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Title: Joining the fight
Post by: hokiehi on January 02, 2013, 10:30:00 AM
I'm 38 and have been dipping for about 30 years....yep.....I am not even kidding. My wife and oldest son have been pushing me this past year to give up the habit and I decided I was ready to do so myself. So I had my last dip during the Clemson/LSU game on Monday night. Yesterday was brutal and today hasn't been much better. I'm chewing gum as well as using some herbal snuff. Been dealing with some lightheadedness and some frustrations/anxiety.....but I know it is early and will pass. I'm just going to take it one day at a time.
Title: Re: Joining the fight
Post by: J2b on January 02, 2013, 10:35:00 AM
Quote from: hokiehi
I'm 38 and have been dipping for about 30 years....yep.....I am not even kidding. My wife and oldest son have been pushing me this past year to give up the habit and I decided I was ready to do so myself. So I had my last dip during the Clemson/LSU game on Monday night. Yesterday was brutal and today hasn't been much better. I'm chewing gum as well as using some herbal snuff. Been dealing with some lightheadedness and some frustrations/anxiety.....but I know it is early and will pass. I'm just going to take it one day at a time.
Great decision. Why not put your mouth where your money is? Head on over to April 2013 (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=7622) and post roll call (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=50) with your April brethren.

Then read everything. Embrace the suck. Let it serve to remind you how powerful this addiction is. Quit for today - today is easy. Today is a concept we grasp and can wrap our addict minds around.

We will talk about tomorrow when it gets here. For now, lets focus on today. in the morning we will do the same thing.

But it all starts with Roll Call. Soon as your name is on the line, we can talk.

One thing you should be aware of is the difference between a habit (like picking your nose) and an addiction, like using nicotine. There is a big difference between the two, and the sooner you can admit you are an addict the better off you will be.
Title: Re: Joining the fight
Post by: G on January 02, 2013, 10:43:00 AM
Go post roll call.

Stay quit today. Repeat tomorrow. We're here to help.

You don't get lightheaded and anxious over quitting biting your fingernails. You get those physical withdrawals because your body wants to make you give in and feed it the nicotine it needs to maintain what has become your "normal." There's a new "normal" for you sir, but you gotta go through some sheet to get there. If I can do it, you can do it.

Yell if you have any questions.
Title: Re: Joining the fight
Post by: hokiehi on January 02, 2013, 10:49:00 AM
Thanks fellas. Posted to the roll call. I'm going to do this!!!! And yes, I know it's an addiction and not a habit. I'm not ashamed to admit it. Feeling pretty good right now. I find that keeping myself as busy as possible helps when the feelings come on. It's early in the game, but I can do this.
Title: Re: Joining the fight
Post by: G on January 02, 2013, 12:02:00 PM
Quote from: hokiehi
Thanks fellas. Posted to the roll call. I'm going to do this!!!! And yes, I know it's an addiction and not a habit. I'm not ashamed to admit it. Feeling pretty good right now. I find that keeping myself as busy as possible helps when the feelings come on. It's early in the game, but I can do this.
Then let's get it done together. You're joining a badass group of guys in April 13. Lean on them. They have big, strong shoulders which turn j2b on, but they're also good for helping to carry a fellow quitter when he needs some support.

Yell if you need anything.
Title: Re: Joining the fight
Post by: jhodge on January 02, 2013, 02:45:00 PM
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Quote from: hokiehi
Thanks fellas.  Posted to the roll call.  I'm going to do this!!!!  And yes, I know it's an addiction and not a habit.  I'm not ashamed to admit it.  Feeling pretty good right now.  I find that keeping myself as busy as possible helps when the feelings come on.  It's early in the game, but I can do this.
Then let's get it done together. You're joining a badass group of guys in April 13. Lean on them. They have big, strong shoulders which turn j2b on, but they're also good for helping to carry a fellow quitter when he needs some support.

Yell if you need anything.
Thats great you made step 1 of your commitment to quit. Now just remember we don't take roll call around here lightly. Everytime you post roll(which should be everyday no exceptions) you are giving your word that you will not dip/chew for that day. SO keep on posting and let me know if I can help, I'm on Day 37 so I just went through were you are.

