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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: TexasHeat on September 06, 2011, 11:44:00 PM
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Hello.
If you are reading this then you have heard the drowned out cry of your "inner-self" asking to just. stop.
To stop going up to the counter and saying, "...And a tin of ____."
To stop hanging your head out of the window and getting spit on the side of your car.
Staying up into the night to throw just one more in.
To stop hearing other people saying, "Dude, you dip a lot."
To stop the feeling of anxiety of not having those clean white pearls you once had.
To never see mold growing in your spitter's hidden and littered around your home.
To never have to check your gum's in the mirror for minutes on end.
To never be worried about that white "dipped-out" gum line.
To conquer the need to throw in a dip before everything you do.
To re-enlighten your ability to deal with stress.
To rediscover that feeling of being able to do anything you set your mind to.
I am writing this day by day log to not only show how many days I can make it without a dip. But to also show people who want to quit exactly what they will go through from Day 1 to Day 100 in detail.
A Brief Introduction to Me:
I am 22 years old. Threw in my first dip of peach skoal with my buddies outside of Wendy's when I was 16. I am a college baseball player, get great grades, enjoy's having fun and trying new things, am highly energetic, play multiple instruments, surf, snowboard, plays multiple sports just for fun, and am a slave to grizzly mint.
That squished inner-child in my head is sick and tired of those blue tins. I am absolutely fed up with my behavior and consider myself a complete b!t35 for not being able to do what I want. I am jealous of other guys who don't need to pack a bean and feel they have an edge over me. I am (expletive) tired of electing to not eat food and choosing to chew instead. I want a body that runs like a mint condition '69 Vette and a mind that can drive it.
Here is my first chapter of the TexasHeat's Tek to Quitting. I will write at the end of the day everything I experienced on a Physical, Mental, and Spiritual Level. Join Me.
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Glad to have you here, Texas Heat, smart smart decision. You're never too young to get mouth cancer, so quitting immediately is the only sane choice.
It's great that you're going to keep a nightly log of your quit experiences, should prove very interesting.
Just want to remind you, this site is about accountability to each other, which is why we post roll daily. It's our promise to every other quitter here that we absolutely will not use nicotine that day. We, and you, need that accountability.
So by all means keep that log, I am looking forward to reading your entries. And every day, without fail, post roll in the December 2011 Quit Group.
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The Decision.
It is 11:45 on September 6, 2011. I have tried quitting before and have failed. I am writing this right now with a lip in and am preparing my body for my quit. At this point in time, me writing this log is just a bunch of words with no meaning nor substance (except the one in my lip).
To prepare, tomorrow I am going to not throw in a chew until 2:00 pm. I usually will throw in a chew right after my morning cup of coffee. Sometime's I throw in a chew before my cup of coffee because let's get real here, the chew is actually what "wakes" me up and get's me prepped to "deal" with my day.
Mental Note: That is an awful way to start a day. You should never look at a day as something you have to "deal" with. When I wake up, I want to stretch, turn on Sportscenter, and get prepped to make that day my B!tc7.
My target goal is to lower my overall nicotine consumption to a controllable amount. This means adjusting my intake time periods and frequency. My Goal for tomorrow is to not throw in a chew before 2:00pm and after 8:00pm. Also, to only allow 3 maximum.
Philosophy:
I wake up at 5-6am and need to get adjusted to allowing my body to operate with lower than normal nicotine levels. I understand that small strong steps are better than unbalanced steps. It is important to learn how to wake up, adapt, and initiate my day without my dip "crutch." I must establish a firm dip-less foundation to my day in order for the next reduction steps can be implemented.
Spiritual Notes:
Everyone has a part of themselves they love. This part of you is the rich soil that allows your "inner self" to grow. The voice of addiction removes you from the once familiar ground where you planted your crops, and has hidden the fertile land through self-deceit. In order to find the place where your strong crops once grew, you must realize and unmask the years of deception you have created. This all starts by realizing the root of your self-deception.
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Welcome Decembro!
Oh God how I wish I had made the decision to quit when you did. Actually, my first and really only time, that I remember putting in any real effort into quitting up until now - was when I was 23. I was dating this incredible girl (who is now my amazing wife) and was in the fog from the 1st couple days without the nic bitch. I was so much in the fog, that I had a wreck, nothing real serious just a bad fender bender. I stopped at the next convenience store to buy a can just to get me through -- 18 years later I am through. Stay quit today, worry about tomorrow when you wake up.
