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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: RMM11 on July 10, 2012, 10:31:00 PM
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Hey everyone,
I saw that were supposed to introduce ourselves the whole nine yards, so here goes. I'm 19 and i've chewed cope for 4 years mostly a can a day. Stressing it can go up to 3 a day, at least it has before.
I recently decided to quit after watching my gums painfully yet slowly recede and watching one of Gruen's youtube videos.
So before i get balls deep into this I guess I should really explain my quit. I dont know if I'm doing it for the right reasons or if I'll be given hell for it but the ONLY reason I'm quitting is to save my jaw.
I love Cope. Everything about it... the smell, the spit, the look, the taste I mean EVERYTHING. What I love more though is my face and I want to keep it the way it is right now. I also don't want to have to tell my Mom that I have the "c word" or have her bury her only son. I'm not sure if that's a selfish reasoning or what but those are my reasons. Thanks everyone for the help.
(Day 3)
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You've come to the right place if you want a group of people to support you that will tell you like it is. Me I have been here for 9 days and wow it has helped, not only in reading up on everything that has helped those that have made it to the hall of fame (100 days), but also through the interaction of the boards, pm;s and the live chat room.
If you have not yet, go through the welcome infomation and read up. The come into the October quit group, and post on the roll call to say that you will quit for the day. The just come back and follow the discussions, and then repeat day after day.
I know if you are serious (and it took me 23 years to get serious), I will quit with you each day.
you can send me a message any time
Derek
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Thanks SirDerek,
I got serious when I tasted blood in my spit at work the other day. It's time to end it. I got your back too bro.
Ryan
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Hey everyone,
I saw that were supposed to introduce ourselves the whole nine yards, so here goes. I'm 19 and i've chewed cope for 4 years mostly a can a day. Stressing it can go up to 3 a day, at least it has before.Â
I recently decided to quit after watching my gums painfully yet slowly recede and watching one of Gruen's youtube videos.
So before i get balls deep into this I guess I should really explain my quit. I dont know if I'm doing it for the right reasons or if I'll be given hell for it but the ONLY reason I'm quitting is to save my jaw.
I love Cope. Everything about it... the smell, the spit, the look, the taste I mean EVERYTHING. What I love more though is my face and I want to keep it the way it is right now. I also don't want to have to tell my Mom that I have the "c word" or have her bury her only son. I'm not sure if that's a selfish reasoning or what but those are my reasons. Thanks everyone for the help.
(Day 3)
RMM, You are here for a reason. I understand what you are saying about Cope. I get it. I also think you have no idea (yet) what that "love" puts you through! And how one-sided your relationship is. Think "Stockholm syndrome." I dipped Cope for 27+ years and had no idea the kind of slavery I was living under. I still can't fathom it. I know you don't love cope, but I also know that your gonna have to figure that out on your own. I'd be happy to expand on that if you wish. The cancer thing is a whole different subject, but frankly it was not even in the top 5 reasons I quit.
Please read everything you can in the WELCOME section, the WORDS OF WISDOM forum, and HOF SPEECHES. It will be hard to "love" nicotine after reading all this.
BTW, you will be told that the surest path to failure is to do this for someone else. It is true. Quit because you are selfish, that's what I did. Ironically, the people I love the most benefit greatly!
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I quit with you Ryan. I'm Day 3 too. Nicotine can't have my life anymore.
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I love Cope. Everything about it... the smell, the spit, the look, the taste I mean EVERYTHING.
you need to hate it to be successful.
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I love Cope. Everything about it... the smell, the spit, the look, the taste I mean EVERYTHING.
you need to hate it to be successful.
RMM - I know you are 19......but I am going to talk to you like you are my 10 year old for a moment, okay?...if not - do not read any further.....
still reading?
okay......
here is the deal......I can tell you 1000 times do not do what I did....all the vets in here can.....but the nic bitch is too cunning......you are too young and to stupid and I do not think you have the balls to quit (yes - that is me looking at myself in the mirror when I was your age)
so - this is not me busting your balls or being a dick....this is me saying you are young and not worldly and the nic bitch is more cunning than you.......and, on by the way, I am correct here..........
so I will quit with you every day.....but you have to post roll every day ....u game?
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RMM, here's something (http://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?showtopic=6319) written by another guy that was in love with cope.
Maybe some other quitter will post the link to the thread listing all the crazy shit things we did to feed the crave. Stuff that ONLY a slave, sac-less dumbass would do (I can't find it, dammit)
Love Cope? Yea. That 85lb toothless wreck down the road "loves" meth, too.
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I love Cope. Everything about it... the smell, the spit, the look, the taste I mean EVERYTHING.
you need to hate it to be successful.
