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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Xzacto on January 24, 2011, 10:38:00 AM
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Well after a 20 year love affair with Copenhagen, it's a memory 3 days in the making and KTC has provided me with the necessary additional courage to make it through. I just wanted to say thanks to the few people who have reached out to me and I hope I can be there for a fellow brother or sister in need at any time needed. From now on the only worm dirt I'll be chewing is straight from the garden and as I look into my sons eyes I'll be prepared to educated them on the dangers one day, If the good Lord gives me the opportunity to be around. 'archer'
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Well after a 20 year love affair with Copenhagen, it's a memory 3 days in the making and KTC has provided me with the necessary additional courage to make it through. I just wanted to say thanks to the few people who have reached out to me and I hope I can be there for a fellow brother or sister in need at any time needed. From now on the only worm dirt I'll be chewing is straight from the garden and as I look into my sons eyes I'll be prepared to educated them on the dangers one day, If the good Lord gives me the opportunity to be around. 'archer'
Welcome aboard!!
Stay focused, stay committed, stay Quit!!
Brian
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Well after a 20 year love affair with Copenhagen, it's a memory 3 days in the making and KTC has provided me with the necessary additional courage to make it through. I just wanted to say thanks to the few people who have reached out to me and I hope I can be there for a fellow brother or sister in need at any time needed. From now on the only worm dirt I'll be chewing is straight from the garden and as I look into my sons eyes I'll be prepared to educated them on the dangers one day, If the good Lord gives me the opportunity to be around. 'archer'
Welcome. Proud to be quit with you.
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Glad to be making the trip along with you. Stay focused!
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Great decision and welcome! Happy to quit with you today.
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Congratulations,
Great decision, keep it up and go. Those little boys eyes will give you any extra courage you need to continue as I have drawn incredible strength from a 9 and 5 year old girl.
Keep up the awesome work
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Congrats on a great choice. Take it one day at a time, and you will be around a long time. The first three days is huge. You're doing it. Keep it up, brother.
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First and foremost, Killthecan.org is the shizzzniz!!
It's crazy how when I was a kid I would break my moms cigs and spit in the many brass spittoons that were throughout the house at an early age. It wasn't long until I was smoking and chewing daily before I was old enough to drive a car.... legally anyway. I fell in love with Copenhagen long before I stole a pinch from my Dad, and when my brother and I were in full swing which started my Freshman year of H.S. and my mom would wake us up yelling, " get that shit out of your mouth!" Apparently we liked it so much we just fell asleep with it.....LOL.....Hell, I was chewing from sun up to sun down then and have been for the past 20 years. I've taken a few years off here and there and smoked or basically switched from one to the other. And before long I was doing both at the same time daily.
I quit all tobacco 3 years ago from taking Chantix and it lasted for about 8 months I guess before I started up smoking and chewing. Chantix works and it works well but for me personally it effected my brain chemistry in a way that was unpleasing.
So, the past 4 days of no nicotine have been a first for me in my lifetime because I actually just quit. Hmmm, go figure.
But it's important to note that I gave up the cigarettes 5 months ago first and intentionally knew that the best and only way for me not to smoke was to just chew and so it was and here 5 months later I knew that I had the smoking whipped and have for some time but the thought of not having my best friend Copenhagen with me was the most terrifying thought I've contended with in my life time. Well, other than having my face cut off and ultimately dying and leaving my sons bastards.
But they go hand in hand and I think most of us would agree. The dilema..... knowing what was at risk, I would live my life in fear and allow my fear to drive my addiction and repeat the cycle each morning and all day into the night. All the while knowing i was killing myself and being selfish.
So, how did I outsmart myself........well
I've had a supply of Smoky Mountain wintergreen chew but I wish I had some of the Hooch Spitfire dip. Nothing better than feeling that burn of a fresh dip and the Spitfire gives it to you like that first chew did. In case you didn't realize......I love to chew, I remember chewing licorice in round cans in the early 80's ( like 4 years old) and also chewing Jerky snuff until I started chewing the real stuff. So I've been filling my lip up my whole life and... I don't want to stop spitting, I enjoy it damn it....8-)
So for the past 4 days I wake up as normal and put a dip of "tobacco and nicotine" free snuff in. I've had one in all day, as usual for the most part.
And waking up each morning posting roll call and proud that I have quit and holding myself accountable to you, my brothers and sister :). It hasn't been as bad as having a hangover, not as bad as getting a tattoo, And other than the fog for the first couple of days, I'm kicking the shit out of the biiiiiiatch!!
