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I quit yesterday after lunch. Been trying to get to this point for a while, but I finally trashed the can yesterday.
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I quit yesterday after lunch. Been trying to get to this point for a while, but I finally trashed the can yesterday.
Great! If you make your way to "quit groups" and then to "October 2016" you will find your quit group, guys who are in your same boat, and new to the quit...
Congrats on saving your life bruh! Don't sweet talk yourself, the next pinch will kill you. I'm glad you came here, this place won't work without you, but will help you if you let it.
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I quit yesterday after lunch. Been trying to get to this point for a while, but I finally trashed the can yesterday.
Great! If you make your way to "quit groups" and then to "October 2016" you will find your quit group, guys who are in your same boat, and new to the quit...
Congrats on saving your life bruh! Don't sweet talk yourself, the next pinch will kill you. I'm glad you came here, this place won't work without you, but will help you if you let it.
Great advice from Drew...
Post roll early every morning and keep your promise just today.
Stay out of the past and future.
ODAAT
You dont need it... It did not help you.
It is a lie.
Search and fight for your freedom here reading these pages on KTC.
I Quit with you today.
Rawls 597
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I quit yesterday after lunch. Been trying to get to this point for a while, but I finally trashed the can yesterday.
Great! If you make your way to "quit groups" and then to "October 2016" you will find your quit group, guys who are in your same boat, and new to the quit...
Congrats on saving your life bruh! Don't sweet talk yourself, the next pinch will kill you. I'm glad you came here, this place won't work without you, but will help you if you let it.
Great advice from Drew...
Post roll early every morning and keep your promise just today.
Stay out of the past and future.
ODAAT
You dont need it... It did not help you.
It is a lie.
Search and fight for your freedom here reading these pages on KTC.
I Quit with you today.
Rawls 597
I saw you in October, don't worry about format, just drop a line like you did here
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Thanks DrewDrew and Rawls. I deep into a fog like feeling at this point, I'll check out roll call in a bit. For the next couple hours everybit of me will be fighting the urge, I have multiple co-workers that are dipping around me, so today is hard as hell. I am plowing through sun flower seeds at the moment.
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Thanks DrewDrew and Rawls. I deep into a fog like feeling at this point, I'll check out roll call in a bit. For the next couple hours everybit of me will be fighting the urge, I have multiple co-workers that are dipping around me, so today is hard as hell. I am plowing through sun flower seeds at the moment.
Ok all the better time to link with fellow foggers. I sent you a pm (top right corner). But the guys in October can help better, as they are very early in their quit. I'm pushing 560 days, and though I can help, I'm distant from the initial quit..take a second when you get one, many people don't read these intros
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Thanks DrewDrew and Rawls. I deep into a fog like feeling at this point, I'll check out roll call in a bit. For the next couple hours everybit of me will be fighting the urge, I have multiple co-workers that are dipping around me, so today is hard as hell. I am plowing through sun flower seeds at the moment.
Ok all the better time to link with fellow foggers. I sent you a pm (top right corner). But the guys in October can help better, as they are very early in their quit. I'm pushing 560 days, and though I can help, I'm distant from the initial quit..take a second when you get one, many people don't read these intros
Great job! Post roll Early EDD ODAAT! Do that, keep your word you can't fail! I quit with you today! Names on roll, you're never alone!
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How's the quit today?
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How's the quit today?
The quit sucked yesterday. I struggled with it, but made it through. I'm guessing today isn't going to be much fun either since I'm up 2 hours before I need to be.
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How's the quit today?
The quit sucked yesterday. I struggled with it, but made it through. I'm guessing today isn't going to be much fun either since I'm up 2 hours before I need to be.
It gets better Brown, I promise you that. Keep your head down and running through those brick walls. They will start to get further apart very soon and you'll be able to see the sunny skies awaiting you when this white-knuckle part is over.
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How's the quit today?
The quit sucked yesterday. I struggled with it, but made it through. I'm guessing today isn't going to be much fun either since I'm up 2 hours before I need to be.
It gets better Brown, I promise you that. Keep your head down and running through those brick walls. They will start to get further apart very soon and you'll be able to see the sunny skies awaiting you when this white-knuckle part is over.
Thanks,
For me, the fog is starting to lift already. Post lunch created a huge craving for me yesterday, but I got through it with the help of suthern_gentleman. That craving is back some today, but not as strong. The post meal and pre-bed chews were always my biggest 4 chews of the day.
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How's the quit today?
The quit sucked yesterday. I struggled with it, but made it through. I'm guessing today isn't going to be much fun either since I'm up 2 hours before I need to be.
It gets better Brown, I promise you that. Keep your head down and running through those brick walls. They will start to get further apart very soon and you'll be able to see the sunny skies awaiting you when this white-knuckle part is over.
Thanks,
For me, the fog is starting to lift already. Post lunch created a huge craving for me yesterday, but I got through it with the help of suthern_gentleman. That craving is back some today, but not as strong. The post meal and pre-bed chews were always my biggest 4 chews of the day.
It will ebb and flow during your quit. The general projection is towards easier, but there will be craves that sneak up on you even after hundreds of days quit. The difference is they are much easier to handle for two reasons: 1) you have tools to handle them by being active on KTC and 2) every +1 you add is another day further from being in the clutches of nicotine.
I used to plan my routine every day on when was the best time to get dips in. Pathetic. No more though. I've taken the reins back. You have too. Keep it up.
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How's the quit today?
The quit sucked yesterday. I struggled with it, but made it through. I'm guessing today isn't going to be much fun either since I'm up 2 hours before I need to be.
It gets better Brown, I promise you that. Keep your head down and running through those brick walls. They will start to get further apart very soon and you'll be able to see the sunny skies awaiting you when this white-knuckle part is over.
Thanks,
For me, the fog is starting to lift already. Post lunch created a huge craving for me yesterday, but I got through it with the help of suthern_gentleman. That craving is back some today, but not as strong. The post meal and pre-bed chews were always my biggest 4 chews of the day.
It will ebb and flow during your quit. The general projection is towards easier, but there will be craves that sneak up on you even after hundreds of days quit. The difference is they are much easier to handle for two reasons: 1) you have tools to handle them by being active on KTC and 2) every +1 you add is another day further from being in the clutches of nicotine.
I used to plan my routine every day on when was the best time to get dips in. Pathetic. No more though. I've taken the reins back. You have too. Keep it up.
Congrats on the best decision of your life. Keep drinking as much water as you can. It will really help with the fog.
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How's the quit today?
The quit sucked yesterday. I struggled with it, but made it through. I'm guessing today isn't going to be much fun either since I'm up 2 hours before I need to be.
It gets better Brown, I promise you that. Keep your head down and running through those brick walls. They will start to get further apart very soon and you'll be able to see the sunny skies awaiting you when this white-knuckle part is over.
Thanks,
For me, the fog is starting to lift already. Post lunch created a huge craving for me yesterday, but I got through it with the help of suthern_gentleman. That craving is back some today, but not as strong. The post meal and pre-bed chews were always my biggest 4 chews of the day.
It will ebb and flow during your quit. The general projection is towards easier, but there will be craves that sneak up on you even after hundreds of days quit. The difference is they are much easier to handle for two reasons: 1) you have tools to handle them by being active on KTC and 2) every +1 you add is another day further from being in the clutches of nicotine.
