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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: molliesmaster on April 13, 2013, 09:14:00 PM
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"Holy Hell!" The only thought that comes to my mind right now. I stumbled on to this site a few years back and gave it some consideration. Sadly, my fiance left me soon after, and well, we all know how that goes. Quitting wasn't an option then. When I ventured back to this place tonight, I could feel my stomach turning to knots just reading the symptoms. The instinct to reach into my pocket to make sure my can of dip was still there kicked in. My hands have become machines designed to weigh out a can by the simple touch. Just one grasp and I can tell how long I have until I dig in my console or make another trip to the store, sometimes well past midnight. Cans clutter my bedroom trashcan, bottles slide back and forth in my truck, my pants all tarnished with a ring of death in a side or back pocket. It is my security blanket, my make a bad day good, my good morning and good night. I feel anxious just considering the idea of quitting again. Picture Golem from the lord of the rings as I hover over my can, caressing it, quietly whispering "Precious." I am a man controlled by a monster. Dear God, I'm gonna need help. 23 years old, high blood pressure already (decent shape and great eating habits), 1.5 cans a day.
I hate the can already, I hate that I can't leave the house without it. In fact I am more apt to leave the house without pants on, than to leave without sufficient supply of dip. I live with dippers. Dip is a social event, campfires, hunting, fishing, riding down the road, watching tv after work, We DIP. How in the world do I surpass this stuff? It almost seems impossible and I haven't even started.
HELP
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"Holy Hell!" The only thought that comes to my mind right now. I stumbled on to this site a few years back and gave it some consideration. Sadly, my fiance left me soon after, and well, we all know how that goes. Quitting wasn't an option then. When I ventured back to this place tonight, I could feel my stomach turning to knots just reading the symptoms. The instinct to reach into my pocket to make sure my can of dip was still there kicked in. My hands have become machines designed to weigh out a can by the simple touch. Just one grasp and I can tell how long I have until I dig in my console or make another trip to the store, sometimes well past midnight. Cans clutter my bedroom trashcan, bottles slide back and forth in my truck, my pants all tarnished with a ring of death in a side or back pocket. It is my security blanket, my make a bad day good, my good morning and good night. I feel anxious just considering the idea of quitting again. Picture Golem from the lord of the rings as I hover over my can, caressing it, quietly whispering "Precious." I am a man controlled by a monster. Dear God, I'm gonna need help. 23 years old, high blood pressure already (decent shape and great eating habits), 1.5 cans a day.
I hate the can already, I hate that I can't leave the house without it. In fact I am more apt to leave the house without pants on, than to leave without sufficient supply of dip. I live with dippers. Dip is a social event, campfires, hunting, fishing, riding down the road, watching tv after work, We DIP. How in the world do I surpass this stuff? It almost seems impossible and I haven't even started.
HELP
Wonderful sentences right there, but do you want to quit?
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"Holy Hell!"  The only thought that comes to my mind right now. I stumbled on to this site a few years back and gave it some consideration. Sadly, my fiance left me soon after, and well, we all know how that goes. Quitting wasn't an option then. When I ventured back to this place tonight, I could feel my stomach turning to knots just reading the symptoms. The instinct to reach into my pocket to make sure my can of dip was still there kicked in. My hands have become machines designed to weigh out a can by the simple touch. Just one grasp and I can tell how long I have until I dig in my console or make another trip to the store, sometimes well past midnight. Cans clutter my bedroom trashcan, bottles slide back and forth in my truck, my pants all tarnished with a ring of death in a side or back pocket. It is my security blanket, my make a bad day good, my good morning and good night. I feel anxious just considering the idea of quitting again. Picture Golem from the lord of the rings as I hover over my can, caressing it, quietly whispering "Precious." I am a man controlled by a monster.  Dear God, I'm gonna need help.  23 years old, high blood pressure already (decent shape and great eating habits), 1.5 cans a day. Â
I hate the can already, I hate that I can't leave the house without it. In fact I am more apt to leave the house without pants on, than to leave without sufficient supply of dip. I live with dippers. Dip is a social event, campfires, hunting, fishing, riding down the road, watching tv after work, We DIP. How in the world do I surpass this stuff? It almost seems impossible and I haven't even started.Â
HELP
Wonderful sentences right there, but do you want to quit?
Dlee is right there bud, you have stated your hate and what it has done and how you feel, but the big question is left to be unstated...
Do you want to quit for yourself and stop being a slave to nicotene?
If you can look in a mirror and say a HELL YES to that question, then you have come to the right place and I would say read up on the welcome center and you will get all the help that you want here.
But until you do, keep spinning that revolver hoping that that 1 magic bullet of Cancer does not end up in your lower lip from the next dip you take.
your decision.....
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Yes, I want to quit. It scares the pure hell out of me to quit though. I still can't even picture myself without it, not as if I couldn't quit, but what life would be like without it. Its hard to fathom. Its become who I am. I guess I just wonder where you find the strength to jump into the unknown like this. I hate/love dip. Its like the skanky girl down the street in highschool, you hated screwing her because of the idea, but damn she was good at it.
That's where I'm at right now. But I took the time to join this site, that's gotta be something right?
