KillTheCan.org Accountability Forum
Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Sinn Fein on June 20, 2014, 12:23:00 AM
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Good evening everybody,
I'm really struggling to introduce myself and what my addiction to chew has done to my life because to be honest, only two people on the face of this planet ever knew that I chewed: my best friend and my dealer. I considered myself to be a top flight ninja dipper who could wait however long I needed to wait, put up with whatever I needed to put up with, as long as I knew I was going to get my fix at the next available opportunity. I started when I was 16 in high school along with smoking, but never really got 'hooked' until I was in college and hated going out into the cold to smoke when I could hide under the warm blankets with my nic whore. I turned 26 five days ago and realized that 10 years is TOOO LONG to put up with this crap.
Being the ninja dipper that I was, I've been a half-can eater a day for the most part, but I could brew a whole can on a bad day or if I had a whole day by myself without seeing anybody and nothing to do. I've also taken a couple breaks from chew before and have been able to successfully reduce my intake with each break, but now I'm ready to take back my life one day at a time. This is my fourth day without chew and it already feels different than 'taking a break', this feels like a first class ticket to suckland. I look forward to meeting some people who are putting up with the same crap that I'm going through.
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From what I understand; if you're on day 4, you're past the worse part. Congrats on the decision.
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Welcome to the Sultans of September,
You are making a great decision to take back your life. It is not easy to release the stranglehold that nicotine has on you. You will never fully defeat her and everyday will be a struggle to stay on top. The most important things you can do are to get on here everyday and post roll call. That is your word for the day and nobody wants to be the asshat whose word means jack. Second you need to read, read and read some more. The more you know and understand the Nicotine the more you will hate it and the more it will fuel your Quit to stay strong. Listen to the valuable advice that all the veterans give out... they know what they are talking about. Get as many phone numbers as possible. You need to a large chain of accountability with your brothers and sisters on this site. We are all here for you and I am sure you will be there for many people that need your assistance to stay strong as well.
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I wish quit at 26. Wise choice, use this resource wisely, and I quit with you today.
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Listen to all the advice you get. Believe me you aren't the only ninja dipper. 40 + year ninja here! My wife was the only person I knew that was wise to my addiction (and that was for 33 years) and most of the time I 'thought' I had her fooled. I got to where I had a dip (not pouches) in 24/7 rather I was around people or not. I sure as hell wish I'd quit at your age but that can't be changed so I'm glad I quit today!
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Thanks guys for the feedback and words of advise. I've been reading a ton from the other quitters, and I noticed that I seem to be younger than the average quitter. I actually work as a drug and alcohol counselor at one of the state prison facilities and I see too many people 'over the hill' that are dealing with consequences from their addictions 20, 30, 40+ years from starting and they look like shit. I don't want to look like that. I just hope to be able to be as helpful to others as so many of you fellas have been to me.
Today was my 5th day today and that dull ache in my brain is finally subsiding! Sinn-1, Physical withdrawal-0.
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Today was my 5th day today and that dull ache in my brain is finally subsiding! Sinn-1, Physical withdrawal-0.
Wrong bro. Sinn - 5, NB (nic bitch) - 0. Every damn day (EDD) is another battle. All you have to do to win is forgo putting a cancer causing weed in your mouth. IF you win that day, that's a +1. I call that BOOM baby. You're on the right track SF, keep winning EDD.
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Big congrats on the HOF today ... stop and smell the quit! Enjoy today, but realize it's just a milestone ... just a tiny little blip on your quit path. DO NOT become complacent, refocus your energies and stay quit!! Quitting with ya today bro!