Great intro Jake, welcome. Those pictures and the tears they leave behind are no joke, huh. That's how I came here too. Keep a bit of those pictures with you. Especially when around other dippers, it is easy to say, "Fuck it, if he's been doing it for x number of years I can do it." Unfortunately, you never know who or when that cancer will hit. It's like Russian Roulette. As the days progress, you will realize that your addiction is about more than just dipping. Just post roll and keep your word. Drink water, eat seeds, and QLF! I'm quit with you today.Thanks, Just got about 9 packs of gum
Like the avatar. I believe it wholeheartedly. You need to believe it as well. These next few days are gonna be war. Prepare yourself with resources for the oral fix. Cruise the boards even more so than you have. This is your crave sanctuary. The first ~ 10 days I pretty much lived here on KTC. It saved my life. It certainly provided an avenue for me to quit. Something that at 51 yrs I never had before.Quote from: danojenoGreat intro Jake, welcome. Those pictures and the tears they leave behind are no joke, huh. That's how I came here too. Keep a bit of those pictures with you. Especially when around other dippers, it is easy to say, "Fuck it, if he's been doing it for x number of years I can do it." Unfortunately, you never know who or when that cancer will hit. It's like Russian Roulette. As the days progress, you will realize that your addiction is about more than just dipping. Just post roll and keep your word. Drink water, eat seeds, and QLF! I'm quit with you today.Thanks, Just got about 9 packs of gum
Definitely looking to use this place as an escape and to help others in the process.Quote from: Jake_MLike the avatar. I believe it wholeheartedly. You need to believe it as well. These next few days are gonna be war. Prepare yourself with resources for the oral fix. Cruise the boards even more so than you have. This is your crave sanctuary. The first ~ 10 days I pretty much lived here on KTC. It saved my life. It certainly provided an avenue for me to quit. Something that at 51 yrs I never had before.Quote from: danojenoGreat intro Jake, welcome. Those pictures and the tears they leave behind are no joke, huh. That's how I came here too. Keep a bit of those pictures with you. Especially when around other dippers, it is easy to say, "Fuck it, if he's been doing it for x number of years I can do it." Unfortunately, you never know who or when that cancer will hit. It's like Russian Roulette. As the days progress, you will realize that your addiction is about more than just dipping. Just post roll and keep your word. Drink water, eat seeds, and QLF! I'm quit with you today.Thanks, Just got about 9 packs of gum
Take advantage of this place, it will save your life as well.
Welcome, and thanks for the kind words.Quote from: Done4MeDefinitely looking to use this place as an escape and to help others in the process.Quote from: Jake_MLike the avatar. I believe it wholeheartedly. You need to believe it as well. These next few days are gonna be war. Prepare yourself with resources for the oral fix. Cruise the boards even more so than you have. This is your crave sanctuary. The first ~ 10 days I pretty much lived here on KTC. It saved my life. It certainly provided an avenue for me to quit. Something that at 51 yrs I never had before.Quote from: danojenoGreat intro Jake, welcome. Those pictures and the tears they leave behind are no joke, huh. That's how I came here too. Keep a bit of those pictures with you. Especially when around other dippers, it is easy to say, "Fuck it, if he's been doing it for x number of years I can do it." Unfortunately, you never know who or when that cancer will hit. It's like Russian Roulette. As the days progress, you will realize that your addiction is about more than just dipping. Just post roll and keep your word. Drink water, eat seeds, and QLF! I'm quit with you today.Thanks, Just got about 9 packs of gum
Take advantage of this place, it will save your life as well.
Thanks for the advice I suppose I wasn't really expecting to hear from you so soon.Quote from: Jake_MWelcome, and thanks for the kind words.Quote from: Done4MeDefinitely looking to use this place as an escape and to help others in the process.Quote from: Jake_MLike the avatar. I believe it wholeheartedly. You need to believe it as well. These next few days are gonna be war. Prepare yourself with resources for the oral fix. Cruise the boards even more so than you have. This is your crave sanctuary. The first ~ 10 days I pretty much lived here on KTC. It saved my life. It certainly provided an avenue for me to quit. Something that at 51 yrs I never had before.Quote from: danojenoGreat intro Jake, welcome. Those pictures and the tears they leave behind are no joke, huh. That's how I came here too. Keep a bit of those pictures with you. Especially when around other dippers, it is easy to say, "Fuck it, if he's been doing it for x number of years I can do it." Unfortunately, you never know who or when that cancer will hit. It's like Russian Roulette. As the days progress, you will realize that your addiction is about more than just dipping. Just post roll and keep your word. Drink water, eat seeds, and QLF! I'm quit with you today.Thanks, Just got about 9 packs of gum
Take advantage of this place, it will save your life as well.
These first few days are going to be insane. Water, water, and water. Limit your caffeine as it can be more potent these first few days. Exercise kills craves and ride your body of this poison faster. Most importantly...breathe. You can do this man.
You're in the right place.
HahaQuote from: wastepanelThanks for the advice I suppose I wasn't really expecting to hear from you so soon.Quote from: Jake_MWelcome, and thanks for the kind words.Quote from: Done4MeDefinitely looking to use this place as an escape and to help others in the process.Quote from: Jake_MLike the avatar. I believe it wholeheartedly. You need to believe it as well. These next few days are gonna be war. Prepare yourself with resources for the oral fix. Cruise the boards even more so than you have. This is your crave sanctuary. The first ~ 10 days I pretty much lived here on KTC. It saved my life. It certainly provided an avenue for me to quit. Something that at 51 yrs I never had before.Quote from: danojenoGreat intro Jake, welcome. Those pictures and the tears they leave behind are no joke, huh. That's how I came here too. Keep a bit of those pictures with you. Especially when around other dippers, it is easy to say, "Fuck it, if he's been doing it for x number of years I can do it." Unfortunately, you never know who or when that cancer will hit. It's like Russian Roulette. As the days progress, you will realize that your addiction is about more than just dipping. Just post roll and keep your word. Drink water, eat seeds, and QLF! I'm quit with you today.Thanks, Just got about 9 packs of gum
Take advantage of this place, it will save your life as well.
These first few days are going to be insane. Water, water, and water. Limit your caffeine as it can be more potent these first few days. Exercise kills craves and ride your body of this poison faster. Most importantly...breathe. You can do this man.
You're in the right place.
Wastepanel is a great quitter. He has helped many of people in their path to the freedom from nicotine. 12 hours of reading is a bunch and really awesome- the more you read the better.Quote from: Jake_MHahaQuote from: wastepanelThanks for the advice I suppose I wasn't really expecting to hear from you so soon.Quote from: Jake_MWelcome, and thanks for the kind words.Quote from: Done4MeDefinitely looking to use this place as an escape and to help others in the process.Quote from: Jake_MLike the avatar. I believe it wholeheartedly. You need to believe it as well. These next few days are gonna be war. Prepare yourself with resources for the oral fix. Cruise the boards even more so than you have. This is your crave sanctuary. The first ~ 10 days I pretty much lived here on KTC. It saved my life. It certainly provided an avenue for me to quit. Something that at 51 yrs I never had before.Quote from: danojenoGreat intro Jake, welcome. Those pictures and the tears they leave behind are no joke, huh. That's how I came here too. Keep a bit of those pictures with you. Especially when around other dippers, it is easy to say, "Fuck it, if he's been doing it for x number of years I can do it." Unfortunately, you never know who or when that cancer will hit. It's like Russian Roulette. As the days progress, you will realize that your addiction is about more than just dipping. Just post roll and keep your word. Drink water, eat seeds, and QLF! I'm quit with you today.Thanks, Just got about 9 packs of gum
Take advantage of this place, it will save your life as well.
These first few days are going to be insane. Water, water, and water. Limit your caffeine as it can be more potent these first few days. Exercise kills craves and ride your body of this poison faster. Most importantly...breathe. You can do this man.
You're in the right place.
That's the beauty of this place man. (It also helps I'm in the car currently and cruising the boards).
