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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Dood on March 31, 2015, 09:37:00 AM
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Started as a casual Camel Snus user when it first hit the market in 2008. For the past five years or so I have become completely beholden to nicotine. It's something I desperately try and hide from my family and employer. Yet 90% of my day is spent with a pouch hidden in my gum. I burn through around a can and a half a day of the large pouches.
I have quit before up to 2 months or so. This time I'm quitting for me and going cold turkey. I'm not going to use fake pouches like teaza this time. For me it is like playing with fire.
It's been about 30 minutes since I threw a full can away and quit forever. Feeling kind of anxious already, and I keep subconsciously rubbing my tongue against the back of my lower teeth, head is feeling sort of tingly. I've got two unopened cans in my car. On my lunch break I am going to march out there and throw those away too and maybe go buy some gum.
Having done this a few times before I know how bad the next week or so is going to suck. But whatever, let's do this!
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Hey, man... Welcome in. This is the right place if you jump all in.
Couple things that might help to start... We don't talk about forever here. It's just too damn filled with anxiety. Today. That's what we can control. Quit for today because sometimes just one day takes everything you have. Other days can be worried about when they get here. Anxiety can ride you hard when you first quit so take forever off the table and... Worry about right now.
You've never actually quit before... You stopped. Briefly. We don't practice here bro... We do. Follow our method and you'll be successful. I guarantee it. Get involved with your quit group and post your promise everyday... I will be clean today. It's that simple. It won't be easy some days but it IS a simple process.
And... Cold turkey?... Badass. That's the way to roll. I did it 714 days ago. No fake helps, nothin'. It was too close to the fire for me too. So... If I, a 25 year 2 can a day junkie, can do it... You can too.
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Thanks for the support and words of wisdom. Just walked out to my car and tossed the unopened cans. Was easier than I thought.
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You can do this, Lebowski! The Dood abides, man.
Way to crush it!
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Well not surprisingly, today has sucked so far. After the first seven hours I started to feel a little confused, anxious, and almost sort of high (in a bad way). Chewed a ton of gum today. Had a few moments of desperation mixing in, but all in all I'm doing ok.
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Well not surprisingly, today has sucked so far. After the first seven hours I started to feel a little confused, anxious, and almost sort of high (in a bad way). Chewed a ton of gum today. Had a few moments of desperation mixing in, but all in all I'm doing ok.
First few days are rough, but it gets easier with each day. Best thing you can do is find something to distract your mind. Chew some gum, go for a walk, do some push ups, whatever it takes. Come on here and yell at us; we can handle it. This is the best forum for venting and we know what you're going through.
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Well not surprisingly, today has sucked so far. After the first seven hours I started to feel a little confused, anxious, and almost sort of high (in a bad way). Chewed a ton of gum today. Had a few moments of desperation mixing in, but all in all I'm doing ok.
First few days are rough, but it gets easier with each day. Best thing you can do is find something to distract your mind. Chew some gum, go for a walk, do some push ups, whatever it takes. Come on here and yell at us; we can handle it. This is the best forum for venting and we know what you're going through.
Nobody said this would be all sunshine and rainbows man.
Freedom earned tastes way better than freedom given. There are times when you will fight harder than you have at anything else in your life, but there will be easy times too. Cherish the good. Plan for the bad. React during the moment.
Drink water. TONS OF WATER. If you're walking past a bathroom without ducking in, drink more. Limit your caffeine as you'll be jumpy enough as it is. Exercise. All of this pushes the poisons from your body. ONce you are clear of nicotine, you can start healing. Once you start healing, your quit becomes more manageable.
Brace yourself. Post roll every morning, and make some friends around here. This place saved my life, and it continues to save my life. Help when you can, and take help and advice graciously. We're all going for the same goal. Individually, we don't have the answers to quit. Collectively, we do.
Keep it up man. I'm watching.
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Keep it up dude.
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Thanks guys.
I ate a ton of food today and I'm about to go lift at the gym. I've been swilling a lot of water as well. Still not feeling great, and I'm snappy and miserable to be around.
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Thanks guys.
I ate a ton of food today and I'm about to go lift at the gym. I've been swilling a lot of water as well. Still not feeling great, and I'm snappy and miserable to be around.
Snappy and miserable here too, hoping it is a short wave.
Your workout should be a good one !!
Quit with you every day bro.
