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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: RES17CUE on June 22, 2014, 07:51:00 PM
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Well here goes the hardest thing I've ever done. I'm Nate, 25 years old, and i have dipped since I was 13.
I got started because I wanted to be like my dad. He dipped skoal mint. I can still remember the smell every time we got in his car. We were at a hockey tournament and he threw me his can and asked if I wanted a pinch. I guess he thought I'd get sick and never do it again. But I sat there and enjoyed my very first pinch. Since then it has become a part of me.
I made it through OCS for the United States Marine Corps in 2010 with no problem because I was too tired and busy to worry about nicotine. But after all that time, the first thing I did when I graduated was to go buy a can. Nics a bitch.
I'm a firefighter now and I help people for a living, but I am killing myself every day. I can watch a patient dying a slow and painful death, say "man that sucks" and then throw in a lip on the ride back to the station. I have made the choice to quit. I woke up the morning of June 20th and didn't put in my morning pinch. I didn't want to dip any more. I have posted roll twice now and my day 3 is almost done.
I'm mad, angry, pissed off, embarrassed, angry, trying not to listen to that little voice that says "you can have a pinch, it's ok", and did I mention I'm angry?! Haha. My brain isn't quite fully functioning right now but I want to say thank you for the site and I look forward to the day I get to type up my HOF bio. Quit Like Fuck
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Well here goes the hardest thing I've ever done. I'm Nate, 25 years old, and i have dipped since I was 13.
I got started because I wanted to be like my dad. He dipped skoal mint. I can still remember the smell every time we got in his car. We were at a hockey tournament and he threw me his can and asked if I wanted a pinch. I guess he thought I'd get sick and never do it again. But I sat there and enjoyed my very first pinch. Since then it has become a part of me.
I made it through OCS for the United States Marine Corps in 2010 with no problem because I was too tired and busy to worry about nicotine. But after all that time, the first thing I did when I graduated was to go buy a can. Nics a bitch.
I'm a firefighter now and I help people for a living, but I am killing myself every day. I can watch a patient dying a slow and painful death, say "man that sucks" and then throw in a lip on the ride back to the station. I have made the choice to quit. I woke up the morning of June 20th and didn't put in my morning pinch. I didn't want to dip any more. I have posted roll twice now and my day 3 is almost done.
I'm mad, angry, pissed off, embarrassed, angry, trying not to listen to that little voice that says "you can have a pinch, it's ok", and did I mention I'm angry?! Haha. My brain isn't quite fully functioning right now but I want to say thank you for the site and I look forward to the day I get to type up my HOF bio. Quit Like Fuck
Good job Nate. There is no reason to go back other than to be a slave again. Fight for your freedom, and honor yourself daily by making your pledge here.
I quit with you today.
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Thank you Griz. Day 3 has been a mother but I keep lying to myself and saying that the worst is over. Haha. I will say that I actually look forward to posting roll right now. Gives me something to strive to do
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Thank you Griz. Day 3 has been a mother but I keep lying to myself and saying that the worst is over. Haha. I will say that I actually look forward to posting roll right now. Gives me something to strive to do
Read all you can in the site. The HOF speeches, intros, words of wisdom, etc. it'll occupy your mind and help you build your defenses. You need to hate nicotine with a passion.
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Thank you Griz. Day 3 has been a mother but I keep lying to myself and saying that the worst is over. Haha. I will say that I actually look forward to posting roll right now. Gives me something to strive to do
Read all you can in the site. The HOF speeches, intros, words of wisdom, etc. it'll occupy your mind and help you build your defenses. You need to hate nicotine with a passion.
^^^Agreed! Read, reach out when needed, read some more. There is a ton of eye-opening stuff on this website, absorb it! Your past leads me to believe structure in your life is familiar ... make sure posting roll EARLY every day is your routine! Just make a promise one day at a time, and they'll add up. You've got my digits, I've got yours, I quit with you today Nate!!
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Welcome to the asylum......if you want to quit, then you have come to the right place. If I can give you one piece of advice please take posting roll seriously. I realize that seemingly making a promise to a bunch of guys you don't know seems a bit strange but can also assure you that this is the bond that binds you to your quit, to us. Take posting roll serious and you will succeed. Be nonchalant about posting and your quit will follow suit. We have all seen wannabe quitters come and go and unfortunately only the strong will survive to become quitters. The first tipoff of a serous quitter is his involvement around here and posting roll, the first tipoff of a failed quit is someone half-ass positing roll. So with that said, Post Roll each and every damn day, be a man of your word and quit with us. Welcome!
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Res17cue
Welcome to the club of dumb ass quitters. Each day will suck until it gets better. For some the initial suck can last a couple of weeks, maybe even a month. Each day gets a little easier. For me the foggy suck lasted about 10 days - but every day I got better. Day 71 now and I can tell you this - I would have caved if it was not for my commitment to my other brothers in the July quit club.