Sorry, you posted while I was typing this. You 'aint quit. Look, dude, I slowed down, tapered off and pinched short more times than I can count. Only to start revving up the quantities as soon as the crap started hitting the fan. There is only one way (take it from 20 years of half assed trying) and that is to quit.... Just quit... only quit... NO F'in More!!!
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Smart decision for sure. I really think I am going to enjoy you nightly log as well
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in response to your 2nd post. Any plan that has you putting any dip in your lip leads to a FAIL. If I had $1 for each time I said I was going to quit over the last 28yrs I could take a cruise.
Don't get mad at us old farts we have just been down the road a long time and we know how many times people cave. Your young and sounds like like you have the world at your finger tips IF you just take your balls back from the Nic bitch.
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The Decision.
It is 11:45 on September 6, 2011. I have tried quitting before and have failed. I am writing this right now with a lip in and am preparing my body for my quit. At this point in time, me writing this log is just a bunch of words with no meaning nor substance (except the one in my lip).Â
To prepare, tomorrow I am going to not throw in a chew until 2:00 pm. I usually will throw in a chew right after my morning cup of coffee. Sometime's I throw in a chew before my cup of coffee because let's get real here, the chew is actually what "wakes" me up and get's me prepped to "deal" with my day.Â
Mental Note: That is an awful way to start a day. You should never look at a day as something you have to "deal" with. When I wake up, I want to stretch, turn on Sportscenter, and get prepped to make that day my B!tc7.
My target goal is to lower my overall nicotine consumption to a controllable amount. This means adjusting my intake time periods and frequency. My Goal for tomorrow is to not throw in a chew before 2:00pm and after 8:00pm. Also, to only allow 3 maximum.
Philosophy:
I wake up at 5-6am and need to get adjusted to allowing my body to operate with lower than normal nicotine levels. I understand that small strong steps are better than unbalanced steps. It is important to learn how to wake up, adapt, and initiate my day without my dip "crutch." I must establish a firm dip-less foundation to my day in order for the next reduction steps can be implemented. Â
Spiritual Notes:Â
Everyone has a part of themselves they love. This part of you is the rich soil that allows your "inner self" to grow. The voice of addiction removes you from the once familiar ground where you planted your crops, and has hidden the fertile land through self-deceit. In order to find the place where your strong crops once grew, you must realize and unmask the years of deception you have created. This all starts by realizing the root of your self-deception.
I've got a better idea. How about you throw all of your tobacco in the garbage right now and go post roll in December.
Do you really want to quit? Then quit. Right now. None of this "I need to ween myself off by only having three a day" junk. That's addict talk. And in case you were unaware, you are addicted to nicotine.
Cold turkey is the only way to go. Whoever said that you have to "ween off" nicotine knows nothing about nicotine cessation and probably never used/quit themselves. Three days without nicotine is all it takes to get the nicotine out of your system. Continuing to use is only prolonging the physical withdrawal that you will go through.
Embrace how crappy you will feel for these three days. Bask in the suck. Just make sure to remember these three days, and remember that as long as you stay quit, you will never have to go through these three days again!
So here's a PROVEN plan that works:
1.) Throw all of your tobacco in the garbage, down the toilet, whatever.
2.) Go post roll for today in December (Click on the salmon-colored Welcome Center link in the upper left hand corner of your screen to read how to do this).
3.) Keep your promise not to use nicotine for today.
4.) Do it again tomorrow.
Sound simple? You bet it is. But it works.
The ball's in your court.
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The Decision.
It is 11:45 on September 6, 2011. I have tried quitting before and have failed. I am writing this right now with a lip in and am preparing my body for my quit. At this point in time, me writing this log is just a bunch of words with no meaning nor substance (except the one in my lip).
To prepare, tomorrow I am going to not throw in a chew until 2:00 pm. I usually will throw in a chew right after my morning cup of coffee. Sometime's I throw in a chew before my cup of coffee because let's get real here, the chew is actually what "wakes" me up and get's me prepped to "deal" with my day.
Mental Note: That is an awful way to start a day. You should never look at a day as something you have to "deal" with. When I wake up, I want to stretch, turn on Sportscenter, and get prepped to make that day my B!tc7.
My target goal is to lower my overall nicotine consumption to a controllable amount. This means adjusting my intake time periods and frequency. My Goal for tomorrow is to not throw in a chew before 2:00pm and after 8:00pm. Also, to only allow 3 maximum.