Jim
Title: Re: Joining the fight
Post by: hokiehi on January 02, 2013, 04:30:00 PM
It's officially been 42 hours without a dip. My day at work has been worthless. I feel like I'm in a daze one minute and ready to rage the next. Fortunately it has been slow so I could hang in my office and not have too much interaction with anyone. Going to head home, eat, throw in a second workout for the day, and watch some football. I'll see you quitters again tomorrow. Roll call bright and early.
Title: Re: Joining the fight
Post by: Tazbutane on January 02, 2013, 04:37:00 PM
Quote from: hokiehi
It's officially been 42 hours without a dip. My day at work has been worthless. I feel like I'm in a daze one minute and ready to rage the next. Fortunately it has been slow so I could hang in my office and not have too much interaction with anyone. Going to head home, eat, throw in a second workout for the day, and watch some football. I'll see you quitters again tomorrow. Roll call bright and early.
sounds like a good plan. Don't forget lots of water to help flush the nic out. Live chat is a great place to visit if you need to rage. quit with you. Tazbutane
Title: Re: Joining the fight
Post by: 30isEnuff on January 02, 2013, 05:39:00 PM
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Quote from: hokiehi
It's officially been 42 hours without a dip.  My day at work has been worthless.  I feel like I'm in a daze one minute and ready to rage the next.  Fortunately it has been slow so I could hang in my office and not have too much interaction with anyone.  Going to head home, eat, throw in a second workout for the day, and watch some football.  I'll see you quitters again tomorrow.  Roll call bright and early.
sounds like a good plan. Don't forget lots of water to help flush the nic out. Live chat is a great place to visit if you need to rage. quit with you. Tazbutane
hey hokiehi, It's good to see another victim of slavery wanting to be FREE! You can do this ONE day at a time. Don't worry about yesterday, we don't do the past! Don't worry about tomorrow, it isn't real yet. Focus on now, today, one day at a time....one minute at a time.
Stay busy, exercise, drink cold water, piss a lot, set a new record for situps or the 1/4 mile! Nicotine makes nothing better! Don't be a stopper, just BE QUIT!
read this: READ (http://www.killthecan.org/facts/stopper-quitter.asp)

Cheers! If I can BE QUIT then I know that YOU CAN! 'bang head'
Title: Re: Joining the fight
Post by: hokiehi on January 03, 2013, 07:36:00 AM
Thanks, 30isEnuff. Focusing on today! I made it through the night ok. Wife and kids are super supportive and congratulated me on day 2 as soon as I got home. Wife is running defense with the kids knowing that my patientce is thin. Bit of a rough nights sleep with waking up much more than normal. And despite working out twice yesterday and eating very healthy, I was up 3 effin pounds. How is that possible? Oh well....today is a new day and I'm ready to tackle it. I'm 3 days in now and I know I can beat this thing. No more pinching the bear....I'm going to kick it in the nuts!
Title: Re: Joining the fight
Post by: GR8WHITEBUFFALO on January 03, 2013, 08:45:00 AM
Besides trouble sleeping, you might find going to the john a little tougher than before since nicotine is a laxative. Plenty of water and a little olive oil on your salads will help with that part.

Sleep will come easier later in this fight as your brain rewires itself from the chemical dependency that you inflicted on it all those times.

Hold fast.
Title: Re: Joining the fight
Post by: Tazbutane on January 03, 2013, 09:55:00 AM
Quote from: hokiehi
Thanks, 30isEnuff. Focusing on today! I made it through the night ok. Wife and kids are super supportive and congratulated me on day 2 as soon as I got home. Wife is running defense with the kids knowing that my patientce is thin. Bit of a rough nights sleep with waking up much more than normal. And despite working out twice yesterday and eating very healthy, I was up 3 effin pounds. How is that possible? Oh well....today is a new day and I'm ready to tackle it. I'm 3 days in now and I know I can beat this thing. No more pinching the bear....I'm going to kick it in the nuts!
3 lbs can be water weight, apparently spitting all the time keeps users in a state of dehydration, no more spitting + lots of water = couple of pounds of water weight.