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Yes, I want to quit. It scares the pure hell out of me to quit though. I still can't even picture myself without it, not as if I couldn't quit, but what life would be like without it. Its hard to fathom. Its become who I am.  I guess I just wonder where you find the strength to jump into the unknown like this.  I hate/love dip. Its like the skanky girl down the street in highschool, you hated screwing her because of the idea, but damn she was good at it.Â
That's where I'm at right now. But I took the time to join this site, that's gotta be something right?
something perhaps, not very damn much though. Read the welcome center (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showforum=13) if you haven't yet. When you're done I hope you understand that what IS worth something here is the word of a member when they give their promise each day. A man who gives us his word can ask damn near anything of most of the guys here and get it, it may be a kick in the ass, a pat on the back, a shoulder to lean on or an ear to listen. If you want to quit this is the right place. No one will blow smoke up your ass and tell you it'll be easy but you can do it with the tools offered here.
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I still can't even picture myself without it, not as if I couldn't quit, but what life would be like without it. Its hard to fathom.
You can't look at it as a forever from now kind of thing. What we do here is take everyday as it comes and just promise to be nicotine free for one day. Now, I am not as experienced as these other bad ass quitters on here, but I will tell you one thing. On here we are all the same, a 5 year quitter or even a 1 day quitter is the same. We are all addicts and we all come here to promise each other that we will be quit for today.
Please take a look around. I found that looking at the pictures of cancer on this site keeps me remembering why I am quit today. You need to find your reason and have it be a constant reminder of why you are quit.
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"Its like the skanky girl down the street in highschool, you hated screwing her because of the idea, but damn she was good at it."
Man, I remember that skanky chic down the street pretty well. Waves of fragrance like chicken of the sea and not the dolphin safe kind greeting you at the door. A liter of 100 proof in a paper bag just to get you in. Pimply poked ass just quivering atop cottage cheese thighs while deflated breasts sadly sagging with gravity, swing seductively near her knees.
I remember the 8 inch q-tip that the doctor shoved unceremoniously into my pee-hole and the fission like burning I felt when I peed. I remember the itchy rash that spread from my testicles outward in a circumferential reminder of blisters and puss.
She sure was good though!
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Yes, I want to quit. It scares the pure hell out of me to quit though. I still can't even picture myself without it, not as if I couldn't quit, but what life would be like without it. Its hard to fathom. Its become who I am. I guess I just wonder where you find the strength to jump into the unknown like this. I hate/love dip. Its like the skanky girl down the street in highschool, you hated screwing her because of the idea, but damn she was good at it.
That's where I'm at right now. But I took the time to join this site, that's gotta be something right?
Don't give yourself credit for joining this site. Seriously, don't. I'd venture to say you shouldn't give yourself any kudos at all right now. You took the first step, but you didn't complete it. You told us why you hate the bitch, but you didn't initially tell us that you really, really wanted to quit. You didn't even tell us WHY you wanted to quit for YOU.
Give yourself kudos each day that you actually do it. Post it on your intro thread if you want to. I'll quit with you every single day if you really, really want to quit.
Read back over your last post. You said you wanted to quit, but you never said WHY you wanted to quit. It is a very, VERY important question that you have to consider.
I joined this site six months before I quit. It took me six months plus sixteen years to answer the question of WHY I wanted to quit. Answer it for us. Better yet, answer it for you.
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I still can't even picture myself without it, not as if I couldn't quit, but what life would be like without it. Its hard to fathom.
You can't look at it as a forever from now kind of thing. What we do here is take everyday as it comes and just promise to be nicotine free for one day. Now, I am not as experienced as these other bad ass quitters on here, but I will tell you one thing. On here we are all the same, a 5 year quitter or even a 1 day quitter is the same. We are all addicts and we all come here to promise each other that we will be quit for today.
Please take a look around. I found that looking at the pictures of cancer on this site keeps me remembering why I am quit today. You need to find your reason and have it be a constant reminder of why you are quit.
Are you lipping one right now? If not that is what it feels like. Freedom,,, thats what it feels like. Take your life back. Stop being a slave to something that is killing you. Millions live without out it everyday. Why can't you? Life is meant to be lived without nicotine. Make a decision. Toss that can of life taking good for nothing krap in the toilet. start living life the way it was intended.
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I still can't even picture myself without it, not as if I couldn't quit, but what life would be like without it. Its hard to fathom.
You can't look at it as a forever from now kind of thing. What we do here is take everyday as it comes and just promise to be nicotine free for one day. Now, I am not as experienced as these other bad ass quitters on here, but I will tell you one thing. On here we are all the same, a 5 year quitter or even a 1 day quitter is the same. We are all addicts and we all come here to promise each other that we will be quit for today.
Please take a look around. I found that looking at the pictures of cancer on this site keeps me remembering why I am quit today. You need to find your reason and have it be a constant reminder of why you are quit.
Are you lipping one right now? If not that is what it feels like. Freedom,,, thats what it feels like. Take your life back. Stop being a slave to something that is killing you. Millions live without out it everyday. Why can't you? Life is meant to be lived without nicotine. Make a decision. Toss that can of life taking good for nothing krap in the toilet. start living life the way it was intended.
Me not taking a dip at the moment feels more like an anxiety attack, feels like a pressure on my mind that moves through my spinal column down to my hips. It's akin to a bone chilling cold shiver.
I want to quit because I like my life, I like being healthy. I spent years in weight rooms, lifting, cardio, etc. I neglect fried foods, heavy starches, and unnecessary fats. I take care of myself in every aspect but the tobacco that clings to me.
I guess I should have been more clear in my first post. I was more hopeful that people would read my thoughts and see the underwritten cry. You guys write "just quit" as if it were that simple. Like I am supposed to get up right now and toss the rest of an almost full can away. On paper that seems very logical, a very simple task, but when it comes to doing it.. Well.. Is it like that for everyone? Is this a sign that I'm not ready? I feel hesitant because it is a part of who I am now. I've looked at the horror stories, deaths and dismemberments, I don't want to be that story. I don't want to carry around a can every day, be dependent on this "weed", be addicted to something that kills.
