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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: dgreak on May 09, 2013, 10:56:00 PM
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Well, everybody this is my first day in a long time without a dip, 22 years to be exact. I have been pondering this decision for quite awhile, and today seemed like the day.
I started this nasty habit back when I was in school, and never thought it would last this long. So after a can a day habit, countless dollars, and the never ending line of spit cups I've had enough. I don't even want to do it anymore, I don't like how I feel, I don't like how it taste, and I'm just plain tired of having this feeling like I am owned by a $6.00 can.
As most people on here I have tried this in the past, but I was never ready to quit. I've done herbal snuff (flat sucks), accupuncture (worked great as long as I went 3 times a week), and cold turkey. I have lied countless times to my wife and boys, and if I don't do it now my boys will be in the same boat I am in.
For most of my life I have not only enjoyed dipping, I have loved it, but not anymore. Hell, this is the only comittment I have really ever kept, at least I am good at it.
So that is where I am right now, pissed off, angry, and just plain tired. I have made up my mind, finally, and I have no intentions of doing this again. The hardest part is I don't plan on telling my family this time. I can't bear to see the disappointment in their eyes if I fail again. They're smart folks they'll notice in a few weeks that I'm not doing and hopefully that gives me a push to keep going at the moment I will need it the most.
Thanks for letting me ramble and I will see some or all of you at roll call tomorrow.
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Dgreak. Wow glad to have you here. First let's look at a few things in your post. You are sick of it, that's awesome and is a great reason to quit, it was mine. You aren't going to tell your family, cool they will be surprised. The bs is that you may fail them again. Go to the welcome center learn how to post roll. We only quit for a day. We post roll every day and promis pe not to use nicotine that day at all. I am new and we will be in the same quit Groupe , what I can tell you there are some badass quiters here in every phase of the quit and even years into it. We are the Groupe of August ther is no maybe. You can do this Come quit with us brother. Pm me if you need me an you are seriouse. I am glad to be quitting with you man!!
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Well, everybody this is my first day in a long time without a dip, 22 years to be exact. I have been pondering this decision for quite awhile, and today seemed like the day.
I started this nasty habit back when I was in school, and never thought it would last this long. So after a can a day habit, countless dollars, and the never ending line of spit cups I've had enough. I don't even want to do it anymore, I don't like how I feel, I don't like how it taste, and I'm just plain tired of having this feeling like I am owned by a $6.00 can.
As most people on here I have tried this in the past, but I was never ready to quit. I've done herbal snuff (flat sucks), accupuncture (worked great as long as I went 3 times a week), and cold turkey. I have lied countless times to my wife and boys, and if I don't do it now my boys will be in the same boat I am in.Â
For most of my life I have not only enjoyed dipping, I have loved it, but not anymore. Hell, this is the only comittment I have really ever kept, at least I am good at it.
So that is where I am right now, pissed off, angry, and just plain tired. I have made up my mind, finally, and I have no intentions of doing this again. The hardest part is I don't plan on telling my family this time. I can't bear to see the disappointment in their eyes if I fail again. They're smart folks they'll notice in a few weeks that I'm not doing and hopefully that gives me a push to keep going at the moment I will need it the most.
Thanks for letting me ramble and I will see some or all of you at roll call tomorrow.
Alright D - good words. But let's hit the bullets:- Click the salmony pink "Welcome Center" above and read your addict ass off.
- After reading everything in the Welcome Center - read it again.
- IF you ready to remove the shackles Â… then you need to post your promise (roll) tonight. You are in the August 2013 Pre HOF quit group. We see dozens of drive-bys every week that say they are going to post tomorrow, or Sunday, or the next time it rains, or when they get their first gray ass hairÂ….and we never see them again. If you are quit, and you want to stay quit, post roll. Period.
- If you need to talk or "chat" Â…. click on the LIVE CHAT and jump in there and talk.
D - you are among peers. Noone understands the lies and shame and frustration of being a nicotine addict like a bunch of nicotine addicts. Your emancipation awaits...
Vadge
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Guys I appreciate the words, I signed roll about an hour ago, before I made this post, and I am stoked that this has started. I'm sure I will need you guys way more than you need me and I appreciate you offering.
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Guys I appreciate the words, I signed roll about an hour ago, before I made this post, and I am stoked that this has started. I'm sure I will need you guys way more than you need me and I appreciate you offering.
As we needed those before us and as you will need those behind you. This site works due to the accountability and the brotherhood. The best way to learn a subject is to teach it, sometimes the best way to cope is to comfort someone else. It's weirded but it works. I need you and I am glad to be quit with you.
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Well, everybody this is my first day in a long time without a dip, 22 years to be exact. I have been pondering this decision for quite awhile, and today seemed like the day.
I started this nasty habit back when I was in school, and never thought it would last this long. So after a can a day habit, countless dollars, and the never ending line of spit cups I've had enough. I don't even want to do it anymore, I don't like how I feel, I don't like how it taste, and I'm just plain tired of having this feeling like I am owned by a $6.00 can.
As most people on here I have tried this in the past, but I was never ready to quit. I've done herbal snuff (flat sucks), accupuncture (worked great as long as I went 3 times a week), and cold turkey. I have lied countless times to my wife and boys, and if I don't do it now my boys will be in the same boat I am in.
For most of my life I have not only enjoyed dipping, I have loved it, but not anymore. Hell, this is the only comittment I have really ever kept, at least I am good at it.
So that is where I am right now, pissed off, angry, and just plain tired. I have made up my mind, finally, and I have no intentions of doing this again. The hardest part is I don't plan on telling my family this time. I can't bear to see the disappointment in their eyes if I fail again. They're smart folks they'll notice in a few weeks that I'm not doing and hopefully that gives me a push to keep going at the moment I will need it the most.