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You can do this dood. It is a mind fuck but you will do it if you stay strong and stay on this site. Read all of our stories. We are all addicts, just be strong and get numbers from other members in case you need them. It helps. Talk to people about it on here. Keep posting and keep strong. I didn't think I could do it but I'm 90 days clean! It feels great too.
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Time to hit it again, Dood. Let's do this!
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Time to hit it again, Dood. Let's do this!
Thanks guys. I woke up a few times last night and thought about dip quite a bit in my dreams. Left the window open last night and woke up with clean cool air flowing in. It was sort of peaceful. I feel much less anxious today. Trying to embrace the process as much as I can. Posted roll first thing up this morning. Still have a bit of a foggy feeling and my head feels like its buzzing intermittently.
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Attaboy Dood. Find what helps fight the crave. For me it was Dark Chocolate. If yours is gum, chew that shit and always have it around.
I'm quit with you today Dood.
Watch the carpet man
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Attaboy Dood. Find what helps fight the crave. For me it was Dark Chocolate. If yours is gum, chew that shit and always have it around.
I'm quit with you today Dood.
Watch the carpet man
That carpet really held the room together, man.
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Time to hit it again, Dood. Let's do this!
Thanks guys. I woke up a few times last night and thought about dip quite a bit in my dreams. Left the window open last night and woke up with clean cool air flowing in. It was sort of peaceful. I feel much less anxious today. Trying to embrace the process as much as I can. Posted roll first thing up this morning. Still have a bit of a foggy feeling and my head feels like its buzzing intermittently.
Newbie. Posting roll first thing in the am! Owning it.
It's a beautiful thing.
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Time to hit it again, Dood. Let's do this!
Thanks guys. I woke up a few times last night and thought about dip quite a bit in my dreams. Left the window open last night and woke up with clean cool air flowing in. It was sort of peaceful. I feel much less anxious today. Trying to embrace the process as much as I can. Posted roll first thing up this morning. Still have a bit of a foggy feeling and my head feels like its buzzing intermittently.
Newbie. Posting roll first thing in the am! Owning it.
It's a beautiful thing.
ODAAT and NAFAR Dood.
It's good to see another slave taking his life back.
Welcome to the best of Your Life.
Read up in here EDD. This is a daily life and death decision. Posting Roll is your word/decision NOT to dip Today...just Today.
Proud of You.
You got this...we got this!
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Attaboy Dood. Find what helps fight the crave. For me it was Dark Chocolate. If yours is gum, chew that shit and always have it around.
I'm quit with you today Dood.
Watch the carpet man
That carpet really held the room together, man.
Fuckin' A roflmao
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I know I said I wouldn't be using fake dip this go round, but I was feeling desperate and am having 40 cans of the fake stuff shipped here w overnight shipping (haha). Should be here by Friday. Day two in the books, feeling positive. Thanks for the comments.
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I know I said I wouldn't be using fake dip this go round, but I was feeling desperate and am having 40 cans of the fake stuff shipped here w overnight shipping (haha). Should be here by Friday. Day two in the books, feeling positive. Thanks for the comments.
There are differing opinions here, but I am in the Fake Dip Camp for sure. I used it like it was my job for the first 200 days or so. I think it helped.
One day, I just didn't put one in. That day turned into two. Next thing you know, I wasn't using fake dip at all.
That was almost 5 years ago.
I know this is your day 3, but you can, and will do this. If I can, you can.
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I know I said I wouldn't be using fake dip this go round, but I was feeling desperate and am having 40 cans of the fake stuff shipped here w overnight shipping (haha). Should be here by Friday. Day two in the books, feeling positive. Thanks for the comments.
There are differing opinions here, but I am in the Fake Dip Camp for sure. I used it like it was my job for the first 200 days or so. I think it helped.
One day, I just didn't put one in. That day turned into two. Next thing you know, I wasn't using fake dip at all.
That was almost 5 years ago.
I know this is your day 3, but you can, and will do this. If I can, you can.
What ^^^ quitter said.
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I know I said I wouldn't be using fake dip this go round, but I was feeling desperate and am having 40 cans of the fake stuff shipped here w overnight shipping (haha). Should be here by Friday. Day two in the books, feeling positive. Thanks for the comments.
There are differing opinions here, but I am in the Fake Dip Camp for sure. I used it like it was my job for the first 200 days or so. I think it helped.
One day, I just didn't put one in. That day turned into two. Next thing you know, I wasn't using fake dip at all.
That was almost 5 years ago.
I know this is your day 3, but you can, and will do this. If I can, you can.
What ^^^ quitter said.
