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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: DizzyDude on September 14, 2010, 02:02:00 PM
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When I first logged into this site as a guest on September 1, 2010, I was making my plan for the quit and had decided that my Quit Day would be September 14, 2010. I jumped into the Chat room and started asking a few questions. There were a couple Quitters in there that seemed to get excited about playing with the newbie and making sure I was serious about my claims of quiting. They asked me one of the most important questions of my quit.
"Dizz, I hear that you want to quit in a couple weeks, but what is wrong with NOW!!!" Naturally I gave some BullShit answer that didn't make sense to anyone so it turned more into a command. "Man up and quit NOW Dizz. Flush your can down the toilet and fuckin' post roll. What does 9-14 have that NOW doesn't?"
I did spit out the carcinogen filled turd I had in my lip, gave some lame ass excuse about needing to ween off my 3 can a week addiction before I did the Cold Turkey thing and then signed off before they could comment.
This whole question of NOW kept playing past me all night and I found by noon on the 2nd, I still hadn't had a dip. The fog was rolling in and the anxiety was at a fevor pitch, but in an amazing moment of clarity, I realized I could not properly tell anyone what is wrong with Quitting right NOW and what 2 weeks would do for me is just give me the opportunity to fuck up and let a quit day pass. So I went with the NOW.
So today, on my originally planned quite day, I posted roll at 13 days quit. I have #1 Crabbr to thank for kicking my ass and teaching me about the power of NOW. I have been through the fog cussing and fighting the nic bitch the whole way. I am 100% committed to this quit and know that anything short of no nic will not be tolorated by me, my family, or KTC. That makes it not an option so I never even have to ask myself if it would be worth it. That question is not valid in my mind set.
So my first lesson from KTC is all about the power of NOW.
You will never quit tomorrow for tomorrow never comes. A line in the sand is easily erased with the next rising tide. You will not be quit until you hit that NOW moment. When the carcinogen filled shit in your face is ejected for the last time and all your cans are disposed of in such a way you cannot get them back. Make that NOW commitment to your self and then go post roll, making that promise to your quit Brothers and Sisters that YOU ARE QUIT NOW.
By the way, my story began in high school when I bought my first can. That was 33 years ago. I had a 2 year quit 18 years ago but listened to the NIC Bitch when she told me that I was no longer addicted and just one with my cousin on a Pheasant hunt would be fitting. That was 16 years ago and have lived with shit in my face almost 100% of my waking hours since then.
I got tired of the spit cans all over the place and took to guttin' it for the last 10 years or so which really made it a lot easier to hide. My Wife pointed me to this site on 9/1/2010 and the rest is recorded in my postings since then.
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When I first logged into this site as a guest on September 1, 2010, I was making my plan for the quit and had decided that my Quit Day would be September 14, 2010. I jumped into the Chat room and started asking a few questions. There were a couple Quitters in there that seemed to get excited about playing with the newbie and making sure I was serious about my claims of quiting. They asked me one of the most important questions of my quit.
"Dizz, I hear that you want to quit in a couple weeks, but what is wrong with NOW!!!" Naturally I gave some BullShit answer that didn't make sense to anyone so it turned more into a command. "Man up and quit NOW Dizz. Flush your can down the toilet and fuckin' post roll. What does 9-14 have that NOW doesn't?"
I did spit out the carcinogen filled turd I had in my lip, gave some lame ass excuse about needing to ween off my 3 can a week addiction before I did the Cold Turkey thing and then signed off before they could comment.
This whole question of NOW kept playing past me all night and I found by noon on the 2nd, I still hadn't had a dip. The fog was rolling in and the anxiety was at a fevor pitch, but in an amazing moment of clarity, I realized I could not properly tell anyone what is wrong with Quitting right NOW and what 2 weeks would do for me is just give me the opportunity to fuck up and let a quit day pass. So I went with the NOW.
So today, on my originally planned quite day, I posted roll at 13 days quit. I have #1 Crabbr to thank for kicking my ass and teaching me about the power of NOW. I have been through the fog cussing and fighting the nic bitch the whole way. I am 100% committed to this quit and know that anything short of no nic will not be tolorated by me, my family, or KTC. That makes it not an option so I never even have to ask myself if it would be worth it. That question is not valid in my mind set.
So my first lesson from KTC is all about the power of NOW.
