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Title: New guy day 8
Post by: Sgtsixguns on June 14, 2019, 05:37:31 PM
Hello everyone, been lurking here for awhile, I'm 29 and have chewed since I was 18. About 2 weeks ago I ended up having a panic attack at the end of a long hot day. Long story short I threw everything I had stashed in the garbage 8 days ago and been reading here everyday to help me get through.
Title: Re: New guy day 8
Post by: Peter Gibbons on June 14, 2019, 05:48:40 PM
You've made it through a lot of the garbage that comes with the first week of quitting by yourself, and that's awesome.  The nicotine is likely all out of your system, but your body isn't going to be happy about it.  Jump into the September group (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?topic=14277.0) and figure out how to post roll.  You guys are fighting this stuff together so you should start reaching out to them and some of the other folks that post around here.

You'll see WUPP (wake up, piss, post) thrown around a lot here, and for good reason.  It's important to get on roll first thing in the morning and take nicotine off the table for the day.  Post up today and we'll see you first thing in the morning.  Also, feel free to talk about what you're currently experiencing.  The leader in the clubhouse in September has 21 days under his belt, but you guys are all around the same stage in your quit.
Title: Re: New guy day 8
Post by: Sgtsixguns on June 14, 2019, 10:55:50 PM
I posted in another spot aswell. I just stared down an almost full log. 4 full tins left. I held it In my hand, knowing the pain in my jaw would go away with one pinch.

I walked outside and threw all 4 tons in the dumpster. It was one of the hardest things I've ever done
Title: Re: New guy day 8
Post by: pky1520 on June 15, 2019, 07:26:18 AM
I posted in another spot aswell. I just stared down an almost full log. 4 full tins left. I held it In my hand, knowing the pain in my jaw would go away with one pinch.

I walked outside and threw all 4 tons in the dumpster. It was one of the hardest things I've ever done
That’s a huge win! You can use that moment as strength and motivation next time you’re faced with a big time crave.  Every time you face down one of those craves and it feels like it’s the hardest thing you’ve ever done, your brain rewires itself.  It learns just a little bit that it can survive without the chemical satisfaction of nicotine.  Every time you say no, you get a little stronger.  Over time, after that chemical addiction has come at you from every possible direction, those craves get weaker, less painful and you know how to handle them better.  Eventually they all but stop and the addiction is just a distant memory.

You can do it, just keep winning one moment at a time.
Title: Re: New guy day 8
Post by: Sgtsixguns on June 17, 2019, 07:42:08 PM
day 11, my anxiety is through the roof, i have a soar throat and my jaw hurts abit. which could be from the 10 cavities i have on my teeth, the quit(im hoping), or the big c, doc didnt see anything 2 days before i quit in the er room other than a red throat, but it stilll races through my mind almost every second of the day.
i know i sound whiny and you guys have been through worse than i have. just feeling allitle down at the moment
Title: Re: New guy day 8
Post by: Ruthless on June 17, 2019, 08:15:05 PM
day 11, my anxiety is through the roof, i have a soar throat and my jaw hurts abit. which could be from the 10 cavities i have on my teeth, the quit(im hoping), or the big c, doc didnt see anything 2 days before i quit in the er room other than a red throat, but it stilll races through my mind almost every second of the day.
i know i sound whiny and you guys have been through worse than i have. just feeling allitle down at the moment

Hang in there dude; every day gets a little better.  Don’t let the unknown drown you.  Focus on the quit ODAAT; if the doc didn’t see anything, then don’t worry about what ifs.  Just keep posting roll and making it through the day.  My number is available if you want it bro.

Ruthless
Title: Re: New guy day 8
Post by: Croakenhagen on June 17, 2019, 08:28:40 PM
day 11, my anxiety is through the roof, i have a soar throat and my jaw hurts abit. which could be from the 10 cavities i have on my teeth, the quit(im hoping), or the big c, doc didnt see anything 2 days before i quit in the er room other than a red throat, but it stilll races through my mind almost every second of the day.
i know i sound whiny and you guys have been through worse than i have. just feeling allitle down at the moment

I had the almost the EXACT same things happen after I quit. I had a terrible sore throat, a lot of sores and jaw pain after I quit. I found that I was grinding my teeth more in my sleep after I quit because the anxiety was so bad. I thought about the big C a lot. It's all normal. You did a ton of damage over the years and it will take a little while to heal up. Just remember that going back to it will make it worse and NOT better. I'm sending you my digits. Do not hesitate to txt or call, man!
Title: Re: New guy day 8
Post by: Croakenhagen on June 17, 2019, 08:30:33 PM
day 11, my anxiety is through the roof, i have a soar throat and my jaw hurts abit. which could be from the 10 cavities i have on my teeth, the quit(im hoping), or the big c, doc didnt see anything 2 days before i quit in the er room other than a red throat, but it stilll races through my mind almost every second of the day.
i know i sound whiny and you guys have been through worse than i have. just feeling allitle down at the moment