I have not seen anywhere if we should expect it to be long term gain, or if things even back out over time.....
Title: Re: Joining the fight
Post by: JW1977 on January 03, 2013, 10:34:00 AM
Quote from: hokiehi
Thanks, 30isEnuff. Focusing on today! I made it through the night ok. Wife and kids are super supportive and congratulated me on day 2 as soon as I got home. Wife is running defense with the kids knowing that my patientce is thin. Bit of a rough nights sleep with waking up much more than normal. And despite working out twice yesterday and eating very healthy, I was up 3 effin pounds. How is that possible? Oh well....today is a new day and I'm ready to tackle it. I'm 3 days in now and I know I can beat this thing. No more pinching the bear....I'm going to kick it in the nuts!
Dude, I gained 6, yeah thats right, I said SIX Goddamn pounds in the first 5 days.

But they are gone now! and so is the headache, and the dizzy feeling. - You are kicking ass Hokie, I'll quit with you today.
Title: Re: Joining the fight
Post by: hokiehi on January 03, 2013, 11:03:00 AM
LOL! Glad to see I'm not the only one to have weight gain. I know it sounds trivial....but damn....I dropped 30 lbs this past year and am proud of the shape I'm in and work hard to maintain it! Water weight would make sense though as I'm no longer spitting so much.

And thank you all for the support. It means a great deal to know I'm surrounded by quitters. You guys inspire me and just reading this forum is helping me get through the cravings. I will not cave and I'm gonna kick this addiction to the curb!
Title: Re: Joining the fight
Post by: Obrien219 on January 03, 2013, 11:12:00 AM
Quit chew 12/5/12. Just found this site today. Glad I did - I think it will help to talk to others trying to quit.
Title: Re: Joining the fight
Post by: hokiehi on January 03, 2013, 11:37:00 AM
Quote from: Obrien219
Quit chew 12/5/12. Just found this site today. Glad I did - I think it will help to talk to others trying to quit.
This is what I'm talking about! The support system around here is phenominal and makes me want to quit even more.
Title: Re: Joining the fight
Post by: JW1977 on January 03, 2013, 11:45:00 AM
Quote from: hokiehi
LOL! Glad to see I'm not the only one to have weight gain. I know it sounds trivial....but damn....I dropped 30 lbs this past year and am proud of the shape I'm in and work hard to maintain it! Water weight would make sense though as I'm no longer spitting so much.

And thank you all for the support. It means a great deal to know I'm surrounded by quitters. You guys inspire me and just reading this forum is helping me get through the cravings. I will not cave and I'm gonna kick this addiction to the curb!
Well I can guaranfuckingtee that that dip did not help you lose those 30 lbs. I know for a fact - dude there was nothing I liked more than a big old fatty while pumpin iron. But now, it's a fatty of smokey mountain herbal and a fire in my ass like you would not believe....
Title: Re: Joining the fight
Post by: hokiehi on January 03, 2013, 11:47:00 AM
Quote from: JW1977
Quote from: hokiehi
LOL!  Glad to see I'm not the only one to have weight gain.  I know it sounds trivial....but damn....I dropped 30 lbs this past year and am proud of the shape I'm in and work hard to maintain it!  Water weight would make sense though as I'm no longer spitting so much. 

And thank you all for the support.  It means a great deal to know I'm surrounded by quitters.  You guys inspire me and just reading this forum is helping me get through the cravings.  I will not cave and I'm gonna kick this addiction to the curb!
Well I can guaranfuckingtee that that dip did not help you lose those 30 lbs. I know for a fact - dude there was nothing I liked more than a big old fatty while pumpin iron. But now, it's a fatty of smokey mountain herbal and a fire in my ass like you would not believe....
Hellz yeah! Smokey Mnt herbal is my knew go-to as well.
Title: Re: Joining the fight
Post by: Mthomas3824 on January 03, 2013, 12:52:00 PM
Quote from: hokiehi
Quote from: JW1977
Quote from: hokiehi
LOL!  Glad to see I'm not the only one to have weight gain.  I know it sounds trivial....but damn....I dropped 30 lbs this past year and am proud of the shape I'm in and work hard to maintain it!  Water weight would make sense though as I'm no longer spitting so much. 

