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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: NotsureWhyIeverDidthis on May 07, 2019, 10:55:03 PM
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Im sitting here in a hotel room in FL on day 83 of being chew (Kodiak) free. I realized today, upon landing at the airport, that this is another first for me in being nicotine free. Even having lived in FL for almost 10 years ('00-'09) and living away for the last 10 years, after having quit chew on 2/14/19, this is the first time in my life I've been on the ground in FL without nicotine in my body or a fat 'gamer' in my lip for longer than a day.
I didnt find this site with the intention to quit, i found it afterwards, looking to see what others have experienced giving up chew. I started ~25 years ago, in middle and high school. like many of your stories that ive read, my use simply progressed into a full blown addiction. The 'lips' just kept bigger and bigger, a normal pinch became 1/4 of the tin.
From what I've read so far, I seem to have taken a different path to my initial quit. After remembering my aunt was only able to quit smoking by seeing a hypnotherapist many years ago, I decided to give it a try. It doesnt seem to have diminished the cravings etc but I can say I have not had to struggle with buying a tin in the gas station, I've not had the urge to go get a can. I even found a half full can in my winter coat 2-3 weeks in to my quit and after taking a snif, dumped into the trash can and threw the tin in the recycle bin...found it a bit humorous actually, like it was a test. All i can say is A) i havent had a chew in 83 days, after roughly 25 years of having one every day, B) I AM NOT GOING THROUGH THE FIRST FEW WEEKS AGAIN!!!!!!! and C) I feel like what really helped me was recognizing that chew wasnt something that I just choose to do way back when, but rather it was something that I unwittingly used to deal with stress and anxiety. Separating those things has really helped. I know, it sounds a little 'fufu' or whatever, but its working for me.
Im not sure why i waited until Day 83 to post, but I dont think it really matters. I've lived vicariously through you guys for the last month plus and thought (or just finally had the opportunity) I need to share just in case it might help someone else.
I am looking forward to my Day 100 and as Ive read others stories about their journey towards it and beyond I thought why shouldnt I try to share and celebrate that with others who know exactly what it means to get there.
In any case, this short sharing of my current story feels good to get out there. I'd say good luck, but luck doesnt keep that shit out of your mouth, you do.
Looking forward to reading more and if anyone wants to share back please do. Theres only so many times I can tell my wife about the dip dreams and how they've evolved !!!!
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Awesome post! I'm sure the May 2019 quit group would welcome you and celebrate 100 days with you. I happen to be tight with one of the conductors for that group. 8)
Quitting with a team is WAY better than quitting by yourself. It only takes a minute to make a promise each morning. Why not make that promise every day? I know it has kept me quit.
Stranger999 - day 1,341.
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I agree. Join your quit group, and post roll daily. That’s how you take full advantage of this site.
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Agree with everyone - Notsure - go over to May19 and post roll. Now. today. I joined on day 30 here. I have a brother in Oct16 that joined after day 100. I can't imagine my quit without him. Day 83 is GREAT QUITTAGE but if you are like many of us (the majority of us) you will have some rough patches and funks ahead - go over, post roll, join the brother/sisterhood!!
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Come over to the May 19 group. It is HOF month and we'd love to have you join up. We post roll every morning, and that's kind of the key. Sounds like you have been following along on here so WUPP (wake up piss post) should be familiar.
My story is so very similar to yours. Started around 14-15 and I used for 25 years with a few random "stoppages". Get in and get some digits, sounds weird at first but it will help. And it will take your stoppage up to a full blown quit. Send me a PM and I'll respond with my digits if you are interested.
https://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?topic=1015.0
Gunnar 89
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Hey Brother and Welcome! Man you are a badass, congrats on making it so far alone! I too once went an year and a half and then had one bad day, then I found KTC. It has been a life changer and the Brotherhood is awesome! Head on over to May 19 and post roll with us!
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Welcome to KTH!
I too was able to quit with the help of a hypnotherapist. It worked for 9 months. Then I ran into issues due to family deaths and I allowed myself to cave.
It took 16 years to get the will to quit again and finally quit at the ripe age of 59 after 40 years of dipping.
You are well on your way. Just stay vigilant.
You have to be ready to get the craves around key milestone dates. That is right - those days when you think you have this thing totally kicked and then you get those inner reminders.
Be on guard, stay strong.
I quit with you today.
Dundippin day 1333
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I didn’t see you posted on role yesterday. Let me know if you are having problems posting. I think the link I sent should put you to the May 2019 group.
Stay quit brother.
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hey guys, sorry about the silence. Day 90 today! Didnt cave, in case you're worried about that! Its funny, even though I have cravings still (some times bad, some times not so much but still noticeable) I dont have a desire to put a chew in my mouth. I dont have a desire to buy a tin when I'm at the gas station register etc.
Honestly the reason for the silence since my original post is I cant figure out how to join the group and "post roll" Feel like my dad when he got his first smart phone!
Any help would be appreciated!
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Click here >>> https://forum.killthecan.org/index.php?topic=1015.8175
Go to the last post in the group.... click on the quote button and post your promise, I will go in there now to show you where to post ;)
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Also I sent you a personal message with my digits, feel free to give me a call and I will be glad to walk you through it. No reason to do this alone, lot's of support here.
Bryce
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see below
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hey guys, sorry about the silence. Day 90 today! Didnt cave, in case you're worried about that! Its funny, even though I have cravings still (some times bad, some times not so much but still noticeable) I dont have a desire to put a chew in my mouth. I dont have a desire to buy a tin when I'm at the gas station register etc.
Honestly the reason for the silence since my original post is I cant figure out how to join the group and "post roll" Feel like my dad when he got his first smart phone!
Any help would be appreciated!
Hey brother—check your inbox...I’m sending digits...I’ll help you through it. You are in my group too. It’s been said already, but there is no reason for you to go through this without support. That’s what we are all here for, to get and give support. Feel free to reach out any time.
Dawgs aka Nathan
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Honestly the reason for the silence since my original post is I cant figure out how to join the group and "post roll" Feel like my dad when he got his first smart phone!
Any help would be appreciated!
Yeah, I smell a bunch of bullshit. You figured out how to post here....people gave you links to your home group...and you can't figure out how to post roll call? Did your father have any children that lived?
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Ok, I don't want to scare you away. Getting past 90 days on your own is pretty bad -ass. You're probably thinking you may not need to go to extreme measures like getting involved with a bunch of strangers on the internet and holding yourself accountable. All the more power to you if you can keep it up without an extra kick in the ass. I know I hated the idea...at first, but I was eventually humbled by my addiction.
If you don't want to join up with a group, that's cool. You don't have to make up any stories for not doing so. Just know that if your addiction throws a sucker punch, there will be people willing to bend over backwards to help you stay quit. But you have to be willing. You aren't there yet.
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Congrats on the HOF Brother! Honored to be Quit with you today!