I couldn't agree more wastepanel from what I read is a guidance counselor of hope and commitment. I read his story from the day he started- comma. It truly inspired me, and gave me insight on what I might expect, such as I might hit a rough patch around 900. I wouldn't have guessed...Quote from: wastepanelWastepanel is a great quitter. He has helped many of people in their path to the freedom from nicotine. 12 hours of reading is a bunch and really awesome- the more you read the better.Quote from: Jake_MHahaQuote from: wastepanelThanks for the advice I suppose I wasn't really expecting to hear from you so soon.Quote from: Jake_MWelcome, and thanks for the kind words.Quote from: Done4MeDefinitely looking to use this place as an escape and to help others in the process.Quote from: Jake_MLike the avatar. I believe it wholeheartedly. You need to believe it as well. These next few days are gonna be war. Prepare yourself with resources for the oral fix. Cruise the boards even more so than you have. This is your crave sanctuary. The first ~ 10 days I pretty much lived here on KTC. It saved my life. It certainly provided an avenue for me to quit. Something that at 51 yrs I never had before.Quote from: danojenoGreat intro Jake, welcome. Those pictures and the tears they leave behind are no joke, huh. That's how I came here too. Keep a bit of those pictures with you. Especially when around other dippers, it is easy to say, "Fuck it, if he's been doing it for x number of years I can do it." Unfortunately, you never know who or when that cancer will hit. It's like Russian Roulette. As the days progress, you will realize that your addiction is about more than just dipping. Just post roll and keep your word. Drink water, eat seeds, and QLF! I'm quit with you today.Thanks, Just got about 9 packs of gum
Take advantage of this place, it will save your life as well.
These first few days are going to be insane. Water, water, and water. Limit your caffeine as it can be more potent these first few days. Exercise kills craves and ride your body of this poison faster. Most importantly...breathe. You can do this man.
You're in the right place.
That's the beauty of this place man. (It also helps I'm in the car currently and cruising the boards).
Use this intro to journal your quit, rage, make observations or write creative metaphors. It'll be helpful to you and possibly like Wasterpanel's intro, it may be helpful to others some day.
Quit with you.
Good to have you Jake. Stay small tonight and tomorrow. Make it to the next hour. Then the next. My first few days sucked. Get past the first 3 and it gets better. Way better.Quote from: FMBM707I couldn't agree more wastepanel from what I read is a guidance counselor of hope and commitment. I read his story from the day he started- comma. It truly inspired me, and gave me insight on what I might expect, such as I might hit a rough patch around 900. I wouldn't have guessed...Quote from: wastepanelWastepanel is a great quitter. He has helped many of people in their path to the freedom from nicotine. 12 hours of reading is a bunch and really awesome- the more you read the better.Quote from: Jake_MHahaQuote from: wastepanelThanks for the advice I suppose I wasn't really expecting to hear from you so soon.Quote from: Jake_MWelcome, and thanks for the kind words.Quote from: Done4MeDefinitely looking to use this place as an escape and to help others in the process.Quote from: Jake_MLike the avatar. I believe it wholeheartedly. You need to believe it as well. These next few days are gonna be war. Prepare yourself with resources for the oral fix. Cruise the boards even more so than you have. This is your crave sanctuary. The first ~ 10 days I pretty much lived here on KTC. It saved my life. It certainly provided an avenue for me to quit. Something that at 51 yrs I never had before.Quote from: danojenoGreat intro Jake, welcome. Those pictures and the tears they leave behind are no joke, huh. That's how I came here too. Keep a bit of those pictures with you. Especially when around other dippers, it is easy to say, "Fuck it, if he's been doing it for x number of years I can do it." Unfortunately, you never know who or when that cancer will hit. It's like Russian Roulette. As the days progress, you will realize that your addiction is about more than just dipping. Just post roll and keep your word. Drink water, eat seeds, and QLF! I'm quit with you today.Thanks, Just got about 9 packs of gum
Take advantage of this place, it will save your life as well.
These first few days are going to be insane. Water, water, and water. Limit your caffeine as it can be more potent these first few days. Exercise kills craves and ride your body of this poison faster. Most importantly...breathe. You can do this man.
You're in the right place.
That's the beauty of this place man. (It also helps I'm in the car currently and cruising the boards).
Use this intro to journal your quit, rage, make observations or write creative metaphors. It'll be helpful to you and possibly like Wasterpanel's intro, it may be helpful to others some day.
Quit with you.
Keep it going Jake. Your already starting to do the deal. Keep up with the texts as well. Had to long on myself just to read. Always a tough one after eating dinner. So log on and read. Enjoyed the intro as well.Quote from: Jake_MGood to have you Jake. Stay small tonight and tomorrow. Make it to the next hour. Then the next. My first few days sucked. Get past the first 3 and it gets better. Way better.Quote from: FMBM707I couldn't agree more wastepanel from what I read is a guidance counselor of hope and commitment. I read his story from the day he started- comma. It truly inspired me, and gave me insight on what I might expect, such as I might hit a rough patch around 900. I wouldn't have guessed...Quote from: wastepanelWastepanel is a great quitter. He has helped many of people in their path to the freedom from nicotine. 12 hours of reading is a bunch and really awesome- the more you read the better.Quote from: Jake_MHahaQuote from: wastepanelThanks for the advice I suppose I wasn't really expecting to hear from you so soon.Quote from: Jake_MWelcome, and thanks for the kind words.Quote from: Done4MeDefinitely looking to use this place as an escape and to help others in the process.Quote from: Jake_MLike the avatar. I believe it wholeheartedly. You need to believe it as well. These next few days are gonna be war. Prepare yourself with resources for the oral fix. Cruise the boards even more so than you have. This is your crave sanctuary. The first ~ 10 days I pretty much lived here on KTC. It saved my life. It certainly provided an avenue for me to quit. Something that at 51 yrs I never had before.Quote from: danojenoGreat intro Jake, welcome. Those pictures and the tears they leave behind are no joke, huh. That's how I came here too. Keep a bit of those pictures with you. Especially when around other dippers, it is easy to say, "Fuck it, if he's been doing it for x number of years I can do it." Unfortunately, you never know who or when that cancer will hit. It's like Russian Roulette. As the days progress, you will realize that your addiction is about more than just dipping. Just post roll and keep your word. Drink water, eat seeds, and QLF! I'm quit with you today.Thanks, Just got about 9 packs of gum
Take advantage of this place, it will save your life as well.
These first few days are going to be insane. Water, water, and water. Limit your caffeine as it can be more potent these first few days. Exercise kills craves and ride your body of this poison faster. Most importantly...breathe. You can do this man.
You're in the right place.
That's the beauty of this place man. (It also helps I'm in the car currently and cruising the boards).
Use this intro to journal your quit, rage, make observations or write creative metaphors. It'll be helpful to you and possibly like Wasterpanel's intro, it may be helpful to others some day.
Quit with you.
Day 2- As I said before both of my older brothers dip as well. Well this morning, just like every morning, we three way called each other on our ways to work. This morning I told them that I had joined a support group to quit dipping. I was expecting all sorts of name calling being thrown at me, but to the contrary. For the first time EVER we talked about quitting TOGETHER. Apparently we have all three tried quitting numerous times. Just never at the same time. That has been what was killing all of us on our quits, the fact that only one was doing it at a time. My oldest brother said "When we all get together the one that is "quit" would always crack, cause basically its two on one". After speaking with them this morning, I truly hope and expect to see their name on January 2015 roll call today (Probably this evening). I am excited if this will be the changing point for me and my brothers. Next stop will be my dad...That would be awesome to have 3 brothers in a quit month. Hope it happens.
Nice job posting roll today Jake!Quote from: Jake_MDay 2- As I said before both of my older brothers dip as well. Well this morning, just like every morning, we three way called each other on our ways to work. This morning I told them that I had joined a support group to quit dipping. I was expecting all sorts of name calling being thrown at me, but to the contrary. For the first time EVER we talked about quitting TOGETHER. Apparently we have all three tried quitting numerous times. Just never at the same time. That has been what was killing all of us on our quits, the fact that only one was doing it at a time. My oldest brother said "When we all get together the one that is "quit" would always crack, cause basically its two on one". After speaking with them this morning, I truly hope and expect to see their name on January 2015 roll call today (Probably this evening). I am excited if this will be the changing point for me and my brothers. Next stop will be my dad...That would be awesome to have 3 brothers in a quit month. Hope it happens.
Awesome. This could be some major quit power.Quote from: Jake_MDay 2- As I said before both of my older brothers dip as well. Well this morning, just like every morning, we three way called each other on our ways to work. This morning I told them that I had joined a support group to quit dipping. I was expecting all sorts of name calling being thrown at me, but to the contrary. For the first time EVER we talked about quitting TOGETHER. Apparently we have all three tried quitting numerous times. Just never at the same time. That has been what was killing all of us on our quits, the fact that only one was doing it at a time. My oldest brother said "When we all get together the one that is "quit" would always crack, cause basically its two on one". After speaking with them this morning, I truly hope and expect to see their name on January 2015 roll call today (Probably this evening). I am excited if this will be the changing point for me and my brothers. Next stop will be my dad...That would be awesome to have 3 brothers in a quit month. Hope it happens.