I even looked at the synthetic dip or fake dip, whatever you may call it and it gives me hope. I've often thought that maybe mints and gum could help me for a few days. Is that how someone starts this? Just chew gum for a day and if it works, great, if it doesn't try something else? It just seems like a long road and what do you do if you can't dip on the journey?
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I still can't even picture myself without it, not as if I couldn't quit, but what life would be like without it. Its hard to fathom.
You can't look at it as a forever from now kind of thing. What we do here is take everyday as it comes and just promise to be nicotine free for one day. Now, I am not as experienced as these other bad ass quitters on here, but I will tell you one thing. On here we are all the same, a 5 year quitter or even a 1 day quitter is the same. We are all addicts and we all come here to promise each other that we will be quit for today.
Please take a look around. I found that looking at the pictures of cancer on this site keeps me remembering why I am quit today. You need to find your reason and have it be a constant reminder of why you are quit.
Are you lipping one right now? If not that is what it feels like. Freedom,,, thats what it feels like. Take your life back. Stop being a slave to something that is killing you. Millions live without out it everyday. Why can't you? Life is meant to be lived without nicotine. Make a decision. Toss that can of life taking good for nothing krap in the toilet. start living life the way it was intended.
Me not taking a dip at the moment feels more like an anxiety attack, feels like a pressure on my mind that moves through my spinal column down to my hips. It's akin to a bone chilling cold shiver.
I want to quit because I like my life, I like being healthy. I spent years in weight rooms, lifting, cardio, etc. I neglect fried foods, heavy starches, and unnecessary fats. I take care of myself in every aspect but the tobacco that clings to me.
I guess I should have been more clear in my first post. I was more hopeful that people would read my thoughts and see the underwritten cry. You guys write "just quit" as if it were that simple. Like I am supposed to get up right now and toss the rest of an almost full can away. On paper that seems very logical, a very simple task, but when it comes to doing it.. Well.. Is it like that for everyone? Is this a sign that I'm not ready? I feel hesitant because it is a part of who I am now. I've looked at the horror stories, deaths and dismemberments, I don't want to be that story. I don't want to carry around a can every day, be dependent on this "weed", be addicted to something that kills.
I even looked at the synthetic dip or fake dip, whatever you may call it and it gives me hope. I've often thought that maybe mints and gum could help me for a few days. Is that how someone starts this? Just chew gum for a day and if it works, great, if it doesn't try something else? It just seems like a long road and what do you do if you can't dip on the journey?
We get it. You want to quit. Now answer the question posed to you.
WHY do you want to quit? "To be healthy" is an answer, but is that your reason? Trust me, everybody reading your reply asked themselves the same question just about every day they dipped. I haven't asked them individually, but they all wanted to be healthy without working for it just like you and I did.
I want to support you, but you have to give us the cry for help. I cannot SEE your cries for help. This a a website. Describe this shit to us; describe this anguish that led you here.
We've all been there, that's what this site is about, but you need to tell us why you are here.
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We've all been there, brother. I described the feeling like standing on a cliff blindfolded with a bunch of strangers telling me to jump and that it would be ok. My knees were rattling, maybe a bead of sweat trickles off my forehead. Nothing in my being said it was going to be ok because the nic bitch has a pretty tight hold. But we jumped, the landing was rough but we brushed ourselves off, survived and thrive.
You can do this.
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We've all been there, brother. I described the feeling like standing on a cliff blindfolded with a bunch of strangers telling me to jump and that it would be ok. My knees were rattling, maybe a bead of sweat trickles off my forehead. Nothing in my being said it was going to be ok because the nic bitch has a pretty tight hold. But we jumped, the landing was rough but we brushed ourselves off, survived and thrive.
You can do this.
You asked if it really is that easy.. The easy part is actually tossing the can out and flushing the contents. The not so easy part is heading down to the corner store a few hours later and spending another 5 or so dollars so you can get your fix. It is hard for you to see it now,, but your brain is deceiving you everyday. The nicotine in your system makes you think you can't live without it. I am 59 days quit after a 25 years of dipping. The difference I feel now is amazing. We can encourage you and tell you how much better life is without the can,, but you have to make the final dicision to take your life back. Kill the can is a place you can come after you've quit for advice, words of encouragement and friendship. Mollies, start thinking of quiting as one day at a time. We are not asking you to quit for 2 days, 5 days, 2 weeks, a year. We are asking you to post roll and take it one day at a time. One minute, one hour, one day at a time and you can have your life back without nicotine.
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Stop your hand-wringing, grow a pair and Quit ! No more excuses. We know it is hard. We do it one day at a time then repeat. We can not hold your hand and walk you into the quit waters, wade out to us and we will support you.
Pm me for support.
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Quitting takes Balls, lots and lots of Balls
It is clear that masturbator has no balls...
Therefore, until he grows a little baby scrotum let him keep his "spine tingling' can of cancer.
Kind of dont like being an asshat on the Lord's Day, but I hate seeing all this badass quit wasted on an enuch....
Vadge 457
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I still can't even picture myself without it, not as if I couldn't quit, but what life would be like without it. Its hard to fathom.
You can't look at it as a forever from now kind of thing. What we do here is take everyday as it comes and just promise to be nicotine free for one day. Now, I am not as experienced as these other bad ass quitters on here, but I will tell you one thing. On here we are all the same, a 5 year quitter or even a 1 day quitter is the same. We are all addicts and we all come here to promise each other that we will be quit for today.