It is not easy - we started with over 100 quitters and we are down to about 40. It is the guys who post every day and make a commitment to themselves and their brothers that will make the quit last. Exchange numbers with other quitters in your group - and some of the seasoned veterans. We are all here to help - especially when the quit really gets tough.
As I said day 71 for me - and I still get occasional urges, but mentally I am much stronger and can get through them better and better every damn day. Post every day - it may sound silly - but it works. Make a commitment to be a 100% poster for 100 days.
I am PM'ing you my number - contact me any time you want (via text or calling).
Its a long journey brother - but no doubt you can roll forward for you, your wife and your kids.
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I can't thank everyone enough for the support. Definitely something I've never had on previous quitting attempts. Posted roll for day 4 bright and early. And I actually got some sleep last night. Things are looking up. Thanks again everyone. It means a lot.
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Starting to accrue some numbers and the support is amazing. Day 4 is a breeze compared to yesterday. On my way to walmart to get some smokey mountain. If that's what it takes to get rid of this nic bitch I'm down. Thanks y'all. QLF
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Starting to accrue some numbers and the support is amazing. Day 4 is a breeze compared to yesterday. On my way to walmart to get some smokey mountain. If that's what it takes to get rid of this nic bitch I'm down. Thanks y'all. QLF
Used SM for the first 30 or so days. I thought it really helped with the transition. Now even SM free. What ever you do, don't get tempted to buy the other shit they sell right next to the SM at WalMart. Be stronger than that - because you are nic free
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Thanks MU. As weird as it is I am almost giddy to be quit. When I went in to get it I was more excited to get the SM than I was tempted to buy the real shit. Today was a good day. I own Day 4. I won't let my Sultans down
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Thanks MU. As weird as it is I am almost giddy to be quit. When I went in to get it I was more excited to get the SM than I was tempted to buy the real shit. Today was a good day. I own Day 4. I won't let my Sultans down
That's a great attitude "Rescue", the accountability and brotherhood in the KTC motto is not BS. It really works. You are seeing the light already. Good Job. Quit on Bro!
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Thanks MU. As weird as it is I am almost giddy to be quit. When I went in to get it I was more excited to get the SM than I was tempted to buy the real shit. Today was a good day. I own Day 4. I won't let my Sultans down
That's a great attitude "Rescue", the accountability and brotherhood in the KTC motto is not BS. It really works. You are seeing the light already. Good Job. Quit on Bro!
Yep as Rdad said, you have a great attitude. Anyone who is giddy to be quit is a badass in my book.
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Thank y'all for the support. I have to say, it feels good not to be a slave to a can of worm dirt. And this smokey mountain tastes freaking great. Almost like the real thing. It's destroying my cravings. Sultan Strong. QLF
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Thank y'all for the support. I have to say, it feels good not to be a slave to a can of worm dirt. And this smokey mountain tastes freaking great. Almost like the real thing. It's destroying my cravings. Sultan Strong. QLF
res17cue, as you've already noticed, you're not alone here. You're not doing it by yourself. Your anger has a place: right here on the pages of KTC. Get angry at me. Get angry at others on this site. Get angry at yourself. Most of all, get angry at nicotine. Do it. Let it out. No holds barred here. Pain. Suffering. You can strangle nic to the death here and no ref will come in and call the fight.
Embrace your suffering.
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Thank y'all for the support. I have to say, it feels good not to be a slave to a can of worm dirt. And this smokey mountain tastes freaking great. Almost like the real thing. It's destroying my cravings. Sultan Strong. QLF
res17cue, as you've already noticed, you're not alone here. You're not doing it by yourself. Your anger has a place: right here on the pages of KTC. Get angry at me. Get angry at others on this site. Get angry at yourself. Most of all, get angry at nicotine. Do it. Let it out. No holds barred here. Pain. Suffering. You can strangle nic to the death here and no ref will come in and call the fight.
Embrace your suffering.
One day at a time brother....you are doing just fine!!! It gets better....healing will continue!
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Well I would love to give you some Monumental piece of advice but everyone else has already covered most everything. I will tell you that everyday it gets a little easier...for me anyhow. There will be occasional bad cravings and the dip dreams. As long as you stay tight to this website and to your brothers and sisters here then you have the tools you need to beat it. KTC is like your HALLIGAN TOOL against the nic. You always keep it close because it will save your ass. I am gonna shoot you a pm with my number in it. Feel free to get ahold of me my SULTAN brother!
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Another day down. For some reason I got pretty foggy today. Time flew by. I'm on duty and I feel like I just got here but I've been on shift since 0700. Little weird but feeling good.
Big, you a FF as well?
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Hang in there Rescue. You can do it. It will get better. Stay safe out there brother.