Yeah, man... Do whatcha gotta do. If it helps... Righteous. I couldn't do it because it was just waaaay too close to the fire for me. Everyone is different though... Do what works for you and roll with the punches. Rock on, bro...
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Today so far has been the worst. Although Day 3 seems to be routinely shitty based on what I've read here. I've been raging today. Lots of little frustrations are setting me off. So angry my body feels like it's buzzing. Head and throat hurt. Trying to take deep breaths and just let it pass. Lots of temptation today to just go to the store and never post again. Can't let that happen, been down that road. I've made a decision and a promise and I will fight through today.
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Today so far has been the worst. Although Day 3 seems to be routinely shitty based on what I've read here. I've been raging today. Lots of little frustrations are setting me off. So angry my body feels like it's buzzing. Head and throat hurt. Trying to take deep breaths and just let it pass. Lots of temptation today to just go to the store and never post again. Can't let that happen, been down that road. I've made a decision and a promise and I will fight through today.
Hang in there man. It gets better. You have to wade through a lot of shit to get to the good stuff but I promise you its worth it. One day at a time. Keep reading and stay close to this site. You got this.
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Today so far has been the worst. Although Day 3 seems to be routinely shitty based on what I've read here. I've been raging today. Lots of little frustrations are setting me off. So angry my body feels like it's buzzing. Head and throat hurt. Trying to take deep breaths and just let it pass. Lots of temptation today to just go to the store and never post again. Can't let that happen, been down that road. I've made a decision and a promise and I will fight through today.
Hang in there man. It gets better. You have to wade through a lot of shit to get to the good stuff but I promise you its worth it. One day at a time. Keep reading and stay close to this site. You got this.
What he said. It sucks, but it will pass.
Don't forget there is Chat, too. Bound to be someone in there to rant to.
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Today so far has been the worst. Although Day 3 seems to be routinely shitty based on what I've read here. I've been raging today. Lots of little frustrations are setting me off. So angry my body feels like it's buzzing. Head and throat hurt. Trying to take deep breaths and just let it pass. Lots of temptation today to just go to the store and never post again. Can't let that happen, been down that road. I've made a decision and a promise and I will fight through today.
Hang in there man. It gets better. You have to wade through a lot of shit to get to the good stuff but I promise you its worth it. One day at a time. Keep reading and stay close to this site. You got this.
Dodds it's simple if you want to quit forever, you will kick the bitch in the teeth and tell her get behind you! Grab your sac and own this shit! You can do it, it was no easier for anyone else. Get pissed come in here and let it rip we'll listen. If you need vent at someone I'm here, I'm man enough to take your anger , let's do this! Remember you're bigger than that tin! Damn proud to be quit with you today my friend!
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Today so far has been the worst. Although Day 3 seems to be routinely shitty based on what I've read here. I've been raging today. Lots of little frustrations are setting me off. So angry my body feels like it's buzzing. Head and throat hurt. Trying to take deep breaths and just let it pass. Lots of temptation today to just go to the store and never post again. Can't let that happen, been down that road. I've made a decision and a promise and I will fight through today.
Fight it! you have the right mind set......
I got my fake stuff yesterday and it did help!
I am trying not to use it like I did the real, which was way too often. But I will use it to stay quit if that is what helps.
Do what you have to Dood. I 'm here with ya Brother.
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Day 6. This has gotten immensely easier. I still have cravings, but the fake dip is helping to keep my mind off it. I don't feel as confused or hazy as the first couple of days. Headaches are less frequent. I am still lashing out, but trying to control it. Conscious is clear, which feels amazing. You don't really appreciate the weight of all the lies until you stop.
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Day 6. This has gotten immensely easier. I still have cravings, but the fake dip is helping to keep my mind off it. I don't feel as confused or hazy as the first couple of days. Headaches are less frequent. I am still lashing out, but trying to control it. Conscious is clear, which feels amazing. You don't really appreciate the weight of all the lies until you stop.
I get all that. It is getting easier and less painful.
Good things replacing the bad each day it's something new.
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Day 9. I've got such anger running through me still. Mad that the cliches are becoming true - thinking that everything will be better, easier, if I just go back to chewing. My upper cheeks tighten up and I get a headache thinking about it. Like a rabid dog, hating everyone on this forum for holding me accountable. Wanting to just tell everyone to fuck off, that they have the problem not me, I can quit whenever I want. See I've already gone 9 days; it's no big deal; fucking leave me alone.
Heard this all before?