Please take a look around. I found that looking at the pictures of cancer on this site keeps me remembering why I am quit today. You need to find your reason and have it be a constant reminder of why you are quit.
Are you lipping one right now? If not that is what it feels like. Freedom,,, thats what it feels like. Take your life back. Stop being a slave to something that is killing you. Millions live without out it everyday. Why can't you? Life is meant to be lived without nicotine. Make a decision. Toss that can of life taking good for nothing krap in the toilet. start living life the way it was intended.
Me not taking a dip at the moment feels more like an anxiety attack, feels like a pressure on my mind that moves through my spinal column down to my hips. It's akin to a bone chilling cold shiver.
I want to quit because I like my life, I like being healthy. I spent years in weight rooms, lifting, cardio, etc. I neglect fried foods, heavy starches, and unnecessary fats. I take care of myself in every aspect but the tobacco that clings to me.
I guess I should have been more clear in my first post. I was more hopeful that people would read my thoughts and see the underwritten cry. You guys write "just quit" as if it were that simple. Like I am supposed to get up right now and toss the rest of an almost full can away. On paper that seems very logical, a very simple task, but when it comes to doing it.. Well.. Is it like that for everyone? Is this a sign that I'm not ready? I feel hesitant because it is a part of who I am now. I've looked at the horror stories, deaths and dismemberments, I don't want to be that story. I don't want to carry around a can every day, be dependent on this "weed", be addicted to something that kills.
I even looked at the synthetic dip or fake dip, whatever you may call it and it gives me hope. I've often thought that maybe mints and gum could help me for a few days. Is that how someone starts this? Just chew gum for a day and if it works, great, if it doesn't try something else? It just seems like a long road and what do you do if you can't dip on the journey?
We get it. You want to quit. Now answer the question posed to you.
WHY do you want to quit? "To be healthy" is an answer, but is that your reason? Trust me, everybody reading your reply asked themselves the same question just about every day they dipped. I haven't asked them individually, but they all wanted to be healthy without working for it just like you and I did.
I want to support you, but you have to give us the cry for help. I cannot SEE your cries for help. This a a website. Describe this shit to us; describe this anguish that led you here.
We've all been there, that's what this site is about, but you need to tell us why you are here.
We understand where you are at, all to well. I'm not sure you really have the true desire to quit. That may seem harsh and even piss you off but for 40 years I wanted to quit, wanted to be healthier, wanted freedom but always postpone till tomorrow or another day. I'm not sure what the final straw that brought me to quitting but I do remember the pain of the decision. Deciding to quit and sticking with it everyday is a daily decision that became easier with Time and is now very easy. For me that moment of deciding to finally quit was a turning point, I knew it was different than all the times that I thought I'd quit if it wasn't difficult (wishing or hoping I could quit).
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Stop your hand-wringing, grow a pair and Quit ! No more excuses. We know it is hard. We do it one day at a time then repeat. We can not hold your hand and walk you into the quit waters, wade out to us and we will support you.
Pm me for support.
^^^^What he said. ^^^^
Mm, I understand this is a big step. But, at the same time, the whole process starts with the simplest of acts. Just tell yourself "Not today!". Then keep your word. Sincerely, man.... it ain't complex. First thing you've got to do is stop romanticizing dipping. There's nothing you can do with nicotine that you can't do better without it. Nothing. Even the skanky chick down the road. Seriously.
You asked how to start. Personally, seeds were my thing. Fake dip was too close to the real thing, and I was tired of the can just as much as dip. Some folks make their own fake, others use gum or candy. But, that's a decision you have to make on your own. Every quit is different. All of that is just details. You need to START with dumping your stashes in the toilet (if you haven't already), post your promise on roll call, then be a man of your word for 24 yours. Everything else is just details.
Your whole life has got to change. I am a quitter before all else. Every situation: hunting, fishing, driving, bonfiring, working; they all require me to be a quitter first. I go into every situation thinking I'm the only sumbitch there that was man enough to quit after 20 years of use, and that there is nothing in that situation bad enough to make me go back to being a slave.
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I did it, I freaking quit. I found my group, posted my first roll call, hopefully correctly. Its done..
Time to fuck the day!!!
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I did it, I freaking quit. I found my group, posted my first roll call, hopefully correctly. Its done..
Time to fuck the day!!!
Time to fuck the day? I'm not sure if that's a good thing or bad thing, but either way you are un-fucking your life.
Got any questions?
Care to tell us more about yourself?
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I did it, I freaking quit. I found my group, posted my first roll call, hopefully correctly. Its done.. Â
Time to fuck the day!!!
Time to fuck the day? I'm not sure if that's a good thing or bad thing, but either way you are un-fucking your life.
Got any questions?
Care to tell us more about yourself?
I posted in here a few weeks back when I was thinking about quitting.. I'll look for the thread now.
Here is it... Intro (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=8108&hl=)
The only thing I hate about this forum is all the posts go backwards from the normal forums I am used to.. Instead of the newer posts going below they go up above.
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I did it, I freaking quit. I found my group, posted my first roll call, hopefully correctly. Its done.. Â
Time to fuck the day!!!
Time to fuck the day? I'm not sure if that's a good thing or bad thing, but either way you are un-fucking your life.
Got any questions?
Care to tell us more about yourself?
I posted in here a few weeks back when I was thinking about quitting.. I'll look for the thread now.
Here is it... Intro (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=8108&hl=)
The only thing I hate about this forum is all the posts go backwards from the normal forums I am used to.. Instead of the newer posts going below they go up above.