You will never quit tomorrow for tomorrow never comes. A line in the sand is easily erased with the next rising tide. You will not be quit until you hit that NOW moment. When the carcinogen filled shit in your face is ejected for the last time and all your cans are disposed of in such a way you cannot get them back. Make that NOW commitment to your self and then go post roll, making that promise to your quit Brothers and Sisters that YOU ARE QUIT NOW.
By the way, my story began in high school when I bought my first can. That was 33 years ago. I had a 2 year quit 18 years ago but listened to the NIC Bitch when she told me that I was no longer addicted and just one with my cousin on a Pheasant hunt would be fitting. That was 16 years ago and have lived with shit in my face almost 100% of my waking hours since then.
I got tired of the spit cans all over the place and took to guttin' it for the last 10 years or so which really made it a lot easier to hide. My Wife pointed me to this site on 9/1/2010 and the rest is recorded in my postings since then.
Every user with a planned quit date should read this.
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Awesome tale, Diz. Happy we share the same quit date. No reason not to quit now.
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this shit needs in words of wisdom and on the main site about when to quit...
good stuff
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Good Shit DD great way of expressing the NOW concept. You got this man.
MOA
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Taking a poll today. I have seen a number of different techniques on how to fight the Nic bitch, especially through the fog of the big suck and the nasty mind games that the master seductriss Nic Bitch plays to get you back on the can. Some of the more popular I have seen in these posts include.
1) Fake shit
2) Exercise
3) Booze
4) Food
5) Reading a Posting on KTC
6) KTC chat rooms
7) Get mad as hell at the nic bitch and big Tobacco
Personnally I use most all of these except the fake shit. Mostly because my wife really likes it that I have clean teeth now.
However my favorite is Exercise. It is a great release for the anxiety that makes my think my skeleton wants to crawl through my skin and run away, I don't crave while I am doing it, it burns some of those extra calories because I do food as well, and it makes me physically tired to the point I can actually get some sleep.
What is your favorite weapon to fight this addiction and why? Is it on my list or do you have another trick worth trying?
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Taking a poll today. I have seen a number of different techniques on how to fight the Nic bitch, especially through the fog of the big suck and the nasty mind games that the master seductriss Nic Bitch plays to get you back on the can. Some of the more popular I have seen in these posts include.
1) Fake shit
2) Exercise
3) Booze
4) Food
5) Reading a Posting on KTC
6) KTC chat rooms
7) Get mad as hell at the nic bitch and big Tobacco
Personnally I use most all of these except the fake shit. Mostly because my wife really likes it that I have clean teeth now.
However my favorite is Exercise. It is a great release for the anxiety that makes my think my skeleton wants to crawl through my skin and run away, I don't crave while I am doing it, it burns some of those extra calories because I do food as well, and it makes me physically tired to the point I can actually get some sleep.
What is your favorite weapon to fight this addiction and why? Is it on my list or do you have another trick worth trying?
Masturbation is another great way to fight those cravings. There is nothing better than rubbing one out while having a quit erection.
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Taking a poll today. I have seen a number of different techniques on how to fight the Nic bitch, especially through the fog of the big suck and the nasty mind games that the master seductriss Nic Bitch plays to get you back on the can. Some of the more popular I have seen in these posts include.
1)Â Fake shit
2)Â Exercise
3)Â Booze
4)Â Food
5)Â Reading a Posting on KTC
6)Â KTC chat rooms
7)Â Get mad as hell at the nic bitch and big Tobacco
Personnally I use most all of these except the fake shit. Mostly because my wife really likes it that I have clean teeth now.
However my favorite is Exercise. It is a great release for the anxiety that makes my think my skeleton wants to crawl through my skin and run away, I don't crave while I am doing it, it burns some of those extra calories because I do food as well, and it makes me physically tired to the point I can actually get some sleep.
What is your favorite weapon to fight this addiction and why? Is it on my list or do you have another trick worth trying?
Masturbation is another great way to fight those cravings. There is nothing better than rubbing one out while having a quit erection.
For me it was booze. Whiskey every night for my first 30 days did the trick.
WARNING, this method will not work for very many people, maybe 1 in 100, but it was what I had to do to do.
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Taking a poll today. I have seen a number of different techniques on how to fight the Nic bitch, especially through the fog of the big suck and the nasty mind games that the master seductriss Nic Bitch plays to get you back on the can. Some of the more popular I have seen in these posts include.
1)Â Fake shit
2)Â Exercise
3)Â Booze
4)Â Food
5)Â Reading a Posting on KTC
6)Â KTC chat rooms
7)Â Get mad as hell at the nic bitch and big Tobacco
Personnally I use most all of these except the fake shit. Mostly because my wife really likes it that I have clean teeth now.
