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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: RobFulton1 on June 01, 2014, 09:52:00 PM
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I'm Rob, I'm 28, from Hamlin, WV. I've got way too much to live for to die for this stuff.
I've got a career I love (I'm a singer), a daughter who is my world (She's 3), and I'm in good health right now. So I'm quitting. Because after getting hooked on this stuff after my divorce, I'm tired of being a slave to it.
Anyone from close to me? I'm not far from Huntington, WV
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Check out the State Wide Roll Call (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/1008825/1/) and see who's in WV.
It's always the right time to quit. Congrats on realizing that. You have my number - use it in good times and bad.
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Day 2
So far? Kind of like Hell. Maybe a little better than yesterday but still pretty rough. I'm drinking a freaking ton of water, and I've worked out. That seems to help a little.
I keep wondering how long it will be until I stop feeling like I've been hit by a bus. But however long it is, this will be the only time I go through this. I'm not going back.
I'm probably going to try an herbal, non tobacco, non nicotine dip today, just to see if it will help the oral fixation of needing a dip in my lip. Trying anything I can to push through these first days. I will NOT fail!
Thanks for all the PMs and such you guys. It helps.
Proud to be quit with you all.
Sept 2014 - We've got this, Sultans. Day at a time.
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Day 2
So far? Kind of like Hell. Maybe a little better than yesterday but still pretty rough. I'm drinking a freaking ton of water, and I've worked out. That seems to help a little.
I keep wondering how long it will be until I stop feeling like I've been hit by a bus. But however long it is, this will be the only time I go through this. I'm not going back.
I'm probably going to try an herbal, non tobacco, non nicotine dip today, just to see if it will help the oral fixation of needing a dip in my lip. Trying anything I can to push through these first days. I will NOT fail!
Thanks for all the PMs and such you guys. It helps.
Proud to be quit with you all.
Sept 2014 - We've got this, Sultans. Day at a time.
Hey you're doing great! one of sayings around here it that "it will suck until it doesn't, then it wont." The blessing is that you won't have to go through it again, as you observe. I recommend keeping a log of your quit here- in part to help you remember what you never want to go through again (the mind forgets the bad things over time, naturally), and also because it lets people know how you are doing and gets you more support and accountability. PM me if you need another number, and otherwise quit on, quit hard!
A good guy from my class, Punkin, is from WV. Look him up and pm him.
Here'a an article that helped me learn a lot about the addiction we all fight.....Nicotine Addiction 101 (http://whyquit.com/whyquit/linksaaddiction.html)
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Keep pounding the water, and keep yourself busy. It will suck til it doesn't suck and that is about the best I can give you. You will have great moments followed by crappy ones. Days just the same as moments. I'm just curious Rob, you ever thought about where the money goes after you lay it down on the counter to buy a can??? Let's call it 5 bucks (I know it is usually a little more). Think about how many different ways that $5 is split after it leaves your hand. Think of all the people and institutions that get a piece of your hard earned money. After that, think about what they do with your money and what they spend it on and how they waste it. Then after you have really thought about it, let your mind imagine what you got in return. A can of poison, your own death sealed up tight and made to smell like rat cum. but not anymore, because you and I are quit. I quit with ya bro.
Mogul
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Good stuff already in this thread bro.
Stick around and make a difference... for you, others in your quit group, and those to follow.
The concept here is easy... don't put that poison in your body anymore.
The execution can be a bitch but that's why we're here for you... a needed distraction or reminder.
I used for 25 years and quit cold turkey last April... if I can do this, you can do this. You need another quitter in your corner... just holler and my number is yours.
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Hey Rob,
Sunflower seeds , atomic fireballs, fake dip, bubble gum.....they all work to keep your mouth busy while you adjust to life w/o dip.
Personally, I got hooked on Wild Bill's Hickory smoked Beef Jerky......damn stuff cost more $$ than the tobacco did...but hey, got me through the dark days.
Congrats on day 2 - making it through the first 24 hours w/o nicotine is a hell of an accomplishment - be proud!
Oh, and what the hell, you are from WV........really?
Well.....I won't hold it against you.....but screw the Mountaineers.....hail Pitt. :D
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Hey everybody,
Just a quick update to say this day is getting a little better I think. I've got a little less of a headache now, maybe, anyway. I'm still in "The Fog", I imagine that will hang around for a few more days. I've been pounding the crap out of my water glass - 6 or 7 glasses already today, along with coffee. lol.