Thanks man.
I went ahead and merged them because it is awesome to look back after a period of time and see how pathetic we once were to our addiction. And why search for that? Know it.
While using, we are slaves.
Here at the Ktc we control the only thing in this world we can: our actions.
What's your plan for today?
(And, actually, I found this format confusing at first as well. And, strangely enough, I found this site before I found reddit (one of the most popular "forums" out there...which also reads newest to oldest).). And I fucking pulled off the double parenthesis. Fuck yeah.
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I did it, I freaking quit. I found my group, posted my first roll call, hopefully correctly. Its done.. Â
Time to fuck the day!!!
Time to fuck the day? I'm not sure if that's a good thing or bad thing, but either way you are un-fucking your life.
Got any questions?
Care to tell us more about yourself?
I posted in here a few weeks back when I was thinking about quitting.. I'll look for the thread now.
Here is it... Intro (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=8108&hl=)
The only thing I hate about this forum is all the posts go backwards from the normal forums I am used to.. Instead of the newer posts going below they go up above.
Thanks man.
I went ahead and merged them because it is awesome to look back after a period of time and see how pathetic we once were to our addiction. And why search for that? Know it.
While using, we are slaves.
Here at the Ktc we control the only thing in this world we can: our actions.
What's your plan for today?
Going to get a can of fake dip from the store, about to order some other brand online. Just gonna go to work and try to enjoy it and stay positive. Maybe enjoy some sunflower seeds and take a deep breath for relief.
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I did it, I freaking quit. I found my group, posted my first roll call, hopefully correctly. Its done.. Â
Time to fuck the day!!!
Time to fuck the day? I'm not sure if that's a good thing or bad thing, but either way you are un-fucking your life.
Got any questions?
Care to tell us more about yourself?
I posted in here a few weeks back when I was thinking about quitting.. I'll look for the thread now.
Here is it... Intro (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=8108&hl=)
The only thing I hate about this forum is all the posts go backwards from the normal forums I am used to.. Instead of the newer posts going below they go up above.
Thanks man.
I went ahead and merged them because it is awesome to look back after a period of time and see how pathetic we once were to our addiction. And why search for that? Know it.
While using, we are slaves.
Here at the Ktc we control the only thing in this world we can: our actions.
What's your plan for today?
Going to get a can of fake dip from the store, about to order some other brand online. Just gonna go to work and try to enjoy it and stay positive. Maybe enjoy some sunflower seeds and take a deep breath for relief.
Don't maybe anything of this quit man. Do it.
First of all, do you know which stores sell the fake stuff? Do you know they have it in stock? I would recommend calling ahead and making sure they have smokey mountain snuff or hooch or some other brand in stock. As for sunflower seeds (other oral fixators), have them on you and at your disposal. Don't go searching for your weapon in the middle of battle. Have it cocked and ready to go always.
Secondly, I would stop any caffeine intake for the day and start hitting the water. It pushes the poison out, and frankly, gives you something to waste your time.
If there is anybody at your work that chews/smokes...stay the fuck away from them. Don't need to tempt fate this early.
If this sounds like way too much work, ask yourself...."what am I willing to do to stay quit?"
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I did it, I freaking quit. I found my group, posted my first roll call, hopefully correctly. Its done.. Â
Time to fuck the day!!!
Time to fuck the day? I'm not sure if that's a good thing or bad thing, but either way you are un-fucking your life.
Got any questions?
Care to tell us more about yourself?
I posted in here a few weeks back when I was thinking about quitting.. I'll look for the thread now.
Here is it... Intro (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=8108&hl=)
The only thing I hate about this forum is all the posts go backwards from the normal forums I am used to.. Instead of the newer posts going below they go up above.
Thanks man.
I went ahead and merged them because it is awesome to look back after a period of time and see how pathetic we once were to our addiction. And why search for that? Know it.
While using, we are slaves.
Here at the Ktc we control the only thing in this world we can: our actions.
What's your plan for today?
Going to get a can of fake dip from the store, about to order some other brand online. Just gonna go to work and try to enjoy it and stay positive. Maybe enjoy some sunflower seeds and take a deep breath for relief.
Don't maybe anything of this quit man. Do it.
First of all, do you know which stores sell the fake stuff? Do you know they have it in stock? I would recommend calling ahead and making sure they have smokey mountain snuff or hooch or some other brand in stock. As for sunflower seeds (other oral fixators), have them on you and at your disposal. Don't go searching for your weapon in the middle of battle. Have it cocked and ready to go always.
Secondly, I would stop any caffeine intake for the day and start hitting the water. It pushes the poison out, and frankly, gives you something to waste your time.
If there is anybody at your work that chews/smokes...stay the fuck away from them. Don't need to tempt fate this early.
If this sounds like way too much work, ask yourself...."what am I willing to do to stay quit?"
Yea, I hope like hell this store has it. It's a tobacco market and I have bought it in there before. I have some sunflower seeds in my car but I really just want the fake stuff. I ordered ten cans of "Jakes" dip, 5 cinnamon, 5 wintergreen.
I think everyone at my work dips or smokes. The smoking honestly doesn't faze me, I'm disgusted by it. And Luckily I drive a fork lift all night long so I don't have to be around any other dippers.
I'm taking this quit all the way to the hill, going all out, ain't gonna stop, gonna quit like quitting is my job. I know that. Sure wish I had a fake dip though. Haha
Shower, then store.
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I did it, I freaking quit. I found my group, posted my first roll call, hopefully correctly. Its done.. Â
Time to fuck the day!!!