I used to plan my routine every day on when was the best time to get dips in. Pathetic. No more though. I've taken the reins back. You have too. Keep it up.
Congrats on the best decision of your life. Keep drinking as much water as you can. It will really help with the fog.
Power through, and by Monday the worst will be over. I cried like a child on my Day 3, Day 4 wasn't much better. Day 5 is when I opened my eyes and knew the SUCK was all worth it, and I never had to do that again as long as I was quit.
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How's the quit today?
The quit sucked yesterday. I struggled with it, but made it through. I'm guessing today isn't going to be much fun either since I'm up 2 hours before I need to be.
It gets better Brown, I promise you that. Keep your head down and running through those brick walls. They will start to get further apart very soon and you'll be able to see the sunny skies awaiting you when this white-knuckle part is over.
Thanks,
For me, the fog is starting to lift already. Post lunch created a huge craving for me yesterday, but I got through it with the help of suthern_gentleman. That craving is back some today, but not as strong. The post meal and pre-bed chews were always my biggest 4 chews of the day.
It will ebb and flow during your quit. The general projection is towards easier, but there will be craves that sneak up on you even after hundreds of days quit. The difference is they are much easier to handle for two reasons: 1) you have tools to handle them by being active on KTC and 2) every +1 you add is another day further from being in the clutches of nicotine.
I used to plan my routine every day on when was the best time to get dips in. Pathetic. No more though. I've taken the reins back. You have too. Keep it up.
Congrats on the best decision of your life. Keep drinking as much water as you can. It will really help with the fog.
Power through, and by Monday the worst will be over. I cried like a child on my Day 3, Day 4 wasn't much better. Day 5 is when I opened my eyes and knew the SUCK was all worth it, and I never had to do that again as long as I was quit.
You've got some solid advice here Brown. The first few days are the worst. Day 3 is heavy fog and day 4 sucks too. Keep chewing those seeds - that's my go to. I stash them everywhere for whenever I get an urge - work bag, car, house, softball bag - I never put myself in a position to not succeed. As the King said, you are taking back your freedom. It takes some time, but you will be stronger because of it. Nicotine never did a damn thing for you. The nic bitch is a whore and a liar.
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How's the quit today?
The quit sucked yesterday. I struggled with it, but made it through. I'm guessing today isn't going to be much fun either since I'm up 2 hours before I need to be.
It gets better Brown, I promise you that. Keep your head down and running through those brick walls. They will start to get further apart very soon and you'll be able to see the sunny skies awaiting you when this white-knuckle part is over.
Thanks,
For me, the fog is starting to lift already. Post lunch created a huge craving for me yesterday, but I got through it with the help of suthern_gentleman. That craving is back some today, but not as strong. The post meal and pre-bed chews were always my biggest 4 chews of the day.
It will ebb and flow during your quit. The general projection is towards easier, but there will be craves that sneak up on you even after hundreds of days quit. The difference is they are much easier to handle for two reasons: 1) you have tools to handle them by being active on KTC and 2) every +1 you add is another day further from being in the clutches of nicotine.
I used to plan my routine every day on when was the best time to get dips in. Pathetic. No more though. I've taken the reins back. You have too. Keep it up.
Congrats on the best decision of your life. Keep drinking as much water as you can. It will really help with the fog.
Power through, and by Monday the worst will be over. I cried like a child on my Day 3, Day 4 wasn't much better. Day 5 is when I opened my eyes and knew the SUCK was all worth it, and I never had to do that again as long as I was quit.
You've got some solid advice here Brown. The first few days are the worst. Day 3 is heavy fog and day 4 sucks too. Keep chewing those seeds - that's my go to. I stash them everywhere for whenever I get an urge - work bag, car, house, softball bag - I never put myself in a position to not succeed. As the King said, you are taking back your freedom. It takes some time, but you will be stronger because of it. Nicotine never did a damn thing for you. The nic bitch is a whore and a liar.
gum and Grind's coffee pouches are working wonders.
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How's the quit today?
The quit sucked yesterday. I struggled with it, but made it through. I'm guessing today isn't going to be much fun either since I'm up 2 hours before I need to be.
It gets better Brown, I promise you that. Keep your head down and running through those brick walls. They will start to get further apart very soon and you'll be able to see the sunny skies awaiting you when this white-knuckle part is over.
Thanks,
For me, the fog is starting to lift already. Post lunch created a huge craving for me yesterday, but I got through it with the help of suthern_gentleman. That craving is back some today, but not as strong. The post meal and pre-bed chews were always my biggest 4 chews of the day.
It will ebb and flow during your quit. The general projection is towards easier, but there will be craves that sneak up on you even after hundreds of days quit. The difference is they are much easier to handle for two reasons: 1) you have tools to handle them by being active on KTC and 2) every +1 you add is another day further from being in the clutches of nicotine.
I used to plan my routine every day on when was the best time to get dips in. Pathetic. No more though. I've taken the reins back. You have too. Keep it up.
Congrats on the best decision of your life. Keep drinking as much water as you can. It will really help with the fog.
Power through, and by Monday the worst will be over. I cried like a child on my Day 3, Day 4 wasn't much better. Day 5 is when I opened my eyes and knew the SUCK was all worth it, and I never had to do that again as long as I was quit.
You've got some solid advice here Brown. The first few days are the worst. Day 3 is heavy fog and day 4 sucks too. Keep chewing those seeds - that's my go to. I stash them everywhere for whenever I get an urge - work bag, car, house, softball bag - I never put myself in a position to not succeed. As the King said, you are taking back your freedom. It takes some time, but you will be stronger because of it. Nicotine never did a damn thing for you. The nic bitch is a whore and a liar.
gum and Grind's coffee pouches are working wonders.
Toothpicks are another option
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Now that my head is a little less foggy, and I am feeling better on Day 7, I thought I'd write a more proper intro.
I started dipping "only when I drank" my freshman year of college. A bunch of my fraternity brothers had brought back probably close to 300 trial cans of skoal pouches from spring break. We were partying hard one weekend and I was exhausted. I thought about going to bed when a buddy told me that one pouch would get me energized in no time flat. I popped that pouch (skoal citrus) and man was I alive. The nicotine rushed in, energizing me and making me feel less intoxicated. From then on for the next few weeks I would bum a pouch almost every time we drank.
The problem was...I continued to add times when I would have a pouch (studying, being angry, etc). It only took a month until I switched to long cut (grizzly Wintergreen or Kodiak Ice). Once I had the long cut it was on. I went from 3 or four pouches to a can a day in less than a few weeks.
I denied or hid my addiction for a long time. Hell, my parents only learned of it 3 years later when I got angry bc they used my portion of duty free tobacco on the way into Canada. Dipping became part of my life, I often ate with a dip in and would dip before brushing my teeth in the morning.
I realized I had a problem only after a friend bet me to stop about a year ago, and I couldn't go 12 hours without a headache developing. It took me until know, and the encouragement of the GF to look up the side affects and the crap that we are putting into our bodies. The last website I found before throwing out the can was this one.
I pledge to quit today and I plan to make that pledge everyday from here out.
Brown
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Now that my head is a little less foggy, and I am feeling better on Day 7, I thought I'd write a more proper intro.