Thanks for letting me ramble and I will see some or all of you at roll call tomorrow.
First off, congratulations on your decision.
Second, post roll right now. The day you quit is day #1
Third, this is not a habit. Chewing your fingernails is a habit. This is an addiction. Big difference. You have become chemically dependent on one of the most addictive substances known to mankind - nicotine. You will be an addict for life. Only way to beat it is to never use it again. Not once!
Fourth, you never enjoyed being a slave to this crap - see the third point above. You are a drug addict and your drug made you think you loved it. You didn't have a choice but to think you loved it because you we're under the influence of nicotine. Learn to hate it with a passion because it has lied to you and made you it's slave and stole your money.
If you are serious about quitting then make your promise to not use nicotine today. Keep your promise. Then post roll first thing tomorrow and repeat one day at a time.
You can do this if you really want it.
-NDY 618 days of freedom
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Well, everybody this is my first day in a long time without a dip, 22 years to be exact. I have been pondering this decision for quite awhile, and today seemed like the day.
I started this nasty habit back when I was in school, and never thought it would last this long. So after a can a day habit, countless dollars, and the never ending line of spit cups I've had enough. I don't even want to do it anymore, I don't like how I feel, I don't like how it taste, and I'm just plain tired of having this feeling like I am owned by a $6.00 can.
As most people on here I have tried this in the past, but I was never ready to quit. I've done herbal snuff (flat sucks), accupuncture (worked great as long as I went 3 times a week), and cold turkey. I have lied countless times to my wife and boys, and if I don't do it now my boys will be in the same boat I am in.Â
For most of my life I have not only enjoyed dipping, I have loved it, but not anymore. Hell, this is the only comittment I have really ever kept, at least I am good at it.
So that is where I am right now, pissed off, angry, and just plain tired. I have made up my mind, finally, and I have no intentions of doing this again. The hardest part is I don't plan on telling my family this time. I can't bear to see the disappointment in their eyes if I fail again. They're smart folks they'll notice in a few weeks that I'm not doing and hopefully that gives me a push to keep going at the moment I will need it the most.
Thanks for letting me ramble and I will see some or all of you at roll call tomorrow.
Friend I'm going to be real. The last few lines got me. Three quarters of that you had me really believing in you. When I got to the end it sounded like you changed your mind. First you were all about quitting, then the dreaded, if i fail. You've even decided not to tell the wife so when you fail its no big deal. You'll cave by tomorrow with this line of thinking... I could be wrong. I sure wouldn't bet on you.
You want Me to tell you how you succeed. Its totally opposite of what your thinking. Get rid of words like hope and if. Your either quit or not. You'll cave by tomorrow with that type of thinking.
You go to the Top left,,, welcome center. Learn how to post roll. Post your promise to you and everyone here that your not going to use.. Its called accountability. We post roll everyday. Read everything in the welcome center. After that you tell everyone especially your wife. Accountability my friend. How bad do you want it??? Its up top you..
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When you've had enough and want to pull up your big boy pants - come back and post your promise - bite the bullet and come clean with your wife and enlist her as part of your quit program.
It's gonna suck but if you're not man enough to take those first couple of steps then blow!
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Guys I appreciate the words, I signed roll about an hour ago, before I made this post, and I am stoked that this has started. I'm sure I will need you guys way more than you need me and I appreciate you offering.
I seen that you posted roll before you even wrote the intro. NICE!! Maybe you are more serious about this quit then I originally thought.. I hope so,, I wouldn't wish nicotine addiction on my worst enemy. 85 days later and i'm so happy I've quit.
Now take caving off the table early. GO POST ROLL!!
I hope you get your wife on board. The sooner the better. You will not be able to keep her from this for long. To many changes coming. Have her read the spousal support in the welcome center. You won't fail,, you owe it yourself not to. Take failing off the table!!!! Glad to be quit with you.
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Damn it I really believe you want to be free but, like has already been pointed out you have some failure language that you need to drop! I made promises to quit so many times to my wife during our 32 years of marriage I understand your hesitation to tell the family. When I quit over 400 days ago I was scared to death that I would fail again but I went to my wife and showed her this site that I found and made her a daily part of my quit. She knows my quit partners by name, what they do and has met some of them. She still asks regularly how different guys are doing. As far as loving that dip, time will help in recognizing the truth about that. Spend time reading all you can and participate 100%. Pm me if you need anything.
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Guys I appreciate the words, I signed roll about an hour ago, before I made this post, and I am stoked that this has started. I'm sure I will need you guys way more than you need me and I appreciate you offering.
Welcome to KTC, I quit with you today. I tell you what my friend, there is a lot of bad ass quit in this place. We're with you.
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DG,
Sounds like all the planets have aligned and you are true to your Quit this time. My only advice is to come clean to the wife, family, and close friends about your Quit. You are leaving the back door open so you can slip out and dip behind the barn. No more excuses! Burn the boats so there is no going back!!! Own this Quit and be proud of your success this time! Lead your boys by example!
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So where ya at DG? Get that promise posted bright N early (unless you is one of them night workers...)
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Guys, I appreciate all the advice and criticism that comes with this. However despite the suggestions to tell my family, that is not happening yet. It has nothing to with me thinking I am going to fail, or I want to slip off and steal dip, or the fact they can't hold me accountable. It has everything to do with the fact this is about me not them. I've tried making it about them and it hasn't worked in the past, so this time it's for me and nobody else. Everybody will find out soon enough and we will play it where it lies at that point.
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Well, everybody this is my first day in a long time without a dip, 22 years to be exact. I have been pondering this decision for quite awhile, and today seemed like the day.
I just want to understand.... You have been a member for over 2 years and this is your first day quit? I hate to judge, but it seems like you don't take this serious! How can you not tell your wife? Do you think you will not have mood changes? You will! If I am wrong then great! But tell your wife and make a public commitment! otherwise you really are leaving yourself an out! I gotta call bullshit today though! Its a weak position you are taking!