Time to fuck the day? I'm not sure if that's a good thing or bad thing, but either way you are un-fucking your life.
Got any questions?
Care to tell us more about yourself?
I posted in here a few weeks back when I was thinking about quitting.. I'll look for the thread now.
Here is it... Intro (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=8108&hl=)
The only thing I hate about this forum is all the posts go backwards from the normal forums I am used to.. Instead of the newer posts going below they go up above.
Thanks man.
I went ahead and merged them because it is awesome to look back after a period of time and see how pathetic we once were to our addiction. And why search for that? Know it.
While using, we are slaves.
Here at the Ktc we control the only thing in this world we can: our actions.
What's your plan for today?
Going to get a can of fake dip from the store, about to order some other brand online. Just gonna go to work and try to enjoy it and stay positive. Maybe enjoy some sunflower seeds and take a deep breath for relief.
Don't maybe anything of this quit man. Do it.
First of all, do you know which stores sell the fake stuff? Do you know they have it in stock? I would recommend calling ahead and making sure they have smokey mountain snuff or hooch or some other brand in stock. As for sunflower seeds (other oral fixators), have them on you and at your disposal. Don't go searching for your weapon in the middle of battle. Have it cocked and ready to go always.
Secondly, I would stop any caffeine intake for the day and start hitting the water. It pushes the poison out, and frankly, gives you something to waste your time.
If there is anybody at your work that chews/smokes...stay the fuck away from them. Don't need to tempt fate this early.
If this sounds like way too much work, ask yourself...."what am I willing to do to stay quit?"
Yea, I hope like hell this store has it. It's a tobacco market and I have bought it in there before. I have some sunflower seeds in my car but I really just want the fake stuff. I ordered ten cans of "Jakes" dip, 5 cinnamon, 5 wintergreen.
I think everyone at my work dips or smokes. The smoking honestly doesn't faze me, I'm disgusted by it. And Luckily I drive a fork lift all night long so I don't have to be around any other dippers.
I'm taking this quit all the way to the hill, going all out, ain't gonna stop, gonna quit like quitting is my job. I know that. Sure wish I had a fake dip though. Haha
Shower, then store.
Call first man.
And most Walmart carry SMS.
You can do this.
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Keep the site close especially when you are early in your quit. Keep it in your fone keep it up on a pc where ever listen to the vets here listen to the peeps early in their quit our quit. Its not easy no one here will tell you that it is she lurks always and everywhere. Was going to say keep focused while driving your forklift. You can do anything without the nic bitch. Lots of fluid especially if you are eating a ton of seeds. PM me if you need my number to bounce texts off eachother. quit for today
T
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Keep the site close especially when you are early in your quit. Keep it in your fone keep it up on a pc where ever listen to the vets here listen to the peeps early in their quit our quit. Its not easy no one here will tell you that it is she lurks always and everywhere. Was going to say keep focused while driving your forklift. You can do anything without the nic bitch. Lots of fluid especially if you are eating a ton of seeds. PM me if you need my number to bounce texts off eachother. quit for today
T
Glad to have you back, mollies,,, welcome to one big screwed up family of quitters. We may not no much about nothing, but we know how to quit. We didn't quit when we were suppose to, or should of, but we're quit none the less. One day at a time mollies.
You will be so happy with yourself as each day ends. It is so worth it not to be enslaved to the nic bitch. It's so worth it when you don't have to give your last 5 dollar bill to something that is robbing you, taking precious life, and worst of all your integrity. I quit with you today!!!
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Well it is Day 3. I don't really have that many complaints. Its weird. I woke up today and I started to wonder if I had been cheating in my sleep or something because I am actually feeling pretty good. I remember telling myself when I started quit that it was gonna be a positive thing, That my body was going to feel better. I don't know if I somehow morphed my brain into a quit frenzy or what. BUT I literally feel awesome. I get a craving once or twice a day, mostly later into the night and right when I wake up. Other than that I don't dwell on it all. If it pops into my head, I throw in a fake dip and smile. I do notice some fog though, especially today.
All in all, I am pumped, ready to live another day nicotine free.
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Day 10 is about to be over. Can't say I'll miss it. Had my first dip dream a few nights ago. I had read about them on here and thought that it would never happen to me... Well it did and it was so real! Like intense real, the kind of real where you wake up and spend thirty minutes trying to decide if it really happened or not. All I can remember when I woke up was a feeling of disgust at myself for caving. Which really helped me see how far I've come and how great I feel about this quit. But still somedays or after some meals it's very easy to wonder why you quit. But the good has outweighed the craves for me.
On another plus note my blood pressure is astounding. I'm finally getting back in the gym after being gone for 7 months and the fact that I am tobacco free for the first time in 9 years is leading me to think that I may be able to get off of my bp meds in a few more weeks. What a relief!!!!
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Molliesmaster your a BA quitter. I. Haven't had any dreams yet and I didn't look forward to them. Scary to think u failed..... I getit and I hope it's awhile before I have one of those dreams.
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Day 16 today. Kind of a shitty day to be honest. The two things I hate most about quitting is never getting that satisfying dip feeling when you are stressed, and Two, the constant eating. My God, Can I ever get full? It's like I constantly need to be chewing on something. Fake dip has lost its powers the last couple of days. And here I am trying to get healthier and all I can do is think about eating! FUCK!!!! Fighting an uphill battle! Oh well, just needed to get that out. Tomorrow will be a better day. I am quit today.