I really didn't expect that my whole body would basically hurt. That's pretty much what it's doing. I feel sore all over. I was in a car wreck a few years ago, and damned if it didn't feel about like this. Rough.
Still pushing on, still no stumbles yet :) I did find some Smokey Mountain fake dip earlier today. It's not bad. Floats a little more in my mouth that I would like, but it helps kill the "I've gotta have something in my mouth" thing. Also been chewing a lot of gum, sucking on peppermints, anything and everything I can do.
Any recommendations for fake dips or things that helped you guys?
Thanks again for the encouragement! Still glad to be quit with you all.
--Rob
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From what I've perused over the past few threads, mad props to you brother for jumping into the quit head first. You got some legends of quit on your thread already who have lent support (though not a legend, consider me another). When that fog lifts you'll be amazed at what you see in the mirror. The addict, through the eyes of a quitter. Our behavior as addicts can be downright pathetic, but our actions as quitters is what defines us now. Keep posting, keep reading, stay active, and QLF EDD.
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So Day 2 is in the books. Rough one. The Fog is still here. Maybe lifting a little. My headache seems to be getting worse. I'm just thinking that if getting off of it makes me feel this terrible, imagine how bad it was for me to be putting that IN my system all the time. This sucks, and frankly it hurts. But I'm not going back. I'll go through this once, and only once.
Still draining that water glass all the time. Any suggestions of stuff that helped you guys get through? I've got some fake dip, a ton of gum, need some sunflower seeds too ( love those things anyway).
Thanks for the support, guys. We've got this.
QLF, Every Damn Day.
TMTLF
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Power through it. There's no super secret feel good. What you're doing is it. Pound the water, every time you walk by the pisser you should have to use it. If not, you need to drink more water.
Try to get some sleep, eat good. Stay strong. Use your intro like a journal in good and bad times like your doing. Really helps to get stuff out. Text your quit brothers. Use live chat. Most importantly, caving is not an option!
Keep it up brother! You're doing it!
I'll stay quit with you today. PM me if you need a number.
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Glad to have you with us. Put your head down and push through; it's so worth it. This forum and the people on it are only as helpful as you allow them to be.
Post roll every day and reach out to people. Make connections to form an accountability network. If you need another person/number, shoot me a PM.
Proud to be quit with you.
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Proud to quit with you all too.
Day 3, and the fog is starting to lift. Still feel funky, but it's getting better. Still hitting the water hard, still fighting cravings. But just because I crave does NOT mean I CAVE :) It won't happen.
I'm pushing through it.
TMTLF to cave now.
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Proud to quit with you all too.
Day 3, and the fog is starting to lift. Still feel funky, but it's getting better. Still hitting the water hard, still fighting cravings. But just because I crave does NOT mean I CAVE :) It won't happen.
I'm pushing through it.
TMTLF to cave now.
Proud to be quit with you today Rob. Day 3 is starting better than day 2 did, and day 4 should be better after that. TMTLF with you today bro.
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Day 3, and getting easier. The edges of the fog are still lingering, but it's getting better.
I've started working out more since I quit. It was initially just to keep my mind off of things, but I'm going to try to keep that up too. Get healthy by cutting out the nic, and then get healthier by working out and putting good stuff in me.
Using the fake dip a little bit, but only once today. In the car because I was driving - that was an "Always dip" sort of place. So it helped to have something I could put there without getting the nic. I was glad for that.
Proud to be quitting with you all. Thanks for the support so far!
QLF EDD!
We've got TMTLF to cave. We've got this.
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Day 3, and getting easier. The edges of the fog are still lingering, but it's getting better.
I've started working out more since I quit. It was initially just to keep my mind off of things, but I'm going to try to keep that up too. Get healthy by cutting out the nic, and then get healthier by working out and putting good stuff in me.
Using the fake dip a little bit, but only once today. In the car because I was driving - that was an "Always dip" sort of place. So it helped to have something I could put there without getting the nic. I was glad for that.
Proud to be quitting with you all. Thanks for the support so far!
QLF EDD!
We've got TMTLF to cave. We've got this.
Great job! Your blood should nearly be poison free. The triggers, like driving, can remain for a few hundred days, so you're just going to have to keep killing them one at a time. Remember that a crave, is a crave, is a crave. If you can kill one you can kill the next one. Use each crave that you kill as ammo to conquer the next one.
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Day 3, and getting easier. The edges of the fog are still lingering, but it's getting better.
