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Community => Introductions => Topic started by: Kremerica on March 07, 2015, 07:11:00 PM
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Hello, I am Kremerica and like all of you, I am here because I am a nic bitch addict. It is almost sad to say that out loud, but I can remember 8 years ago when I started flirting with this habit and the false sense of how cool my friends and I thought we were doing it. I look back at age 25 and say how the hell did I let this go on for 8 years and how did it go so fast.
My quit began two or three timess ago, at that time I visited this site but never dug in to it. As I have read on here the last few days, I caved with those attempts and never made my quit a life decision. I proudly say I am in this fight to the end this time and I will stay quit. I'm 22 days quit and am slowly distancing my self from the false memories chew imprinted on my memory.
I began on this site in the live chat rooms and met a HOF named natro. Natro explained posting roll and the rest is history. I have posted the last few days and will for the next 88+. I feel so much more free these last 22 days even with the fog, headaches and highs and lows I've experienced. My addiction was at the point where I would take my work vehicle for drives so I could suck on death for 20 minutes when things were stressful. I tried to hide my habit from friends and family because I was ashamed of it.
All of that made me a sneaky and dishonest person about my dark habit I was destined to not air out in my professional career. My last day of that bull shit was february 13 and I began my quit february 14. I have learned a bunch in only a few days on this site and thank natro and the others who reached out their hand to pull me on to the wagon community of KTC.
22+ I will stay quit, hope you will to.
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We're in this together pal!
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Misfire
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Hello, I am Kremerica and like all of you, I am here because I am a nic bitch addict. It is almost sad to say that out loud, but I can remember 8 years ago when I started flirting with this habit and the false sense of how cool my friends and I thought we were doing it. I look back at age 25 and say how the hell did I let this go on for 8 years and how did it go so fast.
My quit began two or three timess ago, at that time I visited this site but never dug in to it. As I have read on here the last few days, I caved with those attempts and never made my quit a life decision. I proudly say I am in this fight to the end this time and I will stay quit. I'm 22 days quit and am slowly distancing my self from the false memories chew imprinted on my memory.
I began on this site in the live chat rooms and met a HOF named natro. Natro explained posting roll and the rest is history. I have posted the last few days and will for the next 88+. I feel so much more free these last 22 days even with the fog, headaches and highs and lows I've experienced. My addiction was at the point where I would take my work vehicle for drives so I could suck on death for 20 minutes when things were stressful. I tried to hide my habit from friends and family because I was ashamed of it.
All of that made me a sneaky and dishonest person about my dark habit I was destined to not air out in my professional career. My last day of that bull shit was february 13 and I began my quit february 14. I have learned a bunch in only a few days on this site and thank natro and the others who reached out their hand to pull me on to the wagon community of KTC.
22+ I will stay quit, hope you will to.
Get on here and write as much as possible. Come back and revisit your intro and add to it like I did. I got like 17 pages of quit influenced, stream of consciousness, information in there and I invite you to check it out along with any vet's intro. All you have to do is stay quit that's all we ask and so far it looks like you've got a good start on it. Keep it up man. You got this.
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Hello, I am Kremerica and like all of you, I am here because I am a nic bitch addict. It is almost sad to say that out loud, but I can remember 8 years ago when I started flirting with this habit and the false sense of how cool my friends and I thought we were doing it. I look back at age 25 and say how the hell did I let this go on for 8 years and how did it go so fast.
My quit began two or three timess ago, at that time I visited this site but never dug in to it. As I have read on here the last few days, I caved with those attempts and never made my quit a life decision. I proudly say I am in this fight to the end this time and I will stay quit. I'm 22 days quit and am slowly distancing my self from the false memories chew imprinted on my memory.
I began on this site in the live chat rooms and met a HOF named natro. Natro explained posting roll and the rest is history. I have posted the last few days and will for the next 88+. I feel so much more free these last 22 days even with the fog, headaches and highs and lows I've experienced. My addiction was at the point where I would take my work vehicle for drives so I could suck on death for 20 minutes when things were stressful. I tried to hide my habit from friends and family because I was ashamed of it.