Pride cometh before the fall and I know that I'm only seconds away from losing my quit but this is one fight that isn't worth losing knowing that I can still chew fake chew..LOL....love life and set a positive example for my peers and my family....I think this time I've outsmarted myself! But, I thank KillTheCan.org for being here because without the support of those who reached out to me initially and the overall site, I'm not sure if I would have 4 days under my belt. In fact, I doubt it.
'Remshot' 'crackup'
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First and foremost, Killthecan.org is the shizzzniz!!
It's crazy how when I was a kid I would break my moms cigs and spit in the many brass spittoons that were throughout the house at an early age. It wasn't long until I was smoking and chewing daily before I was old enough to drive a car.... legally anyway. I fell in love with Copenhagen long before I stole a pinch from my Dad, and when my brother and I were in full swing which started my Freshman year of H.S. and my mom would wake us up yelling, " get that shit out of your mouth!" Apparently we liked it so much we just fell asleep with it.....LOL.....Hell, I was chewing from sun up to sun down then and have been for the past 20 years. I've taken a few years off here and there and smoked or basically switched from one to the other. And before long I was doing both at the same time daily.
I quit all tobacco 3 years ago from taking Chantix and it lasted for about 8 months I guess before I started up smoking and chewing. Chantix works and it works well but for me personally it effected my brain chemistry in a way that was unpleasing.
So, the past 4 days of no nicotine have been a first for me in my lifetime because I actually just quit. Hmmm, go figure.
But it's important to note that I gave up the cigarettes 5 months ago first and intentionally knew that the best and only way for me not to smoke was to just chew and so it was and here 5 months later I knew that I had the smoking whipped and have for some time but the thought of not having my best friend Copenhagen with me was the most terrifying thought I've contended with in my life time. Well, other than having my face cut off and ultimately dying and leaving my sons bastards.
But they go hand in hand and I think most of us would agree. The dilema..... knowing what was at risk, I would live my life in fear and allow my fear to drive my addiction and repeat the cycle each morning and all day into the night. All the while knowing i was killing myself and being selfish.
So, how did I outsmart myself........well
I've had a supply of Smoky Mountain wintergreen chew but I wish I had some of the Hooch Spitfire dip. Nothing better than feeling that burn of a fresh dip and the Spitfire gives it to you like that first chew did. In case you didn't realize......I love to chew, I remember chewing licorice in round cans in the early 80's ( like 4 years old) and also chewing Jerky snuff until I started chewing the real stuff. So I've been filling my lip up my whole life and... I don't want to stop spitting, I enjoy it damn it....8-)
So for the past 4 days I wake up as normal and put a dip of "tobacco and nicotine" free snuff in. I've had one in all day, as usual for the most part.
And waking up each morning posting roll call and proud that I have quit and holding myself accountable to you, my brothers and sister :). It hasn't been as bad as having a hangover, not as bad as getting a tattoo, And other than the fog for the first couple of days, I'm kicking the shit out of the biiiiiiatch!!
Pride cometh before the fall and I know that I'm only seconds away from losing my quit but this is one fight that isn't worth losing knowing that I can still chew fake chew..LOL....love life and set a positive example for my peers and my family....I think this time I've outsmarted myself! But, I thank KillTheCan.org for being here because without the support of those who reached out to me initially and the overall site, I'm not sure if I would have 4 days under my belt. In fact, I doubt it.
'Remshot' 'crackup'
Welcome to the suck
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First and foremost, Killthecan.org is the shizzzniz!!
It's crazy how when I was a kid I would break my moms cigs and spit in the many brass spittoons that were throughout the house at an early age. It wasn't long until I was smoking and chewing daily before I was old enough to drive a car.... legally anyway. I fell in love with Copenhagen long before I stole a pinch from my Dad, and when my brother and I were in full swing which started my Freshman year of H.S. and my mom would wake us up yelling, " get that shit out of your mouth!" Apparently we liked it so much we just fell asleep with it.....LOL.....Hell, I was chewing from sun up to sun down then and have been for the past 20 years. I've taken a few years off here and there and smoked or basically switched from one to the other. And before long I was doing both at the same time daily.
I quit all tobacco 3 years ago from taking Chantix and it lasted for about 8 months I guess before I started up smoking and chewing. Chantix works and it works well but for me personally it effected my brain chemistry in a way that was unpleasing.
So, the past 4 days of no nicotine have been a first for me in my lifetime because I actually just quit. Hmmm, go figure.