However my favorite is Exercise. It is a great release for the anxiety that makes my think my skeleton wants to crawl through my skin and run away, I don't crave while I am doing it, it burns some of those extra calories because I do food as well, and it makes me physically tired to the point I can actually get some sleep.
What is your favorite weapon to fight this addiction and why? Is it on my list or do you have another trick worth trying?
Masturbation is another great way to fight those cravings. There is nothing better than rubbing one out while having a quit erection.
I JUST PISSED MY PANTS LAUGHING!!!
2 reasons why:
1. It's very funny
2. It's very true
I find that punching the clown takes the edge off too!
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Thanks for the feedback bros. Masturbation and punching a clown nose gets added to this list.
1) Fake shit
2) Exercise
3) Booze
4) Food
5) Reading a Posting on KTC
6) KTC chat room
7) Get mad as hell at the nic bitch and big Tobacco
8) Masterbation
9) punching a clown nose
Last night I had the damnedest feeling. A huge anxiety attack to where I wanted to yell and hit anything and/or anyone I could find. No patience to even take a deep breath and get my head on straight. I am just thankful that my wife was out with the girls and it didn't set in until after I had put the kids in bed.
But what was really interesting was that I didn't feel like it was one of those craves that wreck your whole body from the core of your marrow. It was more of a "I don't know why I am being such an asshole right now. If I still dipped, that might calm me down a bit, but I don't. So what the FUCK?"
I ended up putting a ton of sugarless candy in my face and like every crave I have had so far, this too did pass.
How many fucking ways can there be for the Nic Bitch to influence my NOW?
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Thanks for the feedback bros. Masturbation and punching a clown nose gets added to this list.
1) Fake shit
2) Exercise
3) Booze
4) Food
5) Reading a Posting on KTC
6) KTC chat room
7) Get mad as hell at the nic bitch and big Tobacco
8) Masterbation
9) punching a clown nose
Last night I had the damnedest feeling. A huge anxiety attack to where I wanted to yell and hit anything and/or anyone I could find. No patience to even take a deep breath and get my head on straight. I am just thankful that my wife was out with the girls and it didn't set in until after I had put the kids in bed.
But what was really interesting was that I didn't feel like it was one of those craves that wreck your whole body from the core of your marrow. It was more of a "I don't know why I am being such an asshole right now. If I still dipped, that might calm me down a bit, but I don't. So what the FUCK?"
I ended up putting a ton of sugarless candy in my face and like every crave I have had so far, this too did pass.
How many fucking ways can there be for the Nic Bitch to influence my NOW?
Dizzy,
punching the clown is a slang term for masturbation.
but if you want to actually punch a clown in the face that might work too!! hahaha
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Thanks for the feedback bros. Masturbation and punching a clown nose gets added to this list.
1)Â Fake shit
2)Â Exercise
3)Â Booze
4)Â Food
5)Â Reading a Posting on KTC
6)Â KTC chat room
7)Â Get mad as hell at the nic bitch and big Tobacco
8)Â Masterbation
9) punching a clown nose
Last night I had the damnedest feeling. A huge anxiety attack to where I wanted to yell and hit anything and/or anyone I could find. No patience to even take a deep breath and get my head on straight. I am just thankful that my wife was out with the girls and it didn't set in until after I had put the kids in bed.
But what was really interesting was that I didn't feel like it was one of those craves that wreck your whole body from the core of your marrow. It was more of a "I don't know why I am being such an asshole right now. If I still dipped, that might calm me down a bit, but I don't. So what the FUCK?"Â
I ended up putting a ton of sugarless candy in my face and like every crave I have had so far, this too did pass.Â
How many fucking ways can there be for the Nic Bitch to influence my NOW?
Dizzy,
punching the clown is a slang term for masturbation.
but if you want to actually punch a clown in the face that might work too!! hahaha
Last night during my rage I definately needed to punch something. I'd take a clown. Couple others that occured to me this morning.
10) Sex with your significant other
11) Sex with anyone you could pick up off the street
12) Properly bought and paid for sex
And the one DWG displayed last night.
13) Get drunk as hell and cuss the nic bitch in capital letters on the Kiss Ass December Quitters forum.
That showed signs of inherent awsomeness. 'worship'
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Thanks for the feedback bros. Masturbation and punching a clown nose gets added to this list.