All of that made me a sneaky and dishonest person about my dark habit I was destined to not air out in my professional career. My last day of that bull shit was february 13 and I began my quit february 14. I have learned a bunch in only a few days on this site and thank natro and the others who reached out their hand to pull me on to the wagon community of KTC.
22+ I will stay quit, hope you will to.
Get on here and write as much as possible. Come back and revisit your intro and add to it like I did. I got like 17 pages of quit influenced, stream of consciousness, information in there and I invite you to check it out along with any vet's intro. All you have to do is stay quit that's all we ask and so far it looks like you've got a good start on it. Keep it up man. You got this.
Hey k alot of knowledge in here to help you make it through this! This shits tough always nice to have someone that knows what you're going through to talk to! You can get on here and bitch, moan, cry we don't give a shit but we will listen and offer help if you want! Post roll EDD! ODAAT! Read and listen and read some more. I quit with you today!
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Cave dreams.......... I'll say this, what a bitch! I've been reading about them for weeks and had been able to escape them, I hadn't slept a full night since I quit and my dreams have increased something fierce. I'll be honest though, while I was dreaming more I hadn't had a cave dream until last night...
Well fuck me, my dream was so real that I had caved and hidden from friends and family while I was doing it. I woke up in a cold sweat but was able to recover quickly. I'll say this, day 33 has me believing how much I can beat this bitch, however I see I still have many challenges ahead..
To my lurking friends who are on this site but haven't joined yet, think about your life right now and your want to improve it, then realize 33 days ago I was you. Today I wrote this realizing how liberating life can be when you don't have to ninja dip and you can ride in a persons vehicle without asking if you can spit without pissing them off. I hate nicotine, and I wish you would join me in fighting this bitch.
Stay quit my friends!
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Cave dreams.......... I'll say this, what a bitch! I've been reading about them for weeks and had been able to escape them, I hadn't slept a full night since I quit and my dreams have increased something fierce. I'll be honest though, while I was dreaming more I hadn't had a cave dream until last night...
Well fuck me, my dream was so real that I had caved and hidden from friends and family while I was doing it. I woke up in a cold sweat but was able to recover quickly. I'll say this, day 33 has me believing how much I can beat this bitch, however I see I still have many challenges ahead..
To my lurking friends who are on this site but haven't joined yet, think about your life right now and your want to improve it, then realize 33 days ago I was you. Today I wrote this realizing how liberating life can be when you don't have to ninja dip and you can ride in a persons vehicle without asking if you can spit without pissing them off. I hate nicotine, and I wish you would join me in fighting this bitch.
Stay quit my friends!
Great job k! Many, many more victories lie ahead for you my friend! You will defeat this as long as you know there will be many more craves! Rage! Cold sweats! Tired! Just understand we done this to ourselves now we must pay to be free! Just an addict trying to help another addict! Damn proud to be quit with you today!
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Awesome man!!
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This week has been going pretty well. I am a local park and recreation director in Wisconsin and we have spring nearing in lately which has allowed us to begin our construction projects. I have to say it is so much nicer to not have to swallow my chaw juices while I'm dealing with vendors and contractors.
In addition, I don't have to spit chew out every time I stop at a school to take supplies to a program. All around it has been good sailing lately, I have a few minutes eac day where I focus on tobacco but I'm able to pass It fairly quickly.
I will say though being outaide more does leave me considering the loneliness nicotine makes me feel from time to time. Once in a while my brain offers a pussy logic of falling back into the trap with a chew, thanks to this site I contjnue to say fuck that there Is no way I'm posting a one for that garbage. Anyway, the fight continues each day and I'm glad the misfits of May are with me to the end!
Go Bucky in the tournament!
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This week has been going pretty well. I am a local park and recreation director in Wisconsin and we have spring nearing in lately which has allowed us to begin our construction projects. I have to say it is so much nicer to not have to swallow my chaw juices while I'm dealing with vendors and contractors.
