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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Wolfe68 on January 29, 2021, 12:12:45 PM
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Hi. First time here, thousand and tenth time I’ve tried to quit. Started when I got off the school bus at age 15.
I’m 53.
I have quit for periods of time in my life, but never for very long.
I have tried just about everything but a support group, so here I am. I’m hoping to make some friends, to get help, and to maybe help someone else if I can.
I’m committed to the quit. Thanks.
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Hi. First time here, thousand and tenth time I’ve tried to quit. Started when I got off the school bus at age 15.
I’m 53.
I have quit for periods of time in my life, but never for very long.
I have tried just about everything but a support group, so here I am. I’m hoping to make some friends, to get help, and to maybe help someone else if I can.
I’m committed to the quit. Thanks.
Welcome @Wolfe68 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=19254)
Quitting isn't easy, but it's worth it...if you're serious. Here at KTC we quit cold turkey.
KTC is an ACCOUNTABILITY site. We quit together everyday. Just for that 24 hours, holding one another ACCOUNTABLE.
It's a simple process, but it isn't easy.
Reach out to some of the vets on this site. If you want some accountability, pm me your digits, and I will give you mine in return.
Let's get you started here https://ktcforum.org/index.php?topic=16907.0 with the May 2021 Quit Group.
Take your life back here ONE DAY AT A TIME. POST ROLL first thing every morning!
Again, Welcome, reach out if you need anything.
Jeff
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It’s going to take me a bit to figure this out. I’ve never used a forum before
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It’s going to take me a bit to figure this out. I’ve never used a forum before
It's all good buddy. You will be in the April 2021 group based on your Jan 15 quit date.
Don't worry about making a mistake
We can fix it. The only mistake you can make is NOT POSTING roll.
Jeff
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Ok, the quick reply button seemed to work. How do I post roll? That sounds like my check in every day, right?
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Also, when I type something in this quick reply box, does everyone see it or just you Jeff?
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Also, when I type something in this quick reply box, does everyone see it or just you Jeff?
We can all see it.
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https://ktcforum.org/index.php?topic=16868.0
This is your quit group Wolfe. Take your time. Follow the directions on how to post roll. Yes, post toll everyday first thing in the morning.
Jeff
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Also, when I type something in this quick reply box, does everyone see it or just you Jeff?
don't open any links from @Skolvikings (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=70) . At least not at work. And I'll never send you pictures unless you ask for them.
Like me, everything else that you've tried has failed - you always return to suckle at her teet once more.
This works. Wade into it. Drink the kool-aid. I haven't had a lipper in over 1125 days and all I do is promise once a day.
Ain't worried about tomorrow, tomorrow has enough worries of its own.
I'm glad you're here.
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Welcome Wolfe68 - awesome to see you posted up in April 2021! Looks like a good group is forming there.
The method here is so simple it shouldn't work - but somehow it does. Wake up every morning, get that promise posted as soon as possible, then just honor your word all day. Wake up tomorrow, and do it all over again. In the coming days, weeks, reach out to your fellow April brothers (use the pm system here) and the "vets" and introduce yourself and (sounds scary, but --) trade your cell phone numbers. Those numbers and connections just may be a lifeline when you need it. Or a lifeline for your brothers and sisters, when they need you.
This place, this community, these knuckleheads (yes, I'm looking at YOU @Athan (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=258) ) saved me when nothing else worked. I'm at day 1,653 and I still touch base with the mothership every single day. You have found the spot - your best chance at freedom - just drink the kool-aid and trust the system.
You are on a journey. It will be hard, it will be crazy, it will be brutal, it will be hysterical, it will test the hell out of you. But I can guarantee that if you keep making and keeping those promises day after day, it will change your life for the better.
Proud as heck to quit with you today. Digits (phone number) available - just pm me with yours.
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Hi. First time here, thousand and tenth time I’ve tried to quit. Started when I got off the school bus at age 15.
I’m 53.
I have quit for periods of time in my life, but never for very long.
I have tried just about everything but a support group, so here I am. I’m hoping to make some friends, to get help, and to maybe help someone else if I can.
I’m committed to the quit. Thanks.
Welcome @Wolfe68 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=19254)
Quitting isn't easy, but it's worth it...if you're serious. Here at KTC we quit cold turkey.