'Deranged'?Just the impression I got.
'ninja'
Day 3 Hit me like a freight train. It is hard to focus on much of anything. My mind is racing. My hands are fidgety. My blood is hot. Sweat is pouring down my face in 75 degree weather. The nicotine bitch is not whispering sweet nothings in my ear anymore, she is screaming at me. Saying things like "Why do you have to suffer when everyone else is happy?" or "You have never been able to quit before, this time is no different" or "Look at that can of snuff in your buddy's pocket. He'd be happy to give you a dip." Today is definitely becoming the hardest.... but I WILL do this!Day 3 sucks donkey balls. But make it through it and you'll be a better man tomorrow. Whatever it takes.
Even in the fog you're a good judge of character. 'Crazy'Quote from: Nolaq'Deranged'?Just the impression I got.
'ninja'
Day 4 even worse than yesterday. I have had a pounding headache all day, I got none sleep last night. I have had 3 people offer me a dip today. 2 of which knew I was trying to quit, and two of the offered were my brand, cut and flavor. So today I want to punch a baby in the face. Not any baby in particular just some random fucking baby. I told myself when I quit that I would not use any aids, such as, smokey mountain or herbal snuff. but fuck that shit, I asked my wife to go get me some. Well apparently here wind shield wipers are broken and its raining. So no go on the relief. I got on the crane a few minutes after that happened and what do I find sitting on the dash.... A half full can of Wolf wintergreen long cut that some other operator left so conveniently. Thanks Ronnie. As hard as it has been so far today I have kept my promise. It seems like the nic bitch is really out to get me.You got this bro. Through the stuff you find out the crane window. There are other things you can use instead of the fake chew. I used tea bags. Just wet the bag, rip it open and pack away. Use the celestial seasonings stuff. it won't stain your teeth. I've used for so long and my teeth were so stained it didn't matter. I just used plain ol' lipton or luzianne tea bags. I've been quit 689 days and I still sometimes just need to pack a lipper with something. You are entering the fog. The headaches will pass in a day or two. Eat ibuprofen. drink lots of water. I drank so much water my first couple of weeks I had to go piss about every 20 minutes. The no sleep thing will pass in a couple of days as well. In a few days the fog will start to lift and you will be able to glimpse the light and freedom at the end of the tunnel.
Jake you can do this. You continue to beat the nic bitch and its great. Embrace the suck. It means you are healingQuote from: Jake_MDay 4 even worse than yesterday. I have had a pounding headache all day, I got none sleep last night. I have had 3 people offer me a dip today. 2 of which knew I was trying to quit, and two of the offered were my brand, cut and flavor. So today I want to punch a baby in the face. Not any baby in particular just some random fucking baby. I told myself when I quit that I would not use any aids, such as, smokey mountain or herbal snuff. but fuck that shit, I asked my wife to go get me some. Well apparently here wind shield wipers are broken and its raining. So no go on the relief. I got on the crane a few minutes after that happened and what do I find sitting on the dash.... A half full can of Wolf wintergreen long cut that some other operator left so conveniently. Thanks Ronnie. As hard as it has been so far today I have kept my promise. It seems like the nic bitch is really out to get me.You got this bro. Through the stuff you find out the crane window. There are other things you can use instead of the fake chew. I used tea bags. Just wet the bag, rip it open and pack away. Use the celestial seasonings stuff. it won't stain your teeth. I've used for so long and my teeth were so stained it didn't matter. I just used plain ol' lipton or luzianne tea bags. I've been quit 689 days and I still sometimes just need to pack a lipper with something. You are entering the fog. The headaches will pass in a day or two. Eat ibuprofen. drink lots of water. I drank so much water my first couple of weeks I had to go piss about every 20 minutes. The no sleep thing will pass in a couple of days as well. In a few days the fog will start to lift and you will be able to glimpse the light and freedom at the end of the tunnel.
Stay focused. You can do this. Check your in box. I've sent you my digits.
Mike
Day 5 The craves were bad this morning, not the worst but still bad. Around noon I got my wife to get me some smokey mountain herbal snuff. It really helped with my oral fixations. A real relief. Today was better than yesterday but not as good as tomorrow will be ( I hope) So until then I will keep my promise and keep my life.You are so close to starting to feel better. Own it! Fuck nic and all the years it stole from you and your family. Learn how to hate it. Despise it.
Jake, saw you poke your head in May the other day. After reading your intro, I see that you are arming yourself against the nic whore with your most valuable weapon...knowledge (in Nebraska that is spelled without the K). Keep up the good work, read all you can. Build a web of accountability with every avenue you can. I tell people that had no idea I chewed for 36+ years that I am quit.^^^Doc may be a bushwhacker but he is offering you some great tools for your quit arsenal.
Come on back to May if you get bored. Not sure you'll learn much but it is usually entertaining.
there are avenues for help and entertainment all over this site jake, use them and stay true to why you came here. Don't forget those pictures my friendQuote from: DocJake, saw you poke your head in May the other day. After reading your intro, I see that you are arming yourself against the nic whore with your most valuable weapon...knowledge (in Nebraska that is spelled without the K). Keep up the good work, read all you can. Build a web of accountability with every avenue you can. I tell people that had no idea I chewed for 36+ years that I am quit.^^^Doc may be a bushwhacker but he is offering you some great tools for your quit arsenal.
Come on back to May if you get bored. Not sure you'll learn much but it is usually entertaining.
Day 6 "Logic and Reason" Rant - I was thinking about the nic bitch today. She has really cut me good a few times and before I found this site I wasn't even aware of her existence. I thought that the voice in my head promoting the use of snuff was a voice of logic and reason. "It was better to continue dipping because you would be miserable otherwise." "You have never known anyone personally to ever get cancer from dipping." The worst cut she ever gave me was the time she convinced me to break off the engagement with my fiancé. I know it seems absolutely crazy to think that could happen, but trust me it did.... Me and my fiancé had always butted heads pretty hard about using tobacco. Which is understandable she hated it cause it was killing me and I loved it because I was addicted. When we first met I smoked, drank and dipped. She hated smoking, so after a few months I quit smoking and just dipped. About a year later she decided she didn't like my drinking so I quit drinking, except on very rare occasions (a few times a year). Shortly after that she decided she didn't like my dipping. This is when the Nic Bitch really started fucking me over. I tried to quit a few times over the next year but never made it more than a few days. After all I was quitting for someone else and my heart just wasn't in it. I, unbeknownst of the nic bitch, would always use my "logic and reason" (aka the nic bitch) to retreat from my quit. With every retreat I would see my fiancé's disappointment. It would eat me up inside so what did my "logic and reason" tell me to do. LIE. My "logic and reason" would tell me things like "What she don't know wont hurt her" and "You have already given her two of your vices, she is just being greedy asking for your third and last one" and "If you only do it at work she will never know". So of course being the concrete man that I am, I would listen to my "Logic and reason". I started working more and more. I started never wanting to be around her. Then the nic bitch did the real deed she convinced me that it was not logical to stay with my fiancé because one of us would always be miserable and that I would have to continue lying for the rest of my life, that there was no way this would end well, and "logically" this was no life to live. We were just not compatible. Which in reality I had found the most wonderful and beautiful woman I could have never been more compatible with. The nic bitch hounded me for two weeks until I was convinced that marrying her would only lead to resentment, anger and regret. So three weeks before we were to get married I told her that I wanted to break it off with her. She was shocked, unimaginably hurt and absolutely petrified. The nic bitch provided me with a nice little list of things that I didn't like about her so that my tobacco would not be held responsible for ruining the best thing that ever happened to me. I knew the truth though. Within 24 hours I came to my senses realizing what I had just done and begged her to come back claiming to have gotten cold feet (not blaming it on the nic bitch). She still loved me and forgave me but it had still caused an enormous amount of hurt for her. Which I will regret for the rest of my life. She came back. Despite all of this I was still lying to her about my dipping even after almost losing her. I told her I was only getting one per day when I never really slowed down. I told her that I would not dip during the honeymoon because she couldn't stand the sight of me choosing an addiction over her. During the honeymoon I kept my promise, and told her that once we got back I would try to continue to not dip. I knew this was bullshit, but she believed me. The nic bitch was again trying to ruin my life and the relationship with my, now, wife. As soon as we got back from the honeymoon I was back to a can a day like I had never slowed down. Five days later I stumbled upon this site with no intent of quit and read about this super bitch called nicotine. As I read more and more into this bitch it all unfolded into my lap that my voice of "logic and reason" was not at all logical or reasonable but a cutthroat bitch that was trying to kill me. I honestly believed there was no one out there more addicted to nicotine than I was. I though I was a lost cause, and that it would continue to cause me to lie to my wife and myself for the rest of my life. I honestly thought I would dip for the rest of my life. After I found out about the nic bitch I kept reading more and more. In a matter of 24 hour I went from loving tobacco to despising it. In 24 hours I went from believing that It was not possible for me to quit to believing that It was absolutely possible. So what did I do I posted motherfucking roll and have been everyday since and will continue till the day I die. No matter what lies ahead. No matter what obstacles get in my way I will find a way to post roll and keep my promise. If the day should come that I believe that I am cured and that I no longer have the need to post roll I truly hope that at least 20 people slap the fuck out of me via text, call, e-mail, whatever and tell me to go back to my intro and read day 6. I never want to be that dishonest fucked up sorry piece of shit ever again. The nic bitch will never control my life again.if I wasn't already sitting down, id have to sit down after reading that. Good stuff jake. Keeps the quit fresh remembering what is really for, your life. im quitting with this guy today