But it's important to note that I gave up the cigarettes 5 months ago first and intentionally knew that the best and only way for me not to smoke was to just chew and so it was and here 5 months later I knew that I had the smoking whipped and have for some time but the thought of not having my best friend Copenhagen with me was the most terrifying thought I've contended with in my life time. Well, other than having my face cut off and ultimately dying and leaving my sons bastards.
But they go hand in hand and I think most of us would agree. The dilema..... knowing what was at risk, I would live my life in fear and allow my fear to drive my addiction and repeat the cycle each morning and all day into the night. All the while knowing i was killing myself and being selfish.
So, how did I outsmart myself........well
I've had a supply of Smoky Mountain wintergreen chew but I wish I had some of the Hooch Spitfire dip. Nothing better than feeling that burn of a fresh dip and the Spitfire gives it to you like that first chew did. In case you didn't realize......I love to chew, I remember chewing licorice in round cans in the early 80's ( like 4 years old) and also chewing Jerky snuff until I started chewing the real stuff. So I've been filling my lip up my whole life and... I don't want to stop spitting, I enjoy it damn it....8-)
So for the past 4 days I wake up as normal and put a dip of "tobacco and nicotine" free snuff in. I've had one in all day, as usual for the most part.
And waking up each morning posting roll call and proud that I have quit and holding myself accountable to you, my brothers and sister :). It hasn't been as bad as having a hangover, not as bad as getting a tattoo, And other than the fog for the first couple of days, I'm kicking the shit out of the biiiiiiatch!!
Pride cometh before the fall and I know that I'm only seconds away from losing my quit but this is one fight that isn't worth losing knowing that I can still chew fake chew..LOL....love life and set a positive example for my peers and my family....I think this time I've outsmarted myself! But, I thank KillTheCan.org for being here because without the support of those who reached out to me initially and the overall site, I'm not sure if I would have 4 days under my belt. In fact, I doubt it.
'Remshot' 'crackup'
Let's kick the shit out of the bitch tomorrow, too. See you at roll call.
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In case you didn't realize......I love to chew,
You USED to love to chew. Now, you hate it with every fiber of your being from the depths of your soul. You fucking hate it!
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After 40 plus days of quit with my May brothers somehow I talked myself into having a cigar. It wasn't like I woke up one morning and said hey, how about a cigar today. It was a process of about 4 days leading up to the worst decision I ever made in recent memory. I posted roll late in the afternoon the first few days thinking that this addiction was under control. And that I would post roll after work since I had this thing whipped.
Then after the next day or so I made my way to the cigar shop and stood their looking around and standing in the humidor but I ended up leaving and coming home and posting roll late that night. Then the next day I woke up and the only thing I could think of was getting my ass off of work buying a 6 pack and lighting a cigar. In fact I actually justified it to myself since my father chewed cope for 20 some years and now he smokes fine cigars and he's "ok" so I figured I should do the same so that I could "enjoy" the time with him every now and then and smoke a cigar too. LMFAO
Long story short......I was smoking those cigarillos like cigarettes right out the chute and I've been ingesting nicotine in every way shape and form since and kicking myself in the ass every day for it.
KILL THE CAN WORKS! Its the only thing that has ever given me the confidence and strength in knowing I wasn't alone each day I posted roll. I was such a dick for letting myself down, my sons down and all of my KTC brothers and sisters down.
Here I am now knowing that this support system is truly a life saving resource that requires daily accountability to oneself and to each other. I'm ready to make that final decision and quit. Congratulations to all the May HOF for their truly incredible accomplishment and I look forward to the day that I too make it to the 100 day mark. For those of you who have continued to reach out to me even though I was off killing myself,
Thank you.
Xzacto
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You should be taking your sorry caving ass to your May group and posting your CHOICE to use nicotine.....and then get your sorry ass to August and explain why your a sorry dumb fuck for licking the nic bitch's ass and get serious about your quit and start posting ROLL every day douschebag.
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Hey Capt,
I tried but didn't have the privileges to do so. Thanks for the love.
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Hey Capt,
I tried but didn't have the privileges to do so. Thanks for the love.
I am glad you wised up. Have you decided to stop killing yourself? Have you realized that the whole bs of "I want to be able to have a cigar every once in a while" line you gave me is just that - bullshit?
I know the storyh of why you caved, but would like to see it in may (no, I never posted your pm. Not my style) and a plan on what byour gonna do now. What are you gonna do today?
Cause that's all you gotta worry about.
If you are serious about this being the quit, hit me up in pm or text. You have my number. I will support you same as before. Just make damn sure you are serious this time. Serious as life and death. Cause that's what this is. A daily battle against our addiction. A daily 'Finger' to the nic bitch, and a daily promise to our brothers that we will not kill ourselves today.