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Solid intro Rescue - hit up roll twice before posting your intro, journaling the quit, accumulating numbers - pretty sure you're starting to quit like fuck. Do yourself a favor and think back to what you said in that intro - looking down at a dying soul only to throw in a dip as you ride back to the station. Whatever that face, that motivation. Use it. Moreover, post roll every day; be a man of your word and keep promising.
A quitter is only as good as the quality of his promise. Accountability, brotherhood - pillars that help hold up that promise - but it is you and your promise that will make you quit and keep you quit.
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Welcome to the war zone............it's us on one side, nic on the other...........this is a fight to the death.
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I've fuckig got this. Whatever it takes, whatever motivation I use, I've fucking got this. Day 6, posted roll, and now my day can start.
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I've fuckig got this. Whatever it takes, whatever motivation I use, I've fucking got this. Day 6, posted roll, and now my day can start.
Yes you do Nate, I'm with you ... ODAAT. Quit with you brother!
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I woke up today and realized its day freaking 7! A whole week! That is something I thought would surely kill me before after all, nicotine made my brain think if die without the poison. Fucking dip.
On another note I feel pretty good. Waking up super early and eating like an Ethiopian at a Golden Corral, but I'm good. I went into my usual gas station yesterday to get a water (quit drinking energy drinks too, also day 7) and the cashier grabbed a can of Skoal Extra Mint and had it waiting on the counter. Fuck. I guess I was just that fucking predictable for that many years. Told her that I quit and she looked offended. I guess I was singlehandedly keeping their tobacco margins up. Whatever. Fuck them and their wall of worm dirt.
I'm on day 7. A whole week. I'm fucking proud of myself
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I woke up today and realized its day freaking 7! A whole week! That is something I thought would surely kill me before after all, nicotine made my brain think if die without the poison. Fucking dip.
On another note I feel pretty good. Waking up super early and eating like an Ethiopian at a Golden Corral, but I'm good. I went into my usual gas station yesterday to get a water (quit drinking energy drinks too, also day 7) and the cashier grabbed a can of Skoal Extra Mint and had it waiting on the counter. Fuck. I guess I was just that fucking predictable for that many years. Told her that I quit and she looked offended. I guess I was singlehandedly keeping their tobacco margins up. Whatever. Fuck them and their wall of worm dirt.
I'm on day 7. A whole week. I'm fucking proud of myself
Rescue, no joke on the dip purchases, my local gas station always stocked logs for me beneath the counter (small town here), and if I didn't stop in for awhile the clerk would ask me why, and should they be stocking Skoal Cherry as much. We were cratures of habit and slaves, and I'm damn proud to be quit with you today.
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I woke up today and realized its day freaking 7! A whole week! That is something I thought would surely kill me before after all, nicotine made my brain think if die without the poison. Fucking dip.
On another note I feel pretty good. Waking up super early and eating like an Ethiopian at a Golden Corral, but I'm good. I went into my usual gas station yesterday to get a water (quit drinking energy drinks too, also day 7) and the cashier grabbed a can of Skoal Extra Mint and had it waiting on the counter. Fuck. I guess I was just that fucking predictable for that many years. Told her that I quit and she looked offended. I guess I was singlehandedly keeping their tobacco margins up. Whatever. Fuck them and their wall of worm dirt.
I'm on day 7. A whole week. I'm fucking proud of myself
Rescue, no joke on the dip purchases, my local gas station always stocked logs for me beneath the counter (small town here), and if I didn't stop in for awhile the clerk would ask me why, and should they be stocking Skoal Cherry as much. We were cratures of habit and slaves, and I'm damn proud to be quit with you today.
Great job on 1 week
keep it up, I like where this looks like its going
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I woke up today and realized its day freaking 7! A whole week! That is something I thought would surely kill me before after all, nicotine made my brain think if die without the poison. Fucking dip.
On another note I feel pretty good. Waking up super early and eating like an Ethiopian at a Golden Corral, but I'm good. I went into my usual gas station yesterday to get a water (quit drinking energy drinks too, also day 7) and the cashier grabbed a can of Skoal Extra Mint and had it waiting on the counter. Fuck. I guess I was just that fucking predictable for that many years. Told her that I quit and she looked offended. I guess I was singlehandedly keeping their tobacco margins up. Whatever. Fuck them and their wall of worm dirt.
I'm on day 7. A whole week. I'm fucking proud of myself
Rescue, no joke on the dip purchases, my local gas station always stocked logs for me beneath the counter (small town here), and if I didn't stop in for awhile the clerk would ask me why, and should they be stocking Skoal Cherry as much. We were cratures of habit and slaves, and I'm damn proud to be quit with you today.
Great job on 1 week
keep it up, I like where this looks like its going
At this point in your quit, and with the number of lawyers on this site, I'm thinking you could get the charges dropped if you jumped the counter and tipped the wall of death over then stripped naked and ran out of there like a nude maniac.