I've started working out more since I quit. It was initially just to keep my mind off of things, but I'm going to try to keep that up too. Get healthy by cutting out the nic, and then get healthier by working out and putting good stuff in me.
Using the fake dip a little bit, but only once today. In the car because I was driving - that was an "Always dip" sort of place. So it helped to have something I could put there without getting the nic. I was glad for that.
Proud to be quitting with you all. Thanks for the support so far!
QLF EDD!
We've got TMTLF to cave. We've got this.
Great job! Your blood should nearly be poison free. The triggers, like driving, can remain for a few hundred days, so you're just going to have to keep killing them one at a time. Remember that a crave, is a crave, is a crave. If you can kill one you can kill the next one. Use each crave that you kill as ammo to conquer the next one.
That's some really good quit gospel there. If you can make it through one crave you make it through them all.
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Day 4 :)
The fog feels like it has lifted pretty much. Still have the mental cravings - I get the feeling those will stick around for a while. I'm chewing a piece of gum right now.
Did the first "Couch to 5K" workout last night. Something about taking that craving you feel and then choosing to go pound the pavement for a while. Gave me some focus. That first workout put some stuff into perspective too. after your warm up, you run for 60 seconds and walk for 90 seconds. I'm not a runner. But when I would get part way through the minute of running, and it would all start to hurt, and I would want to stop, I'd tell myself "You've pushed through 3 days of the Fog. You can push through a few more seconds of this." And I was able to. :)
I know it's not going to be easy, any of it. But I'm trying to divert my energy to something positive that I used to use for shoving that stuff in my mouth.
Been texting a few brothers from here, posting roll, and trying to stay engaged. I'm telling you, that accountability and brotherhood here, that works. It's SUCH a big help to know there are tons of other people doing this at the same time (3 or 4 others in my group who quit on exactly the same day, and quite a few others who are only one or two days off of me), and that there are lots of others who have been there who are willing to reach out and send a text and check on ya. This stuff is working, brothers.
Like I say every time, I've got TMTLF. Talked to my little girl on the phone last night - huge reminder that I've got WAY too much.
Continually QLF. Every Damn Day.
I quit with you all today.
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I quit with you today Rob. You made it to Day 4, and it will progressively get better in terms of cravings and fog. Keeping posting those +1's brother!
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I quit with you today Rob. You made it to Day 4, and it will progressively get better in terms of cravings and fog. Keeping posting those +1's brother!
That was a great post Rob. Getting rid of this bitch that had us by the throats for so long opens up our minds and hearts for improvements in other areas. Its a beautiful thing, this quitting! You got this. ODAAT Brother! It continues to get so much better.
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Rob, Not only am I quitting with you today, I just finished the first exercise on couch to 5k. I'm going to be a hurting unit tomorrow, but I won't be thinking about dip that's for sure.
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Rob, Not only am I quitting with you today, I just finished the first exercise on couch to 5k. I'm going to be a hurting unit tomorrow, but I won't be thinking about dip that's for sure.
It gets better...... Something I heard a lot in my early quit from veterans. They were right!!! Just keep adding to your quit 1 day at a time and amazing things will happen !!! Your healing has just begun
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String is right. Keep adding the plus ones. At first they pass slowly then all of a sudden you are wondering where the time went. Keep winning, there is no going back. You must win every battle but it gets easier and easier. Also, remember that the bitch comes in all shapes and forms. Right now she is brow beating you for ignoring her. Before long she will want to celebrate with you. Be careful, she is tricky
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Day 4 has been so much easier than the last 3. I'm grateful for that.
Spitstickler, you're right, I'm a little sore today too. But its a good sore. Not a "withdraw, and everything hurts" sore. :) Glad I could maybe be a little inspiration. It works for me. Today wasn't a run day, so I hit the exercise bike earlier for 30 mins. I'm pleasantly surprised at my focus on this stuff after the last few days.
I appreciate all the kind words and words of wisdom. Helps keep me going.
Proud to quit with all of you guys today.
TMTLF!
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Day 4 has been so much easier than the last 3. I'm grateful for that.
Spitstickler, you're right, I'm a little sore today too. But its a good sore. Not a "withdraw, and everything hurts" sore. :) Glad I could maybe be a little inspiration. It works for me. Today wasn't a run day, so I hit the exercise bike earlier for 30 mins. I'm pleasantly surprised at my focus on this stuff after the last few days.
I appreciate all the kind words and words of wisdom. Helps keep me going.
Proud to quit with all of you guys today.
TMTLF!