Once you know what jumping off the bridge does, its not that hard to step back from the ledge. I am sorry you missed the bus in may, but its time to put on your big boy panties and make the nic bitch bite the curb with august.
While posting roll with august, I am gonna ask you to post in may as well. Every day. You up to it?
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LMFAO
Fuck you
KILL THE CAN WORKS!
Fuck you
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xzacto,
You've seen first hand what "just one" does to an addict. There is no harmless level of use. The choice is in yours. Continue in daily shame and failure, or pick yourself up, dump it down the drain, make the decision to be quit. Close the door on nicotine, no more, not for any reason. The day you do that I and a multitude of others will be here to support you. I know you at least have my and j2b's number. You know we are serious about supporting you. The ball is in your court.
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EXACTOE!!: This is my 5th quit, and I have never experiencewd anything as trying on your patience and nerves as kicking the NIC BITCHES ASS!!! BUt this site has helped me tremendously, the ONLY site to do so!!! Hang in there! 'Remshot' Nico
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Quitting is serious business here (YOU PUT YOUR NAME DOWN...YOUR WORD) and you just took a giant deuce on my front porch with this post.
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Xzacto - I see the words, put I dont see you posting Day 1 in August. WTF is up with that? Why bother? Dont come in here posting this type of shit to clear your conscious.
Are you quit or not? August is waiting....
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Xacto,
Why do you think it was that you wanted to have a "fine" cigar once in a while?
What are those made of again.... oh yeah, the same shit as the shit you shove in your lip. Wonder why you craved one so much?
This is seriously like an alcoholic justifying having a glass of fine wine or campaign. It must be different because it is the best of the best right? No, its the same alcohol as 5 o'clock vodka or natty ice hidden in a different taste.
Just like you have heard before, you are romaticizing the tobacco. Stop licking the nic bitches cunt for her and treat her like the dirty whore she really is.
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Hate that you caved but glad you wrote this. I'm workin on day 5 and so far its the worst morning yet. The guys at work smokin in the shop and the warehouse... followin me around to screw with me... makin it hard not to cave. But I read this and it helped to get my anger back. Stayin angry is what keeps me kickin the nic bitch in the twig and berries.
Thanks for the help. Get back to roll call. If I can do this so can you.
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You are not the first addict to fall into the " I can have one trap." Below are some posts from another site from quitters who went for "one". Notice how long it took some of them to quit agan. Never take your quit for granted... you may not get another chance.
You CANNOT have just one... EVER.
Understand what the thoughts are, they are the bitch trying to get you back.
Administration of a drug to an addict will cause
re-establishment of chemical dependence
upon the addictive substance."
"After a year or so I was so confident that the battle was over that I left my support system behind...it was only a matter of months before I figured I could get away with "just one". (What a horrible joke that thought is!) Of course my addicition was renewed at full strength, nearly immediately."
"Sometime after that I remember thinking I had overcome my addiction and that I could have ' just a puff' and no harm would come of it. I kept smoking for 7 years after that. I was crushed that I failed but I know now that ' one smoke' is the road to defeat."
"So why did I throw away a 6 month + quit, and with it - my life and all the education and support I was freely given here at Freedom? - well for the sake of one puff! For the illusion of controlled smoking - for the belief that one won't hurt - for the relief of well I can always try again later......."
"I never took a puff for 13 years.
I remember that day in 1999 like it was yesterday. I was in Toronto on business having a drink with a good friend at a hotel bar. My friend smokes and after a couple of adult beverages I did something very stupid. I grabbed one of my friends cigarettes and lit it up. Two days later I was back home in Chicago hooked again after 13 years."
"Tried twice to quit, made it both times to 21/2 months then got the fatal idea that i could smoke just one, well that ist puff hooked for the next 10 years."
"Wow....does this thread ever hit home for me. It was a night back in October of 1997 when I was out drinking after a viewing for a firefighter who died in the line of duty. It was a very emotional evening and I had not injested any nicotine for 30 months. Even though I debated with myself for over an hour about having a cigarette, I finally bummed one to satisfy my mental urge. The next day I was up to my old habit of 2 packs a day. I wasn't aware of this site back then. I am here now every day. I read the threads and thank God I'm still nicotine free. I have a new way of looking at my addiction now. I know that relapse is a choice. Larry 1 Month 3 Weeks 6 Days. Cigarettes not smoked: 2623. Money saved: $489.34. "
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Here is another one for you...
