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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: DanGraham1114 on April 02, 2015, 05:46:00 PM
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My name is Dan, and I have made the decision to quiet dipping for the second official time. Before this latest blunder, I hadn't had a dip in long time, but I still wanted and craved them. I guess I didn't really quit for that year, I just kept telling myself I had quit. Before that I dipped Grizzly Wintergreen Long Cut, that was my choice of poison, and it became a part of my life at 12 years old. I had an older brother who dipped, and I just wanted to "be cool like the older guys"
Well it wasn't long after I started that I became addicted to it. Fast forward from the age of 12 to the age of 20, and I was going through 2 cans a day, easily.
As I said, I quit for about 1 year... And just last week, I found myself in the all to familiar position.. Standing in race trac, thinking about my job, bills, trying to save up to buy a house, and just about every other little thing that can cause stress...
And... I caved.... I bought a can of Grizzly Wintergreen pouches...
I sure enough dipped them...
Honestly I am ashamed of myself... I've always considered myself such a strong person, but here I am, not even strong enough to let a $3 plastic can control me.
I understand addiction, I was a police officer for 3 years and took plenty of classes on addiction...
But I hate to admit, that I am addicted...
Dip has caused more bad in my life than anything, it has caused issues with my marriage, past jobs, it looks and smells disgusting, is bad for you, and quite frankly is a waste of money...
Dip has controlled me... To the point I hid it from the ones I loved the most, only to be caught, and exposed for what I was doing... Choosing my habit over everyone and everything...
Well, I am tired of letting dip control me, I want to quit and quit for the rest of my life, I want to see someone with a dip in and not have any thought or care about them. I want to stand in race trac paying for gas and not even care that there is a can in the whole place.
I know this is long, but I just need guidance and support, I need to be able to talk to and vent to people who understand first hand what I'm dealing with... I want to win this fight so bad, I'm sick and tired of dip, using it or wanting it...
My quit date is 4/3/2015... Good Friday.
I'm so ready to put this behind me, and move on!
Thanks for reading, sorry so long winded.
- Dan
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My name is Dan, and I have made the decision to quiet dipping for the second official time. Before this latest blunder, I hadn't had a dip in long time, but I still wanted and craved them. I guess I didn't really quit for that year, I just kept telling myself I had quit. Before that I dipped Grizzly Wintergreen Long Cut, that was my choice of poison, and it became a part of my life at 12 years old. I had an older brother who dipped, and I just wanted to "be cool like the older guys"
Well it wasn't long after I started that I became addicted to it. Fast forward from the age of 12 to the age of 20, and I was going through 2 cans a day, easily.
As I said, I quit for about 1 year... And just last week, I found myself in the all to familiar position.. Standing in race trac, thinking about my job, bills, trying to save up to buy a house, and just about every other little thing that can cause stress...
And... I caved.... I bought a can of Grizzly Wintergreen pouches...
I sure enough dipped them...
Honestly I am ashamed of myself... I've always considered myself such a strong person, but here I am, not even strong enough to let a $3 plastic can control me.
I understand addiction, I was a police officer for 3 years and took plenty of classes on addiction...
But I hate to admit, that I am addicted...
Dip has caused more bad in my life than anything, it has caused issues with my marriage, past jobs, it looks and smells disgusting, is bad for you, and quite frankly is a waste of money...
Dip has controlled me... To the point I hid it from the ones I loved the most, only to be caught, and exposed for what I was doing... Choosing my habit over everyone and everything...
Well, I am tired of letting dip control me, I want to quit and quit for the rest of my life, I want to see someone with a dip in and not have any thought or care about them. I want to stand in race trac paying for gas and not even care that there is a can in the whole place.
I know this is long, but I just need guidance and support, I need to be able to talk to and vent to people who understand first hand what I'm dealing with... I want to win this fight so bad, I'm sick and tired of dip, using it or wanting it...
My quit date is 4/3/2015... Good Friday.
I'm so ready to put this behind me, and move on!
Thanks for reading, sorry so long winded.
- Dan
Hey Dan,
Welcome. Your going to hear this over the next numerous posts to follow me...... But around here we don't try anything. Trying means chance for failure. Here, we just QUIT one day at a time. If I can give you any advice, take your Tin, walk over to the toilet and flush the contents down the drain.
There is no reason to put off the rest of your life with poison in your system. KTC has mapped out the successful steps needed to quit. If you get to the welcome center and read how to post roll, you should get to the July group and post your day 1 as soon as you flush your tin. From there, you post roll every day first thing and honor your word to your quit brothers. You must be a man of your word and quit one day at a time. I quit with you today, provided you flush that freaking nicotine and join me!