Quit on man! Everyday is another notch in your belt, and trust me take this thing one day at a time. 100 days is way too daunting. All you have to do today, is quit today. PM for support if you need it.
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No joke, bro. I wake up and quit every morning. I worry about this day. The future will get here when it does, a day at a time. So I worry about my present quit a day at a time. I'm keeping candy and gum close at hand, and have sort of stashed it in places where I used to stash dip - that way if I'm craving, I've got something to do to keep me from caving.
We've got this, bros. Day 5 for me now!
TMTLF!
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Coming into Day 6 - today (day 5) was pretty good, with a couple if rough moments - long drives. It's been so long since I made a long drive without a dip. I sort of have a headache now, partially because I don't think my brain knows how to handle a long trip like that with no nic.
Other than that, it was a good day. Just had a tough moment, but didn't lose control thankfully. :)
Day 6 ahead! TMTLF guys - just take a look around. Way too much :)
Rob
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Been a busy few days! I went back on the road with my job, which was always a "dip" time. I carried a can of Smokey Mountain and managed to get through without failing :) thanks for the texts and checking in.
I got home last night, and went for another run this morning. It's the second week of "Couch to 5K" for me (haven't missed a run yet! Which is like a miracle for me), so the running chunks got longer - running for 90 seconds instead of 60, walking for 2 minutes instead of 90 seconds - but it didn't feel as tough starting out this week as it did last week.
Exercise really helps with the cravings - Couch to 5K is something easy to start with. Give it a shot.
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A couple of us have been in a text group with Doan. We've been talking here in the last few minutes. He says he might not have access to a PC tonight, but will try to reply when he can.
Just passing the word along..
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That last one should have gone in my quit group. Lol. Sorry about that.
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Day 9
I've spent a good portion of this day chasing my 3 year old around the house :) First time I've had her (she lives with her mama, we're divorced) since I've quit.
I cannot express to you guys how awesome it feels to not have to be stopping and hiding outside for a few minutes every couple of hours, leaving her at the tv so I can go dip. To not be doing that is absolutely incredible :)
THAT is what I mean when I say "TMTLF" - one of many things :)
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Wow, MAJOR bad craving after lunch today. Day 10, and it's worse than the rest for some reason. I'm chewing gum and it's helping. It's not a "911" exactly, I'm not caving. But wow, haven't had a craving like this since about day 2.
This happen to anyone else?
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Wow, MAJOR bad craving after lunch today. Day 10, and it's worse than the rest for some reason. I'm chewing gum and it's helping. It's not a "911" exactly, I'm not caving. But wow, haven't had a craving like this since about day 2.
This happen to anyone else?
Yes, I still have an occasional crave at day 68. You did the right thing and came here. You had a plan! Did you text the folks in your text circle? That helps. Stay strong, craves only last 3 minutes.
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Wow, MAJOR bad craving after lunch today. Day 10, and it's worse than the rest for some reason. I'm chewing gum and it's helping. It's not a "911" exactly, I'm not caving. But wow, haven't had a craving like this since about day 2.
This happen to anyone else?
Yes, I still have an occasional crave at day 68. You did the right thing and came here. You had a plan! Did you text the folks in your text circle? That helps. Stay strong, craves only last 3 minutes.
Yeah man, I've got 2 circles, and I texted them both. And I put the hammer on that gum. LOL
Got through it. No caving!
Double Digits today. 10% of the way to the Hall of Fame. 1% of the way to The Comma.
Never going back.
TMTLF.
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Wow, MAJOR bad craving after lunch today. Day 10, and it's worse than the rest for some reason. I'm chewing gum and it's helping. It's not a "911" exactly, I'm not caving. But wow, haven't had a craving like this since about day 2.
This happen to anyone else?
Yes, I still have an occasional crave at day 68. You did the right thing and came here. You had a plan! Did you text the folks in your text circle? That helps. Stay strong, craves only last 3 minutes.
Yeah man, I've got 2 circles, and I texted them both. And I put the hammer on that gum. LOL
Got through it. No caving!
Double Digits today. 10% of the way to the Hall of Fame. 1% of the way to The Comma.
Never going back.
TMTLF.
You just won a battle brother. That's how you do it. Keep it one day at a time. Enjoy each new day of freedom.
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Wow, MAJOR bad craving after lunch today. Day 10, and it's worse than the rest for some reason. I'm chewing gum and it's helping. It's not a "911" exactly, I'm not caving. But wow, haven't had a craving like this since about day 2.
This happen to anyone else?