Nicotine Junkie
Are you a nicotine junkie? The one attribute that shows the addictive nature of nicotine is not how hard or how easy it is to quit. The frightening true property that shows the power of this addiction is that no matter how long a person is off nicotine, one puff or one dip and the once dormant reward pathways are again awake and the addict reborn. Sadly for many this “one” throws them back into the bonds of slavery and keeps them there again for years, sometimes for life. The average addict musters the confidence to challenge their addiction about once every three years, at which time roughly 1 in 20 will succeed in breaking free for an entire year.
Don't ever try to prove to yourself that you were not addicted. You were addicted to nicotine all of the years you used it and you are addicted to it today too. The difference is as an ex-nicotine user the addiction becomes asymptomatic. The pain of quitting fades, the reward “ahs” diminish, and the body and mind move on. To keep it that way and to always stay in control of your quit, remember to NEVER re-introduce nicotine into your body in any shape or form.
There is no “one” !!
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Well here I go again on my own..going down the only road I've ever known ...like a drifter I was born to walk alone.....WAIT! That's a whitesnake song and I'm definitely not alone!! As a former chewer which I can say KTC gave me the strength to quit my 20 year habit last spring as I went nicotine free for a whole 42 days! And then I caved like a Chinese coal mine under pressure and picked up my old nemesis cigarettes. I can say that both my chewing habit and smoking habit ensued at the same time of my life but if I had to say which of the two has consumed more of my life it would be cigarettes hands down. So although I let myself and my may brothers down by caving it has taken some time for me to get back on the bull and ride it like it's my last rodeo. Because this time it is. No more "safe" American spirit smokes and no more sorrow as I look into the eyes of my sons and break yet another promise of "I'll quit tomorrow". Because I quit today. So bring on the headaches, cravings, irritability, insomnia and whatever else the addiction that is officially been kicked out of my life has to counter my commitment because I know from first hand experience that the 42 days I went nic free were the best 42 days of my life. I'm ready for the battle and I'm thankful for KTC and WTP. Day one has never felt so good. adios cigs, go meet your brother chew in the depths of hell! Today is my 7th day nicotine free and with the blessings of my KTC May brothers, I'd like to get back in where I can fit in on KTC and continue posting roll on Whackthepack.com.
Xzacto
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Well here I go again on my own..going down the only road I've ever known ...like a drifter I was born to walk alone.....WAIT! That's a whitesnake song and I'm definitely not alone!! As a former chewer which I can say KTC gave me the strength to quit my 20 year habit last spring as I went nicotine free for a whole 42 days! And then I caved like a Chinese coal mine under pressure and picked up my old nemesis cigarettes. I can say that both my chewing habit and smoking habit ensued at the same time of my life but if I had to say which of the two has consumed more of my life it would be cigarettes hands down. So although I let myself and my may brothers down by caving it has taken some time for me to get back on the bull and ride it like it's my last rodeo. Because this time it is. No more "safe" American spirit smokes and no more sorrow as I look into the eyes of my sons and break yet another promise of "I'll quit tomorrow". Because I quit today. So bring on the headaches, cravings, irritability, insomnia and whatever else the addiction that is officially been kicked out of my life has to counter my commitment because I know from first hand experience that the 42 days I went nic free were the best 42 days of my life. I'm ready for the battle and I'm thankful for KTC and WTP. Day one has never felt so good. adios cigs, go meet your brother chew in the depths of hell! Today is my 7th day nicotine free and with the blessings of my KTC May brothers, I'd like to get back in where I can fit in on KTC and continue posting roll on Whackthepack.com.
Xzacto
nic is nic is nic......
you didn't cave to cigs or dip.....
you caved to your addiction of nicotine....delivery system is really irrevelant.
Post roll both places.....get control of your addiction and try to rebuild your the squandered quit.
Realize posting roll is a wager of your honor and integrity.....you've lost that bet once.....
do not lose it again.
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Well here I go again on my own..going down the only road I've ever known ...like a drifter I was born to walk alone.....WAIT! That's a whitesnake song and I'm definitely not alone!! As a former chewer which I can say KTC gave me the strength to quit my 20 year habit last spring as I went nicotine free for a whole 42 days! And then I caved like a Chinese coal mine under pressure and picked up my old nemesis cigarettes. I can say that both my chewing habit and smoking habit ensued at the same time of my life but if I had to say which of the two has consumed more of my life it would be cigarettes hands down. So although I let myself and my may brothers down by caving it has taken some time for me to get back on the bull and ride it like it's my last rodeo. Because this time it is. No more "safe" American spirit smokes and no more sorrow as I look into the eyes of my sons and break yet another promise of "I'll quit tomorrow". Because I quit today. So bring on the headaches, cravings, irritability, insomnia and whatever else the addiction that is officially been kicked out of my life has to counter my commitment because I know from first hand experience that the 42 days I went nic free were the best 42 days of my life. I'm ready for the battle and I'm thankful for KTC and WTP. Day one has never felt so good. adios cigs, go meet your brother chew in the depths of hell! Today is my 7th day nicotine free and with the blessings of my KTC May brothers, I'd like to get back in where I can fit in on KTC and continue posting roll on Whackthepack.com.