And thank you all for the support.  It means a great deal to know I'm surrounded by quitters.  You guys inspire me and just reading this forum is helping me get through the cravings.  I will not cave and I'm gonna kick this addiction to the curb!
Well I can guaranfuckingtee that that dip did not help you lose those 30 lbs. I know for a fact - dude there was nothing I liked more than a big old fatty while pumpin iron. But now, it's a fatty of smokey mountain herbal and a fire in my ass like you would not believe....
Hellz yeah! Smokey Mnt herbal is my knew go-to as well.
My experience....I went from 225 to 185 then quit dipping. gained back and weighed 215 in September. From Sept - DEC I got as low as 183.

So you may gain but don't sweat the gain too much, once you overcome the triggers, if you desire to loose weight, you will and it will seem really simple to do.
Title: Re: Joining the fight
Post by: hokiehi on January 03, 2013, 03:22:00 PM
Ok....nearing in on the 72 hour mark. I must say that today has been pretty good. I was struggling yesterday, but today was much improved. I'm hoping tomorrow will be even better. I'm going to cut out of work early and go home to be with the family. Rinse and repeat. See you all tomorrow morning for roll call. Stay strong!
Title: Re: Joining the fight
Post by: Mthomas3824 on January 03, 2013, 03:57:00 PM
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Ok....nearing in on the 72 hour mark. I must say that today has been pretty good. I was struggling yesterday, but today was much improved. I'm hoping tomorrow will be even better. I'm going to cut out of work early and go home to be with the family. Rinse and repeat. See you all tomorrow morning for roll call. Stay strong!
It gets better but just because it is out of your system, you are in for some battles. You only battle and worry about today.

Some days, you will feel like you can't do this forever. Then you'll wake up and realize you feel so much better than you can remember.

What is happening is that your brain needs time to rewire without relying on the poison to function.

I hope this get you prepared that at 72 hours, you've only just begun. Know this, if you can go 72 hours, you can go undefeated; you must stay focused only on winning your battle today. Don't think that you can't do this tomorrow. Know that you can do it for today. Tomorrow is too far away. Worry and win today.

If you wake tomorrow, post roll again and fight. You will get stronger, your brain will rewire and you will love being nic free.

Embrace the SUCK! Grin in the Fight. Its not easy but it is worth it.

You had 3 hard days. You have many more ahead but finally, you will get a mix of good to great days too.
Title: Re: Joining the fight
Post by: 30isEnuff on January 03, 2013, 04:33:00 PM
I eat less, exercise more and gained 20 pounds that will not leave!! LOL
I'd rather be alive and aware than have that poison in my system making me unaware and acting like a stupid redneck techie!
Life without nicotine is "real life". I have oxygen reaching my brain and it is much better and easier to think and troubleshoot. I can think, not just in the a.m. but in the p.m. also. Before, I was only good in the a.m. as the overnight sleep put oxygen into my body. Now, it doesn't matter, I'm FREE of the poison and everything it did/can do to me!

If I can be quit ONE day at a TIME, then I know that YOU CAN TOO!! 'bang head'
Title: Re: Joining the fight
Post by: hokiehi on January 04, 2013, 07:54:00 AM
Day 4 my brothers in quit! Last night was great. I didn't get a single craving and had these weird moments of what I can only describe as brain euphoria where everything just seemed clearer. Sleep was still broken and was wide awake by 4am which is a good hour earlier than I normally get up. But I had a great workout this morning and work is looking manageable. It's going to be a good day of quit.
Title: Re: Joining the fight
Post by: redtrain14 on January 04, 2013, 11:11:00 AM
Quote from: hokiehi
Day 4 my brothers in quit! Last night was great. I didn't get a single craving and had these weird moments of what I can only describe as brain euphoria where everything just seemed clearer. Sleep was still broken and was wide awake by 4am which is a good hour earlier than I normally get up. But I had a great workout this morning and work is looking manageable. It's going to be a good day of quit.
Well done. Take splice in the good days.