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Guys, I appreciate all the advice and criticism that comes with this. However despite the suggestions to tell my family, that is not happening yet. It has nothing to with me thinking I am going to fail, or I want to slip off and steal dip, or the fact they can't hold me accountable. It has everything to do with the fact this is about me not them. I've tried making it about them and it hasn't worked in the past, so this time it's for me and nobody else. Everybody will find out soon enough and we will play it where it lies at that point.
Well all that sounds real good. You just have to know that your nicotine brain will do anything and everything the next 2 weeks everyday all day to make you fail... The mind games that nicotine plays are relentless. Around here we like to QLF (Quit like fuck). That means we like to close all the doors. No easy outs. Make it as hard on yourself as possible to give in to the nic bitch.
Your wife knowing is inevitable. You will have a very hard time not telling her very soon. My problem with your way of thinking is your wife will not know you need space sometimes. Remember that nicotine withdrawal can cause rage. Your wife will not know you need help when you are going through anxiety,, yes this is part of it. Like I said it's inevitable.
I am most concerned about the door you are leaving wide open. The first 4 days that door you have left opened is going to be so tempting. It's already hard enough without adding the fact that your family knows nothing about what you are going through. Let me know how it turns out,, very interested.
I just know what you are going to be going trough the next couple weeks. I want you to succeed.. I have seen to many failures lately. It is depressing to see the nic bitch win. Around here we QLF (QUIT LIKE FUCK). We shut all the doors
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By the way! I know some of us seem like assholes.... Its cause we really do care! We addicts are the best at lying and rationalizing... The worst part is we believe ourselves... We all need people to be honest with us and call it the way it is! Do not get discouraged! Take in what you can and work with the rest!
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Guys, I appreciate all the advice and criticism that comes with this. However despite the suggestions to tell my family, that is not happening yet. It has nothing to with me thinking I am going to fail, or I want to slip off and steal dip, or the fact they can't hold me accountable. It has everything to do with the fact this is about me not them. I've tried making it about them and it hasn't worked in the past, so this time it's for me and nobody else. Everybody will find out soon enough and we will play it where it lies at that point.
I see you posted up a day 2. Great job. Now buckle up and be prepared for a wild ride. I didn't tell my wife about my quit until a week later. I figured if she new about it during the first few days of suck I would rage on her instead of trying to hide it from her. Instead I just came in here and read or went to live chat. Kept me from being an asshole to my family.
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By the way! I know some of us seem like assholes.... Its cause we really do care! We addicts are the best at lying and rationalizing... The worst part is we believe ourselves... We all need people to be honest with us and call it the way it is! Do not get discouraged! Take in what you can and work with the rest!
Let me tell you my story, kinda funny really. 85 days ago I told my wife to come in the kitchen. I dumped a brand new can out right in front of her. She was mad because I just wasted 5 bucks. She didn't believe I was quitting. I had failed to many times and disappointed her.
It's actually in my intro somewhere. I don't know exactly how long it was. I think it was after my 30's. She says,, you really quit didn't you? I was amazed. I thought for sure we had established that a month or so earlier on february 15th.
What ever you decide,,, Stay quit,, your life depends on it...
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Discouraged, not me, and you are correct some of you guys have been total dicks. I do appreciate the concern for my wife, but it will be just fine. I do like how you all think I'm leaving myself and out, nothing is further from the truth. You all can call me a caver, or call BS on whatever you want, but it seems to me like you guys are in the same boat I'm in, so what makes you think I should believe you a damn thing you say. We are all liars, cheats, and addicts.
Jake, really man you've been quit for a whole 10 or so days, and you know me better than I know me. I appreciate it but I think I got this one right now. However, I do wish you well and look forward being at the end of 100 days with you.
Thanks for all the guys that have made me feel like I was in the right place.
Mods, since I am new sorry if I crossed the line with this response
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Well, everybody this is my first day in a long time without a dip, 22 years to be exact. I have been pondering this decision for quite awhile, and today seemed like the day.
I started this nasty habit back when I was in school, and never thought it would last this long. So after a can a day habit, countless dollars, and the never ending line of spit cups I've had enough. I don't even want to do it anymore, I don't like how I feel, I don't like how it taste, and I'm just plain tired of having this feeling like I am owned by a $6.00 can.
As most people on here I have tried this in the past, but I was never ready to quit. I've done herbal snuff (flat sucks), accupuncture (worked great as long as I went 3 times a week), and cold turkey. I have lied countless times to my wife and boys, and if I don't do it now my boys will be in the same boat I am in.
For most of my life I have not only enjoyed dipping, I have loved it, but not anymore. Hell, this is the only comittment I have really ever kept, at least I am good at it.
So that is where I am right now, pissed off, angry, and just plain tired. I have made up my mind, finally, and I have no intentions of doing this again. The hardest part is I don't plan on telling my family this time. I can't bear to see the disappointment in their eyes if I fail again. They're smart folks they'll notice in a few weeks that I'm not doing and hopefully that gives me a push to keep going at the moment I will need it the most.
Thanks for letting me ramble and I will see some or all of you at roll call tomorrow.
greak
Once I threw the can away the decision and discussion was over, hell or high water i am done. I refuse to every pick up a fucking can again.
it seemed like the 1st 3 days I was climbing the friggin' walls, yesterday was better and today was definitely an improvement.
So plan on a little roughness on the trip out.
the people here "call that roughness" the "Suck". and it passes. but doesn't seem like it will when you are in it.
You ain't alone.