I started dipping "only when I drank" my freshman year of college. A bunch of my fraternity brothers had brought back probably close to 300 trial cans of skoal pouches from spring break. We were partying hard one weekend and I was exhausted. I thought about going to bed when a buddy told me that one pouch would get me energized in no time flat. I popped that pouch (skoal citrus) and man was I alive. The nicotine rushed in, energizing me and making me feel less intoxicated. From then on for the next few weeks I would bum a pouch almost every time we drank.
The problem was...I continued to add times when I would have a pouch (studying, being angry, etc). It only took a month until I switched to long cut (grizzly Wintergreen or Kodiak Ice). Once I had the long cut it was on. I went from 3 or four pouches to a can a day in less than a few weeks.
I denied or hid my addiction for a long time. Hell, my parents only learned of it 3 years later when I got angry bc they used my portion of duty free tobacco on the way into Canada. Dipping became part of my life, I often ate with a dip in and would dip before brushing my teeth in the morning.
I realized I had a problem only after a friend bet me to stop about a year ago, and I couldn't go 12 hours without a headache developing. It took me until know, and the encouragement of the GF to look up the side affects and the crap that we are putting into our bodies. The last website I found before throwing out the can was this one.
I pledge to quit today and I plan to make that pledge everyday from here out.
Brown
Good stuff Brown.
But dont get ahead of yourself.
You have no idea what tomorrow brings.
Tomorrow might not even show up at all!
All we can be responsible for is now.
It's a gift... Called the Present
Use today to be a man of integrity.
Use today to read and gain wisdom to fight your addiction.
Use today to experience a new life without a drug and it's chains.
Use today to help another addict.
Use today to become the man you were created to be.
Use today and enjoy being free.
You are not doing without.....
You are escaping a death trap.
Her play ground is the past... and the Future.
That's where the lie is.
Freedom is found in the truth of today.
I Quit with you Today.
ODAAT
Rawls 603
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Been 22 days without the dirt in my lip now...
My oh my has the world changed...
Now that most of my everyday symptoms have lifted, things are becoming easier everyday. The interesting part in how vivid certain things are now. I can smell and taste far greater than I have in a long time. it is weird at times. Unfortunately, i have gained 14 lbs in 22 days, but I will start to correct that tonight when I make up some fresh healthy options for food and start to limit my intake again. My personality has seen positive changes also, as I don't get so angry for no reason (really it was my brain demanding nic).
I am enjoying my freedom of not needing to organize things around a stupid fucking can. I can go places and do things without needing a spitter or worrying about being caught.
Stay true, stay quit...one day at a time I take my life back!
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Been 22 days without the dirt in my lip now...
My oh my has the world changed...
Now that most of my everyday symptoms have lifted, things are becoming easier everyday. The interesting part in how vivid certain things are now. I can smell and taste far greater than I have in a long time. it is weird at times. Unfortunately, i have gained 14 lbs in 22 days, but I will start to correct that tonight when I make up some fresh healthy options for food and start to limit my intake again. My personality has seen positive changes also, as I don't get so angry for no reason (really it was my brain demanding nic).
I am enjoying my freedom of not needing to organize things around a stupid fucking can. I can go places and do things without needing a spitter or worrying about being caught.
Stay true, stay quit...one day at a time I take my life back!
The world certainly has changed! You're seeing things through a new perspective and your brain will have to rewire itself to the new conditions.
Don't get discouraged if things all of a sudden stop getting easier. I hope that things just keep going up, but in reality, you'll probably have a setback or two. Just keep working on your quit tools and realize that you can get through it in good times and bad.
For the weight gain - if snacking relentlessly is keeping your cravings at bay, keep doing it, just try using healthy snacks like carrots instead of chips. Also try to incorporate exercise as one of your methods of fighting off cravings.
Keep at it!
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Holy Cow...
Just like that...It's Day 31...Time is flying these days..
Everyday seems to be getting a little easier now that I am a full month removed from my last taste of nicotine. I still struggle at times, and have to watch out for the cravings. Though the cravings seem to be easier to get through, they can come at strange times. Thankfully, due to support from the girlfiriend and others, I still get to enjoy things like alcohol (in moderation). I never thought that I would have the level of support off the site that I do, but friends and family alike have really helped me on this journey.
In the end though, it is the men and women on this site that are really saving my life. Friends and family who never used or haven't quit chew do not and can not understand what I feel. I am surrounded with support here that has done this before, during, or after I have gone through each day of my quit. It is the guys and gals like Dipbegone, Candoit, Cuse, Brocolli, Edward, Pky..to name a few, who help me and guide me through each struggle. I now find my quit becoming even stronger as I pass on the knowledge I have gained and will gain.
Becoming active in this site is and will remain the single most important thing that helped me quit chew...
I quit with you,
Brown
Day 31
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Holy Cow...
Just like that...It's Day 31...Time is flying these days..
Everyday seems to be getting a little easier now that I am a full month removed from my last taste of nicotine. I still struggle at times, and have to watch out for the cravings. Though the cravings seem to be easier to get through, they can come at strange times. Thankfully, due to support from the girlfiriend and others, I still get to enjoy things like alcohol (in moderation). I never thought that I would have the level of support off the site that I do, but friends and family alike have really helped me on this journey.
In the end though, it is the men and women on this site that are really saving my life. Friends and family who never used or haven't quit chew do not and can not understand what I feel. I am surrounded with support here that has done this before, during, or after I have gone through each day of my quit. It is the guys and gals like Dipbegone, Candoit, Cuse, Brocolli, Edward, Pky..to name a few, who help me and guide me through each struggle. I now find my quit becoming even stronger as I pass on the knowledge I have gained and will gain.
Becoming active in this site is and will remain the single most important thing that helped me quit chew...
I quit with you,
Brown
Day 31
You're rounding into a bad ass quitter and bad ass leader Brown. Keep it up. You wouldn't believe me if I tried to explain how much better it gets. You've got the plan locked in, now it's just execution ODAAT
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Holy Cow...
Just like that...It's Day 31...Time is flying these days..
Everyday seems to be getting a little easier now that I am a full month removed from my last taste of nicotine. I still struggle at times, and have to watch out for the cravings. Though the cravings seem to be easier to get through, they can come at strange times. Thankfully, due to support from the girlfiriend and others, I still get to enjoy things like alcohol (in moderation). I never thought that I would have the level of support off the site that I do, but friends and family alike have really helped me on this journey.
In the end though, it is the men and women on this site that are really saving my life. Friends and family who never used or haven't quit chew do not and can not understand what I feel. I am surrounded with support here that has done this before, during, or after I have gone through each day of my quit. It is the guys and gals like Dipbegone, Candoit, Cuse, Brocolli, Edward, Pky..to name a few, who help me and guide me through each struggle. I now find my quit becoming even stronger as I pass on the knowledge I have gained and will gain.
Becoming active in this site is and will remain the single most important thing that helped me quit chew...
I quit with you,
Brown
Day 31
You're rounding into a bad ass quitter and bad ass leader Brown. Keep it up. You wouldn't believe me if I tried to explain how much better it gets. You've got the plan locked in, now it's just execution ODAAT
Listen to the king! Yes one month is bad ass, and it keeps getting better!
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Holy Cow...
Just like that...It's Day 31...Time is flying these days..
