KillTheCan.org Accountability Forum
Community => Introductions => Topic started by: bauer1824 on April 27, 2015, 08:57:00 PM
-
Packed my first lip of Skoal Citrus in sophomore year of college and spun like a top. Peer pressure started it, but lets face it...i was curious and no one packed that tin for me. As time went on I moved back and forth between Grizz Mint and Grizz Straight, switched to Stokers Straight for while and back to good 'ol Grizzly. My addiction went anywhere from a tin a week to a tin and a half per day. Muscled through the pain of dipping with cold sores in my mouth (dumb), dipped on the way home from a dentist cleaning, tossed in snus at work (work for a major corporation that has banned tobacco on all company property).
I quit once for 2.5 months, cold turkey, and picked it back up bc a couple buddies were gonna be in a town and they also dip. the time not dipping wasn't so bad...but i found it harder to walk away from the can again when i picked it back up.
For the past few weeks, my mom has been dealing a soccer ball sized mass in her abdomen that grew from nothing in just 6 weeks. After surgery (uterus, ovaries, appendix and a portion of the large intestines removed) she was diagnosed with Stage IV colon cancer today. I've felt guilty the past few weeks continuing to dip knowing full well what the diagnosis would be...but figured she was just as invincible as me and cancer wasn't going to get her.
I don't tell the story looking for sympathy, but only to give some insight to my mindset now. I told myself for the longest time that I wasn't going to be that percentage or statistic. Ignored that big 'ol warning on the front of the can. Can't happen to me. I realized today that I don't want to find out just how likely I am to be that statistic. I realized that i convinced myself for years that my gums were actually receding...and they'll grow back anyway when i quit "someday."
Well boys, todays that day. Ordered 10 cans of Grinds. Got a bucket of seeds and a few packs of gum. The hardest thing for me will be long car rides...that was always my vice on long hauls. I've done it before...and I'll do it again only one more time.
-Bauer
PS. if anyones tried Jake's Mint Chew, let me know how it is.
-
Packed my first lip of Skoal Citrus in sophomore year of college and spun like a top. Peer pressure started it, but lets face it...i was curious and no one packed that tin for me. As time went on I moved back and forth between Grizz Mint and Grizz Straight, switched to Stokers Straight for while and back to good 'ol Grizzly. My addiction went anywhere from a tin a week to a tin and a half per day. Muscled through the pain of dipping with cold sores in my mouth (dumb), dipped on the way home from a dentist cleaning, tossed in snus at work (work for a major corporation that has banned tobacco on all company property).
I quit once for 2.5 months, cold turkey, and picked it back up bc a couple buddies were gonna be in a town and they also dip. the time not dipping wasn't so bad...but i found it harder to walk away from the can again when i picked it back up.
For the past few weeks, my mom has been dealing a soccer ball sized mass in her abdomen that grew from nothing in just 6 weeks. After surgery (uterus, ovaries, appendix and a portion of the large intestines removed) she was diagnosed with Stage IV colon cancer today. I've felt guilty the past few weeks continuing to dip knowing full well what the diagnosis would be...but figured she was just as invincible as me and cancer wasn't going to get her.
I don't tell the story looking for sympathy, but only to give some insight to my mindset now. I told myself for the longest time that I wasn't going to be that percentage or statistic. Ignored that big 'ol warning on the front of the can. Can't happen to me. I realized today that I don't want to find out just how likely I am to be that statistic. I realized that i convinced myself for years that my gums were actually receding...and they'll grow back anyway when i quit "someday."
Well boys, todays that day. Ordered 10 cans of Grinds. Got a bucket of seeds and a few packs of gum. The hardest thing for me will be long car rides...that was always my vice on long hauls. I've done it before...and I'll do it again only one more time.
-Bauer
PS. if anyones tried Jake's Mint Chew, let me know how it is.
Bauer, I'm sorry to hear about your mother. Cancer is a nightmare. You came to the right place to quit. Here we quit through brotherhood and accountability. Get to know your fellow quitters here and post your promise not to use nicotine today on roll early, every damn day. Only you can do this, but it sure does help when you have others going through the same exact think, holding each other accountable. Get on over to the August 2015 Pre-HOF group and post your promise now. Congratulations on one of the best decisions of your life.
-
Packed my first lip of Skoal Citrus in sophomore year of college and spun like a top. Peer pressure started it, but lets face it...i was curious and no one packed that tin for me. As time went on I moved back and forth between Grizz Mint and Grizz Straight, switched to Stokers Straight for while and back to good 'ol Grizzly. My addiction went anywhere from a tin a week to a tin and a half per day. Muscled through the pain of dipping with cold sores in my mouth (dumb), dipped on the way home from a dentist cleaning, tossed in snus at work (work for a major corporation that has banned tobacco on all company property).