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Kremerica,
The can is somewhere in the wood line off a busy highway, I ditched it a couple hours ago.
I'm all in.
I had no idea there were things like this site. I'm excited about the support I see everyone giving to one another.
I'm still trying to figure out how to work my way around this site. But I will find it and definitely post day 1, and so on.
Thanks a lot, I needed this
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Kremerica,
The can is somewhere in the wood line off a busy highway, I ditched it a couple hours ago.
I'm all in.
I had no idea there were things like this site. I'm excited about the support I see everyone giving to one another.
I'm still trying to figure out how to work my way around this site. But I will find it and definitely post day 1, and so on.
Thanks a lot, I needed this
I am so thankful for this site . KTC will be my life saver, I know it.
WElcome you quitter.
Day 4 - ChickDip
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Read 1-4 in welcome center.
forum/55560/ (http://forum.killthecan.org/forum/55560/)
Learn how to post roll today.
Flush the poison from your body, avoid coffee and alcohol for a couple days and:
Bottom right corner..... Click on “Track Topic” so you can communicate early here in your quit.
Any questions on posting roll just ask anyone! Its basically cutting and pasting and putting in your word that you will not use NICOTINE!
Great to have you here ! This is the toughest part - getting started on your quit and getting going on the beginning of your new life. It will be a new life, trust me. You want have to worry about spitting and hiding your dip from people. You will talk more. You wont have that nic bitch holding you back from doing things.
Did you get in a quit group and post roll yet?
Be strong and be glad you are now on the right track!
If you have to chew, chew the fake stuff....no nic, all herbal:
http://www.smokeysnuff.com/retail_locations.html (http://www.smokeysnuff.com/retail_locations.html)
Hang in there, keep it up.
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Joequit,
I think I posted in my quit group correctly (after attempting unsuccessfully the first two times). I just think this whole idea of this site is awesome.
So in my quit group, when I do roll call each day, do I just do the same thing I did earlier cut, paste, enter my name and how many days -- or do I write after I do roll call about how my quit is coming a long?
I've never been so amped up about kicking this crap!
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Joequit,
I think I posted in my quit group correctly (after attempting unsuccessfully the first two times). I just think this whole idea of this site is awesome.
So in my quit group, when I do roll call each day, do I just do the same thing I did earlier cut, paste, enter my name and how many days -- or do I write after I do roll call about how my quit is coming a long?
I've never been so amped up about kicking this crap!
Just post first thing in the morning, as early as you can or whenever you get up, after you shower shit do whatever you normally do. I post as soon as I get up so I don't forget! Yes, just do the same as you did each time, but change the day. YOu can write in here (your introduction) anytime you want and whatever you want. Its kind of like your personally diary. And it inspires others who are going through the same thing. Any other questions please ask. And try to get numbers from people in your quit group so you can text or call them if you feel like you are about to cave. Support group is here - use it if you need it!
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Thanks for giving me the quick crash course.
I'll definitely keep posting in here about my journey.
I look forward to getting to know a lot of you better.
Hollar at you cats tomorrow
- Dan
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Thanks for giving me the quick crash course.
I'll definitely keep posting in here about my journey.
I look forward to getting to know a lot of you better.
Hollar at you cats tomorrow
- Dan
If you trashed your stash and posted roll, your quit date is TODAY.
Quit on...
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Post in your group too, it does more than just help yourself...
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Day two:
I bought Bac Off Wintergreen Extra last night, Definitely helped with my ride into work. Also have been munching on some sun flower seeds.
Just in such a mixed emotion mood right now, IÂ’m angry, happy, mad, and sad all at the same time.
I know I will beat this. Luckily I stay busy at work so there is less time to sit and let my wheels turn. I think my daily cardio will help relieve a lot of the anxiety. IÂ’m really looking forward to that.
Just going to keep on chugging along.
- Dan
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Day two:
I bought Bac Off Wintergreen Extra last night, Definitely helped with my ride into work. Also have been munching on some sun flower seeds.
Just in such a mixed emotion mood right now, IÂ’m angry, happy, mad, and sad all at the same time.
I know I will beat this. Luckily I stay busy at work so there is less time to sit and let my wheels turn. I think my daily cardio will help relieve a lot of the anxiety. IÂ’m really looking forward to that.
Just going to keep on chugging along.