Philosophy:
I wake up at 5-6am and need to get adjusted to allowing my body to operate with lower than normal nicotine levels. I understand that small strong steps are better than unbalanced steps. It is important to learn how to wake up, adapt, and initiate my day without my dip "crutch." I must establish a firm dip-less foundation to my day in order for the next reduction steps can be implemented.
Spiritual Notes:
Everyone has a part of themselves they love. This part of you is the rich soil that allows your "inner self" to grow. The voice of addiction removes you from the once familiar ground where you planted your crops, and has hidden the fertile land through self-deceit. In order to find the place where your strong crops once grew, you must realize and unmask the years of deception you have created. This all starts by realizing the root of your self-deception.
I am sorry Texasheat, but your quit won't work unless you go cold turkey. Every one of us has been through the taper-down to quit routine and it fails every time. You have to quit cold turkey. It is not as bad as you think, take it from a 20 year kodiak chewer who previously couldn't imagine enjoying life without chew. Don't think long term, just go one day at a time and in a short while you will find that life goes on much better (truly) without chwe.
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The Decision.
It is 11:45 on September 6, 2011. I have tried quitting before and have failed. I am writing this right now with a lip in and am preparing my body for my quit. At this point in time, me writing this log is just a bunch of words with no meaning nor substance (except the one in my lip).Â
To prepare, tomorrow I am going to not throw in a chew until 2:00 pm. I usually will throw in a chew right after my morning cup of coffee. Sometime's I throw in a chew before my cup of coffee because let's get real here, the chew is actually what "wakes" me up and get's me prepped to "deal" with my day.Â
Mental Note: That is an awful way to start a day. You should never look at a day as something you have to "deal" with. When I wake up, I want to stretch, turn on Sportscenter, and get prepped to make that day my B!tc7.
My target goal is to lower my overall nicotine consumption to a controllable amount. This means adjusting my intake time periods and frequency. My Goal for tomorrow is to not throw in a chew before 2:00pm and after 8:00pm. Also, to only allow 3 maximum.
Philosophy:
I wake up at 5-6am and need to get adjusted to allowing my body to operate with lower than normal nicotine levels. I understand that small strong steps are better than unbalanced steps. It is important to learn how to wake up, adapt, and initiate my day without my dip "crutch." I must establish a firm dip-less foundation to my day in order for the next reduction steps can be implemented. Â
Spiritual Notes:Â
Everyone has a part of themselves they love. This part of you is the rich soil that allows your "inner self" to grow. The voice of addiction removes you from the once familiar ground where you planted your crops, and has hidden the fertile land through self-deceit. In order to find the place where your strong crops once grew, you must realize and unmask the years of deception you have created. This all starts by realizing the root of your self-deception.
I've got a better idea. How about you throw all of your tobacco in the garbage right now and go post roll in December.
Do you really want to quit? Then quit. Right now. None of this "I need to ween myself off by only having three a day" junk. That's addict talk. And in case you were unaware, you are addicted to nicotine.
Cold turkey is the only way to go. Whoever said that you have to "ween off" nicotine knows nothing about nicotine cessation and probably never used/quit themselves. Three days without nicotine is all it takes to get the nicotine out of your system. Continuing to use is only prolonging the physical withdrawal that you will go through.
Embrace how crappy you will feel for these three days. Bask in the suck. Just make sure to remember these three days, and remember that as long as you stay quit, you will never have to go through these three days again!
So here's a PROVEN plan that works:
1.) Throw all of your tobacco in the garbage, down the toilet, whatever.
2.) Go post roll for today in December (Click on the salmon-colored Welcome Center link in the upper left hand corner of your screen to read how to do this).
3.) Keep your promise not to use nicotine for today.
4.) Do it again tomorrow.
Sound simple? You bet it is. But it works.
The ball's in your court.
Words of truth Texas, this is the only way to go! Been proven! Cold turkey and one day at a time!!
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Texas,
That whole second post is your addiction talking! You are trying to justify how you will hold on to the addiction a little longer. Man Up and throw that shit away. Then post roll and make your promise not to use. WE QUIT and that is all we do around here. We don't pray, we don't try, we don't hope, we don't rely on the inner self (whatever the hell that is)---WE QUIT!!!! That simply means we don't stick the cancerous turd in our mouth and we don't use nicotine in any form.
Are you ready to QUIT?--Then DO IT!
waiting for you to post roll.....