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Discouraged, not me, and you are correct some of you guys have been total dicks. I do appreciate the concern for my wife, but it will be just fine. I do like how you all think I'm leaving myself and out, nothing is further from the truth. You all can call me a caver, or call BS on whatever you want, but it seems to me like you guys are in the same boat I'm in, so what makes you think I should believe you a damn thing you say. We are all liars, cheats, and addicts.
Jake, really man you've been quit for a whole 10 or so days, and you know me better than I know me. I appreciate it but I think I got this one right now. However, I do wish you well and look forward being at the end of 100 days with you.
Thanks for all the guys that have made me feel like I was in the right place.
Mods, since I am new sorry if I crossed the line with this response
I Def like all the conviction you have here.... Keep that and I will see you at the end of 100 days... and more! Its good to be angry. And I can often be wrong. I like when I am in an instance like this. see you at role call tom morning.
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Discouraged, not me, and you are correct some of you guys have been total dicks. I do appreciate the concern for my wife, but it will be just fine. I do like how you all think I'm leaving myself and out, nothing is further from the truth. You all can call me a caver, or call BS on whatever you want, but it seems to me like you guys are in the same boat I'm in, so what makes you think I should believe you a damn thing you say. We are all liars, cheats, and addicts.
Jake, really man you've been quit for a whole 10 or so days, and you know me better than I know me. I appreciate it but I think I got this one right now. However, I do wish you well and look forward being at the end of 100 days with you.
Thanks for all the guys that have made me feel like I was in the right place.
Mods, since I am new sorry if I crossed the line with this response
I Def like all the conviction you have here.... Keep that and I will see you at the end of 100 days... and more! Its good to be angry. And I can often be wrong. I like when I am in an instance like this. see you at role call tom morning.
Is that sincerity i see. Glad to have you aboard. You might have a chance after all. Glad to be quit with you.
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OK, DG, prove me wrong!!!!!!
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Dg post roll with us and you will find support like you never known. We may bust yu balls if we think you need it. And like wise ou may kick us in the nuts. Yea jake may have only been quit for ten days but he is a bad ass and I would bet money on him posting roll out to 100 days and beyond. I would love to quit with you man.
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You are the man! Glad I saw you at roll call this morning! Have you ever gone 3 days before?
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Man I have gone as much as 5 months, but I was never ready to quit. That's the difference now, I'm done.
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Man I have gone as much as 5 months, but I was never ready to quit. That's the difference now, I'm done.
Damn. Its funny that we have all quit before and failed. Its not till that one time that we KNOW this is it, that it becomes real!
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Man I have gone as much as 5 months, but I was never ready to quit. That's the difference now, I'm done.
Damn. Its funny that we have all quit before and failed. Its not till that one time that we KNOW this is it, that it becomes real!
Good job greak. In 25 + years of dipping I never even was able to make it one day,, shit, I don't think I even made it a half day. But the fact is none of us quit until we really want to . I MEAN REALLY WANT TO. Glad to be quit with you greak.
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Man I have gone as much as 5 months, but I was never ready to quit. That's the difference now, I'm done.
Dgreak what was the trigger(s) that caused you to fail after six months? How often did you quit for such length of time? I only quit one time. It was for over a year. I had no support or education to tell me that I could b a recreational dipper, I. Thought I was superman lmao. That was 8 years ago.
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I see some real positive quitting here and I support you but as the weeks past without support and activity staying positive and quit becomes difficult.
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There was never a real trigger that made me start again. I have acid reflux, a minor case, but when it would flare it was painful, and the doctor told me I had to quit snuff, alchohol, and a bunch of other stuff. Long story short after the medicine started working and I felt better I started dipping again.
I have quit, sorry stopped, several times, but I have never wanted to quit until now. You are correct you can't do this recreationally, that is how I started back a few times.
Wt57--I appreciate all the support you guys are giving me here, and I will do my best to repay all of you in the same way. I will never be the guy that is posting allot on this board, or being a ton involved, just not my personality, but I will be around. If I need or support, or see somebody that needs support, I will be the first to act. So, if you don't see me allot it doesn't mean I don't care, it's just the way I am.
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There was never a real trigger that made me start again. I have acid reflux, a minor case, but when it would flare it was painful, and the doctor told me I had to quit snuff, alchohol, and a bunch of other stuff. Long story short after the medicine started working and I felt better I started dipping again.
I have quit, sorry stopped, several times, but I have never wanted to quit until now. You are correct you can't do this recreationally, that is how I started back a few times.
Wt57--I appreciate all the support you guys are giving me here, and I will do my best to repay all of you in the same way. I will never be the guy that is posting allot on this board, or being a ton involved, just not my personality, but I will be around. If I need or support, or see somebody that needs support, I will be the first to act. So, if you don't see me allot it doesn't mean I don't care, it's just the way I am.
Great job. One day at a time is all it takes. I believe in you. PM if you need some help. :)
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There was never a real trigger that made me start again. I have acid reflux, a minor case, but when it would flare it was painful, and the doctor told me I had to quit snuff, alchohol, and a bunch of other stuff. Long story short after the medicine started working and I felt better I started dipping again.
I have quit, sorry stopped, several times, but I have never wanted to quit until now. You are correct you can't do this recreationally, that is how I started back a few times.
Wt57--I appreciate all the support you guys are giving me here, and I will do my best to repay all of you in the same way. I will never be the guy that is posting allot on this board, or being a ton involved, just not my personality, but I will be around. If I need or support, or see somebody that needs support, I will be the first to act. So, if you don't see me allot it doesn't mean I don't care, it's just the way I am.
Tks for the insight. Just stay quit man, I plan to b involved as I think it strengthens the chance of my quit. Just post roll continue the promise and reach out if you need help again thanks for letting me in you past. It boils down to do you want to quit or is this another get me through the moment. You can do this for good if you want it. You know acid reflux is dangerous as hell. Quit dude. Quit for good! I quit with you.