RMM - I know you are 19......but I am going to talk to you like you are my 10 year old for a moment, okay?...if not - do not read any further.....
still reading?
okay......
here is the deal......I can tell you 1000 times do not do what I did....all the vets in here can.....but the nic bitch is too cunning......you are too young and to stupid and I do not think you have the balls to quit (yes - that is me looking at myself in the mirror when I was your age)
so - this is not me busting your balls or being a dick....this is me saying you are young and not worldly and the nic bitch is more cunning than you.......and, on by the way, I am correct here..........
so I will quit with you every day.....but you have to post roll every day ....u game?
I'm with cleanfuel. I wish somebody would have grabbed my ass when I was young and thought I was sooo COOL and in love with my Kodiak bear.
I loved my bear so much. People used to say "that shits nasty, I heard they put fiberglass in it to cut your lip" I would then pretend to "plug the bears ears" on the can (because he didn't like people talking bad about him) and proceed to say "that's right...REAL MEN chew this" then I would offer the offender a pinch and when they said no I called them a pussy and flashed them a lip full of shit. Ahh yes, true love. Loved it so much I hid it from my wife and family years later. Because that's what you do with something you love, you hide it.
I wish someone, without warning, just started bitch slapping me over and over again telling me what an ass I was and what a mistake I was making. I wish they had a fast forward machine to show me what damage my precious bear would do to me 15 yrs later. I'm not even talking just physical damage either, that's only a small part if the equation. The dependency, the cost, the power it had over me, and much much more. Oh how I wish...
However I was young then too and probably would not have listened, but still I would have loved a CHANCE.
That's what we can offer you kid, a bitch slap of chance. We WERE YOU. WE HAVE BERN THERE AND DONE THAT. We can offer some bitch slaps but we can also offer you some hugs and advice and encouragement.
But that is all we can do is offer. Up to you if you want the help. Sure wish I had this offer back in the day. Could have saved me a lot of suffering today.
Up to you kid...
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I love Cope. Everything about it... the smell, the spit, the look, the taste I mean EVERYTHING.
you need to hate it to be successful.
RMM - I know you are 19......but I am going to talk to you like you are my 10 year old for a moment, okay?...if not - do not read any further.....
still reading?
okay......
here is the deal......I can tell you 1000 times do not do what I did....all the vets in here can.....but the nic bitch is too cunning......you are too young and to stupid and I do not think you have the balls to quit (yes - that is me looking at myself in the mirror when I was your age)
so - this is not me busting your balls or being a dick....this is me saying you are young and not worldly and the nic bitch is more cunning than you.......and, on by the way, I am correct here..........
so I will quit with you every day.....but you have to post roll every day ....u game?
I'm with cleanfuel. I wish somebody would have grabbed my ass when I was young and thought I was sooo COOL and in love with my Kodiak bear.
I loved my bear so much. People used to say "that shits nasty, I heard they put fiberglass in it to cut your lip" I would then pretend to "plug the bears ears" on the can (because he didn't like people talking bad about him) and proceed to say "that's right...REAL MEN chew this" then I would offer the offender a pinch and when they said no I called them a pussy and flashed them a lip full of shit. Ahh yes, true love. Loved it so much I hid it from my wife and family years later. Because that's what you do with something you love, you hide it.
I wish someone, without warning, just started bitch slapping me over and over again telling me what an ass I was and what a mistake I was making. I wish they had a fast forward machine to show me what damage my precious bear would do to me 15 yrs later. I'm not even talking just physical damage either, that's only a small part if the equation. The dependency, the cost, the power it had over me, and much much more. Oh how I wish...
However I was young then too and probably would not have listened, but still I would have loved a CHANCE.
That's what we can offer you kid, a bitch slap of chance. We WERE YOU. WE HAVE BERN THERE AND DONE THAT. We can offer some bitch slaps but we can also offer you some hugs and advice and encouragement.
But that is all we can do is offer. Up to you if you want the help. Sure wish I had this offer back in the day. Could have saved me a lot of suffering today.
Up to you kid...
RM. I hear ya! I was seduced by the bitch too! Yep, just like a horney 19 yr. old and a $50 hooker, she looked good, tasted good, rode good shit she even smelled good. Then a week later she raised the price of admission but she was still a wild ride. Then that burning started. What did that bitch give me? Oh well that stinky piece of ass was worth it, that's what penicillin is for! Now you can't get enough, just keep going back for more. Someday you'll wake and realize how filthy that pussy is and how bad it stinks. Untill then pray your dick will still work when you turn 25! Just like that filthy whore, nicotine has no redeeming qualities. If you truely believe you love everything about it don't attempt to quit you'll be back at banging the can in no time. I screwed that filthy bitch for 40 yrs. I kicked her out of the sack so many times it became a joke! Soon the scabs and sores will be so bad you'll hardly recognize yourself. Make the decision to keep banging the can or grow a set of balls and look for a adult relationship with real adult lifestyle choices.