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Texas,
That whole second post is your addiction talking! You are trying to justify how you will hold on to the addiction a little longer. Man Up and throw that shit away. Then post roll and make your promise not to use. WE QUIT and that is all we do around here. We don't pray, we don't try, we don't hope, we don't rely on the inner self (whatever the hell that is)---WE QUIT!!!! That simply means we don't stick the cancerous turd in our mouth and we don't use nicotine in any form.
Are you ready to QUIT?--Then DO IT!
waiting for you to post roll.....
they all speak the truth TexasHeat. There is only one way to kick nic to the curb. COLD TURKEY!! You are probably thinking about how hard its gonna be to quit cold turkey on a baseball team full of dippers right. Well, I'm a college baseball coach and it's a challenge but I chew a lot of gum and seeds. But above all I can tell myself that unlike all those other guys on the field with a pinch that I ain't nics bitch! Post roll, drop that shit cold turkey and be accountable to your new team a day at a time! Good luck and scream if you need anything.
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Cold turkey is THE only way to go. I learned the hard way (as did everyone of us who stay quit).
That second post is pseudo-philosophical bullshit.
Quit now and for today only.
Toninght go to bed, get up and repeat.
Do everday for the rest of you life.
Doesn't get much easier than that.
Welcome to the quit.
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No need to get all philosophical about this process and there's no need to make another "inner self"-killing half-assed attempt via the no-dip-'till-2pm routine. You already know that won't work. Right? Be honest. You know it, and we know it.
Save your creative writing project for English101. Until you stop putting nicotine in your body I don't really care to read your insight or experience on being a half-assed quitter. With that approach I can tell you right now what the result will be, and more than likely, it's already occurred. You get up, have the coffee, get jonesin' for a dip, run down to the C-store and cave while telling yourself that you made it to 8am. And, hey, that was better than the 5am dip yesterday so that must be evidence of progress...BULLSHIT!
You have heard from several people who know about quitting and they have all said the same thing, "Cold Turkey" is the way to go.
Any other "method" is a temporary activity. We are not interested in your little anti-dip project.
We DO, however, want to help you quit.
Man up or not. Your choice.
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This is bullshit.
Look TexasHoot. You might be on the "journey" to find your true self but as long as you plan to ingest nicotine, you are consciously killing yourself. Suicide my friend. You're not quit. You haven't done anything yet.
When your nuts drop, let me know. I'll support you day and night. Otherwise, this is noise. No journey. No awakening. You're lying to yourself.
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Agreed. This is bullshit. I said I wanted to read about you QUITTING, not about REDUCING.
If you're not QUIT, shut the fuck up.
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The Decision.
It is 11:45 on September 6, 2011. I have tried quitting before and have failed. I am writing this right now with a lip in and am preparing my body for my quit. At this point in time, me writing this log is just a bunch of words with no meaning nor substance (except the one in my lip).Â
and your failing now before you evin start with your fatty in.
My target goal is to lower my overall nicotine consumption to a controllable amount. This means adjusting my intake time periods and frequency. My Goal for tomorrow is to not throw in a chew before 2:00pm and after 8:00pm. Also, to only allow 3 maximum.
so your really not wantin to quit. you just want to cut back. lemme tell ya creem puff. i wood go all day with 3 dips. dip number 1 - brekfist to lunch. dip number 2 - lunch to dinner. dip number 3 - dinner to bed time. so your 3 dip shit don't inpress me none at all.
look man dont waste these fine quiterers time feelin your self up. eether quit or find some other site to rite your bull shit on.
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Everyone has a part of themselves they love. This part of you is the rich soil that allows your "inner self" to grow. The voice of addiction removes you from the once familiar ground where you planted your crops, and has hidden the fertile land through self-deceit. In order to find the place where your strong crops once grew, you must realize and unmask the years of deception you have created. This all starts by realizing the root of your self-deception.
Somebody's been watching too much Oprah. This ain't rocket surgery, Texas. While you're searching your "inner self", take a look around in there for your balls. If you want a fulfilling and self-enriching journey to chronicle, then do this the KTC way - - cold turkey. That is a story that we would love to read. I don't think many will be interested in reading about the half-assed way you're going about it right now.
Toss out all the nic, rise and proclaim yourself quit, and go post roll with December. I quit with you!
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As someone who has been on the quit a shade over a week, I must say it's a little insulting for you to begin chronicling your quit before you've posted up (and with a fucking lipper in tapping away). I'm going through some fucked up shit right now and the bitch is out of my system. To echo the vets in here, shut the fuck up until you post roll. If you ever post roll, that is. I will be right along side you quit for quit, if you commit WHOLLY.