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There was never a real trigger that made me start again. I have acid reflux, a minor case, but when it would flare it was painful, and the doctor told me I had to quit snuff, alchohol, and a bunch of other stuff. Long story short after the medicine started working and I felt better I started dipping again.
I have quit, sorry stopped, several times, but I have never wanted to quit until now. You are correct you can't do this recreationally, that is how I started back a few times.
Wt57--I appreciate all the support you guys are giving me here, and I will do my best to repay all of you in the same way. I will never be the guy that is posting allot on this board, or being a ton involved, just not my personality, but I will be around. If I need or support, or see somebody that needs support, I will be the first to act. So, if you don't see me allot it doesn't mean I don't care, it's just the way I am.
Tks for the insight. Just stay quit man, I plan to b involved as I think it strengthens the chance of my quit. Just post roll continue the promise and reach out if you need help again thanks for letting me in you past. It boils down to do you want to quit or is this another get me through the moment. You can do this for good if you want it. You know acid reflux is dangerous as hell. Quit dude. Quit for good! I quit with you.
Did I say chance???? I meant efficiency! Yea that's right it strengthens the efficiency of my quit.
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Erussell you better get "chance" out of your vocabulary when you talk about your quit before you get crucified (just kidding). I just went back and read some of the intros and started with yours, and I have to say you got balls if you have your FIL in your house and dipping while you stay quit. I've been avoiding my friends that do, and I probably will for the next few weeks. I don't feel tempted, but I don't want to be somewhere I can be tempted. You my friend are tougher than nails, and I have no doubt you got this whipped. See you at the end in August!
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Erussell you better get "chance" out of your vocabulary when you talk about your quit before you get crucified (just kidding). I just went back and read some of the intros and started with yours, and I have to say you got balls if you have your FIL in your house and dipping while you stay quit. I've been avoiding my friends that do, and I probably will for the next few weeks. I don't feel tempted, but I don't want to be somewhere I can be tempted. You my friend are tougher than nails, and I have no doubt you got this whipped. See you at the end in August!
Yea Ive seen what can happen if you use sheepish words like maybe, try, hope, or chance. LMFAO I,m just glad i saw before all you cats! Ha ha
Its my brother in law that lives with us, he dipps constantly. Not that tough on me though. its when my father in law (who also dipps constantly) visits that is such a bad trigger. Go figure?
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Erussell you better get "chance" out of your vocabulary when you talk about your quit before you get crucified (just kidding). I just went back and read some of the intros and started with yours, and I have to say you got balls if you have your FIL in your house and dipping while you stay quit. I've been avoiding my friends that do, and I probably will for the next few weeks. I don't feel tempted, but I don't want to be somewhere I can be tempted. You my friend are tougher than nails, and I have no doubt you got this whipped. See you at the end in August!
Removing those words helps set and maintain the mindset that we are quit, period end of discussion. After the physical withdraws are over the rest is mind over matter. For me it helped to remove the hopeful type words.
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Erussell you better get "chance" out of your vocabulary when you talk about your quit before you get crucified (just kidding). I just went back and read some of the intros and started with yours, and I have to say you got balls if you have your FIL in your house and dipping while you stay quit. I've been avoiding my friends that do, and I probably will for the next few weeks. I don't feel tempted, but I don't want to be somewhere I can be tempted. You my friend are tougher than nails, and I have no doubt you got this whipped. See you at the end in August!
Yea Ive seen what can happen if you use sheepish words like maybe, try, hope, or chance. LMFAO I,m just glad i saw before all you cats! Ha ha
Its my brother in law that lives with us, he dipps constantly. Not that tough on me though. its when my father in law (who also dipps constantly) visits that is such a bad trigger. Go figure?
An AA brother told me of a guy back home who in the process of dying from dip. he's been at it for 30 years, so far, jaw and lip are gone. they are giving him about 6 months.
We all thought about the proverbial how do we answer questions IF.. Frankly i don't hope I ever have to answer that question. I was using dip for 10 years off and on, and feeling anger, fear, guilt, shame, I am 8 days into this adventure and I am at a point where i can say regardless, i don't want that crap back.
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I have kind of let this thread get dusty so I thought I would clean it off with an update. Man these have been the best few days I have had in a long time. I know I'm just 12 days in but this time it has been real different. I honestly have not had any cravings that seem like they are too much, I have not once been tempted to go grab a can. I have drank and hung out with my dipping buddies this weekend without any problems, and I thought that would be impossible. And, honestly I am not on edge near as much without it as I have been with it. The fog lifted and things look bright. There are only 2 things I am doing different this time than the last time, a few years back, I am using KTC and I really want to quit.
This site works, and I proud to say that I am part of it. I appreciate the guys that have reached out, and I can't wait on a daily basis to post roll.
Quit on August 2013
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I have kind of let this thread get dusty so I thought I would clean it off with an update. Man these have been the best few days I have had in a long time. I know I'm just 12 days in but this time it has been real different. I honestly have not had any cravings that seem like they are too much, I have not once been tempted to go grab a can. I have drank and hung out with my dipping buddies this weekend without any problems, and I thought that would be impossible. And, honestly I am not on edge near as much without it as I have been with it. The fog lifted and things look bright. There are only 2 things I am doing different this time than the last time, a few years back, I am using KTC and I really want to quit.
This site works, and I proud to say that I am part of it. I appreciate the guys that have reached out, and I can't wait on a daily basis to post roll.
Quit on August 2013
'dance' 'dance' 'dance'
Thanks for that Bro!! You made my quit stronger today!!
Stay Vigilant!!! Dont let down your guard and One Day At A Time!!