Wow Jake. This is awesome and makes me very happy to be quit with you today. I would advise you to share this with your brothers in January as well.Quote from: Jake_MDay 6 "Logic and Reason" Rant - I was thinking about the nic bitch today. She has really cut me good a few times and before I found this site I wasn't even aware of her existence. I thought that the voice in my head promoting the use of snuff was a voice of logic and reason. "It was better to continue dipping because you would be miserable otherwise." "You have never known anyone personally to ever get cancer from dipping." The worst cut she ever gave me was the time she convinced me to break off the engagement with my fiancé. I know it seems absolutely crazy to think that could happen, but trust me it did.... Me and my fiancé had always butted heads pretty hard about using tobacco. Which is understandable she hated it cause it was killing me and I loved it because I was addicted. When we first met I smoked, drank and dipped. She hated smoking, so after a few months I quit smoking and just dipped. About a year later she decided she didn't like my drinking so I quit drinking, except on very rare occasions (a few times a year). Shortly after that she decided she didn't like my dipping. This is when the Nic Bitch really started fucking me over. I tried to quit a few times over the next year but never made it more than a few days. After all I was quitting for someone else and my heart just wasn't in it. I, unbeknownst of the nic bitch, would always use my "logic and reason" (aka the nic bitch) to retreat from my quit. With every retreat I would see my fiancé's disappointment. It would eat me up inside so what did my "logic and reason" tell me to do. LIE. My "logic and reason" would tell me things like "What she don't know wont hurt her" and "You have already given her two of your vices, she is just being greedy asking for your third and last one" and "If you only do it at work she will never know". So of course being the concrete man that I am, I would listen to my "Logic and reason". I started working more and more. I started never wanting to be around her. Then the nic bitch did the real deed she convinced me that it was not logical to stay with my fiancé because one of us would always be miserable and that I would have to continue lying for the rest of my life, that there was no way this would end well, and "logically" this was no life to live. We were just not compatible. Which in reality I had found the most wonderful and beautiful woman I could have never been more compatible with. The nic bitch hounded me for two weeks until I was convinced that marrying her would only lead to resentment, anger and regret. So three weeks before we were to get married I told her that I wanted to break it off with her. She was shocked, unimaginably hurt and absolutely petrified. The nic bitch provided me with a nice little list of things that I didn't like about her so that my tobacco would not be held responsible for ruining the best thing that ever happened to me. I knew the truth though. Within 24 hours I came to my senses realizing what I had just done and begged her to come back claiming to have gotten cold feet (not blaming it on the nic bitch). She still loved me and forgave me but it had still caused an enormous amount of hurt for her. Which I will regret for the rest of my life. She came back. Despite all of this I was still lying to her about my dipping even after almost losing her. I told her I was only getting one per day when I never really slowed down. I told her that I would not dip during the honeymoon because she couldn't stand the sight of me choosing an addiction over her. During the honeymoon I kept my promise, and told her that once we got back I would try to continue to not dip. I knew this was bullshit, but she believed me. The nic bitch was again trying to ruin my life and the relationship with my, now, wife. As soon as we got back from the honeymoon I was back to a can a day like I had never slowed down. Five days later I stumbled upon this site with no intent of quit and read about this super bitch called nicotine. As I read more and more into this bitch it all unfolded into my lap that my voice of "logic and reason" was not at all logical or reasonable but a cutthroat bitch that was trying to kill me. I honestly believed there was no one out there more addicted to nicotine than I was. I though I was a lost cause, and that it would continue to cause me to lie to my wife and myself for the rest of my life. I honestly thought I would dip for the rest of my life. After I found out about the nic bitch I kept reading more and more. In a matter of 24 hour I went from loving tobacco to despising it. In 24 hours I went from believing that It was not possible for me to quit to believing that It was absolutely possible. So what did I do I posted motherfucking roll and have been everyday since and will continue till the day I die. No matter what lies ahead. No matter what obstacles get in my way I will find a way to post roll and keep my promise. If the day should come that I believe that I am cured and that I no longer have the need to post roll I truly hope that at least 20 people slap the fuck out of me via text, call, e-mail, whatever and tell me to go back to my intro and read day 6. I never want to be that dishonest fucked up sorry piece of shit ever again. The nic bitch will never control my life again.if I wasn't already sitting down, id have to sit down after reading that. Good stuff jake. Keeps the quit fresh remembering what is really for, your life. im quitting with this guy today
Great stuff Jake - keep it up we are all in this together.Quote from: jeeptruckWow Jake. This is awesome and makes me very happy to be quit with you today. I would advise you to share this with your brothers in January as well.Quote from: Jake_MDay 6 "Logic and Reason" Rant - I was thinking about the nic bitch today. She has really cut me good a few times and before I found this site I wasn't even aware of her existence. I thought that the voice in my head promoting the use of snuff was a voice of logic and reason. "It was better to continue dipping because you would be miserable otherwise." "You have never known anyone personally to ever get cancer from dipping." The worst cut she ever gave me was the time she convinced me to break off the engagement with my fiancé. I know it seems absolutely crazy to think that could happen, but trust me it did.... Me and my fiancé had always butted heads pretty hard about using tobacco. Which is understandable she hated it cause it was killing me and I loved it because I was addicted. When we first met I smoked, drank and dipped. She hated smoking, so after a few months I quit smoking and just dipped. About a year later she decided she didn't like my drinking so I quit drinking, except on very rare occasions (a few times a year). Shortly after that she decided she didn't like my dipping. This is when the Nic Bitch really started fucking me over. I tried to quit a few times over the next year but never made it more than a few days. After all I was quitting for someone else and my heart just wasn't in it. I, unbeknownst of the nic bitch, would always use my "logic and reason" (aka the nic bitch) to retreat from my quit. With every retreat I would see my fiancé's disappointment. It would eat me up inside so what did my "logic and reason" tell me to do. LIE. My "logic and reason" would tell me things like "What she don't know wont hurt her" and "You have already given her two of your vices, she is just being greedy asking for your third and last one" and "If you only do it at work she will never know". So of course being the concrete man that I am, I would listen to my "Logic and reason". I started working more and more. I started never wanting to be around her. Then the nic bitch did the real deed she convinced me that it was not logical to stay with my fiancé because one of us would always be miserable and that I would have to continue lying for the rest of my life, that there was no way this would end well, and "logically" this was no life to live. We were just not compatible. Which in reality I had found the most wonderful and beautiful woman I could have never been more compatible with. The nic bitch hounded me for two weeks until I was convinced that marrying her would only lead to resentment, anger and regret. So three weeks before we were to get married I told her that I wanted to break it off with her. She was shocked, unimaginably hurt and absolutely petrified. The nic bitch provided me with a nice little list of things that I didn't like about her so that my tobacco would not be held responsible for ruining the best thing that ever happened to me. I knew the truth though. Within 24 hours I came to my senses realizing what I had just done and begged her to come back claiming to have gotten cold feet (not blaming it on the nic bitch). She still loved me and forgave me but it had still caused an enormous amount of hurt for her. Which I will regret for the rest of my life. She came back. Despite all of this I was still lying to her about my dipping even after almost losing her. I told her I was only getting one per day when I never really slowed down. I told her that I would not dip during the honeymoon because she couldn't stand the sight of me choosing an addiction over her. During the honeymoon I kept my promise, and told her that once we got back I would try to continue to not dip. I knew this was bullshit, but she believed me. The nic bitch was again trying to ruin my life and the relationship with my, now, wife. As soon as we got back from the honeymoon I was back to a can a day like I had never slowed down. Five days later I stumbled upon this site with no intent of quit and read about this super bitch called nicotine. As I read more and more into this bitch it all unfolded into my lap that my voice of "logic and reason" was not at all logical or reasonable but a cutthroat bitch that was trying to kill me. I honestly believed there was no one out there more addicted to nicotine than I was. I though I was a lost cause, and that it would continue to cause me to lie to my wife and myself for the rest of my life. I honestly thought I would dip for the rest of my life. After I found out about the nic bitch I kept reading more and more. In a matter of 24 hour I went from loving tobacco to despising it. In 24 hours I went from believing that It was not possible for me to quit to believing that It was absolutely possible. So what did I do I posted motherfucking roll and have been everyday since and will continue till the day I die. No matter what lies ahead. No matter what obstacles get in my way I will find a way to post roll and keep my promise. If the day should come that I believe that I am cured and that I no longer have the need to post roll I truly hope that at least 20 people slap the fuck out of me via text, call, e-mail, whatever and tell me to go back to my intro and read day 6. I never want to be that dishonest fucked up sorry piece of shit ever again. The nic bitch will never control my life again.if I wasn't already sitting down, id have to sit down after reading that. Good stuff jake. Keeps the quit fresh remembering what is really for, your life. im quitting with this guy today