1)Â Fake shit
2)Â Exercise
3)Â Booze
4)Â Food
5)Â Reading a Posting on KTC
6)Â KTC chat room
7)Â Get mad as hell at the nic bitch and big Tobacco
8)Â Masterbation
9) punching a clown nose
Last night I had the damnedest feeling. A huge anxiety attack to where I wanted to yell and hit anything and/or anyone I could find. No patience to even take a deep breath and get my head on straight. I am just thankful that my wife was out with the girls and it didn't set in until after I had put the kids in bed.
But what was really interesting was that I didn't feel like it was one of those craves that wreck your whole body from the core of your marrow. It was more of a "I don't know why I am being such an asshole right now. If I still dipped, that might calm me down a bit, but I don't. So what the FUCK?"Â
I ended up putting a ton of sugarless candy in my face and like every crave I have had so far, this too did pass.Â
How many fucking ways can there be for the Nic Bitch to influence my NOW?
Dizzy,
punching the clown is a slang term for masturbation.
but if you want to actually punch a clown in the face that might work too!! hahaha
Last night during my rage I definately needed to punch something. I'd take a clown. Couple others that occured to me this morning.
10) Sex with your significant other
11) Sex with anyone you could pick up off the street
12) Properly bought and paid for sex
And the one DWG displayed last night.
13) Get drunk as hell and cuss the nic bitch in capital letters on the Kiss Ass December Quitters forum.
That showed signs of inherent awsomeness. 'worship'
Punching the clown = Jerkin off.
No shit?
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Thanks for the feedback bros. Masturbation and punching a clown nose gets added to this list.
1)Â Fake shit
2)Â Exercise
3)Â Booze
4)Â Food
5)Â Reading a Posting on KTC
6)Â KTC chat room
7)Â Get mad as hell at the nic bitch and big Tobacco
8)Â Masterbation
9) punching a clown nose
Last night I had the damnedest feeling. A huge anxiety attack to where I wanted to yell and hit anything and/or anyone I could find. No patience to even take a deep breath and get my head on straight. I am just thankful that my wife was out with the girls and it didn't set in until after I had put the kids in bed.
But what was really interesting was that I didn't feel like it was one of those craves that wreck your whole body from the core of your marrow. It was more of a "I don't know why I am being such an asshole right now. If I still dipped, that might calm me down a bit, but I don't. So what the FUCK?"Â
I ended up putting a ton of sugarless candy in my face and like every crave I have had so far, this too did pass.Â
How many fucking ways can there be for the Nic Bitch to influence my NOW?
Dizzy,
punching the clown is a slang term for masturbation.
but if you want to actually punch a clown in the face that might work too!! hahaha
Last night during my rage I definately needed to punch something. I'd take a clown. Couple others that occured to me this morning.
10) Sex with your significant other
11) Sex with anyone you could pick up off the street
12) Properly bought and paid for sex
And the one DWG displayed last night.
13) Get drunk as hell and cuss the nic bitch in capital letters on the Kiss Ass December Quitters forum.
That showed signs of inherent awsomeness. 'worship'
Punching the clown = Jerkin off.
No shit?
In the Mountain states I have heard Masterbation called "Spank the Monkey". But where the hell do they punch the clown? Is that like a New England thing? Wicked cool!!! :D
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Thanks for the feedback bros. Masturbation and punching a clown nose gets added to this list.
1)Â Fake shit
2)Â Exercise
3)Â Booze
4)Â Food
5)Â Reading a Posting on KTC
6)Â KTC chat room
7)Â Get mad as hell at the nic bitch and big Tobacco
8)Â Masterbation
9) punching a clown nose
Last night I had the damnedest feeling. A huge anxiety attack to where I wanted to yell and hit anything and/or anyone I could find. No patience to even take a deep breath and get my head on straight. I am just thankful that my wife was out with the girls and it didn't set in until after I had put the kids in bed.
But what was really interesting was that I didn't feel like it was one of those craves that wreck your whole body from the core of your marrow. It was more of a "I don't know why I am being such an asshole right now. If I still dipped, that might calm me down a bit, but I don't. So what the FUCK?"Â
I ended up putting a ton of sugarless candy in my face and like every crave I have had so far, this too did pass.Â
How many fucking ways can there be for the Nic Bitch to influence my NOW?
Dizzy,
punching the clown is a slang term for masturbation.
but if you want to actually punch a clown in the face that might work too!! hahaha
Last night during my rage I definately needed to punch something. I'd take a clown. Couple others that occured to me this morning.