KTC is an ACCOUNTABILITY site. We quit together everyday. Just for that 24 hours, holding one another ACCOUNTABLE.
It's a simple process, but it isn't easy.
Reach out to some of the vets on this site. If you want some accountability, pm me your digits, and I will give you mine in return.
Let's get you started here https://ktcforum.org/index.php?topic=16907.0 with the May 2021 Quit Group.
Take your life back here ONE DAY AT A TIME. POST ROLL first thing every morning!
Again, Welcome, reach out if you need anything.
Jeff
Ok- spent some time today navigating through all of this and I know much more than I did 10 hours ago. My number is POOF!! Thanks
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Hi. First time here, thousand and tenth time I’ve tried to quit. Started when I got off the school bus at age 15.
I’m 53.
I have quit for periods of time in my life, but never for very long.
I have tried just about everything but a support group, so here I am. I’m hoping to make some friends, to get help, and to maybe help someone else if I can.
I’m committed to the quit. Thanks.
Welcome @Wolfe68 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=19254)
Quitting isn't easy, but it's worth it...if you're serious. Here at KTC we quit cold turkey.
KTC is an ACCOUNTABILITY site. We quit together everyday. Just for that 24 hours, holding one another ACCOUNTABLE.
It's a simple process, but it isn't easy.
Reach out to some of the vets on this site. If you want some accountability, pm me your digits, and I will give you mine in return.
Let's get you started here https://ktcforum.org/index.php?topic=16907.0 with the May 2021 Quit Group.
Take your life back here ONE DAY AT A TIME. POST ROLL first thing every morning!
Again, Welcome, reach out if you need anything.
Jeff
Ok- spent some time today navigating through all of this and I know much more than I did 10 hours ago. Thanks
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@Wolfe68 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=19254)
Hey brother. Welcome to the site. You've got some great advice below and I concur with every word. I wanted to chime in to tell you not to post your phone number on any of the forums. I took care of your post below. In the future, send/receive phone numbers over the sites private messenger (PM) system. See "My Messages" above and follow the prompts. If you need further help let me know.,
Proud to be quit with you my friend
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Congrats on the 2-0 @Wolfe68 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=19254) Crushing it!
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Congrats on the 2-0 @Wolfe68 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=19254) Crushing it!
Day 20 feels good. I'm gaining cautious optimism about my quit. I have to keep reminding myself that it's just today, just today, just today. I'm not completely divorced from her. She's still lurking in the shadows with her poison arrow. She wants me back, badly. She's offering comfort and calm. She fucking lies. Lies Lies Lies. But she's sneaky and attractive and convincing. She's a liar. A demon siren waiting for me to cave so she can take me back again. Today I won't let her, and each day the distance between us grows greater, but in tiny tiny incremental bits. Not enough to notice, but I know if I wait her out, if I stay the course and slowly move away, eventually the seductress will fade. She will never disappear, and that might be good, knowing she's there, ready to pounce and throw her chains around my weak mind. Knowing that one step closer to her is suicide. One step will be the end. But survive today. Just today. Tomorrow will be an inch further away.
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Congrats on the 2-0 @Wolfe68 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=19254) Crushing it!
Day 20 feels good. I'm gaining cautious optimism about my quit. I have to keep reminding myself that it's just today, just today, just today. I'm not completely divorced from her. She's still lurking in the shadows with her poison arrow. She wants me back, badly. She's offering comfort and calm. She fucking lies. Lies Lies Lies. But she's sneaky and attractive and convincing. She's a liar. A demon siren waiting for me to cave so she can take me back again. Today I won't let her, and each day the distance between us grows greater, but in tiny tiny incremental bits. Not enough to notice, but I know if I wait her out, if I stay the course and slowly move away, eventually the seductress will fade. She will never disappear, and that might be good, knowing she's there, ready to pounce and throw her chains around my weak mind. Knowing that one step closer to her is suicide. One step will be the end. But survive today. Just today. Tomorrow will be an inch further away.
Well said, Wolfe! Keep up the fight!
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Congrats on the 2-0 @Wolfe68 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=19254) Crushing it!
