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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: NukeEngineer on August 26, 2020, 12:36:34 AM
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I am 25 years old and have been dipping off and on for the last 5 years. (About a can every 5 days when on) I started in college and used it to help me sit and study for hours on end. I should have learned to develop a method to sit still for that long without a substance. Over the last 5 years I have "quit" multiple times for a couple months at a time, the longest was for 7 months. The concept of "forever" is what I struggle with the most.
My long term goals here are to:
1. Be able to sit down and work at my desk without feeling an urge to dip
2. To come to terms with forever
This time I decided to quit because I have noticed my mouth health deteriorating. I keep getting tonsillitis due to increased bacteria from dead skin created from constant dipping. My mouth and throat always look gnarly when I get it and this time, I had a moment where I thought about getting mouth cancer and freaked out. I'm a radiation worker, so that further increases my odds.
I made the decision to quit, and am scheduling my first dentist appointment in years to get screened and to get some cavities filled that were left for too long.
At this point, I'm quite familiar with the first couple weeks after quitting, so I know what is coming. I'm quite ready to embrace the suck. Where I may need the most support is in the psychological game between 3 and 6 months.
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I am 25 years old and have been dipping off and on for the last 5 years. (About a can every 5 days when on) I started in college and used it to help me sit and study for hours on end. I should have learned to develop a method to sit still for that long without a substance. Over the last 5 years I have "quit" multiple times for a couple months at a time, the longest was for 7 months. The concept of "forever" is what I struggle with the most.
My long term goals here are to:
1. Be able to sit down and work at my desk without feeling an urge to dip
2. To come to terms with forever
This time I decided to quit because I have noticed my mouth health deteriorating. I keep getting tonsillitis due to increased bacteria from dead skin created from constant dipping. My mouth and throat always look gnarly when I get it and this time, I had a moment where I thought about getting mouth cancer and freaked out. I'm a radiation worker, so that further increases my odds.
I made the decision to quit, and am scheduling my first dentist appointment in years to get screened and to get some cavities filled that were left for too long.
At this point, I'm quite familiar with the first couple weeks after quitting, so I know what is coming. I'm quite ready to embrace the suck. Where I may need the most support is in the psychological game between 3 and 6 months.
@NukeEngineer (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=18300) glad to see you on roll this morning. Just want to point out you never quit, you just stopped for a period of time. Not the same. Focusing ODAAT - one day at a time will help you a great deal. You don’t need to quit for forever, just today. We will deal with quitting tomorrow when it gets here. Drink a ton of water, get some exercise, get a little extra rest and realize it will take time for your new normal to be present. We can’t put poison in our bodies for years and expect everything to go well after a week or 2. It takes time but realize those cravings, headaches, etc is our body healing. Food will taste so much better. You will get so much better sleep. Your energy and focus levels will return to normal. Best of all, you will not actively be killing yourself. If you choose life over nicotine, you really can do this and we are here to help. Check your messages as my digits will be there.