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Hey - right now you have a decision to make. You're probably on track for your "3 a day" BS, looking forward to 2pm, body already in mild withdrawls. Here's an idea: you are going to have almost a 12 hour jump on the 3 day withdrawl window, how 'bout you roll with it?
In other words: 1) you're full of crap until you flush it. No, I didn't say throw it in the trash can, flush it. 2) quit romanticizing your addiction. Everyone here reads right through your post to the TRUE author: your addiction. 3) ditto Soul below, holler when your nuts drop, we'll be quit with you, but until then, 4) you're funny, thinking you can BS a room full of BS'ers.
Denny
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Texasheat,
By now you have probably read all the ass kicking responses to your original post.....and you may be a little pissed at them for posting it. But let me tell you something......they are a group of guys that have some good insight into what you are going through and they are actually trying to help you!
I have to be honest here and let you know your original post had my interested.....then when I read post two about typing with a friggin lip in I wanted to punch my computer screen! You posted to a bunch of guys that are addicted to dip that you are enjoying a friggin fattie! What were you thinking man?!?!?!?
All I can tell you is that these guys will not bust your balls anymore once you post roll! Just post it and be honest that you flushed the cans and they.....and I....will congratulate you! We've all been through the "cut back" though process to quitting and know where you are at.......we are just calling you out on it becuase you need to hear it! There is no such thing as quitting with nic in your system at all.....even the gum or that patch! I know a guy who went from dipping to gum and now instead of a $30 a week addiction to skoal he has a $50 a week addiction to nicorette!!!!
Just quit! And post roll!
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Texasheat - Let me be clear. As in crystal clear. There is only one way to quit. One way and only one way. It is called.......... COLD TURKEY. That is right. If you really want to quit, then flush your shit now and post roll and quit one day at a time. If so, I will support you 100%. If not, then fuck you. You are wasting my time. Am I not clear? Let me expand. The notion of gradual cessation is how the Bitch lies to you. It does not work. Trust me. Before KTC, I tried this method numerous times only to FAIL. How so? OK, I had a rule that said no lip before 2PM, then only one an hour until bed. After a week, bump up an hour. Worked for two weeks. Then one fine morning, I received some very stressful bad news and lo and behold, threw in a lip. So much for my plan, which effectively ended that day. Again. NIC LIES. She tells you that cessation works because she knows, unlike you, that her claws are still in you. It soothes you to "quit" this way, because you put off the physical discomfort of nicotine cessation. Shit hits the fan? You'll be putting in a fat one before you can say WTF. So let me conclude. ONLY ONE WAY TO QUIT Amigo, and that is cold turkey.
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The Decision.
It is 1:58 on September 8, 2011. I have tried backing down my intake and I am failing. I am writing this right now with a lip in and am patting myself on the back for giving this the old college try. At this point in time, me writing this log is just a bunch of words with no meaning nor substance (except the one in my lip).Â
To prepare, I threw in a chew the moment I woke up. I usually throw in a chew right after my morning cup of coffee. Sometime's I throw in a chew before my cup of coffee because let's get real here, the chew is actually what "wakes" me up and get's me prepped to "deal" with my day.Â
Mental Note: That is an awful way to start a day. You should never look at a day as something you have to "deal" with. When I wake up, I want to stretch, turn on Sportscenter, and get prepped to make that day my B!tc7.
My target goal is to get those real quitters on the KTC to accept me for what I am: a weakass punk that isn't trying to quit. This means adjusting my intake time periods and frequency. My Goal for tomorrow is to not throw in a chew before 2:00pm and after 8:00pm. Also, to only allow 3 maximum. I will fail, but it's about trying, right?
Philosophy:
Blah blah blah Words blah. I love to chew. blah blah
Spiritual Notes:Â
Everyone has a part of themselves they love. This part of you is the rich soil that allows your "inner self" to grow. I love the cancer that I am fertilizing in my lip right now.
Fixed your post.
You ready to come aboard yet?
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Day Three of Quit.
I have been extremely busy with school, baseball, and work. Sorry I did not have a chance to post my Day 2. If I had posted my Day 2, I would not of caught the seemingly endless amount of flack falling from my original post.
When I made that first post, it was more like someone who had the realization they needed to have in order to make an honest effort in making their life better. Much like an addict going to an AA meeting, yet still being influenced by the drug.