Xzacto
nic is nic is nic......
you didn't cave to cigs or dip.....
you caved to your addiction of nicotine....delivery system is really irrevelant.
Post roll both places.....get control of your addiction and try to rebuild your the squandered quit.
Realize posting roll is a wager of your honor and integrity.....you've lost that bet once.....
do not lose it again.
Not a habit - an ADDICTION- you are an ADDICT. You had better embrace that if you want to make this your last quit. Cigarettes, Dip, the addiction part all works the same. Whack the Pack or KTC different websites, same principles. You need to attack the Addiction with every resource that you have. Got numbers -USE THEM, Alcohol - STAY AWAY FROM IT. Make sure there is nothing you wouldn't do to protect your quit. If and only if you do that I will support you.
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Well here I go again on my own..going down the only road I've ever known ...like a drifter I was born to walk alone.....WAIT! That's a whitesnake song and I'm definitely not alone!! As a former chewer which I can say KTC gave me the strength to quit my 20 year habit last spring as I went nicotine free for a whole 42 days! And then I caved like a Chinese coal mine under pressure and picked up my old nemesis cigarettes. I can say that both my chewing habit and smoking habit ensued at the same time of my life but if I had to say which of the two has consumed more of my life it would be cigarettes hands down. So although I let myself and my may brothers down by caving it has taken some time for me to get back on the bull and ride it like it's my last rodeo. Because this time it is. No more "safe" American spirit smokes and no more sorrow as I look into the eyes of my sons and break yet another promise of "I'll quit tomorrow". Because I quit today. So bring on the headaches, cravings, irritability, insomnia and whatever else the addiction that is officially been kicked out of my life has to counter my commitment because I know from first hand experience that the 42 days I went nic free were the best 42 days of my life. I'm ready for the battle and I'm thankful for KTC and WTP. Day one has never felt so good. adios cigs, go meet your brother chew in the depths of hell! Today is my 7th day nicotine free and with the blessings of my KTC May brothers, I'd like to get back in where I can fit in on KTC and continue posting roll on Whackthepack.com.
Xzacto
nic is nic is nic......
you didn't cave to cigs or dip.....
you caved to your addiction of nicotine....delivery system is really irrevelant.
Post roll both places.....get control of your addiction and try to rebuild your the squandered quit.
Realize posting roll is a wager of your honor and integrity.....you've lost that bet once.....
do not lose it again.
Not a habit - an ADDICTION- you are an ADDICT. You had better embrace that if you want to make this your last quit. Cigarettes, Dip, the addiction part all works the same. Whack the Pack or KTC different websites, same principles. You need to attack the Addiction with every resource that you have. Got numbers -USE THEM, Alcohol - STAY AWAY FROM IT. Make sure there is nothing you wouldn't do to protect your quit. If and only if you do that I will support you.
Agree about the addict insights. The day you admit you are an addict is the day you can begin a real journey of quit. It does not make quit easy, it just means you call the shots. You have been here before. Be a leader now. Go and get it.
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Well here I go again on my own..going down the only road I've ever known ...like a drifter I was born to walk alone.....WAIT! That's a whitesnake song and I'm definitely not alone!! As a former chewer which I can say KTC gave me the strength to quit my 20 year habit last spring as I went nicotine free for a whole 42 days! And then I caved like a Chinese coal mine under pressure and picked up my old nemesis cigarettes. I can say that both my chewing habit and smoking habit ensued at the same time of my life but if I had to say which of the two has consumed more of my life it would be cigarettes hands down. So although I let myself and my may brothers down by caving it has taken some time for me to get back on the bull and ride it like it's my last rodeo. Because this time it is. No more "safe" American spirit smokes and no more sorrow as I look into the eyes of my sons and break yet another promise of "I'll quit tomorrow". Because I quit today. So bring on the headaches, cravings, irritability, insomnia and whatever else the addiction that is officially been kicked out of my life has to counter my commitment because I know from first hand experience that the 42 days I went nic free were the best 42 days of my life. I'm ready for the battle and I'm thankful for KTC and WTP. Day one has never felt so good. adios cigs, go meet your brother chew in the depths of hell! Today is my 7th day nicotine free and with the blessings of my KTC May brothers, I'd like to get back in where I can fit in on KTC and continue posting roll on Whackthepack.com.