10) Sex with your significant other
11) Sex with anyone you could pick up off the street
12) Properly bought and paid for sex
And the one DWG displayed last night.
13) Get drunk as hell and cuss the nic bitch in capital letters on the Kiss Ass December Quitters forum.
That showed signs of inherent awsomeness. 'worship'
Punching the clown = Jerkin off.
No shit?
In the Mountain states I have heard Masterbation called "Spank the Monkey". But where the hell do they punch the clown? Is that like a New England thing? Wicked cool!!! :D
BINGO!!!!
New England is home for punching the clown.
Also:
pounding the pope
beating the bishop
jerkin the gerkin
flogging your dong
five on one
clasping the cactus
I've got a million more !!!!
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You need to start a new thread called: "Names for Masterbation" it would likely be a big hit with most of these guys.
MOA
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Thanks for the feedback bros. Masturbation and punching a clown nose gets added to this list.
1)Â Fake shit
2)Â Exercise
3)Â Booze
4)Â Food
5)Â Reading a Posting on KTC
6)Â KTC chat room
7)Â Get mad as hell at the nic bitch and big Tobacco
8)Â Masterbation
9) punching a clown nose
Last night I had the damnedest feeling. A huge anxiety attack to where I wanted to yell and hit anything and/or anyone I could find. No patience to even take a deep breath and get my head on straight. I am just thankful that my wife was out with the girls and it didn't set in until after I had put the kids in bed.
But what was really interesting was that I didn't feel like it was one of those craves that wreck your whole body from the core of your marrow. It was more of a "I don't know why I am being such an asshole right now. If I still dipped, that might calm me down a bit, but I don't. So what the FUCK?"Â
I ended up putting a ton of sugarless candy in my face and like every crave I have had so far, this too did pass.Â
How many fucking ways can there be for the Nic Bitch to influence my NOW?
Dizzy,
punching the clown is a slang term for masturbation.
but if you want to actually punch a clown in the face that might work too!! hahaha
Last night during my rage I definately needed to punch something. I'd take a clown. Couple others that occured to me this morning.
10) Sex with your significant other
11) Sex with anyone you could pick up off the street
12) Properly bought and paid for sex
And the one DWG displayed last night.
13) Get drunk as hell and cuss the nic bitch in capital letters on the Kiss Ass December Quitters forum.
That showed signs of inherent awsomeness. 'worship'
Punching the clown = Jerkin off.
No shit?
In the Mountain states I have heard Masterbation called "Spank the Monkey". But where the hell do they punch the clown? Is that like a New England thing? Wicked cool!!! :D
BINGO!!!!
New England is home for punching the clown.
Also:
pounding the pope
beating the bishop
jerkin the gerkin
flogging your dong
five on one
clasping the cactus
I've got a million more !!!!
I love the constructive conversation in this thread!
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I can finally admit it. It has taken me 26 days, but I can now reveal a truth about Copenhagen that the Nic Bitch would not allow me to speak, even to myself, or my family, or even my friends. Such a taboo truth to my addicted mind that I was not even able to hear anyone else say it, although looking back, I now realize that it was told to me very often over the last 33 years.
Copenhagen looks, smells, and tastes like ASS.
It leaves your breath and fingers smelling like ASS. It is dark skanky shit that looks like it came out of someones ASS. It makes your eyes water if you take a big sniff from a fresh can. And on more than one occation, usually in a drunken stupor, it was the final straw to cause blowing chunks.
There I have said it. Copenhagen = ASS.
I also now understand that all that minty and candy ass flavored dip on the market is nothing more than perfumed ASS. It is still all ASS at the end of the day.
Further, I used to think that it felt good in my mouth. the diminished gum line, bloody gums, sores, etc. The fact is, it fuckin' hurt most the time.
So why would it take me 33 years to figure this out? Because the Nic Bitch is ruthless, evil, unrelenting, sly, aluring, tricky, lying, demon spawn of the big Tobacco Companies and she had me by the balls. I didn't realize that I could tell her to fuck off 'Finger' and live to tell the tale.
Well my brothers and sisters, I know know that I can. And I must tell her, at least once a day, and usually multiple times a day.
Besides, there are a lot prettier asses out there to suck on than the ASS that comes in the little cans.
So this lesson I learned from KTC is very simple. Choose your ASS carefully.
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LOL!!!!
That's good shit Dizzy (pardon the pun)!