At least I walked through the door declaring to not only myself, but all of you, that I indeed have quite the problem on my hands that must be fixed. I am sorry that I stressed many of you that are in the process of quitting, and I apologize for being disrespectful in that way.
I have not packed a lip since that post and am still going pretty strong. They say that day 3 is the most difficult but I would have to disagree. Sure, I want to throw in a lip on the train, in this library, in the bathroom...literally anywhere. But I am keeping my hitting streak alive and have tacked on a couple more hours.
For the person that said they wanted to punch the screen. I feel that your mentality is not what you need in order to be successful with your quit. It's just chew. It's literally just a plant material that your physical body has become reliant on in order to sustain its chemical homeostasis. Your "true mind and self" are not reliant on anything but yourself. It's just your body saying,"Yo, what's going on? I am not used to this." Therefore, you are going to be uncomfortable with anything that is going on. It's not the chew that's making you go through all that stress...it's you. It's your body literally putting words in your head making you believe that you are stressed because of the chew.
Day 3
I have learned to tell the difference between my true self and my physical self. My physical self is the voice in my head that says its time to go to the bathroom, eat food, I'm tired, time to wake up, time to throw in a chew. It's almost like that part of my inner-talk is like a reptile. It simply eats, goes to the bathroom, has sex, and sleeps, and lets you know when those things need to happen. Then there is my true self, the one that is the driver to the physical body.
This is the voice in my head that says this is right or wrong, what do I need to do today to be successful?, what makes me happy? This voice has told me hundreds of times that chew is bad and to stop. But I listen to my body instead because it becomes uncomfortable when it is in an unfamiliar place. The longer I go without a chew, the easier it becomes to just listen to my true self and let my inner light guide me.
When I do that, I actually forget about quitting. I forget about dip and all of that. It's because my true self becomes more powerful in simply telling my body,"I don't dip." Every minute I go, it becomes way easier to just act like it was never a part of my life. When I ignore my physical body/talk, I do things that truly make me happy. This activity I choose naturally releases dopamine and I become happy and reverse my addiction. I am still rewiring my dopamine circuits to fire without the use of nicotine as a dopamine antagonist.
I am trying to have a scientific lab rat approach to my quit, and I am the experiment. So far I am on Day 3 and feeling pretty good.
Noted Material.
You know when you freak out over having a chew? When I do, I start laughing and finding things hilarious. I can either get pissed about not having a chew, and go down that road, which sucks a bag of you know what. Or say, I don't dip (true self talk)...so what the hell can I do to make me happy right now. So far, it's consisted of telling retarded jokes to my girlfriend that I find hilarious. Or last night, I wanted to chew and watch the TV but didn't, and I thought it was SO FUNNY when CNN played a video of Mitt Romney giving this rally speech and in the back-round was the debt ceiling calculator just going into the trillions of dollars. Obvious attack to Obama.
Gotta go trains leaving.
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Day Three of Quit.
I have been extremely busy with school, baseball, and work. Sorry I did not have a chance to post my Day 2. If I had posted my Day 2, I would not of caught the seemingly endless amount of flack falling from my original post.
When I made that first post, it was more like someone who had the realization they needed to have in order to make an honest effort in making their life better. Much like an addict going to an AA meeting, yet still being influenced by the drug.
At least I walked through the door declaring to not only myself, but all of you, that I indeed have quite the problem on my hands that must be fixed. I am sorry that I stressed many of you that are in the process of quitting, and I apologize for being disrespectful in that way.
I have not packed a lip since that post and am still going pretty strong. They say that day 3 is the most difficult but I would have to disagree. Sure, I want to throw in a lip on the train, in this library, in the bathroom...literally anywhere. But I am keeping my hitting streak alive and have tacked on a couple more hours.
For the person that said they wanted to punch the screen. I feel that your mentality is not what you need in order to be successful with your quit. It's just chew. It's literally just a plant material that your physical body has become reliant on in order to sustain its chemical homeostasis. Your "true mind and self" are not reliant on anything but yourself. It's just your body saying,"Yo, what's going on? I am not used to this." Therefore, you are going to be uncomfortable with anything that is going on. It's not the chew that's making you go through all that stress...it's you. It's your body literally putting words in your head making you believe that you are stressed because of the chew.
Day 3
I have learned to tell the difference between my true self and my physical self. My physical self is the voice in my head that says its time to go to the bathroom, eat food, I'm tired, time to wake up, time to throw in a chew. It's almost like that part of my inner-talk is like a reptile. It simply eats, goes to the bathroom, has sex, and sleeps, and lets you know when those things need to happen. Then there is my true self, the one that is the driver to the physical body.