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Day 16 today. Kind of a shitty day to be honest. The two things I hate most about quitting is never getting that satisfying dip feeling when you are stressed, and Two, the constant eating. My God, Can I ever get full? It's like I constantly need to be chewing on something. Fake dip has lost its powers the last couple of days. And here I am trying to get healthier and all I can do is think about eating! FUCK!!!! Fighting an uphill battle! Oh well, just needed to get that out. Tomorrow will be a better day. I am quit today.
You've got it. This is the place to vent. Pm me if you need to talk.
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I have those issues too pants are getting tight but we are quit brother might be some fat bastards addicts but we are quit....I was using carrots and celery to shove the ol pie hole full. Embrace the fact that you can get through stressfull situations now wo the BITCH making you think you needed her. PM me or chirp by text if you want hang in there brother.
T
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Mollie M. You got this. I've been working out to try and burn the extra calories. Not sure it's working like T my pants are a little tight ha ha, but I am a free fat guy lmao. I was using seeds until the tip if my tung got so raw i couldnt talk or feel it. Hang in there man. We are going through a shitty experience, but we are B-A$$ quiters. I quit with you today!
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Day 16 today. Kind of a shitty day to be honest. The two things I hate most about quitting is never getting that satisfying dip feeling when you are stressed, and Two, the constant eating. My God, Can I ever get full? It's like I constantly need to be chewing on something. Fake dip has lost its powers the last couple of days. And here I am trying to get healthier and all I can do is think about eating! FUCK!!!! Fighting an uphill battle! Oh well, just needed to get that out. Tomorrow will be a better day. I am quit today.
Mollie, my approach may not be for everyone, but if you can when you crave and are looking for that feeling drop down and do push-ups, if you cant breath you cant crave. The most important thing to remember is, you can always diet, if the worst thing that happens is you gain a few pounds but are free who the heck cares!
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Day 16 today. Kind of a shitty day to be honest. The two things I hate most about quitting is never getting that satisfying dip feeling when you are stressed, and Two, the constant eating. My God, Can I ever get full? It's like I constantly need to be chewing on something. Fake dip has lost its powers the last couple of days. And here I am trying to get healthier and all I can do is think about eating! FUCK!!!! Fighting an uphill battle!  Oh well, just needed to get that out. Tomorrow will be a better day. I am quit today.
Mollie, my approach may not be for everyone, but if you can when you crave and are looking for that feeling drop down and do push-ups, if you cant breath you cant crave. The most important thing to remember is, you can always diet, if the worst thing that happens is you gain a few pounds but are free who the heck cares!
Gotta tell ya Mollie, nicotene speeds up your metabolism so when we quit the tendency is to put on the weight.
For me I ranked the quit higher. I ended up gaining 25+ pounds. And after getting a hold of everything, last month I started an exercise program and have lost about 10 of it.
You can always lose weight. You most likely cannot lose cancer.
So be strong, worry about keeping the crap/poison out of your body today, and let everything else come in time. It will work out.
I am quit with you today +1
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Appreciate all the support today. I was just pretty down this morning. I am getting back into the gym more religiously again and I'll start watching what I eat better. My number one thing is being healthy, starting with being quit every day all the rest will fall into place in due time.
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Appreciate all the support today. I was just pretty down this morning. I am getting back into the gym more religiously again and I'll start watching what I eat better. My number one thing is being healthy, starting with being quit every day all the rest will fall into place in due time.
That's the spirit bro! That's the B-A quiter I know. Awesome you had th balls to let us know your downs. I enjoy being quit with a MAN like You MM.
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Day 19
Just wanted to give a little update, a little insight into what being quit can do.
Less than 3 weeks ago I was on 20 mg of lisinopril for my blood pressure, even with the medicine my average bp was 135/80ish. Today I am down to 10 mg of lisinopril and my bp is 119/66. I couldn't be more excited. I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off of my chest. A few more weeks in the gym and kicking the salty sunflower seeds to the side and I will be off the meds completely.
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Day 19
Just wanted to give a little update, a little insight into what being quit can do.
Less than 3 weeks ago I was on 20 mg of lisinopril for my blood pressure, even with the medicine my average bp was 135/80ish. Today I am down to 10 mg of lisinopril and my bp is 119/66. I couldn't be more excited. I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off of my chest. A few more weeks in the gym and kicking the salty sunflower seeds to the side and I will be off the meds completely.
Perfect. I bet you are off that stuff soon.
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Day 19
Just wanted to give a little update, a little insight into what being quit can do.
Less than 3 weeks ago I was on 20 mg of lisinopril for my blood pressure, even with the medicine my average bp was 135/80ish. Today I am down to 10 mg of lisinopril and my bp is 119/66. I couldn't be more excited. I feel like a huge weight has been lifted off of my chest. A few more weeks in the gym and kicking the salty sunflower seeds to the side and I will be off the meds completely.
Perfect. I bet you are off that stuff soon.
Mollies,, That's great to hear. I like that you posted this. It's something that shows everyone that nicotine surely affects your health.
I also was battling slightly high blood pressure. When I checked it ran low 140's/low90's. I was getting so close to getting drugs to help. On several occasions I was sure my blood pressure was up further because of the way I felt.
I've checked a couple times in the last month or so and I've been high 120's/low80's. Between quitting and exercise I feel so much different.
My headaches have dropped off. I don't think i've had a headache in a couple months. I used to fight headaches everyday.
Maybe some people will read this today and see that health is affected by nicotine.
Good post mollies,, glad to be quit with you.
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Awesome MM. Totally awesome brother. Bet you feel better too!