I quit once for 2.5 months, cold turkey, and picked it back up bc a couple buddies were gonna be in a town and they also dip. the time not dipping wasn't so bad...but i found it harder to walk away from the can again when i picked it back up.
For the past few weeks, my mom has been dealing a soccer ball sized mass in her abdomen that grew from nothing in just 6 weeks. After surgery (uterus, ovaries, appendix and a portion of the large intestines removed) she was diagnosed with Stage IV colon cancer today. I've felt guilty the past few weeks continuing to dip knowing full well what the diagnosis would be...but figured she was just as invincible as me and cancer wasn't going to get her.
I don't tell the story looking for sympathy, but only to give some insight to my mindset now. I told myself for the longest time that I wasn't going to be that percentage or statistic. Ignored that big 'ol warning on the front of the can. Can't happen to me. I realized today that I don't want to find out just how likely I am to be that statistic. I realized that i convinced myself for years that my gums were actually receding...and they'll grow back anyway when i quit "someday."
Well boys, todays that day. Ordered 10 cans of Grinds. Got a bucket of seeds and a few packs of gum. The hardest thing for me will be long car rides...that was always my vice on long hauls. I've done it before...and I'll do it again only one more time.
-Bauer
PS. if anyones tried Jake's Mint Chew, let me know how it is.
Bauer, I'm sorry to hear about your mother. Cancer is a nightmare. You came to the right place to quit. Here we quit through brotherhood and accountability. Get to know your fellow quitters here and post your promise not to use nicotine today on roll early, every damn day. Only you can do this, but it sure does help when you have others going through the same exact think, holding each other accountable. Get on over to the August 2015 Pre-HOF group and post your promise now. Congratulations on one of the best decisions of your life.
Bauer my friend, we pray here to and your mom will be on the prayer list. Get in here post roll and let's get you a badass quit going! I quit with you today!
-
Packed my first lip of Skoal Citrus in sophomore year of college and spun like a top. Peer pressure started it, but lets face it...i was curious and no one packed that tin for me. As time went on I moved back and forth between Grizz Mint and Grizz Straight, switched to Stokers Straight for while and back to good 'ol Grizzly. My addiction went anywhere from a tin a week to a tin and a half per day. Muscled through the pain of dipping with cold sores in my mouth (dumb), dipped on the way home from a dentist cleaning, tossed in snus at work (work for a major corporation that has banned tobacco on all company property).
I quit once for 2.5 months, cold turkey, and picked it back up bc a couple buddies were gonna be in a town and they also dip. the time not dipping wasn't so bad...but i found it harder to walk away from the can again when i picked it back up.
For the past few weeks, my mom has been dealing a soccer ball sized mass in her abdomen that grew from nothing in just 6 weeks. After surgery (uterus, ovaries, appendix and a portion of the large intestines removed) she was diagnosed with Stage IV colon cancer today. I've felt guilty the past few weeks continuing to dip knowing full well what the diagnosis would be...but figured she was just as invincible as me and cancer wasn't going to get her.
I don't tell the story looking for sympathy, but only to give some insight to my mindset now. I told myself for the longest time that I wasn't going to be that percentage or statistic. Ignored that big 'ol warning on the front of the can. Can't happen to me. I realized today that I don't want to find out just how likely I am to be that statistic. I realized that i convinced myself for years that my gums were actually receding...and they'll grow back anyway when i quit "someday."
Well boys, todays that day. Ordered 10 cans of Grinds. Got a bucket of seeds and a few packs of gum. The hardest thing for me will be long car rides...that was always my vice on long hauls. I've done it before...and I'll do it again only one more time.
-Bauer
PS. if anyones tried Jake's Mint Chew, let me know how it is.
Bauer, I'm sorry to hear about your mother. Cancer is a nightmare. You came to the right place to quit. Here we quit through brotherhood and accountability. Get to know your fellow quitters here and post your promise not to use nicotine today on roll early, every damn day. Only you can do this, but it sure does help when you have others going through the same exact think, holding each other accountable. Get on over to the August 2015 Pre-HOF group and post your promise now. Congratulations on one of the best decisions of your life.
Bauer my friend, we pray here to and your mom will be on the prayer list. Get in here post roll and let's get you a badass quit going! I quit with you today!
Bauer - Great to have you here and sorry about your mom. You are definitely in the right place. This site really helps and everybody knows what we are going through. I quit with you today. Remember - help is always a text message away. We can do this!
-
Welcome Bauer!
Besides posting roll, be sure to read some Words of Wisdom, though you sound ready to share some of your own. I'm terribly sorry to hear about your mother; I've yet to deal with something like that in my life, so I don't have any insight to offer you, only my brotherhood. We don't have to suffer like that someday. We have the power to choose life and health over death and disease, every damn day, one day at a time.
I quit with you today.
Robb
-
Sorry tobhear that about your mom, man. My thoughts are with you and your family. glad to see you posted roll, congrats on that decision. I can promise you one thing, you will never regret quitting.