This is the voice in my head that says this is right or wrong, what do I need to do today to be successful?, what makes me happy? This voice has told me hundreds of times that chew is bad and to stop. But I listen to my body instead because it becomes uncomfortable when it is in an unfamiliar place. The longer I go without a chew, the easier it becomes to just listen to my true self and let my inner light guide me.
When I do that, I actually forget about quitting. I forget about dip and all of that. It's because my true self becomes more powerful in simply telling my body,"I don't dip." Every minute I go, it becomes way easier to just act like it was never a part of my life. When I ignore my physical body/talk, I do things that truly make me happy. This activity I choose naturally releases dopamine and I become happy and reverse my addiction. I am still rewiring my dopamine circuits to fire without the use of nicotine as a dopamine antagonist.
I am trying to have a scientific lab rat approach to my quit, and I am the experiment. So far I am on Day 3 and feeling pretty good.
Noted Material.
You know when you freak out over having a chew? When I do, I start laughing and finding things hilarious. I can either get pissed about not having a chew, and go down that road, which sucks a bag of you know what. Or say, I don't dip (true self talk)...so what the hell can I do to make me happy right now. So far, it's consisted of telling retarded jokes to my girlfriend that I find hilarious. Or last night, I wanted to chew and watch the TV but didn't, and I thought it was SO FUNNY when CNN played a video of Mitt Romney giving this rally speech and in the back-round was the debt ceiling calculator just going into the trillions of dollars. Obvious attack to Obama.
Gotta go trains leaving.
You are making it way more complicated than it has to be.
1) post roll everyday- I will not dip today
2)tomorrow repeat
3) chat with brothers and hold each other accountable
That is it, simply dont dip today
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It really sounds like you are on a journey TexasHoot. I see a lot of aspects of myself in your writing. The obstacles, the lessons learned, the genius penned in each sentence. You have me transfixed. I will admit my slight obsession with your introduction and look forward to more entries daily. There is one thing I would add to your process, which by all observations is clearly as close to perfection as can be obtained from such a wise young man, post fucking roll asshat. Otherwise, go dribble this inner rectal journey somewhere far more appropriate like the wall of the middle stall at the local greyhound station. Sweet baby jesus did you read anything in the 'Welcome Center'? Do you know how this place works? Come on kid. Don't let me down here. Show me that you actually aren't a special butterfly. Show me you actually have a backbone behind all this literary prowess. I need some refreshing passion. Heal me.
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It really sounds like you are on a journey TexasHoot. I see a lot of aspects of myself in your writing. The obstacles, the lessons learned, the genius penned in each sentence. You have me transfixed. I will admit my slight obsession with your introduction and look forward to more entries daily. There is one thing I would add to your process, which by all observations is clearly as close to perfection as can be obtained from such a wise young man, post fucking roll asshat. Otherwise, go dribble this inner rectal journey somewhere for more appropriate like the wall of the middle stall at the local greyhound station. Sweet baby jesus did you read anything in the 'Welcome Center'? Do you know how this place works? Come on kid. Don't let me down here. Show me that you actually aren't a special butterfly. Show me you actually have a backbone behind all this literary prowess. I need some refreshing passion. Heal me.
A FUCKING MEN!!!!!
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For the person that said they wanted to punch the screen. I feel that your mentality is not what you need in order to be successful with your quit. It's just chew. It's literally just a plant material that your physical body has become reliant on in order to sustain its chemical homeostasis. Your "true mind and self" are not reliant on anything but yourself.
I think you missed the point. He wanted to punch the screen because you were being a douchebag. Also, your frilly, elaborate wording isn't as important as the bottom line. Your fucking quit, today! If you treat this like a "lab rat" experiment, you will not succeed because you are not a fucking rat, you are a human.
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i smell epic fail.
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For the person that said they wanted to punch the screen. I feel that your mentality is not what you need in order to be successful with your quit. It's just chew. It's literally just a plant material that your physical body has become reliant on in order to sustain its chemical homeostasis. Your "true mind and self" are not reliant on anything but yourself.Â
I think you missed the point. He wanted to punch the screen because you were being a douchebag. Also, your frilly, elaborate wording isn't as important as the bottom line. Your fucking quit, today! If you treat this like a "lab rat" experiment, you will not succeed because you are not a fucking rat, you are a human.
