: Still Struggling
Post by: JB65 on March 27, 2017, 08:35:00 AM

Quote from: ChickDip

Big congrats on the 100 days quit Beth!
Cheers to 101 and beyond!

'oh yeah'

Title: Re: Still Struggling
Post by: eyehatecope on March 27, 2017, 09:35:00 AM

Congrats on 100!

Title: Re: Still Struggling
Post by: CavMan83 on March 27, 2017, 07:08:00 PM

Quote from: eyehatecope

Congrats on 100!

What he said!

Title: Re: Still Struggling
Post by: ChickDip on October 12, 2017, 12:42:00 PM

Congrats on hitting the 3rd floor Beth!

Title: Re: Still Struggling
Post by: JB65 on October 12, 2017, 01:29:00 PM

Quote from: ChickDip

Congrats on hitting the 3rd floor Beth!

Amen to that! Congrats! Rock on!! 'oh yeah'

Title: Re: Still Struggling
Post by: ChickDip on December 17, 2017, 02:24:00 AM

Congrats on your 1 year quit Beth!!

Title: Re: Still Struggling
Post by: FLLipOut on December 17, 2017, 10:38:00 AM

Quote from: ChickDip

Congrats on your 1 year quit Beth!!

1 YEAR!!!

Great job, Elizabeth!!!

'party2' 'party2' 'party2'

Title: Re: Still Struggling
Post by: bicycleptic on December 17, 2017, 10:45:00 AM

Quote from: FLLipOut

Quote from: ChickDip

Congrats on your 1 year quit Beth!!

1 YEAR!!!

Great job, Elizabeth!!!

'party2' 'party2' 'party2'

'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2'

'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2'

'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2'

Title: Re: Still Struggling
Post by: JB65 on December 18, 2017, 08:45:00 AM

Quote from: bicycleptic

Quote from: FLLipOut

Quote from: ChickDip

Congrats on your 1 year quit Beth!!

1 YEAR!!!

Great job, Elizabeth!!!

'party2' 'party2' 'party2'

'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2'

'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2'

'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2' 'party2'

Rock on! Crank it to 11. nice year!!!! 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah' 'oh yeah'