Way to fight brother!
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Thanks Griz. It sucked at the moment but I was actually happy that I wasn't even tempted to buy the real stuff. Kind of proved my quit to myself. No turning back. I can't let myself or my Sultans down like that.
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Thanks Griz. It sucked at the moment but I was actually happy that I wasn't even tempted to buy the real stuff. Kind of proved my quit to myself. No turning back. I can't let myself or my Sultans down like that.
Res17Cue,
You rock....Sultan pride, brother...
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One day at a time. In the time between know the craves a momentary and illusions. Don't fall for the lies.
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Thank you again for all of the support everybody. Oddly enough this is the first night I'm having trouble falling asleep. For all the other nights I passed out and woke up early as all hell. Messing with me a little bit. But the show goes on and there will be another roll to post in a few hours. Thank you to all of the Sultans and everyone else here that has offered support. I know I'm not quitting alone.
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Thank you again for all of the support everybody. Oddly enough this is the first night I'm having trouble falling asleep. For all the other nights I passed out and woke up early as all hell. Messing with me a little bit. But the show goes on and there will be another roll to post in a few hours. Thank you to all of the Sultans and everyone else here that has offered support. I know I'm not quitting alone.
Bad ass man.
Hope you've found your zzz's tonight. Today has been crazy, but it's over. Let's plan for tomorrow.
Wake up, post roll, and keep your promise. You fill in the blanks.
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Well it happened. My first dip dream. I was playing hockey and threw in a big fat pinch after. I woke up in a freaking cold sweat. Not because I wanted it. I was pissed at myself. Now I know how my ex felt when she got mad at me for doing something in HER dream. Haha. It felt so damn real. Glad it was just a dream. Day 8 chugging along. Stay quit everyone
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Well it happened. My first dip dream. I was playing hockey and threw in a big fat pinch after. I woke up in a freaking cold sweat. Not because I wanted it. I was pissed at myself. Now I know how my ex felt when she got mad at me for doing something in HER dream. Haha. It felt so damn real. Glad it was just a dream. Day 8 chugging along. Stay quit everyone
A dip dream certainly does suck. I always let them serve as a reminder that freedom will be mine. Oh yes, it will be mine.
Keep up the strong quit.
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Well it happened. My first dip dream. I was playing hockey and threw in a big fat pinch after. I woke up in a freaking cold sweat. Not because I wanted it. I was pissed at myself. Now I know how my ex felt when she got mad at me for doing something in HER dream. Haha. It felt so damn real. Glad it was just a dream. Day 8 chugging along. Stay quit everyone
Dip dreams suck! I have had my share.
Your body is trying to trick you into using again. It is a sign you are winning!
Stay clean!
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Well it happened. My first dip dream. I was playing hockey and threw in a big fat pinch after. I woke up in a freaking cold sweat. Not because I wanted it. I was pissed at myself. Now I know how my ex felt when she got mad at me for doing something in HER dream. Haha. It felt so damn real. Glad it was just a dream. Day 8 chugging along. Stay quit everyone
Dip dreams suck! I have had my share.
Your body is trying to trick you into using again. It is a sign you are winning!
Stay clean!
I had a ton of dip dreams, for a long time. That just goes to show how deep the claws are hooked in. Just keep riding them out. I can't tell you how long they will last, but they do go away over time.
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Well it happened. My first dip dream. I was playing hockey and threw in a big fat pinch after. I woke up in a freaking cold sweat. Not because I wanted it. I was pissed at myself. Now I know how my ex felt when she got mad at me for doing something in HER dream. Haha. It felt so damn real. Glad it was just a dream. Day 8 chugging along. Stay quit everyone
Dip dreams suck! I have had my share.
Your body is trying to trick you into using again. It is a sign you are winning!
Stay clean!
I had a ton of dip dreams, for a long time. That just goes to show how deep the claws are hooked in. Just keep riding them out. I can't tell you how long they will last, but they do go away over time.
Best thing about dip dreams is waking up knowing you won.
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Well it happened. My first dip dream. I was playing hockey and threw in a big fat pinch after. I woke up in a freaking cold sweat. Not because I wanted it. I was pissed at myself. Now I know how my ex felt when she got mad at me for doing something in HER dream. Haha. It felt so damn real. Glad it was just a dream. Day 8 chugging along. Stay quit everyone
Dip dreams suck! I have had my share.
Your body is trying to trick you into using again. It is a sign you are winning!
Stay clean!
I had a ton of dip dreams, for a long time. That just goes to show how deep the claws are hooked in. Just keep riding them out. I can't tell you how long they will last, but they do go away over time.
Best thing about dip dreams is waking up knowing you won.