In addition, I don't have to spit chew out every time I stop at a school to take supplies to a program. All around it has been good sailing lately, I have a few minutes eac day where I focus on tobacco but I'm able to pass It fairly quickly.
I will say though being outaide more does leave me considering the loneliness nicotine makes me feel from time to time. Once in a while my brain offers a pussy logic of falling back into the trap with a chew, thanks to this site I contjnue to say fuck that there Is no way I'm posting a one for that garbage. Anyway, the fight continues each day and I'm glad the misfits of May are with me to the end!
Go Bucky in the tournament!
Enjoy smelling the great outdoors instead of nasty ass dip! Call me crazy but the grass looks greener and the sun shines brighter without the bitch! Doing great my friend, hang in there were all rooting for you! Damn proud to be quit with you today my friend!
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Man, smoley mountain has my motor running lately. It is completely spontaneous and at random, however I really like the sweet taste of gutting smokey mountain. The best part is I never think about it, but the last two days I've kept a plastic tin of smokey mint and wintergreen on my counter and I ain't lieing I think it's helped make my quit stronger.
I am trying to be careful as I don't want to trade a real can for a plastic fake one, however I think this could help me at times like deer camp whwn I'm around other chewers.
Other than this recent exploration of fake, my quit is stronger than ever. I've lost the feelings of depression for the time being, I've moved more on to trying not to eat so much. I think I traded my old habit time into snack time. I'm going to try to get back into the gym in the coming days.
I'm excited to be closing in on 40 days, my misfits are kickin ass and had post oak hit 60 the other day. Great stuff, I'm also happy to see our enrollment staying strong with many new quitters posting intros the last couple days!
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Brother you are a young rock star!
Appreciate your work on passing it forward. You have a great start and a great group. Congrats on 40.
I quit with you today.
You ever need anything send me a PM.
Rawls
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Brother you are a young rock star!
Appreciate your work on passing it forward. You have a great start and a great group. Congrats on 40.
I quit with you today.
You ever need anything send me a PM.
Rawls
keep goin man it will all be worth it
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Original Post (http://forum.killthecan.org/single/?p=8972555&t=10927055)
I tell you what, I haven't the aligjtest bit of empathy for these lack of pissfits that are beginning to walk away. I, like many before me, visited this site in our darkest hour and idolized being quit and made our minds up to make this part of our lives.
I challenge and pissfit to tell me how the fuck they learned enough in 30 to 45 days to allow them to stay quit for the remainder of their lives? It's quite simple, you haven't. Although we all go through spells of less time spent on this site, we also all find our restitution when we are having that cock sucker if a day where we want to cave..... I am not talking about a craving sort of day, I'm talking about the day where you look up as you ps for gas and the nic slur SCREAMS, "remember me"??? Those are the days I look at my brothers in May and know I sure as hell am not posting a day one.
No one said this would be easy when we signed up. What people did say was coming out the other side would make it all worth it. I haven't come out the other side yet, but im 40 fucking days vested and won't let silly arrogance try to convince me I'm better than the hand KTC gave me to pull me out of the cancer causing pool.
To my fellow misfits, to my fellow members of KTC, and to any quitter who joins me in quit to come, I toaste to you. I you piissfits who are dining and dashing, I'll see you soon I am sure, I just hope your lip is still connected when you ce back around to the good side of quit!
"Soap box now put back in closet"
You need to save this one. Good job brother, keep quitting on this path. Proud to walk with it you.
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Original Post (http://forum.killthecan.org/single/?p=8972555&t=10927055)I tell you what, I haven't the aligjtest bit of empathy for these lack of pissfits that are beginning to walk away. I, like many before me, visited this site in our darkest hour and idolized being quit and made our minds up to make this part of our lives.
I challenge and pissfit to tell me how the fuck they learned enough in 30 to 45 days to allow them to stay quit for the remainder of their lives? It's quite simple, you haven't. Although we all go through spells of less time spent on this site, we also all find our restitution when we are having that cock sucker if a day where we want to cave..... I am not talking about a craving sort of day, I'm talking about the day where you look up as you ps for gas and the nic slur SCREAMS, "remember me"??? Those are the days I look at my brothers in May and know I sure as hell am not posting a day one.