J
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I have kind of let this thread get dusty so I thought I would clean it off with an update. Man these have been the best few days I have had in a long time. I know I'm just 12 days in but this time it has been real different. I honestly have not had any cravings that seem like they are too much, I have not once been tempted to go grab a can. I have drank and hung out with my dipping buddies this weekend without any problems, and I thought that would be impossible. And, honestly I am not on edge near as much without it as I have been with it. The fog lifted and things look bright. There are only 2 things I am doing different this time than the last time, a few years back, I am using KTC and I really want to quit.
This site works, and I proud to say that I am part of it. I appreciate the guys that have reached out, and I can't wait on a daily basis to post roll.
Quit on August 2013
'dance' 'dance' 'dance'
Thanks for that Bro!! You made my quit stronger today!!
Stay Vigilant!!! Dont let down your guard and One Day At A Time!!
J
Good job dgreak. Your quit is rocken.
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Well guys just dropping a quick update on the quit. I am at 36 days now and things are rocking along. There are times that are difficult, but for the most part this has been easier, and more rewarding, than I had envisioned. Still having a few craves here and there, mostly after meals, but I just chew gum like I'm trying to set it on fire until they pass.
Finally made it to the dentist after 15 years or being embarrassed to go because of my habit. I do have a small spot on my check that is being removed next week, but the oral surgeon thinks it is just a spot that has been bit too many times and has made a bump on my check. It's been there for years but I guess better safe than sorry at this point. I guess the coolest, or strangest, thing about my visit to the oral surgeon today is they did a full x-ray or my mouth. Well when I was 10 years old the crazy kid down the street shot me in the face with a BB, my dad dug around in my face and said the BB must have come out. Guess what...it didn't. Plain as day on the x-ray a perfectly round BB in my left check, been in there for right about 30 years. I guess they don't disolve over time.
Anyway, still quit, and damn glad to be, with you guys. I am just a PM away if anybody needs anything. Quit on August!
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Well guys just dropping a quick update on the quit. I am at 36 days now and things are rocking along. There are times that are difficult, but for the most part this has been easier, and more rewarding, than I had envisioned. Still having a few craves here and there, mostly after meals, but I just chew gum like I'm trying to set it on fire until they pass.
Finally made it to the dentist after 15 years or being embarrassed to go because of my habit. I do have a small spot on my check that is being removed next week, but the oral surgeon thinks it is just a spot that has been bit too many times and has made a bump on my check. It's been there for years but I guess better safe than sorry at this point. I guess the coolest, or strangest, thing about my visit to the oral surgeon today is they did a full x-ray or my mouth. Well when I was 10 years old the crazy kid down the street shot me in the face with a BB, my dad dug around in my face and said the BB must have come out. Guess what...it didn't. Plain as day on the x-ray a perfectly round BB in my left check, been in there for right about 30 years. I guess they don't disolve over time.
Anyway, still quit, and damn glad to be, with you guys. I am just a PM away if anybody needs anything. Quit on August!
proud of you for going in. Keep up the fight brother.
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Well guys just dropping a quick update on the quit. I am at 36 days now and things are rocking along. There are times that are difficult, but for the most part this has been easier, and more rewarding, than I had envisioned. Still having a few craves here and there, mostly after meals, but I just chew gum like I'm trying to set it on fire until they pass.
Finally made it to the dentist after 15 years or being embarrassed to go because of my habit. I do have a small spot on my check that is being removed next week, but the oral surgeon thinks it is just a spot that has been bit too many times and has made a bump on my check. It's been there for years but I guess better safe than sorry at this point. I guess the coolest, or strangest, thing about my visit to the oral surgeon today is they did a full x-ray or my mouth. Well when I was 10 years old the crazy kid down the street shot me in the face with a BB, my dad dug around in my face and said the BB must have come out. Guess what...it didn't. Plain as day on the x-ray a perfectly round BB in my left check, been in there for right about 30 years. I guess they don't disolve over time.
Anyway, still quit, and damn glad to be, with you guys. I am just a PM away if anybody needs anything. Quit on August!
proud of you for going in. Keep up the fight brother.
Proud of you greak. You've began uncovering the lies brother. The poison made us think it was impossible. Now you no the truth. Keep your guard up and remain vigilant. I quit with you my friend.
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I appreciate the words guys. I am sure there is another shoe waiting to drop, but I feel like I am prepared to handle the situation when it does due to this site. I may not post allot, but I read something new everyday and it helps me stay quit. Some of the intros are really inspiring.
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I figured taking a break from Q2 reports and watching "Open Range" was in order, so I figured I would add to this thread. The feeling of not being dependent on a can is liberating. I still have craves, and even had a few dip dreams, you talk about a guilty feeling, other than that things are well.
I know I have been pretty silent on the board and I want to explain myself in a little better detail. By nature I am a very private person, weird since I am in sales, but that is just how I have always been. I have not been involved as much on the board because I haven't felt I am stable enough in my quit to offer hope and support to newbs. But, after 61 days I am making strides that allow me to feel like I can be helpful and I might actually have something to offer in the form of advice or just listening.
So here goes a peak behind the curtain. In a few months it will be 9 years since I lost a friend to throat cancer. It should have been an immediate wake up call and I should be around 3100 days in my quit, but I am only 61 days in. I don't think about it everyday, but I think about it allot we had lost touch and just got reunited a month or so before he passed. Long story short, I knew at the time what caused the cancer, I knew what took his life, and I knew I needed to quit. The addict in me justified every can I bought for the next 3000 days. Fortunatly I have quit on my terms, either way we all quit.
I just wanted to put a little piece of myself out there in hopes that somebody that is just starting will see this and think "man this guy wasted 3000 days, but he is here now and that lets me know I can do it."