Yes, I still have an occasional crave at day 68. You did the right thing and came here. You had a plan! Did you text the folks in your text circle? That helps. Stay strong, craves only last 3 minutes.
Yeah man, I've got 2 circles, and I texted them both. And I put the hammer on that gum. LOL
Got through it. No caving!
Double Digits today. 10% of the way to the Hall of Fame. 1% of the way to The Comma.
Never going back.
TMTLF.
You just won a battle brother. That's how you do it. Keep it one day at a time. Enjoy each new day of freedom.
Beating craves into the pavement stops being work over time and instead becomes winning. Everything becomes a win. After years of losing, one day at a time you are winning over and over and over.
Nice job.
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Wow, MAJOR bad craving after lunch today. Day 10, and it's worse than the rest for some reason. I'm chewing gum and it's helping. It's not a "911" exactly, I'm not caving. But wow, haven't had a craving like this since about day 2.
This happen to anyone else?
Yes, I still have an occasional crave at day 68. You did the right thing and came here. You had a plan! Did you text the folks in your text circle? That helps. Stay strong, craves only last 3 minutes.
Yeah man, I've got 2 circles, and I texted them both. And I put the hammer on that gum. LOL
Got through it. No caving!
Double Digits today. 10% of the way to the Hall of Fame. 1% of the way to The Comma.
Never going back.
TMTLF.
You just won a battle brother. That's how you do it. Keep it one day at a time. Enjoy each new day of freedom.
Beating craves into the pavement stops being work over time and instead becomes winning. Everything becomes a win. After years of losing, one day at a time you are winning over and over and over.
Nice job.
10 days quit! Well done.
Your post brought me back 343 days to my day 10.... I got a call from my wife that sent me into a major crave. You know the call... everything is going wrong at home and you need to fix it now. Hearing her speak into the phone brought on this huge rush of emotion... My want dip meter was pegged! I had to hang up the phone. Only having 10 days under my belt I quickly got my bearings and ran to the KTC website for help. I was able to work thru it with my will and determination and the help of my brothers and sisters here at KTC.
You will have craves. You are better than these craves and you can beat them back. Use your tools, use the site and keep your word. Today was a big victory my brother. Take it from me. I was in your shoes... at day 10... major crave.... today I sit at 353 days quit. I am not special. I am a quitter just like you. You can do this. Quit with you all day long.
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Day 11, And the cravings are still here, but not as strong as yesterday. They come and go. It's sunflower seeds for me today - which thankfully I've always liked anyway. But I think having something to spit helps.
Had 3 days with my little girl (she's 3) without having to go out back and dip. I know I said this already the other day, but I can't tell you how great that feels.
We've had a few cavers in Sept14 so far. I started out being mad, but now I'm just kind of bummed for them. If I can do this, they can do this. They get weak and nervous or aren't committed, and they cave. They fall off. And I hate it. It weakens the group, but I hate it most for them. This poison-free freedom I have now, I wouldn't trade. Yes, some days suck, but I'm so much better for it. We all are.
Just some thoughts while I had a sec. lol. My 2 cents are whatever they're worth.
Grateful for you guys who read here and post along with me. Proud to be quit with you all today.
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They get weak and nervous or aren't committed, and they cave. They fall off. And I hate it. It weakens the group...
Nope. Not even...
They were weak already... Their weakness has nothing to do with you or your group.
Not. One. Thing.
You're stronger for their cave... It's your look at what you do NOT want to be anymore. Your resolve is stronger because of it.
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They get weak and nervous or aren't committed, and they cave. They fall off. And I hate it. It weakens the group...
Nope. Not even...
They were weak already... Their weakness has nothing to do with you or your group.
Not. One. Thing.
You're stronger for their cave... It's your look at what you do NOT want to be anymore. Your resolve is stronger because of it.
That's a good call, AJ.
I still hate it for them, though. I'm telling ya, can't put a price on the freedom. I'd rather struggle with cravings the rest of my life than to go back.
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They get weak and nervous or aren't committed, and they cave. They fall off. And I hate it. It weakens the group...
Nope. Not even...
They were weak already... Their weakness has nothing to do with you or your group.
Not. One. Thing.
You're stronger for their cave... It's your look at what you do NOT want to be anymore. Your resolve is stronger because of it.
That's a good call, AJ.
I still hate it for them, though. I'm telling ya, can't put a price on the freedom. I'd rather struggle with cravings the rest of my life than to go back.
Freedom is my favorite word.