That is some good reading right there Jake. Thank you!Quote from: bigdilgGreat stuff Jake - keep it up we are all in this together.Quote from: jeeptruckWow Jake. This is awesome and makes me very happy to be quit with you today. I would advise you to share this with your brothers in January as well.Quote from: Jake_MDay 6 "Logic and Reason" Rant - I was thinking about the nic bitch today. She has really cut me good a few times and before I found this site I wasn't even aware of her existence. I thought that the voice in my head promoting the use of snuff was a voice of logic and reason. "It was better to continue dipping because you would be miserable otherwise." "You have never known anyone personally to ever get cancer from dipping." The worst cut she ever gave me was the time she convinced me to break off the engagement with my fiancé. I know it seems absolutely crazy to think that could happen, but trust me it did.... Me and my fiancé had always butted heads pretty hard about using tobacco. Which is understandable she hated it cause it was killing me and I loved it because I was addicted. When we first met I smoked, drank and dipped. She hated smoking, so after a few months I quit smoking and just dipped. About a year later she decided she didn't like my drinking so I quit drinking, except on very rare occasions (a few times a year). Shortly after that she decided she didn't like my dipping. This is when the Nic Bitch really started fucking me over. I tried to quit a few times over the next year but never made it more than a few days. After all I was quitting for someone else and my heart just wasn't in it. I, unbeknownst of the nic bitch, would always use my "logic and reason" (aka the nic bitch) to retreat from my quit. With every retreat I would see my fiancé's disappointment. It would eat me up inside so what did my "logic and reason" tell me to do. LIE. My "logic and reason" would tell me things like "What she don't know wont hurt her" and "You have already given her two of your vices, she is just being greedy asking for your third and last one" and "If you only do it at work she will never know". So of course being the concrete man that I am, I would listen to my "Logic and reason". I started working more and more. I started never wanting to be around her. Then the nic bitch did the real deed she convinced me that it was not logical to stay with my fiancé because one of us would always be miserable and that I would have to continue lying for the rest of my life, that there was no way this would end well, and "logically" this was no life to live. We were just not compatible. Which in reality I had found the most wonderful and beautiful woman I could have never been more compatible with. The nic bitch hounded me for two weeks until I was convinced that marrying her would only lead to resentment, anger and regret. So three weeks before we were to get married I told her that I wanted to break it off with her. She was shocked, unimaginably hurt and absolutely petrified. The nic bitch provided me with a nice little list of things that I didn't like about her so that my tobacco would not be held responsible for ruining the best thing that ever happened to me. I knew the truth though. Within 24 hours I came to my senses realizing what I had just done and begged her to come back claiming to have gotten cold feet (not blaming it on the nic bitch). She still loved me and forgave me but it had still caused an enormous amount of hurt for her. Which I will regret for the rest of my life. She came back. Despite all of this I was still lying to her about my dipping even after almost losing her. I told her I was only getting one per day when I never really slowed down. I told her that I would not dip during the honeymoon because she couldn't stand the sight of me choosing an addiction over her. During the honeymoon I kept my promise, and told her that once we got back I would try to continue to not dip. I knew this was bullshit, but she believed me. The nic bitch was again trying to ruin my life and the relationship with my, now, wife. As soon as we got back from the honeymoon I was back to a can a day like I had never slowed down. Five days later I stumbled upon this site with no intent of quit and read about this super bitch called nicotine. As I read more and more into this bitch it all unfolded into my lap that my voice of "logic and reason" was not at all logical or reasonable but a cutthroat bitch that was trying to kill me. I honestly believed there was no one out there more addicted to nicotine than I was. I though I was a lost cause, and that it would continue to cause me to lie to my wife and myself for the rest of my life. I honestly thought I would dip for the rest of my life. After I found out about the nic bitch I kept reading more and more. In a matter of 24 hour I went from loving tobacco to despising it. In 24 hours I went from believing that It was not possible for me to quit to believing that It was absolutely possible. So what did I do I posted motherfucking roll and have been everyday since and will continue till the day I die. No matter what lies ahead. No matter what obstacles get in my way I will find a way to post roll and keep my promise. If the day should come that I believe that I am cured and that I no longer have the need to post roll I truly hope that at least 20 people slap the fuck out of me via text, call, e-mail, whatever and tell me to go back to my intro and read day 6. I never want to be that dishonest fucked up sorry piece of shit ever again. The nic bitch will never control my life again.if I wasn't already sitting down, id have to sit down after reading that. Good stuff jake. Keeps the quit fresh remembering what is really for, your life. im quitting with this guy today
Day 6 "Logic and Reason" Rant - I was thinking about the nic bitch today. She has really cut me good a few times and before I found this site I wasn't even aware of her existence. I thought that the voice in my head promoting the use of snuff was a voice of logic and reason. "It was better to continue dipping because you would be miserable otherwise." "You have never known anyone personally to ever get cancer from dipping." The worst cut she ever gave me was the time she convinced me to break off the engagement with my fiancé. I know it seems absolutely crazy to think that could happen, but trust me it did.... Me and my fiancé had always butted heads pretty hard about using tobacco. Which is understandable she hated it cause it was killing me and I loved it because I was addicted. When we first met I smoked, drank and dipped. She hated smoking, so after a few months I quit smoking and just dipped. About a year later she decided she didn't like my drinking so I quit drinking, except on very rare occasions (a few times a year). Shortly after that she decided she didn't like my dipping. This is when the Nic Bitch really started fucking me over. I tried to quit a few times over the next year but never made it more than a few days. After all I was quitting for someone else and my heart just wasn't in it. I, unbeknownst of the nic bitch, would always use my "logic and reason" (aka the nic bitch) to retreat from my quit. With every retreat I would see my fiancé's disappointment. It would eat me up inside so what did my "logic and reason" tell me to do. LIE. My "logic and reason" would tell me things like "What she don't know wont hurt her" and "You have already given her two of your vices, she is just being greedy asking for your third and last one" and "If you only do it at work she will never know". So of course being the concrete man that I am, I would listen to my "Logic and reason". I started working more and more. I started never wanting to be around her. Then the nic bitch did the real deed she convinced me that it was not logical to stay with my fiancé because one of us would always be miserable and that I would have to continue lying for the rest of my life, that there was no way this would end well, and "logically" this was no life to live. We were just not compatible. Which in reality I had found the most wonderful and beautiful woman I could have never been more compatible with. The nic bitch hounded me for two weeks until I was convinced that marrying her would only lead to resentment, anger and regret. So three weeks before we were to get married I told her that I wanted to break it off with her. She was shocked, unimaginably hurt and absolutely petrified. The nic bitch provided me with a nice little list of things that I didn't like about her so that my tobacco would not be held responsible for ruining the best thing that ever happened to me. I knew the truth though. Within 24 hours I came to my senses realizing what I had just done and begged her to come back claiming to have gotten cold feet (not blaming it on the nic bitch). She still loved me and forgave me but it had still caused an enormous amount of hurt for her. Which I will regret for the rest of my life. She came back. Despite all of this I was still lying to her about my dipping even after almost losing her. I told her I was only getting one per day when I never really slowed down. I told her that I would not dip during the honeymoon because she couldn't stand the sight of me choosing an addiction over her. During the honeymoon I kept my promise, and told her that once we got back I would try to continue to not dip. I knew this was bullshit, but she believed me. The nic bitch was again trying to ruin my life and the relationship with my, now, wife. As soon as we got back from the honeymoon I was back to a can a day like I had never slowed down. Five days later I stumbled upon this site with no intent of quit ,it was an eye opener, and read about this super bitch called nicotine. As I read more and more into this bitch it all unfolded into my lap that my voice of "logic and reason" was not at all logical or reasonable but a cutthroat bitch that was trying to kill me. I honestly believed there was no one out there more addicted to nicotine than I was. I thought I was a lost cause, and that it would continue to cause me to lie to my wife and myself for the rest of my life. I honestly thought I would dip for the rest of my life. After I found out about the nic bitch I kept reading more and more. In a matter of 24 hour I went from loving tobacco to despising it. In 24 hours I went from believing that It was not possible for me to quit to believing that It was absolutely possible. So what did I do I posted motherfucking roll and have been everyday since and will continue till the day I die. No matter what lies ahead. No matter what obstacles get in my way I will find a way to post roll and keep my promise. If the day should come that I believe that I am cured and that I no longer have the need to post roll I truly hope that at least 20 people slap the fuck out of me via text, call, e-mail, whatever and tell me to go back to my intro and read day 6. I never want to be that dishonest fucked up sorry piece of shit ever again. The nic bitch will never control my life again.Damn, that’s some good medicine right there.