Everyday seems to be getting a little easier now that I am a full month removed from my last taste of nicotine. I still struggle at times, and have to watch out for the cravings. Though the cravings seem to be easier to get through, they can come at strange times. Thankfully, due to support from the girlfiriend and others, I still get to enjoy things like alcohol (in moderation). I never thought that I would have the level of support off the site that I do, but friends and family alike have really helped me on this journey.
In the end though, it is the men and women on this site that are really saving my life. Friends and family who never used or haven't quit chew do not and can not understand what I feel. I am surrounded with support here that has done this before, during, or after I have gone through each day of my quit. It is the guys and gals like Dipbegone, Candoit, Cuse, Brocolli, Edward, Pky..to name a few, who help me and guide me through each struggle. I now find my quit becoming even stronger as I pass on the knowledge I have gained and will gain.
Becoming active in this site is and will remain the single most important thing that helped me quit chew...
I quit with you,
Brown
Day 31
You're rounding into a bad ass quitter and bad ass leader Brown. Keep it up. You wouldn't believe me if I tried to explain how much better it gets. You've got the plan locked in, now it's just execution ODAAT
Listen to the king! Yes one month is bad ass, and it keeps getting better!
1 month is sooo great brown! way to go, keep it up, stay connected!
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Time is flying...It has been awhile since I wrote an update. I have had today marked as a day for my next update. Why you might ask? Because today I hit 50 days quit. No Nicotine, no chew.
These 50 days have been full of ups and downs. I have grown closer to my girlfriend, as she is finally opening up to completely understanding why still have some habits she doesn't like...for example, my need to spit, a lot, apparently. She has been supportive of my quit from day one, but never took the time to better understand my frame of mind.
I have thought long and hard as to why I quit, what are the reasons? Are they good enough? Will they keep me quit? Am I mentally strong enough to stay quit?
In the beginning, I think I started this as way to get others to like me more as a person, the funny thing is that it became about me almost immediately. I have become more aware of myself. I have become a happier person, and I take pride in my quit. I love the fact that I am becoming healthier physically. my quit has given me time which I have utilized in the gym and cooking healthier foods. I want my jaw, and tongue, and face. My quit has made me face the doctor finally, and I got another health issue resolved and I have seen imporvement from that. I am planning to schedule the dentist soon and I will push myself to go and finally get my teeth cleaned.
Learning how to deal with life has been the most difficult thing to do. My Uncle pasted away last week. His visitation is today and the funeral is tomorrow. I have struggled with the emotions, becuase I would have filled my jaw with that shit in the past. I would always tell myself the chew was to cope or to celebrate, but in reality, it was constant. I chewed nearly every minute of everyday for 10 years. It wasn't a reward or a thing I did when I was sad. I based my life around that fucking can, and I didn't realize it until I killed the can.
Nic will continue to be on my shoulder always looking to command my life, but for now, for me, I am controllling my life. and it starts everyday by posting my Promise.
TODAY I WILL NOT USE ANY FORM OF NICOTINE! ALL DAMN DAY!!
Brown 71
Day 50
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Time is flying...It has been awhile since I wrote an update. I have had today marked as a day for my next update. Why you might ask? Because today I hit 50 days quit. No Nicotine, no chew.
These 50 days have been full of ups and downs. I have grown closer to my girlfriend, as she is finally opening up to completely understanding why still have some habits she doesn't like...for example, my need to spit, a lot, apparently. She has been supportive of my quit from day one, but never took the time to better understand my frame of mind.
I have thought long and hard as to why I quit, what are the reasons? Are they good enough? Will they keep me quit? Am I mentally strong enough to stay quit?
In the beginning, I think I started this as way to get others to like me more as a person, the funny thing is that it became about me almost immediately. I have become more aware of myself. I have become a happier person, and I take pride in my quit. I love the fact that I am becoming healthier physically. my quit has given me time which I have utilized in the gym and cooking healthier foods. I want my jaw, and tongue, and face. My quit has made me face the doctor finally, and I got another health issue resolved and I have seen imporvement from that. I am planning to schedule the dentist soon and I will push myself to go and finally get my teeth cleaned.
Learning how to deal with life has been the most difficult thing to do. My Uncle pasted away last week. His visitation is today and the funeral is tomorrow. I have struggled with the emotions, becuase I would have filled my jaw with that shit in the past. I would always tell myself the chew was to cope or to celebrate, but in reality, it was constant. I chewed nearly every minute of everyday for 10 years. It wasn't a reward or a thing I did when I was sad. I based my life around that fucking can, and I didn't realize it until I killed the can.
Nic will continue to be on my shoulder always looking to command my life, but for now, for me, I am controllling my life. and it starts everyday by posting my Promise.
TODAY I WILL NOT USE ANY FORM OF NICOTINE! ALL DAMN DAY!!
Brown 71
Day 50
You, my live chat buddy, are the real deal.
Your quit is strong, because you surround yourself in other quitters and help others start their own.
You've got your head right.
You don't make excuses.
You do understand your weaknesses, and that makes you strong!
Im proud to quit with you today Brownie.
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Time is flying...It has been awhile since I wrote an update. I have had today marked as a day for my next update. Why you might ask? Because today I hit 50 days quit. No Nicotine, no chew.
These 50 days have been full of ups and downs. I have grown closer to my girlfriend, as she is finally opening up to completely understanding why still have some habits she doesn't like...for example, my need to spit, a lot, apparently. She has been supportive of my quit from day one, but never took the time to better understand my frame of mind.
I have thought long and hard as to why I quit, what are the reasons? Are they good enough? Will they keep me quit? Am I mentally strong enough to stay quit?
In the beginning, I think I started this as way to get others to like me more as a person, the funny thing is that it became about me almost immediately. I have become more aware of myself. I have become a happier person, and I take pride in my quit. I love the fact that I am becoming healthier physically. my quit has given me time which I have utilized in the gym and cooking healthier foods. I want my jaw, and tongue, and face. My quit has made me face the doctor finally, and I got another health issue resolved and I have seen imporvement from that. I am planning to schedule the dentist soon and I will push myself to go and finally get my teeth cleaned.
Learning how to deal with life has been the most difficult thing to do. My Uncle pasted away last week. His visitation is today and the funeral is tomorrow. I have struggled with the emotions, becuase I would have filled my jaw with that shit in the past. I would always tell myself the chew was to cope or to celebrate, but in reality, it was constant. I chewed nearly every minute of everyday for 10 years. It wasn't a reward or a thing I did when I was sad. I based my life around that fucking can, and I didn't realize it until I killed the can.
Nic will continue to be on my shoulder always looking to command my life, but for now, for me, I am controllling my life. and it starts everyday by posting my Promise.
TODAY I WILL NOT USE ANY FORM OF NICOTINE! ALL DAMN DAY!!
Brown 71
Day 50
You can keep doing this - you just have to want to. I will hit one year in a little more than a week and I did it by showing up every day and keeping my promise. There is no magic, there is only quit!
I quit with you today! Stranger999 356.