-Dan
Nice to see this today. You're doing all the right things. It's a grind at first... A tooth and nail fight some days. Hang on brother! When it starts to get better it gets waaaay better. As much as possible, immerse yourself in this site. There's info and inspiration on every page. Even the colossal screw ups teach us something! Rock n roll, man...
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Welcome. You came to the right place. Listen to AJ. He is a real quitter.
I started listening to him 488 days ago...now Im quit like fuck
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Great decision. Do you have some numbers from other quitters yet? It may sound strange, but being able to text a fellow quitter can help offset a crave, or just plain help. PM me if you want my number, and enjoy this holiday weekend without nicotine.
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Day two:
I bought Bac Off Wintergreen Extra last night, Definitely helped with my ride into work. Also have been munching on some sun flower seeds.
Just in such a mixed emotion mood right now, IÂ’m angry, happy, mad, and sad all at the same time.
I know I will beat this. Luckily I stay busy at work so there is less time to sit and let my wheels turn. I think my daily cardio will help relieve a lot of the anxiety. IÂ’m really looking forward to that.
Just going to keep on chugging along.
-Dan
Nice to see this today. You're doing all the right things. It's a grind at first... A tooth and nail fight some days. Hang on brother! When it starts to get better it gets waaaay better. As much as possible, immerse yourself in this site. There's info and inspiration on every page. Even the colossal screw ups teach us something! Rock n roll, man...
You can/will beat this ODAAT. There is no other way as we are Nicotine addicts. You're an addict, I'm an addict.
It's all in our minds. So you gotta re-wire daily. We dipped for ourselves, we have to be Quit for Ourselves. There is no other way. For me it meant getting really crazy into this site...and it works. Today is day 1044 of posting roll every damn day my feet hit the floor. I dipped for 10950 days my feet hit the floor. My life is different now. It has meaning and I can feel/think/live better because of what I have done with the Tools and Brotherhood of KTC. I would probably be dead if I had not quit when I did. For me, my quit is a matter of life or death. I choose Life EDD with You and every other quitter who knows the truth.
Cheers. If I can, You can, We can/do this ODAAT and NAFAR.
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Thank you guys so much, Its nice to have people like you in my corner encouraging me !!
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Thank you guys so much, Its nice to have people like you in my corner encouraging me !!
hey quitter!
Day 5 for me, hang in there.
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Day 3 -
Had a long night... Had trouble sleeping.
Woke up early with my 16 month old son and played on the living room floor. It's been a great morning. Going to keep myself very busy today. I'm so happy that I am putting this crap behind me for good... It's the only thing I've ever lied to people about, hid from people, or been deceitful about... I was a closet chewer... Now I am a quitter 3 days strong.
I hope everyone is having a good day.
Have a great Easter!
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Your body is healing from years of poisoning, and I want you to embrace this SUCK, because you will never have to feel this bad again because you are now quit.
You gave yourself the best Easter gift ever, quit in a basket fulla fake grass!
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Day 3 -
Had a long night... Had trouble sleeping.
Woke up early with my 16 month old son and played on the living room floor. It's been a great morning. Going to keep myself very busy today. I'm so happy that I am putting this crap behind me for good... It's the only thing I've ever lied to people about, hid from people, or been deceitful about... I was a closet chewer... Now I am a quitter 3 days strong.
I hope everyone is having a good day.
Have a great Easter!
Good morning Dan, sleep will get back to normal, actually better than before. Beautiful family you have. I know you will defeat this ,you have every reason in the world to right there in your picture! Embrace the suck it's gonna suck a while! You a big boy, suck it up and get it done! Damn proud to be quit with you my friend! ODAAT! EDD!
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Welcome Dan! 52 days ago, I was where you are. I wanted to add to all the good advice in here by telling you to READ, READ, READ this site. Read the links, read the introductions, go back to a group quit page from three years ago and read. What you'll find are a ton of people very much like you who are or have been going through the same things you are going through. That alone got my through the tough times early on.
Once you get your first few days under your belt, post roll as a supporter in another group or in the next month's quit. Giving back and helping newbies makes your quit stronger and is the currency you use to pay for your time here.
Head's up....weekends suck at first...lots of free time and lots of triggers. Realize it, plan for it, share what you're feeling with your wife so she can see how she can help you, and EMBRACE THE SUCK till you don't have to anymore.
You have too much to live for to kill yourself slowly with the nic bitch. Give the nic bitch my favorite wave... 'Finger'
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Day 3 -
Had a long night... Had trouble sleeping.