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Day 34 is almost over.... FUCK!!!!!! Is all I have to say. It's been a tooth and nail battle the last few days. I know most will say that I need to reach out to my brothers of my group, but truth is I worry about them. I worry that my weakness and my crave may drag them down to my dark place. Sadly, my mind has sunken into the romantic faze of nicking. I know it's wrong. I know she's a heartless bitch that just wants to kill me, but some sick and twisted side of me misses that false sense of relaxation. I know it's so wrong! I feel ASHAMED to write that, I know it's wrong. I hate that bitch so bad for doing what she does, for making me feel this way. I try to kick the craves, I've been crossfitting so much lately that all of my joints now hate me. I need to go get some more fake dip. That's my fault that I don't have any, put truth is, they all suck. I know I'm not the only one going through this, or that has gone through this. And I know I will get through this, but let me reiterate... FUCK!!!... Day 34 is almost over. (breathe)
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Day 34 is almost over.... FUCK!!!!!! Is all I have to say. It's been a tooth and nail battle the last few days. I know most will say that I need to reach out to my brothers of my group, but truth is I worry about them. I worry that my weakness and my crave may drag them down to my dark place. Sadly, my mind has sunken into the romantic faze of nicking. I know it's wrong. I know she's a heartless bitch that just wants to kill me, but some sick and twisted side of me misses that false sense of relaxation. I know it's so wrong! I feel ASHAMED to write that, I know it's wrong. I hate that bitch so bad for doing what she does, for making me feel this way. I try to kick the craves, I've been crossfitting so much lately that all of my joints now hate me. I need to go get some more fake dip. That's my fault that I don't have any, put truth is, they all suck. I know I'm not the only one going through this, or that has gone through this. And I know I will get through this, but let me reiterate... FUCK!!!... Day 34 is almost over. (breathe)
Mollie -
I can understand not putting yourself out there, as I was in similar boat during my early quit. I didn't want to bother others or affect them in a bad way. but I came to realize that they are there for me the same way I am there for them.
I also realized that it is ok to show a little weakness as it allowed the others to build their own strength to help me, which then picked me up and made me even stronger.
So just remember man, go ahead and when you post roll, give that little insight into yourself to your family, and man you will get so much in return.
I quit with you today, just keep on keeping on
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Day 34 is almost over.... FUCK!!!!!! Is all I have to say. It's been a tooth and nail battle the last few days. I know most will say that I need to reach out to my brothers of my group, but truth is I worry about them. I worry that my weakness and my crave may drag them down to my dark place. Sadly, my mind has sunken into the romantic faze of nicking. I know it's wrong. I know she's a heartless bitch that just wants to kill me, but some sick and twisted side of me misses that false sense of relaxation. I know it's so wrong! I feel ASHAMED to write that, I know it's wrong. I hate that bitch so bad for doing what she does, for making me feel this way. I try to kick the craves, I've been crossfitting so much lately that all of my joints now hate me. I need to go get some more fake dip. That's my fault that I don't have any, put truth is, they all suck. I know I'm not the only one going through this, or that has gone through this. And I know I will get through this, but let me reiterate... FUCK!!!... Day 34 is almost over. (breathe)
Bro... the only way your crave or weakness affects anyone elses quit is by making ours stronger. What!?! Yeah man... this site works because despite feeling like shit ourselves sometimes... we will reach out to a brutha in need and pull him off the ledge, or sympathize, or call him names, or refocus his attention, or burp him, or change his diaper, or whatever. You're not alone or special in those bad days or minutes or hours. We all have 'em. Yours will fade and you'll hit a high... enjoy the hell out of those. When you're in the dark-shadowy places... you reach out dammit! Bring that shit here... we get it. Quit on m'man...
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Day 34 is almost over.... FUCK!!!!!! Is all I have to say. It's been a tooth and nail battle the last few days. I know most will say that I need to reach out to my brothers of my group, but truth is I worry about them. I worry that my weakness and my crave may drag them down to my dark place.  Sadly, my mind has sunken into the romantic faze of nicking. I know it's wrong. I know she's a heartless bitch that just wants to kill me, but some sick and twisted side of me misses that false sense of relaxation. I know it's so wrong!  I feel ASHAMED to write that, I know it's wrong. I hate that bitch so bad for doing what she does, for making me feel this way.  I try to kick the craves, I've been crossfitting so much lately that all of my joints now hate me. I need to go get some more fake dip. That's my fault that I don't have any, put truth is, they all suck. I know I'm not the only one going through this, or that has gone through this. And I know I will get through this, but let me reiterate... FUCK!!!... Day 34 is almost over. (breathe)
Bro... the only way your crave or weakness affects anyone elses quit is by making ours stronger. What!?! Yeah man... this site works because despite feeling like shit ourselves sometimes... we will reach out to a brutha in need and pull him off the ledge, or sympathize, or call him names, or refocus his attention, or burp him, or change his diaper, or whatever. You're not alone or special in those bad days or minutes or hours. We all have 'em. Yours will fade and you'll hit a high... enjoy the hell out of those. When you're in the dark-shadowy places... you reach out dammit! Bring that shit here... we get it. Quit on m'man...
Please check out cmorgan1's intro thread, I just bumped an old post discussing this very thing. Dont view your nic use as some old love affair. That shit never did a damn thing for you. You thought of it as a crutch, but in reality is was an anchor. Keep rolling man you are doing great. This weekend was a test and you passed it. You have to clebrate the victories, even the ugly ones.
PM me you want another number, I promise you wont harm my quit. Press on quitter.
Ryan