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WildIrish encouraged me to put this little statement I made during a convo in October 16 into my intro..so here it is. Hopefully I can read this soon and see exactly what he saw:
people hide behind dip. I know I did, holy hell did I hide behind dip. The difference between success and failure comes down to if you are ready to look at yourself (for real) in the mirror. Can you accept that you are an addict? Are you prepared for what is behind that mask, I can tell you that sometimes its not all sunshine and rainbows. For me, I have found and started to conquer other issues in my life. I don't have a choice, because if I want to be the best possible version of me, quitting dip was only part of this journey. I know many of us have realized that. Wether it is the amount of alcohol we are drinking, how we have treated loved ones, or something else. KTC, in the grand scheme of things, is only the start of a some level of transformation. Maybe you are getting into better shape, or whatever, but the willingness to change is what makes quitting possible, and when we are willing to change and stop dipping, a lot of us start to automatically make other changes.
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Time for another trip into my head...I know it can be scary, but this time I want to voice out my answer to commonly asked questions for people who are thinking quit is something they want.
#1 why did you guys quit?
The ladies and gentlemen quit for about as many diverse reasons as there are people on KTC. I think this question is something fresh quit looks for as affirmation as to why they should quit.
#2 How did you know ithat was the right time?
This question is just as difficult to answer. When do I know it is time for me to take a piss? My body just told me. I was literally ashamed of it, I am ashamed that I wasted all that money, but I can change the future and learn from the past.
#3 What is the best way to quit?
Here we say that the only way is Cold Turkey, but yes there are other methods. My question to you is simple:
If you accidentally place your hand in a fire, are you going to slowly remove it? Or are you gonna yank it out of thevery flames and start treatment immediately? Seriously, slowing down is rarely that, and it is like pulling your hand out nice and slow. A real nice long slow burn, yeah you might not bang your burn on something, but shit the damage gets worse with every second. Seriously, each dip is another gum cell dead, another chance at cancer...
#4 How do you stay quit?
That is the simplest dang question to answer. I stay quit because my quit is important to me. I don't give a damn if another person cares, though it is nice, but I do this for me and solely me. My quit is for my health and my jaw, no yours. And yeah, maybe that is selfish, but I was selfish when I chewed too.
Brown 72
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Day 81 and I am as angry as I was on day 2!!
I just want to walk up to someone and jack them in the face. Not really sure why or for what reason, besides the fact that I am straight up pissed the %$#@ off!!
Nicotine is one nasty drug, the withdrawal and healing for it has been and continues to be absolutely insane!!!
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Day 81 and I am as angry as I was on day 2!!
I just want to walk up to someone and jack them in the face. Not really sure why or for what reason, besides the fact that I am straight up pissed the %$#@ off!!
Nicotine is one nasty drug, the withdrawal and healing for it has been and continues to be absolutely insane!!!
Just stay the course this too will pass. Beware of the 120s some folks have a return of the fog
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Day 81 and I am as angry as I was on day 2!!
I just want to walk up to someone and jack them in the face. Not really sure why or for what reason, besides the fact that I am straight up pissed the %$#@ off!!
Nicotine is one nasty drug, the withdrawal and healing for it has been and continues to be absolutely insane!!!
Just stay the course this too will pass. Beware of the 120s some folks have a return of the fog
You've been victorious over nicotine for 81 days and have been a help in quit for other quitters. Hold on to that.
I quit with you today.
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Day 81 and I am as angry as I was on day 2!!
I just want to walk up to someone and jack them in the face. Not really sure why or for what reason, besides the fact that I am straight up pissed the %$#@ off!!
Nicotine is one nasty drug, the withdrawal and healing for it has been and continues to be absolutely insane!!!
Just stay the course this too will pass. Beware of the 120s some folks have a return of the fog
You've been victorious over nicotine for 81 days and have been a help in quit for other quitters. Hold on to that.
I quit with you today.
Every one of us is behind you Brown. The rage came and went for me for most of a year. Probably around day 270 I started to get back to even keel a little more. This rage is nothing like you'd feel if you caved and got yourself cancer. You can do this big fella.
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Day 81 and I am as angry as I was on day 2!!
I just want to walk up to someone and jack them in the face. Not really sure why or for what reason, besides the fact that I am straight up pissed the %$#@ off!!
Nicotine is one nasty drug, the withdrawal and healing for it has been and continues to be absolutely insane!!!
Just stay the course this too will pass. Beware of the 120s some folks have a return of the fog
You've been victorious over nicotine for 81 days and have been a help in quit for other quitters. Hold on to that.
I quit with you today.
Every one of us is behind you Brown. The rage came and went for me for most of a year. Probably around day 270 I started to get back to even keel a little more. This rage is nothing like you'd feel if you caved and got yourself cancer. You can do this big fella.
Yep these guys are right. Comes on quick, stealthily, and without warning. You'll get a few funks and rages along this journey. You're doing the right thing, posting what your going through and reaching out.
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Day 81 and I am as angry as I was on day 2!!
I just want to walk up to someone and jack them in the face. Not really sure why or for what reason, besides the fact that I am straight up pissed the %$#@ off!!
Nicotine is one nasty drug, the withdrawal and healing for it has been and continues to be absolutely insane!!!
Just stay the course this too will pass. Beware of the 120s some folks have a return of the fog
You've been victorious over nicotine for 81 days and have been a help in quit for other quitters. Hold on to that.
I quit with you today.
Every one of us is behind you Brown. The rage came and went for me for most of a year. Probably around day 270 I started to get back to even keel a little more. This rage is nothing like you'd feel if you caved and got yourself cancer. You can do this big fella.
Yep these guys are right. Comes on quick, stealthily, and without warning. You'll get a few funks and rages along this journey. You're doing the right thing, posting what your going through and reaching out.
Hang in there Brown. As said above, some challenges are still ahead of you. You can get through each one, it does get better.
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Day 81 and I am as angry as I was on day 2!!
I just want to walk up to someone and jack them in the face. Not really sure why or for what reason, besides the fact that I am straight up pissed the %$#@ off!!
Nicotine is one nasty drug, the withdrawal and healing for it has been and continues to be absolutely insane!!!
Just stay the course this too will pass. Beware of the 120s some folks have a return of the fog
You've been victorious over nicotine for 81 days and have been a help in quit for other quitters. Hold on to that.
I quit with you today.
Every one of us is behind you Brown. The rage came and went for me for most of a year. Probably around day 270 I started to get back to even keel a little more. This rage is nothing like you'd feel if you caved and got yourself cancer. You can do this big fella.
Yep these guys are right. Comes on quick, stealthily, and without warning. You'll get a few funks and rages along this journey. You're doing the right thing, posting what your going through and reaching out.
Hang in there Brown. As said above, some challenges are still ahead of you. You can get through each one, it does get better.
We all use to hide behind our dip. Now we face it head on like a man! I still have those days, seems like when I'm driving behind some dumbass texting going down the road is when I want to rip someone a new asshole. Walking away works but sometimes I have to vent and most of the time it's the smart asses I work with that gets the brunt of the rage! Quit on brown your doing great! Damn proud to be quit with you!
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Day 81 and I am as angry as I was on day 2!!
I just want to walk up to someone and jack them in the face. Not really sure why or for what reason, besides the fact that I am straight up pissed the %$#@ off!!
Nicotine is one nasty drug, the withdrawal and healing for it has been and continues to be absolutely insane!!!
Just stay the course this too will pass. Beware of the 120s some folks have a return of the fog
You've been victorious over nicotine for 81 days and have been a help in quit for other quitters. Hold on to that.