I believe diesel said it, or may Got2Happen, correct me if I am wrong..."everytime I took a dip I said I love nicotine more than I love my kids". This quote is the first thing on my mind everyday and it puts it in perspective for me, QLFEDD. Guys I am pretty much a flake when it comes to taking care of myself, so if I can stick to this and do it all of you can. I'll walk through fire for people close to me and I will defend them even when they are wrong, but it took 3000 days for me to walk through fire for me, newbs listen up don't wait this long the benefits of a nic free life are much greater than the false joy nic ever brought you.
Quit on August, quit on!
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I figured taking a break from Q2 reports and watching "Open Range" was in order, so I figured I would add to this thread. The feeling of not being dependent on a can is liberating. I still have craves, and even had a few dip dreams, you talk about a guilty feeling, other than that things are well.
I know I have been pretty silent on the board and I want to explain myself in a little better detail. By nature I am a very private person, weird since I am in sales, but that is just how I have always been. I have not been involved as much on the board because I haven't felt I am stable enough in my quit to offer hope and support to newbs. But, after 61 days I am making strides that allow me to feel like I can be helpful and I might actually have something to offer in the form of advice or just listening.
So here goes a peak behind the curtain. In a few months it will be 9 years since I lost a friend to throat cancer. It should have been an immediate wake up call and I should be around 3100 days in my quit, but I am only 61 days in. I don't think about it everyday, but I think about it allot we had lost touch and just got reunited a month or so before he passed. Long story short, I knew at the time what caused the cancer, I knew what took his life, and I knew I needed to quit. The addict in me justified every can I bought for the next 3000 days. Fortunatly I have quit on my terms, either way we all quit.
I just wanted to put a little piece of myself out there in hopes that somebody that is just starting will see this and think "man this guy wasted 3000 days, but he is here now and that lets me know I can do it."
I believe diesel said it, or may Got2Happen, correct me if I am wrong..."everytime I took a dip I said I love nicotine more than I love my kids". This quote is the first thing on my mind everyday and it puts it in perspective for me, QLFEDD. Guys I am pretty much a flake when it comes to taking care of myself, so if I can stick to this and do it all of you can. I'll walk through fire for people close to me and I will defend them even when they are wrong, but it took 3000 days for me to walk through fire for me, newbs listen up don't wait this long the benefits of a nic free life are much greater than the false joy nic ever brought you.
Quit on August, quit on!
Thanks for the post!
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I figured taking a break from Q2 reports and watching "Open Range" was in order, so I figured I would add to this thread. The feeling of not being dependent on a can is liberating. I still have craves, and even had a few dip dreams, you talk about a guilty feeling, other than that things are well.
I know I have been pretty silent on the board and I want to explain myself in a little better detail. By nature I am a very private person, weird since I am in sales, but that is just how I have always been. I have not been involved as much on the board because I haven't felt I am stable enough in my quit to offer hope and support to newbs. But, after 61 days I am making strides that allow me to feel like I can be helpful and I might actually have something to offer in the form of advice or just listening.
So here goes a peak behind the curtain. In a few months it will be 9 years since I lost a friend to throat cancer. It should have been an immediate wake up call and I should be around 3100 days in my quit, but I am only 61 days in. I don't think about it everyday, but I think about it allot we had lost touch and just got reunited a month or so before he passed. Long story short, I knew at the time what caused the cancer, I knew what took his life, and I knew I needed to quit. The addict in me justified every can I bought for the next 3000 days. Fortunatly I have quit on my terms, either way we all quit.
I just wanted to put a little piece of myself out there in hopes that somebody that is just starting will see this and think "man this guy wasted 3000 days, but he is here now and that lets me know I can do it."
I believe diesel said it, or may Got2Happen, correct me if I am wrong..."everytime I took a dip I said I love nicotine more than I love my kids". This quote is the first thing on my mind everyday and it puts it in perspective for me, QLFEDD. Guys I am pretty much a flake when it comes to taking care of myself, so if I can stick to this and do it all of you can. I'll walk through fire for people close to me and I will defend them even when they are wrong, but it took 3000 days for me to walk through fire for me, newbs listen up don't wait this long the benefits of a nic free life are much greater than the false joy nic ever brought you.
Quit on August, quit on!
Is a Q2 report like a tps report?
Don't be a stranger. Posting on yours and others intros helps .
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"Peter it seems you have been missing allot of work lately. I wouldn't say I've missing it, Bob."
Great freaking movie. And yes they are just like TPS reports, they have no bearing on what we do as a company, but somebody likes reading so I have to do them.
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I figured taking a break from Q2 reports and watching "Open Range" was in order, so I figured I would add to this thread. The feeling of not being dependent on a can is liberating. I still have craves, and even had a few dip dreams, you talk about a guilty feeling, other than that things are well.
I know I have been pretty silent on the board and I want to explain myself in a little better detail. By nature I am a very private person, weird since I am in sales, but that is just how I have always been. I have not been involved as much on the board because I haven't felt I am stable enough in my quit to offer hope and support to newbs. But, after 61 days I am making strides that allow me to feel like I can be helpful and I might actually have something to offer in the form of advice or just listening.
So here goes a peak behind the curtain. In a few months it will be 9 years since I lost a friend to throat cancer. It should have been an immediate wake up call and I should be around 3100 days in my quit, but I am only 61 days in. I don't think about it everyday, but I think about it allot we had lost touch and just got reunited a month or so before he passed. Long story short, I knew at the time what caused the cancer, I knew what took his life, and I knew I needed to quit. The addict in me justified every can I bought for the next 3000 days. Fortunatly I have quit on my terms, either way we all quit.
I just wanted to put a little piece of myself out there in hopes that somebody that is just starting will see this and think "man this guy wasted 3000 days, but he is here now and that lets me know I can do it."