As the day roll by, you'll understand it better and better.
Rock on man...
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Day 13
Cravings have been much less the last few days. I'm glad for that. I know they come and go, but I'm grateful that they're a little less right now.
Finished the second week of Couch to 5k this morning - 2.5 miles in a little over 34 minutes, all together. It's getting easier. I seriously feel great.
It's a good day to be quit! So is everyday.
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RF1,
Awesome journal you got going there....may have to start doing that myself. Am proud to be in your quit group....
Noticed earlier you asked:
Any recommendations for fake dips or things that helped you guys?
I use Bacc-Off straight when I HAVE to have something in the lip. Closest thing to Copenhagen I've tried...doesn't get all muddy and packs pretty good. Saying that, I was a can a day....been quit for 3 days now and only used one can of Bacc-off....I don't know if that's good or bad....
Keep strong....guys like me are taking cues from you!
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RF1,
Awesome journal you got going there....may have to start doing that myself. Am proud to be in your quit group....
Noticed earlier you asked:
Any recommendations for fake dips or things that helped you guys?
I use Bacc-Off straight when I HAVE to have something in the lip. Closest thing to Copenhagen I've tried...doesn't get all muddy and packs pretty good. Saying that, I was a can a day....been quit for 3 days now and only used one can of Bacc-off....I don't know if that's good or bad....
Keep strong....guys like me are taking cues from you!
I've used Hooch a lot, started using it around the 14 day mark. Heard a lot of guys like smokey mountain too. SM is too long for my tastes, but this next batch I'm gonna blend and see how that does.
Keep plugging along bro, you're about to start having more good days than bad. It is totally worth staying quit, so don't let the NB talk you into any compromise.
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Day 15
Wanted to reach for it bad today. Got into an argument with my ex-wife. Felt that stress well up inside. Wanted a dip. BAD.
But it wouldn't have helped anything at all. I'm currently mowing through sunflower seeds and spitting them like there's no tomorrow. I'm on here reading and posting. But I'm not dipping. NB be damned, she won't win. Today or ever.
Run day again tomorrow. Concert to do tonight yet. Pounding the stress and the crave into the ground cannot come soon enough.
Still QLF. This is one of those days where I find myself saying "F" a lot. Ugh.
I'll get through this. Reading the forums and the HOFs. Some bad ass quitters giving me inspiration.
Every Damn Day. Because there's TMTLF
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Day 15
Wanted to reach for it bad today. Got into an argument with my ex-wife. Felt that stress well up inside. Wanted a dip. BAD.
But it wouldn't have helped anything at all. I'm currently mowing through sunflower seeds and spitting them like there's no tomorrow. I'm on here reading and posting. But I'm not dipping. NB be damned, she won't win. Today or ever.
Run day again tomorrow. Concert to do tonight yet. Pounding the stress and the crave into the ground cannot come soon enough.
Still QLF. This is one of those days where I find myself saying "F" a lot. Ugh.
I'll get through this. Reading the forums and the HOFs. Some bad ass quitters giving me inspiration.
Every Damn Day. Because there's TMTLF
You're winning. Keep it up. Keep your foot on the nic bitch's throat.
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Day 15
Wanted to reach for it bad today. Got into an argument with my ex-wife. Felt that stress well up inside. Wanted a dip. BAD.
But it wouldn't have helped anything at all. I'm currently mowing through sunflower seeds and spitting them like there's no tomorrow. I'm on here reading and posting. But I'm not dipping. NB be damned, she won't win. Today or ever.
Run day again tomorrow. Concert to do tonight yet. Pounding the stress and the crave into the ground cannot come soon enough.
Still QLF. This is one of those days where I find myself saying "F" a lot. Ugh.
I'll get through this. Reading the forums and the HOFs. Some bad ass quitters giving me inspiration.
Every Damn Day. Because there's TMTLF
You're winning. Keep it up. Keep your foot on the nic bitch's throat.
Early in my quit i remember looking at my wife and telling her i didn't know if i could make it. After a few words of inspiration on this forum and a tear i pulled through.
When it gets tough you do whatever it takes. If putting a few words down on your intro helps do it. If you got to drop a tear do it. Eventually your brain will agree with your heart and you'll be knocking down days like there's no tomorrow.
It sounds like you have determination and drive in the bag. Now your working on time. It's a good thing we only do this one day at a time.
Stick with the plan my friend it's all going to come together. Settle in, keep your head pointed toward the door. There is nothing back there for you. Your worth it.