I quit with you today.
Every one of us is behind you Brown. The rage came and went for me for most of a year. Probably around day 270 I started to get back to even keel a little more. This rage is nothing like you'd feel if you caved and got yourself cancer. You can do this big fella.
Yep these guys are right. Comes on quick, stealthily, and without warning. You'll get a few funks and rages along this journey. You're doing the right thing, posting what your going through and reaching out.
Hang in there Brown. As said above, some challenges are still ahead of you. You can get through each one, it does get better.
We all use to hide behind our dip. Now we face it head on like a man! I still have those days, seems like when I'm driving behind some dumbass texting going down the road is when I want to rip someone a new asshole. Walking away works but sometimes I have to vent and most of the time it's the smart asses I work with that gets the brunt of the rage! Quit on brown your doing great! Damn proud to be quit with you!
Nobody said this would be easy, and I'm not saying you did either. At 80+ days, you've earned it, we recognize that, and we've been there before. Hence the vortex of support.
I just past the 1000 day mark...that bitch, still whispers to me. Point is, she'll always be there - we're addicts. And we have to live with that. But the addiction doesn't own me anymore; I own it. Keep crushin' it Brown.
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Day 81 and I am as angry as I was on day 2!!
I just want to walk up to someone and jack them in the face. Not really sure why or for what reason, besides the fact that I am straight up pissed the %$#@ off!!
Nicotine is one nasty drug, the withdrawal and healing for it has been and continues to be absolutely insane!!!
Just stay the course this too will pass. Beware of the 120s some folks have a return of the fog
You've been victorious over nicotine for 81 days and have been a help in quit for other quitters. Hold on to that.
I quit with you today.
Every one of us is behind you Brown. The rage came and went for me for most of a year. Probably around day 270 I started to get back to even keel a little more. This rage is nothing like you'd feel if you caved and got yourself cancer. You can do this big fella.
Yep these guys are right. Comes on quick, stealthily, and without warning. You'll get a few funks and rages along this journey. You're doing the right thing, posting what your going through and reaching out.
Hang in there Brown. As said above, some challenges are still ahead of you. You can get through each one, it does get better.
We all use to hide behind our dip. Now we face it head on like a man! I still have those days, seems like when I'm driving behind some dumbass texting going down the road is when I want to rip someone a new asshole. Walking away works but sometimes I have to vent and most of the time it's the smart asses I work with that gets the brunt of the rage! Quit on brown your doing great! Damn proud to be quit with you!
Nobody said this would be easy, and I'm not saying you did either. At 80+ days, you've earned it, we recognize that, and we've been there before. Hence the vortex of support.
I just past the 1000 day mark...that bitch, still whispers to me. Point is, she'll always be there - we're addicts. And we have to live with that. But the addiction doesn't own me anymore; I own it. Keep crushin' it Brown.
Thank you to all of you. It is a long journey, and I know that thanks to all the wisdom on this site. Sometimes, just sometimes though, I wish there was a cure.
There will never be a cure, and I did this to myself, so I will continue to fight and battle. And when I think I am too weak and want to cave, I will reach out and lean on my brothers and sisters so that I cannot fail. That is my promise.
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Day 81 and I am as angry as I was on day 2!!
I just want to walk up to someone and jack them in the face. Not really sure why or for what reason, besides the fact that I am straight up pissed the %$#@ off!!
Nicotine is one nasty drug, the withdrawal and healing for it has been and continues to be absolutely insane!!!
Just stay the course this too will pass. Beware of the 120s some folks have a return of the fog
You've been victorious over nicotine for 81 days and have been a help in quit for other quitters. Hold on to that.
I quit with you today.
Every one of us is behind you Brown. The rage came and went for me for most of a year. Probably around day 270 I started to get back to even keel a little more. This rage is nothing like you'd feel if you caved and got yourself cancer. You can do this big fella.
Yep these guys are right. Comes on quick, stealthily, and without warning. You'll get a few funks and rages along this journey. You're doing the right thing, posting what your going through and reaching out.
Hang in there Brown. As said above, some challenges are still ahead of you. You can get through each one, it does get better.
We all use to hide behind our dip. Now we face it head on like a man! I still have those days, seems like when I'm driving behind some dumbass texting going down the road is when I want to rip someone a new asshole. Walking away works but sometimes I have to vent and most of the time it's the smart asses I work with that gets the brunt of the rage! Quit on brown your doing great! Damn proud to be quit with you!
Nobody said this would be easy, and I'm not saying you did either. At 80+ days, you've earned it, we recognize that, and we've been there before. Hence the vortex of support.
I just past the 1000 day mark...that bitch, still whispers to me. Point is, she'll always be there - we're addicts. And we have to live with that. But the addiction doesn't own me anymore; I own it. Keep crushin' it Brown.
Thank you to all of you. It is a long journey, and I know that thanks to all the wisdom on this site. Sometimes, just sometimes though, I wish there was a cure.
There will never be a cure, and I did this to myself, so I will continue to fight and battle. And when I think I am too weak and want to cave, I will reach out and lean on my brothers and sisters so that I cannot fail. That is my promise.
Yeah Brownie, you are right on track man.
For me days 100-150 were the hardest. Sort of a let down after HOF... Guess i thought around 100 i was going to feel some sort of new eureka moment... life changing.
Only thing I did around 150 was realize that this will be with me the rest of my life - the 'whispers', the mind tricks, the tricky nic bitch... just less frequent - but always lurking.
At that point - 150 days or so - i decided to sack up and face it like a man. There are people out there with sick kids, missing limbs, no money or job, fucked up lives...
And all i gotta do is quit tobacco?
Easy! No problem.
Keep the faith brother, I'm quitting with you today - JB
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Wow, day 92. In exactly 8 days I enter the HOF. That is crazy. who would have thought that I could ever state that I have been quit for 92 days let alone 10 days. The world keeps getting better, daily I discover something new that is better than it was before.
Food, for example, who knew about all the amazing flavor in food. By the time I quit, I couldnt really taste anything but spice.
Proud to be quit.
B71
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Wow, day 92. In exactly 8 days I enter the HOF. That is crazy. who would have thought that I could ever state that I have been quit for 92 days let alone 10 days. The world keeps getting better, daily I discover something new that is better than it was before.
Food, for example, who knew about all the amazing flavor in food. By the time I quit, I couldnt really taste anything but spice.
Proud to be quit.
B71
And... it keeps getting better. Keep at it, man.
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Wow, day 92. In exactly 8 days I enter the HOF. That is crazy. who would have thought that I could ever state that I have been quit for 92 days let alone 10 days. The world keeps getting better, daily I discover something new that is better than it was before.
Food, for example, who knew about all the amazing flavor in food. By the time I quit, I couldnt really taste anything but spice.
Proud to be quit.
B71
And... it keeps getting better. Keep at it, man.
ODAAT! That's how youve made it this far. And I will repeat what you already heard you will never be cured and that bitch is always gonna be whispering! The journey is just beginning. You will love all the new things that are gonna come before you! Quit on!
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Day 81 and I am as angry as I was on day 2!!
I just want to walk up to someone and jack them in the face. Not really sure why or for what reason, besides the fact that I am straight up pissed the %$#@ off!!