Yet if I close my eyes and breathe deeply, I can tell myself that I'm ok and to just let the craving pass. Focus on making it through this day, this hour. I made a promise today, and I will honor it and keeping marching through the suck.
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Day 9. I've got such anger running through me still. Mad that the cliches are becoming true - thinking that everything will be better, easier, if I just go back to chewing. My upper cheeks tighten up and I get a headache thinking about it. Like a rabid dog, hating everyone on this forum for holding me accountable. Wanting to just tell everyone to fuck off, that they have the problem not me, I can quit whenever I want. See I've already gone 9 days; it's no big deal; fucking leave me alone.
Heard this all before?
Yet if I close my eyes and breathe deeply, I can tell myself that I'm ok and to just let the craving pass. Focus on making it through this day, this hour. I made a promise today, and I will honor it and keeping marching through the suck.
Bro, I wanted to bitch slap everyone for 2 weeks! You're right on track. The important thing is that you're recognizing how long the fall is back into using and you are grasping how NOT worth it giving in is. You've made it this far... You CAN make it further. Rock on, m'man!
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You can do it, just keep pushing through it. I remember being pissed for a while, and having a very short temper. One thing I learned early was the dip won't solve the problem, but only make it bigger. I know it is tough, but it will get easier. I am proud to quit with you today. PM me if you need some support.
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Thanks guys. The comments mean a lot.
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Smells like STRONG quit off in here!
Rage on Dood.
PM if you need additional help.
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No matter what life throws at you my friend you can accomplish anything you put your mind to! This is hard but not impossible! Mind over matter and what you put in you will get out of it. Anyone can dip but very few people can defeat the nic bitch! Damn proud to be quit with you today my brother! Stay focused and one step ahead of the bitch!
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I know the anger. I know the rage. Rage that doesn't even make sense now that I look back. All of that rage and anger made me more determined. I became like the resident ISIS member in our quit group. I took it to extremes. Channel that rage and energy into your quit. The quit is not easy but it well worth it.
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What fake chew are you using ???
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What fake chew are you using ???
Teaza pouches. I went to the dentist last week for the first time in forever and he told me to stop using them. So I've been chewing on toothpicks the last few days. Have chewing sticks arriving today.
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Day 9. I've got such anger running through me still. Mad that the cliches are becoming true - thinking that everything will be better, easier, if I just go back to chewing. My upper cheeks tighten up and I get a headache thinking about it. Like a rabid dog, hating everyone on this forum for holding me accountable. Wanting to just tell everyone to fuck off, that they have the problem not me, I can quit whenever I want. See I've already gone 9 days; it's no big deal; fucking leave me alone.
Heard this all before?
Yet if I close my eyes and breathe deeply, I can tell myself that I'm ok and to just let the craving pass. Focus on making it through this day, this hour. I made a promise today, and I will honor it and keeping marching through the suck.
Stay strong dood. There are 27,000 members who know exactly what you are going through. Get on here and lash away. We get it. Keep staying quit. I'll be here staying quit with you.
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I'm thankful for this intro thread. Sometimes, being over two months quit, I start to think that maybe I was never addicted or quitting wasn't such a big deal. Then I come back here and read my first few posts. Remembering how difficult it was to break the physical addiction side of this thing helps to put it back in perspective.
Stay vigilant out there whether today is your first day or 1,000th.
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Doing great my brother! Stay focused and stay ahead of the olé nic bitch! Damn proud to be quit with you today my friend!
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I'm thankful for this intro thread. Sometimes, being over two months quit, I start to think that maybe I was never addicted or quitting wasn't such a big deal. Then I come back here and read my first few posts. Remembering how difficult it was to break the physical addiction side of this thing helps to put it back in perspective.
Stay vigilant out there whether today is your first day or 1,000th.
This is bullshit.
I smoked a cigar the other night and fessed up to it two days later (after lying to my brothers in July).
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I'm thankful for this intro thread. Sometimes, being over two months quit, I start to think that maybe I was never addicted or quitting wasn't such a big deal. Then I come back here and read my first few posts. Remembering how difficult it was to break the physical addiction side of this thing helps to put it back in perspective.
Stay vigilant out there whether today is your first day or 1,000th.
This is bullshit.
I smoked a cigar the other night and fessed up to it two days later (after lying to my brothers in July).
Where is your fortitude dood? Who says fuck it and does it anyway knowing that there is nothing much you can say to defend that action... How can we trust you to stay quit with us the next how ever many days?