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Title: Let this one be the last
Post by: joe29 on October 28, 2011, 10:30:00 PM
Long time chewer (25+yrs) and frequent quitter. Always seemed to find the motoation to quit but could not stay on the path. I am inspired by this site. I am hopeful this may be the last time. I am quitting for me this time. I heard that here and it changed me. 5 days clean now and I know tomorrow will be the toughest day yet.
Title: Re: Let this one be the last
Post by: Ready on October 28, 2011, 10:39:00 PM
Quote from: joe29
Long time chewer (25+yrs) and frequent quitter. Always seemed to find the motoation to quit but could not stay on the path. I am inspired by this site. I am hopeful this may be the last time. I am quitting for me this time. I heard that here and it changed me. 5 days clean now and I know tomorrow will be the toughest day yet.
Hope will not keep you quit.

period.

How bad do you want this? What are you willing to do to quit and stay that way? There is only one good answer. if you have the right answer, you will be quit.

Check your (Inbox 1) upper right corner of your screen.

Do it.
Title: Re: Let this one be the last
Post by: AgLawyer on October 28, 2011, 11:34:00 PM
Welcome!

Don't be "hopeful". Just friggin' do it.

When I was new here at the end of July, I used some words like "hope" and "try" - someone told me, "Trying is gay, attempts are lame and Hope is a fat chick from high school. Just do it."

Tomorrow will be my 94th day nicotine-free. If I can do it, you can do it.

Shout if you need anything.
Title: Re: Let this one be the last
Post by: joe29 on October 29, 2011, 12:52:00 AM
Exactly right, forget hope - I have to do this and I will
Keep pushing me
Title: Re: Let this one be the last
Post by: redyota on October 29, 2011, 01:01:00 PM
Rule #1: I will not dip today, no matter what.
Rule #2: When bad things happen, craves are hard, and/or you don't think you can make it.....refer to rule #1.

Follow that, and I promise it will get better. I also promise that it will get better faster than you think. I further promise that if you cave, even on just one, it will not get better....ever.

Welcome to our group. We are not here to help you quit. You quit, and we are here to help you with everything that goes along with it.
Title: Re: Let this one be the last
Post by: Greg5280 on October 29, 2011, 01:11:00 PM
Quote from: joe29
Exactly right, forget hope - I have to do this and I will
Keep pushing me
How bad do you want it?
Quote
A new quitter approached a vet and said, “I want to quit and one day be at your level.”  The vet said, “if you want to be at the same level I am, meet me at the beach tomorrow at 4:00am.” 

“The beach?  I want to quit, I don’t want to swim.”

The vet said, “if you want to quit, I’ll meet you at the beach.  4:00am.”

So the rookie got to the beach at 4:00am, ready to quit, wearing his suit.  The vet grabbed his hand, looked him in the eye, and asked, “how bad do you want to quit?”
 
“Really bad.”

“So walk out into the water.”

The rookie walks out into the cold ocean until he’s waist deep thinking, “This dude’s crazy.  I want to quit, and he has me swimming.  I don’t want to get in shape or be a lifeguard, I want to quit.”  The vet follows the rookie into the water, and as he catches up to the rookie, he tells him to go out further.

Now neck deep, the rookie turns and asks the vet what to do next.  “How bad do you want to quit?”

“I already told you, really fucking bad.”

“So go out a little further.”

As the water rises up over the rookies chin, and as the rookie is again questioning the sanity of the vet, the vet pounces, holding the rookies head under water.  The rookie doesn’t stay under easily, and fighting for his life, punches, kicks, and bites the vet; the vet stays in place and continues holds the rookie under despite the assault.

Just as the rookie was beginning to weaken and lose consciousness, the vet pulls him back up out of the water and into the sweet morning air.  “What the fuck was that?  I ask for help quitting, and THIS is what I get?  Fuck you and your quit.”

The vet, having been through this many times before, said, “I have a question for you:  when you were under water what did you want to do?”

“Breathe.”

“Until you want to quit as badly as you wanted to breathe, you’ll never be successful.  It has to be the single most important thing in your life to the exclusion of all other distractions.  When you can achieve that, you will not only be quit, you will remain quit.”
Title: Re: Let this one be the last
Post by: Radman on October 30, 2011, 10:01:00 AM
You titled this thread "let this one be the last". That's all wrong, Joe.... all wrong. You gotta MAKE this one be the last. Just like the brothers below said about hope. It's a mindset thing. Engage the beast and fight the battle daily. It took me a while to get my head in the game, but quitting got much easier when I did.

UST has made fools of all of us for years, and I'll never give those murdering, drug-dealing thugs another damn dime of my money. Get mad, stay mad, and use that to your advantage.

Reach out if you need anything.
Title: Re: Let this one be the last
Post by: joe29 on October 30, 2011, 11:37:00 PM
Made it thru the weekend. Thanks for the words. 7 days. Fuck the hope, time to stop for good. Keep me honest and kick me when i need it, thank you

Tomorrow I will find a quit group.
Title: Re: Let this one be the last
Post by: syndrome on October 31, 2011, 07:10:00 AM
Quote from: joe29
Made it thru the weekend. Thanks for the words. 7 days. Fuck the hope, time to stop for good. Keep me honest and kick me when i need it, thank you

Tomorrow I will find a quit group.
are you gonna start postin roll or what fucknuts? i dont need statis reports from you. i get those from my pee-ons at work. now get with the dam program here.
Title: Re: Let this one be the last
Post by: joe29 on November 02, 2011, 07:56:00 AM
10 and still rolling (and doing roll call as well), anyone having issues with sleep? Getting killed there. Can get to sleep but cannot stay there. Any help would be apreciated.
Title: Re: Let this one be the last
Post by: Radman on November 02, 2011, 08:58:00 AM
Quote from: joe29
10 and still rolling (and doing roll call as well), anyone having issues with sleep? Getting killed there. Can get to sleep but cannot stay there. Any help would be apreciated.
Right on track, Joe. Give it another week and that should start to level out. I tossed, turned, dreamed, and just generall spazzed out at night for the first couple weeks. Freaking wierd, but that's pretty common.
Title: Re: Let this one be the last
Post by: joe29 on November 07, 2011, 08:57:00 PM
Quote from: Radman
Quote from: joe29
10 and still rolling (and doing roll call as well), anyone having issues with sleep? Getting killed there.  Can get to sleep but cannot stay there.  Any help would be apreciated.
Right on track, Joe. Give it another week and that should start to level out. I tossed, turned, dreamed, and just generall spazzed out at night for the first couple weeks. Freaking wierd, but that's pretty common.
Two weeks quit so far. Easy days with tough moments. Sleep still sucks, using seeds, gum, jerky you name it - no kodiak, no chew. Good to just type this. Good to know I am not alone.