You'll be going through mind games for a while. No matter what happens, always remember the first 3 days. You never want to do that again.
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Well it happened. My first dip dream. I was playing hockey and threw in a big fat pinch after. I woke up in a freaking cold sweat. Not because I wanted it. I was pissed at myself. Now I know how my ex felt when she got mad at me for doing something in HER dream. Haha. It felt so damn real. Glad it was just a dream. Day 8 chugging along. Stay quit everyone
Dip dreams suck! I have had my share.
Your body is trying to trick you into using again. It is a sign you are winning!
Stay clean!
I had a ton of dip dreams, for a long time. That just goes to show how deep the claws are hooked in. Just keep riding them out. I can't tell you how long they will last, but they do go away over time.
Best thing about dip dreams is waking up knowing you won.
You'll be going through mind games for a while. No matter what happens, always remember the first 3 days. You never want to do that again.
Thumb called this one right. At first it seems like everything is a struggle... a fight. And it is.
But in time the stuggles become easier, and less frequent. Then you start to kind of like an occasional stuggle, because it will remind you of how you are winning at something that you lost at for a lot of years.
One day at a time, buddy... one day at a time...
You are winning.
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Absolutely. The only time I think about it now is when I'm idle. If I stay busy I don't even crave. As good of an excuse as any to be productive I guess. Haha. Taking it day by day. Thanks for the support everyone. I won't let y'all or my Sultans down
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Absolutely. The only time I think about it now is when I'm idle. If I stay busy I don't even crave. As good of an excuse as any to be productive I guess. Haha. Taking it day by day. Thanks for the support everyone. I won't let y'all or my Sultans down
It will pass, man.
Right now is rough (especially when you're idle), but one day soon...you'll enjoy those times too.
Keep it up. I'm very proud of you.
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Thanks Waste. (Definitely wrote this one to get my 50th post. Not even a little ashamed) :D
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I am trying to keep a running dialogue of my journey in this final quit. So here goes. Day 8 was pretty normal. Almost eerily normal. Ran out of smokey mountain on the way to work and am on shift for 24 hours. So no alternatives all day and I lived through it. Who'd have thunk that was possible?
Had one bad craving after lunch, my prior favorite dipping timeslot, but all I had to do was look at my name on roll. It's working and I'm loving it. Hope all my fellow Sultans keep up the quit and I'm proud to quit with each and every one of you.
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Day 10. What a night. I was more tempted than I've ever been. Get together with some college buddies, beers started flowing, and then the cans started getting packed. All of them, my brothers, threw in fat lips of that delicious Grizzly wintergreen. I could smell the temptation. I wanted it. And then I broke out the smokey mountain, had a nice fake lipper, and pushed through.
This site works. I made a promise. My word is my reputation. Can't let the Sultans down. QLF Boys. Take it a day at a time
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and then the cans started getting packed. All of them, my brothers, threw in fat lips of that delicious Grizzly wintergreen. I could smell the temptation. I wanted it.
I'm glad you made it through a night with the boys.
I sense that you don't have enough hate in you. I personally let the hate flow through me. I don't think Jedi's dealt with nicotine addiction. On most things with Yoda, agree I do. When it comes to hatred of tobacco, I am the emperor and Darth Vader rolled into one.
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I hate every last little bit about that shit. I hate that I'm still tempted even more. I hate that the nic bitch has engrained herself so far into my mind that I'm still tempted by a fucking plant. It's pure evil. Pure. Fucking. Evil.
But my quit is stronger than ever because of the hate. The nic bitch can't have me. Not anymore. Not ever again.
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I hate every last little bit about that shit. I hate that I'm still tempted even more. I hate that the nic bitch has engrained herself so far into my mind that I'm still tempted by a fucking plant. It's pure evil. Pure. Fucking. Evil.
But my quit is stronger than ever because of the hate. The nic bitch can't have me. Not anymore. Not ever again.
Attaboy!
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I hate every last little bit about that shit. I hate that I'm still tempted even more. I hate that the nic bitch has engrained herself so far into my mind that I'm still tempted by a fucking plant. It's pure evil. Pure. Fucking. Evil.
But my quit is stronger than ever because of the hate. The nic bitch can't have me. Not anymore. Not ever again.
Attaboy!
Yes! You need to hate what that shit did to you with everything you have. Get pissed!
Just make sure you take your anger out here, not at home. We can take it.
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I hate every last little bit about that shit. I hate that I'm still tempted even more. I hate that the nic bitch has engrained herself so far into my mind that I'm still tempted by a fucking plant. It's pure evil. Pure. Fucking. Evil.
But my quit is stronger than ever because of the hate. The nic bitch can't have me. Not anymore. Not ever again.
Attaboy!
Yes! You need to hate what that shit did to you with everything you have. Get pissed!
Just make sure you take your anger out here, not at home. We can take it.