Xzacto
nic is nic is nic......
you didn't cave to cigs or dip.....
you caved to your addiction of nicotine....delivery system is really irrevelant.
Post roll both places.....get control of your addiction and try to rebuild your the squandered quit.
Realize posting roll is a wager of your honor and integrity.....you've lost that bet once.....
do not lose it again.
Not a habit - an ADDICTION- you are an ADDICT. You had better embrace that if you want to make this your last quit. Cigarettes, Dip, the addiction part all works the same. Whack the Pack or KTC different websites, same principles. You need to attack the Addiction with every resource that you have. Got numbers -USE THEM, Alcohol - STAY AWAY FROM IT. Make sure there is nothing you wouldn't do to protect your quit. If and only if you do that I will support you.
Agree about the addict insights. The day you admit you are an addict is the day you can begin a real journey of quit. It does not make quit easy, it just means you call the shots. You have been here before. Be a leader now. Go and get it.
Thanks for the support! I appreciate the input and understanding.
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For those who don't know, My name is Xzacto. I'm a full fledged nic addict. I caved my first quit after 42 days. Now I'm 7 days into my quit and I've come clean with October and I hope my May brothers will allow me to post roll with them. I'm also posting roll on whack-the-pack. I've taken my lumps and I'm open to any more that feel it necessary to speak their mind. Like I said, it's easier the first time to just stay quit.
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For those who don't know, My name is Xzacto. I'm a full fledged nic addict. I caved my first quit after 42 days. Now I'm 7 days into my quit and I've come clean with October and I hope my May brothers will allow me to post roll with them. I'm also posting roll on whack-the-pack. I've taken my lumps and I'm open to any more that feel it necessary to speak their mind. Like I said, it's easier the first time to just stay quit.
I for one have said what I needed to, I thin you know that you would be on day 177 today instead of day 7, and that alone is more than I could put into words.
I also look forward to seeing you on roll with us in may.
Again, welcome to the suck round 2, don't fuck up again. Use the tools!
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For those who don't know, My name is Xzacto. I'm a full fledged nic addict. I caved my first quit after 42 days. Now I'm 7 days into my quit and I've come clean with October and I hope my May brothers will allow me to post roll with them. I'm also posting roll on whack-the-pack. I've taken my lumps and I'm open to any more that feel it necessary to speak their mind. Like I said, it's easier the first time to just stay quit.
You were the first to share your number with me, and I want you to know, I was deeply saddened when you caved. I have spoken my peace as well, but I am just going to emphasize one more time that this is full on addiction. Addiction in the same sense that heroin is an addiction. Embrace the fact that you are an addict, that there will never be a "just one", That any "just one" will lead back in to full fledged addiction/use. You have my support and blessing to post in May, provided you promise to use all of the resources available to you to fight this addiction to nicotine.
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For those who don't know, My name is Xzacto. I'm a full fledged nic addict. I caved my first quit after 42 days. Now I'm 7 days into my quit and I've come clean with October and I hope my May brothers will allow me to post roll with them. I'm also posting roll on whack-the-pack. I've taken my lumps and I'm open to any more that feel it necessary to speak their mind. Like I said, it's easier the first time to just stay quit.
What are you going to do differently this time? What is your plan? What are you going to do when Nic comes knocking this time?
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Fellas,
The only thing I can say is that I understand that I'm a full fledged addict and that I can never use any form of nicotine no matter how dire the crave. This is my illness of which I know is both treatable and controllable one day at a time. As far as different this time, I've been riding my road bike (bicycle) about 60 miles a week, running and working out and eating right. When the bitch comes knocking the only thing I can do is not answer the door. I won't allow lifes obstacles to convince me that the answer is nicotine. When in fact the answer to the obstacles in my life is no nicotine.
Knowing that I started off with you guys and now I'm starting over sucks but I'm ok with it knowing that this is it for me. Time to Livestrong until the good Lord calls my number.
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Fellas,
The only thing I can say is that I understand that I'm a full fledged addict and that I can never use any form of nicotine no matter how dire the crave. This is my illness of which I know is both treatable and controllable one day at a time. As far as different this time, I've been riding my road bike (bicycle) about 60 miles a week, running and working out and eating right. When the bitch comes knocking the only thing I can do is not answer the door. I won't allow lifes obstacles to convince me that the answer is nicotine. When in fact the answer to the obstacles in my life is no nicotine.