I had the almost the EXACT same things happen after I quit. I had a terrible sore throat, a lot of sores and jaw pain after I quit. I found that I was grinding my teeth more in my sleep after I quit because the anxiety was so bad. I thought about the big C a lot. It's all normal. You did a ton of damage over the years and it will take a little while to heal up. Just remember that going back to it will make it worse and NOT better. I'm sending you my digits. Do not hesitate to txt or call, man!
Oh, and I forgot....I did a lot of breathing exercises and relaxation exercises using the HeadSpace app on Google play. It's also on the Apple App store. It really helps to recenter your mind and get everything in perspective again after quitting. You CAN do this. 
Title: Re: New guy day 8
Post by: Sgtsixguns on June 19, 2019, 01:45:29 PM
Day 13 going fairly well. Went to the doctor and he took a good long look at my mouth and throat. Told me he didn't see anything cancerous looking which has really helped the anxiety.
Title: Re: New guy day 8
Post by: Sgtsixguns on June 19, 2019, 01:57:06 PM
Thank you everyone who has pm me and given advice. Its made a world of difference in my quit
Title: Re: New guy day 8
Post by: RAZD611 on June 19, 2019, 02:39:37 PM
Thank you everyone who has pm me and given advice. Its made a world of difference in my quit
Hang in there and dont lose sight on the prize. Sometimes it gets worse before it gets better.
Title: Re: New guy day 8
Post by: Sgtsixguns on June 25, 2019, 02:40:40 PM
Ok everyone I'm off to the dentist. Bit nervous about it but gona get through. Will post an update when I'm done
Title: Re: New guy day 8
Post by: Ruthless on June 25, 2019, 03:37:20 PM
Ok everyone I'm off to the dentist. Bit nervous about it but gona get through. Will post an update when I'm done

Good luck man!
Title: Re: New guy day 8
Post by: Peter Gibbons on June 25, 2019, 04:21:31 PM
Ok everyone I'm off to the dentist. Bit nervous about it but gona get through. Will post an update when I'm done

Good luck man!

I used to always make my dentist appointments first thing in the morning so I wouldn't have dipped before the exam.  Couldn't wait to finish and get to the car to throw one in.  The things we did to ourselves...
Title: Re: New guy day 8
Post by: Athan on June 25, 2019, 04:26:34 PM
I did the same thing!  I would abstain for 24 hours (as if to hide the evidence?!!) and then have a swollen lipper in on the way home. Oh for shame!
Title: Re: New guy day 8
Post by: Sgtsixguns on June 25, 2019, 05:06:02 PM
Ok that went way. Better than my Google feed brain thought it was going to. ( for the love of God everyone stay off dr. Google).  I told my dentist my fears about every bump and nick in my mouth being cancer, that I have been quit for 19 days, she looked my over from every angle and told me she couldn't even tell were I held my chew.
I chewed a tin a day for 11 years and I thought it was obvious but i guess it wasn't as bad as i thought.
Most of my pain now i attribute to the rotten teeth and the quit. What a load off the mind and i will never go back to the tin
Title: Re: New guy day 8
Post by: wildirish317 on June 25, 2019, 09:55:46 PM
Ok that went way. Better than my Google feed brain thought it was going to. ( for the love of God everyone stay off dr. Google).  I told my dentist my fears about every bump and nick in my mouth being cancer, that I have been quit for 19 days, she looked my over from every angle and told me she couldn't even tell were I held my chew.
I chewed a tin a day for 11 years and I thought it was obvious but i guess it wasn't as bad as i thought.
Most of my pain now i attribute to the rotten teeth and the quit. What a load off the mind and i will never go back to the tin

Dental advice:  Brush your teeth twice/day, when you get up and before you go to bed.  Floss your teeth before you go to bed.  Been doing this for 30+ years (along with when I dipped) and still have my natural teeth and they are in good shape.
Title: Re: New guy day 8
Post by: Sgtsixguns on July 03, 2019, 09:43:07 PM
Day 27 still getting headaches and not sleeping much more than 3 hours at a time. Mouth is starting to feel better aswell as my throat. Still get the random pains throughout my jaw teeth and throat but I'm pretty sure it's the cope fiend wanting to be fed.
Title: Re: New guy day 8
Post by: tgafish on July 04, 2019, 10:57:34 AM
Day 27 still getting headaches and not sleeping much more than 3 hours at a time. Mouth is starting to feel better aswell as my throat. Still get the random pains throughout my jaw teeth and throat but I'm pretty sure it's the cope fiend wanting to be fed.
Try some over the counter sleep aids.  Did wonders for me during my first 2 weeks