Woke up early with my 16 month old son and played on the living room floor. It's been a great morning. Going to keep myself very busy today. I'm so happy that I am putting this crap behind me for good... It's the only thing I've ever lied to people about, hid from people, or been deceitful about... I was a closet chewer... Now I am a quitter 3 days strong.
I hope everyone is having a good day.
Have a great Easter!
Good morning Dan, sleep will get back to normal, actually better than before. Beautiful family you have. I know you will defeat this ,you have every reason in the world to right there in your picture! Embrace the suck it's gonna suck a while! You a big boy, suck it up and get it done! Damn proud to be quit with you my friend! ODAAT! EDD!
Hang in there Dan, my day 6, I slept through last night, good to have cuz I know it may be sketchy for sleeping, but more good things happen every day.
Quit ON!
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Welcome - so you did not use for a year and then caved with a few pouches ? if this is the case the physical withdrawl from nic will not be bad
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Hey guys, haven't had access to the website this past week, but I am still going strong. On day 9, haven't thought about it near as much as day 1-4, been reading a lot of scripture in the bible about addiction and temptation. Its helped a lot. I am still chewing gum like a wild man, and eating sun flower seeds, but I don't know what that will change....
Other than that I feel good, and I am happy. Excited to hit the gym today!!!
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Hey guys, haven't had access to the website this past week, but I am still going strong. On day 9, haven't thought about it near as much as day 1-4, been reading a lot of scripture in the bible about addiction and temptation. Its helped a lot. I am still chewing gum like a wild man, and eating sun flower seeds, but I don't know what that will change....
Other than that I feel good, and I am happy. Excited to hit the gym today!!!
Hang in there dan. Your faith and strength will definitely help! We're here for you my friend stay focused on the quit Odaat! EDD! Proud to be quit with you today my friend!
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Day 11, it's going great. It feels great to be honest with myself and my loved ones.
I feel like beating this crap is going to better my life in so many ways!!!
So thankful my son won't have to grow up seeing me put that nasty crap in my mouth!!!
Cheers to a good work week!
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Hey guys, haven't had access to the website this past week, but I am still going strong. On day 9, haven't thought about it near as much as day 1-4, been reading a lot of scripture in the bible about addiction and temptation. Its helped a lot. I am still chewing gum like a wild man, and eating sun flower seeds, but I don't know what that will change....
Other than that I feel good, and I am happy. Excited to hit the gym today!!!
Dude...I was reading your intro, loving every minute until I saw this post. Then I went over to the July group, pulled up the spreadsheet and saw your roll posting percentage.
36.36% N N/A DanGraham1114 4/2/15 12
Unacceptable and it's complete bullshit. Before you get all pissed off and start calling me an a-hole because here I sit on a computer calling out your lack of badassery, hear me out. I just said, that I was loving your intro until I got to this. Here's a guy who stopped using for a year, was a 2-can/day dipper, and admitted to caving because of life's pressures. You think I haven't read that story at least 100 times before? Well, I'll tell you this because I've seen it at least 100 times, if you don't post roll and build up accountability your fate will be the same as every other time you "tried" quitting. You'll fail. Posting roll is about making a promise. A promise to yourself. A promise to your quit group, and a promise to everyone here that you won't use nicotine for that day. Without that promise, without building accountability, you'll be walking down the same path you've walked before...and I know where that goes.
If you haven't had access to the website and missed roll, then you haven't been reading up on the website or learning what it takes. You need to become active. Shoot a few members of your quit group a PM and exchange phone numbers. Send a text to that person to post roll for you if you can't get online. Figure out how to post from your phone. DO WHATEVER IT TAKES TO POST ROLL AND PROMISE TO BE QUIT. You need to have an "at all costs" mentality. As of this post I am 488 days quit. My Days missed on roll ... ZERO (0). Get it?!
I don't want to see that roll post percent of yours drop any further. Don't do this for me...do this for you.
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Hey guys, haven't had access to the website this past week, but I am still going strong. On day 9, haven't thought about it near as much as day 1-4, been reading a lot of scripture in the bible about addiction and temptation. Its helped a lot. I am still chewing gum like a wild man, and eating sun flower seeds, but I don't know what that will change....
Other than that I feel good, and I am happy. Excited to hit the gym today!!!
Dude...I was reading your intro, loving every minute until I saw this post. Then I went over to the July group, pulled up the spreadsheet and saw your roll posting percentage.