Nicotine is one nasty drug, the withdrawal and healing for it has been and continues to be absolutely insane!!!
Just stay the course this too will pass. Beware of the 120s some folks have a return of the fog
You've been victorious over nicotine for 81 days and have been a help in quit for other quitters. Hold on to that.
I quit with you today.
Every one of us is behind you Brown. The rage came and went for me for most of a year. Probably around day 270 I started to get back to even keel a little more. This rage is nothing like you'd feel if you caved and got yourself cancer. You can do this big fella.
Yep these guys are right. Comes on quick, stealthily, and without warning. You'll get a few funks and rages along this journey. You're doing the right thing, posting what your going through and reaching out.
Hang in there Brown. As said above, some challenges are still ahead of you. You can get through each one, it does get better.
We all use to hide behind our dip. Now we face it head on like a man! I still have those days, seems like when I'm driving behind some dumbass texting going down the road is when I want to rip someone a new asshole. Walking away works but sometimes I have to vent and most of the time it's the smart asses I work with that gets the brunt of the rage! Quit on brown your doing great! Damn proud to be quit with you!
Nobody said this would be easy, and I'm not saying you did either. At 80+ days, you've earned it, we recognize that, and we've been there before. Hence the vortex of support.
I just past the 1000 day mark...that bitch, still whispers to me. Point is, she'll always be there - we're addicts. And we have to live with that. But the addiction doesn't own me anymore; I own it. Keep crushin' it Brown.
Thank you to all of you. It is a long journey, and I know that thanks to all the wisdom on this site. Sometimes, just sometimes though, I wish there was a cure.
There will never be a cure, and I did this to myself, so I will continue to fight and battle. And when I think I am too weak and want to cave, I will reach out and lean on my brothers and sisters so that I cannot fail. That is my promise.
Yeah Brownie, you are right on track man.
For me days 100-150 were the hardest. Sort of a let down after HOF... Guess i thought around 100 i was going to feel some sort of new eureka moment... life changing.
Only thing I did around 150 was realize that this will be with me the rest of my life - the 'whispers', the mind tricks, the tricky nic bitch... just less frequent - but always lurking.
At that point - 150 days or so - i decided to sack up and face it like a man. There are people out there with sick kids, missing limbs, no money or job, fucked up lives...
And all i gotta do is quit tobacco?
Easy! No problem.
Keep the faith brother, I'm quitting with you today - JB
Great job man. 90+ days now for you and that is bad ass. Always remember the accountability part of the Brotherhood and Success. Use your tools and feel free to rage in here.
We all speak from experience that we will always be addicts. I was stopped for 5yrs and just started banging the can about three years ago. I found KTC about 400 days ago.
It's life saving. Take advantage, be accountable, honor your word and you will be nic free. Again great job!
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Well,
It is day 99, I dont know what to think. I have learned a lot about myself, and I am spending more time debating what I am going to share in my Hof speech. I think a lot of new quitters get scared when other things change and/or occur during your quit.
you cannot even begin to realize how much is gonna change. It hits you like a wave and you can either surf it or fight it, but...fighting it almost always ends in a cave. I realize that I am gonna have to change other paths to fit into the quit path...but I am okay with that and I am embracing the change!
To 100,
Brown
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Well,
It is day 99, I dont know what to think. I have learned a lot about myself, and I am spending more time debating what I am going to share in my Hof speech. I think a lot of new quitters get scared when other things change and/or occur during your quit.
you cannot even begin to realize how much is gonna change. It hits you like a wave and you can either surf it or fight it, but...fighting it almost always ends in a cave. I realize that I am gonna have to change other paths to fit into the quit path...but I am okay with that and I am embracing the change!
To 100,
Brown
Ride that wave bro!!
Proud to quit with you.
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Congratulations on HOF! You are an amazing quitter, keep helping others out.
As you know, this is not the end, not even close. Proud to be quit with you Brownie! Each and every day.
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Congratulations on HOF! You are an amazing quitter, keep helping others out.
As you know, this is not the end, not even close. Proud to be quit with you Brownie! Each and every day.
thanks buddy. It is definitely not the end. more like turn one in a lifetime of quitting!
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Congrats on HOF! Your doing it the right way. Keep kicking ass around here
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Congrats on HOF! Your doing it the right way. Keep kicking ass around here
Thank you TJ. I am doing my best.
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Great job mr. brown! Keep it coming and help the newbies while helping yourself! Damn proud to be quit with you ODAAT!
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Congrats on HOF! Your doing it the right way. Keep kicking ass around here
Thank you TJ. I am doing my best.
Congrats! 'wave'
We celebrate 100 days because it is a nice round number and reaching it shows a real commitment to quitting. There isn't a finish line here. Stay active and stay quit! Too simple! :)
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Typed this up in January 16' to a rather "famous caver Bsarno" but, I felt that even if it doesn't help him, It helped me and hopefully others:
Do you have any idea how hard 100% is? I can tell you right now, you are not 100% committed. If you were "100%" then you would have thought out an diligantly answered the 3 questions!
Do you even understand why we ask the 3 questions? Do you understand that, in reality, the answers are not for us, but for you. The 3 questions, are legitimately important to all of us. In fact, successful quitters answer those 3 questions. They either answer them after failing themselves and their brothers and sisters on KTC or for those of us who succeed on our first go around on KTC, we answer those to ourselves before ever joining.
Matter of fact, to make my point stronger, allow me to give you my answers.
1. What happened? Well I said for the millionth time, I am going to quit. But, because I am a punk ass bitch, I went my usual 24 hours before saying fuck it and grabbing another can from the gas station.
2. Why did it happen? It happened because I am not capable of beating this addiction on my own. I recognize I am an addict and I would prefer to keep my brain happy and die sooner rather than suffer through hell, though I am at fault for the hell I must suffer to beat this addiction.
3. What am I going to do differently this time? This time I am going to join a site called Kill The Can. They use an accountibilty system via a roll call to quit. There is almost 30,000 quitters on that site, and I wil be able to get advice on how to keep going from them. I am going to see how active I can be on the site, because I think that can and will help me quit.
This time, I am gonna get the massive amount of seeds, gum, mints, toothpicks, and whatever else I can jam in my mouth to quit. I am going to exercise when I can to help deal with my rage.
DRINK THE FUCKING KOOL AID!
B71
114 Days of Success and I am not stopping now, because I can honestly and openly admit that some of the hardest days have been the last 7.
Stay Active, Stay Quit
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Typed this up in January 16' to a rather "famous caver Bsarno" but, I felt that even if it doesn't help him, It helped me and hopefully others:
Do you have any idea how hard 100% is? I can tell you right now, you are not 100% committed. If you were "100%" then you would have thought out an diligantly answered the 3 questions!
Do you even understand why we ask the 3 questions? Do you understand that, in reality, the answers are not for us, but for you. The 3 questions, are legitimately important to all of us. In fact, successful quitters answer those 3 questions. They either answer them after failing themselves and their brothers and sisters on KTC or for those of us who succeed on our first go around on KTC, we answer those to ourselves before ever joining.
Matter of fact, to make my point stronger, allow me to give you my answers.
1. What happened? Well I said for the millionth time, I am going to quit. But, because I am a punk ass bitch, I went my usual 24 hours before saying fuck it and grabbing another can from the gas station.