Great post Jake. Keep writing in your intro- it will be useful to you and to others. Quit with you Jake!Quote from: Jake_MDay 6 "Logic and Reason" Rant - I was thinking about the nic bitch today. She has really cut me good a few times and before I found this site I wasn't even aware of her existence. I thought that the voice in my head promoting the use of snuff was a voice of logic and reason. "It was better to continue dipping because you would be miserable otherwise." "You have never known anyone personally to ever get cancer from dipping." The worst cut she ever gave me was the time she convinced me to break off the engagement with my fiancé. I know it seems absolutely crazy to think that could happen, but trust me it did.... Me and my fiancé had always butted heads pretty hard about using tobacco. Which is understandable she hated it cause it was killing me and I loved it because I was addicted. When we first met I smoked, drank and dipped. She hated smoking, so after a few months I quit smoking and just dipped. About a year later she decided she didn't like my drinking so I quit drinking, except on very rare occasions (a few times a year). Shortly after that she decided she didn't like my dipping. This is when the Nic Bitch really started fucking me over. I tried to quit a few times over the next year but never made it more than a few days. After all I was quitting for someone else and my heart just wasn't in it. I, unbeknownst of the nic bitch, would always use my "logic and reason" (aka the nic bitch) to retreat from my quit. With every retreat I would see my fiancé's disappointment. It would eat me up inside so what did my "logic and reason" tell me to do. LIE. My "logic and reason" would tell me things like "What she don't know wont hurt her" and "You have already given her two of your vices, she is just being greedy asking for your third and last one" and "If you only do it at work she will never know". So of course being the concrete man that I am, I would listen to my "Logic and reason". I started working more and more. I started never wanting to be around her. Then the nic bitch did the real deed she convinced me that it was not logical to stay with my fiancé because one of us would always be miserable and that I would have to continue lying for the rest of my life, that there was no way this would end well, and "logically" this was no life to live. We were just not compatible. Which in reality I had found the most wonderful and beautiful woman I could have never been more compatible with. The nic bitch hounded me for two weeks until I was convinced that marrying her would only lead to resentment, anger and regret. So three weeks before we were to get married I told her that I wanted to break it off with her. She was shocked, unimaginably hurt and absolutely petrified. The nic bitch provided me with a nice little list of things that I didn't like about her so that my tobacco would not be held responsible for ruining the best thing that ever happened to me. I knew the truth though. Within 24 hours I came to my senses realizing what I had just done and begged her to come back claiming to have gotten cold feet (not blaming it on the nic bitch). She still loved me and forgave me but it had still caused an enormous amount of hurt for her. Which I will regret for the rest of my life. She came back. Despite all of this I was still lying to her about my dipping even after almost losing her. I told her I was only getting one per day when I never really slowed down. I told her that I would not dip during the honeymoon because she couldn't stand the sight of me choosing an addiction over her. During the honeymoon I kept my promise, and told her that once we got back I would try to continue to not dip. I knew this was bullshit, but she believed me. The nic bitch was again trying to ruin my life and the relationship with my, now, wife. As soon as we got back from the honeymoon I was back to a can a day like I had never slowed down. Five days later I stumbled upon this site with no intent of quit ,it was an eye opener, and read about this super bitch called nicotine. As I read more and more into this bitch it all unfolded into my lap that my voice of "logic and reason" was not at all logical or reasonable but a cutthroat bitch that was trying to kill me. I honestly believed there was no one out there more addicted to nicotine than I was. I thought I was a lost cause, and that it would continue to cause me to lie to my wife and myself for the rest of my life. I honestly thought I would dip for the rest of my life. After I found out about the nic bitch I kept reading more and more. In a matter of 24 hour I went from loving tobacco to despising it. In 24 hours I went from believing that It was not possible for me to quit to believing that It was absolutely possible. So what did I do I posted motherfucking roll and have been everyday since and will continue till the day I die. No matter what lies ahead. No matter what obstacles get in my way I will find a way to post roll and keep my promise. If the day should come that I believe that I am cured and that I no longer have the need to post roll I truly hope that at least 20 people slap the fuck out of me via text, call, e-mail, whatever and tell me to go back to my intro and read day 6. I never want to be that dishonest fucked up sorry piece of shit ever again. The nic bitch will never control my life again.Damn, that’s some good medicine right there.
Great read and you are absofuckinglutely correct that the nic bitch is up to no good. When I get a crave I tell her to "Fuck Off", When she taunts me at the store I say "Not Today Bitch" and I say them out loud. Keep up the awesome quit. Keep Posting Roll even when you think you don't need to.Quote from: slug.goGreat post Jake. Keep writing in your intro- it will be useful to you and to others. Quit with you Jake!Quote from: Jake_MDay 6 "Logic and Reason" Rant - I was thinking about the nic bitch today. She has really cut me good a few times and before I found this site I wasn't even aware of her existence. I thought that the voice in my head promoting the use of snuff was a voice of logic and reason. "It was better to continue dipping because you would be miserable otherwise." "You have never known anyone personally to ever get cancer from dipping." The worst cut she ever gave me was the time she convinced me to break off the engagement with my fiancé. I know it seems absolutely crazy to think that could happen, but trust me it did.... Me and my fiancé had always butted heads pretty hard about using tobacco. Which is understandable she hated it cause it was killing me and I loved it because I was addicted. When we first met I smoked, drank and dipped. She hated smoking, so after a few months I quit smoking and just dipped. About a year later she decided she didn't like my drinking so I quit drinking, except on very rare occasions (a few times a year). Shortly after that she decided she didn't like my dipping. This is when the Nic Bitch really started fucking me over. I tried to quit a few times over the next year but never made it more than a few days. After all I was quitting for someone else and my heart just wasn't in it. I, unbeknownst of the nic bitch, would always use my "logic and reason" (aka the nic bitch) to retreat from my quit. With every retreat I would see my fiancé's disappointment. It would eat me up inside so what did my "logic and reason" tell me to do. LIE. My "logic and reason" would tell me things like "What she don't know wont hurt her" and "You have already given her two of your vices, she is just being greedy asking for your third and last one" and "If you only do it at work she will never know". So of course being the concrete man that I am, I would listen to my "Logic and reason". I started working more and more. I started never wanting to be around her. Then the nic bitch did the real deed she convinced me that it was not logical to stay with my fiancé because one of us would always be miserable and that I would have to continue lying for the rest of my life, that there was no way this would end well, and "logically" this was no life to live. We were just not compatible. Which in reality I had found the most wonderful and beautiful woman I could have never been more compatible with. The nic bitch hounded me for two weeks until I was convinced that marrying her would only lead to resentment, anger and regret. So three weeks before we were to get married I told her that I wanted to break it off with her. She was shocked, unimaginably hurt and absolutely petrified. The nic bitch provided me with a nice little list of things that I didn't like about her so that my tobacco would not be held responsible for ruining the best thing that ever happened to me. I knew the truth though. Within 24 hours I came to my senses realizing what I had just done and begged her to come back claiming to have gotten cold feet (not blaming it on the nic bitch). She still loved me and forgave me but it had still caused an enormous amount of hurt for her. Which I will regret for the rest of my life. She came back. Despite all of this I was still lying to her about my dipping even after almost losing her. I told her I was only getting one per day when I never really slowed down. I told her that I would not dip during the honeymoon because she couldn't stand the sight of me choosing an addiction over her. During the honeymoon I kept my promise, and told her that once we got back I would try to continue to not dip. I knew this was bullshit, but she believed me. The nic bitch was again trying to ruin my life and the relationship with my, now, wife. As soon as we got back from the honeymoon I was back to a can a day like I had never slowed down. Five days later I stumbled upon this site with no intent of quit ,it was an eye opener, and read about this super bitch called nicotine. As I read more and more into this bitch it all unfolded into my lap that my voice of "logic and reason" was not at all logical or reasonable but a cutthroat bitch that was trying to kill me. I honestly believed there was no one out there more addicted to nicotine than I was. I thought I was a lost cause, and that it would continue to cause me to lie to my wife and myself for the rest of my life. I honestly thought I would dip for the rest of my life. After I found out about the nic bitch I kept reading more and more. In a matter of 24 hour I went from loving tobacco to despising it. In 24 hours I went from believing that It was not possible for me to quit to believing that It was absolutely possible. So what did I do I posted motherfucking roll and have been everyday since and will continue till the day I die. No matter what lies ahead. No matter what obstacles get in my way I will find a way to post roll and keep my promise. If the day should come that I believe that I am cured and that I no longer have the need to post roll I truly hope that at least 20 people slap the fuck out of me via text, call, e-mail, whatever and tell me to go back to my intro and read day 6. I never want to be that dishonest fucked up sorry piece of shit ever again. The nic bitch will never control my life again.Damn, that’s some good medicine right there.
