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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: mtrentin on June 25, 2020, 12:35:27 PM
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Hi Everyone
I am new to the site. This is my first real attempt to quit dipping. I am a lawyer, father of a 11-month old baby boy and we just found out my wife is pregnant with number 2. I started dipping at 18 years old and I turned 30 last week - so a good 12 years. I work a long hour office job and dip regularly for hours at a time. On Tuesday, I went to the dentist (same guy I've been seeing my whole life) and he told me that I have a mild case of leukoplakia in my lip. He was only able to see it while using a black light. He told me that it is not cancer but that it can develop into cancer. He stressed the importance of quitting immediately. I haven't slept or ate well since hearing the news and I've been obsessively reading everything there is to know about my condition. Seems like the literature on leukoplakia and the chances of developing cancer are all over the place, which has added to my anxiety. I've though a lot about my son, the baby on the way and how I do not want them to grow up without a father. I have never been so scared in my life. It is strange that, while I knew dipping could lead to serious health problems, I was never afraid until now. After two days of not dipping, I am already getting headaches and cravings. I know this will be a long and difficult road and hope that this website could be a valuable resource for me. If anyone has any person experience regarding leukoplakia and quitting, I would appreciate hearing from you. God bless.
Mike
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Hi Everyone
I am new to the site. This is my first real attempt to quit dipping. I am a lawyer, father of a 11-month old baby boy and we just found out my wife is pregnant with number 2. I started dipping at 18 years old and I turned 30 last week - so a good 12 years. I work a long hour office job and dip regularly for hours at a time. On Tuesday, I went to the dentist (same guy I've been seeing my whole life) and he told me that I have a mild case of leukoplakia in my lip. He was only able to see it while using a black light. He told me that it is not cancer but that it can develop into cancer. He stressed the importance of quitting immediately. I haven't slept or ate well since hearing the news and I've been obsessively reading everything there is to know about my condition. Seems like the literature on leukoplakia and the chances of developing cancer are all over the place, which has added to my anxiety. I've though a lot about my son, the baby on the way and how I do not want them to grow up without a father. I have never been so scared in my life. It is strange that, while I knew dipping could lead to serious health problems, I was never afraid until now. After two days of not dipping, I am already getting headaches and cravings. I know this will be a long and difficult road and hope that this website could be a valuable resource for me. If anyone has any person experience regarding leukoplakia and quitting, I would appreciate hearing from you. God bless.
Mike
@mtrentin (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=17906) Theres a lot Mikes in the forum and I am sure they would gladly welcome another. If yesterday was the day you quit head over to https://ktcforum.org/index.php?topic=16602.0 and post roll. Roll is our daily promise to be nicotine free for the day. We do everything One Day at a Time (ODAAT). If you quit prior to yesterday say the 24th you'll be in September and should head here to post roll for a day 3 https://ktcforum.org/index.php?topic=16478.0 I dont have much experience with leukoplakia both others may but I can tell you using this site has been the only way I was able to quit.
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@mtrentin (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=17906) You have started a journey that many others have done before you and I pray that you will be successful. I am at day 113 after a 30 year addiction. I actually went to a ear, nose and throat doctor today due to an 8 week sore throat which local doctors could not figure out. I have LPR reflux which has my throat extremely raw. But thank the Lord it wasn’t something worse. There is so much info on this site that I tell anyone who will listen about the site. I even had my ent doc ask me many questions about the site so that he could possibly get it on a brochure. This is the site you need but YOU need to be willing, ready and WANT to quit. Once you start there is no turning back. Embrace the suck as they say and ride it out as it will get better. It took me 90 days to get a somewhat decent feeling other then my throat. So find your group, post your promise everyday and take it one day at a time. You got this and everybody is here to help. Stay strong, stay safe and God bless you brother.