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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: AquaLuke on August 29, 2014, 02:05:00 PM
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Hello everyone,
I have been lurking on this site planning my quit date for about a week. Today is that day. I took my last dip of Copehagen last night around 10 PM. I picked today because it is my father's birthday. He would have been 65 today. He died when he was 40. I was 12 when he died and have always had a feeling that I would follow suit and not make it passed 40. I don't know why, just a feeling. Shortly following his death I rebelled; I quit school, moved out, and starting dipping snuff. I quickly became addicted and haven't slowed down. The rebellious factor was squelched as I matured. I eventually got married, had kids, started businesses, sold businesses, and have been fairly successful, blessed is probably the correct word.
The thing that never changed was the snuff. I have always really enjoyed it, in fact last night I enjoyed it. I also enjoyed knowing that it was my last one. I like the fact that I don't have a spit cup sitting next to me as I type this. I will be 38 on my next birthday so I figure 25+ years of dipping is enough. I guess I am fortunate that I am still healthy and didn't wait until it was too late to quit. So what changed? Kids. They have a way of making you think about the kind of man that you are and the kind of man that you owe it to them to be.
Three weeks ago I took the family down to Rockport for a weeks vacation of beaches and fishing. We rented a house on the bay that we could see the sun rise and set and fish all day and night if we so desired. My four year old daughter turns out loves to fish, this was her first time doing it. She would sit next to me for hours holding her rod and reel asking me silly questions over and over. When I would go out on the boat every morning, she wanted to go. She wanted to steer the boat, bait the hooks, and even help clean the fish we caught. Everything that dad was doing she wanted to do. When I had dip in mouth (which is usually always) I would lean over the dock and spit into the water. Then she would lean over the dock and spit into the water too. The first couple of times I scolded her and told her that was gross and little girls don't do that. Then as she continued it (as children do) I found myself getting upset with her. What gives me the right to get upset with her? Nothing. I decided that it was time to stop being a hypocrite and be the man that they deserve. It was time to act like a father.
So I planned it. I planned it for today. I plan on taking her fishing again and not having to worry about her watching me stuff poison into my jaw and constantly spit. I plan on living long enough to take her kids fishing too. I plan on keeping my money and not giving it to US Smokeless. I plan on going home tonight and kissing my wife without having to rinse first.
I appreciate having an outlet such as this forum to reach out to people who know what I am going through. Thank you all for listening.
Luke
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Hello everyone,
I have been lurking on this site planning my quit date for about a week. Today is that day. I took my last dip of Copehagen last night around 10 PM. I picked today because it is my father's birthday. He would have been 65 today. He died when he was 40. I was 12 when he died and have always had a feeling that I would follow suit and not make it passed 40. I don't know why, just a feeling. Shortly following his death I rebelled; I quit school, moved out, and starting dipping snuff. I quickly became addicted and haven't slowed down. The rebellious factor was squelched as I matured. I eventually got married, had kids, started businesses, sold businesses, and have been fairly successful, blessed is probably the correct word.
The thing that never changed was the snuff. I have always really enjoyed it, in fact last night I enjoyed it. I also enjoyed knowing that it was my last one. I like the fact that I don't have a spit cup sitting next to me as I type this. I will be 38 on my next birthday so I figure 25+ years of dipping is enough. I guess I am fortunate that I am still healthy and didn't wait until it was too late to quit. So what changed? Kids. They have a way of making you think about the kind of man that you are and the kind of man that you owe it to them to be.
Three weeks ago I took the family down to Rockport for a weeks vacation of beaches and fishing. We rented a house on the bay that we could see the sun rise and set and fish all day and night if we so desired. My four year old daughter turns out loves to fish, this was her first time doing it. She would sit next to me for hours holding her rod and reel asking me silly questions over and over. When I would go out on the boat every morning, she wanted to go. She wanted to steer the boat, bait the hooks, and even help clean the fish we caught. Everything that dad was doing she wanted to do. When I had dip in mouth (which is usually always) I would lean over the dock and spit into the water. Then she would lean over the dock and spit into the water too. The first couple of times I scolded her and told her that was gross and little girls don't do that. Then as she continued it (as children do) I found myself getting upset with her. What gives me the right to get upset with her? Nothing. I decided that it was time to stop being a hypocrite and be the man that they deserve. It was time to act like a father.
So I planned it. I planned it for today. I plan on taking her fishing again and not having to worry about her watching me stuff poison into my jaw and constantly spit. I plan on living long enough to take her kids fishing too. I plan on keeping my money and not giving it to US Smokeless. I plan on going home tonight and kissing my wife without having to rinse first.
I appreciate having an outlet such as this forum to reach out to people who know what I am going through. Thank you all for listening.
Luke
Welcome Luke! Nice intro. Do it for you wife , do it for your kids, do it to be a good Dad, but more than anything do it for YOURSELF. Learn how to post roll. There are instructions here to do that. You will be in December 14. That's the month you will celebrate with your first 100 days of freedom. This will be the hardest thing you've ever done but if you want it bad enough I promise you will not regret this decision. Read , Read , Read, Make friends here and above all Post your promise with your group everyday.
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Hello everyone,
I have been lurking on this site planning my quit date for about a week. Today is that day. I took my last dip of Copehagen last night around 10 PM. I picked today because it is my father's birthday. He would have been 65 today. He died when he was 40. I was 12 when he died and have always had a feeling that I would follow suit and not make it passed 40. I don't know why, just a feeling. Shortly following his death I rebelled; I quit school, moved out, and starting dipping snuff. I quickly became addicted and haven't slowed down. The rebellious factor was squelched as I matured. I eventually got married, had kids, started businesses, sold businesses, and have been fairly successful, blessed is probably the correct word.