This is what quit looks like. Awesome story and great "awakening" to the nic bitch. I'm proud to quit with you today JakeQuote from: FMBM707Great read and you are absofuckinglutely correct that the nic bitch is up to no good. When I get a crave I tell her to "Fuck Off", When she taunts me at the store I say "Not Today Bitch" and I say them out loud. Keep up the awesome quit. Keep Posting Roll even when you think you don't need to.Quote from: slug.goGreat post Jake. Keep writing in your intro- it will be useful to you and to others. Quit with you Jake!Quote from: Jake_MDay 6 "Logic and Reason" Rant - I was thinking about the nic bitch today. She has really cut me good a few times and before I found this site I wasn't even aware of her existence. I thought that the voice in my head promoting the use of snuff was a voice of logic and reason. "It was better to continue dipping because you would be miserable otherwise." "You have never known anyone personally to ever get cancer from dipping." The worst cut she ever gave me was the time she convinced me to break off the engagement with my fiancé. I know it seems absolutely crazy to think that could happen, but trust me it did.... Me and my fiancé had always butted heads pretty hard about using tobacco. Which is understandable she hated it cause it was killing me and I loved it because I was addicted. When we first met I smoked, drank and dipped. She hated smoking, so after a few months I quit smoking and just dipped. About a year later she decided she didn't like my drinking so I quit drinking, except on very rare occasions (a few times a year). Shortly after that she decided she didn't like my dipping. This is when the Nic Bitch really started fucking me over. I tried to quit a few times over the next year but never made it more than a few days. After all I was quitting for someone else and my heart just wasn't in it. I, unbeknownst of the nic bitch, would always use my "logic and reason" (aka the nic bitch) to retreat from my quit. With every retreat I would see my fiancé's disappointment. It would eat me up inside so what did my "logic and reason" tell me to do. LIE. My "logic and reason" would tell me things like "What she don't know wont hurt her" and "You have already given her two of your vices, she is just being greedy asking for your third and last one" and "If you only do it at work she will never know". So of course being the concrete man that I am, I would listen to my "Logic and reason". I started working more and more. I started never wanting to be around her. Then the nic bitch did the real deed she convinced me that it was not logical to stay with my fiancé because one of us would always be miserable and that I would have to continue lying for the rest of my life, that there was no way this would end well, and "logically" this was no life to live. We were just not compatible. Which in reality I had found the most wonderful and beautiful woman I could have never been more compatible with. The nic bitch hounded me for two weeks until I was convinced that marrying her would only lead to resentment, anger and regret. So three weeks before we were to get married I told her that I wanted to break it off with her. She was shocked, unimaginably hurt and absolutely petrified. The nic bitch provided me with a nice little list of things that I didn't like about her so that my tobacco would not be held responsible for ruining the best thing that ever happened to me. I knew the truth though. Within 24 hours I came to my senses realizing what I had just done and begged her to come back claiming to have gotten cold feet (not blaming it on the nic bitch). She still loved me and forgave me but it had still caused an enormous amount of hurt for her. Which I will regret for the rest of my life. She came back. Despite all of this I was still lying to her about my dipping even after almost losing her. I told her I was only getting one per day when I never really slowed down. I told her that I would not dip during the honeymoon because she couldn't stand the sight of me choosing an addiction over her. During the honeymoon I kept my promise, and told her that once we got back I would try to continue to not dip. I knew this was bullshit, but she believed me. The nic bitch was again trying to ruin my life and the relationship with my, now, wife. As soon as we got back from the honeymoon I was back to a can a day like I had never slowed down. Five days later I stumbled upon this site with no intent of quit ,it was an eye opener, and read about this super bitch called nicotine. As I read more and more into this bitch it all unfolded into my lap that my voice of "logic and reason" was not at all logical or reasonable but a cutthroat bitch that was trying to kill me. I honestly believed there was no one out there more addicted to nicotine than I was. I thought I was a lost cause, and that it would continue to cause me to lie to my wife and myself for the rest of my life. I honestly thought I would dip for the rest of my life. After I found out about the nic bitch I kept reading more and more. In a matter of 24 hour I went from loving tobacco to despising it. In 24 hours I went from believing that It was not possible for me to quit to believing that It was absolutely possible. So what did I do I posted motherfucking roll and have been everyday since and will continue till the day I die. No matter what lies ahead. No matter what obstacles get in my way I will find a way to post roll and keep my promise. If the day should come that I believe that I am cured and that I no longer have the need to post roll I truly hope that at least 20 people slap the fuck out of me via text, call, e-mail, whatever and tell me to go back to my intro and read day 6. I never want to be that dishonest fucked up sorry piece of shit ever again. The nic bitch will never control my life again.Damn, that’s some good medicine right there.
Day 7- This morning I walked my oldest brother through posting roll. I am extremely excited about my brother quitting with me. Now I just have one more brother to go. Thanks for all the support from KTC you guys possibly saved my life.That is fucking awesome
Day 11-Cave Rant- Today I found out my quit group had two cavers over the weekend, Vibes and Dalco. Both of these were in my text group. How did this happen? They were texting all day. They seemed perfectly fine. They never once said that they were about to cave. What is the point of having all these contacts and people that care when you don't even reach out when you most need it. Why did these people not reach out? I feel disgusted, betrayed, angry, disappointed, confused, and hurt all at the same time. I never thought of it this way until this very moment but I guess I now know (slightly) how my wife felt all those years. I'm sure she asked herself these very same questions countless times. I don't even know these guys, I cant even imagine how much I must have been hurting her, . How many times did I promise my wife that I wouldn't or hadn't caved when I knew full and well that I had and would continue to do so. I am absolutely ashamed of what I have done to her. I wish I knew of a word that was more shameful than shame because that is how I feel. All this over something that was killing me. How dumb am I ? Today I was beside myself because these two betrayed me. I am so very glad my wife did not want to rid me the same way that I wanted to rid you, despite me doing it to her again and again and again. I'm so glad she is more forgiving than I am. All of that is in the past and all I can do now is change what the future will hold. I will never be that sorry piece of trash again. I will never be that person again. I WILL NEVER let nicotine control me like that again.There's one thing and one thing alone that you can control in this world: your actions.
Day 14- Today both of my brothers are quit. Very good day for me. Next stop will be my dad.You my man are absolutely killing it. Love me some Jake getting the whole family quit.
This just strengthens my quit bro ... thanks for that!Quote from: Jake_MDay 14- Today both of my brothers are quit. Very good day for me. Next stop will be my dad.You my man are absolutely killing it. Love me some Jake getting the whole family quit.
Absolutely love it!Quote from: Done4MeThis just strengthens my quit bro ... thanks for that!Quote from: Jake_MDay 14- Today both of my brothers are quit. Very good day for me. Next stop will be my dad.You my man are absolutely killing it. Love me some Jake getting the whole family quit.