No one said this would be easy when we signed up. What people did say was coming out the other side would make it all worth it. I haven't come out the other side yet, but im 40 fucking days vested and won't let silly arrogance try to convince me I'm better than the hand KTC gave me to pull me out of the cancer causing pool.
To my fellow misfits, to my fellow members of KTC, and to any quitter who joins me in quit to come, I toaste to you. I you piissfits who are dining and dashing, I'll see you soon I am sure, I just hope your lip is still connected when you ce back around to the good side of quit!
"Soap box now put back in closet"
You need to save this one. Good job brother, keep quitting on this path. Proud to walk with it you.
Well said. Congrats on day 40. I'm right behind you at 29 days. There's no turning back now. I'm proud to quit with you today and each day after. Stay strong.
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Alright, so 56 days.... I gotta tell you I quit two addictions so far In 2015, I started with facebook and then tackled tobacco.... I'm happy to report both have improved my life dramatically this far.
I'll start with tobacco, back when I began this intro I never thought I would last. I read the term post and ghost and figured I would do the same and cave... Funny thing, as I read intro after intro and then followed them up with HOF speech after HOF speech, I began to interpret what the road signs were actually saying on quit boulevard instead of just passing by the yellow signs. Today in my downhill side of te 50s I stand a one day at a time quitter who is so much more knowledgeable about the addiction that controlled me. I can't yet say this is a turning point in my life but it sure feels like it.
Second was facebook.... I recently (January) became exhausted with facebook. The amount of time I looked at it, the countless te I hear friends and family reference it... People truly shape their lives around the lies people portray on facebook... I said fuck that shit and deactivated my page and I can honestly say I feel free again. No one asks me about things they saw about me online... People have to actually ask me what doing or did lately.... I don't get caught up in any recent gossip, I feel like I actually learn things conversion instead of asking about thigs I already learned Bout others on facebook..
KTC is sort of a way to rebuild our lives all while quitting nicotine... Love this site and love you fuckers who entertain me every day.
56 in, +1 tomorrow
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Alright, so 56 days.... I gotta tell you I quit two addictions so far In 2015, I started with facebook and then tackled tobacco.... I'm happy to report both have improved my life dramatically this far.
I'll start with tobacco, back when I began this intro I never thought I would last. I read the term post and ghost and figured I would do the same and cave... Funny thing, as I read intro after intro and then followed them up with HOF speech after HOF speech, I began to interpret what the road signs were actually saying on quit boulevard instead of just passing by the yellow signs. Today in my downhill side of te 50s I stand a one day at a time quitter who is so much more knowledgeable about the addiction that controlled me. I can't yet say this is a turning point in my life but it sure feels like it.
Second was facebook.... I recently (January) became exhausted with facebook. The amount of time I looked at it, the countless te I hear friends and family reference it... People truly shape their lives around the lies people portray on facebook... I said fuck that shit and deactivated my page and I can honestly say I feel free again. No one asks me about things they saw about me online... People have to actually ask me what doing or did lately.... I don't get caught up in any recent gossip, I feel like I actually learn things conversion instead of asking about thigs I already learned Bout others on facebook..
KTC is sort of a way to rebuild our lives all while quitting nicotine... Love this site and love you fuckers who entertain me every day.
56 in, +1 tomorrow
Yes sir! You are definitely getting this! Stay strong my friend I hit the craves and rage hard between 60-80. Don't think you will have any problems because I can tell you really want this! Damn proud to be quit with you today my friend! Anyone can dip but very few can defeat the nic bitch!
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Your still a rock star.
ODAAT makes for a soft pillow.
Quit On!
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Congrats on HOF..... Nice 100!
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Browsed upon this when I saw you were currently reading the page I was on. Just wanted to let you know it encourages me a lot to see you and everyone quit the way you did. Also to see your posts continue after you quit. Pretty good stuff. Looking forward to following your path to freedom!! Good luck man