The thing that never changed was the snuff. I have always really enjoyed it, in fact last night I enjoyed it. I also enjoyed knowing that it was my last one. I like the fact that I don't have a spit cup sitting next to me as I type this. I will be 38 on my next birthday so I figure 25+ years of dipping is enough. I guess I am fortunate that I am still healthy and didn't wait until it was too late to quit. So what changed? Kids. They have a way of making you think about the kind of man that you are and the kind of man that you owe it to them to be.
Three weeks ago I took the family down to Rockport for a weeks vacation of beaches and fishing. We rented a house on the bay that we could see the sun rise and set and fish all day and night if we so desired. My four year old daughter turns out loves to fish, this was her first time doing it. She would sit next to me for hours holding her rod and reel asking me silly questions over and over. When I would go out on the boat every morning, she wanted to go. She wanted to steer the boat, bait the hooks, and even help clean the fish we caught. Everything that dad was doing she wanted to do. When I had dip in mouth (which is usually always) I would lean over the dock and spit into the water. Then she would lean over the dock and spit into the water too. The first couple of times I scolded her and told her that was gross and little girls don't do that. Then as she continued it (as children do) I found myself getting upset with her. What gives me the right to get upset with her? Nothing. I decided that it was time to stop being a hypocrite and be the man that they deserve. It was time to act like a father.
So I planned it. I planned it for today. I plan on taking her fishing again and not having to worry about her watching me stuff poison into my jaw and constantly spit. I plan on living long enough to take her kids fishing too. I plan on keeping my money and not giving it to US Smokeless. I plan on going home tonight and kissing my wife without having to rinse first.
I appreciate having an outlet such as this forum to reach out to people who know what I am going through. Thank you all for listening.
Luke
Welcome Luke! Nice intro. Do it for you wife , do it for your kids, do it to be a good Dad, but more than anything do it for YOURSELF. Learn how to post roll. There are instructions here to do that. You will be in December 14. That's the month you will celebrate with your first 100 days of freedom. This will be the hardest thing you've ever done but if you want it bad enough I promise you will not regret this decision. Read , Read , Read, Make friends here and above all Post your promise with your group everyday.
^^^^ listen to Rdad. Do it for YOURSELF.
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Good job posting roll Luke! You are officially part of the family now. Do that again tomorrow. Its going to be rough for awhile but it gets better. ODAAT man!
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Lots of water the next 3-5 days- flush that crap out. It'll help with the fog as well.
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Luke, you are a badass father. Just wait until you can see without the filter of nicotine. I'm quit with you.
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Great intro Luke, proud of your decision ... the best one you'll ever make! Stay strong this weekend, and post roll EARLY every day (unless your work schedule does not allow that). Quitting with you today!
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Welcome!! I'm only on day 3 but this is a great place to pop in for a quick pick-me-up if you feel your resolve weakening. I've been having an orange every time I have a really bad craving between meals. Something about sitting around peeling an orange and eating it distracts me enough that the crave goes away. PM me if you want my number, I know exactly what you're going through.
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Luke! I am very glad you are here! The only time this has worked for me has been when I quit for myself. I'm quit with you today. PM me if you are interested in texting our daily resolve to quit.
Nate
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Best damn decision you'll make all day, any day.
Brace yourself for the suck, because it's about to settle in for a little while. It does start to get better, but your body and your brain need some time to adjust, heal, and relearn how to operate without a bunch of cat turd essence coursing through your veins. Really make a point to capture and write out your thoughts during the highs and the lows of the coming days and weeks. That will help you to reinforce why you're quit and will make for good reading as you get farther down the road. You'll never want to repeat any of these early days again, so do it right and do it once.
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Luke, thanks for the honest introduction. I appreciate your heart for your family. 23 year hard-core nicotine addict here, 25 days clean and honestly still struggling a bit. Those first few days are ugly. Talk to your lady and ask her to have some patience with you- that will help. Just survive those fist 3-4 days. It gets better, but after that you still have to watch it closely. Hang in there, you can get this. I'm quit with you today brother.
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Great intro, Luke. Start enjoying the suck for a few days, then enjoy your freedom from that evil weed and disgusting addiction. We quit together, every damn day here. First few days will suck, then it wonÂ’t. I get a real good vine from your intro, you can do this.
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Congrats on HOF, Aqueous One!!
Had to dig a bit to find your intro, and I'm glad I did -- you were a helluva husband, father and person when you committed to quit, and you've just become 100 times stronger.
Great quit, and congrats again.
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Congrats on HOF, Aqueous One!!
Had to dig a bit to find your intro, and I'm glad I did -- you were a helluva husband, father and person when you committed to quit, and you've just become 100 times stronger.
Great quit, and congrats again.
Nice job, Aqualung! Congrats!
Keep up the good work.
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Enjoy your day Aqualuke, and see you at 101 tomorrow.
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I'm glad we've had a chance to quit together on a daily basis. Here's to us quitters!
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Congrats on 1 year Luke!!! You fought through a lot over the past year and were a huge help to my quit. I am proud to be quit with you brother!
CJ
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Congrats on 1 year Luke!!! You fought through a lot over the past year and were a huge help to my quit. I am proud to be quit with you brother!
CJ
Congrats on an entire year quit, Luke! Thanks for all the support to the younger crowds.
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Aqualuke kick ass on 365! One full lap!
Walk a little taller today. Proud to have you walking this journey with me brother.