You hit the nail on the fucking head with that one! I was the poster about punching the screen. I was not "stressed" because of the thought of dip. I was actually upset because you just were not getting it! Again I repeat myself.....why hell would you post to a bunch of guys addicted to nicotene that you had a fattie in while you were typing! I'm quit......and strong in my quit at that! I was not thinking of punchin the screen because I was wanting a dip......it was becaue I honestly thought you were that stupid and needed a wake up!!!!! 'bang head'
I honestly hope and support you in your quit! If you need to do the "lab rat" routine in your mind to stay quit go for it! But the bottom line is the basics.....post role and stay accountable!
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"I feel that your mentality is not what you need in order to be successful with your quit. It's just chew."
Sorry.......Had to reply one more time to your above quip. How the hell would you know if my mentality is strong enough!?!?!? Im on day 32 and you are under 5 days! We'll see who is on the 100 day list my friend. Also you state its just chew!!!!! Yeah.....as soon as you realize it is more than just chew you'll have a shot at staying quit! Its not just chew.....its an addiction to drug called nicotene........similar to an addiction to any other drug. The difference is nic is legal and does not impare your abillity to function as much as illegal drugs.......the addiction is still there though!!!! Good luck texas heat......keep reading on this site and I think you'll figure it out.
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Just had to check out of pure interest here.....hey he called me out and said he did not think I had the mental capacity to quit!
Yeah........no role from this guy and only 3 total posts......all BS. I think we all knew he was gonna be gone! Unless he has the stones to come back on here and post role again! Come on Texas Heat.........I honestly hope you can come back and prove me wrong!
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Just had to check out of pure interest here.....hey he called me out and said he did not think I had the mental capacity to quit!
Yeah........no role from this guy and only 3 total posts......all BS. I think we all knew he was gonna be gone! Unless he has the stones to come back on here and post role again! Come on Texas Heat.........I honestly hope you can come back and prove me wrong!
Trust me, the guy is finger banging the hell out of the can again and will not have to guts to come back.
Move on from this one and know that you are winning the battle today whacko.
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Just had to check out of pure interest here.....hey he called me out and said he did not think I had the mental capacity to quit!Â
Yeah........no role from this guy and only 3 total posts......all BS. I think we all knew he was gonna be gone! Unless he has the stones to come back on here and post role again! Come on Texas Heat.........I honestly hope you can come back and prove me wrong!
Trust me, the guy is finger banging the hell out of the can again and will not have to guts to come back.
Move on from this one and know that you are winning the battle today whacko.
But, he is finger banging it "less."
He is on the "controlled usage" plan. :rolleyes:
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His posts just seemed like arrogant drivel a POS would write.
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Just had to check out of pure interest here.....hey he called me out and said he did not think I had the mental capacity to quit!Â
Yeah........no role from this guy and only 3 total posts......all BS. I think we all knew he was gonna be gone! Unless he has the stones to come back on here and post role again! Come on Texas Heat.........I honestly hope you can come back and prove me wrong!
Trust me, the guy is finger banging the hell out of the can again and will not have to guts to come back.
Move on from this one and know that you are winning the battle today whacko.
But, he is finger banging it "less."
He is on the "controlled usage" plan. :rolleyes:
Thanks for chiming in on this one! I apologize for posting so much on it but I kind of took it personal when he told me I don't have the mental capacity to quit! Yeah....."its just chew" he says.........
But I honestly don't wish anyone any harm......I hope he comes back! For his sake!
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Just had to check out of pure interest here.....hey he called me out and said he did not think I had the mental capacity to quit!Â
Yeah........no role from this guy and only 3 total posts......all BS. I think we all knew he was gonna be gone! Unless he has the stones to come back on here and post role again! Come on Texas Heat.........I honestly hope you can come back and prove me wrong!
Trust me, the guy is finger banging the hell out of the can again and will not have to guts to come back.
Move on from this one and know that you are winning the battle today whacko.
But, he is finger banging it "less."
He is on the "controlled usage" plan. :rolleyes:
Thanks for chiming in on this one! I apologize for posting so much on it but I kind of took it personal when he told me I don't have the mental capacity to quit! Yeah....."its just chew" he says.........
But I honestly don't wish anyone any harm......I hope he comes back! For his sake!
only his physical self is stuffing his lip, his true self is in outer space preaching about how easy it is to quit.
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You can always tell a sincere story from a fantasizing attention seeker. Saw it coming from his first frilly little report.