Knowing that I started off with you guys and now I'm starting over sucks but I'm ok with it knowing that this is it for me. Time to Livestrong until the good Lord calls my number.
Sounds good, let's do this!
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For those who don't know, My name is Xzacto. I'm a full fledged nic addict. I caved my first quit after 42 days. Now I'm 7 days into my quit and I've come clean with October and I hope my May brothers will allow me to post roll with them. I'm also posting roll on whack-the-pack. I've taken my lumps and I'm open to any more that feel it necessary to speak their mind. Like I said, it's easier the first time to just stay quit.
I for one have said what I needed to, I thin you know that you would be on day 177 today instead of day 7, and that alone is more than I could put into words.
I also look forward to seeing you on roll with us in may.
Again, welcome to the suck round 2, don't fuck up again. Use the tools!
That sounds good and all and I don't disagree with the logic, however it is better that you are back to fight again as opposed to still in the depths of the addiction. I used for 7 years, quit for 3.5 years and have been back at it for about 4 now. I'm on day 4 of this new endeavor but nobody can take away those 40 something days you had before. Those were 40 days without nicotine and you should be proud of them. Did you fuck up? Sure. That's life, now what? I had almost 4 years with no nicotine - did I fuck up - sure did, but you know what 7+4 is still less than 15 years of straight dipping. Those 3.5 may have saved my life and now I have the chance to take that back again. I'm proud you're back and I don't even know you. If this offends any sensibilities, sorry but I like to speak the truth. Too many people get caught up with numbers and days ect because it's a good way to motivate people. But that means sometimes people are embarrased to come back to support groups because of what they "lost." You didn't lose shit. You are here now and moving forward. Fuck anyone who thinks differently.
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Xacto,
You took your lashings and got back on the horse but there is something that bothers me through this whole thing.
You mentioned a while back that you still wanted to be able to have a "fine cigar" when you wanted to. The point is that you have romanticized the nic bitch in the past. There is no such thing as a "Fine cigar" to an addict. Every cigar is the same cancer carrier as a cigarette or can of dip.
I am in no way saying that you can't heal yourself but you will have learn to hate all tobacco, and by hate I mean hate it all with a passion. After all look how much of a slave it has made you.
Now get back to quitting...
and by the way, now that you made the promise to quit it is a requirement to post every day in May2011. It should be the second thing you do every day, after posting in your current quit group.
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I am in no way saying that you can't heal yourself but you will have learn to hate all tobacco, and by hate I mean hate it all with a passion. After all look how much of a slave it has made you.
That sounds like a solid approach to building some resolve to getting this done this time...a little backbone against the NB.
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Yes, I did romanticize about that fucking cigar and it was the bitch in disguise. Magnum your right, I hate all tobacco in all forms I am a addict. I let down some men and women that I look up to TCope, SamCat, Jost2Brown, Parputt, 30YrAddict, Hootie to name a few. I don't discount my 40 days because I never claimed to be the smartest guy but I am intuitive enough to know that I don't ever want another day 1 of a quit. Good Shit Jmia, I too am proud of your efforts in quit and I know that everyone of you does give a shit or else we wouldn't be having this conversation. Letting myself down was hard, letting my sons down was harder, jeopardizing my integrity and my word was the hardest to overcome and coming clean with all of you wan't easy but it's the tough love that makes me know Xzacto isn't alone and for that I am ever grateful.
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I am in no way saying that you can't heal yourself but you will have learn to hate all tobacco, and by hate I mean hate it all with a passion. After all look how much of a slave it has made you.
That sounds like a solid approach to building some resolve to getting this done this time...a little backbone against the NB.
That sounds like a solid approach to building some resolve to getting this done this time...a little backbone against the NB.
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I am in no way saying that you can't heal yourself but you will have learn to hate all tobacco, and by hate I mean hate it all with a passion. After all look how much of a slave it has made you.
That sounds like a solid approach to building some resolve to getting this done this time...a little backbone against the NB.
That sounds like a solid approach to building some resolve to getting this done this time...a little backbone against the NB.
Amen
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I won't allow lifes obstacles to convince me that the answer is nicotine
Nicotine doesn't fill the void............ it created it
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I won't allow lifes obstacles to convince me that the answer is nicotine
Nicotine doesn't fill the void............ it created it
EXACTLY!
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Your title of your intro caught my Eye :The First Quit is the Easiet" Obviously we have all tried before but there could be someone who this is their first and last go of it.
No matter how many times you got to say this is my last quit.