Per, clean, dIesel and I are here to give our helping hand and advise but ultimately the choice is yours. Bang the can or be a man!!!
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Thanks SirDerek,
I got serious when I tasted blood in my spit at work the other day. It's time to end it. I got your back too bro.
Ryan
You're right: it's time to end it. Your reasons for being here don't matter. Whether or not they're selfish doesn't matter. How long you've been an addict doesn't matter. The only thing that matters is that you are here and you've made your decision. Now, do not...... DO NOT falter. It only gets worse with time.
You say you love it. We've all said that at one point or another. Read my HOF (linked in my sig line below). Tobacco was part of my definition of me. You know what? It wasn't, really. I've realized that I didn't love it. Eventually it was just a hollow addiction I was stuck with. There was no enjoyment or satisfaction. Just a filthy health risk. One of my very few regrets in life is that it took me 19 years to realize that. Don't let yourself turn into me. Kill it now.
Per034 is correct. The more you hate it, the easier it becomes. Again, this is covered in my HOF. I'll bet that in your personal life you don't let anybody tell you what to do in any way. Right? Well, think about it like this: the tobacco companies have been telling you exactly what to do. The additives they put in their products is designed to enslave us and force us to buy that next can. I was once paying them to slowly kill me. To hell with them. I'll make my own decisions. They'll never get another dime of my money.
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Thanks everyone for the support. I know I'm considered young and saying that I love the habit already puts me in a bad place to start this, but just because I enjoy it and I'm young doesn't mean I don't have enough sense in my head to know when to stop. So again thanks everyone! I look forward to quitting with all of you!
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TMM -
You're a hell of a lot smarter that me - I was a slave for 30 years. I applaud you for quitting now - you won't regret it. Ever.
But let's be clear here - you say you love the taste, smell, look, and spit of Cope. So, if I had the power to invent something that tasted just like Cope, smelled just like Cope, looked just like Cope, and spit just like Cope...but...had no nicotine, I doubt that you'd "love it" quite as much.
Plain and simple, you're a drug addict. Just like the rest of us. And you'll always be an addict...always. If you have not already done so, you've got to recognize this.
Otherwise, you will fail.
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Oh yes, I recognize that I'm addicted to it haha. trust me i have not had a fun last 3 days!
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Oh yes, I recognize that I'm addicted to it haha. trust me i have not had a fun last 3 days!
Good for you! Great attitude and start. You need to prepare for the mind games! The addiction is really good at screwing with your mind. That is where reading really helps, you begin to recognize the things and thoughts others have had are similar to you. Even these days right after HOF I'm fighting the evil bitch, not the same as last month but still here.
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Oh yes, I recognize that I'm addicted to it haha. trust me i have not had a fun last 3 days!
Good for you! Great attitude and start. You need to prepare for the mind games! The addiction is really good at screwing with your mind. That is where reading really helps, you begin to recognize the things and thoughts others have had are similar to you. Even these days right after HOF I'm fighting the evil bitch, not the same as last month but still here.
Keep pluggin' through. Fuel calls this phase the quickening. I wanted to rip someone's fucking head off and still have those moments. But, it's mainly because I can now realize how mentally soft I was to allow myself to be controlled by a one-sided, in it for myself, bitch of a girlfriend. No one with an ounce of self respect and decency allows themselves to get walked on by others. Why the hell should we allow a chemical to do it to us?
If you cannot rationalize that in your young little head, then she must give a helluva blowjob. Remember, it won't be her jaw falling off.
Man up, post up, and I'll see you in the AM
Peace,
Eric
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Oh yes, I recognize that I'm addicted to it haha. trust me i have not had a fun last 3 days!
Good for you! Great attitude and start. You need to prepare for the mind games! The addiction is really good at screwing with your mind. That is where reading really helps, you begin to recognize the things and thoughts others have had are similar to you. Even these days right after HOF I'm fighting the evil bitch, not the same as last month but still here.
Keep pluggin' through. Fuel calls this phase the quickening. I wanted to rip someone's fucking head off and still have those moments. But, it's mainly because I can now realize how mentally soft I was to allow myself to be controlled by a one-sided, in it for myself, bitch of a girlfriend. No one with an ounce of self respect and decency allows themselves to get walked on by others. Why the hell should we allow a chemical to do it to us?
If you cannot rationalize that in your young little head, then she must give a helluva blowjob. Remember, it won't be her jaw falling off.
Man up, post up, and I'll see you in the AM
Peace,
Eric
Where are you? Do you want to re-live the first 3 days all over again or is it easier to slowly give in and die? Get your ass to posting roll, that's what we do around here!
I'm quit today, your brothers and sisters are quit today, are YOU quit today?