Day 20 feels good. I'm gaining cautious optimism about my quit. I have to keep reminding myself that it's just today, just today, just today. I'm not completely divorced from her. She's still lurking in the shadows with her poison arrow. She wants me back, badly. She's offering comfort and calm. She fucking lies. Lies Lies Lies. But she's sneaky and attractive and convincing. She's a liar. A demon siren waiting for me to cave so she can take me back again. Today I won't let her, and each day the distance between us grows greater, but in tiny tiny incremental bits. Not enough to notice, but I know if I wait her out, if I stay the course and slowly move away, eventually the seductress will fade. She will never disappear, and that might be good, knowing she's there, ready to pounce and throw her chains around my weak mind. Knowing that one step closer to her is suicide. One step will be the end. But survive today. Just today. Tomorrow will be an inch further away.
Well said, Wolfe! Keep up the fight!
Exactly my friend. Just for today!! It's empowering. Keep the faith brother. You're on the right path.
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Okay, after 28 days, I think I'm starting to get the hang of this site. Maybe it's because some of the fucking fog has lifted for just a second and I can think a little more clearly, albeit not fully.
I'm still not sure if I'm posting in the right spot, but whatever, I don't give a shit, I'm writing this for myself right now to be honest. Today is day 29, and while it's not any sort of KTC milestone or anything, it is a huge milestone for me. I've never quit before. I've only stopped as all of us here have done before. No new news for anyone here. However, I've never stopped for more than 28 days, and I've NEVER quit. For 38 years, I've NEVER quit. Until now, and now I'm on day 29. New fucking territory for me my friends. It does not sound like a lot, but to me it's fucking huge. I'm not vacant of craves, I still think about the shit, I cringe every time I fill up my truck with gas because I'm fighting off the temptation to walk into the c-store and see the wall behind the gal at the counter screaming like a billboard in Vegas at me. I'm still suffering. But the point is, I'm not going to cave because I've been through the physical trauma of withdrawal. The bitch has been exorcised from my body. She's still in my brain though, and only time, determination, and the support of people on this site will shrink her into oblivion. The key for me is to know that the nic bitch will live there forever in my brain, I'm an addict and that's the way it is, but I can put that little c*nt in a cage and keep the key under my control. She'll wake up from time to time and try to seduce me with promises, but I know better. In 38 years I've given her the key WAY too many times. This time is over, O V E R. I'm grateful for this day, the people I've met here in the past 28 days have changed my life. No nicotine today. That's all I have to do. Everything is in my head from this point on. 29 days and I'm now in new territory. I'm quit for today. I read this site every damn day and it's keeping me quit. - Wolfe out.
Congrats on the 2-0 @Wolfe68 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=19254) Crushing it!
Day 20 feels good. I'm gaining cautious optimism about my quit. I have to keep reminding myself that it's just today, just today, just today. I'm not completely divorced from her. She's still lurking in the shadows with her poison arrow. She wants me back, badly. She's offering comfort and calm. She fucking lies. Lies Lies Lies. But she's sneaky and attractive and convincing. She's a liar. A demon siren waiting for me to cave so she can take me back again. Today I won't let her, and each day the distance between us grows greater, but in tiny tiny incremental bits. Not enough to notice, but I know if I wait her out, if I stay the course and slowly move away, eventually the seductress will fade. She will never disappear, and that might be good, knowing she's there, ready to pounce and throw her chains around my weak mind. Knowing that one step closer to her is suicide. One step will be the end. But survive today. Just today. Tomorrow will be an inch further away.
Well said, Wolfe! Keep up the fight!
Exactly my friend. Just for today!! It's empowering. Keep the faith brother. You're on the right path.
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Okay, after 28 days, I think I'm starting to get the hang of this site. Maybe it's because some of the fucking fog has lifted for just a second and I can think a little more clearly, albeit not fully.
I'm still not sure if I'm posting in the right spot, but whatever, I don't give a shit, I'm writing this for myself right now to be honest. Today is day 29, and while it's not any sort of KTC milestone or anything, it is a huge milestone for me. I've never quit before. I've only stopped as all of us here have done before. No new news for anyone here. However, I've never stopped for more than 28 days, and I've NEVER quit. For 38 years, I've NEVER quit. Until now, and now I'm on day 29. New fucking territory for me my friends. It does not sound like a lot, but to me it's fucking huge. I'm not vacant of craves, I still think about the shit, I cringe every time I fill up my truck with gas because I'm fighting off the temptation to walk into the c-store and see the wall behind the gal at the counter screaming like a billboard in Vegas at me. I'm still suffering. But the point is, I'm not going to cave because I've been through the physical trauma of withdrawal. The bitch has been exorcised from my body. She's still in my brain though, and only time, determination, and the support of people on this site will shrink her into oblivion. The key for me is to know that the nic bitch will live there forever in my brain, I'm an addict and that's the way it is, but I can put that little c*nt in a cage and keep the key under my control. She'll wake up from time to time and try to seduce me with promises, but I know better. In 38 years I've given her the key WAY too many times. This time is over, O V E R. I'm grateful for this day, the people I've met here in the past 28 days have changed my life. No nicotine today. That's all I have to do. Everything is in my head from this point on. 29 days and I'm now in new territory. I'm quit for today. I read this site every damn day and it's keeping me quit. - Wolfe out.
Your doing great Wolf and just keep blogging it out. We all have different milestones that pertain to our quit. Mine was almost daily after 30 plus years of use and now I am at 346 days. I also never have been this far before and still have the craves and thoughts about it daily. Everyday is win to an addict and that is what we are. Glad your here and you need anything let me know. I tried to create something different here and screwed up. Oh well I think we get the point.
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Okay, after 28 days, I think I'm starting to get the hang of this site. Maybe it's because some of the fucking fog has lifted for just a second and I can think a little more clearly, albeit not fully.
I'm still not sure if I'm posting in the right spot, but whatever, I don't give a shit, I'm writing this for myself right now to be honest. Today is day 29, and while it's not any sort of KTC milestone or anything, it is a huge milestone for me. I've never quit before. I've only stopped as all of us here have done before. No new news for anyone here. However, I've never stopped for more than 28 days, and I've NEVER quit. For 38 years, I've NEVER quit. Until now, and now I'm on day 29. New fucking territory for me my friends. It does not sound like a lot, but to me it's fucking huge. I'm not vacant of craves, I still think about the shit, I cringe every time I fill up my truck with gas because I'm fighting off the temptation to walk into the c-store and see the wall behind the gal at the counter screaming like a billboard in Vegas at me. I'm still suffering. But the point is, I'm not going to cave because I've been through the physical trauma of withdrawal. The bitch has been exorcised from my body. She's still in my brain though, and only time, determination, and the support of people on this site will shrink her into oblivion. The key for me is to know that the nic bitch will live there forever in my brain, I'm an addict and that's the way it is, but I can put that little c*nt in a cage and keep the key under my control. She'll wake up from time to time and try to seduce me with promises, but I know better. In 38 years I've given her the key WAY too many times. This time is over, O V E R. I'm grateful for this day, the people I've met here in the past 28 days have changed my life. No nicotine today. That's all I have to do. Everything is in my head from this point on. 29 days and I'm now in new territory. I'm quit for today. I read this site every damn day and it's keeping me quit. - Wolfe out.
Your doing great Wolf and just keep blogging it out. We all have different milestones that pertain to our quit. Mine was almost daily after 30 plus years of use and now I am at 346 days. I also never have been this far before and still have the craves and thoughts about it daily. Everyday is win to an addict and that is what we are. Glad your here and you need anything let me know. I tried to create something different here and screwed up. Oh well I think we get the point.
Congrats on your personal milestone Wolfe! ODAAT. Proud to be quit with you!
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Okay, after 28 days, I think I'm starting to get the hang of this site. Maybe it's because some of the fucking fog has lifted for just a second and I can think a little more clearly, albeit not fully.