Thanks guys couldn't have done it with out yalls helpQuote from: SmedsAbsolutely love it!Quote from: Done4MeThis just strengthens my quit bro ... thanks for that!Quote from: Jake_MDay 14- Today both of my brothers are quit. Very good day for me. Next stop will be my dad.You my man are absolutely killing it. Love me some Jake getting the whole family quit.
Bastards at US Tobaccy are going to send a sales rep to your city to see what the hell is going with their drop in sales. Fuck em
You know what's really funny?Quote from: lighty7Thanks guys couldn't have done it with out yalls helpQuote from: SmedsAbsolutely love it!Quote from: Done4MeThis just strengthens my quit bro ... thanks for that!Quote from: Jake_MDay 14- Today both of my brothers are quit. Very good day for me. Next stop will be my dad.You my man are absolutely killing it. Love me some Jake getting the whole family quit.
Bastards at US Tobaccy are going to send a sales rep to your city to see what the hell is going with their drop in sales. Fuck em
Jake, you caught the vision, very inspired by your quit and work. Just protect your quit. I used to make deals with my wife and son. "If you quit diet coke and Mt. Dew, I will quit chewing" The second, seriously the moment I caught my wife or son humping their addiction...It gave me freedom (more like excuse) to go back on my word.Quote from: lighty7Thanks guys couldn't have done it with out yalls helpQuote from: SmedsAbsolutely love it!Quote from: Done4MeThis just strengthens my quit bro ... thanks for that!Quote from: Jake_MDay 14- Today both of my brothers are quit. Very good day for me. Next stop will be my dad.You my man are absolutely killing it. Love me some Jake getting the whole family quit.
Bastards at US Tobaccy are going to send a sales rep to your city to see what the hell is going with their drop in sales. Fuck em
Day 19- Humor- So yesterday my wife wanted me to show her "my" site. She wanted to see what had gotten into me to make me this on fire about quitting. So I said sure I can show you. She was pretty excited about finally seeing the thing that possibly saved my life. I pull up jan. quit group on the internet. Now my wife is a very jealous woman. So what is the first thing she sees when we log on, a post by non other than lippi, followed by a post by shorthorn. Thank you Mahem. She thought that their avatars were pictures of themselves. She thought that I was a member of slut city. I finally explained to her that they were just horny men that put that as their Avatar. Her reply was "You probably have something just as nasty as yours don't you?" I said "Baby you know me better than to have something that would disgrace my good name." She said "show me". Her reaction: "You mean to tell me that two turtles fucking is not disgraceful!!!" My abs still hurt from laughing so hardLOL!!! That's was funny to read.
Day 25- Yesterday the nic bitch was reeking havoc in my brain with a crowbar. She was making me seriously contemplate caving saying things like "this shit aint worth it" and "Your are just quitting for your wife and she doesn't deserve this" and "you wouldn't be so pissed if you had a dip". It was a real struggle. It didn't really build up to that point over much time. The voices just came out of no where. It hit me like a freight train. I drove down the road, where I had cell service, and called a couple guys from my quit group (NMCB, and Danno30) and talked to both of them for a while and they reminded me why I quit. I suppose just raging on them helped as well. Normally when me and my wife would get into a fight I would just get a pinch of snuff and everything would be ok. Not the case yesterday. It took me much longer to find forgiveness than before I quit. This was really my first experience with getting in a serious argument with my wife and not being able to retreat to my grizzly wintergreen longcut. I hope that this was the hardest one. I am glad to of had the numbers of my fellow quitters. I am not sure I would have been able to post day 25 today with out them. That is what this site is all about. We just have to use all the tools at our disposal. Today I logged on and seen where Skoal Monster posted a speech that I really could have used yesterday. I have to figure out how to get internet at my house...Congratulations Jake on getting through a rough day! I got your back man!!
Jake M - Know your 2 bros rolled outta here. Are they still quit? Keep imparting your newly found quit wisdom. I have 3 co-workers that don't want to play the internet game so we don't. But I still created a 4 way text group and we text our daily count and vow. Also use it to evangelize quit wisdom gained here. Do the same with your bros.Quote from: Jake_MDay 25- Yesterday the nic bitch was reeking havoc in my brain with a crowbar. She was making me seriously contemplate caving saying things like "this shit aint worth it" and "Your are just quitting for your wife and she doesn't deserve this" and "you wouldn't be so pissed if you had a dip". It was a real struggle. It didn't really build up to that point over much time. The voices just came out of no where. It hit me like a freight train. I drove down the road, where I had cell service, and called a couple guys from my quit group (NMCB, and Danno30) and talked to both of them for a while and they reminded me why I quit. I suppose just raging on them helped as well. Normally when me and my wife would get into a fight I would just get a pinch of snuff and everything would be ok. Not the case yesterday. It took me much longer to find forgiveness than before I quit. This was really my first experience with getting in a serious argument with my wife and not being able to retreat to my grizzly wintergreen longcut. I hope that this was the hardest one. I am glad to of had the numbers of my fellow quitters. I am not sure I would have been able to post day 25 today with out them. That is what this site is all about. We just have to use all the tools at our disposal. Today I logged on and seen where Skoal Monster posted a speech that I really could have used yesterday. I have to figure out how to get internet at my house...Congratulations Jake on getting through a rough day! I got your back man!!
Thanks, yes my brothers are still quit. I do send them words of wisdom quite frequently. I hope that it some how helps them like it does for me. We don't do the daily promise thing. I think I will suggest it to them today. Thanks for all the support in our group D4M. You are a real trooper.Quote from: Tige12Jake M - Know your 2 bros rolled outta here. Are they still quit? Keep imparting your newly found quit wisdom. I have 3 co-workers that don't want to play the internet game so we don't. But I still created a 4 way text group and we text our daily count and vow. Also use it to evangelize quit wisdom gained here. Do the same with your bros.Quote from: Jake_MDay 25- Yesterday the nic bitch was reeking havoc in my brain with a crowbar. She was making me seriously contemplate caving saying things like "this shit aint worth it" and "Your are just quitting for your wife and she doesn't deserve this" and "you wouldn't be so pissed if you had a dip". It was a real struggle. It didn't really build up to that point over much time. The voices just came out of no where. It hit me like a freight train. I drove down the road, where I had cell service, and called a couple guys from my quit group (NMCB, and Danno30) and talked to both of them for a while and they reminded me why I quit. I suppose just raging on them helped as well. Normally when me and my wife would get into a fight I would just get a pinch of snuff and everything would be ok. Not the case yesterday. It took me much longer to find forgiveness than before I quit. This was really my first experience with getting in a serious argument with my wife and not being able to retreat to my grizzly wintergreen longcut. I hope that this was the hardest one. I am glad to of had the numbers of my fellow quitters. I am not sure I would have been able to post day 25 today with out them. That is what this site is all about. We just have to use all the tools at our disposal. Today I logged on and seen where Skoal Monster posted a speech that I really could have used yesterday. I have to figure out how to get internet at my house...Congratulations Jake on getting through a rough day! I got your back man!!
You're a quality dude for being the youngest. I am proud to quit with you today.
So for a little background info... I'm 22 from Southwest Louisiana (I haven't seen many from where i'm from if at all on here). I work at a paper mill as a crane operator. I have been dipping avidly since I was a young boy. My dad dips, my two older brothers dip, nearly every male where I work and in my community dips (absolutely ZREO exaggeration) . So for me this is going to be a little bit like a recovering alcoholic working as a bartender, but hey I'm here and in full spirits. I have already posted roll. I am sure that I will need support due to the lack of nondippers/ quitter around me. I think that this here is a fine site for anyone wanting to quit.know the feeling. I work in Law Enforcement and Security
Jake, congrats on being quit for 100 days. I have enjoyed posting roll in the various groups together. We just need to never forget that we are always going to be addicts.Great job!
:Winner: 'clap' 'archer' '40' 'chew2' 'party2' 'dance' 'party'
Atta baby Jake! 'party2' 'chew2' 'dance' 'dance' 'chew2' 'party2'Congrats Jake! Way to bust through the door, actually, I don't think you even used the door. You broke down the wall and made a new door for yourself.!
Always have your back man.Quote from: CastleHuskyAtta baby Jake! 'party2' 'chew2' 'dance' 'dance' 'chew2' 'party2'Congrats Jake! Way to bust through the door, actually, I don't think you even used the door. You broke down the wall and made a new door for yourself.!
'clap'Quote from: Sand_Fleas_Gotta_EatAlways have your back man.Quote from: CastleHuskyAtta baby Jake! 'party2' 'chew2' 'dance' 'dance' 'chew2' 'party2'Congrats Jake! Way to bust through the door, actually, I don't think you even used the door. You broke down the wall and made a new door for yourself.!