2. Why did it happen? It happened because I am not capable of beating this addiction on my own. I recognize I am an addict and I would prefer to keep my brain happy and die sooner rather than suffer through hell, though I am at fault for the hell I must suffer to beat this addiction.
3. What am I going to do differently this time? This time I am going to join a site called Kill The Can. They use an accountibilty system via a roll call to quit. There is almost 30,000 quitters on that site, and I wil be able to get advice on how to keep going from them. I am going to see how active I can be on the site, because I think that can and will help me quit.
This time, I am gonna get the massive amount of seeds, gum, mints, toothpicks, and whatever else I can jam in my mouth to quit. I am going to exercise when I can to help deal with my rage.
DRINK THE FUCKING KOOL AID!
B71
114 Days of Success and I am not stopping now, because I can honestly and openly admit that some of the hardest days have been the last 7.
Stay Active, Stay Quit
That's awesome. QLAMFEDD
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'Birthday'
Brownie
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Well,
This one is gonna be a little more serious. Today is day 150, haven't updated in a while, but I thought it was definitely time. Ironically, it is December 1st. It is the start of a joyus month. I have been selected and chosen to accept the honor of HOF Conductor for the month of December, I never thought about it until it was offered to me.
This year, this Christmas, I have so much to be thankful for. I am nicotine free, my health is improving, I have met an amazing woman, and I have met many amazing friends. At just 150 days, day 1 seems like a distant memory. It has been a while since I have craved on a regular day. I still get those specific trigger craves, but they pass quickly, and I can handle them. I have started to use my experience quitting chew to try and improve other parts of my liffe. If I can quit this nasty addiction cold turkey, why can't I eat healthier or exercise more. The simple answer is will power, quitting is 100% about will power, and if you have the will power to quit, you can do anything.
2016 has been and continues to be a magical year for me.
IQWYT
B71 150
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Well,
This one is gonna be a little more serious. Today is day 150, haven't updated in a while, but I thought it was definitely time. Ironically, it is December 1st. It is the start of a joyus month. I have been selected and chosen to accept the honor of HOF Conductor for the month of December, I never thought about it until it was offered to me.
This year, this Christmas, I have so much to be thankful for. I am nicotine free, my health is improving, I have met an amazing woman, and I have met many amazing friends. At just 150 days, day 1 seems like a distant memory. It has been a while since I have craved on a regular day. I still get those specific trigger craves, but they pass quickly, and I can handle them. I have started to use my experience quitting chew to try and improve other parts of my liffe. If I can quit this nasty addiction cold turkey, why can't I eat healthier or exercise more. The simple answer is will power, quitting is 100% about will power, and if you have the will power to quit, you can do anything.
2016 has been and continues to be a magical year for me.
IQWYT
B71 150
December is a special HOF, so treat it well 'winker' Congrats.
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Day 193
Today is Friday January 13, 2017. It is the second Friday of the year, and a week before my 200 days. My life and my quit have changed a lot in 200 days. Do you know how good it felt to mark myself as a non-nicotine user for work when I signed up for insurance? You know how wonderful it is to not feel constant nagging of the nic bitch? And before you say anything, yes she is still there, and yes she still whispers to me. I have learned to tune her out most of the time.
In the beginning I raged with the best of the. I would jump into any fight that I could find on ktc just to get myself focused on something else. A lot of times I wouldn't make much sense, and I loved to chew people out. Slowly, my senses started to return to me. It is amazing to sit here today, over 6 months after my last chew, and loving life. I find it funny most of the time to see the new quitters, as I se the same statements and arguments repeat themselves over and over often ending in the same fashion. These days, I choose to use a more level headed and logical approach to helping the new quitters.
I empithize for the cavers. They are the losers on KTC, not because they failed us, but because they failed themselves.
My goal everyday is to stay quit, better myself, and hopefully help someone else quit.
I hope and pray that someday, KTC will be pointless, that this cancerous drug is no longer sold to anyone anywhere.
Stay Strong, Stay Quit
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Day 193
Today is Friday January 13, 2017. It is the second Friday of the year, and a week before my 200 days. My life and my quit have changed a lot in 200 days. Do you know how good it felt to mark myself as a non-nicotine user for work when I signed up for insurance? You know how wonderful it is to not feel constant nagging of the nic bitch? And before you say anything, yes she is still there, and yes she still whispers to me. I have learned to tune her out most of the time.
In the beginning I raged with the best of the. I would jump into any fight that I could find on ktc just to get myself focused on something else. A lot of times I wouldn't make much sense, and I loved to chew people out. Slowly, my senses started to return to me. It is amazing to sit here today, over 6 months after my last chew, and loving life. I find it funny most of the time to see the new quitters, as I se the same statements and arguments repeat themselves over and over often ending in the same fashion. These days, I choose to use a more level headed and logical approach to helping the new quitters.
I empithize for the cavers. They are the losers on KTC, not because they failed us, but because they failed themselves.
My goal everyday is to stay quit, better myself, and hopefully help someone else quit.
I hope and pray that someday, KTC will be pointless, that this cancerous drug is no longer sold to anyone anywhere.
Stay Strong, Stay Quit
And... it's just that simple!
Get involved and stay involved!
The freedom... damn. The Freedom! It's a weight lifted from you that you didn't know you were lugging around. No more managing the addiction... you just get to live life, ups and downs, like it was meant to be lived. All concentration aimed at, finally, being the real you.
Well done, brutha.
And... at 1,368 days, let me tell you... it just gets better.
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Lemme be the first to congratulate you in 2 bills of quit. You are a model quitter and I'm damn proud to fight each day with ya
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Lemme be the first to congratulate you in 2 bills of quit. You are a model quitter and I'm damn proud to fight each day with ya
Congrats Brownie on your 200 days quit!
And great job conducting the hofers.
Badassery!
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Lemme be the first to congratulate you in 2 bills of quit. You are a model quitter and I'm damn proud to fight each day with ya
Congrats Brownie on your 200 days quit!
And great job conducting the hofers.
Badassery!
Attaboy Brownie! Keep working hard, proud to be quit with you!
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Lemme be the first to congratulate you in 2 bills of quit. You are a model quitter and I'm damn proud to fight each day with ya
Congrats Brownie on your 200 days quit!
And great job conducting the hofers.
Badassery!
Attaboy Brownie! Keep working hard, proud to be quit with you!
Not bad for an DF arsonist. Keep killin it.
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Lemme be the first to congratulate you in 2 bills of quit. You are a model quitter and I'm damn proud to fight each day with ya
Congrats Brownie on your 200 days quit!
And great job conducting the hofers.
Badassery!
Attaboy Brownie! Keep working hard, proud to be quit with you!
Not bad for an DF arsonist. Keep killin it.
Congrats on 200 you are a great example of whats right with this place.
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Lemme be the first to congratulate you in 2 bills of quit. You are a model quitter and I'm damn proud to fight each day with ya
Congrats Brownie on your 200 days quit!
And great job conducting the hofers.
Badassery!
Attaboy Brownie! Keep working hard, proud to be quit with you!
Not bad for an DF arsonist. Keep killin it.
Congrats on 200 you are a great example of whats right with this place.
I knew from the start you had what it took Brown. Congrats my man, you've earned the hell out of this accomplishment! :Winner: