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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: arrakisdq on September 18, 2018, 09:25:45 AM
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22 May 2018, 19:56 #4
Seems that I may have done this a little ass backward as I've been posting roll in the August 18 group for the last 23 days. I've been reading quite a few introductions here and not quite sure where to start. I guess for starters I have been dipping for the last 40 years, started when I was 14 (seemed like the cool thing to do as all of the other friends were doing it). Cope was my addiction of choice, started on it and ended it 23 days ago. I was just reading Alpine's introduction, and although I have, unfortunately decades more abuse, there are some common things there. Hiding the addiction is probably the most prevalent one, although looking back at things I know damn well most everyone I know, knew that I dipped.
Anyhow, the light finally came on for me that this is not what I need to be doing and the health risks which I downplayed in my own mind are just too great to risk life. I think it just has come to that time in my life that I need to take full responsibly and to be a role model for my grandchildren. Not to mention my wife of 35 years needs me to be the man she saw all those years ago. I know it was dumb and even dumber that I kept it up for some many years.
I’m not sure how well this may resonate with quitters or folks considering to quit, but there were numerous times that going to the dentist for normal cleanings I would also ask to have an oral cancer screening done. Pretty responsible I thought, but then 30 mins after leaving the office I throw in a chew! Dumb addict behavior or what. Things kind of came to a head for me this past April, I’ve been worried to death about oral cancer due to the soreness I have been experiencing for months. So with an upcoming dental appointment early in May I finally sat down with myself and decided enough was enough. April 30th was my first official day of no nicotine and I had that dental appointment which they told me to stop being such a worry wart and that everything was good.
Not sure if I hit all that I was supposed for an intro, I'm sure that the Veterans here will square me away. It does scare me that heroin addicts have a better success rate than nicotine addicts. I'm pretty sure I read that somewhere on the site in the past 3 weeks.
I'm here to stay quit!! See you all on roll call tomorrow!
Updated August 5th, 2018. Just wanted to provide a little more context into my addict behavior.
Last edited by arrakisdq on 05 Aug 2018, 11:03, edited 1 time in total.
Quit Date 4/30/2018
HoF Date 8/7/2018
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placeholder to update on second floor.
I'm putting my thoughts together.
dq
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so far so good. I elected to go with normal chewing gum. Seems to be working. Night sweats are decreasing, dental appointment next week. gave up alcohol as well since that is what got me in trouble a year and a half ago when I tried quitting.
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so far so good. I elected to go with normal chewing gum. Seems to be working. Night sweats are decreasing, dental appointment next week. gave up alcohol as well since that is what got me in trouble a year and a half ago when I tried quitting.
Good call on giving up the booze to get your quit head clear.
Whatever it takes, gum, seeds, jerky, fake, do it. You may gain a little weight, but it is the price of admission. That ticket you are buying is a ticket to freedom. Protect that damn quit at all costs.
The best way to do that is with accountability, go join the August pre-HOF group - click --- HERE (http://forum.killthecan.org/topic/30577754/22/?x=90#new)
Finally, we quit one day at a time. You put your name, a day count (promise to not use nicotine in ANY FORM) every day. It works.
I would wish you good luck, but there is no luck in quitting - DO IT, or DON'T. Your call
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Welcome. I agree, join the August group, and post roll. That, along with giving up the booze is your best chance of staying quit.
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Seems that I may have done this a little ass backward as I've been posting roll in the August 18 group for the last 23 days. I've been reading quite a few introductions here and not quite sure where to start. I guess for starters I have been dipping for the last 40 years, started when I was 14 (seemed like the cool thing to do as all of the other friends were doing it). Cope was my addiction of choice, started on it and ended it 23 days ago. I was just reading Alpine's introduction, and although I have, unfortunately decades more abuse, there are some common things there. Hiding the addiction is probably the most prevalent one, although looking back at things I know damn well most everyone I know, knew that I dipped.
Anyhow, the light finally came on for me that this is not what I need to be doing and the health risks which I downplayed in my own mind are just too great to risk life. I think it just has come to that time in my life that I need to take full responsibly and to be a role model for my grandchildren. Not to mention my wife of 35 years needs me to be the man she saw all those years ago. I know it was dumb and even dumber that I kept it up for some many years.
IÂ’m not sure how well this may resonate with quitters or folks considering to quit, but there were numerous times that going to the dentist for normal cleanings I would also ask to have an oral cancer screening done. Pretty responsible I thought, but then 30 mins after leaving the office I throw in a chew! Dumb addict behavior or what. Things kind of came to a head for me this past April, IÂ’ve been worried to death about oral cancer due to the soreness I have been experiencing for months. So with an upcoming dental appointment early in May I finally sat down with myself and decided enough was enough. April 30th was my first official day of no nicotine and I had that dental appointment which they told me to stop being such a worry wart and that everything was good.
Not sure if I hit all that I was supposed for an intro, I'm sure that the Veterans here will square me away. It does scare me that heroin addicts have a better success rate than nicotine addicts. I'm pretty sure I read that somewhere on the site in the past 3 weeks.
I'm here to stay quit!! See you all on roll call tomorrow!
Updated August 5th, 2018. Just wanted to provide a little more context into my addict behavior.
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You got it all in here, this is both for you and future quitters. Make it what you need it to be.
Catch you on roll in the AM
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Congratulations on making the decision to quit.
I chewed on and off (mostly on) for 35 years. Today I posted 137 days quit. It has definitely gotten easier for me. You will be successful if you set your mind to it. You have already pushed through the worst of it.
You got this!
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Hiding the addiction is probably the most prevalent one, although looking back at things I know damn well most everyone I know, knows that I dipped.
That was me too. I "hid" my dipping with 1/3 of a can in my lip at a time, sometimes.
Welcome.
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Looks like you have 2 introductions...?
Good job staying with it bud!
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Keep at it!
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This is a little late, but I thought it was worth posting here. This falls under the category of "You can do it without dip". I had been swapping messages with a recruiter from a new company and finally settled on a date for a cursory phone interview. Past experiences I will tell you that the first thing I would do is put in a dip about 5 mins before the conversation. On July 20th the arranged time was drawing near and I started to get that feeling, I looked over at the can of Hooch I had and then just took a couple of deep breaths and took a piece of gum. The phone rang and I started in with the interview.
The point here is that we can do these things without that dip/chew, its just not necessary. Our brains may try and tell us that it is but in actuality it has no bearing on how you are going to perform.
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This is a little late, but I thought it was worth posting here. This falls under the category of "You can do it without dip". I had been swapping messages with a recruiter from a new company and finally settled on a date for a cursory phone interview. Past experiences I will tell you that the first thing I would do is put in a dip about 5 mins before the conversation. On July 20th the arranged time was drawing near and I started to get that feeling, I looked over at the can of Hooch I had and then just took a couple of deep breaths and took a piece of gum. The phone rang and I started in with the interview.
The point here is that we can do these things without that dip/chew, its just not necessary. Our brains may try and tell us that it is but in actuality it has no bearing on how you are going to perform.
Love the HUNDY
Love your commitment to your group
Love the quit
Love that you're free
Keep it up!
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This is a little late, but I thought it was worth posting here. This falls under the category of "You can do it without dip". I had been swapping messages with a recruiter from a new company and finally settled on a date for a cursory phone interview. Past experiences I will tell you that the first thing I would do is put in a dip about 5 mins before the conversation. On July 20th the arranged time was drawing near and I started to get that feeling, I looked over at the can of Hooch I had and then just took a couple of deep breaths and took a piece of gum. The phone rang and I started in with the interview.
The point here is that we can do these things without that dip/chew, its just not necessary. Our brains may try and tell us that it is but in actuality it has no bearing on how you are going to perform.
Love the HUNDY
Love your commitment to your group
Love the quit
Love that you're free
Keep it up!
Congrats on that 100 and beyond!!
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placeholder to update on second floor.
I'm putting my thoughts together.
dq
Well I neglected to follow up on this.
I look back on that time from days 100 to 200 as an interesting time for me. No physical triggers to mention, more mental than anything else. I do know that I did attend the PA Meet-up @ my day 119. I do believe I was still in a fog plus stunned by the fact of all the Vets that attended, I mean flew in for this event.
You know I don't remember feeling all the bad shit in the beginning. May be the way I chose to quit, I don't know. What I can tell you is that it is an ongoing mental battle that I faced between 100 and 200 days. Even though as a Conductor I still found myself talking about it all when I would go on long walks with me dog. Yes, my dog Finlay knows more about KTC and groups then you would imagine :)
I guess my point here is that for those of you that are into you quit, it does get better. I no longer get those gut retching craves, it's more of a thought now. Sometimes I spend too much time on the thought, and is when it's time to think about something else.
Enough, that's some food for thought. I'll think about something to write about for 300 days. And I apologize for the rambling.
Peace out!
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poof!
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poof!
Poof? how bout HEY - LOOKEE HERE - SIX HUNDRED DAYS OF FREEDOM!
congratulations my man! Thanks for the support the last 600 days!