I believe diesel said it, or may Got2Happen, correct me if I am wrong..."everytime I took a dip I said I love nicotine more than I love my kids". This quote is the first thing on my mind everyday and it puts it in perspective for me, QLFEDD. Guys I am pretty much a flake when it comes to taking care of myself, so if I can stick to this and do it all of you can. I'll walk through fire for people close to me and I will defend them even when they are wrong, but it took 3000 days for me to walk through fire for me, newbs listen up don't wait this long the benefits of a nic free life are much greater than the false joy nic ever brought you.
Quit on August, quit on!
Is a Q2 report like a tps report?
Don't be a stranger. Posting on yours and others intros helps .
keep picking em up and laying em down !
Leaving a trail for the guys behind or yourself should you find yourself lost
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I figured taking a break from Q2 reports and watching "Open Range" was in order, so I figured I would add to this thread. The feeling of not being dependent on a can is liberating. I still have craves, and even had a few dip dreams, you talk about a guilty feeling, other than that things are well.
I know I have been pretty silent on the board and I want to explain myself in a little better detail. By nature I am a very private person, weird since I am in sales, but that is just how I have always been. I have not been involved as much on the board because I haven't felt I am stable enough in my quit to offer hope and support to newbs. But, after 61 days I am making strides that allow me to feel like I can be helpful and I might actually have something to offer in the form of advice or just listening.
So here goes a peak behind the curtain. In a few months it will be 9 years since I lost a friend to throat cancer. It should have been an immediate wake up call and I should be around 3100 days in my quit, but I am only 61 days in. I don't think about it everyday, but I think about it allot we had lost touch and just got reunited a month or so before he passed. Long story short, I knew at the time what caused the cancer, I knew what took his life, and I knew I needed to quit. The addict in me justified every can I bought for the next 3000 days. Fortunatly I have quit on my terms, either way we all quit.
I just wanted to put a little piece of myself out there in hopes that somebody that is just starting will see this and think "man this guy wasted 3000 days, but he is here now and that lets me know I can do it."
I believe diesel said it, or may Got2Happen, correct me if I am wrong..."everytime I took a dip I said I love nicotine more than I love my kids". This quote is the first thing on my mind everyday and it puts it in perspective for me, QLFEDD. Guys I am pretty much a flake when it comes to taking care of myself, so if I can stick to this and do it all of you can. I'll walk through fire for people close to me and I will defend them even when they are wrong, but it took 3000 days for me to walk through fire for me, newbs listen up don't wait this long the benefits of a nic free life are much greater than the false joy nic ever brought you.
Quit on August, quit on!
Is a Q2 report like a tps report?
Don't be a stranger. Posting on yours and others intros helps .
keep picking em up and laying em down !
Leaving a trail for the guys behind or yourself should you find yourself lost
I would like to give a dg report. Dgreak is turning into a lean mean quitting machine. Keep it up bro.
I second what diesel said. Would really like to see you on more intros. You have some good stuff to say bro. When you keep it bottled up Me and others don't benefit from it. I will quit with you anyday.
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I figured taking a break from Q2 reports and watching "Open Range" was in order, so I figured I would add to this thread. The feeling of not being dependent on a can is liberating. I still have craves, and even had a few dip dreams, you talk about a guilty feeling, other than that things are well.
I know I have been pretty silent on the board and I want to explain myself in a little better detail. By nature I am a very private person, weird since I am in sales, but that is just how I have always been. I have not been involved as much on the board because I haven't felt I am stable enough in my quit to offer hope and support to newbs. But, after 61 days I am making strides that allow me to feel like I can be helpful and I might actually have something to offer in the form of advice or just listening.
So here goes a peak behind the curtain. In a few months it will be 9 years since I lost a friend to throat cancer. It should have been an immediate wake up call and I should be around 3100 days in my quit, but I am only 61 days in. I don't think about it everyday, but I think about it allot we had lost touch and just got reunited a month or so before he passed. Long story short, I knew at the time what caused the cancer, I knew what took his life, and I knew I needed to quit. The addict in me justified every can I bought for the next 3000 days. Fortunatly I have quit on my terms, either way we all quit.
I just wanted to put a little piece of myself out there in hopes that somebody that is just starting will see this and think "man this guy wasted 3000 days, but he is here now and that lets me know I can do it."
I believe diesel said it, or may Got2Happen, correct me if I am wrong..."everytime I took a dip I said I love nicotine more than I love my kids". This quote is the first thing on my mind everyday and it puts it in perspective for me, QLFEDD. Guys I am pretty much a flake when it comes to taking care of myself, so if I can stick to this and do it all of you can. I'll walk through fire for people close to me and I will defend them even when they are wrong, but it took 3000 days for me to walk through fire for me, newbs listen up don't wait this long the benefits of a nic free life are much greater than the false joy nic ever brought you.
Quit on August, quit on!
Is a Q2 report like a tps report?
Don't be a stranger. Posting on yours and others intros helps .
keep picking em up and laying em down !
Leaving a trail for the guys behind or yourself should you find yourself lost
I would like to give a dg report. Dgreak is turning into a lean mean quitting machine. Keep it up bro.
I second what diesel said. Would really like to see you on more intros. You have some good stuff to say bro. When you keep it bottled up Me and others don't benefit from it. I will quit with you anyday.
Damn brother.... Damn! Glad your bad ass is in my group Dgreak. I am proud to be quitting with you bro!
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thanks for responses guys, I really appreciate it. Srans and eruss I look forward to reading your posts and take allot from them so it is nice to have you guys respond, you both have been more than helpful. I am getting to the point that I feel comfortable posting more, so I am sure you guys will be seeing a little more of me.
I'll quit with you guys any time anywhere. Keep adding the +1's up.
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Tomorrow is a the day we are picking your ass up. Don't be late and have your bags packed. Can't wait. It will be a special day for you, remember to sign up for 200 as we are and will forever be ODAAT. I quit with you.