This is what I like to see. An intense hate for the poison weed can fuel your quit today. Keep,at it today brother!
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I hate every last little bit about that shit. I hate that I'm still tempted even more. I hate that the nic bitch has engrained herself so far into my mind that I'm still tempted by a fucking plant. It's pure evil. Pure. Fucking. Evil.
But my quit is stronger than ever because of the hate. The nic bitch can't have me. Not anymore. Not ever again.
Attaboy!
Yes! You need to hate what that shit did to you with everything you have. Get pissed!
Just make sure you take your anger out here, not at home. We can take it.
This is what I like to see. An intense hate for the poison weed can fuel your quit today. Keep,at it today brother!
Damn, I love quit!
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I hate every last little bit about that shit. I hate that I'm still tempted even more. I hate that the nic bitch has engrained herself so far into my mind that I'm still tempted by a fucking plant. It's pure evil. Pure. Fucking. Evil.
But my quit is stronger than ever because of the hate. The nic bitch can't have me. Not anymore. Not ever again.
'worship'
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I hate every last little bit about that shit. I hate that I'm still tempted even more. I hate that the nic bitch has engrained herself so far into my mind that I'm still tempted by a fucking plant. It's pure evil. Pure. Fucking. Evil.
But my quit is stronger than ever because of the hate. The nic bitch can't have me. Not anymore. Not ever again.
'worship'
Nate, that's awesome your attitude is pure hatred. She's made us all look the fool for way too long a portion of our lives, if you can even call them that. It's even more awesome that you're doing this at your age. Fucking brilliant, actually. Keep up your quit and keep slaying her craves. They DO go away, I promise. Not completely, of course, but they're one-punch-in-mid-conversation-and-she's-down easy after not too long. Congrats.
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It's been a while since I've posted anything other than roll and I felt it was time to remedy that situation. I've found myself drifting farther and farther away from this site as my day count grows higher. It's not that I don't appreciate everything it has done, I just don't think about dipping nearly as much, and that's a good thing. I've decided to come back with a renewed sense of pride in my quit and try to share what little knowledge and experience I have with the new quitters. I am on day 26 and am still a 100% poster. I'm fucking proud of that. Sure I've been late and had a couple of reminder text messages to post roll, but that's the beauty of this site. Build a strong network and you are never alone in the fight. I have that with my Sultans, and it's a great feeling.
This has been and will continue to be the fight of my life. Hell, the fight FOR my life. Use the site, and your quit will be stronger than ever. QLF boys.
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It's been a while since I've posted anything other than roll and I felt it was time to remedy that situation. I've found myself drifting farther and farther away from this site as my day count grows higher. It's not that I don't appreciate everything it has done, I just don't think about dipping nearly as much, and that's a good thing. I've decided to come back with a renewed sense of pride in my quit and try to share what little knowledge and experience I have with the new quitters. I am on day 26 and am still a 100% poster. I'm fucking proud of that. Sure I've been late and had a couple of reminder text messages to post roll, but that's the beauty of this site. Build a strong network and you are never alone in the fight. I have that with my Sultans, and it's a great feeling.
This has been and will continue to be the fight of my life. Hell, the fight FOR my life. Use the site, and your quit will be stronger than ever. QLF boys.
Hey man. 26 days is awesome, but it's quite normal to feel this way. I wrote this quite a while ago and it's still very pertanent:
Morning April quitters!
I see that some of you have hit 20 days in your quit. Congratulations.
There is a major funk that is coming up shortly. It starts usually in the late teens. It does not make you crave nicotine. It's the opposite. It makes you think you are invincible and completely quit.
Take a look at the other months' spreadsheets. We lose many a fine quitter in the 20s. In fact, we lose more quitters in the 20s than any other time (except for the first week). I myself was almost a victim.
My thoughts on the funk are this:
The first week is complete hell. We all agree there. But, upon completion of the first week, we start to feel more comfortable with being quit. We get a sense of accomplishment for breaking that physical addiction, and our quits are fueled by adreneline.
Around day 20 (maybe later, maybe sooner), the adreneline starts to run out. Our brains want to tell us that we are quit, and we don't need to think about being quit all the time. We want normalcy, rather than having to feel committed to a website and anonymous strangers. We don't want to think that we used to stick cat turds in our mouths all the time, let alone that we are addicts. Even if we've embraced the label "addict" early in the quit, we wonder if we truly are at this time. We start to think that this roll call posting is silly business, because we are quit already. We begin hating all the bullshit on this site, and start thinking that the site is more drama than what it is worth.
This is the start to the planned cave.
Your addicted brain is letting the nic bitch have the microphone in your head and she is the one talking. She will tell you that she is gone, and that you don't need to post roll anymore. She'll tell you every lie under the sun to get you to stop giving your word everyday.