I'm still not sure if I'm posting in the right spot, but whatever, I don't give a shit, I'm writing this for myself right now to be honest. Today is day 29, and while it's not any sort of KTC milestone or anything, it is a huge milestone for me. I've never quit before. I've only stopped as all of us here have done before. No new news for anyone here. However, I've never stopped for more than 28 days, and I've NEVER quit. For 38 years, I've NEVER quit. Until now, and now I'm on day 29. New fucking territory for me my friends. It does not sound like a lot, but to me it's fucking huge. I'm not vacant of craves, I still think about the shit, I cringe every time I fill up my truck with gas because I'm fighting off the temptation to walk into the c-store and see the wall behind the gal at the counter screaming like a billboard in Vegas at me. I'm still suffering. But the point is, I'm not going to cave because I've been through the physical trauma of withdrawal. The bitch has been exorcised from my body. She's still in my brain though, and only time, determination, and the support of people on this site will shrink her into oblivion. The key for me is to know that the nic bitch will live there forever in my brain, I'm an addict and that's the way it is, but I can put that little c*nt in a cage and keep the key under my control. She'll wake up from time to time and try to seduce me with promises, but I know better. In 38 years I've given her the key WAY too many times. This time is over, O V E R. I'm grateful for this day, the people I've met here in the past 28 days have changed my life. No nicotine today. That's all I have to do. Everything is in my head from this point on. 29 days and I'm now in new territory. I'm quit for today. I read this site every damn day and it's keeping me quit. - Wolfe out.
Your doing great Wolf and just keep blogging it out. We all have different milestones that pertain to our quit. Mine was almost daily after 30 plus years of use and now I am at 346 days. I also never have been this far before and still have the craves and thoughts about it daily. Everyday is win to an addict and that is what we are. Glad your here and you need anything let me know. I tried to create something different here and screwed up. Oh well I think we get the point.
Congrats on your personal milestone Wolfe! ODAAT. Proud to be quit with you!
HELLLLL yesssss Brother You Dropppppinnn Bombbbbsss on this Quit!!!! im Damn Proud to qUit with you, are milestones are our life blood, they deepin our Quit and keep us in our resolve! your doing fantastic my friend and happy to call you my april brother
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Okay, after 28 days, I think I'm starting to get the hang of this site. Maybe it's because some of the fucking fog has lifted for just a second and I can think a little more clearly, albeit not fully.
I'm still not sure if I'm posting in the right spot, but whatever, I don't give a shit, I'm writing this for myself right now to be honest. Today is day 29, and while it's not any sort of KTC milestone or anything, it is a huge milestone for me. I've never quit before. I've only stopped as all of us here have done before. No new news for anyone here. However, I've never stopped for more than 28 days, and I've NEVER quit. For 38 years, I've NEVER quit. Until now, and now I'm on day 29. New fucking territory for me my friends. It does not sound like a lot, but to me it's fucking huge. I'm not vacant of craves, I still think about the shit, I cringe every time I fill up my truck with gas because I'm fighting off the temptation to walk into the c-store and see the wall behind the gal at the counter screaming like a billboard in Vegas at me. I'm still suffering. But the point is, I'm not going to cave because I've been through the physical trauma of withdrawal. The bitch has been exorcised from my body. She's still in my brain though, and only time, determination, and the support of people on this site will shrink her into oblivion. The key for me is to know that the nic bitch will live there forever in my brain, I'm an addict and that's the way it is, but I can put that little c*nt in a cage and keep the key under my control. She'll wake up from time to time and try to seduce me with promises, but I know better. In 38 years I've given her the key WAY too many times. This time is over, O V E R. I'm grateful for this day, the people I've met here in the past 28 days have changed my life. No nicotine today. That's all I have to do. Everything is in my head from this point on. 29 days and I'm now in new territory. I'm quit for today. I read this site every damn day and it's keeping me quit. - Wolfe out.
Congrats on the 2-0 @Wolfe68 (https://ktcforum.org/index.php?action=profile;u=19254) Crushing it!
Day 20 feels good. I'm gaining cautious optimism about my quit. I have to keep reminding myself that it's just today, just today, just today. I'm not completely divorced from her. She's still lurking in the shadows with her poison arrow. She wants me back, badly. She's offering comfort and calm. She fucking lies. Lies Lies Lies. But she's sneaky and attractive and convincing. She's a liar. A demon siren waiting for me to cave so she can take me back again. Today I won't let her, and each day the distance between us grows greater, but in tiny tiny incremental bits. Not enough to notice, but I know if I wait her out, if I stay the course and slowly move away, eventually the seductress will fade. She will never disappear, and that might be good, knowing she's there, ready to pounce and throw her chains around my weak mind. Knowing that one step closer to her is suicide. One step will be the end. But survive today. Just today. Tomorrow will be an inch further away.
Well said, Wolfe! Keep up the fight!
Exactly my friend. Just for today!! It's empowering. Keep the faith brother. You're on the right path.
keep calm and quit on brotha