36.36%NN/ADanGraham11144/2/1512
Unacceptable and it's complete bullshit. Before you get all pissed off and start calling me an a-hole because here I sit on a computer calling out your lack of badassery, hear me out. I just said, that I was loving your intro until I got to this. Here's a guy who stopped using for a year, was a 2-can/day dipper, and admitted to caving because of life's pressures. You think I haven't read that story at least 100 times before? Well, I'll tell you this because I've seen it at least 100 times, if you don't post roll and build up accountability your fate will be the same as every other time you "tried" quitting. You'll fail. Posting roll is about making a promise. A promise to yourself. A promise to your quit group, and a promise to everyone here that you won't use nicotine for that day. Without that promise, without building accountability, you'll be walking down the same path you've walked before...and I know where that goes.
If you haven't had access to the website and missed roll, then you haven't been reading up on the website or learning what it takes. You need to become active. Shoot a few members of your quit group a PM and exchange phone numbers. Send a text to that person to post roll for you if you can't get online. Figure out how to post from your phone. DO WHATEVER IT TAKES TO POST ROLL AND PROMISE TO BE QUIT. You need to have an "at all costs" mentality. As of this post I am 488 days quit. My Days missed on roll ... ZERO (0). Get it?!
I don't want to see that roll post percent of yours drop any further. Don't do this for me...do this for you.
Steakbomb..... More Like "RealityBomb"
I agree 100%
Build a network of accountability that is outside your family.
My list of KTC family members are here to be accountable for the rest of or lives. ODAAT.
This isn't just getting over a bad habit and suffering through the fog and suck of escaping withdrawals.
It is a daily battle of addiction for life.
We need daily Bread.
We need daily Quit.
Who do you have on your list and personal numbers on your phone?
I would suggest you have a minimum of 10.
Rawls 147 / 100% Roll....... 21 KTC family members on my phone.
I quit with you today.
PM If you need additional digits, and are in for life.
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Going good still.
Have access to site now and have been posting in roll call. I get what you are saying SteakB.
I shouldn't miss any, anymore.
Feeling good, haven't gotten headaches or anything. Still munching on sun flower seeds and gum like a wild man. I just wish I didn't feel like I had to be chewing on something at all times!!
Hope everyone is doing great and holding on. Appreciate your support.
Dan
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Things are going great!
Been doing a bible study with my life, have read a lot about lying.
Its really hit home how you can destroy things by lying or "hiding", its the same thing...
so glad that I am overcoming this crap and can move myself and my family past it !!!
feeling good today!! got my 3 mile run in and im ready for the weekend!!! B)B
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Things are going great!
Been doing a bible study with my life, have read a lot about lying.
Its really hit home how you can destroy things by lying or "hiding", its the same thing...
so glad that I am overcoming this crap and can move myself and my family past it !!!
feeling good today!! got my 3 mile run in and im ready for the weekend!!! B)B
Great job stay strong! It does get easier but it will also kick you in the sac when you least expect it! Some say think about your quit to much, I say no more than the dip when I was dipping. Just an addict trying to help another addict! Proud to be quit with you today my brother!
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Had a long weekend... Didn't cave or anything, but it was just a stressful past 2 days..
Excited to get in the gym this week... That always helps, my body feels fine, I've even mentally not wanted dip...
Addiction is strange...
Hope everyone is doing well, I think I have beat this crap... I'm confident in myself...
Dan
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You are on a high right now and you should be confident. Stay vigilant and stay here. You got this.
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You are on a high right now and you should be confident. Stay vigilant and stay here. You got this.
Stay strong man. You are doing great. But strap in...nicotine is sneaky. Went out hunting last weekend and all I could think of was a dip. Felt like day 1 all over again. Stay Strong and Stay Quit. praying for you.
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Well,
I rolled my car 3 1/2 times last Wednesday on I-285 at I 75 in Atlanta.
The car was demolished, yet I walked away with just whiplash...
Still amazed how God spared me any injury....
My wife spoiled me and bout me a $20,000 king ranch...
Dip has never been so far from my mind.
I am a happy man, so full of love and life!!
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Well,
I rolled my car 3 1/2 times last Wednesday on I-285 at I 75 in Atlanta.
The car was demolished, yet I walked away with just whiplash...
Still amazed how God spared me any injury....
My wife spoiled me and bout me a $20,000 king ranch...
Dip has never been so far from my mind.
I am a happy man, so full of love and life!!
That's incredible, Dan. It's such a relief that you were able to walk away from an accident like that. It looks like you were given another shot at life... Don't waste a day of it giving yourself cancer!
And way to go not using the accident as a pity-party excuse to dip, or to fall off the site.
Wake up.
Piss.
Post roll. EDD. ODAAT.
Robb