Some of you will decide she is right. You will leave. And you might not even cave right away, but you will. The nic bitch is a tricky whore, and she can sleep until you are the weakest.
Be very careful here. There is a lot of bullshit on this site, and it's meant to be a distraction for you. If it becomes too much, simply post roll and ignore it. Lean on your brothers. They are having these same thoughts, and the best thing you can do is to make sure that everybody keeps posting.
I stopped posting roll after 150 days in 2006. I caved in 2009 because I forgot I was an addict. The nic bitch had taken that time to break down every tool I learned here, and made me forget. She dug her claws in, and I manned up again 1,113 days ago today. I should be around 2000 days quit, and instead all I can claim is that I stopped for like 1,000 days and then again for 1,113.
EVERYDAY
Post roll.
Stay quit.
Repeat.
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Damn Waste. I appreciate the insight. You're 100% right. And it's scary reading that because it holds true completely. Haha. I've made a conscious decision to become more active again and I need it. I need the reminder because complacency kills, and I was becoming complacent. It's hard to think that 26 days ago I was a captive to a weed, but I was, and I still am even if I convinced myself I'm not. This is my own personal "do better" speech to myself. Just have to keep quitting
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Waste that is some good shit there! Made me think back to around that time myself and realized I was thinking the same shit, like I got this shit..........sure glad I got through it and stuck around....238 days in here and she still whispers to me nearly every damn day that whore...this is a great reminder of how weak we are compared to the Nic Whore!
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Damn Waste. I appreciate the insight. You're 100% right. And it's scary reading that because it holds true completely. Haha. I've made a conscious decision to become more active again and I need it. I need the reminder because complacency kills, and I was becoming complacent. It's hard to think that 26 days ago I was a captive to a weed, but I was, and I still am even if I convinced myself I'm not. This is my own personal "do better" speech to myself. Just have to keep quitting
You are a free man today! You are not captive, but that is because you have posted roll and made a commitment to be quit today. But you are one trip to the c-store from losing all the ground you have fought for here... Do not get complacent!!!
You will always be an addict. One thing you can NOT do is think you are cured. You are not. You must work your quit daily and fight every day to keep that garbage out of your mouth.
You are early on so I'm concerned that you are feeling so over confident. Read waste panels post again and listen to his advice.
Fight EDD brother!
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Absolutely Derk. Waste's post definitely brought me back to reality. I don't think I was feeling cured as much as I am feeling proud. I can't remember the last time I was nicotine free, and certainly not for 26 days, cold turkey. I'm proud of myself, but I have to remember that I am a pinch away from having to post a day 1 all over again. I dont want to ever have to do that
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Absolutely Derk. Waste's post definitely brought me back to reality. I don't think I was feeling cured as much as I am feeling proud. I can't remember the last time I was nicotine free, and certainly not for 26 days, cold turkey. I'm proud of myself, but I have to remember that I am a pinch away from having to post a day 1 all over again. I dont want to ever have to do that
Hey brother. You are on the right track. There are some really great days and just when you feel like a badass that bitch sneaks in your ear.
We are like herd animals and the nic bitch is a lion. She's gonna try to pull you away from the herd so she can kill you. You are never safe alone. Just last week we had two brothers over 5oo days cave. It's scary as shit man. Better to be part of the herd.
One if the best things I've found is what you just wrote. Start helping new guys. It builds a bigger network and really is very rewarding.
Stay strong man.
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The fucking Nic Bitch is sneaky. Just got done with the first date I've had since quitting. It was the first date with this girl. And when it was over and I headed home my addict brain said "it went well, you deserve a dip". Didn't get a can. Small victories. Keep your guard up. This fight doesn't last for just the first three days.
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The fucking Nic Bitch is sneaky. Just got done with the first date I've had since quitting. It was the first date with this girl. And when it was over and I headed home my addict brain said "it went well, you deserve a dip". Didn't get a can. Small victories. Keep your guard up. This fight doesn't last for just the first three days.
Congrats! 2 victories today... Good date with a new girl telling your old mistress to hit the bricks. That is how we roll! Well done.
Keep at it today!
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The fucking Nic Bitch is sneaky. Just got done with the first date I've had since quitting. It was the first date with this girl. And when it was over and I headed home my addict brain said "it went well, you deserve a dip". Didn't get a can. Small victories. Keep your guard up. This fight doesn't last for just the first three days.
Congrats! 2 victories today... Good date with a new girl telling your old mistress to hit the bricks. That is how we roll! Well done.
Keep at it today!
That stupid bitch !! (I'm talking about nicotine, not your date!)
Nice victory! The whispers get less frequent. In time, they are more like a really fat and slow flying mosquito buzzing your ear... Easy to smash and very satisfying to squash. Nicotine only takes. It takes your time, your attention, your honor, your money , and your health. Fuck that! And I guarantee tonight's date would not find you to be a charming or fuck-worthy with a big string of drool dripping down your chin.
You got this. Proud to quit with you today.
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It's been a long while since I've posted anything other than roll. Had to post and run a few times. This site has helped me keep adding +1s and hopefully some new guys can learn from my quit. Today is my day 85. In 15 days I'll be in the HOF if I stay on track and keep posting roll.
To any new quitters reading this, be prepared for a fight. The cravings get less frequent after 2 weeks or so but the nic bitch will randomly whisper in your ear for a lot longer than that. Hell, on day 82 I had a weird, random, out of the blue urge to throw in a fatty. Find a routine that works and stick to it. When I get a bad craving, I brush my teeth then go workout. (Don't wanna dip on freshly brushed teeth and working out releases a bunch of dopamine to combat the urge)
Invest in your quit groups. Make friends, keep each other accountable, and keep quitting. This site only works if you put the work in. None of us can quit for you. I'll always be addicted to nicotine, but that doesn't mean I need it in my blood or in my lip.
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It's been a long while since I've posted anything other than roll. Had to post and run a few times. This site has helped me keep adding +1s and hopefully some new guys can learn from my quit. Today is my day 85. In 15 days I'll be in the HOF if I because of stay staying on track and keep continuously posting roll.
To any new quitters reading this, be prepared for a fight. The cravings get less frequent after 2 weeks or so but the nic bitch will randomly whisper in your ear for a lot longer than that. Hell, on day 82 I had a weird, random, out of the blue urge to throw in a fatty. Find a routine that works and stick to it. When I get a bad craving, I brush my teeth then go workout. (Don't wanna dip on freshly brushed teeth and working out releases a bunch of dopamine to combat the urge)
Invest in your quit groups. Make friends, keep each other accountable, and keep quitting. This site only works if you put the work in. None of us can quit for you. I'll always be addicted to nicotine, but that doesn't mean I need it in my blood or in my lip.
Proud of the journey you've taken so far Nate! I fixed part of your post ... I know that's how you feel!
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Haha. Thanks Smeds. Fixing my momentary fog
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Alright you bunch of quitters. What in the actual fuck. I've seen 2 intros today that people posted, said they were quit, and then disappeared. This addiction doesn't get easier. What the fuck is stopping you? Flush your can, get on the site, and post roll. It's the best thing you will do for yourself all day. I promise.
To all you new quitters in the December group, keep posting those +1's. They add up quicker than you think. Day 86 now and looking back it has flown by. If you're on the fence about quitting, and just so happen to stumble upon my Saturday morning rant, sack the fuck up and quit. There's thousands of quitters here to help you. We know your hesitations and past failures because we've all been there. You are not alone in your quit.
So I ask again, what's stopping you from quitting right fucking NOW? (Rant over)
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Proud to quit with Res17cue today!
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Proud as can be for ya bro, excellent work at hitting the HOF! This is just a milepost, albeit a big one. Enjoy the weekend, celebrate your 100. Then come back in here, and refocus your energies. Post HOF is a time where lots of guys hit complacency, and drift away. I don't want that for you, or your quit. I suggest next week you go find a struggling newby and post roll with them in their group EDD. Pay it forward. I would love to see you post roll EDD in an older group as well. Pay it backward. Build up that accountability, build up that quit. I'm looking forwards to seeing you around here for a long, long time! Congrats again Nate, kick-ass quit going on here!
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Well, I'm in the HOF. To be honest I never could have imagined 103 days ago that I would be quit. But here I am. A special thanks goes out to all of my brothers in the September Sultans. We fucking did it. And also thanks to Smeds and Medic and the rest of the bad ass quitters that helped me out along the way. Here's to the HOF, and here's to another floor yet to come. Cheers boys
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I'm back, and with a vengeance. Today is day 401. Let that sink in for a second. I have made it 401 days without nicotine. This site helped me do it. I fell away for far too long and somehow stayed quit. I don't recommend that route at all. God knows there have been temptations, but the thing that kept me quit, kept me honest, was the desire to be quit and the sheer terror of having to come back to this site and post a day 1. I would never forgive myself and I would never live it down. To any new quitters reading this, go to the beginning and read it all. You will see the gambit of emotions you are about to experience. It sucks. Boo fucking hoo. You started this addiction, it is yours to kill. Proud to be back on the site and proud to quit with everyone still in the Sultans of Quit. QLF
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Proud to quit with a fellow "Brother" congratulations on that 4th floor!!
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Congrats on the 4th floor Nate and to those that may read this, listen to Res17cue he knows what he is talking about. This KTC system can save your arse if you let it. I have not had time to post much other then roll the past 300 days but I still post roll at 615 today and when I can I jump in the pool for a while and see who's swimming. As they say, take what you need from here to stay quit folks..........